The morning after the night before. Normally, when you have the guilt and trauma and embarrassment of waking up to the hideous memory of a one-night stand, there's still the evidence all around you - either a body in the bed or clothes on the carpet and stains on the sheets.

This time there's only the memory.

Oh, and a transcript... :-(

I'm going to add the transcript in a minute, because I'm being totally honest in this account. But I want to say some things first.

Okay, let's start with what I did: I performed sexual acts on screen for two people, one of whom is blackmailing me, the other someone I met for the first time yesterday, while buying sex toys. Until now I've only performed on cam for str8guy. Apart from the time I went on as juicygirl27 and did a headless routine for freezone. That doesn't count, because it was anonymous. And there was also the time with Janice, but that doesn't count either because it was purely done to get me out of a challenge with str8guy.

And, of course, I've flashed in real life - three times. Again, that doesn't count because it was following my blackmailer's orders.

Why do I sound like I'm trying to justify myself?

And why do I think I'm not doing it very convincingly?

But anyway, last night was different, in that I deliberately showed myself to someone who was a recognisable person. deril7 is just some anonymous wanker on the internet, but sheffieldsexshop is a real person, who I met yesterday, who knows who I am.

And that's different. That's why I'm uncomfortable about what happened.

I said I would be honest, so here goes: what I'm most uncomfortable about is that I think I enjoyed it. It's kind of hard to admit, and the more I think about it the less happy my memories become, but there it is...

Anyway, going to work now. Who knows what delights await me when str8guy gets started today. Here's last night's transcript...

[str8guy] Welcome back. Relieved that bladder?

[sheffieldsexshop] wb

[molly] ty. not peeing, just freshening up, if u know what i mean

[str8guy] Ah, yes indeed. And nicely freshened now, I trust?

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Splendid. Let us see then.

[str8guy] Molly's polly, if you please.

[str8guy] Sheffield, polly is the word Molly uses to describe her pussy. Quaint, isn't it?

[sheffieldsexshop] lol

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] its his word. ive never used it in my life :-p

[str8guy] A pretty word for a pretty pussy.

[str8guy] As you can see...

[str8guy] Isn't that delightful?

[sheffieldsexshop] wow

[sheffieldsexshop] its like christmas and birtday roled into one.

[str8guy] I don't suppose you expected anything like this would happen today when you woke up this morning, Sheffield?

[sheffieldsexshop] To right. wow. even when i logged in here tonite i didn't expect anything like this

[sheffieldsexshop] Molly, you are truely beatiful.

[str8guy] You haven't seen anything yet, my friend.

[molly] why thank u kind sir

[str8guy] Now the thing about Molly, Sheffield...

[str8guy] Just spread your lips, Molly, there's a girl

[str8guy] Wider

[str8guy] Good. good girl

[str8guy] The thing about Molly is that she isn't the most imaginative person in the world. She's coming along, of course, under my tutelage.

[str8guy] But not really imaginative.

[str8guy] Which means that she needs directing

[str8guy] Don't you little Molly Wolly?

[molly] hadnt thought so

[str8guy] So if you wwant her to do anything, you have to ask for it

[str8guy] Can't rely on her to think of it by herself

[str8guy] Really, Molly?

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] he's very rood isnt he? is he always like this

[molly] my imagination was good when i planned janice.

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] humour him, he's a cretin

[str8guy] Lie back and spread your legs, Molly

[str8guy] Wider. Show me little bald polly

[str8guy] Actually, it's not that bald any more is it?

[str8guy] We'll have to do something about that this week

[str8guy] Yes, I'll grant you, your tie-up with Janice was ingenious. As I say, you're learning

[str8guy] My point, Sheffield, is this: don't be shy. Tell us what you want her to do.

[str8guy] And she'll do it

[sheffieldsexshop] okay

[str8guy] Won't you Molly

[str8guy] Play with yourself now. Stroke those lips for us both

[str8guy] Sheffield has never seen you do that

[str8guy] Ah nice

[str8guy] So, Sheffield, the floor is yours

[sheffieldsexshop] what?

[str8guy] Tell Molly what you want her to do

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] You know what toys she has, after all...

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] you shure you dont mind?

[sheffieldsexshop] thinking

[private message from str8guy to molly] I don't think thinking comes easily to this boy, Molly...

[str8guy] Dildos, vibrators, whips, clamps. Whatever you desire

[str8guy] Wherever you desire

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] go for it. its okay. hes just insulted you in a pm btw

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] called you stupid

[sheffieldsexshop] okay, I'd like to see the small didlo please

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] pompouse twat

[str8guy] A decision. Molly, if you please...

[str8guy] There. That's nice, isn't it?

[str8guy] Inside you now, Molly

[str8guy] Ah, perfect. Made to measure

[str8guy] Bet this is the first time you've seen one of your customers using their purchases, Sheffield

[sheffieldsexshop] too right m8

[str8guy] And is it living up to expectations?

[sheffieldsexshop] too right

[private message from str8guy to molly] a man of few words, isn't he, Molly? Almost seems a waste to share your luscious body with suck an oick.

[str8guy] There was a butt plug on the list, too, I believe?

[private message from molly to str8guy] we cant all have your intellect, i suppose

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] he's just called you an oick now

[sheffieldsexshop] Two of them

[str8guy] Two?

[sheffieldsexshop] one big, one large

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] he's a complete shit. how do you put up with it?

[str8guy] You seem very keen on those, Sheffield. You replied very promptly to that particular question.

[sheffieldsexshop] just saying

[str8guy] Are they something you want to see? In action?

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] i know hes a shit. i know i'm better than him. that's enough for me

[sheffieldsexshop] well

[str8guy] Just say it man

[sheffieldsexshop] yes

[str8guy] Yes what?

[sheffieldsexshop] yes to the butt plug

[str8guy] What about it? What do you want to do with it?

[molly] ffs

[str8guy] Aha, Molly has beaten you to it, Sheffield...

[str8guy] ooh Molly,

[str8guy] Molly, Molly, Molly

[str8guy] What are you doing with that?

[str8guy] Press. Hard

[str8guy] Oh yes

[str8guy] And in it goes

[str8guy] Turn round. Let me see

[str8guy] God, beautiful. What do you say Sheffield

[sheffieldsexshop] Beatiful.

[str8guy] Thought you'd say that

[str8guy] How does it feel, Molly

[molly] Full

[str8guy] And nice?

[molly] Full

[str8guy] And nice? Nice having your new friend watching you put a plug up your arse?

[str8guy] Is that nice?

[molly] yes, it's lovely, thanks

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] it really is beatiful to watch. hope u dont mind me saying

[str8guy] keep fucking your polly, Molly.

[str8guy] No, stay like that. I love the rear view

[str8guy] Bend over. stick your bum out

[str8guy] Let us see what you're doing

[sheffieldsexshop] lovely molly

[str8guy] Pull the plug out

[str8guy] and in again

[str8guy] And out again

[str8guy] And in again

[str8guy] Is that good Molly

[molly] it's fucking sore, m8

[str8guy] Just concentrate on what you're doing Molly

[str8guy] I want that arse nicely relaxed

[str8guy] For what comes next

[str8guy] You did provide two dildos, didn't you, Sheffield

[sheffieldsexshop] Yes

[str8guy] And one is large?

[sheffieldsexshop] Yes

[str8guy] Molly...

[str8guy] Turn round Molly, look at the screen

[sheffieldsexshop] she's concentrating lol

[str8guy] She certainly is

[str8guy] And isn't that backside glorious?

[str8guy] Doesn't it make you want to slide your cock inside it?

[str8guy] And ram it home?

[sheffieldsexshop] lol

[str8guy] MOLLY!!

[sheffieldsexshop] she has a beatiful pussy too

[str8guy] She does. Especially when it's bald. Too hairy at present.

[sheffieldsexshop] Can't see any hair on it

[str8guy] Oh yes, some unfortunate stubble. Won't do at all

[molly] huh?

[str8guy] There you are. You were miles away, my dear. Having fun, were we?

[molly] oh yeah, just great

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] thank you. for wot u said bout my pussy :-)

[str8guy] Are you ready for the big dildo?

[molly] not sure

[str8guy] I think you are. You've had a good ten minutes with that little plug?

[molly] not that long

[molly] hang on, what'dyou mean?

[molly] i'm not putting it there, not the big one. no way

[str8guy] I think you'll find it is ten minutes, Molly. Time flies when you're having fun...

[str8guy] Get it, Molly

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] just saying the troth.

[str8guy] Bloody hell, it is big, isn't it?

[str8guy] Did you choose the biggest in the shop, Sheffield?

[str8guy] Well done, I say...

[sheffieldsexshop] Thats just the size they come in

[molly] it wont fit m8

[str8guy] hmm, perhaps not. Not yet anyway. Swap over with the small one, then. Big one for polly, small one behind...

[str8guy] You have some lubricant? So use it

[str8guy] That's it

[str8guy] Hold it steady

[str8guy] That's it

[str8guy] Now lower yourself

[str8guy] Careful

[molly] fuck. no possible

[sheffieldsexshop] maybe it's too big

[str8guy] Will you give her a refund if she returns it tomorrow?

[sheffieldsexshop] dunno

[str8guy] Just joking, Sheffield.

[str8guy] Come on Molly, try, it isn't that much bigger than the butt plug

[str8guy] You're making a meal out of it

[str8guy] Oh that's it, it slipped in didn't it?

[str8guy] Just hold it there a moment. Turn it, gently

[str8guy] And push

[str8guy] and push

[str8guy] harder, Molly

[str8guy] Turn round now

[str8guy] Spread your cheeks

[str8guy] show me

[str8guy] And push.

[str8guy] Push it in

[str8guy] All the way

[str8guy] That's it

[sheffieldsexshop] wow

[str8guy] Wow indeed, Sheffield. Couldn't have put it better myself.

[str8guy] There. all done. That was easy, wasn't it Molly?

[molly] yeah, piece of cake m8

[str8guy] Now fuck your arse with it

[str8guy] Let Sheffield see how filthy you can be

[str8guy] Let him see what a slut you really are, Molly

[str8guy] Fruck your arse for him

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] i don't think that, honest. u r not a slut

[str8guy] All the way in, and then out again

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] he's just winding me up, relax

[str8guy] in and out

[str8guy] in and out

[private message from str8guy to molly] were you at the keyboard then? Did you just PM him?

[molly] okay, can't type or read screen any more, turning round ready for business.

[str8guy] Oh Molly, what a show.

[str8guy] You are a little slut aren't you? Showing yourself like that to someone you only met today.

[sheffieldsexshop] She isn't a slut. She's very talented.

[str8guy] LOL, just so, well said, my friend. Well said.

[str8guy] What a fun evening this has turned out to be. Couldn't have been better.

[str8guy] Quite perfect.

[str8guy] Molly, that is such an arousing sight

[str8guy] Such a huge, black dildo. Disappearing up your arse

[str8guy] Fucking you hard, hard, hard

[str8guy] Such a picture of concentration. She's happy in her work is Molly

[str8guy] Stunning, isn't it?

[sheffieldsexshop] i'm loving it

[str8guy] The way her little polly peeps through at you

[str8guy] The way it slides apart to let that huge dildo in

[str8guy] Thrusting inside her

[str8guy] Deeper and deeper

[str8guy] While its little brother works on her arse

[str8guy] Dual action, total delight

[sheffieldsexshop] stunning.. beatiful

[str8guy] I think it's the arch of her back which is most erotic. Would you agree Sheffield?

[sheffieldsexshop] deffinitley

[str8guy] or maybe the right leg, the way it is cocked at an oblique angle

[str8guy] it's the prfection of the body which makes the action so arousing.

[str8guy] the conjunction of the lewd and the beautiful. What do you say, Sheffield

[sheffieldsexshop] beatiful.. lewd.. lovely.. sexy..

[str8guy] Oh Molly, the things you're doing to me.

[str8guy] Keep spearing those beauties inside you.

[str8guy] Nice and deep, nice and deep

[str8guy] Filling you

[str8guy] exciting you

[str8guy] enthralling you

[str8guy] Making you come

[sheffieldsexshop] I think she will soon

[str8guy] I think you're right, Sheffield. Look at the way her leg is tensing. Always a sign

[str8guy] I know from experience. I've watched Molly do this dozens of times

[str8guy] She's flattened against the chair. Given over to the sensations in her polly and arse.

[str8guy] That's always a sign.

[str8guy] I wish I could see her face. Her climax shows on her face so wonderfully

[str8guy] a little flush, and the eyes glaze over, she breathes heavily through her nose

[str8guy] I know all the signs

[str8guy] And I see them now

[str8guy] Yes, the speed is increasing

[str8guy] There, look

[str8guy] hands working faster and faster

[str8guy] especially on polly. Watch her slide that dildo against her clit. You see the angle she works it at?

[str8guy] Oh yes, unmistakable

[str8guy] she's coming

[str8guy] Molly's about to come for you Sheffield

[str8guy] watch and enjoy

[sheffieldsexshop] go molly go

[str8guy] Go Molly, go!

[str8guy] Go Molly go!

[sheffieldsexshop] go molly go

[str8guy] there, that's it, that's the moment

[str8guy] see

[str8guy] she's shaking all over

[sheffieldsexshop] god yes

[sheffieldsexshop] beatiful

[str8guy] Beautiful it certainly is. Magnificent.

[str8guy] And it goes on for so long. She's a lucky girl.

[str8guy] Finally she slows down

[str8guy] slows

[str8guy] slows

[str8guy] to a stop

[str8guy] And flops against the chair. Show's over Sheffield

[str8guy] But what a show, huh?

[str8guy] Welcome back, Molly, you look very flushed

[molly] hot work

[str8guy] But someone has to do it

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] that was awesome. thank u thank u thank u

[str8guy] Did you come

[molly] think u know i did

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] thank u very much. glad u liked it

[str8guy] Just like to hear it from your mouth

[str8guy] As it were

[molly] yes m8, i came like a train. happy?

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] will u be on here again?

[str8guy] Can I see some of your juices?

[str8guy] You know how they turn me on

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] dunno. depends on him

[str8guy] Oh yes, yes, lovely

[str8guy] all sticky. Beautiful trails of love juice

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] okay i understand

[molly] i need to get ready for bed now folks. its late

[molly] work tomoz

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] thanks for letting me see this time, anyway. i apresiate it.

[str8guy] Yes, it is bedtime. I expect you'll be having some interesting challenges tomorrow, Molly

[str8guy] best get some rest

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] no, it was fun. don't get me wrong. but it really is up to him

[sheffieldsexshop] Thank you very much molly. i loved it

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] okay

[str8guy] Say goodnight to Sheffield, Molly. Maybe one day you'll go back to the sex shop and meet him again.

[str8guy] Sheffield, I hope you enjoyed your little show

[private message from molly to sheffieldsexshop] email me some time. mollyhadley@emailaccount.com

[sheffieldsexshop] i sure did. beatiful.

[str8guy] Goodbye then

[private message from sheffieldsexshop to molly] thank you. *kiss*

[sheffieldsexshop] Bye. bye Molly

[sheffieldsexshop has quit]

[str8guy] So did you enjoy your PMs with the Brain of Britain, Molly?

[molly] dunno what you're talking about. i didn't.

[str8guy] We'll talk about this tomorrow, Molly.

[molly] i'm sure we willl...

[str8guy has quit]

[molly] christ, my arse is sore.

[molly] th...th...th...that's all folks...

[molly] fuck