Okay, so I didn't go the whole hog. I didn't fuck the bloke. I only gave him a blow job because I felt guilty about leading him on and getting his expectations up. Like I say, I'm a guilt whore.

Ordinarily, I'd just chalk it down to experience and not worry about it. But now I've got to face str8guy. Censorious, judgemental fucking str8guy, who is going to use this to tacitly criticise me again, call me a slut, use it against me like he always does. "We'll see, we'll see," he said last time we spoke, and fuck it, he's been proved right. He's going to be gloating fit to burst over this, isn't he? Makes you want to puke.

Just phoned Tess. Get this! Her evening was a wash-out, too. Bastard couldn't get it up because he'd had too much to drink, and his flat was so filthy Tess was scared to even sit down, for fear of what she might come into contact with. So all my efforts - my wank and blow job - were a waste of fucking time anyway. I was only supposed to be helping her out, and she ended up getting less than I did.

Hmm. Suppose I may as well go and face Mr Gloat....

[molly] morning

[str8guy] Hello Molly. Didn't expect to see you this early.

[molly] oh?

[str8guy] Thought you'd still be nursing a hangover after a night of debauchery. That is, if you'd even made it home yet.

[molly] no hangover, no debauchery.

[str8guy] Really? You do surprise me.

[str8guy] Amaze me, in fact

[str8guy] Tell me all about it.

[str8guy] While undressing. I have a Sunday morning woody which you'll need to help me with.

[molly] really? lets see

[str8guy] Really, Molly. I'm not falling for that one again. I remember what you did the last time.

[molly] no honest, i won't put the pics on a website again. got into enought trouble for that before. just wanna see

[str8guy] Very well, since you ask so nicely.

[str8guy] And now, if you please, strip and tell me your story.

And so I related the tale of the previous evening - up to but excluding the blow job on the settee - while stripping naked and watching the effects of my routine on his cock. I wasn't sure why I asked to see him on cam. I think I was just hoping to distract him, get his mind on other things so he wouldn't probe me too much about last night.

Fat chance.

[str8guy] So you're telling me nothing happened last night?

[molly] correct

[str8guy] You took a young man home with you, and then did nothing.

[molly] correct

[str8guy] You just talked, did you?

[molly] we discovered we had some mutual interests

[str8guy] Such as?

[str8guy] ...

[molly] history, politics

[str8guy] I didn't know you were interested in history and politics, Molly.

[molly] theres a lot u don't know about me

[str8guy] Sadly for you, I'm not sure that's true, Molly.

[str8guy] But anyway, let's be clear, you didn't fuck the guy last night

[str8guy] After I'd told you you should

[str8guy] On Friday night when I told you not to, you did. And last night when I told you to do it, you didn't.

[str8guy] Molly...

God, he's a cunning bastard! He's got me running rings round myself now. Whatever I say, I'm damned. Either I did fuck someone last night, which proves his point that I'm some sort of slut, or I didn't, which means I've failed his challenge for the second night running. Whichever way I argue this, I lose.

[molly] it just didn't work out that way.

[molly] u cant force these things.

[str8guy] Well, you can, of course. If you choose to. Squeeze your nipples, Molly.

[str8guy] And show me in close-up

[str8guy] I love the sight of your nipples

[str8guy] You can see what it does to me

[molly] big boy...

[str8guy] It is rather large, I have to admit.

[str8guy] And you saw nothing comparable last night?

[molly] nothing compares 2 u m8

[str8guy] Mmm, was that facetiousness or evasion?

[molly] come again?

[str8guy] "Come again." Is that a question you ask often?

[str8guy] last night, for example?

[molly] i did not have sexual intercourse last night

[str8guy] Oh no? No sexual intercourse?

[molly] no

[str8guy] So there was no coming last night? Again or otherwise?

[molly] i've already told u

[str8guy] Not exactly.

[molly] uyes exactly.

[str8guy] Sounds a bit like the Clinton defence to me.

[molly] huh?

[str8guy] I did not have sexual relations with that woman.

[molly] huh?

[str8guy] Molly! And you interested in history and politics...

[str8guy] Bill Clinton and Monica Lewinsky.

[molly] yeah yeah, i know about them

[str8guy] Bill's defence - I did not have sexual relations with that woman.

[molly] yes

[str8guy] On further cross examination, it emerged he did not consider non-penetrative sex to be sexual relations.

[str8guy] So the oral sex, and the cigar, didn't count...

[str8guy] I wonder...

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] Have you used the Clinton defence, Molly?

[str8guy] Have you?

[str8guy] You may not have had intercourse last night. But did anything else happen?

[str8guy] Which may or may not be construed as sexual relations?

[str8guy] I think it did.

[str8guy] Indeed I do, indeed I do.

[str8guy] Your face says it all.

[str8guy] tell me what it was

[str8guy] Tell me

[str8guy] Tell me, Molly. You can't deny it. It's written all over you.

[molly] a blowjob

[str8guy] You gave him a blowjob?

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Tell me about it.

[str8guy] My cock is all hard at the thought of it.

[str8guy] as you can see

[str8guy] tell me Molly.

So I owned up. I told him everything. All the while he wanked, and it was strange watching one cock going through the motions of coming while I described how I did just that to another one.

Jesus, did he gloat. Insufferable bastard, even with a hard-on, even about to cum, he couldn't stop gloating...

How did this happen? I ended up losing every which way. I showed myself up to be the slut he predicted I would, by giving a blow job to a stranger. I lost the dare, first because I denied doing anything, and then because I didn't go the whole way anyway. I'm now in the weird position of actually succeeding but feeling like a failure. I set out last night not to have sex so I could prove him wrong. I did that - just - and yet, partly because of the way he wormed the truth out of me, I feel like I've failed everything miserably.

Talk about 'damned if you do, damned if you don't'...

I talked str8 to a climax, describing how I would slide his huge cock into my mouth and suck him and wank him, how I would swallow up all his precious come. All the while I felt like shit, like a complete failure. I wasn't sure if I was a slut who wasn't very good at sluttishness, or a saint who couldn't keep on the right side of virtuousness. Or just a silly camgirl who can't keep her nose out of trouble.

And that sums it up. What the hell am I? A wannabe siren who can't cut it, or a desperate ingenue playing out of her depth? No wonder he can run rings round me.

[str8guy] Mmmm, Molly, thank you my dear.

[str8guy] You can see my cock is still quivering.

[str8guy] A very nice Sunday morning session. Such a civilised thing to do, isn't it?

[str8guy] Being talked and coaxed to climax by a naked woman with a filthy mind and no inhibitions.

[str8guy] Because you haven't any inhibitions, really, have you Molly?

[str8guy] Not any more.

[molly] i guess not

[str8guy] You'll do mostly anything now, won't you?

[molly] not necessarily, i wouldn't go that far

[str8guy] Mmm, you said something similar yesterday though. And look what you did.

[str8guy] Am I not right?

[str8guy] Did you not say you would only fuck a stranger if you fancied him?

[molly] aha, and i didn't fuck him last night. :-p

[str8guy] Semantics, Molly. Fucking, a blowjob, it's all sex. And you did it to a stranger

[str8guy] To a stranger you admit you didn't even fancy.

[str8guy] Correct?

[str8guy] Correct. Okay Molly, here's the deal.

[str8guy] You've reneged on your challenges in the last two days, to varying degrees.

[str8guy] I'm not happy about that

[str8guy] But I'll let it go

[molly] thank u

[str8guy] But

[molly] oh yeah, here it comes...

[str8guy] Today's challenge:

[str8guy] I want you to go out again tonight. Find a stranger. And fuck him.

[str8guy] Really fuck him this time. No wimping out, no giving token blow jobs.

[str8guy] The full works, Molly.

[str8guy] Okay?

[molly] maybe

[str8guy] I'll take that as a yes.

[str8guy] But there's more

[str8guy] You've proved yourself unreliable in the last couple of days, Molly.

[str8guy] So I will need proof.

[str8guy] I want you to fuck someone on cam.

[str8guy] I want to see you do it.

[str8guy] Do you understand Molly?

[str8guy] Do you understand what I'm asking?

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Excellent. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to clean myself up a bit.

[str8guy] Be watching you later, Molly dear. About ten o'clock would be good for me.

[str8guy] kiss kiss

[str8guy has quit]

[molly] fucked if i do, fucked if i don't

[molly] literally, absolutely literally...

[molly] oh molly