I wish I could decide whether I was being weak or adventurous. When I think about this rationally, I think "hell's teeth, woman, what are you doing?" But then I think "no, hold on, I'm in control here. I'm playing a game, no more than that."

So which is it?

On Thursday night, I didn't feel any shame or fear. I enjoyed it. I need to get that in the open - it's true, I enjoyed it. I was performing, and someone was enjoying watching me. I was turning him on, and that is a turn-on in itself. But it wasn't the same next day at work - fear set in again, a sense of alarm that someone in my office is manipulating me in this way. And then yesterday, after sending the picture of the woman's arse, and then the flash of my panties, I felt cheap.

I don't know what it is. When I'm sat in front of my screen, and it's just the two of us, I seem to be able to forget the seedier side of all this. Well, let's see what he has to say for himself tonight.

[medusa has entered]

[str8guy] Evening, Molly dear

[medusa] evening how r u

[str8guy] Excellent, thank you.

[medusa] not in a huff with me then

[str8guy] Why would I be?

[medusa] for telling you to fuck off yesterday

[str8guy] Oh, I took that in the spirit I was sure it was meant.

[medusa] uh huh

[str8guy] And I greatly enjoyed your pictures anyway. How could I be annoyed after receiving such a pretty picture of your panties.

[str8guy] Were you seen, do you think?

[medusa] hope not

[str8guy] Oh, on the contrary. Think how exciting it would have been to have been spotted.

[str8guy] By the woman in your picture, perhaps.

[str8guy] Think what she would have thought? What might she have done? Come for a closer look? Smiled conspiratorially...

[medusa] called the police...

[str8guy] Perhaps she would have come and sat beside you. Stroked your bare thigh

[str8guy] Is it bare now, by the way?

[str8guy] Rested her hand on your leg, stroking your skin

[str8guy] Sliding towards your

[str8guy] Oh thank you, nice and bare, and very beautiful

[str8guy] sliding towards your panties

[str8guy] She would bend over and kiss you

[str8guy] and as she did she would place her hand delicately over your pussy, pressing slightly

[str8guy] Her fingers stretched against your lips

[medusa] and security would come and haul us away. Lewd and lascivious acts in a public palce or some such.

[str8guy] Molly, where's your sense of romance?

[medusa] romance??? where was the romance in that little scenario? not even an introductory greeting, just wham bam, hand straight on to my pussy.

[str8guy] Perhaps a little peremptory. And improbable. Just trying to set the tone. Could you strip naked please.

[medusa] and that's not peremptory either, i dont suppose?

[str8guy] Well, maybe a touch, but you've got me all hard, Molly.

[medusa] i have huh? lets see then

[str8guy] You want to see?

[medusa] yep, fire up your cam mystery man. let me see this legendary solid dick

[str8guy] Very well, since you ask so nicely. And meanwhile, you might complete your undressing?

[medusa] yeah yeah i heard u

[str8guy] oh Molly, your beauty never ceases to amaze me. Do a twirl

[str8guy] and turn round, bottom view

[str8guy] My cam is on, by the way

[str8guy] oh gorgeous. Gorgeous Molly

[medusa] hmm, close-up of a dick. what more could a girl ask for on a sunday night? apart from a view of the face is suppose. or some other distinguishing feature

[str8guy] My cock isn't distinguished, is that what you're telling me

[medusa] well its big enough thats for sure. but doesn't help me much in discovering who its owner is. not unless i order a nakd identity parade at work

[medusa] which is actually a fun thought

[medusa] dyou think mccabe would go for it

[medusa] or are you mccabe???

[str8guy] Questions, questions, and none of them with an answer, Molly.

[str8guy] Do you mind if I stroke myself as I watch you?

[medusa] kind of expected u would

[medusa] and what would u like me to do for you tonite

[str8guy] Well, now that you ask, I do have something for you to do

[medusa] ?

[str8guy] I've mentioned before about your hair. Pubic hair, I mean

[medusa] uh huh

[str8guy] There's too much of it

[medusa] there's hardly any of it. trimmed neater than a bowling green, this is

[str8guy] Perhaps what I mean is - there is some. Period. I want it off.

[str8guy] All of it.

[medusa] u want me to shave my pubes?

[medusa] now?

[str8guy] Yes please

[str8guy] on cam?

[str8guy] It will do for now. I want you to get a full waxing in due course, but this will do for a first step.

[str8guy] Go and get some warm water and a towel and a razor, Molly.

I tell you what, sometimes I doubt my sanity. Not only was I prepared to do this, I was actually excited by the prospect. I did as he asked - went to the bathroom and collected up a towel and a basin of warm water and my razor. Fortunately it was a new one so the blade would be nice and sharp. As I set it on the floor in front of the cam I was aware of a huge sense of excitement. I don't know why, exactly. I think it's because it's such a private act. In itself, it isn't erotic, or shouldn't be - it's just a piece of grooming normally done alone. But doing it in front of him transformed the act, made it something more than it was, something sensual.

I slowly began to shave, hoping the tremble in my hands didn't manifest itself at an unfortunate moment.

[str8guy] Molly, you don't know what a wonderful sight that is.

[str8guy] How sexy you look, shaving yourself for me

[str8guy] Just for me. That's so sweet, so wonderful of you.

[str8guy] And yoou look so seductive while you're doing it. Such fierce concentration

[str8guy] AH! I can tell from the look you gave just then what you're thinking: too right I'm concentrating...

[str8guy] LOL And you have such a wicked smile, my dear Molly.

[str8guy] It's enchanting, seeing your beautiful little slit disappear under all that foam and watching it re-emerge

[str8guy] Through your careful handiwork.

[str8guy] And think how perfect it will be when you've finished.

[str8guy] My own, beautiful haven, carefully prepared, lovingly tended.

[str8guy] There. Have you done?

[str8guy] It looks magical. You're all pink, my dear, and quite heavenly.

[str8guy] Do you have anything silk?

[medusa] a scarf. my mum bought me it. i hate it

[str8guy] fetch it. Let me see you stroke it across your pussy, see how easily it glides

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] ...

[medusa] patience!! had to find it. bottom of wardrobe.

[str8guy] Close up please

[str8guy] oh god yes. That's a close-up

[str8guy] And stunning. Drape the sca

[str8guy] yes, just like that

[str8guy] oh yes, yes

[str8guy] Are you wet, Molly

[medusa] damp rather than wet

[str8guy] Show me

[str8guy] Lovely. You look even pinker and more ravishing now that you're a little bald thing

[str8guy] Play with yourself

[str8guy] Play with your bald pussy, Molly

[str8guy] And watch my cam

[str8guy] Do you see it

[medusa] sure do. still a big boy arent u

[str8guy] Imagine it inside you Molly. Filling your cunt, stretching you

[str8guy] Imagine it hot and throbbing, probing at your lips, pushing inside, all the way, all the way up you.

[str8guy] would you like that molly?

[str8guy] would that be good

[str8guy]...

[str8guy] molly

[medusa] yes

[medusa] it would be good to hve you inside me

[medusa] to have you fuck me

[medusa] fuck me hard

[str8guy] oh yes molly, I'll fuck you

[medusa] fuck me with your long, thick cock, all hard and hot insdie me

[str8guy] I'll fuck you like you've never been fucked. Long and beautiful, lingering

[medusa] pressing inside me. deep inside me, hard and hot

[str8guy] And I'll kiss your breasts, lick your arse, explore every inch of your body

[str8guy] sumptuous body

[str8guy] vision of beauty

[str8guy] molly

[medusa] aahhh

[medusa] sorry, got carried away

[str8guy] Never apologise for presenting me with such a picture of perfection.

[str8guy] close up molly. Let me see your clit

[str8guy] oh yes

[str8guy] oh god

[str8guy] it's so hard Molly. And pink and wet

[str8guy] and you stroke so gently. so lovingly

[str8guy] show me your juice Molly

[str8guy] I'm going to come

[str8guy] show me

[str8guy] Oh yes, yes

[str8guy] in your mouth, lick it

[str8guy] watch my cam

[str8guy] coming

[str8guy] ohhhh

[str8guy] molly.................

[str8guy] Molly, don't rush off this time

[medusa] okay

[str8guy] did you come?

[medusa] no

[str8guy] Please carry on, I want to watch. I want to see you come

And I did. And he stayed. It took about quarter of an hour and I stared into the cam - into his eyes - the whole time. I was glad of the towel by the time I'd finished. He talked and talked the whole time. It's amazing how someone can talk so much and reveal so little. Absolutely nothing, to be precise.

He sure knows a lot of dirty words though 3; ;-)

Off to bed now. Hmm, I wonder how I'll feel about this when I get to the office in the morning...