Jeez, my emotions are swinging up and down like a character from One flew over the cuckoo's nest. Elation yesterday, dismay today. Logged on to my email tonight:

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Over quota! How can she be over quota on Yahoo, for fuck's sake. It has 100Mb of space. How many emails can one person get, even if she is the best fuck on the planet?

:-( I'm totally distraught about it. I know, I know, I know. I can't behave like a kid mooning over a holiday romance. I knew she would be going back to Serbia in two months time and I'd never see her again after that. I knew that. But I hoped I'd get a chance to see her again before she goes. Just once. Just one more chance to see that face, touch that body, hear that voice. That was all I wanted.

And all I had was an email address. Such a fragile connection, such a frail way to keep in touch, and now it's smashed already. One day later and I've lost her forever. I feel like sitting down and crying myself into oblivion. Pathetic - teenage angst... Grow up, Molly...

Aahhh. Okay....

And now it's time for the wrath of str8guy. I did a quick show for him in the office today, a little polly flash to keep him happy, but he's still got the hump with me because of Sunday, and because I went further than he expected yesterday. He doesn't like it when he's not controlling me. On Sunday I was awol, and yesterday I was making my own rules. Result = one unhappy str8guy. Result = one tormented Molly 3;

Hey ho, off we go. Think I'll get myself naked from the start. With the nipple clamps. That'll shut him up.

[molly] all on my own.

[molly] where are all the freaks today?

[molly] any witless morons out there?

[molly] naked woman here, awaiting abuse...

[molly] look, i'm playing with my titties

[molly] wanna see my cunt, little pervert?

[molly] ho hum...

[molly] ...

[molly] ...

[str8guy has entered]

[molly] evening

[str8guy] Good evening, Molly. My word, you're precocious tonight.

[molly] started without you.

[molly] youve missed the best bits already m8

[str8guy] What a sight to log on to. My favourite little breasts, already nicely clamped for me.

[str8guy] Splendid. Very nice indeed.

[str8guy] I see I'm training you very well, Molly.

[molly] i'm only doing this because i chose to do it m8

[str8guy] Precisely. As I say, I'm training you well.

[str8guy] You've gone quiet

[molly] Thinking

[str8guy] Dangerous thing to do, Molly. Just tweak your nipples. Pull your clamps. That's a much better activity

[molly] what, for a silly little thing like me

[str8guy] Precisely.

[str8guy] Don't frown like that, Molly. It's spoils your pretty features.

[str8guy] I love to watch that lovely face as you pull on your little titties for me.

[str8guy] Smile

[str8guy] That's it.

[str8guy] Pull hard

[str8guy] Oh, what a grimace, did that hurt?

[str8guy] LOL. Well done, little Molly.

[str8guy] So you had some fun yesterday, then?

[str8guy] On the train

[molly] it was ok

[str8guy] More than okay, from the pictures you sent me. A quite blatant show.

[str8guy] Sitting with your legs wide open, polly on display.

[str8guy] And your bra lifted up to show off your titties.

[str8guy] Shameless, aren't you?

[molly] guess i must be

[str8guy] Was it fun?

[molly] it was ok. something i had to do, that's all

[str8guy] Hmm, Molly, I think you're fibbing a touch.

[str8guy] Hiding the true extent of your enjoyment.

[str8guy] Just a little?

[molly] not really no

[str8guy] I wonder. Why did you give the camera to the man then?

[str8guy] I never asked you to do that.

[str8guy] All I asked was for you to flash.

[str8guy] You took it to a whole new level, didn't you?

[str8guy] Got him involved. A complete stranger. Asked him to take a photo of you sprawled naked.

[str8guy] And no-one asked you to do that, did they Molly?

[str8guy] I never asked you to do that, did I?

[molly] no

[str8guy] Indeed. SO why do it, I wonder.

[str8guy] Could it be little Molyl is getting more out of this than she cares to admit?

[str8guy] the little Molly who was sitting waiting for me, naked and clamped tonight.

[str8guy] Again, unasked for...

[str8guy] What do you think?

[str8guy] You can take your clamps off now Molly. They must be hurting.

[molly] tx

[str8guy] And now play with polly. I presume you're naked below?

[str8guy] Ah, yes you are. Again, good initiative Molly. My well trained Molly

[str8guy] Are you going to play with polly now, Molly?

[str8guy] ?

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Tell me. Tell me what you're going to do.

[molly] i'm going to play with polly. i'm goint to slide my fingers up and down my lips, make myself wet

[molly] slide my fingers inside

[molly] start to wank myself

[molly] play with my clit

[molly] make myself cum

[molly] is that what u want?

[str8guy] No, is that what you want, Molly?

[str8guy] After all, you're the girl with the initiative these days.

[str8guy] You're leading me, these days.

[str8guy] Tell me, what do YOU want to do.

[molly] a bar of chocolate would be quite nice

[str8guy] LOL, maybe later. A Mars Bar, perhaps. It has a fine history in matters sexual.

[molly] it does?

[str8guy] Marianne Faithfull, my dear.

[molly] who?

[str8guy] Oh dear, never mind, just play Molly. Just play for me.

[str8guy] Nice

[str8guy] Clever Molly.

[str8guy] Dirty Molly, flashing on trains

[str8guy] Asking dirty old men to take pictures of her

[molly] he wasnt dirty. or old

[str8guy] But he took pictures of you.

[str8guy] How do you know he didn't save them for himself?

[molly] he did. i told him to.

[str8guy] You told him to!

[str8guy] What, he sent the pics to his own phone as well as mine?

[molly] yup

[str8guy] My my, Molly, you've come a long way...

[str8guy] What happened to the shy girl who had to be cajoled for hours just to show her little titties on a web chatroom six weeks ago?

[str8guy] Seems such a long time ago.

[molly] sure does m8

[str8guy] Use one of your dildos, my dear.

[str8guy] the little one, that will do.

[str8guy] So you're happy to let anyone see you now, really, aren'' you Molly?

[str8guy] You've flashed in public. Now you even get into discussion with strangers. Invite them to take pictures of you for their own collections.

[str8guy] What do you think he did with those pictures Molly?

[str8guy] Last night. When he got home.

[str8guy] He'd be wanking over you, wouldn't he?

[molly] yep, i guess so. just like everyone looking at my websites, eh?

[molly] youre repsonsible for more pics of me than i am, after all

[str8guy] That's very true. I'll grant you that.

[str8guy] And how does it make you feel, knowing men are wanking over pictures of you?

[str8guy] Do you like it?

[str8guy] ?

[str8guy] No answer to that Molly? That's very interesting, isn't it.

[str8guy] That dildo is getting some heavy treatment too, I notice.

[str8guy] Deep inside you, isn't it?

[str8guy] And getting thrust deeper and deeper, faster and faster, unless my eyes mistake me.

[str8guy] Enjoying yourself, Molly?

[molly] no, not really.

[str8guy] Hmm, anotehr little fib, I think.

[molly] think what u like m9.

[molly] how do u think it feels, being talked about like i'm some kind of sla[pper?

[str8guy] Good lord, no. I'd never describe you as that Molly. Witty, intelligent, curious, beguiling, adventurous, exciting.

[molly] bit late for flattery now aint it

[str8guy] Can you just sit with your legs open for a moment please?

[str8guy] Let me see polly

[str8guy] I love to see it when it's red and puffy

[str8guy] Oh that's nice. Legs up

[str8guy] Right up. Either side of the cam

[str8guy] gorgeous. close up now please

[str8guy] Let me see those gorgeous lips

[str8guy] Look at the way they move. Folding in on themselves

[str8guy] Like a little flower closing up when the sun goes away

[str8guy] They're pining for their friend, the dildo, Molly

[str8guy] Let them have it back

[str8guy] That's it

[str8guy] Lovely

[str8guy] Lovely

[str8guy] Finger your arse now

[str8guy] Let me see

[str8guy] that's it

[str8guy] Legs wider

[str8guy] Mmmm, yes

[str8guy] yes molly

[str8guy] Pull your cheeks apart

[str8guy] Oh Molly, you've got me all excited.

[str8guy] It's been too long since I've been able to do this properly.

[str8guy] With my cock out, I mean

[str8guy] I'm nearly ready to come for you Molly.

[str8guy] Would you like that?

[str8guy] Would you like me to come for you

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Do you want to see it?

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Good. My cam is on.

[str8guy] Watch

[str8guy] There you are. Do you like?

[molly] big boy

[str8guy] Now, back to work Molly.

[str8guy] Fuck that polly. Stroke that arse

[str8guy] yEs

[str8guy] Yes

[str8guy] Finger your anus now

[str8guy] Press

[str8guy] Press Molly

[str8guy] Inside

[str8guy] Put it inside

[str8guy] And keep watching me

[str8guy] I'm huge Molly. Huge for you

[str8guy] I'm sto siff it hurts

[str8guy] Finger inside

[str8guy] Deeper

[str8guy] All the way

[str8guy] Yes, yes

[str8guy] Fabulous

[str8guy] keepo dpinmg it. I''m going to come now

[str8guy] oooohhh

[str8guy] ohhhhhhh

[str8guy] Molly

[str8guy] Molly, Molly

[str8guy] Such a good girl

[str8guy] Did you like that

[str8guy] Did you see me come for you?

[molly] yes

[str8guy] Going to wash up a bit. Don't go away though. I want to talk to you about soemthing else.

[str8guy] Back in a minute

[molly] brb, u r supposed to say...