Wednesday April 14th, evening continued

I probably should go now. I've found out the answer I need - he has seen me tdoay, so I can eliminate Nigel from my enquiries. There is nothing else to discuss, so I should just switch off. But I'm not. I don't know, there just seems to be unfinished business here 3;

[medusa has entered]

[str8guy] good evening, my dear

[medusa] hello

[str8guy] It was a bit mad in there tonight

[medusa] it sure was. i sometimes think when the ops start booting it just makes people behave worse

[str8guy] Is your cam on private?

[medusa] no, public

[str8guy] All the idiots will still be seeing you then.

[medusa] yeah, and imagining my breast size..

[str8guy] Indeed!

[medusa] and sticking their fingers up my ass...

[str8guy] Poor deril. He has some serious fetish problems

[medusa] LOL he sure does

[str8guy] Ah, you've gone private

[medusa] Yeah, well even with pms switched off some of them still seem to get through

[str8guy] Good thinking. And thank you.

[str8guy] And may I say how attractive you're looking tonight. Your hair suits you, back like that.

[str8guy] So you didn't see anything worth taking a picture of for me today?

[medusa] no sorry

[str8guy] But if you had, would you have sent it?

[medusa] no sorry

[str8guy] Why not?

[medusa] why should i? i'm not your personal procurer of pornography am i

[str8guy] That's easier to write than to say

[medusa] and easier to do, too

[medusa] or not, as the case may be

[medusa] ??

[medusa] *confusing myself*

[str8guy] Well, no you aren't my pp of p. And there's no element of compunction either. Just if you happened to spot anything...

[medusa] yeah well, i'll give it some thought. if i feel like it i'll consider it.

[medusa] its more likely to be some hunks ass though, or a six pack or a nice hoxton fin

[str8guy] LOL No, no no! None of those.

[str8guy] I'm glad we've been able to talk more normally, Molly.

[medusa] despite the abnormality of the situation, u mean

[str8guy] Yes. Despite the oddness and difficulty of the way this started.

[medusa] doesn't mean i forgive you. or that i accept whjat you did.

[str8guy] Yes, I know that. I understand how you feel.

[medusa] very much doubt it m8

[str8guy] Actually, yes I think I do - to an extent anyway.

[str8guy] I think I'm coming to understand you much better, Molly. Because of the way you've reacted to all this. Because of your manner, your responses, your anger, your curiousity.

[str8guy] And I find you utterly fascinating.

[medusa] u do huh?

[medusa] my curiosity? wot do u mean by that

[str8guy] Absolutely fascinating, yes.

[str8guy] Yes, curiosity, I believe. Molly, if I may be so bold...

[medusa] ???

[str8guy] I'm deciding whether or not to say this

[medusa] listen m8, considering what you've done to me so far i doubt you can offend me any more

[str8guy] I think that's my point. Okay, here goes.

[str8guy] I think it's the element of compunction that bothers you.

[medusa] if i knew what u meant i'd agree or disagree

[str8guy] I'm genuinely sorry about what happened on the first couple of nights.

[medusa] u are huh? u an me both m8

[str8guy] Yes, seriously I am. It all went wrong. I was wrong - very, very wrong - to force you to do what I did. I shouldn't have, and I wish to offer my sincere apologies.

[medusa] hmm

[str8guy] I don't like the fact that I coerced you to do these things.

[str8guy] I think I just got excited because I was in a position where I could take advantage. It was horrible of me.

[medusa] hmmm

[str8guy] And I should be very grateful if you would accept my apology.

[medusa] hmmm

[str8guy] You've gone very uncommunicative

[medusa] dunno what to say.

[str8guy] Then say "I accept your apology."

[medusa] it isn't as easy as that.

[medusa] dont you think its a bit creepy - you know who i am but i dont know who you are. you see me and speak to me every day and i don't know who your are

[medusa] isn't that creepy

[medusa] just a little bit

[medusa] ???

[str8guy] You could look on it as creepy. Or exciting perhaps

[medusa] exciting?!!!

[str8guy] I think my point is this: you didn't like - and absolutely rightly, I can't stress that enough - being forced to act the way you were.

[str8guy] But in other circumstances I think you would have found it exciting.

[str8guy] Stimulating, perhaps

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] Are you still there?

[medusa] yes

[str8guy] I mean, when we chatted last night - with no coercion, just chatting - I sensed you enjoyed it.

[str8guy] I sense you find some of this intriguing.

[str8guy] Possibly despite yourself.

[str8guy] Taking pictures, for example. I think you might be curious about that. I think that if we hadn't had the start we did you would probably find that quite sexy and fun to do.

[str8guy] Am I right?

[str8guy] I'm sure when I started talking about your young woman in the gallery you were intrigued by the possibilities. Have you thought about that since?

[str8guy] ...

[str8guy] I think your silence means yes, Molly

[str8guy] Doesn't it?

[medusa] yes, it does. but...

[str8guy] But...

[medusa] Look okay, some of this is quite interesting. But the fact remains - u know who i am, i dont.

[medusa] kno who u r i mean

[medusa] that's hard, it's creepy

[str8guy] But tell me it's not a little exciting? Tell me you're not trying to work out who I am?

[medusa] yes of course i am

[str8guy] And isn't that a bit of a challenge? A bit exciting?

[medusa] it would be if it weren't for the way it happened. blackmail, threats, websites...

[str8guy] I know, I know, I know. I'm so sorry about that.

[str8guy] really I am.

[str8guy] If I could go back and start over again...

[str8guy] I tell you what

[medusa] what?

[str8guy] A deal

[str8guy] And this is an open offer. You can accept or reject. If you reject you'll never hear from str8guy again. I promise.

[str8guy] I'll give you until May 31st to work out who I am. If you haven't worked it out by then I will tell you anyway. I promise you, I will reveal myself to you.

[medusa] uh huh

[str8guy] And in the meantime...

[str8guy] I will pose you some challenges.

[medusa] challenges?

[str8guy] Challenges, yes. And remember, you are free at any time to accept or reject them. Entirely up to you. If you don't want to, don't do it. If you do, we can have some fun.

[medusa] and what will these challenges be?

[str8guy] I think you probably know the sort of thing, Molly.

[medusa] hmmmmmmm

[medusa] and at the end, you'll tell me who you are?

[str8guy] If you haven't worked it out already.

[medusa] and if i don't do it?

[str8guy] You'll never hear from me again.

[str8guy] Which means, of course, you will never know who did this to you. Every day in the office, you'll look at people and wonder if it was him, or him, or him... You'll never know.

[str8guy] Which, knowing you as I think I've come to know you, I think you will find very difficult.

[medusa] I need to think about this.

[str8guy] Of course. It's a lot to consider.

[str8guy] But Molly, we could have some fun here. Real fun.

[medusa] okay, you've made your offer. let me think about it. cya tomorrow

Oh God!! I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.

What should I do?

I'm going to bed. Silver's going with me. I need to relieve some tension...