Monday, March 03, 2003
puto:
Chastity Device Report
Ms Emily, I'm writing to report that the chastity device I made has some faults, and that I am working on another prototype. The main problems with the first design include pinching and chafing of my genitals (both penis and scrotum), which made the device extremely uncomfortable for extended wear. I could only endure it for eight hours before it became too uncomfortable. I wore it for the better part of Saturday afternoon and evening, and Ms Ginger and I were at the theatre when I finally had to remove it due to the pinching and chafing. As a tool for inflicting pain and discomfort it works well.
The new design I'm working on is made of a piece of plastic pvc pipe (the type used for plumbing) with two straps to secure my penis inside it. The end is closed with a small cap, into which a drain hole is drilled, so I can urinate while wearing it. The first strap wraps around my balls and attaches to the bottom of the pipe, and the second strap wraps around my balls and cock, and attaches to the top of the pipe. The combination of the two straps should prove successful in deterring the unwanted removal of my penis from the tube, and hopefully the design will prove comfortable enough for extended wear. The tube length is only three inches, which will certainly prevent me from having any sort of erection.
At the moment I am extremely randy, and awoke with another pounding, full-bladder erection this morning. I lay in bed enjoying it for some several minutes, focusing myself on You and chanting the same mantra as before...."I centre myself on my Mistress, Her service is my need." Today, however, I eventually succumbed to the temptation to touch myself, and took myself twice to the edge while visualizing myself kissing and worshipping Your feet. Afraid of going "too far", I stopped myself before I lost any further control, and left myself in a state of aroused suffering, which is where I remain right now.
I do certainly hope I have not offended You with this behaviour. Having not heard from You in more than a week left me feeling unpoliced with regards to what I am (am not) permitted to do during such times of extended silence, and I so badly wanted to practice my Devotion to You as my cockteaser. As such, I took it upon myself to repeat the orders You gave me before allowing me my last ejaculation. These were dated February 13, and I quote them here. I did fail in one possible point, however, by not wearing rubber gloves while stimulating myself this morning.
"For the duration of this exercise, you are permitted to auto-stimulate yourself as the urge dictates. The stipulations of not touching yourself directly, without gloves, continues as before. The only difference is that you may masturbate. Of course, you may not ejaculate. The length and frequency of masturbation is at your discretion. However, the subject of your masturbation must be feet: toes, soles, ankles – yours, mine, other peoples. You may not consider any other body part, and most especially, may not look upon my face."
[Note: This was the last entry in this blog, as ill health prevented its continuation - Emily]
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Saturday, March 01, 2003
puto:
Caged
Ms Emily, I have awakened the last three days with very hard erections, and my thoughts of course turn directly to You. I laid in bed for ten minutes this morning enjoying my pounding cock without touching it, internally voicing an old mantra You gave me a few years ago....."I centre myself on my Mistress, Her service is my need." This made me even more aroused, and I further reflected upon Your Total ownership of my cock. Being in service to You these last eleven weeks has been wonderful, and I remain happy in my submission to You. I feel I am still in a phase of adjusting to my new life as Your Complete and Total sex slave. This is by far the most challenging task I have undertaken in life, and I look forward to my future of submission with a positive sense of pride. I deeply feel that Your control of my lust filled cock will make me a better man and lover as I submit to Your application of creative discipline. The reality of my situation becomes more solid with each passing day, and I know in my core that handing over of my past rights, privileges and freedom to You was the right thing to do. Thank You for accepting my submissiveness....thank You for accepting me.
Please know that I do want very much to ingratiate myself more deeply into Your favour, and am willing to undergo any trial or exercise You bestow upon me. To work my way back into Your grace, I have taken it upon myself to to bind my cock again, in order to control its arousal. To provide You with further control, I have made a leather chastity device which will prevent unwanted hard-ons, and have locked my penis inside it just a short while ago.
It is comprised of several straps which are riveted together. The main strap wraps around my penis and testicles to provide a secure enclosure for my entire package, and is tightened just enough to ensure that I cannot remove the device. Like a small belt, it has several holes for adjustment. Tightening is performed by passing a clevis pin through two of the holes. The next strap separates my balls vertically down their seam, and is attached to a little cup in which I insert my penis. Once inserted, a small tab on the cup's end is slipped onto the clevis pin, and a padlock is used to secure the whole deal.
I will remain locked for the next twenty-four hours, to test the device's comfortability and potential for extended use, and will remove it when I shower tomorrow.
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