Most of the poetry included on this site is written by Marcelina Yupik, and
while it may not always be explicitly sexual, it is always erotically charged. The
poems are brief, and are presented in their entirety on this page, but will
also be available for individual download via the FTP site.
Angie says --
All the poems on the BHL
website
suggest sexual fantasy or erotic complexities. Therefore, these should not be read by or to minors,
nor by or to anyone for whom these
materials are illegal, immoral, or ill-advised.
The
poems represent something of a growth process, and so are presented in the order
in which they were written.
"Poem
in D# Minor"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Like the crackling Clinking Chinking Of a thousand chandeliers
lights Collapsing in chorus
Goes the
twittering Tottering Tattering Of a thousand distant love
lights Collapsing in my heart
"Love(?),
Stillborn"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
At the little restaurant at the corner of misbegotten hopes And half-finished
dreams Our eyes brushed against each other in the hallway, apologized Then
exchanged nervous greetings They traded pleasantries and sized each other up,
politely Where are you from? Before scouting out the surrounding territory
of smiles, blushes And uneasy anticipation Then our eyes parted company,
but they they walked up and down Afraid to walk away And when they
returned to another, hope flamed and then darkened Our eyes had sealed our
pact The words had been looked and seen, the feelings duly
expressed Shared and shared alike But, no matter what heroes and ladies of
old have told and sworn Love does not conquer all Sometimes love, hunger,
desire, affection, hope--die in the eyes Before tasting fresh
air
Because sometimes love is not enough And sometimes love is too
much
Sometimes, even the sweetest, dearest love between two people Is
recognized in its death At the little restaurant at the corner of misbegotten
hopes And half-finished dreams Our eyes brushed against each other in the
hallway, pledged love Then agreed to sacrifice the pledge On the
altar Of the Impossible
"Refractory
Looking Glass"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
More than any other, I wish to know me and me deeply But a mirror only shows
what a fool already knows How I am presented to others in the glass presented
to me But I cannot experience me as a friend, foe, or lover And I have
tried talking to myself, walking with myself And have tried in every way
possible making love to myself
So I must know me deeply by first knowing
others Like a stained glass kaleidoscope, I hold you all to my eye Bits of
colored glass me-in-part, spun into picture In this, you are like me, in that
you too are like me And so I may talk to myself, and thus I may walk with
myself And in this way I can take me to bed and make love to
myself
But you each are an archetype only for me-in-part A small shard
magnified, amplified, exaggerated for examination Me-in-part thereby
distorted to become a new me-deeply Now me-looking begins to become
me-reflected and me-refracted And so in truth, you are talking and walking
with yourself And when you undress in passion, you only make love to yourself
"Flickers
and the Darkness"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Darkness Candle Aflame I look into her eyes, and it
is like a dark, empty
room -- sparked by one candle
Darkness Fingers Alight She
looks into my eyes, and it is like a dark, empty room -- welcomed by my
gentle touch
Darkness Warm spring Awash We meet inside our
hearts, and it is like a dark, empty room -- and we are bathing in our own
warmth
Darkness Snapping Awake We open up our eyes, inside a
dark and empty room -- and there is no candle -- no fingers -- no warm
spring
Darkness Darkness Around She and I, each clothe inside us
a dark, empty room -- and the darkness from inside begins to wrap
us
Darkness Blanket Asleep She and I, each grap ahold of own
piece of darkness -- like a blanket, into which we sleep
"Deflection"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Small talk and inanities Little pervsions, silly kinks Pictures and
pornography Even blinding self-satisfaciton Simplistic and
defficient Weak attempts at deflecting Attention to the outside
world Away from the monster within
"The
Greatest Shame"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
The greatest shame is not That I want what I cannot have or should not
have The greatest shame is not Or that I cannot give everyone what they
need The greatest shame is that What I want and what everyone needs are
not the same thing
"There
Lies My Soul"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Looking at myself, My present My past And what lies
ahead
Looking at my actions What I do What I've done And what is
in my plans
I grow nauseous And feel a sickness rising From my toes
and Coursing through me
And I vomit violently Spewing my own
sickness All over my toes Spilling on the rest of me
Looking at my
illness My sickness My vomit There lies my soul
" It All
Goes Away"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Confusion Frustation Ambition Inhibition
Crisis Cathartis Chaos Comatose
Identity Fragment Guidance Obscure
When
I open the door, it all pours away When you pass through the gates, it all
comes rushing back
When I push the button, it all blows away When you
press the very same, it all comes tumbling back
When I light the flash,
it all is alright When you set the spark and blast, it all goes back astray
" Within
the Curtains"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Sometimes Rather than a night out It's best To reach out gentle
fingers Pull back The elegant folds of your drapes And crawl Deeper
into your own home
"The
Turning In"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
Once I loved another And then another And another after that And I was
told That this was wrong That it was loose
Once I loved
myself With great lust And affection And I was told That this was
wrong That it was selfish
Still I love myself With great
lust And affection And I have crawled Deep within me And found my
own sex
Now I love another Who too has Loved herself And we will
crawl Into each other And still find our own sex
"Poetry"
� 2007, Marcelina
Yupik (writing as PurpleFlowers89)
There exists a window In the wall of my absurdity I didn't put it
there But I shall not take it down I have on it curtains For I decided
against blinds And sometimes in a mood I pose myself before it Before
this window And allow the curtains To Drift A bit Apart
Most of the poetry included on this site is written by Marcelina Yupik,
