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hap·pen·stance
(n) - A chance
circumstance: “Submission loomed only as
an outgrowth of happenstance; you met a
person” [happen + (circum)stance]
The
Happenstance stories document a brief but
very satisfying online encounter with a
man I'll call Mr C.
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It came
at a time when I had not long finished
playing my first blackmail and humiliation
game privately with Mike - a game which
saw me create a number of seemingly real
alias characters complete with their own
email addresses and profile identities.
These characters were all based quite
closely on real life people I used to
fantasize about and the purpose for
inventing them in this way for Mike
initially had been for me to gauge what
kind of blackmail approaches I could
expect to be made behind my back. Alas,
Mike's enthusiasm to see me humiliated was
ultimately what led me to end this round
of the game with him. What I needed was
somebody who was prepared to play the game
with more tact and less haste. This came
in the form of Mr C.
It was
early 2002 and I had stumbled into a
fantasy group that had female humiliation
as its central theme. I had by this time
become quite obsessed with the idea of
making my fantasies a reality although I
still needed to temper my own enthusiasm
with caution. What I decided to do was
play the same blackmail game I'd created
for Mike but this time in a more public
forum where there was a risk of somebody I
knew in real life being there to catch me
in my game. Things eventually fizzled in
the group once I realized the majority of
group members were basically unimaginative
misogynists. But Mr C was
different.
For the
first time I had discovered somebody who
(a) understood how important the mind game
was in stimulating me and (b) was able to
balance his own enthusiasm to humiliate me
against this need I had to progress
slowly. I still kept my email fantasy
characters alive and through fantasy
surrenders and a trail of clues slowly
introduced them to Mr C however there are
many aspects of the stories I wrote around
this time that were largely based on the
reality of the time. They were to have
provided me with some kind of a guide for
when things really did become reality but
naturally, when that day came, reality
couldn't be controlled in the same way as
my fantasy adventures.
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