Jen Blake eased back in the car seat beside David. She
had enjoyed their time with the Gordons, but she always felt she
had to be 'on' when she was among her parishioners. With her
husband, she could relax. But not just yet; what had he thought
of her sermon? "So what did you think?"
"Nice folks," David said. She couldn't tell whether he'd
missed her meaning or was trying to be funny.
"What did you think about the sermon?"
"Let me look something up before I go into this," David said
-- which was bad news. "Do you have a Strong's?"
A huge concordance? She didn't need one; the paperback was
more than she used. He was the New Testament scholar, after all.
She wasn't. "Cruden's. I'll get it for you when we get
back."
She'd changed into comfortable clothes when he caught up with
her. He handed her a Bible opened to the Old Testament. "Read
verses 24 and 25." It was Deut 23: 24 - 25:
"If you go into your neighbor's vineyard, you may eat your
fill of grapes, as many as you wish, but you shall not put any in
a container. If you go into your neighbor's standing grain, you
may pluck the ears with your hand, but you shall not put a sickle
to your neighbor's standing grain."
"Oh my God!" she said.
"The reason that the Pharisees didn't raise the issue of the
Disciples eating grain they had picked from somebody else's
field," David said, "is that this was perfectly legal."
"I don't mind your knowing more than I do. After all...." He
had been her teacher in seminary. "But I got this idea from one
of those sermon-starter books."
"That's a problem I've pointed out about myself. We New
Testament types don't know the Old Testament well enough. Why do
you think I read a chapter a night?"
"Because you need to know everything." She knew that she
needed skills and experience, but she'd figured that she had
enough facts -- except particulars relating to the ministry --
when she'd graduated from college. And she figured Garrett-
Evangelical had given her all the facts she needed on those
particulars. She could remember some classmates who thought it
had given them way too much. David, on the other hand, regarded
his PhD studies as lessons in how to learn.
"I'll never know everything. Some days I suspect I'll never
know much.... Look. This isn't working."
"What isn't?"
"Commenting on your sermons on Sunday afternoon."
"You just have another agenda for Sundays." Not that she
objected. Sunday evening and Monday were her times off. Making
love to her husband was the best use she could think of for the
time.
"Look. I'm not a professor of hermenuetics. I'm a content
guy, a professor of New Testament."
"You know more about preaching than I do." She was in her
second year, he had spent four years as a pastor.
"Not a hell of a lot."
"And I won't make that mistake again."
"You also won't preach on that text for another three years.
I really doubt you'd repeat that point, anyway. Why don't you
let me hear your sermon before everybody else does? Thursday
night?"
"You want me to prepare earlier." He'd said that, and he was
-- as he usually was -- right. He wasn't always practical,
though.
"Not just that.... But, you know, if you had one-tenth the
respect for me as a preacher you claim to have, you'd at least
listen to my advice on preparation."
That was a point, but she was overworked anyway. She was a
good counselor, a mediocre -- at best -- preacher. Why should
she put her time in where it would contribute least to her
congregation. "I don't have as much time as you want me to
take."
"But I'm not asking for more time, really. I'm asking for
better-distributed time. Try it out for me, will you? A prep
time on Tuesday or Wednesday. Three weeks out of four that will
take only the extra twenty minutes of running through it once.
The fourth week, you'll be glad you took the time."
"I'll try." She really would. He was more experienced and a
better preacher than she was. His idea of their studying the
texts for the coming Sunday together had been a real help.
Besides, he was usually fairly accepting of her rejection of
something she had actually tried.
And some of David's suggestions on later Thursdays were a
help, though she didn't know how much she was learning. Then,
too, even the parts for which he had no comments went more
smoothly for having been rehearsed once.
On the other hand, she didn't feel terribly romantic on
Thursday after a late choir rehearsal, going through the sermon,
and then listening to his suggestions. David, who was good at
picking things up, stopped making advances then, too. Or, maybe,
he wanted to save up for Friday night. Then, with the Saturday
dry spell guaranteed, David always proceeded to seduce her. And
quite welcome seductions they were, too.
The Thursday her sermon ran much too long, she felt
ambivalent. It was better that David had heard it alone instead
of hearing it along with the entire congregation. On the other
hand, sermons like this were one of the reasons she felt
inadequate. "Well," she defended herself, "I tightened as much
as I could."
"You tightened too much," he suggested. He was always a
surprise. "You have two ideas there; choose one of them. If you
want, preach the other point the next week. You're married to
me, you didn't swear to love, honor, and obey the
Lectionary."
She had an answer to that sally. "I didn't swear to love,
honor, and obey you."
"Campbell betrayed me. I bribed him to put it in."
"It's a thought, though." He was being utterly silly about
the wedding vows, but he made sense about the sermon. About the
two sermons, really.
Sunday, she preached only about the woman who touched Jesus'
robe.
After church, they had dinner at the Swensons'. "I'm glad I
married you," she said on the drive back.
"I am, too," David replied. "If we'd just shacked up, the
Swensons might respect you less as their pastor."
The man could be utterly silly. "Sometimes, I'm glad I
married you. I think today's sermon was well-received. Much
better than what I started with."
"I think today's sermon was very good."
"Much better than what I started with. You didn't say that,
but you meant it."
"I meant that it was very good," David said. "Don't sell
yourself short."
She had things to sort out, and David had supper to cook. He
took care of her on Sunday. A little of it was that he wanted
her rested and in a good mood for their bed times; a little of it
was that she worked hard for the service, and then had to go
visit instead of collapsing; a lot of it was that he was a
considerate man.
After they'd finished supper and shoved their plates aside,
David read the Gospel lesson for the next week. "And what struck
you for today?" he asked.
"Everybody who knew him as a kid couldn't believe he spoke
with authority. What struck you?"
"The people had such little faith that not even Jesus could
perform much in the way of miracles." And, since that was what
had struck him the day before while he was preparing, that was
what his questions were about. She considered his issue; she
considered her own; but Jairus's daughter still intrigued
her.
"So," she asked him, "should I preach on this or go on with
Jairus's daughter?"
"Whichever you feel your congregation needs to hear," he said.
"And there are two more lessons, as well. You're the preacher;
I'm merely a consultant."
That was a gross misstatement. "That's not all you are."
"No. But that can wait 'til we're done in the kitchen."
She hadn't meant that he was a lech, but he was. "Honeymoon's
over. You didn't use to wait 'til we were done in the kitchen."
That comment was tempting fate.
It was also tempting David -- which had been her intent. "I
didn't?" he asked. She braced herself. He hugged her with his
hands on her rump. As his tongue invaded her mouth, she felt him
start to harden against her belly.
"Did I act like that?" he asked when they had to breathe.
"Something like that."
"Extremely naughty of me. Independence UMC provides this room
for the preparation of its pastor's meals, not for canoodling."
Where did David get those words?
"I'm sure that nobody on the Trustees intends this for
canoodling."
"That's why they provide all those bedrooms upstairs."
Well, one of those bedrooms was comfortably heated and
furnished. They hurried to finish their chores so they could head
for it.
David stripped her slowly. At first, she'd feared the
intimacy of marriage would desensitize him to her times of
nakedness. It hadn't happened. He still kissed each newly-
revealed piece of skin. Naked, she slipped into bed and turned
on the bedside lamp while he removed his clothes, a lot faster
than he'd removed hers. When he was in bed beside her, he kissed
her sweetly.
Then romance, which they did feel, made way for the lust which
they -- she, at least -- felt more strongly just then. David
kissed slowly down her torso while he stroked the rest of her
body. This was delightful at first. His courtship had revealed
new erogenous zones she hadn't been aware of until then, and
marriage had exercised them in ways she hadn't believed
possible.
Soon, though, she needed more. And he gave her more, sucking
her nipple and stroking her thighs. A little later than she
wanted it but soon enough that her desire didn't turn to
annoyance, he progressed to her mound and then to her lower
lips.
Soon he was kissing her thighs on the way to her mound. David
had made very clear that he enjoyed giving her a climax orally
before going on to total sex. Given the chance, he'd give her
one climax after another. Which would be delightful at the time,
but would totally wring her out. With Monday as her day off,
though, she would really enjoy a double-decker. And he'd
convinced her that he would enjoy it, too. "Oh, yes, David," she
said as he licked her lower lips.
He worked up slowly to the completion. She was writhing,
feeling intense pleasure and nearly-as-intense agony. She held
his head against her to speed his action. Then all her
sensations came together.
She soared, rising and rising but never leaving his pleasure-
giving mouth. Until she crashed and the mouth was suddenly too
much. She pushed it away.
He moved to cuddle her, and -- as she slowly returned to Earth
-- she returned to the haven of his arms.
She enjoyed the comfort, enjoyed even more the knowledge that
they weren't done for the night.
"Ready?" he finally asked.
"Oh, yes." She was ready for more than he began, really. The
kiss was delightful; so were his kisses on her neck and breasts.
The kisses on her lower lips were even more delightful and
delightfully arousing. She needed to go beyond that, though.
"David," she said.
She pulled him upwards on her body by his shoulders, and then
guided him inside her. How she needed this. Life! He entered
her, filled her, completed her. "Love you," he said.
"Love you."
He moved over her, moved within her arms and legs, moved
within her. "Mmm, yes." The feeling was voluptuous, his hands
on her breasts were comforting while they were arousing. As
delightful as it felt, something in the tension of her body --
something in the force within her that drove her hips up against
his -- signaled that there would be more.
And, then, there was more. There was infinitely more as she
climaxed under David and around him. "Jen," David said,
"Jennifer." His heat throbbed within her warmth.
She clasped him weakly to her, a welcome weight. Soon after
it had become unwelcome, he moved off. She cuddled up against
him. He tucked her in.
Wrapped in the covers, wrapped in his arms, she fell asleep
easily. She woke to the alarm and David's reminder: "Not your
day. Go back to sleep." Her bladder woke her later; her stomach
woke her a third time. Her breakfast was large and slow.
She ran a hot bath and sank into it. The parsonage bathroom,
whatever it's faults, had a tub which could easily hold David,
let alone her. Occasionally, it held them both. Those were
pleasant thoughts.... The chill of the water woke her, and she
washed and rinsed briefly. She dressed in jeans and sweatshirt
to do the week's chores. She didn't eat lunch until two, and
then it was light.
David was good about sharing the cooking, especially
considering his murderous commute. Monday dinner, though, was
her responsibility; and she enjoyed making it special. Most
special meals on other week nights were takeouts David bought in
town.
As the Administrative Board and Council of Ministries met that
night, she changed back into her pastor clothes before David got
home. He looked frazzled coming in the door, although less
frazzled after the kiss. They even had time to discuss next
Sunday's Old Testament lesson, all about King David's not being
permitted to build the Temple. "If Nathan didn't know what God
wanted," said (her) David, "study can only take me so far. I
should be open to a new message, and I'm afraid I'm not
particularly open."
He studied more for his current project while she was gone,
but the dishes were clean and almost all put away when she got
back. "This pot goes down here," she told him, putting it in a
lower cupboard. It really didn't matter; he'd done the bulk of
the work. That night was a time for cuddling, not for sex.
Tuesday, she took a tape recorder on her drive to the two
hospital visits to the east of the church. The mike was
sensitive enough that it was able to get most of her words while
it lay on the seat. On the drive back, she about decided to use
Jairus's daughter for the next sermon. She should keep an open
mind for the Epistle lesson. The discussion after supper didn't
change her mind, though. Not even David could make the "thorn in
my flesh" an attractive subject for a sermon. Now his thorn in
her flesh was an attractive experience later that night, not that
she'd dare preach on that.
Wednesday, a cold front came through. She visited County
Hospital, almost due west of the church. This time, a rough
sermon -- albeit too long and full of pauses and backtracking --
filled the tape.
Wednesday night was a Trustees' meeting. David greeted her
with a kiss when she got home. In their bedroom later, his
kisses traveled downward from her mouth. Mindful of his promise,
though, he stopped kissing her clitoris before her arousal led to
a spasm.
His entry was a delight. His motions led to greater delights.
These led to spasms, his as well as hers. She cuddled up
against him for a restful night. How had she managed to stand a
lonely bed for so many years?
On Thursday night, the only suggestion David made on her
sermon was to omit the mention of him. His erection pressed
against her rump as they cuddled in bed. She almost suggested
doing something about it, but she wouldn't feel like it on nights
he would advise drastically revising her sermon. And -- when he
thought she should -- she didn't want him to figure that there
would be a penalty.
Friday, though, she brought her desire from the previous night
to bed with her. Maybe he did, too. Whatever it did for the
heart, (temporary) abstinence made the genitals grow fonder.
An already-written sermon certainly made Saturday much less
hectic. "What are you working on so hard?" she asked David at
lunch.
"The book on Paul's position on marriage, sort of...."
"Thought you'd got that nearly finished. Experience of
marriage changing your mind?"
"Not quite the marriage. More the premarital counseling.
There is a lot more there than Paul's teachings."
"I thought," she said "you disapproved of innovations."
"Not innovations, per se. Marriage was a preexisting
institution. Paul taught how to relate to that relationship in a
Christian way. Other Christians have tried to do the same. And,
of course, the institution itself changed -- partly in response
to those teachings. Which meant that the response had to
evolve."
She looked at her husband fondly. He was a bundle of
curiosity on two legs. Everybody else accepted -- or rejected --
the rules; David asked 'why?' "Ever hear the story of the
Chinese walking past a fixed point?" she asked.
"They'd never get past, since more would be born in one day
than would walk past in one day. This isn't quite so bad. I got
the classical background -- needed it for Paul. I'm getting on
top of the medieval background and the rules of the German tribes
that informed it.... I should have consulted you, though."
"I don't know anything about the Middle Ages -- nothing you
don't anyway."
"Not on what," David said, "on whether. The original book
would have done more for my career, which is part of your
future."
"Remember when you put in the rules that I decided on my
duties as pastor? You put in something about your deciding on
your duties as teacher, as well. You put that wrong." Which
wasn't quite what she meant.
"How so?"
"You're not a teacher. Rather, you're less a teacher than a
scholar. You have to decide what you're called to do and called
to be as a scholar. You've backed me; I'll back you."
"You're a dear!"
She was only echoing him. For that matter, he was living a
horrible distance from Garrett because of her. "I have a good
example before me."
The sermon Sunday sounded good while she was preaching it,
which was reassuring if not a very reliable indicator of how it
would affect others.
Steve and Melanie Olufs, who were their hosts that Sunday,
even mentioned the sermon during dinner. "You think we should
look after everybody?" Steve asked.
"Well, yes," she answered. "But that wasn't what I said. I
said that Jesus told you to. The church doesn't pay me to give
my opinions; they pay me to preach the Scriptures."
"And," put in Melanie "this Sunday you surely did. I don't
think of you like Cathy Mitchell does, and -- please, God -- I
don't want to have her reasons; but your word this morning sure
made me think."
"Y'know, you're good for me," she commented on the way back.
Having the sermon critique on Thursday not only improved the
sermons; it also speeded her relaxation when the dinner-visit was
over. "Everybody always says that they enjoyed my sermons.
'Enjoyed'! I don't preach so they can enjoy themselves. But
damn seldom do they say that the sermon made them think. And
Steve got the point. And the comment about Cathy Mitchell,
too."
"Now, that was none of my doing," David claimed. "Barely
spoke with the woman."
"You spoke with Henry, though. Spoke with him when I
couldn't."
"Well, I was another pair of ears that night. You were doing
the main caring."
"You were a rock that night, David. I'm glad I married
you."
"I'm glad I married you, too."
And she could believe he was glad on Sunday afternoons.
"You're just saying that 'cause you want my body."
"Well, that is one reason I'm glad I married you."
Back at the parsonage, they went their separate ways until
suppertime. David pedaled his exercycle and worked more on his
book; he had a book stand over the front of the exercycle so he
could read and exercise at the same time. Then he cooked supper.
She changed into comfortable clothes and sorted out some others
for David to take to the cleaners for her. She figured out her
schedule for the next week, and entered it all on the appointment
calendar. She even put in her lunch and dinner times. She'd
learned her lesson the first time she'd filled all the time slots
with real appointments so there was no room for meals.
The Gospel lesson David read after dinner involved sending out
the disciples. She was struck with the instruction that they
were to shake the dust off their sandals to mark places where
they were not received.
That wasn't where David zeroed in. She could see his point
about the modern emphasis on preparation as opposed to Jesus'
forbidding of the least preparation. She wasn't sure that she
could see the point well enough to preach on it, though. Maybe
that was a sermon she should hear, instead of one she should
preach. Not that David was ready to preach that one, either,
according to his comments.
"You sure you won't mind if I don't follow your lead on the
sermon subject?" she asked when the dishwasher was loaded and had
started.
"In the first place," David answered, "that's what struck me
yesterday. Even if I were preaching next week, there is no
guarantee that I would preach on that. In the second place,
you're the one appointed here. Freedom of the pulpit and all
that. Though John Knox would be shocked to have a woman filling
any pulpit. If I can help, I'm pleased. If you found me
restrictive, I'd be disappointed."
He was always so worried about her keeping her independence.
But another point was even more important. "You were a great
help on this morning's sermon." And she gave him a kiss in
thanks. So what if she enjoyed the kiss, too? That didn't mean
it wasn't in thanks.
Upstairs, they removed each others clothes despite the chill.
When she was topless, though, she broke away to take off her own
shoes and jeans. She shivered as she stripped off her
underclothes. The bed wasn't any warmer. Even David's skin was
cool when he joined her. His heat of the kiss compensated.
When he was kneeling between her legs, though, she stopped the
action to rearrange the blankets. She sealed off all the holes
which allowed chilly breezes in, hoping this didn't deny air to
David. If it did, he didn't complain. He enthusiastically
resumed kissing her thighs. Soon, she wasn't worrying about the
chill any more.
She was worrying about David's slow teasing, instead. At this
pace, dawn might come before his lips reached her lower ones, and
she needed that now, had needed it for hours. "David," she said,
"David, please."
He relented enough to lick her lips. It was bliss for a
while, but she soon pulled him directly against her mound to get
more. A lovely thrill ran through her. David's mouth was just
about to take her over the top, but she wanted her husband in
her. She pulled him up by his hair.
He still kissed her breasts on his way up, but then he was
right at her entrance. She put him just where she needed him,
saying "Oh, yes!"
And it was yes, and became more and more yes as he moved
within her. She went wild under him as the fire consumed
her.
"Jen!" he exclaimed as he shoved totally inside and met her
climax with his own.
She had his welcome weight for a minute. A spent woman,
totally possessed by her man. They couldn't sleep like that,
though. He moved aside, and she nestled against him. He was
warm against her back and rump. His shins were cool against her
heels, though.
He carefully tucked her in and went back to holding her. "I
love you," he said, unnecessarily. His actions had communicated
that more clearly than any words. Nice though it was to hear the
words.
"You, too. You're not just a good advisor about sermons."
He was also ardent, and a comfort. And, especially right then,
warm.