Taking Myself for Granted
Anyway, sorry for the preamble! There's a point to it, I swear. Last night I was on Yahoo! Instant Messenger, chatting with a few random people (and some old friends from the site). Well, one of these new "random" people suddenly told me he wished he was a girl, because then he could get laid whenever he wanted. I laughed at first because guys always say that, but then it occurred to me: I really can get laid whenever I want! I mean, I'm a cute, skinny young woman with an almost unquenchable sexual appetite. So why do I spend so much time masturbating when I really could be out there getting it for real?
And that's when another thing occurred to me: I won't always be a cute, skinny young woman! I am going to get older. I'm already getting older! I mean, just how many years do I have left to act out my more slutty tendancies before it just gets sad? Because there's really nothing sadder than those women in their late 30's desperately trying to pretend they're still their 20-something selves, you know? I don't mind being called a slut but I would mind being called pathetic.
So what does this have to do with anything? Well, last night I abruptly logged off of YiM and did something I've really done before: I went out to a bar for the sole purpose of getting picked up. Okay, maybe I was in a bit of a manic stage, but it definitely wasn't a full-blown one or anything like that! I just wanted to have fun, and... well, why shouldn't I while I can, right?
After hanging out at the bar for about an hour I was finally approached by a guy who a.) wasn't slobbering drunk and b.) was fairly attractive. We really hit it off, and he really seemed to dig me (especially when I told him I was there by myself!). I asked him what he was doing later that night and he was all about bringing me back to his place to watch TV "or something". And it was just that easy. The second I told him I'd love to go back to his place he paid his tab and we were out. I let him drive since I was a little too drunk myself, and when we got to his place I let him make all the moves. And he really didn't waste any time. Long story short? I got fucked really hard by one of the best-endowed guys I've been with in a long while!
It ended up being a really fun night. I know it probably makes me sound pretty deviant, but who cares? Aren't I allowed to be as deviant in real life as I am online once in a while? I told my friend Laura about it earlier today and she says it makes her "worry" about me that I'd purposely seek out a one-night-stand like that, but... well, how could I explain to her that it was either that or a late-night masturbation session?!? She's such a prude I think she'd be more shocked by that than anything! Grr...
So, that's all for now. I was going to go out tonight but frankly I'm just too tired! And tomorrow me and some friends are going to go shopping for Christmas presents, so I have to get up early anyway.
Thanks for reading! Oh, and to make up for the site still not being back up, please enjoy these pix... bye!
-shannon-
16 Comments:
Well it looks like the site is down and not in a rush to make a revival.
For that reason alone I wanted to say a few quick things to you,
especially since our old gathering spot may not ever exist again...
and I might not get the chance otherwise.
First off, this blog kills me currently. Lol
My current girlfriend happens to be a 23 y/o stripper.
Fuck, I wish I could turn to you for advice because if that wasn't weird enough,
she is also manic-depressive.
Life imitating art. Tell me about it! Lol Too weird.
Well, Iike I said, who knows if I'll get another chance to say this,
so let me just wish you well in your life,
your career and any plans with respect to going back to school.
And obviously, the best of luck with respect to your writing.
For the record I have read all the chapters and do like it better than your first story.
I like these characters and this direction far better.
It offers an insight where your first story doesn't and I find it daring.
May you always find such inspiration and continue to explore all that is new and unfamiliar.
Break rules, break ground... write what you know and what feels right.
Challenge everything!
Challenge convention, always.
In other words I wish you nothing but luck here and keep exploring.
It's my sincere wish. I really wish you luck and joy in life.
I wish you well in the end.
I know our issues and despite all, I wish you success for each aspect of your life.
Be strong, be well... be yourself.
Cheers. Peace!
Baron.
Reminds me of when I was younger. I used to get laid a lot.
I think in my lifetime I have made love or had sex with about 300 women. I never felt bad about being such a slut of a guy. There is just something about the womans body that makes me hard and want to fuck them. I remember one night I took a really hot girl from a bar up to the local mountains. I walked around to her side of my truck and opened the door and fucked her right there on the highway. I ended up eating her, banging her, fucking her and just rubbing her clit until she had 13 orgasms in a row. She finally pushed me away and said "no more".
Its so fun to be young and hard.
Love the pics...
M
Oh what I would give for the chance to pick you up at a bar Shannon. That guy has no idea the treat he got in you I am sure :)
los
wow. i had no idea what you looked like and when i saw your pics, wow, i'm totally blown away by how hot you are. yummie too.
ron
Why couldn't it have been me?
still listening ....
-- shadow --
So are we to assume that's really you. Since I just jerked off to the idea of finally seing you, I'm going to.
What's it they say on the radio, long time listener, first time caller. Well the inspiration finally struck.
I do have to admit its not the web site as much as your blog that keeps me coming back. The post to post drama is amazingly addictive. I root for you to succeed and I revel in your struggles. I understand the feelings of being screwed over, looked down upon, and actually deep down wanting to be treated that way, that comes through in your real life experiences and your fictional writing.
The parts of your fiction that I really get off on is the feelings of losing control, of having someone else in charge. And you've been able to capture that more realistically than any other writer I've come across.
I am a guy and although I tend to be straight and understand how difficult it can be to attract and lay a member of the opposite sex. I do also understand the knowledge that I can get laid anytime I want, although I almost never act upon it.
Except for I think today, your most recent blog inspired me and I'm just about to contact one of the couple guys I have on my instant messenger programs and go over and suck his dick. After that its up to him. Maybe I'll comment again and let you know how that went, or maybe I'll actually see if that yahoo e-mail works and try to chat with my favorite writer. Well after Chuck Palahniuk of course.
Maybe not, but I now I'll still be following your blog. I am glad that you've gotten away from the stripping and prostitution, because that didn't seem to be good for you mentally, but may I add how hot those accounts actually were. I wish you had been more descriptive.
Jay
Ms. Shannon,
Remember that you can be slutty and sexy regardless of how old you are, and regardless of the state of your body (which will always be perfect). I'm 53 and love tits that sag a little, as long as they like to be sucked and bitten. It's not so much the look as the attitude.
Joe
Don't confuse youth with decadence, sweet shannon. Don't assume that passion and the desire to keep pushing the envelope, physically, emotionally, and spiritually automatically end on the eve of your 24th, 25th, or 30th birthday.
Be vital. Express, and experience. Choose to live in the ways that you know are right...when you are able to turn down the volume of the voices in your head. Live your dreams.
This is what youth is for.
Before long, you will find that One. you will fall hopelessly.
you will establish.
children, obligation, and structure. Soon the dreams you had when you were 23 seem farther away than ever. What is your ideal, shannon? Truly. What is your ideal.
Make it happen now. Show yourself you have the ability. Make a habit of it. If you can do it at 23, you can do it at 33, 43, and beyond.
If sexual exploration and intensity is what you truly need to feel alive, then push it...push it farther and past what you think you can handle. Go past what your fears will allow. Don't stop. Embrace the process. Learn from it. Learn to make it timeless. Enjoy.
Eros
primal_eros@yahoo.com
Nice pics that girl is majorly sexy. Kinda reminds me of one of my girlfriends i use to date. Um Shannon RULES and you guys BULES! so yeah shannon when are we gonna hewk up?
Holla at cha boi k?
peace
hell, I envy you.
I think I missed out on my RL deviant period. I would have enjoyed it. I'm glad that you are, in my place.
JD The Red
Shannon:
Glad you realize that,yes a woman can get laid any time she likes. Happy that you acted on that impulse.
Loved the photos and have just stumbled on your blog through asstr-mirror.org. Now I need to read some of your fiction.
Oh yes, about college. Well not everyone needs to graduate from a school. Sometimes life provides the real lessons.
Keep challenging your limits. When it's time for kids things will change for awhile but you don't have to give up yourself.
Right now however, be 23 and enjoy it even if it means several one night stands. I'm sure you'll soon find a guy that is very happy with you and would like to make all your nights, or most of them, with him.
Good luck.
Like I said, Why make a long story short? I am all ears to hear the full version!
Hope the other site comes back soon!
If that is you.....you're every thing i have dreamed you would be
Where is the real action where you get fucked?
Yeah, I just read this post, and I was a little shocked.
I'm 23, 24 on April 30, and I've been feeling much the same way. I' haven't done much of anything in my life. I want to leave some kind of mark on the world, but I don't see anything happening anytime soon. And to make it worse, even though I'm fairly attractive, I have to work HARD just to get laid every other weekend, unless of course I wanted whore or something, which I'm not into.
At least you're a chick, and apparently hot.
That's all from me thanks for listening.
marktheiii Indy
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