ARCHIVED STORY

My name is Cathy and I feel I must document the unusual course of my sexual life. Most will not approve, and comdemn me for my choices but someone must know. It is a long story with its ups and downs, successes and failures but that is life. Maybe when I have commited the tale to black and white I will be able to see through the grey and know whether I am a good person or not dispite my deviance. I would like to first thank the loves of my live for their help in telling the full story and lending me their perspectives.
The foundation for my life was as you would expect developed in my childhood. However, while most children's opinions form as a colage made from the sum of their experiances, I was an exception. One single event from my childhood when I was 6 would shape my veiws of loving relationships and sex for the rest of my life. The memory is scetchy in spots but I shall try to convey the basic truths.
It was late at night, and I was startled from a deep sleep as the door to Oscar, my brother and I's bed room came thundering open. The sleep in my eyes and the bright light from the hall blinded me. Through the haze and intence light I could make out my mother backing into the middle of the room. I could tell it was her only by the familiar pink cotton night gown she wore. The shadow of a man came into the door way partially eclipsing the blinding light from the hall. His strong stance and clenching fists, stiffled my urge to ask any questions. I could hear him breathing heavy and angry, a deep base growling accompanied each breath. My blood turned to ice and I froze unable to move.
A long moment passed, then my mother folded her arms across her chest. Regaining her composure she said, "I will be sleeping In here tonight. I suggest you go sleep it off."
"Drunk, sober, whats the difference? You always have some excuse," It was hard to beleive the slow seathing voice was infact my beloved father. His voice was strained and half snarl. I could only see his outline. "You are my wife, for beter or worse, and tonight you will OBEY!" He closed the distance between the doorway and my mother in two giant strides.
"THE CHILDREN!", She barked, putting her hands out in a feable attempt to fend off the bear of a man. At her words he paused. His searing gaze bored heavily into her. Her confidence began to wan and desperation played across her brow. A dark sinister look crept into his eyes.
A lewd smile began to leach across his lips, " My dear wife, just what are you suggesting? ", he said with sarcastic glee. His eyes never releasing my mother from their grip.
A look of shock, horror and anger set upon my mothers face. She drew back her arm and lanced her clenched fist into his jaw. The blow landed solid and spun my beast-fathers head a quarter turn. My mother gasped and took a step back. My father slowly reaffixed his suffocating gaze upon her.
"Okay," he said calmly, "If you wana play rough... lets play rough!" His arm shot out and had my mother my the neck before she knew it. At the same time he walked her backwards locked in his iron paw. She struggled to remain standing as he guided her back.
"Im Sorry. Im so sorry. Please, I'm so-o-o sorry" she pleaded. Her voice was as close to a cry as I have ever heard it even to this day. With her last word she was forcefully walked backwards onto my brother's bed and fell backwards onto it, almost atop my brother. He sprang from the bed and crouched in the corner like an ally cat dodging a boot. I waved him over to me and, pressing his back to the wall as best as he was able, he came. We clung to each other for dear life.
With his free arm my father batted my mothers night gown from ancle to waist in one powerful stroke. I could hear my mother panting like a trapped animal yearning to excape. Next my father reached his clawed hand up into my mothers displaced gown and cluched the panties she wore. My mother, with great effort shifted to the side a bit and looked to my brother and I. She was paniced, her eyes desperate. There was nothing we could do.
Suddenly, as my father had just got a good grip of my mothers underwear, her voice changed. It was gentle now, soothing. Her hands let go the choking arm and she began to caress his cheeks. "Okay, you win. You win." My father froze still cluching his prey. His fury and lust was checked only by an ever so thin thread of curiosity. "I'll do whatever you ask," her eyes softened and reflected the sincerity of her promise." But not here. Not in front of the kids like this. Even you don't want this." The last statement was more of a question. Slowly almost inperceptibly, my father turned his head and looked over his shoulder at his two children. Wide eyed and scared, shaking and clinging to one another, we could only wait.
"You say anything I want?" His tone was leary. My mother weighed her answer carefully. Finally she turned her head into her shoulder and nodded in defeat. Still my father did not seam convinced. "If you run again, you can keep on running. And don't bother looking back, EVER!" My mother just lay there trapped and helpless under his weight. He held her like that for a moment and slowly released her panties, then in one swift move he removed his belt. My mother turned dead white, her eyes in denial. My brother and I felt sick and averted our eyes. My father took the belt and looping it through the buckle placed it around her neck as a makeshift coller. he then wrapped his fist up in the belt and released my mother. Slowly she got up and composed herself. After a deep breath she came over to me and my brother and sat on the bed.
"I'm sorry I involved you two in our argument. Now go to sleep. Its over and we can talk about it in the morning", said my mother calmly as if nothing ever happened. Oscar and I just exchanged looks. My mother took hold of the make shift leash and shook it gently till my father released it. She then lifted me up and but me back under the covers and kissed my forehead ever so gently and smiled. She then turned to Oscar "Come on you" she took him by the hand and led him to his bed and covered him up and kissed him. After returning to the middle of the room, she said, "I'm sorry if we scared you. It wont happen again I promice. Just put it out of your head and get some sleep. I'll see you two at breakfast." With that said, she collected the end of my fathers belt and presented it to him with a dry look on her face. Suspiciously he accepted it and lead her from the room. "I love you", was the last thing she said as she closed the door, sending the room back into blackness.
The next morning, while my mother and I tended the vegitable garden in the backyard I finally got the courage to ask. "What were you and dad fighting about last night?"
My mother stopped her weeding and shifted her weight to get comfortable. She thought for a long moment and finally spoke. "When you love someone, your supposed to do your very best to make them happy. But its not always easy. Sometimes to make your true love happy you have to do things you dont like. And while I do that, sometimes I feel like I just don't want to "this time." Usually your father understands and, because he loves me, I don't have to. Last night your father needed me and I guess I was just being selfish."
"What did he want you to do?" I asked.
Again my mother thought carefully before she spoke. "he wanted to make a baby."
"Wow! Really? Are you making a brother or a sister?" I was giddy with excitement.
"I cant make babies anymore honey", she said apologetically. "Your father and I decided when you were born that we loved you and Oscar so much we didn't need any more babies to be happy. We got rid of all the baby making equipment when you were born sweety."
"Cant you buy more?" I asked.
My mother suppressed a chuckle, "I don't think we have that much money. Besides, he doesn't want a baby he just wants to pretend he's making one." I just stared at my mother trying to imagine my father playing anything. He was always so serious. He never played dolls with me when I asked. "Silly isn't it?" she asked.
"Yeah, I guess so", I replied. My Brother liked to play cowboy's and indian's and he was always tying me to a tree or furniture so he could rescue me. Great fun for him, but being tied up and watching him shoot imaginary indians was down right boring. I only did it to make him happy and only after he begged and begged. Everything made sense.
My mother was always saying what I shouldn't do. Constantly I heard "Dont do this ...." and "dont do that..." This was the first thing that she ever told me what I was supposed to do. "Make your true love happy, even if he wants to do somthing you don't want to." It made sense. It was one peice of advice I took into my heart and became words for me to live by.

On my 13th birthday, as was usual, My parrents threw me a birthday party. All my relatives were there, even ones I didn't realy know that well. Unfortunatly, my birthday was in July and I was not in contact with many of my friends from school. Only two of my friends even knew I was having a party, and one of them was on vacation with her parents. Jan and I were at the picnic table out back talking about boys. Nothing serious just who was cute and who wasn't, and who was kissing who. Then my cousin came from behind the garage. He was blowing smoke as he walked around the corner.
"So you like boys now. Wow, you're realy growing fast!" He said as he came over and sat on the table top, his feet on the bench. Jan and I just looked at each other not knowing what to do. We had assumed we were alone. "Yup," he said looking at me as if seeing me for the very first time, "You are shaping up nicely." I had a fair chest for a girl my age, I wasn't the biggest but my short stature and small frame only exadurated their size.
Darren was increadibly handsome in his jeans and T-shirt. He was also known to be outspoken and unruley. He was the black sheep of our family and was always visibly resentful of having to attend any family gathering. He never as much said a word to me ever and now he was trying to join our conversation. His comments were both unnerving and exciting. He looked like an adult but was talking to us like he was still a kid just like us.
"So," he asked,"tell me about the kid you're kissing? Whats he like?"
"uh, ... I've never kissed anyone" I said. It was a lie I had kissed two different boys on two seperate occasions and both on a dare.
"And you?" he added indicating Jan.
"No, I'm not kissing anyone." she said nervously. She too was lying. I knew for a fact her and Larry Howser had made out, tounges and all. Sadly, his responce was "YUCK!... You kiss like a frog! " which ended their relationship. It really hurt her fealings. I mean if he didn't like it we wouldn't have made him do it again. He was just rude and she was better off without him
"Oh my goodness!,".he gasped, "Well you two really should find a couple of nice boys to teach you how. Kissing is very important you know. You wont be able to keep a decent boyfriend if you don't know how to kiss right. Right now girls your age are just learning how. If you wait too long, you wont be able to compeat with the other girls. Who knows it might already be too late." After that he just looked from one of us to the other with a small sympathetic smile. Then after an akward silence he sighed heavily and went into the house.
As he left our sight I could see Jan was on the verge of tears. Quickly I grabbed her hand and dragged her along with me running as fast as I could.
"Where are we going?" she said finally. She was not much of a runner and she was out of breath.
"To practice, now come on!" I took her to what was once a hunters tin shack. It was dirty and smelled of mildew but it was private. No one ever came here to hunt anymore since the new houses were built so close. After some coaching we practiced kissing our hands using the thumb and index finger as a mouth. We kissed our hands passionatly for about 20 minutes stopping to coach each other on how we thought the other was doing.
Finally, Jan's frustrations boiled to the surface. "This is stupid! We've done this lots of times and Larry says I kiss like a frog. You've never even done a sexy kiss so how do you know if I'm doing it right? I don't know who that guy was but he's right. We need to practice with real boys!" she slumped her shoulders and sighed.
"What about your brother? he's 15." I suggested knowing she was right.
"Ewww! I'd rather kiss a snotty nosed cow." She shuddered at the idea.
My next suggestion caused my lip to curl and my nose to wrinkle. "Y- You wanna try kissing each other?"
She Looked at me shocked but I could tell she was considering it. "Only as a last resort. Besides we're both girls, what if its like dancing and the guy leads? what if one of us learns to lead and cant follow when the time comes? Come on," she pleaded, "we can think of someone I'm sure." after a short time she added, "Hey, if you learn to kiss before I do, you would show me right?"
"Of course," I said with a smile.
Suddenly she sat up strait and looked at me, "who was that guy anyhow, the cute one smoking behind the garage?"
"My cousin Darrin. My father doesn't like him. He says he's nothing but trouble." I replied
"He seamed nice enough to me. Do you think he'd teach us?"
"I haven't really ever spoke to him before today. My dad says he steals money from his mom to buy cigarettes. I guess if we bought him some he might. Do you got any money?
She lowered her sad eyes and shook her head. "You don't think he'd do it if you just asked nicely?"
I just shrugged. "I could try. If not I might be able to get my mom to bake him something and say I was giving it to you as a present. It wouldn't be a total lie." Jan seemed satisfied at that point so I led us back to my house.
When we got there Darrin and his parents were just saying their goodbye's. Jan, I could see was about to jump right out of her skin for fear of missing the opportunity. Quickly, I went to my school bag and got a sheet of paper and pencil. I wrote, "I need to ask you somthing VERY IMPORTANT! But not now ITS A SECRET!" I folded the note up very tiny and really tight. and went to say good bye to my aunt and uncle and to thank them for comming. I shook my uncles hand and hugged my aunt. When I shook Darrin's hand I pressed the note into it.
The next day I got a phone call. My mother handed me the phone and said it was Gail. I didn't know a Gail but took the phone anyway quite puzzled. " Hello?" There was a pause and some noise on the line.
"Hey, sorry about that but I don't think your parents like me that much." I could tell it was Darrin. "I Guess you can't talk now but if you wana meet at Washington Park you can tell me what this is all about. Just say yes or no and say I got the wrong number and hang up. Okay?"
I was a bit surprised and it took me a second to catch on. "Yeah, you got the wrong number. sorry" I said. I walked to the kitchen where my mother was cleaning up the breakfast dishes. "Mom, can I go over to Jan's house? I'm bored." She just looked at me breifly and nodded and went back to the dishes. I walked out the front door and, as soon as I was out of sight, ran as fast as my legs could carry me to Jan's. I had to catch my breath before going up to the door. Jan came out smiling, glad to see me as I got half way up the walk. After a quick explanation we headed for the park, it was a long walk but it was almost half way between Darrin's house and mine. When we arrived he was sitting on a park bench smoking, looking very relaxed. He was the first to speak.
"Hey! What's new?" he said as if our meeting was a coincidence. When we got up to him he moved over on the bench and motioned for us to sit. "So what's going on Cathy?" He asked looking conserned.
I sat next to Darrin since Jan was too chicken to even speak to him. I found I didn't know how to start. I kind of just sat there trying to speak but stopping each time as I realised how stupid what I was trying to say would sound. Darrin was patient at first, but slowly began to look at me as if I was loosing my marbles. Finally, I just blurted it out, "Larry Howser says Jan kisses like a frog and we need someone to teach us how to sexy kiss." Jan Squaked like a crow and Hit me with her fist realy hard on the shoulder. I just hunkered down for the worst.
Darrin's jaw went slack and sat there for a moment stunned. "Well," he said carefully, "that sounds ... not good. Are you asking me to teach you?" he looked real uncomfortable.
"Please," I pleaded, " You can show us what we're doing wrong. I think were doing it right but none of the boys we've kissed seem to like it." I finished with another "pleeease!" and my desperate pouty face that worked most times on my dad.
He looked at each of us uncertainly as he made up his mind. "I don't know. If anyone found out I was making out with 13 year old girls, I'd be an outcast. But, if you promice to keep it a secret I will. I can't have my cousin kissing like a frog. Jan since I need you to keep the secret, I'll teach you too." He sighed heavily. "Come on, we can't do it here in the park." He then led us to a creek a few blocks away, and into a small wooded area down the bank some. It looked fairly private. "Okay Jan you first." he said taking a seat next to a tree along the bank. "Show me what you got."
Jan was nervous and I thought she was gonna change her mind, but finally she knelt down next to him and started to move in slowly. As she did, she closed her eyes. Darrin, just before she kissed him, put his hand on her shoulder and stopped her. He was looking at her and shaking his head odviously not pleased already and their lips had not even touched!
"Um,... you gotta relax some." he instructed, "Pucker up again." As she did he took her jaw in one hand and pressed the finger of his other hand against her lips. Jan looked to me confused and I could only shrug. "Relax your lips Jan, they're supposed to be soft and tender, not hard and tight like your butt hole. I don't wana kiss your butt hole." Jan, visibly upset, started to get up but he pulled her back down. "Sorry, but I gotta teach you right don't I? Now, try again you'll get it." Again he had her jaw in his hand and she puckered up. He pressed his finger to her lips and slowly played with her lips with the tip of his finger. As he did so he told her to soften up her lips and had her kiss it like she were kissing a boo boo. He told her to feel the texture of his finger with her lips. I had to admit in less than 2 minutes I was amaised at the difference. Even though she was only kissing his finger it was very sexy. I couldn't wait till it was my turn. I resisted rushing the lesson so nothing would get left out.
"Now, I want you to give me a short kiss. Keep your lips soft and together, when our lips touch I want you to feel the softness of my lips. I don't want a long kiss, just a real short one, friendly, not passionate. You must always start small and work up to more passionate kisses." Jan did as instructed. "Very good," he said smiling, "Just dont take such a deap breath before hand."
"What about Toung kissing?" Jan asked.
"Thats easy, as you become more excited by the feel of your partner's lips you will have the urge to lick his lips and he will lick back. The power of a kiss comes from the excitement of feeling your lovers lips with your own. Now lets try some kisses like before but this time keep them comming. Don't think about kissing me or what your doing just do what makes your lips feel good." With that said, they lay on their sides facing one another and began to gently press their lips together and separate for a slight pause as they looked into each others eyes.
I was dying. I began to get restless in my private region. I had begun masterbating a few months ago, pretending my fingers instead belonged to my gym teacher Mr. Manfred. I hated gym but he was dreamy. His touch was both embarassing and exciting while he was giving me some swimming lessons. Now I was tortured by my inability to tend to my need as I wan't alone and might get caught. As Darrin and Jan's kisses grew longer and the pauses grew shorter I really wanted to break em up and get my turn. Soon they began to use their toungs and Jan and Darrin began to rub their hands up and down each other's side and back. Each started to moan softly and I could hear the wetness of their kissing. Finally, Darrin leaned back smiling. "See, now you kiss like a woman of twenty!"
"REALY!?" Jan squealled. She began to laugh and roll around on the ground. "she then rolled back over and gave Darrin a short thank-you kiss and rolled away. "Your turn," she piped with a broad smile ,"god Its SOoooo much better than kissing your hand." Darrin rolled his eye's and blushed smiling.
Suddenly I was nervous. I had been waiting for this, WANTING this, but now I was too embarassed. Jan grabbed my hand and set me by Darrin. "I was watching I think I got the Idea," I said timidly. Jan gave me an angry look but it was the slight disapointment I saw in Darrin's eyes that was getting to me. "I wouldn't wana ask too much of you Darrin you don't have to."
Darrin smiled. "Not only would I like to, it's a matter of family honor. I can't give away the family kissing secrets to Jan here and not my flesh and blood! Now, like Jan, kiss my finger." I pressed my soft lips to his finger and felt its roughness as well as the pleasant tingle it prevoked in my lips. I kissed at it and began to rub my slack lips on the tip, letting it part my lips and I was awash by nothing more than contact with his finger. He looked into my eyes and I could see somthing deep inside his. It actually appeared as if my kissing his finger was exciting him too. I kissed it some more with short gentle kisses and then let my lower lip hang on the finger and part of the tip entered my mouth wetting it.
"Your supposed to keep your lips together." Jan said trying to help.
" NO! no, she's doing just fine," Darrin quickly corrected. "It is different, I'll admit, but It is perfectly acceptable. Kissing, like I said, is about enjoying the feel of someone against your lips. Enough with the finger though, I can see you were watching and listening. Cathy while I like your style of kissing, you need to match the firmness of your partners kisses like you would a hug or a handshake. Now lay on your side and kiss me."
Looking into Darrin's eyes I could tell he was as hungry for this as I was. Our first kiss was short but I felt the warmth and softness of his lips and that warmth passed through me. Our second and third kiss kind of ran into one another and I was moved. I gave up on the reservations I was still holding. I Let everything fade into the background and waited only for the next touch of our lips. His mouth tasted so good and the gentle contact I made with his rough tounge was intriguing. I could feel his hot breathing growing heavier and mine was begining to follow suit. I pulled back a bit to try to guage how I was doing and it only seemed to make him hungrier for my kiss. He began to rub my side and neck and I did the same to him. I surrendered myself over to the need of my lips. I let them pluck and play. I tasted him and drank him in.
He rolled me onto my back and began kissing down onto me. His hand wandered down to stroke my butt and outside of my thigh, I didn't care. He then began to kiss heavily onto my cheek and the feel of his cheek against mine was exquisit. I felt his hot breath at my neck as he nuzzled my ear lobe in his lips. His sucking lips sent shivers down my spine as he press their hotness into the nape of my neck. I started to quiver. His hand then gently slipped up my side and took firm hold of my left breast while he placed his mouth over the my right. He breathed out his hot breath onto my breast and squeezed gently on the other. At the end of his steamy exhale he began to strongly suck in air creating a cooling rush on my right breast as his hand on my left closed in on and kneaded my tender nipple. His teeth pressed against the flesh of my breast and I could feel them as he pulled them gently toward my right nipple. As his lower teeth crossed my small hardened nipple a shot of pleasure rang through me.
He raised his head and I watched as he looked at my body then turned his gaze to me. His eyes were glassy with his longing and they melted me. He slid his hand down my body sending sparks through me as it made its way to to my belly where it paused to trace a heart on my tummy. His eyes pleaded with me for more and conveyed his dire need. His hand pushed lower and ran down my theigh almost to the knee cap then rolled to my inner thigh. He drew his reaching arm up. The underside of his forearm made contact with my pubic bone as he dragged his hand back up my inner thigh leaving a trail of fire, his hand comming to rest, rubbing at my crotch igniteing a cascading torrent of burning pleasure I could never have imagined possible. He moved in to kiss me once more. I knew things were getting out of hand but I put off acting on my growing fears, I kept telling myself, "Not yet." and "just a little more."
"STOP THAT!," Jan screamed as she grabbed his hand and pulled it from my pussy. At first I was angry as my yearning pussy was suddenly deprived. Quickly I realised that she was right. Darrin sat up quickly and rubbed his face with both hands trying to regain his senses as I slowly crawled away and just sat contemplating what had just happened. Jan sat next to me with a worried look on her face.
"I am so sorry Cathy," Darrin said sincerely. "I can't beleive I just did that. I mean I know your not ready for anything like that at your age. I guess it wasn't such a good idea for me teach you how to kiss. I didn't expect you two ... well, ... to be that good at it and... Cathy your body is just so beautiful for a girl of your age I ... I couldn't help it. Are you mad at me Cathy?" His eyes reflected his remorse and consern.
"No, its alright. I guess since we talked you into this I cant be mad." I saw the releif in his eyes as he relaxed. There was an akward silence then I spoke getting up. "Is that all there is to it then?" My pussy ached and I wanted to go home and finish what Darrin had started.
"Pretty much. As you saw there are many ways and places you can kiss. Exploring what works and what doesn't is where the real fun lies. I'll leave that up to you and your boyfriends as it should be. Again, I am sorry I went too far." He stood up and dusted himself off. "I'll go this way. You two go back the way we came in. Its best if we arn't seen comming out of here together. People might talk." With that said he waved, smiled warmly and walked away.
All the way home Jan was Abuzz. "I can't beleive he did that to your boobie and touched you down there of all places. Were you scared? Did it hurt? It looked like he pinched and bit you realy hard." I answered as best I could as I still was trying to sort the whole thing out. Then she recounted her experiance with Darrin: how she felt, what she thought. She talked all the way to her house about it. There I left her and went home and waited anxiously for bed time to put to rest the burning in my loins. It was a long night.

A week later walking down the street I saw Darrin walking my way. He was on the other side and didn't seem to notice me at first. When he did though he crossed the street and headed right for me. I was shaking in my sneakers. When he got to me he seemed as nervous as I. After explaining that he had come to the neighborhood to visit a friend who wasn't home and apologising again for loosing his cool, he invited me to the convienient store up the street for Ice cream. He said he had nowhere to go and since he had a few bucks he wanted to spend some time getting to know me. He asked about how the kissing lessons worked on the boys, but it seamed Larry was in hiding and we almost got caught cornering another boy. It was beguinning to look like we would have to wait till school started to go any further. After we finished our ice cream we talked for hours. We talked about dating, movies, school, parents, and the silly things that we had done. It was really fun but eventually he had to go meet his friend who was bound to be home by that time. In parting he said that he had a great time and It would be nice if we could talk more. He said I was cool.
A few days later I saw him again but this time he was just sitting at the bench at the convenient store drinking a soda alone. He didn't see me till I was right on him, but when he did he gave me a warm smile and told me to sit and asked if I wanted anything. I had an Ice cream and when that was done we just sat there kinda bored for a while.
"What do you do for fun around here?" he Asked finally. The heat of the sun wearing on us both.
"wana play dolls?" I laughed. He just gave me a dirty look and then laughed himself. "well me and oscar play tag or hide and seek sometimes but he's not around. Jan is at her grandmom's for the weekend or I'd probably be playing house with her. We could shoot baskets at my house. You'd have to make things even though I'm not that good."
"Well, I don't think your father likes me much so hanging out in your driveway would only lead to trouble. How do you play house?" He asked watching the traffic go by.
I had to laugh. To a girl it seamed like such a silly question. Who doesn't know how to play house? "Hehehe, You don't know? Well I pretend to be the mommy and you pretend to be the daddy. I fix you dinner and take care of the baby. You fix things and goto work."
"Sounds like playing with dolls again. I'll get my ass kicked if someone found out." he said smiling.
I replied, "No i'll take care of the baby, we don't have to use a doll I can pretend to have one."
Darrin considered it for a long time then reluctantly he said, "Ok but I'm not doing anything too silly understand? If it gets sissy or wierd I quit ok?"
I agreed quickly and led him to the old hunters shack where Jan and I had run to on my birthday. This was the perfect place to play house. As I entered I found the place in a mess as usual. "Oh dear!" I feigned, "The house is a mess. You sit over there and rest dear while I get this cleaned up." Darrin shrugged and sat on a tree stump stool, happy that his part for the moment wasn't that demanding.
The little shack had small scraps of carpet that had been here for as long as I could remember. They were of verying color, shape and size and it seemed that everytime I walked in they were stacked neatly somewhere within the shack. I was always comming in and having to arrange them so that they would cover the entire floor. I had done it so often in fact I knew where each mat went and how they fitted together. Darrin actually chucked as I went about my work and said I was a wonderful housekeeper.
I went over to the "fridge" and got my "husband" a "beer" and handed it to him and told him that the "light bulb" had blown out and needed to be replaced. I told him that after "fixing" that he could either read his "newspaper" or "mow the lawn" while I made supper. Darrin looked a bit confused but pointed to a spot in the air. "this one?" he asked.
Pleased I smiled nodded and went to make a big turkey dinner and a few pies to feed my starving man. I did however sneak a peak over my shoulder though and saw that, infact, he was playing along. I was just pleased pink I tell you. Then he moved the stool over and stood on top of it. Reaching up into the rafters he pulled out a magazine and went into the corner to read it. I was shocked hadn't known anything was up there. I was now curious and wanted to see the secret treasure that was hidden in my so familiar play house. I looked up into the rafters but saw nothing as I crossed the floor.
"Whats that? I never saw that up there."
As I came close Darrin just looked up and shrugged," Don't know who put em there but they've been there a long time. My friend found em when he was playing here and showed me a while back.
As I peared onto the pages that lay open to veiw I gasped. "SHE'S NOT WEARING ANY CLOTHES! Why is she naked like that?" I was Shocked to say the least I was very nieve as was normal in those days. A men's magazine was not somthing I could have imagined.
"Its an art book," Darrin answered calmly and acted suprised by my reaction. "You've never seen one?" I could only shake my head. At that, he got up and plucked three more from the rafters between the joyces where they were perfectly hidden. After sitting back down he set them on the floor next to me and went back to reading his. I opened one and thumbed through it.
"Why are they all naked?" I asked again still trying to understand.
"They're models," he said as if that explained everything. Seeing my bewildered look he continued. "Look at them. They're very pretty don't you think? They took these pictures so that everyone could enjoy just how pretty they are. Just like when your parents took pictures of you at your party or when the school takes them every year."
"B-but they're...naked. Why are they naked? They have no clothes on. Why wouldn't they just take the pictures when they were dressed in beautiful clothes?"
"You don't need clothes to be beautiful." He explained. "A woman's naked body is probably one of the most beautiful things there is. To see a woman naked is a very special thing. Most women only let people they love very, very much see them naked, kind of like a special gift just for them. Some, like the women in this magazine, are nice enough to capture their beauty on film so all the world can enjoy their beauty. These are very special women. Just because people don't walk around naked doesn't mean being naked is bad. My parents sleep naked together every night. You know you have to get naked to make a baby right? Don't get so hung up on the fact they're nude. They are beautiful works of art like the Venis De'milo. She's nude and they have pictures of her in the school library!"
"Oh." was all I could say. They were very pretty. For about half an hour I flipped through the magazines just looking. I had never really looked at the body of a naked woman and I was actually Interested. I mean, my body was changing into that of a woman now and I was getting a chance to see what I would someday look like. I also got to compare my features to theirs.
"Why are there no men?" I asked out of shear curiosity, not that I really cared.
"They make them. They make magazines with both men and women too. Some even show men and women Having sex. Sorry, I don't have any of those to show you."
My mind began to work. Now I actually wanted to see those, to see a naked man. I really wanted to see sex. I heard about it alot but had no idea how it was done. There were some cartoon drawings in the magazines that showed men and women together but nothing I could identify as having sex. Also, naked cartoons of men naked didn't do much for my curiosity.
"You know," Darrin began," I've been doing alot of thinking. Did you know my step father is 8 years older than my mom...and your dad is what 3 years older than your mom? Well, It just occured to me that while you are still very young its not really so bad for us to be together. I mean no one else will understand, but I like you. Its just too bad I have to wait for you to grow up."
"What do you mean? We're cousins. We cant fall in love." I said, not sure and taking a big risk to think the he was talking about getting married some day.
"Im not your real cousin Cathy. I'm the son of some woman your uncle married. Your uncle isn't my father. You also will find that love doesn't play by the rules! You don't really get to choose who you fall in love with it kinda just happens. If we still wanted to when you get older we could be like any other couple in the world. But, you're young and I would have to wait about 4 years. Thats a long time."
I didn't know what to say. I was thrilled to think he liked me, but I understood too how impossible it was. In four years surely he would fall in love with someone else. I really had nothing to offer him. We couldn't date. My Dad would bury him in the back yard.
"Cathy?" he asked. I just looked at him waiting for him to continue. "I'm sorry I don't have any pictures of naked men. If you like I'll show you what I look like naked." I was shocked and didn't know what to say. I should say no but I really did want to see a man naked.
"Its ok I don't mind. unless you don't like me that way." he said looking a bit nervous. I didn't want him to think I didn't like him. I really thought that saying no would hurt his feelings. Suddenly my consiounse was clear.
I said, "That would be cool," but kinda wished I hadden't sounded so eager.
Darrin took off his shirt and placed it on the stump he was sitting on then sat to kick off his shoes. He looked strong and I could see his muscles flow under his skin as he moved. He looked at me nervously for a second and then quickly Laughed it away. His eye's sparkled like diamonds. Once his shoes were off he stood again and slowly undid his belt buckle. I was getting horny, god I hated being horny. There was nothing I could do about it untill bed time. Still, I wasn't going to pass up the opportunity. Darrin, after unzipping his fly turned around and pulled his pants and underwear to his ankles. His round white butt was with in easy reach. As he stepped out of the remainder of his clothing I got a quick glance at his pink sac, all wrinkled and tight. He then stood up strait and looked over his shoulder at me.
"You sure?" he asked looking over his shoulder almost cheerfully, "I want you to promice not to laugh and be polite."
"Oh no I wouldn't do that." I promiced him and for good measure I crossed my heart.
I broke my promice instantly. I couldn't help it. I didn't want too but I didn't expect it to poke strait out like a flagpole on the side of a building. It looked weird too. I didn't expect to see hair not that there was much. For some silly reason I expected it to be baby bare. The helmet at the tip, well, looked kinda like it didn't belong. Damn was I nieve. That and my breaking my promice kind of upset me. I appologised to Darrin sadly thinking for sure he would really be hurt. But he just looked at me and Sighed placing his hands on his hips. He then bent down and places the cloths in a heap on the stool and sat on it. I thought it looked much better when he sat. It didn't seem so odvious even though his legs were parted a bit and I could veiw it all, probably better than when he was standing.
"Do you like what you see?" he asked carefully.
"Yes thanks," I replied still looking. My mother had already explained reproduction to me. Not a very fun 12th birthday present, but I got it. I could now understand alot.
After a few moments Darrin smiled, "You wana touch it?" he asked.
I was nervous but without a word and watching Darrin every step of the way I crept close enough to touch it. I knelt down and with his hard penis a few inches from my face took a good close look. Then with one finger I poked at the spongy purple tip. It was soft and made Darrin twitch just a little his penis jerking just a bit. I had to smile, but when I looked Darrin didn't seem to mind. I then ever so gently pinched the shaft between my index finger and thumb. It was hard like any apendage.
"Can you bend it?" I asked. he smiled and shook his head then it jumped out of my hands and began to bob slightly back and forth.
"Thats about it for movement." he said. "If you bend it it would hurt alot."
"How old were you when It got hard and stiff like this? I babysit tommy once in a while while his mother goes to the corner store. His is all floppy." This was wonderful and I was learning alot.
"What age? It isn't like with your breasts. It didn't just grow hard and stay that way. It comes and goes. Mostly it is soft and "floppy" as you say. But when I see a beautiful girl ... like you are ... it does this."
"You really think I'm pretty?" I asked.
"Are you kidding? We," he indicated his penis and himself smiling, "are in love!" It made me feel warm inside to hear praise from someone other than adults, someone who didn't have to say such things.
I preceeded to smooth and grasp him getting a good feel and Darrin seemed to be enjoying it. Satisfied, I released his penis and reached down and with my finger tips lift out his scrodum.
Darrin jumped at this and became very nervous. "You be very careful with those they're sencitive! no squeezing!" His voice seemed a little off. It was funny to see him like this since he was always mello and calm no mater what was happening around him.
I fondled the sac with its two babymaking jewels inside for a bit, feeling their weight and warmth in my hand. Then Darrin reached down and took my hand and pulled me up to him. His eyes yearning, he said, "Cathy?..." he didn't finish. He just pulled me to him and stared into my eyes. He then slowly, gently kissed me. A short kiss that was forever in comming and over too soon but its memory lingered. He seemed happier now. "Cathy? ... I would really like to see your body. The girls in these magazines are old and I ... I just wana look at you beautiful. please?"
I couldn't move. His kiss had me spinning. His naked body had me wanting. I knew what he was asking of me was wrong. I should say no but found I couldn't. Darrin answered for me. He reached over with his hand and stroked my cheek ever so lovingly, then reached down and grasped the top button of my blouse and waited. His eyes searched mine but found nothing to discourage his advances. He undid the top button and the next. With his finger he opened the fabric of my blouse and for just a moment peeked inside. He smiled and sighed pleased at what he could see and I felt I could relax some. He finished with the buttons and pulled the shirt away turning me in the process. With my back to him he placed his hands on my shoulders and moved to kiss my neck. It was warm and sent ripples through me. I could feel the heat build between my legs. He then carressed my back from shoulder to mid back tenderly comming to rest at my bra clasp which he unfastened in a single easy move. I felt the tension of the straps go slack and cool fresh air waft against my skin. I moved to remove my bra but was stopped my his hands which then turned me back around to face him. Starting
from my waist he firmly ran his hands up my tender body to cup my breasts beneith the loose bra. He smiled greedily looking from me to my breasts. This was affecting me in ways I was too inexperianced to fathom. As he pulled his hands away my bra went with them and again I was veiwed by him with great and evident satisfaction. He then pulled me towards him and kissed me deep.
His skin against mine, especially my breasts against his chest felt absolutely heavenly. I was spinning again drunk by all the new and exciting sensations. Darrin's hands roamed my bare back and sides. They trailed flame. Darrin's hands came around front and unfastened my belt and shorts. Then, working his hands in semicircles around my body, fingertips to my flesh he slid them slowly down and off. When they were down and after I stepped out of them, we separated and once more he took stock in my body with a smile. He put his finger on my lips and I kissed it. He then slowly with the one finger carressed down my chin and to my neck. The sensation rocked me as it slid down between by budding breasts and their pink puffy nipples and traced a figure 8 around them both before continuing down to my navel. From my navel he slipped the finger into the band of my white cotton panties and with an elaberate swirl just above my pussy he hooked the material with it. I started to tremble and had to lean on Darrin. He then pulled the material back and gazed down inside at the small growing patch of fine fur covering my mound. Once no longer satisfied with his limited veiw he pulled the panties off, kneeling in the process. He examined the underwear, working the crotch in between his fingers and smiled at me knowingly. Once discarded he returned to me and grabbed both of my butt cheeks in his hands and held them firmly. He leaned closer his eyes examining my sex and then he straitened a bit and kissed my belly while he pulled me into him tight.
Darrin then pulled me to the ground and lay me down. I complied, laying on my back, legs apart for his exploration. Like a tiger over his prey he came about, placing himself between my legs, his face less than a foot away from my pink wet cunny. I felt pangs that could only be driven away by working my hips up and down, to and fro. Darrin moved onto his elbows his hands running up both of my inner thighs. This sent me wheeling and as my mind flew I felt his mouth close upon my pussy. His tounge lapped deep into me and I realed. He continued to kiss suck and lick at me and though I felt what he was doing was dirty I liked it. I wanted it. I wanted this feeling to never end. But just as I thought there could be nothing greater in the whole world, I felt a pressure gathering. A tingle at first, but I could feel it grow. I let the tension build and build. Then suddenly I began to loose all control. I was lost to the world as I was whisked away upon a raging river that shook me deep unto my very foundation, to my very core. But the ride, while intence, was far too short and I found myself back with Darrin gingerly now tending to my pleasure. I realised I was sweating and tired but wanting more.
Darrin smiled and moved up along side me, his hands exploring this way and that as he made his way. "Was that your first orgasm?" He asked. I nodded and hugged him to me kissing him. I was a bit shocked at first realising that now when I kissed him it was me I tasted. My lips were too hungery to care though and he held and carressed me like this for a few minutes. His hard penis was poking and grinding into me. "Cathy?" he started, "I need to let off some pressure too. Will you help me?"
I became terrified,"NO! We can't make a baby! My mom would kill me and bury me in the garden. My dad would make a scarecrow out of your stuffed skin and bones!"
It was Darrin's turn to looked shocked now. "Oh... I don't need to get you pregnant babe. I just need you to help. You wont get pregnant I wont let you. I promice. It is very mature and wise of you to know where to draw the line though. I'm proud of you. Can we though, take care of .. it?"
"What have I got to do?" I asked not sure.
Darrin rolled over onto his back easily pulling me with him. I was now atop him. "Now sit up, here on my penis. I don't want you to put it in, just sit on it like this with it laying against me." I did as I was told. "Now press down on it and rock your hips. Roll it around on my belly." As I did this it was easy to see he liked it. His hands started to kneed my thighs, but then wandered aimlessly his fingertips drawing odd patterns on my skin and breasts. I quickly found that as I was pleasing him I was also pleasing myself, my own wetness intensifying the experiance. As I looked down I could see the purple head of his cock poking out from the whisps of hair that had started to grow. I found that his hardness pressed into my clit just right and felt wonderful. I settled in and enjoyed the ride. It wasn't long, maybe a few minutes, then Darrin began to breath heavy and thrash about holding tight to my hips and pumping me onto him. "I'm going to cum!" he said through clenched teeth. A moment later his eyes opened and seemed to roll back into his skull and his thrashing became jerking. A thick white stream of fluid shot from his penis and halfway up his chest. His next contraction jetted as he pulled his cock back shooting semen all over my puss which made the return stroke slip and slide, enhancing our enjoyment. Feeling this he pumped harder and on the third stroke we got out of sync. As I came back he thrust up, his slick cum covering my pussy did the rest. His cock impacted my pubic bone and was deflected up and into my wet vagina. Our bodies already in motion collided with his large cock punching through my hymen and deep into my womb. I could, through the pain, feel the pulse of hot sperm jet against my cervix. I kicked forward hard tearing his cock from my sore pussy.
As the pain passed I opened my eyes and there was Darrin holding me by the shoulders looking into my eyes with worry and concearn on his brow. "Are you alright?" he ventured. At the time I really didn't feel alright, but I nodded anyway. "This is very important Cathy I want you to think and be sure. When was your last period, monthly, or whatever you call it?"
"Its due, maybe over due why?" I said as I looked down and noticed the blood. "OH GOD! Im so sorry Darrin I didn't know!" I was mortified to have begun my period now. What a mess I had made of us. I curled up into a ball and began to cry.
Darrin came to me. At first I shrugged off his attempts at comfort but he was going nowhere. "I don't think that you are having your period Cathy. Its ok. This is normal. I think I just broke your cherry its supposed to bleed a little. It hurts for a girl the first time. But the next lucky guy you let enter you...will make you feel beter than anything you have felt so far. Come now lets get you cleaned up before it starts to dry." With that he took his T-shirt and began to clean me up. He was very attentive as he cleaned me. "You are very beautiful Cathy I am a lucky man." Once I was clean he retreived my clothes and like a little girl he dressed me. My panties were cold from the dampness that still remained.
once I was dressed he dressed himself. Finally durring this I noticed his flacid penis. The change was facinating.
"Am I pregnant?" I asked.
"If you're overdue for a period and have not had sex before its not likely." He answered. "I will check on you next week at the corner store ok? By then hopefully we will know."
He walked me as far as he could. His T-shirt was wadded up and stuffed into his pocket. Then, just as we parted, he pressed a finger to my cheek and smiled. "See ya cutie," he said and hurried me on my way. He stood there as I walked away watching me go and waived to me just before I disappeared from sight.

A week went by fast and I thought alot about what had happened. I found that Darrin made me feel special like no one else ever did. I was sure I loved him. I knew that if I was pregnant no one would understand. Yet, while I knew this, in my precious little heart part of me hoped that I was. I hoped that we would then get married and get a house of our own. I could then get a cat. My mother was allergic. It wasn't to be however. Two days later I started my period which to me seemed rather heavy but maybe not. By the time I was to meet with Darrin it had ended.
I got to the store a little later than we had agreed Upon. Jan had come over earlier in the day and finaly left for lunch. I was afraid Darrin wouldn't be there when I arrived but to my releif he was. He was anxious to hear if I was pregnant or not, but I didn't tell him right away. I asked him alot of "what if" questions. If I was would he marry me? Could I get a cat? Things like that. He squirmed alot but finally I told him I wasn't and had just finished my period. He looked releived then explained that, as nice a dream as it was that, if I had created that in reality, I would be quite unhappy for years. But once the baby talk was concluded he lightened up a great deal and we talked for almost an hour. The topic eventually turned to sex. It wasnt long before we were off to the shack for another lesson.
This time I was to learn oral. He told me this way there was no chance of an accident. My first orgasm he said was from oral sex he gave me. Before we started there were alot of rules and explanation.
"OK," he began,"first let me get it out." He removed his pants and sat down his already hard cock in hand. First you must learn how to hold it and stroke it. I reached up and wrapped my tiny hand around his member as best I could. As instructed I slid the skin about an inch up and then an inch down. The trick he said was to not pull the skin taught. It hurt if streched too much. That I found, was fairly easy to get used to. The hard part is he liked me to squeese pretty hard and my hand would get tired. I was supposed to squeese at the bottom of a stroke and not as much at the top. From time to time he would take over and do it for himself to see just how he did it for himself so he could then show me. I kinda liked having it in my hand and watching him enjoy the whole thing. Of course I was getting horny too. I wanted to orgasm again and while I liked this, it wasn't going to bring me releif.
Darrin after a few minutes had enough and stopped me just before he came. I didn't understand why at first but he explained. "Now. I want you to put my dick inside your mouth and get it really wet; good and wet. The idea now is to wet my dick so your hands can slide up and down." and again he repeated some rules like being really careful about letting my teeth hit. I took the soft rubbey tip into my mouth a little aprehencively. I kind of just took a moment to take in the feel and taste of it I poked at the hole in it with my tounge. I don't know why, I just wanted to. He didn't say not to though and he didn't complain when I did so I guess it was okay. Again I asked him to promice not to pee in my mouth and I could see he was bothered that I would make him promise again. I then set about my lesson. I sucked and jerked at his cock for quite a while, he would moan and say "yeah, yeah" alot. It was easy to see what he liked and what he didn't. I could tell he wasn't paying much attention to me though so I sneaked a hand down and started to rub myself to give some releif to my aching pussy. I don't think he caught me doing myself. I hoped he wouldn't get upset if he did. Soon I found it difficult to continue. While my jaw did hurt some, It was my divided attention that was proving to be a challenge. I finally desided I couldn't orgasm without loosing control and scrape him with my teeth so I just consentrated on soothing the ache for now.
After a while Darrin stopped his coaching and just lay back, his jaw slack, his eyes closed. he vocalised is pleasure without words only sounds. He put his hands on my shoulder and head working me onto him. I could feel him straiten his legs and tense up. He grew quiet, except for when he would gulp in air and hold it. Then he said in a rush,"I'm going to come!" I wasn't sure what that ment so I just kept sucking him. He then pushed me off and took his cock in his hand and began to jerk it himself. His cum flew through the air in thick gooey white bursts and onto me. Now I understood what he ment but by the time I could move it was over. I had cum all over my little dress and blouse. The cum on my nose tickled a bit as it ran but was easier to clean up than my clothes.
"I can't beleive you Pee'd on me!" I yelled.
"Its not piss" he laughed,"calm down its cum. Its my seed that makes babies when it gets into your pussy. I warned you, but you didn't move. I was gonna cum in your mouth, I really wanted to but wasn't sure if you wanted me too."
I was still a bit upset. "GROSS! it lookes like snot!"
Darrin looked pained. "Hey how would you like it if I said you had an ugly baby!"
"Babies aren't ugly they're adorable!" I shot back shocked.
"My sperm isn't gross either. Its part of me. Its very rude of you to say that. In Egypt guys have like 20 wives and they all have to fight to get his cum. In france there are women called prostitutes that walk the streets asking guys if they can swallow their cum! In japan girls take baths in it. In big cities they have special sperm banks to save your cum in." He seemed pretty upset and I could see I hurt his feelings. "Smell it. go ahead!" I did as I was told and didn't notice much. "See It smells nice and clean. Now feel it, rub it between your fingers. See its nice and slippery and creamy it feels cool. Inside your body Its magical because it makes babies. On your body it is like lotion that feels great when rubbed in. Some women love to swallow as much of it as they can. I guess you haven't gotten old enough yet to appreciate it though so I'll let it slide. But please keep an open mind. Someday You'll see. You'll love it and wont be able to get enough."
"Im sorry Darrin," was all I could say. Looking at the white goo I found it hard to beleive that it was such a precious substance. I however was not in a possition to argue. I was actually upset more about the fact I was still very horny and Darrin didn't seem like he was going to satisfy me. I wanted to get back on track so he would make me feel good. I decided finally to take his slippery cum and try to use it to stroke him hard again. It worked pretty good. Then I took off my blouse and bra to "let them dry." This worked really well. After I set them aside he was right behind me.
He spun me around and after stroking my little breasts, he kissed me full on and hungrily. Soon he kneeled to the floor and removed the rest of my clothes, again taking time to inspect the soaked crotch of my panties. Smiling he told me it was time I got a good fuck, and since I was just over my period He could cum in me and not get me pregnant. He lay me on my back and touched his searing tounge to my aching pussy. I wanted to orgasm right away. I think I could have if he had given me another moment: just a few seconds. My hips pumped and bucked in protest as he pulled away. I found myself hungrily wanting to shove him back down into my mound. But it was already too late he was kissing his way up my body. Each kiss sending warm ripples across my stormy sea. It pained me that he was taking his time and leaving me wanting. finally he made his way up so we were face to face, our lips locked in a tangle of passion.
Then I felt his member press against my poor weaping cunny. I was a bit startled realising what he was trying to do. I remembered the pain. I went to speak but he gently shushed me. he assured me I could not get pregnant now and that it would be all right. He said that the worst was over and now I was ready to know true love.
I swooned and yeilded to his desire. I felt him brushing his cock up and down my wet slot. I spread my legs wider in direct contradiction to my fear. Finaly my lips parted and accepted him into me. He worked it gently in and out gaining about a half inch with every stroke. The growing pressure within me as it filled me was deeply satisfying. I was flushed by the sensation of his shaft passing over my small clit. I found by arcing my back I could press it firmly against his cock and get a good rush to sooth my need. Then I felt the head of his cock press against the very bottom of my womb and that combined with the fullness of my belly rushed me to the edge. I wrapped my arms and legs about Darrin and pulled him into me with all my might. I pulled him into me so deep that I found myself stretched to capacity, but I still wanted more. I ground my hips, I urged him to go faster.
He asked me if I liked getting fucked and I nodded. He asked again and I said ,"yes yes"
I started to moan quietly and he urged me to moan louder. Again and again he urged me to moan louder. It wasn't long before I was nearly screaming like an enraptured animal. I didn't care if anyone heard. I didn't care if Darrin was wrong and I did get pregnant. I found I was anxious to feel his hot cum spray into my swealtering womb. The thought of his sperm swimming into my body and making a little baby overwealmed me.
I exploded, reality seamed like a dream. All I could feel has him pounding deep into me. All I could hear was a distant cry, my voice expressing my joy independant of my thought. Then as I was coming down, coming back to reality, I releaced my clawing hands from Darrins back as I felt his orgasm begin. I held him to me as he groaned and punched his cock deep into me. I reveled in the fealing as he let loose a flood of fertile semen into my waiting belly. I blessed each pulse, wishing each little sperm luck on its journey. I finally understood the wonder in that precious goo.

I asked my mother the next day about harem's and prostitutes. She was calm at first if not curous why I was asking. She did however confirm their existance but wouldn't tell me more. Instead she cornered me and grilled me. She wanted to know where I had learned of such things. Who was talking about harrems and prostitutes she wanted to know. She would not let me go untill I gave her a name. Finally under threat of the belt I crumbled. But it was Larry Howser's name I gave her, not Darrin's. I have never asked my mother anything about sex again.
Darrin and I met the next day as agreed and this time I forced myself to suck down his cum. I can't say I enjoyed the taste, but the effect of eagerly taking his cock and cum was well worth it. I was proud to have blown his mind and make him so horny that he was upon me almost instantly after catching his breath. I learned quickly that the way to his heart was not through his stomach but through his semen.
We met every day for about a week and each day we fucked like rabbits. Each time he would try to show me somthing new. Each time I would try to think of somthing that would blow his mind. He would cum 2 or 3 times each time we got together. I knew I had done good if I got a precious third time. At the end of the week Darrin told me if we continued I would get pregnant. I didn't want to but I didn't care either. Seeing this Darrin decided we should not see each other for a few days. He said he too would not be able to resist having sex if we met. He said he loved me too much to do that to me.
That week was hell. I spent it with Jan who was still trying to get another shot at Larry. He was really mad at me for getting him into trouble and lying. So coersing him to kiss Jan and trust me not to tell was hopeless. I almost told Jan about me and Darrin, but I was afraid she'd want to watch or join and I wasn't about to share Darrin. I missed him terribly. I spent some time reading the magazines he had hidden in the rafters for information and ideas.

As agreed I called him from a pay phone as soon as my period ended. I must say while he made it to our shack in record time, It seemed like for ever. We were in each others arms instantly in heat. We didn't waste any time getting his hard cock into me. We didn't even undress. My panties just got moved aside and I was bent over and held onto a wall for support. I ordered Darrin to wait untill I came before he got his. It was not easy for him and I was not showing him any mercy with me humping back into him. My moaning was now automatic but I was loud even for me. When I came I almost collapsed but Darrin helped me to remain standing. Im not sure if it was out of kindness or desire to not have his fucking interupted. He was close and I heard what I was waiting for. "I-Im...Cummmm!" He managed.
I spun around and with my left hand grabbed his balls and with my right I gripped his shaft still slick from my orgasm. I thrust the bloated member into my mouth, my tounge working along the sides and underneth. I pumped my hand jacking his seed into my mouth. It was hot and thicker that I have ever seen it. There was so much I couldn't swallow it all and some escaped my tight lip lock. He grabbed my head and shoved his cock hard into the back of my throat gagging me. If not for my jacking hand I think he may have shoved it out the back of my head, which was firmly against the wall now. I weathered the storm. I can't say it wasn't unpleasant being gagged with each trust and coughing on cum being shot down my throat, but the knowledge that I had diven him to loose control was a real victory worth the punishment. When he was done he appologised repeatedly but I assured him it was ok.
After that first time we felt less urgent and could take our time just enjoying each others bodies. For the next few days we met and pleased each other. It seemed like Darrin had run out of things to teach me which was ok because I could explore my own interests more. We would meet each morning at about 8 at the shack and make love till about 10 then we would go our seperate ways. I would then seek out Jan, what he did I didn't know. I liked this routine.
Then one day Darrin and I walked into the shack and I was suprised to see six other guys sitting around reading the magazines. Shocked I looked to Darrin who just had a disgusted look on his face. All the guys froze and we just kinda stood there for a minute. The boys ranged in age from 14 to 17 it looked and many of them were staring at me.
"Well, well look what the cat dragged in. Kev said he saw you headed back here to the shack alot. We got curious and thought we'd ask." He said then looked at me like I was a bug. "Don't tell me that's the reason, I'm sure you could do better than a sixth grader." He sneered.
"Hey man, cool it!" Darrin said dangerously. "You ain't my daddy, who are you to tell me who I can see and who I can't. Even if the bastard tried to tell me what to do I'd tell him to fuck himself. And yeah, I like her. If you got a problem with that you got a problem with me. Darrin just stared at the other boy his eyes full of fire. The other boy just got out a cigarette and lit it.

This was really all my doing. I had made the bet depressed by my lack of success with women. I was just complaining when Darrin bet me 200 dollars he could get me laid. I laughed and took the bet but I didn't really take it serious. Now I was here with two hundred dollars cash in my pocket and It looked like it was actually gonna happen.
She was young, real young, but I was shocked at how beautiful she was. She had a tiny little waist and full hips. Her breasts looked huge for a 13 year old and some high school girls wished they had that much. They were oh so round, just like oranges and perky. Her face while odviously very nervous was angelic with oh so white skin and full pink lips. Her bright blue eye's were large and expressive. She chewed slightly at her lower lip not sure of what to make of her situation. She stood close to Darrin almost as if she were trying to hide her small frame behind his.
"Hey Darrin its your life, but I thought you could do better. That's all." said Nick. He and Darrin had planned this out. The rest of us were to sit back and keep quiet untill qued.
"Better?! You don't know what your talking about. Look at her she's gorgeous!" Darrin countered.
"She's a KID!" Nick pointed out.
"Look I know what I'm doing. My step father is 8 years older than my mom. Her mom is 3 years younger than her dad. Your mom is what 4 or 5 years younger than your dad?. She's only four years younger than me. Yeah she's young, but when you look at it like that, its not like she's too young for me. In a year or two people won't even notice the age difference. She's worth the wait." Darrin explained.
"Okay, If you say so Darrin but you have needs. You have needs that such a young girl couldn't possibly tend to. There is no way she can take good care of you in the way you need." Nick offered as if giving friendly advice.
"I CAN TOO!" shot the now firey little girl very much to the surprise of us all. She still clung to Darrin and was behind him but she was not just gonna hide. We all waited for her to say more but she just stood there behind him eye's burning. There was a long silence as Darrin's and Nick's script was now useless.
"I'm sure you feel that way hun, but I don't think you really understand the needs of an adult. Its just not possible at your age." Nick came up with finally. "I know you like him, but beleive me when I say he had needs you can't take care of."
"She does just fine if you must know Nick. So let it drop." Darrin added when Nicks comment only provoked a determined glare from Cathy. "She does better than any girl my age."
Nick feigned surprise and gave a sceptical look at Cathy. We, as this was a que, started to argue that no girl so young could sex him sufficiently. We called him a liar. We told him not to lie to the girl about his needs till even she began to think he was hiding something. She turned and looked up to him her eyes asking the question.
Darrin waved us off with his hand, an angry look on his face. He then turned to Cathy and smiled. "I'm sorry I got you into this mess Cathy. Don't you listen to them. You take care of me in every way a woman should. You have nothing to fear."
"Prove it then!" Nick dared. "If she knows what your needs are and how to satisfy them, let her. Is that why you came here? Or are you just trying to be all noble and hide the truth from her. Go ahead Cathy, show us how you satisfy your man or are you too ... little. Darrin's our friend I dont want to see him hurting, don't worry what happens in here will be kept secret."
Cathy looked to Darrin for support, not knowing what to do. He just sighed, nodded, then bent down and kissed her gently. "Show em baby. Show em that you are the best a man can get." He said with a sly smile his hands stroking her cheeks. She just giggled and returned his smile then looked to the rest of us. The devil danced in her eyes to a tune of whimsy and lust. My soul was hers for the taking.
Darrin unfastened his belt and slowly opened his pants. He then kicked off his shoes and pulled the pants off. Cathy just stood there patiently. When he was down to his underwear she reached out her hand and carressed his Cock! It only took a moment for him to strip off his shirt and underwear. Almost immediately Cathy got down on her knees and gently stoked his cock with her fingertips. I SWEAR she Didn't seem the least bit daunted by the crowd looking on or the naked man before her! She acted as if this kinda thing happened everyday!
Then after a few moments of light brushing her tiny hand wrapped around his cock and wet her lips. She was dwarfed by Darrin in comparison. She was like a tiny version of a full grown woman just with rosy cheeks and a baby face. To my disbeleif that baby face was now opening up to accept a man's Cock. Her little pink tounge peeked out as she leaned into Darrin and met the shaft of his rod. She sucked in the swollen member her hand slowly stroking the base. Her left hand reached around and caressed Darrin from the back of his knee to his ass. She moaned too as if it was the greatest tasting thing she had ever known. She started real slow and as Darrin got closer she went faster and harder. Her wandering left hand started to stroke his balls. She attacked his organ demanding him to produce his gooey wad. Finally Darrin could take no more and he shot his load. As he shook and rocked she suckled and stroked. Not one drop of his cum excaped her hungery lips. Even as his orgasm was ending she continued keeping him on edge for as long as it was possible. I was really gonna get my 200 bucks worth!
When Darrin regained his strength, which took some time, he spoke. "See, I dare any of you to find any woman of any age so gifted!" With that, she sat there on the floor, her back strait like she had just been named queen, and smiled with proud confidence. She was a sight. She was sitting on her rear but her legs were folded back and to the sides of her thighs. Her knee length white socks and pink sneakers that matched her frilly skirt drove me crasy. I longed to see the breasts hidden beneith her white blouse and bra which could be seen through the thin faberic. She was so cocky and full of fire. I wanted to fill her with my cock and fire!
"That was a spectacular job I admit." Congratulated Nick. "Best I think I have ever witnessed, but Darrin you need to get fucked too or you'll go mad! She looks like a virgin. Thats not a bad thing for her but for you.... You cant make it three years deprived like that. If you want to marry her you'll still have to see girls who aren't too young and inexperianced to fuck!"
"I can't fuck her now I'm spent. But she is a great fuck!" Darrin said.
Nick looked at Cathy aprehensively then asked. "Have you ever fucked before...honestly. Darrin needs to be fucked right or you can never have a future together."
"We MAKE LOVE all the time. He has never complained and if he needs me to do something, I will." Cathy responded smugly.
Nick smiled ,"You mean as far as you know. Sex is an art, a trained skill. You may be doing your best but still that just may not be good enough. We'll see." Nick then walked over and gently took her hand and he led her to the pile of carpet scraps that would serve as a bed. He smiled at her and set her on the makeshift matress. "I hope you are right and that you and Darrin have a long and happy life." He then kissed her on the cheek and lay her back. She looked a bit nervous but didn't resist. He then lay his hands on her knees and with his plams down slid them slowly up and under her Skirt. When his hands reached her hips his thumbs traced down the leg seams of her panties untill they rested firmly on her soft wet mound. He rubbed her with his thumbs for a few minutes and Cathy was soon compleatly relaxed. Seeing she was ready he rolled his fingers under the waist band and slowly pulled down on them. Cathy raised her bottom to allow the panties to be pulled free.
I could easily tell the material was soaked and I could smell her aroma wafting through the air. Maybe it was my imagination. One thing was for sure. I was out of my mind with impatience.
Nick slowly inserted his finger into the girl which made her moan. I could hear the wetness as he proceeded to work. It was odvious that this girl didn't need "warming up" and Nick skipped ahead. He took his glossy wet fingers and started to unbutton Cathy's blouse. All the while he did this You could see her pevis twist and pump for no apparent reason. Nick pulled the shirt free and next would be the bra or skirt. Either one would present an excellent sight to behold. Nick chose the bra. To remove it he had her sit up to kiss him and in a quick move had the hooks undone. As he lay her back down he slid the bra down her arms holding her arms guiding her down which ment she could not conseal her naked breasts. They were A good size for a 13 year old and the nipples were a bright pink and wide, taking a shape unto themselves. Her skin was milky white and begged to be touched. Her erect little girl nips were calling to be sucked. Nick moved quickly to remove the skirt, unfastening it and sliding it free. Only a small amount of fine brownish hair had grown and her pubic mound rose gently above her flat tummy. I was surprised as well to see the start of a womanly waist and hips. Her swollen brite pink lips peeked out from the young slit that glistened with dew.
Nick then pulled her up and Had her spin slowly around so we could all get a good look. After this he had her kneel down on the bed and he bent her over. She looked over her shoulder at him while she rested on her elbows. She was so calm. Nick moved up behind her and kneeded her butt for a moment and then striped off his T-shirt and dropped his pants to his knees. He was rock hard like the rest of us his cock head purple from desire. He moved in and began working it into Cathy who help by fucking back at him. It was only a moment untill he was in balls deep. He was banging her hard in no time to which she reciprocated. Her moans quickly rose to a wail. While this almost made me cum rubbing my cock through my pants I was also worried someone would hear. She was quite loud and thrashing her head about.
Nick gave us the sign to undress. She was getting a real pounding and we could actually hear Nicks balls smack her clit with his rapid powerful strokes. Her eyes were shut tight. Her babyface was twisted with lustful pleasure. It was doubtfull she even noticed all of us getting undressed. Then she came. Her body shuttered and her back arced like a cats back when petted. A string of drool escaped her open mouth.
Her beautiful eyes opened, fogged by her spasms. She saw now that we were all naked. She looked from one of us to the other then finally to Darrin who still sat on a stump and slumping back against the near wall. She looked at him for guidance but he gave none except to watch smiling. She then lowered her head closed her eyes and started humping furiously back at Nick.
Nick signaled me to move up and put my cock in her mouth but I wasn't gonna settle for a blowjob. If I only got one shot I was gonna get some pussy. He seemed to understand and silently signaled Joe to move up. As soon as Joe touched her hair she looked up at him and then to his cock just a foot from her face. He moved it closer and she understood. She wasn't eager but complied with the request, grabbing him and pulling him into her mouth. This was a good thing because it quieted her and put me at ease. We formed a circle around our little slut and those of us who were not lucky enough to be enguaged by her were stroking to the smoldering vision before us.
Chuck the youngest here came first. His spunk spit out and laced across Cathy's back. Feeling the hot splash she angled her head still sucking and looked out the corner of her eye in time to see him jerking and trying to land his cum on her. Half of his impressive load was spent on her thigh and knee high sock. She just gave a toothy smile with Joes cock still between them and winked before going back to work on Joe.
Nick was the next to go. He had been going strong just riding her and enjoying the ride when she reached back and started to stroke his balls. He was a bit shocked at first then lost it, blowing his load all over Cathy's back and round pale ass. Joe shot his bolt at that point too as Cathy turned to watch Nick spray her. She had stroked his cock letting her whole hand play across his shaft and balls and finally jerking him palm down. As Joe let loose his load pasted into Cathy's beautiful brown hair. She turned to look and got a shot across her brow. She was quite pleased with herself at this point it seamed.
I Moved in picking her up. I lay down on my back and pulled her on top of me. She wasted no time and took my cock in her slight little hands and pressed it into her. Her hair formed a halo about her head as she smiled down upon me.
"Don't you cum inside her man. There are others in line ya know," Nick told me. "That goes for all of you. Don't leave a mess for the next guy ya dig?" Cathy had already worked herself onto my rod and had started to fuck me. Hearing this she stopped, looked at the guys standing with cocks in hand and to me and gave a short chuckle. She started humping again and let her tounge play across her lips.
She was my goddess. I let my hands smooth up her pure white body and took in the soft satiny flesh of her breasts. I fingered gently her nipples and guaged the pleasure it brought to her. I pulled her down and sucked them hard then let my tounge play across them. To my dismay Cory came up and with two fingers to her chin he led her to his aching cock. Still I couldn't complain. It was my cock now that was burried into her tight hole. I could see my shaft as it disapeared into her wet split. I could see her tiny pink clit rub against my manhood. I could feel her muscles squeeze at it as she fucked. It was my Cockhead that plunged deep into her body to come firmly to rest against her cervix. It was my bare shaft that was poised to plant seed into her lovely body. I could feel my balls begin to tighten. I could feel the chills as my orgasm mounted. I tried to fight it, to enjoy it as long as I could and managed to hold myself just at the brink.
As I lay there my body tence enjoying the electric sensations playing across my cock and balls she leaned down to me. Her hard nipples and soft warm breasts pressed into my bare chest. In a whisper soft and sweet she said,"Give me your cum, fill my womb with your beloved seed. I want it as badly as you wish to give it. Let it go." With that said she came grinding pumping and sucking at the nape of my neck. As her tight cunt grasped my cock I lost it flooding her. I could feel the muscles of her orgasm milk the seed from my staff plowing deeply into her womb. I was in a daze and all I knew was the feel of her clutching fully on to me.
As I came to my sences She was being dragged off of me by the guys. They were quite upset that I had not done as instructed. However judging by the delight in Cathy's devilish eye's I could tell she had no intention of letting me keep that promice from the start. I was then rather unceremoniously kicked off the bed.
After using her panties as a wash cloth the games continued. She quickly finished off the other four and in all it took only 20 minutes for her to get through all six of us. But she wasn't done. She then insisted that each of us orgasm again. Since I had had intercourse, the second time around she sucked me off. It wasn't long before we gave up on trying to wipe her off since her panties had become saturated and taking the time killed the momentum. This second round took about 45 minutes. Even after this time, allowing a short rest, some of us fell upon her for even more sex.
We has started this orgy sometime after 9 it was now aproaching noon. "SHIT!" Nick exclaimed. Its almost noon get your asses dressed or we'll be late for the Flic! We gotta get to Joey's house and get my car. The girls will kill us if we're late. MOVE IT!" With that we scambled to get dressed. Even I had a date for the movie. It was a blind date and she probably looked like a mule that had fallen from a train, but it was still a date.
Mike was currently getting blown by Cathy and he just wanted to finish. He grabbed her head and really started to let her have it. She choked and gagged. Tears welled up and ran in steams down her cheeks but still she did not complain. She allowed the vicious assault from mikes large cock untill he finally came. When he did he pulled her head hard onto his cock lancing it down her throat. She struggled and squirmed as his orgasm flooded down her open throat. Finally, when released she bent over and coughed on his seed. "Fuck Darrin I have to admit she is probably the biggest cum slut on the face of the planet. What a nasty fucking whore you have turned her into. You are the MAN!" Mike laughed as he pulled on his shorts and T-shirt. Darrin just rolled his eyes and went outside to talk to Nick
Hoarsely Cathy asked, "You're going to see a movie? Can I go, please!"
"Hah!" laughed Mike. "Look at yourself you're a fucking mess! I wouldn't wana be seen with you, and besided I don't think Mellissa would be to happy with you tagging along."
"Melissa?" Cathy rasped.
"Darrin's girlfriend Melissa. DUH!"
"I'm Darrin's girlfriend" Cathy managed, now getting quite upset.
Mike just laughed rudely in her face as if it was the funniest thing he had ever heard. "Listen hun, there are girls that you marry and girls that you FUCK. You are a cum slut, the kind you FUCK and hope nobody finds out. You like to FUCK don't you? Well don't worry because we'll be around to keep your nasty cunt stuffed." With that he left, laughing as he went. Cathy's eyes were dark puddles. Her mouth quivered. She was coughing still.
Darrin came in and saw me and Joe just standing there trying to figure out what to say. We could not beleive what Mike had just done and couldn't act. "Hey you two, were outta here. Move it."
then he looked down at Cathy who was still sitting naked on the floor. "You ok?"
"Mike ..." she started, but stopped as she tried to figure out how to proceed.
"Yeah," Darrin said, "he was really rough on you. I'll talk to him. I'm amaized you could take that. I would have stopped it if I thought you were in trouble."
"Don't go with them stay here with me." Cathy pleaded.
"I can't" Darrin laughed, "I already promiced them I would go. You're a big girl you can dress yourself. I am sorry to leave you like this though."
"Darrin, If you truely love me you will do as I ask and stay with me." she said.
"You want me to break my promice?" he asked.
"I need you to stay. You must stay if you love me." Cathy's said. A tear broke loose and slowly rolled down her cheek
"I'm not staying. I got things to do. You'll just have to forgive me later. I'll make it up to you later but I'm going. Sorry," he insisted a little irritated. Then he waved us out of the shack and we walked away.
As we got out of ear shot I said, "Mike told her about Mellissa your girlfriend. He told her about the date. He called her a slut and told her she was only good for fucking. He has her thinking you don't really care about her. If you come with us to the movies she will know he was right. She's probably crying her eyes out in there now. You gotta stay with her."
"I'm gonna kill that big mouthed scum sucking rat. What in the fuck was he thinking!" Darrin raged and stormed down the trail towards Joe's house. "I'm gonna Kick his ass. He's gonna need a wheelchair and a straw when I'm done with him!"
"Hey Wait up!" I yelled, "What about Cathy back there?"
"Pfft. She's just a stupid kid. I can smooth things over with her later. Its a peice of cake, but mike has no right fucking opening his mouth like that about my private buisness!"
I slowed up at that. I wanted to go back to her if he wasn't, but who was I? Just another jerk, no,... I was just a john who had paid to use her. Darrin had whored her out. I started to feel sick. I should have gone back, but instead I chose not to pass up a chance at finding love in a blind date. Whats worse, having no conscients or, ignoring it.

I sat there on the floor just stairing at the door after they left. I kept thinking that Darrin would come back through. Naked and cold I gathered my things, still focusing on the closed door and waiting. I had my bra and blouse on before I realised my mistake. The cum was seeping throught the fabric plastering it to my skin. I was a sticky mess. Suddenly I felt very lonely. I realised Darrin wasn't coming back, but what I was bothered by was the fact that even though I insisted he stay, he still left. My mother had told me durring our sex talk that girls had to wait till they were married to have sex because boys would do or say almost anything to make me pregnant. It was instinct she said they couldn't help it. Its funny how every warning my mother would ever give me made no sence untill after I had done the opposite.
I thought long and hard as to whether or not to put on my drenched panties. They had been used at first to clean me after I made them cum in me. It was funny at the time, showing them I could make love like any girl their age. Of course It was odvious why they didn't want to cum in me after the first one had. Still, It was fun to watch em get all frustrated when they did. It was a game really to me, a game I was winning. Finaly I decided I couldn't walk home with no panties on so I toughed it out and put them on. After putting on my skirt I realised I would have to wait a while till my cloths dried.
I thought about the words Mike said. I definatly didn't like him but could I beleive him? Was he just being crule? He wasn't the least bit sorry for hurting me, that much was plain. I would have just dismissed it as a lie ment to hurt me had Darrin stayed. Darrin however didn't yeild to my needs as I would expect someone who truely loves me would.
I was scared now, knowing I would have to go home. The cum was drying but it was stiff in the faberic. It starched my hair too which was prooving to be an unmanigable mess. I thought about telling my mother some boys threw eggs out a car window at me but It didn't fit. Finally I just went to the river and walked in. We weren't supposed to swim here. The current was strong and there was garbage under the surface that you could get hurt on. The water was still icy from not having warmed up from the night before. It dropped off quickly as you entered. There, only a few feet from shore fighting the current, I washed my hair till the tangles let loose. My cloths got washed in the process. Soaked I fought my way back to shore and went home. I told my mother I had been following a butterfly and tripped into the river.
I didn't see or hear from Darrin for a week. I was crazy with jelousy, betrayal, unceartainty, loneliness, failure, and hope. What was worse was there was noone I could tell why I wasn't sleeping or eating. There was no one to ask for advice. I found that the mere thought of Mike, or oral sex, or even cum caused me to choke and panic for no reason. I didn't want to be a slut. I just wanted to be loved and make my lover happy. To do that I had to be happy too.
It was almost a month later when Darrin had some girl at a playground call the house and ask for me. "Hey sorry I haven't been able to get in touch with ya sooner. I'm headed to the store want some ice cream? I can tell you all about it then." he said quite casually. I wanted to yell and scream but mom was there.
"Yes, wrong Cathy, sorry," I said and went back to watching my TV show. When it went off I went to the store. I had my Ice cream and listened to Darrin tell me how busy he had been over the last few weeks. No mention was made of what had happened at the shack. I didn't laugh at his jokes. I just couldn't. Finally he asked me what was wrong. I told him right there and in public. "I want to be your girlfriend and I want everyone to know it." People looked and I didn't care. Darrin insisted I finish my ice cream and we would talk later.
In private I reasoned that now that all his friends knew, we only had to tell our folks we were in love. He argued that if our folks knew they wouldn't let us alone, we'd be watched. I told him It would only be untill we could get married and we would actually get to spend more time together if we didn't have to hide. Sex I said would still happen when we could manage. In the end he said he would have to think about it. He left for the navy just after christmas. I haven't spoken to him since. The only evil thoughs I think I have ever had were about him being boiled alive in a boiler accident. I'm not a violent person. I don't know why I thought I wanted this. But I thought it alot over the next few years.

I didn't date anyone seriously in high school. This was due mostly to the immature nature of the boys my age. They all seemed to be drooling perverts mostly interested in my breasts. They were a C-cup but my small size (I'm 5'1") Made them look bigger. I wished so much that my breasts would grow to press together like butt cheeks but that was not to be. Instead they formed this little tunnel. They tried to throw things into my wide cleavage and kept score. They would take any excuse or opportunity to look down my shirt. Often they would comment, "nice panties!" as they did. Occasionally a nice guy would come along and spark my interest. However, they could not pass my tests. Sure they seemed nice and would do or say anything I wanted, but that was the problem too. I didn't want a mindless slave enthralled by my physical charms. I didn't want to be humored so I could be layed. Neither would last. My beauty would fade in time by age or familiarity and once plundered the thrill of the hunt would be gone. I did make some friends who I thought would be suitable, but it got too complicated. All of the male friends I wanted to be with were just that: friends. To choose one would mean rejecting the others. I couldn't choose, I couldn't hurt any of them, so I suffered. I fantasized that one of them would get drunk and take me, or take a stand and choose for me. I wasn't that lucky. They flirted and hinted but never grew so bold.
After high school I grew depressed. I was18 and living with my parents still. My mother told me to find a job or a husband. Without school though finding dates was hard. It was Jan who came to my rescue. She had chosen to go to collage and was trying to become a teacher. It also let her keep tabs on her boyfriend since high school. "You would not beleive the SLUTS in the dorms Cathy!" she told me once.
Jan introduced me to this friend of Ryan her boyfriend. She told me he was a great guy; smart, funny and respectible. He was the life of the partys they went to. He knew an unlimited number of jokes. He was studying buisness and he said he was going to open a store of his own and his family apparently had some money. He was an only child she said and wanted to have lots of kids so they would always have someone to play with and look out for one another. She showed me his picture. He was a stunning blond. I couldn't help but wonder what was wrong with the guy. Why wasn't he taken?
That first date was agonising. He barely spoke to me. He just kind of smiled at me and kept asking if I would like him to get me anything. I kept waiting for him to be funny. I suppose he was trying but I didn't really find him all that amusing. we danced some but it was stiff.
An hour after walking in the door I dragged Jan to the rest room. Just as I was about to let into her she started to laugh hysterically. When I asked her what was so amusing, she explained that never in all the time Ryan had known Carl had he ever been so quiet. She said that he normally was quite the chatterbox but Ryan had told him to be careful not to talk my ear off. She told me that he was so nervous about blowing it with me, that he was paralysed. She ordered me to put up with him till he could get a grip. He was after all a virgin she explained. I wasn't easily sold. Frustrated she told me to wait fifteen minutes then come to the top of the stairs in the living room. I was promised a ride home in an hour if I did.
As I approached the rail I heard laughter. Looking down I could see Carl with his back to me talking to a small group. Jan was comming up the stairs with her finger to her lips. As I listened Carl started a joke about some poor big breasted blond getting caught in a revolving door. It was funny. Then as the laughter started to wane he started another. Each joke was funnier than the last but still related to the previous joke. He didn't stop to think he just went on. It was amaizing. He made faces, he did funny voices, and pantomimed along with each joke. He was terribly funny. But as I walked down the stairs and he finaly saw me he seemed to straiten up. He actually apologised about acting up. I tried to reassure him but he went back into his dossle shell anyway. I accepted the challenge.
We dated a few times and finally I got him to relax. Too relaxed Im afraid as I was pregnant with his child in less than 4 months. I tried to push him away so I could bear his child alone in shame as I deserved but he refused. Instead we were married. It was akward at first living with a man I hardly knew but he was kind. He took an active interest in our little one from the first time he felt her kick. The next four years were an absolute dream. Carls buisness made enough to support us comfortably after 2 years of hard work. I thought no other person in the world was as lucky as our little family. I had a hard time warming up to sexual activity though. I didn't want him to know of my past. I wanted to forget. He wanted me to perform oral sex but anything other than the basics made me anxious. I found I still gagged at the thought of oral sex. He was patient though and I was working through my problem.
Then he had an affair. We had married so fast he said there was no time to get to know what he really wanted in life. What he ment to say was "in a wife." He wanted to separate for a short time so he could "explore himself". I was screaming, crying, and throwing myself about in the car as he told me. I wanted to die. I would have gladly handed him the gun in preferance to this torture.
Then he ran the light. I was whipped around and made very dizy. Helpless, I watched as the roof of the car crunched in and the windsheild shattered. I tried to keep some papers from the store from flying out the open windsheild. There was a sharp pain in my side. Then everything came to a halt. Trapped in the car the roof bending me forward against the seat belt I found It wouldn't release. I looked to my left and that side of the car was crumpled and crushed, littered with glass and blood. I did not see Carl. I preyed he had been thrown clear to safety. I tried to shout but my side hurt too much. I kept wondering when someone would show up and help me out. I began to worry no one had seen the accident and/or the car was now out of sight from the road. Eventually people made it to the car, but they could not free me. They called 911.
I asked about my husband. "Where was he?" and, "Is he alright?"
Their answers were cryptic. "I'm more worried about you." "He'll be taken care of. Just relax." They would say.
Carl was gone.

Three months later, I was still a mess. My mother had taken Kelly my daughter to care for untill I got out of the hospital. A steel bar had punctured the car door and my waist. I was in the hospital for weeks with severe intestinal damage. Now I only cared for Kelly monday through friday. My mother cared for her on the weekends. She enjoyed the company now that my father was no more. Carl's family to my surprise knew that he wanted to leave me. They took over the buisness we had built. It seemed they had no interest in Kelly despite her being of their own flesh and blood. I wished they had taken kelly too. Then I would have no reason to suffer any further. My mother kept after me, pushing me to go on. I just couldn't. I wasn't sure how I would end it or even when I should. The descision was made but the details were unfinished. I guess I was just waiting for a sign, something to trigger the event, then maybe the how would take form.
One rainy day I was sitting on the couch just stairing at the wall. I was rethinking all my dreams. Like bubbles they would float up before me then burst. I had been there for hours when I heard a noise outside the house. It was a scraping sound. I heard it again. Curious I got up and investigated. Outside in the pooring rain was the neighbors boy raking the leaves from my lawn. He had red hair and blue eyes. At 12 years old his head seemed just a little to big for his gangly body. He was half finished and wholey soaked. I grabbed my coat and ran out to him.
"What are you doing? Its raining cats and dogs out here. You can do that anytime!" I called to him.
He stopped what he was doing and casually walked over smiling. "Its ok mam, I was supposed to do this yesterday when the weather was nice, but I put it off. Since garbage is tomorrow I gotta do it today. Its ok. Its a warm rain, kinda nice once you get used to it.." He smiled again and went back to his work.
"Your mother is gonna kill you. You don't have to do this!" I told him.
"Nope!" He corrected. "My dad sent me out here to do our lawn to teach me a lesson. There's not much she can do about it. Anyway, now that mine is done, I should do yours. It's ok I'll be done in a jiffy."
I tried to diswade him from the madness but he was adament. Finaly I surendered, "Are you hungery? Is there somthing you like to eat? I'll make it and you can eat it while your clothes dry."
"Can we have pizza? My dad doesn't like it so I never get to have it. I love it though. Pizza would be great!" He said excitedly and began to work just a bit faster at the thought.
How could I say no? I went into the house and called his mother for permition and then the pizza place just across the street and ordered a cheese pizza. When the delivery came he was just bagging up the last of the leaves. After paying for the pizza I had only three dollers to my name. I sat there wondering where all my money had gone. I didn't have an income and it just hit me that I was broke. I almost broke into tears except there was a knock at the door. It was Danny, all smiles and dripping, peering past me looking for his pizza. I couldn't help but smile back. He was so cute. I directed him to the bathroom where I told him to put on my husbands robe and give me all his wet things so I could dry them.
As he did this it occured to me to ask, "you've done a great job keeping the lawn. I must admit though my husband always delt with those things. Do I still owe you for any of the work?" I knew I couldn't pay him much and It probably would have been smarter to play ignorant but I asked anyhow.
"Uh....Yeah, sort of." He said. "My dad says that since I made the arrangement with your husband, you aren't obligated to pay if you don't want. Anyway, I figured since I was doing mine anyway I'd just keep doing yours for the rest of the season."
I was amazed at the boy's good nature, but still his efforts should be rewarded. "How much would he owe you now. I can't let you work for free."
"Well, lets see 7 dollers a week for 12 weeks? uuuuuh. um..."he thought aloud.
"84 dollars!" I gasped. While that wasn't exactly a fortune it was no small amount either. The thought of stiffing him for all his work was too much to bare. I went to my bed and collapsed crying. I owed alot of money I knew, but none of the rest matered. They certainly would not miss my money when I passed. However, to a young boy every penny is a fortune. He had earned it with his own sweat trusting in me to do what is right in the end. I burried my head deeper into my pillow so he wouldn't hear my pain.
"Hello?" Danny said poking his head out from the bathroom. He could see into my bedroom from the doorway. Knowing this I wiped my tears and took a deep breath trying to reign in my fealings. I managed a weak smile and turned to face him on the bed. He stood there in my doorway, holding his wet clothes in a basket I had given him. "You don't have to pay me. Its ok. Just the pizza is great."
The offer of charity from one so young was both precious and heart wrenching. I couldn't accept of course, but my voice deserted me when I attempted to speak. It just caught in my throat like some vial lie that couldn't fit through the constricting passage. I would pay him I vowed. I didn't know how but I would.
He set down the basket and came and sat on the edge of the bed just waiting for me to get a grip on myself. I don't remember exactly why but I reached up and pulled him to me, holding him tight. I cried. I cried because I hurt. I cried because I was lonely. I cried because my husband would have left me anyway and I would never know exactly why. I cried because I was crying. I clung to him and his precious heart. His selfless sacrifice was pure and beautiful. His warmth and weight on my body soothed me, and eased my loneliness. For now I didn't feel abandoned. It was the first time I felt this way since the accident. Then I felt it.
Danny had an erection and it was pressing into my thigh. I probably would never have noticed except he moved ever so gently. As I lay there I realised that ever so gently almost imperseptively he was humping at my leg. I was shocked to think he would take advantage of me at a time like this, but before I could get angry I realised I had his face shoved deep into my breasts. I had also been rubbing his back and running my hands through his hair. I had started this, not him. I should have ended it then, but I so needed to be held. I just couldn't. I let it go on.
Danny for the most part just lay there, with one hand trapped between my side and arm. The other lightly ran from my waist to just below my breast, a tender and innocent caress. After a half hour or so his strokes grew longer, down to my waist and up my side to where the breast met my body. His other hand was slowly working up to my right breast. Still, this was barely perceptible. I soon found that every few passes his hand would catch on my skirt and pull it ever so slightly higher. He would occasionaly rock his head into my breast getting a feel of them against his cheek. Finally his trapped hand made contact with my right breast and snuggled in tight around the base. The other would drift from my waist to my ass cheek. Just the thumb would brush the side of my left breast as it passed each time. He was wearing only my husbands robe now which had come open allowing his bare penis to rub the soft material of my dress. Before long he gave up hiding his actions. His hands firmly cupped my breasts and he ground his member into me freely.
I could sense that he was close but was holding back. Finally I leaned down and whispered into his ear. "Its ok Danny, ... finish." I kissed him on the head and he exploded. His cum spilled onto my dress as he shook and groaned through his ragged breath. When he was done we just lay there It was a tender and beautiful moment I though.
I finally gave in to my need. I rolled him over onto his back. A long sting of saliva ran from my breasts to the corner of his mouth. He seamed quite embarassed. I unziped the back of my dress and slid it over my head. I then removed the bra. Danny just lay their agape excited and lost for words. After my panties were gone I lay back on the bed. Danny just lay there proped up on one arm examining my woman's body. I longed for his touch but I could see he was unsure about what he should do. Occasionally he would give me a firtive glance but his attention was on my body.
"Take off the robe. I want you to make love to me. I will teach you everything you need to know to please a woman. I will teach you love and lovemaking. Would you like that?" I offered. Danny was speachless but managed a nod. Still he did not move, so I reached up and pulled him down ontop of me. I threw open the robe so that his bare skin was against mine. His penis was hard again. "My body is yours to enjoy, touch me as you like. But first ..." I said reaching down between us and grasping his young bare cock and balls. "we need to get this in me." I guided him forward and lined him up. I thought he was going to cum in my hand. After a few passes my wet pussy accepted him in. "Now Danny I really need you to fuck me, then we can have your pizza. Take me baby." That was all the encouragement he needed. Still he looked at me the whole time as if I was going to stop him. I felt his bald little testicles smack into me. The memory of those soft little fleshy orbs in the palm of my hands fanned the flames and set me free to enjoy what I so desperatly needed. I grapsed his small white butt and pulled him into me deeper and harder. I kissed him passionately when I could find the strenghth to raise my head to reach him. His head only came to just above my breasts and he lavished his attentions on them sucking and plucking at my nipples. I wasn't going to be cheated out of my orgasm by his hot triggered youth so I let at him, building up the moment in my mind. Then I let go and all that pent up pressure washed over me.
When I next looked up I saw him wide eyed with his near release, his jaw forced wide open. His breath was held tight but some excaped in huffs. When he came he collapsed onto me tucking his head in nessling it between my breasts as his spasming body shot his live seed into me with each sporatic thrust. A deep gutteral sound escaped his lips as he was overtaken by sensation and releif. I could feel my pussy flood with the wetness of his cum. I realized I was not protected. I didn't really care. It was warm and I could feel some trickle down out of me. It made me smile.
I didn't allow myself to lay there long afterwards. We had already spent far longer than pizza dinner would last. I took him to the table after getting my robe from the bathroom, and let him at his pizza. It was cold but he didn't seem to mind. Getting the basket I tossed his stuff into the dryer. There wasn't much and it wouldn't take long. After we ate we talked about sex. I answered his questions of which he had many. Then I had an urge. This whole time I found I was facinated by his little hairless penis. He was a little angel but I kept thinking about his little cock, I hadn't really gotten a good look and I also wanted to touch it again.
I didn't really think about it, I just did it. I got down on my knees before him and opened the robe once more. His soft little pecker was hid mostly between his thighs which I easily corrected. Pulling him forward I could see much better now and was presented with a delemma. I wanted to feel it get hard in my mouth and in my hand but there was not enough for both. I was suprised that the thought of putting it in my mouth didn't make me gag. He just sat there looking at me not knowing what to do. He was putty in my hands. Before I talked myself out of it I took him into my mouth. He was soft and rubbery but I could feel the blood pulse into it and slowly inflate it. I was surprised that it could reach the back of my throat and I was careful not to let it. Once he was fully erect for the third time I sat back and admired my handywork as he squirmed a bit on the chair.
"So lovely," I said as I stroked It with a single finger. I then took his little sac into my finger tips and gently smoothed them about. His little sac once loose, tightened up at my touch till they were pulled into a ball at the base of his little cock. "Sorry Danny, I have never had the pleasure of seeing a young boy up close. I hope you can understand." I said smiling. He squeeked an affirmation. It was really quite adorable really. With a smile on my face I took him into my mouth once more. I wanted to find out if I could swallow his seed like I had been able to in my wasted youth. The thought of it made me a bit queasy but I didn't gag.
He placed his hands on my head as my toung lashed over his balls and the base of his cock. I warned him not to choke me with his cock. He could only rest his hands on my head he couldn't push. If he did, I told him I would stop. It was odvious he didn't want that. I sucked and licked at him. It was nice feeling the hairless skin under my tounge. There was nothing to tickle my nose, or get caught in my teeth. It was clean and neat. I loved it. He humped up at me as I progressed. He found it hard not to shove my head into his lap, but he resisted.
I then pulled him to the floor and lay next to him. His hands immediatly went for my breasts and nipples. I again sucked at him as I lay beside him on the floor. I then felt him pushing at my leg to spread them and I obliged. He reached up and petted at my pubic hair, pushing it aside for a beter view of my pussy. I felt his fingers explore my wet hole and enter me. It wasn't erotic play mind you, It was a childs curiosity at work. Hot and bothered, I reached down and gave myself a good rub. I didn't put my fingers in, I didn't want to interfear with him. I wanted to roll over onto his face and grind untill sated but that would have been too tramatic for him. Pussy, I assumed, was an aquired taste like cum. After I managed an orgasm, I began to rub his chest and belly. Only a few seconds of this and I saw his legs go stiff and his moans and groans gave way to gasps for air as he was nearing his threshold. His orgasm was wild. He went from compleastly quiet to sighing heavily and thrashing about. his tummy quaked and his pelvis thrust up into me. His hands came to my head but were jerked away as if burned. I tried to swallow this; his third load. It was small and thin but I found I couldn't. I could only hold it in my mouth untill he was done, and that took effort. Then I went to the table and got a napkin. I was disapointed. He was amaized.
I checked his clothes then and found them satifactory and gave them to him. I laughed as he chose to get dressed in the bathroom. I on the other hand would have prefered to dress him like a child. Of course, he would not have understood or appreciated that.
When he was dressed I asked if he still wanted to come back and learn more. What I had showed him was sex but there was so much more to it I explained. On his return I promiced to show him the secrets to making love to a woman. I promiced him I could show him how to unlock a womans heart and how to keep It safe so that it would always be his.
My intent was to create one man on earth that might actually understand a woman's love and treat it with respect. Maybe he would spread the word after I was gone. I thought of the seed in my belly and wondered if it would take root. I had no idea where I was in my cycle. By my estimates I would never know.

He did come back. It was on a saturday and this time the weather was nice. I had borrowed money from my brother in the mean time and was able to pay him his due. We made love several times that day. He learned alot and was hungery to learn more. I taught him that when you loved someone, it ment doing things you sometimes didn't like. I tought him never to say I love you when he was horny. I showed him his lust and the extents that it would drive him to. I warned him not to confuse lust with true feelings of commitment. Lust, I told him, while more intence and easier to find than love, was worthless in compairason. It was easy to let a fantacy mislead you from a good woman. I also took the time to proof him against the games we women liked to play. He would not be anyone's puppy, servant or fool. I taught him how to aproach a woman and how to kiss her. I taught him sex was a game that lovers played, and the basic rules, like warning a girl before he came and various forms of protection. He never knew we were having unprotected sex, and I never told him. I was coach, teacher, and sex partner. He was my bright adept student.
One day he showed up at the door with his father. He had stacks of mail in his hands. "Can we come in?" Danny asked sheepishly. His father looked quite embarassed as well. I stood aside and bid them to enter. "You haven't been answering your mail Cathy. You have bills that need paying. I brought my dad to help." Danny just stood there holding the pile of mail waiting for me. His father smiled but obviously had been coersed into this.
I smiled politely. "Thank you Danny, you can put it on the desk over there I'll get to it tonight."
I turned to his father, "My husband used to take care of the bills, I guess I've got some adjustments to make. Thank you very much for your offer, but I can do it though." With that Danny's father apologised and they left. I smoldered a bit at his interferance but his awairness and concern were genuine and valid. Part of me was proud of him. I wondered if I had taught him that as well.
On our next weekend meeting Danny walked in and saw the pile of mail still there untouched. I couldn't touch it without looking through it. If I looked through it I would then want to see how much I owed. As long as I didn't know, I felt, I wouldn't have to deal with it. His face grew dark and concerned. I had lied to him and he knew it, but he didn't know what to do about it. I tried to placate him with pizza and sex, it worked well I though. After a wonderful weekend of sex education he left and I thought all was well.
In the end however, I had been my own undoing. I had taught him too well to fall for such cheap ploys. He simply byed his time untill he was sure what to do. As my mother pulled up to drop off Kelly my two year old daughter, he aproached her with a fresh stack of mail from the mailbox. They chatted breifly and I rushed out to head things off. I knew I was too late judgeing from the stern look I got from my mother who was already comming my way. Danny just stood there by the cars with a worried look on his face. He couldn't meet my gaze. I was nearly dragged into the house.
My mother said nothing to my suprise. We played cards untill kelly was put down for the night. then I was told to gather all the mail and bring it to the table. She sorted it and made piles. All she asked of me was a cup of coffee and a pencil. She refused a pen which she said she hated if she needed to erase. She was peculiar that way sometimes. You kind of get used to it after a while. I had to get one from next door. I had meet Danny's mother at the door, but it was Danny who brought me the pencil. It was his favorite he said. It was an oversized one he had won at an amusement park. I thought to ask for a normal one, but didn't want to seem ungrateful. As I rounded the corner of my house on my way back. Danny came running up.
"HEY!" he said as he caught up to me. "are you mad?"
It was not a good time to ask the question. In truth I wasn't sure yet but I assured him I wasn't.
"Good" he said, "I love you so much, but I'm worried about you. I don't want you to go to jail."
With that he gave me a big hug and ran off back to his house. I was stunned by his mature remarks. I was really worried that he might infact be falling in love with me. I had taught him well and it was apparent that now was the time to break it off before he got hurt.
My mother poured over the papers for hours, taking notes and figures on the empty envelopes. She took my check book and asked for the savings account books. I had forgotten about the savings accounts. She also asked if I knew where Carl had kept his legal papers. When she was done, all the bills were payed including my brother and I had 2,400 dollars left in the savings. I had another 1500 dollars in a christmas club account. What's more is she found Carl's will and an insurance Policy for 150,000 dollars. The will it turned out ment little. Before he had told me about wanting to separate for a short while to "explore himself", he had legaly sold the buisness and a few of his expensive toys to his brother for a single dollar. I also learned that the morgage on the house was insured in case of his death and it fully belonged to me now.
I felt born again. I had never cared much about money, to this day I still don't. But this ment I had time. Time to figure out where I was and where I wanted to go. I was no longer under the oncomming train. I had all the time in the world to get off the track to ruin and build something. I wasn't going to be forced into prostitution or death. I wasn't going to be forced into marrying the first man who'd have me. I wouldn't have to stay with him no mater how badly I was treated for the sake of my daughter. I was days away from ending it. Now I had a lifetime to set in motion.
The next time Danny came over I ordered a pizza with lots of extras. I also made garlic bread and had soda cooled. He was estatic. After the large meal, I took him to my room. I layed him on the bed and kissed him for a long time. He was erect instantly but I had taught him patients. Then he started to undress me, slowly using caresses to work me out of my garments. His kisses were light but wonderful. I let him take the lead only undressing him to a point he had already undressed me. He did still have trouble with my bra but his request for help was well played. Once freed, he rubbed at my back and sides where a bra trends to chafe. He soothed my skin and then tenderly smoothed his hands over my sencitive breasts running them clear up to my neck and pulled me close for a hungery kiss.
Danny gently pushed me back on the bed and reached up under my skirt and after a breif stop to run his fingers over my soft flesh, removed my panties and flipped up my dress. He smiled as I was reveiled to him. He gave me a quick glance and then moved in.
Danny started by kissing my thighs and belly. All the while he did that his hands roamed my every curve. His first kiss to my damp pussy was electric as his tounge lapped from bottom to top. This single stroke of his sharp young tounge opened my lips up and left them wanting. The pace was slow and easy at first. Most of his attention was spent on my open lips and lapping up the excaping fluids. My need grew rapidly and he kept pace putting his fingers into me and gently suckling my burning clit. It was all I could do to keep from trapping his head between my legs. I let go for the first time since we had been together. I mean really let go. I didn't care who heard me. I grabbed at my breast and clawed at the bed. My orgasm was one of the most powereful I had ever experianced.
As I lay recovering, Danny finished undressing. Once he was done he unfastened my skirt and pulled it free. He wasted no time mounting me and was stroking away inside me before the fires could grow cold. Not that, that was likely to happen anytime soon. He humped and pumped to his hearts content. He kissed me often and would look deep into my eyes. His bare balls were soon soaked and made a wet slapping sound as they banged against me. I gently scratched at his back and he almost came on the spot but I made him wait. He strugged with his body to comply and won but only after pulling out completely.
"I'm sorry babe, But I'm not done with you yet." I said placing him up against the headboard. I took his cock into my hand and slowly started to stoke him. As he relaxed I trasfered his precious jewel into my mouth. With my nails playing across his tiny sac still soaked in my juices I was able to bring him to the brink of orgasm once more. When I stopped this time I could see he was quite frustrated. Then I moved him aside and told him to strattle my chest. He did as he was asked but clearly he did not know what I had in store for him. Reaching over to the night stand I got a small amount of lubricant. I applied it to his cock and then to my breasts. All the while I smiled and gave Danny a wink.
"I think you'll like this. Its a very special gift I grant only on special occasions." I said and pulled his cock between my breasts and held them together firmly. After a few trial strokes it was evident this he liked. He looked at me and at his cock sandwitched between my soft fleshy breasts. I kept them tight around him and even ventured to suck on my own nipple as he indulged in this new pleasure. I managed to maintain adequate pressure and free one of my hands. I used it to caress his chin and stroke him from temple to cheek. As he aproached orgasm I slowly worked my touch down his side and to the small of his back. When his breathing came in gasps and his eyes clench shut, I slid my hand down and kneeded gently at his anus. Danny's cum burst forth covering my cheek and jaw with his thick sticky goo. I kept up the pressure on both his cock and his anus as jet after jet of his young cum lay in strands across my chest and neck. Danny's strenght left him as his orgasm faded and I guided him onto the bed beside me.
"Wow that was ... great." he managed. "Whats the special Occasion?"
"Today if the first day of the rest of our lives." I replied. "Your education is over and you have graduated with honors. Now you need to find that special girl with whom you will spend the rest of your life with and raise a family. It won't always be easy but it will be worth it. Just choose her wisely."
"What about you?" he asked afraid and unsure.
"I am going to take a job a friend of mine has offered me in the city. I have bills to pay you know." I said playfully hoping to cheer him up. "I have a child who I love and needs me. I don't think I can do that here. Besides I am a grown woman and you my sweet are still a boy. You must grow into who you will be and not what I will have you be. We can not be, so here it must end before someone gets hurt." Danny looked really let down. I could see I could have put this off no longer. "I have another present for you." I said smiling.
I first dragged him to the bathroom to get our robes. Then took him to the living room and pulled out a big box wrapped in bright paper and fancy ribbon. Danny perked up at this and asked if he could open it. I insisted he did. Inside was the latest vidio game system and half a dozen games. He was so excited he was jumping around the room with his robe half open as he read the titles. It took us a while to get it hooked up but we eventualy managed. He played it for a long while then seduced me again before heading home.

As I waved goodbye to little Danny for the last time I knew I'd miss him. He had even helped me carry out many of my things durring the move. He had asked if he could come with me to help me move in but I thought against it. I knew he would turn up on my doorstep someday if I did. He was going to make some lucky girl very happy someday. As for me, I though rubbing my belly, I would be just fine. I might miss him terribly, but I would never forget him.