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Ranting!
Everyone loves a good rant
This is where I'm going to post my best rants, not that there really is such a thing, but I'm just like everyone else. I get annoyed and even angry from time to time. When that happens, I like to vent. I'm one of those people with no fuse, just detonation, you know? Like I have a hydrogen bomb shoved up my butt or something, to paraphrase one of my so-called friends. Thankfully, I can't stay mad for longer than two minutes at a time. Actually, two minutes is a long time for me and it has to be really bad if I'm that angry. Thirty seconds is the norm and once people figure that out they take advantage of me mercilessly.
People are ruthless that way.
So, I do see stuff in real life and online as well, things that just bother me and if I'm in a forum (like I usually am) I grab the nearest thread I can find and commandeer it for a quick thousand words of quality anger management. Well, quality is a relative term, but I do get a lot of feedback on my rants and there are some people who even find them entertaining. They can be rather merciless too and I think a couple people just try to get me fired up sometimes. Like it's funny or something. Anyway, so I have some of my 5AM primal screams saved in blogs and in forums where I wouldn't or couldn't go back three minutes later and delete them, and I'm going to share them here.
Rants and Porn go well together!
Please note that the rants on this page are old, very old some of them, and so you have to understand that we're looking back in time. Kinda like picking up a diary and thumbing through it, but the good thing is that when my points are valid (as they sometimes are) they're valid for all eternity! Like when I talk about squicks...
Ohhh...What am I going to say about Alex? It's hard work coming up with something new to say for 35 galleries, you know? I guess she looks good in a bikini and even better out of it, for some people. I've always thought less is more, but that's probably because I'm kind of less myself. I wonder if making a website like this is good therapy? I hope so, because after looking at a gazillion pictures of naked swimwear models, I could use some time on the couch! Download the pictures here!
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Why did you do that? (the squicks note)
"Priss" is going to start today (or tomorrow where you live) and so I thought I'd drop a note. Not only a comment about that story in particular, but in general because I do get asked…
"rache? Why the hell did you…
[in this case] …put a pissing scene in an otherwise perfectly good story like "Priss"? It squicked me!" So let's talk about…
Squicks!
The first thing you have to know is that I don't really understand how you feel. As much as I'd like to enjoy empathy with my readers, and especially with readers who aren't mine, I simply don't have any squicks. That is to say, nothing I have ever read anywhere has disturbed me with regard to content to the extent that I stop reading. Grammar? Yes. Spelling? Yes. Crappy plots, dialogue, and characters? Oh yes! But not content.
I'm not sure why that is, but believe me when I say it's true. For that reason, I just don't understand how any element in a story can turn people away from it, but I know it happens. With that in mind, I do (all too) often tone down my stories for a general forum like this one. But at the same time, I always feel a little guilty about that. I don't like doing it. I have to balance my desire for a larger audience with my desire to tell the story as I think it should be told. These aren't always compatible, obviously.
The story "Priss" requires a certain element of humiliation and degradation in order to really work. The limits that I'm under make that a little more difficult than you might expect or appreciate. The easy way, the common way, is through public humiliation, but the plot requires a certain level of discretion between Priss and Perry. Adding the water sports element is an easy way to introduce that humiliation aspect without going public. Is it absolutely necessary? No, it's not, but it lends shock and awe and I use it like a hammer.
For that reason, and another that I'll explain in a moment, the pissing scene occurs in chapter one. That way I can start the story and the characters at the bottom and work up, as opposed to starting in the middle and going up and down and all around. This story, being a romance, needs to build. It isn't meant to be the usual sort of cheating/cuckold tale that we're used to. I'm looking for something else here and so I'm playing with the tried and true formula.
The other reason that the pissing happens quickly, in chapter one as I said, is simply to get it out of the way. I want to lose readers before they're invested. Those who are squicked by such things can skip the rest of the story and not feel betrayed or offended that I'm trying to waste their time. That's part of the program with writing Mixed Bag and the format I've chosen for it. I have to pay a little more attention and try not to spring unpleasant surprises if I can help it.
So that's the deal with this story and with some others that I've posted. My goal has never been to squick anyone without some kind of warning. Whether it's in the synopsis or story codes, or however I can make it plain that an element is in a story, I will. In this case I'm putting codes at the beginning of every chapter, as you may have noticed. And those codes are chapter specific where needed and story specific if nothing else. "Tina Vasquez" codes are more story oriented than chapter, because it is a low sexual content story and what there is of it is specific to lesbian romance.
So let's talk about Priss, although not too much since it is in progress. I've written 3 chapters for it as I write this. The genesis of "Priss" is directly descended from writing "Imaginary Man" and I wanted to take another look at cheating and infidelity.
Amber, in "Imaginary Man" was the hero. She was the good character and it was more of a tragedy-romance without much hope of a happy ending. In two of the three endings that I wrote, everybody gets what they want, except Amber. Only in the third version does she actually find true happiness, but it comes at such a high price. Chapter 4 is just brutal, emotionally speaking, and more than she deserved.
In most cheating/cuckold stories the husband is usually the victim and I hate that stereotype of the vilified wife. I really do. And so do readers, apparently. I mean, pick a cuckold story and the scores are generally abysmal. There are a lot of readers who will automatically score the story low, probably without actually reading anything but the codes. Some men just have a hate-on for cheating wives, or something. And they are men, don't try to tell me the feminists are voicing their displeasure. The feminists couldn't care less.
Anyway…tangents, I do go off. Sorry. So I wanted another "victim" female character, but I wanted it more obvious this time around. I wanted a girl who is truly innocent and her heart is in the right place. She's being used and manipulated and she wants to do the right thing, but self-preservation is always a strong motive. I also wanted to demonstrate a different sort of vulnerability. Not only that Priss is guilty of her past and being blackmailed, that's the obvious conflict that provides the plot vehicle. The plot itself, the girl's real vulnerability, is deeper in that Priss is still drawn to what she was and to the sort of man who enjoys her as a whore. I'm taking the old Saint/Whore duality that many men want in their women and applying it to Priss in an obvious way, but hopefully I can make the subtext interesting and fresh.
I won't talk about where the story is going or how it will end, largely because I'm still writing it, but also because I'd hate to spoil it more than I have. But this note should clue interested readers in what I'm doing with it and why. And I'll tell you, these kinds of notes are my real "writing guides" so to speak. If you want to know how I do it, or where my thought processes are in the methodology of story creation, this is it. This is what's going on in my head, for better or worse.
How well it works…We'll find out as the story progresses.
~rache
Pregnant with possibilities. A pregnant pause. Or just a plain old pregnant slut. Pregnant is a pretty handy word and I'm hoping I get to use it a lot one of these days. In the meantime though, I only have to wonder what it would be like. I'm practicing my cravings already though. Cookies 'n Cream ice cream is seriously at the top of my list! If you're craving to see more of this chick and her swollen belly, download the pictures here!
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Wow…I usually try to write my blog notes offline because the internet café here is right next to the bar where I like to hang out. Usually I hang out for awhile, go internet for awhile, then hang out some more. If I try to do my blog entries, or do anything more complicated than answer emails and yes/no questions, I usually end up embarrassing myself.
The proof is in the pudding.
So, I take back whatever I said yesterday and instead, I offer this gem of sobriety…
Rachael’s Really Deep Thoughts on Download Counts
Stat counting is pretty much useless for me. I’m sure some people get a kick out of it and maybe they even have some use for such things, but I’ve just never found much value for totaling my downloads or anything like that. Word count is handy and you have to understand what that is and what it means ad how to use it as a writer, because it’s important in a lot of ways, but those are numbers that I have sole control over. I’ll confess that I never contemplated comparing my story size to anyone else’s. It smacks of penis envy…or something.
Weird.
After reading AscendingAuthor’s blog, and I don’t know him at all, one way or any other, I’m a little mind boggled by what he says there. Of course dedicating oneself to 3.2 million words in a single story??? Wow! It’s safe to say that he and I have very different views on storytelling in theory and practice and I’m sure neither of us is more right or less wrong than the other. I wish him the very best of luck with reaching the longest story on SOL goal or whatever the thrust of his efforts is. Good luck with that.
But the whole numbers thing, daily vs weekly downloads and losing some of them…I don’t know about that stuff. About the only numbers I look at are the number of favorites lists that I’m on, just because that’s right at the top and it’s hard to miss, and the number of libraries a given story is in.
Downloads don’t tell me anything. I could have fifty thousand downloads, but I don’t know how many of those are people who actually finished the story or just popped in for a quick skim, a midnight jerk, or just to cheer me with a ten or spank me with a one…I mean, how many people read the whole thing? That’s what I’m concerned with, and SOL and the best bean counting software in the world won’t ever be able to tell me.
As I’ve mentioned before, email and feedback is really the only method I use to determine a story’s “success” if I write a story with nice high scores, but I only get a dozen emails…It’s a failure. I have a couple of those and I think, “God! That story must really suck, cause nobody emailed me.” Likewise, posting a story to terrible scores and limited downloads, but getting thirty emails, which is what happens with TS Severe for example, she’s doing okay. I know transgendered stories aren’t going to get big numbers. Same with Kylie and her stories, but they get so damn much email from the readers who are into it, they’re really vocal and enthusiastic and I love them!
That’s rewarding, it really is. Numbers…blah. Who cares? That’s another toy for readers and I think authors should just ignore that crap. It is tempting to write a 3.3 million word story though, I have to admit! I have a title picked out for it already, "Doorstop" …But I have so many other things to do. I still have to figure out if Kylie is going to hook up with Karen or her father!! That's what I should be doing right now…Yikes! At least I finished Tina (7) just a minute ago, that was a relief! I kept putting it off and putting it off. I really need a cattle prod shoved up my butt sometimes, you know?
Yeah…See? You do know, but probably for a different reason than mine, huh? I need a drink.
Okay, okay...She's not really a naughty schoolgirl at all. In fact, Melissa probably doesn't even go to school. I'd even be willing to bet that Melissa isn't her real name (considering I made it up) but she looks like a Melissa I once knew who dated a boy I once loved, and that's reason enough to pick on her. She certainly does know how to suck a pen though, I'll give her that much. Anyway, if twenty-something year old high school girls are your thing, download Melissa's pictures here and indulge yourself.
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I’ve decided to write a “Rachael’s Guide to Picking Up Psychotic Women” to help out some guys I know, so that will be occupying some of my spare time.
I have a guide to writing and I’ve posted it before.
The rache Guide to Writing
Make sure you have really thick skin.
The end
That’s the whole thing. I edited it myself.
Some people do ask me “rache, how do I write a story?” or some variation on that question and my answer is always the same. “Beats me.” I don’t know how you do it, I only know how I do it. I’ve condensed my process into a few very simple steps. If you’d care to emulate them, be my guest. I don’t believe in capitalism. Everything should be free. Everyone should own a gun too. I’m an optimist.
Okay How Do I Write ? Easy:
(1) I start with a blank screen and absolutely silence while I gather the forces of darkness around me. (Selling my soul was the best deal I ever made!)
(2) I start typing. It doesn’t matter what. I like to start with dialogue because then I know I have a character. Usually, by the time I hit my first comma I know how the story is going to end and I just keep typing until I get there.
(3) Repeat as necessary until you have so many stories that you can write your own writing guide.
I don’t make notes. I don’t arc my plots or my characters. I don’t worry a lot about where anything is happening. Every character has something to say and the trick, if there is such a thing, is to let them say it. I know this is totally unhelpful, sorry about that. If I was good at teaching I’d probably be a teacher instead of the shiftless coffee making pencil sharpener I am. I can sharpen pencils like you wouldn’t believe!
Anyway, if you’re serious about writing like I wish I was, there are some writing guides out there. I’ve seen the links, but never actually looked at any of them, but I’m sure they’re outstanding.
What else? I’m in a talkative mood, just cause I’m too wired to sleep and too sleepy to write. I should go karaoke, but he’s already asleep.
Editors. People ask, “Why don’t you get an editor?” or else they ask “Rachael, who is your editor?” What I’m looking for in an editor isn’t necessarily what most editors want to do, so I do it myself mostly. Being schizophrenic comes in handy sometimes, believe me. Editing is a lot like masturbation, except it isn’t as fun and makes a bigger mess. I edit as I go and proofread for grammar and spelling as I feel the compulsion. That is to say, I give a once over immediately before posting and then I read the story through once it’s posted on the website. Amazing how errors jump off the screen once the story is out of my hands…I hate that!
I write reasonably clean anyway though, so I should be grateful.
The Illusion of Debt. I see it in emails, in forums, in blogs, in…everywhere. “Author’s owe us this…” and “Author’s owe us that…” I see this a lot in complaints about slow/unfinished/abandoned stories and it’s a hot topic, especially for readers who are emotionally invested in a story. I appreciate that as I’m sure most authors do. My own philosophy is that I have no debts to readers other than those I’m willing to make. I can’t be “forced” into writing something just because a reader expects it of me. They can expect me to send them fifty dollars, it doesn’t mean I’ll do it, and time really is money…But that’s an oversimplification, I think.
I’m willing to entertain a debt in the sense that I’m obligating myself to finish something I start, if it can be finished. But that’s a debt to myself and I’m one of those people who respond well to internal motivation and very poorly to external. Everytime someone says I owe them something, I just bristle at that and I have to pause and reinterpret the statement into something internalized. I don’t owe readers anything, but I try to align my own requirements so that we can all be satisfied.
Why am I bothering to say any of that? I dunno. I like the drama. Or more likely I want to make my excuses before I rant at someone. It’s always better to plan rants well in advance and lay the groundwork early, believe me. Ranting is underrated as an art form and I really wish I had a collection of my finest rants. I think they’d score remarkably well given the environment and calendar.
And speaking of politics, nobody wonders but I’ll tell you anyway. I’m an anarchist and truthfully, if a political party has a national convention? They’re too far to the right for me. I don’t really believe in elections and I’m pushing for a system of political selection based on a national lottery…Mostly because it gives me one chance in a few hundred million of getting to fuck in the white house every night. Failing a lottery, picking a random name out of a phone book sounds pretty good too. That’s why I keep my numbers listed!
What else? A Top Ten List!
Here’s my top ten favorite stories (not written by me) and found on SOL… Ummmm…I’ll get back to you on that.
I have to confess, and this is serious, that I’ve only read about a dozen porn stories in my whole life and four of those were flash. I just don’t like to read porn. I’m reading “Charlotte’s Movie” by Ken Randall and it seems pretty good so far. I read the prologue and the epilogue already. Like I told him the other day, one step at a time. So for you few people who wonder why I don’t have any favorites listed, that’s why.
I just am not into reading the stuff. I don’t even reread mine, except to edit them a year or two later. It’s not that the stories are bad, min or anyone else’s; it’s a combination of things. I don’t have time is number one. I absolutely cannot stress how little time I have to do anything like read or write just for fun. It’s why I type as fast as I can when I can and spare little energy for the niceties like editing. I’m going to be kicking myself tomorrow for not writing Tina Vasquez (4) right now…I should be working on that.
So, if you want to know what rache reads…Very little. But I did read an awesome Jaoman story yesterday. Hmmm…I forget the title. “Your Will” by Jaowriter…Pure stroke! But he had to point it out and that’s the way it is for almost everything I read. I can’t go browsing, which pretty much sucks. I’d like to run a category search on pygmy cream pies some time. I have this idea of writing a story and taking codes literally, like writing a story with water sports and cream pie codes and have like two water polo teams throwing banana cream pies at each other after a big game…
I’m really tired!
rache
I wonder if she's from Colorado? Another girl from the directory of big-titted blondes, Aspen joins us with a breath of fresh air in the stale, smog-filled industrial utopia that is the internet. Or something like that. It's true, I'm going to be a professor soon, I hope, but I've promised God that if I pass my orals I'll never use my powers for evil. Like working in public relations, for example. Or in advertising especially, so I won't say anything else about Aspen, other than you can download her pictures here!
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The long miscellaneous, obligatory blog note
Scores: I don’t care so long as you score my stories with a clear conscience. I don’t lose sleep over scores. If you want to spank me with a 1 be my guest. I’ve been here for awhile and I’ve been spanked before. If you want to cheer me up with a 10 that’s fine too. Scores are largely driven by genre and story elements/themes and the merits of any given story are subjective in any event. Every reader has a different set of standards and being scored makes as much sense to me as entering my pet goldfish in a shaggy dog contest. There's a punch line in there someplace, but it isn't a very funny one.
Reviews: By all means, you reviewers out there, feel free to review any of my stories. It’s always a fun little kick to get that little email “Your story…has been reviewed” in my mailbox…I’d review myself if it wouldn’t make me seem like a total ass and I often do it anyway. I call those "Author's Notes" and usually don't include them on this site because nobody really cares how I write, only what I write.
Email: Anonymous email is turned on and I won’t ever change that. I like email and it means more to me than scores do. I tend to judge the worth of any given story by the amount and quality of email it generates, not by what it scores. “Reasons Until After” is a good example of that. It scores amazingly low for how good it really is, but the amount of positive email was amazingly high. I took a lot of drive-by spankings on that story.
Pen Names: I have a few of them, but not nearly so many as most people assume. Kylie X. is my collection point for interracial stories. T.S.Severe is my folder for transgender stories. Jack Valentine will continue as my author of choice for pedophilia; and Evil Little Sister will be my evil little sister and post Lolita Femdom.
Why? Because I realized that once I reached a hundred stories under the rache pen name it became increasingly difficult to keep track of them, for one thing. Pen names are an organizational tool. It’s also amusing to create a persona with a vested interest in the subject matter. Kylie is a very fun person to be while I write and her stories are very much her own. Some people will think I’m crazy, but perhaps some authors will know what I mean.
rache will ALWAYS get the bestiality stories and any story which I think is really good regardless of genre or theme. Again, to reference “Reasons Until After” I posted that as rache and not T.S.Severe largely because I wanted to assure the widest possible SOL audience for it. rache is on a lot more favorites lists than Severe is and that was my reasoning there.
Updates: My older stories were not well written as I was still learning the vagaries of the English language. Speaking it is much easier than writing it, let me assure you. A few of them are translations and I really am one of the world’s worst translators when it comes to fiction. Technical documents are much, much easier, but who wants to read those? As time permits I will be returning to my older stories and editing them for grammar, spelling, and continuity. I’ll inform readers of such updates as they occur via my blog.
Themes: I like to write about anything because that is the greatest advantage to writing fiction. Obviously I have my personal interests, but I do not exclude any theme or concept solely because it doesn’t appeal to me. Quite the contrary, the less inclined I am to view a fetish favorably, the more excited I am to explore it. People should not mistake a narrator’s enthusiasm or reluctance for the author’s, in my stories or in anyone else’s. Unfortunately, readers often do and I haven’t found a way to discourage that as much as I would like.
I enjoy writing first person more than I enjoy third person. It allows me a greater appreciation for the experience that I’m trying to imagine and convey. Third person, for me, feels very much like cheating and I find it difficult to suspend belief when I read it. Writing third person is very easy. Too easy and I choose not to do it, although there are exceptions that I make for purposes of storytelling, such as the “Tina Vasquez” story I’m currently writing.
Present tense is a tool which I have used, but a difficult one and I think the concept escapes most people. There are far too many poorly written present tense stories out there and they give the rest of us a bad name. I’ve written articles on this before, so I’ll stop now before I really get into “Writing in Theory and Practice” and put us all to sleep.
Avoid second person like the plague! I do and you should too. Unless you’re a genuine masochist and even then…
Who am I really? All you have to know is that I’m a writer. I’ve been paid to do it, but I much prefer writing for free. That makes me a slut rather than a whore, a moody distinction, I agree, but relevant nonetheless. Seriously, amateur writing is a lot less work and I abhor deadlines and teleconferences. The nice to know stuff is that I’m a girl. I’m neither white nor black. I’m wealthy, well educated, and reasonably smart. I live in Asia, enjoy the perks of multiple citizenship, and work with my husband for a non-profit organization that I’m proud to be associated with. I also own three dogs, well…one of them owns me, actually.
Now you can believe all of that or some of that, or even none of that. It doesn’t matter in the least. It won’t change what I write and it shouldn’t change what you read. The important thing to remember is that like you, I’m a living, breathing person and deserving of your respect and courtesy. I’m here for the same reason you are, to be entertained. Sometimes we will share something which amuses us both; other times what I enjoy won’t be to your taste and vice versa. We bear no obligations other than those of strangers in polite conversation and I honestly have no other expectations of you. What you expect of me is entirely your own affair.
Best always,
Rachael
More hot European girls, or at least one more for the moment. It's like playboy online, without all the pretensions of some 200 year old guy in pajamas surrounding himself with fake blondes. I never got that whole deal and I guess I never will. Boys are like from another planet or something, but I have to be nice to them! After all, most of my readers have a cock and balls and all that good stuff. The things I do in the name of porn! Download Fillis Dana here! You're welcome! :)
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I’m outraged!
Well, I’m not outraged, but some people are and at the risk of being overdramatic I’ll tell you why.
Reality vs Fiction isn’t a fair fight at all.
For example, I get emails from people who aren’t happy with where I’ve placed (or misplaced) the hymen in some of my stories. I’ve had people send me links to photographs of hymens. (Please note I rarely if ever click on any links in my emails…I’d rather swap spit with the corpse of Rock Hudson) Now let me explain that when it comes to writing fiction I just don’t care. That’s the short answer. Well, the short answer is: “So what?” But you get my point. I will put a hymen wherever it happens to suit the story, my mood, and my sense of irony/humor. Don’t bother complaining about it, just read something else if you don’t like it. I’m not going to stalk you if you don’t read my story. In fact, like those fictional hymens, I’m just not going to care.
Likewise, on a similar theme, the concerned readers who are outraged over the terrible pain and trauma of losing one’s (female) virginity as it’s occasionally expressed. So what? I introduce pain and trauma where and when necessary to advance the story. Let’s face it, a LOT of readers who are interested in First Time stories want the drama. They want something memorable, and I’m not saying that the first time cannot be a beautiful, gentle, pleasurable experience for all concerned. It often is, more often than we find in erotic fiction certainly. I’ve portrayed that numerous times with no adverse side-effects other than a craving for chocolate. But if the story requires a bit (or a lot) of blood, sweat, and tears…Guess what? It’s gonna hurt, baby.
I’m not apologizing and I won’t. But some of the emails…It’s really pathetic.
We all have our pet peeves and the little things that turn us off from a story for one reason or another. I remember getting an email once from a man who couldn’t finish a story of mine because I used “shoreline” instead of “river bank” to describe a setting along the Hudson River. It put him right off the story and that was too bad and I understood my mistake thanks to him and corrected it. But the damage was done and I couldn’t sleep for hours afterward.
Another reader, this was a good one, started reading “Letter of the Month” which is a complete and obvious parody, btw…Anyway, he got to the narrator’s 10” cock and was outraged! The whole story was a joke, but apparently he missed the punch line. Now I admit I can be a little too clever for my own good. I run some deep thoughts between the lines once in awhile, but generally I’m not half so smart as I pretend to be and most people see right through me. But that was about as obvious as I could get without buying some neon lights, you know?
Read with a purpose. Understand what you’re looking at, that’s pretty basic, I would think.
Recently I received an email from someone who read my little bestiality guide and really chastised me for not making it clear that the vagina is a rather flexible and amazing device that will in fact allow a fully swollen dog knot to be removed with little or no discomfort to the woman in question. Unfortunately for the reader I’m reasonably sure that I did make that clear in the post, but I understand not everyone can keep up…especially if they didn’t bother to read it. I just ask people, before you complain about something (especially if they’re going to be rather snotty about it) to make sure you read what you’re concerned about. I don’t like embarrassing people because I know how it feels. I embarrass myself all the time and I hate it.
Some would say I’m embarrassing myself right now. Heh! Could be.
I’d also have to say that there is a disturbing lack of common courtesy prevalent in the online community. As some of you may know, I invariably attempt to respond to all emails with a reasonable amount of grace and good humor, but gosh! It is taxing sometimes. Do yourself a favor and practice good manners in correspondence. It offers so many more advantages than being impolite. It even makes you look smart! Correspondence is a lost art in America anyway; I much prefer foreign emails as a general rule.
Dogs. Let’s go back to them for a second. It’s almost impossible to find an accurate bestiality story on the internet. There’s one out there, but it’s well hidden beneath a really big rock. I myself quite enjoy the fact that fiction allows exaggeration, perfection, and an optimization of circumstances unlikely to be found in nature. I usually try to put a disclaimer in my bestiality stories saying it’s written for entertainment only and not to be taken as a factual text or guide. Hopefully people understand that implicitly in a story like “Wishes Come True” …You cannot read this and have puppies too, unless you’re a really smart bitch!
Anyway, the important thing is that the reader must recognize (just as I must) that I’m not one of those authors intent on solely writing “reality based” fiction. I do it sometimes, but I have no rigid self-discipline in my adherence to the physics of the real world. It isn’t why I’m writing. I’m lying, that’s what fiction is, a really entertaining lie. If I’m lying well enough people will believe it for a few thousand words and come away from it happy to have been fooled. Fictional storytelling is telling a lie without malice…Unless you’re Lord Byron, but that’s a whole other topic.
Any questions? And people wonder why I clean out my blog from time to time. I talk too much; always have, always will.
rache
I'm totally into this chick and I use one of her pictures for the background on my laptop. My husband thinks I'm crazy, but he knows I like looking at girls more than I like looking at boys. I mean, in real life I guess I like them both about the same. I'm a people person, but in pictures? I don't really like pictures much anyway, so given the choice, I'd rather look at a girl than a boy. It isn't so much a sexual thing, it's an energy thing. Like this woman, whoever she is, just comforts me for some reason. It's strange and you can download her picture sets (both of them) here!
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Speaking of Transgendered...(were we?)
Reasons Until After: Ashley is sixteen and when the quarterback of the football team falls in love with him, everyone assumes the boy is gay. This would be bad if it didn't suddenly bring Ashley to the attention of the three hottest girls in school, cheerleaders determined to teach him all about life, love, and a little thing they like to call "girl fun"…What could possibly be wrong with that?
Story Codes: fff/m, teen, romance, reluctant, oral, cd, cheerleaders, and angst, lots and lots of angst
Genre and Content: Romance/Some Sex
Sounds innocent, doesn't it?
I'm posting my subversive novel " Reasons Until After " and yeah, it's one of the very best stories I've ever written about anything. Convincing people to read it is of course problematic, but I'm used to that. This story does get spanked, as do I, for having the gall not to regurgitate what most readers are looking for. Spank me all you want, I'm not going away and I'm not going to change. I have no fear of anyone around here.
Sorry if that frightens you. (oops…that'll get me another 1-1-1) Thankfully, I do not suffer from a lack of self-confidence and I trust my own judgment far more than I trust the scoring system on SOL.
Luckily for me, I'm also blessed with my fair share of attention. A lot of people like this story quite a bit. A lot of people who presumably know what they're talking about, probably more than I do, and I like that. I always learn a lot and try to pay attention. Some of the feedback I've received has been over-the-top cool, like this one…
San Francisco GYM (Gay Youth Movement) has included this little note in the reviews section of its newsletter which is very flattering. Among other things, they said:
"…Unsurprisingly, recent fiction has included a number of female authors exploring male sexuality; among these…Rachael Ross [has] given us stories which are at once familiar and fresh in their scope and appeal. 'Reasons Until After' stands out as an exploration of sexual identity crises and revels in a romantic, non-prejudicial world-view…"
That was pretty nice of them and their email was very generous, as was a note from the Director of the Gay Youth Center in Akron, Ohio. He asked me for permission to distribute the story in print form, to make it available for off line reading by the membership there.
Getting letters and feedback like that is very nice and gratifying, considering I wrote the story with little more intent than to entertain myself for a few hours. I received another note, from someone familiar with publishing stories a similar themes, suggesting I clean it up a bit, meaning tone down the sexual content and rework the relationship between Ashley and the three girls to be less explicit, and market the story as a novel.
I'm not too sure about that, but I can see the appeal of my little novel. The story, when I posted it under the rache pen name, scored very low. I think a number of readers were expecting something different and so I got punished for not meeting expectations. It merely reinforced my already strong opinion that scores are meaningless. The amount of feedback was substantial and positive, without exception. Many of my emails wondered, "Why is it scoring so low? Are people idiots?" and of course, I have no answer to that.
Technically? It's a very good story, plot and character-wise. It's been edited and proofed pretty well, although only by me. I'm sure a real editor could find some things to fix, but what's the point? When I bother to do it, I'm a better editor than most of the editors around here anyway, if you'll excuse a bit of immodest honesty. Half the editors don't answer requests for editing and half of the rest can't edit their own offers of assistance. Have you seen those??? heh! Editors...Don't get me started. I have a real love-hate thing going there.
Some people wondered about the social permissiveness and ready acceptance of Dan and Ashley by their peers and my explanation for that is simple. The story is about self-awareness and growth. It isn't a me-vs-world story; most of the conflict is internalized and so there was no reason to create external conflict beyond what exists in two characters, Roger and Billy Felder. They represent non-acceptance by expectation and brute conformity, and they're overcome rather easily and in ways that reinforce or inform Ashley in his struggle with his self-identity.
It isn't really about being gay, or being transgender, it's about a teenager struggling to understand who he is, how others perceive him, and where he's going as he matures. It's a story we all live through and I chose the characters largely because they're at the extreme of acceptance. They make it easier for me to make my point. It was a decision based on what would serve the story best and not really one of personal preference or anything like that.
If I had my first choice, it would have been a lesbian story. Danielle was the new girl at school and she falls in love with Ashley, another girl, and it would have worked fine. But for whatever reason, that sort of story is so much more acceptable to the general readership. Everybody loves lesbians and sometimes I cater to that, sometimes I'd rather buck the system and push people to read something they wouldn't normally look at. That really is one of my goals as a writer, whether it's erotic or mainstream or whatever. I already know that I have the audience that will be looking for a story of a certain type, so my real aim is to grab the readers who aren't looking for it.
The emails that start out, "Normally wouldn't read a story like this, but…" Those ones are among the most rewarding emails I get. I love those.
I guess that's about all I have to say about it.
T.S.Severe
Now this girl is hot! I love her, or at least I lust her, and that's pretty much the same thing when you're as emotionally crippled as I am! I'm not a pedophile, but this girl is eighteen anyway, so I can rationalize my twisted, lesbian desires to through the little whore down and rape her ass with a strap-on until she agrees to move in and do my laundry! I don't know if it's her eyes, or her nipples, or her ass...Maybe I just really like sand. Weird. Download her pictures here!
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