This short story is an entry in the 2001 Soc.Sexuality.Spanking Summer Short Story Contest and is copyright by the author and commercial use is prohibited without permission. Personal/private copies are permitted only if complete including the copyright notice. The author would appreciate your comments
Category: Adult
What the Hell!
By
After decades he still didn't understand this need in his head. Something was always telling him he needed to be spanked. Not a voice, he wasn't that far gone, but there was something else, a feeling. Most of him thought the idea was ridiculous, knew that he was sick to want it, but there was that little part that screamed the desire from down deep. Told him that being over a woman's lap getting his bare ass spanked till he went limp from pain and hard from lust was the only way to go. He just never had the guts to go through with it.
The opportunity to make it all come true came as a shock to his system. She told him he was a bad boy and needed to be spanked and he almost choked. What the hell?! That was for kids! There was no way he was actually going to let her spank him! No way, no how! She was buggy to think so, and he almost told her so, but that little part made him stifle his snappy comeback and just stare at the floor. She asked if he agreed, but he couldn't make himself answer. He just couldn't! NO! Yes, damn it, you know you want it, always have! Go for it! No, I can't, there's no way! He stood mute as his mind battled with itself.
He knew she expected an answer. What should he say? Should he tell her no, and wonder what could've been, or should he say yes and risk having the fantasy destroyed, or even scarier, fullfilled beyond imagining. What the hell?! Why was he even considering it! It was crazy, twisted! Nobody wanted that, did they? What made her say it! Why would she want to spank him anyway! Maybe she sees the need in your eyes, that little part of himself said. What would be so bad if you said yes! It's silly, I can't do it! Geeeeeez, I have my pride, ya know! I can't let her do this! Why not, you silly fool! You've wanted it your whole life! Don't hide behind that stupid pride! It'll just keep you from getting what you want! No, no, no! I can't, I won't!
He looked at her, as she waited to hear his decision. She sat down, sensing it would be a while. He heard his heart beating loudly in his ears, deafening him. Fear reached for him. Fear of getting it, and fear of not getting it. AAAGGGHHH! He couldn't decide!
That little part of himself grew bigger suddenly, taking control, forcing him to do what he must. Oh, what the hell! He moved to her side and put himself across her lap, falling into the unknown.
The End
© Copyright Summer, 2001
Reviews
Tami <tamishy(at)webtv(dot)net>
Sometimes listening to the voices inside our head have there own benefits. I hope everyone has the courage to find out what they're missing. Thanks for the window to the inside of your mind. (tami)
Michele <mcasson(at)telus(dot)com>
In this story Jen humorously and honestly conveys the conflicting emotions of a person thinking about exploring a sexual kink. As the protagonist struggles with arousal and revulsion, hope and fear, many readers will undoubtedly empathize with his feelings.