"Frank reluctantly enrolled into graduate school, unaware of a beautiful
woman in his research group.  His life was changed when she tried to open
up a friendship with this clumsy physics genius..."
(MF,rom,cheat,1st,asian)

   Chapter 1

   "What should I call myself?  A new comer or an old resident?" Frank
wondered as he walked down the boulevard in the campus in southern China.
It's early September, the subtropical monsoon didn't bring enough rain to
drive away suffocating hot air.  Recalling his 22 years of life, Frank
sighed heavily.

   Frank was a self-labeled genius.  At a very early age, he demonstrated
astonishing mathematical skills and memories: playing the game of Go,
sorting out arithmetic and algebraic problems far beyond his grades, etc.
Acquaintances kept asking Frank's parents for educational advice.  Being
the only child ( governmental birth control policy ) and a child prodigy,
Frank had a typical Asperger symptom: lost himself in thought and
neglecting other people.  The tendency was noticed by his parents, and was
partially fixed.  Frank was never shy or afraid of strangers, in fact, his
bragging and loud talking were deemed as impolite in the oriental culture
norms.

   It was hard for Frank to make friends in elementary school.  Although he
inherited his father's strong body, Frank had a weak soul against school
bullies.  Under-exercised, slightly overweight, physically clumsy, social
incompatible, and intelligently well-developed, was the kid Frank.

   Girls didn't shun Frank though, because he also possessed a handsome
face as his father: with a pair of large, clear brown eyes, a thick,
masculine looking eyebrow, a well-shaped nose and a set of clean, white
teeth.  Frank was a model student, a bookworm, but he always talked to
himself, which was quite strange in people's eyes.  In fact, Frank was just
reciting things he read from books.  "He was strange, but he's also a
clever, funny boy", his schoolmates commented.

   Frank was not sexually ignorant.  At the age of 8, he became interested
in sex, and realized his masturbation behavior started even earlier.  His
masturbation techniques included rubbing his penis and balls at bed sheets,
at walls, etc.  Even though he couldn't ejaculate at such a young age, he
enjoyed doing this, especially if he got the chance to sleep with his
mother.

   Frank's mom is a moderately nice looking lady.  Her below-average height
(5'1"), rotund body, firm B-cup breasts were attraction spots to young
Frank.  When his dad was out, mom would try to cuddle him in bed,
especially in winter as she complained about cold.  At that time, Frank
would bury his head between her breasts, embrace her waist with his arms,
and achieved an erection rubbing his penis against her legs.  Although
Frank enjoyed such close contract with his mother, incest never occurred in
his mind until much later.  Once Frank begged her to show her breast, she
showed him after he reassured her he would never tell anyone, and let him
suck her nipples and squeeze her tits and ass.  She then told Frank that is
a special treat, and he could not ask for this again.  As Frank's sexual
awakening continues, he would eavesdropping his parents' bedroom from his
own bedroom (at that time his home was just a small apartment with very
tight arrangement of rooms), and imagine his parents' having sex.  He even
found a porno movie in the drawer of his parents' room, and laughed at the
fact that his family didn't own a video player.

   The first time Frank ejaculated was in his twelfth year at a mountain
resort hotel.  Some white fluid landed on the bed sheets in the hotel room.
He almost expected it, with joy of being a man.  From the moment on, he
always rubbed his penis on his underwear or bed sheet until he shot his
semen, to this day.  Mom complained once about "drawing maps" on his bed
sheet, he didn't get flush or anything, just a plain "I know".

   At the age of 15, Frank was a nice looking teenager boy with the height
of 5'7" ( average in China ), and a cock of 14cm, just a bit shy of 6in. 
He was not very athletic but fairly endurable in hiking.  He was always
dreaming about white or Latina girls, and made up his mind to emigrate to
North America, via higher education.

   Frank's clumsiness forced him to abandon chemistry and biology, which
were his forte at high school, and he chose physics as his major in
university application at the age of 16.  He moved to the university
(University of S) located on the southern coast of China, still holding the
dream of studying in a US university one day.  9/11 terrorist attack
happened.  While many Chinese compatriot celebrate this event as a
deserving punishment of US imperialism, Frank was very upset because the
immigration restriction was a million times stronger.

   Frank tried hard to find a girl in the campus, but he's just
unfortunately too young for the taste of older girls in the campus, and
girls about his age didn't appear until he was about to graduate.  He
remained single, and virgin during that period of time.

   His luck finally ran out in his undergraduate years, with a fair score,
he wouldn't settle for mediocre graduate schools, yet he failed to get any
chance with better ones, both domestic and abroad.  After two years of
futile searches, he succumbed and reapply to his graduate school of
University S, and enrolled as a master student in Physics Department, at
the age of 22.

   His self-confidence was shattered, and he's caught between self-pride
and self-degrading.  On one hand, he was not any older than his graduate
school classmates, he was a genius once, etc.  on the other hand, he lost
his starting advantages, and had to face everything that he refused to see
in his college years: romance, financial independence, and most
importantly, his dream of study abroad.  "If I had performed better, I
wouldn't stay in this university.  Seeing and hearing same things again was
a torture, and I want to leave here, leave this country and find a place on
the other side of Pacific." The earlier innocent happiness in his
undergraduate time was replaced by bitterness, anger, shame, and
discontent.

   "I am single.  My grade sucks if I apply US graduate schools.  I'm not
younger than them anymore.  I cannot play turtle and bury my head in the
sand anymore."

   Chapter 2

   "Hey, Frank!  Over here!" Frank walked around the library to meet the
students in his research group.  Two of whom were boys about his age,
graduated from this very university, and enrolled this year as Frank did.
Frank knew them well in previous classes and seminars.  But the third
one...

   It was a woman in her late 20s.  Wearing a blue jeans and light-shaded
blouse, her long, silky black hair, her plump body, a small waist and her
round, full buttock were surely alluring to Frank.  She resembled what
Frank saw on his mother, the only woman Frank had ever been near to,
sniffed the womanly scent from, and touched the skin of.  Only she's a bit
taller, about 5"3', younger and more shapely.

   As she turned around, Frank couldn't help but notice her large breasts.
Unusual in China, she possessed a pair of breasts between 34C and 34D cup.
Frank got his eyes opened, and he took a quick glimpse on her flat belly,
her lovely cheeks and her large, almond eyes.  He might fell for her at
once, but he didn't.  Frank was just surprised of such a beauty existed in
physics department.

   Physics department usually has a sex ratio about 10:1 in this
university. Girls are rare, and most of whom are unattractive.  You just
can't see a girl with both nice face and nice body build, usually neither.

   How could this lady turn up as his laboratory mate?

   "Hurry up, we'll be late for the train." Said one of the boys.  The four
were going to a conference in their research field in another city.  On the
taxi to the station, Frank was luckily seated besides the girl.

   "I'm feeling nausea." Said the girl.  She explained that she is not used
to small vehicles.  Hearing this, Frank decided to ease the atmosphere in
this small cab, and he started to flirt.  "Hey girl, you're lovely.  I
don't mind the age gap." He just rested his arm touching hers as he spoke.

   "No way, I already got a boyfriend." She said, as she took a dose of
anti-nausea drug.  Disappointed, he said, "Oh", while still sniffing her
womanly scent in this cramped-up, dirty taxi; he didn't dare to touch her,
nowhere he could touch without her protest, he thought.

   The train was late for an hour.  As they waited on the bench in the
waiting room, the three boys tried to extract information from her.

   "Where are you from?" asked the first boy, he was the most valuable
person in this research group, having published a brief letter on a
respected journal in his field.

   "Central part of China.  My hometown is...", said the girl.  Frank
gasped.  His hometown was just a short distance away from hers.  She's
small town girl.

   "Where do you graduate?" asked Frank.

   "Well, my master study was done in University of A.  As for my
undergraduate school, it's...it's a secret!" She answered, with a smile, "I
enrolled in college at the age of 17!" A is a university on par with S,
both ranked about 10th-15th in China.

   "And I was only 16!  Enrolled in this very university, S!" bragged
Frank, he was always a bragger.  "Well, I just wasted two years.  So my age
is on par with the other two boys." His voice lowered a bit, expressing his
dissatisfaction about himself.  "Anyway, lady, you're so lovely.  You could
sweep the feet of younger boys!" He didn't forget to flirt with her.

   His immature, naive flirt only caused laugh from the girl.  "I told you
I already had a boyfriend." She said, disregarding his disappointment.

   "So can you tell me your age?" Asked Frank.

   "Well, can't I have this woman's secret?" She smiled at Frank.

   "Surely you can have it." Answered Frank, estimating her age as 28.

   She's significantly older than the other three boys since she already
completed her master degree study and was pursuing her doctorate degree
here in Southern China.  The sole reason she chose this destination was her
boyfriend, who was working in a neighboring city from this university.  No
one knows why she was that old, if she enrolled at the age of 17.  "I had
lots of working experiences," she said, "that's why I'm older, despite of
starting early."

   This mystic, pretty lady sure fit Frank's imagination of ideal woman. 
An older, plump, mature woman with large breasts, and we know how much man
loves breasts, especially for those who had stronger affection with their
moms, like Frank.  "Too bad she's already taken." Thought Frank as they
boarded the train.  On the berth, they talked about this and that, chit
chat through midnight.

   As they arrived in that city, Frank got another perk, he got to sit
beside this girl again since she's nauseated on taxi, and had to sit next
to the window.  Frank immediately chose center seat so he could be besides
her again.  This time, she was more relaxed since she's familiar with those
boys, and Frank exploited this opportunity to get closer to her, starting
to touch her skin with his upper arm.

   "Give me some room, I'm feeling nausea." She protested.  Frank
reluctantly moved himself a bit away from her.  But he moved back close to
her when her face recovered from nauseated, pale state.

   They arrived at the hotel where this annual meeting of Condensed Matter
Physics and Statistical Mechanics was held, unfortunately it was full, so
Frank and the girl was reallocated to a nearby motel.  Frank was getting a
tingle in his heart, although they couldn't fit into the same room, at
least she must companied him when they walk from the motel to the meeting.

   In the evening, Frank knocked the door of the girl's room.  In between
the sound of water splashes, she came out under a bathing robe, without
wearing glasses (all four people are near-sighted).  Catching this
opportunity, Frank had a nice view of her mature body, without her noticing
anything.  It is just some trivialities about schedules, shopping, etc. 
Strangely, Frank didn't get an erection, because he was still frustrated by
the fact she's already taken.

   The only thing Frank knew from the girl was her English name, Vera. 
Vera didn't tell him this, but he inferred from her materials in her USB
disk.  Vera was interested in Frank and both enjoyed company in these days,
though they're not even friends--they had schedules to meet their
respective friends in that city.

   The first time those boys thought her sexually was when she complained
about her amnesia and too much blood loss in her menstruation.  All of
three boys suggested her to take more iron in her diet.  But thinking about
woman talking about her menstruation in front of horny boys...

   Upon returning, Frank started to think how to get closer to Vera. 
Asking the professor of this research group to assign research jobs in her
area, Frank simply became Vera's prot"-g"- in her field.  Vera was older,
wiser and more experienced in research, while Frank was going back to his
juvenile, playful attitude towards life.  He forgot his pains he had
before.

   Vera was not liked among the lab students because of her uncompromising
character.  She's a strong woman, both emotionally and physically.  Every
time she found difficulty in researching and courses, she asked Frank for
opinions.  As a former genius, Frank could recall his undergraduate studies
and gave Vera some plausible answers.  Since Vera was too oblivious to
notice the inconsistency in his answers, she took them as correct answers.
She often joked about herself, "Oh big sister just forget about everything
in her undergraduate studies, I just slept over in my college years." She
always positioned herself as a big sister in front of Frank, since she was
older, and she was the eldest child in her family, too.

   Contract bridge is a game only popular in China among the very top
universities, and Frank was a rarity in University S who played this game
pretty well.  Frank started to brag to Vera, and got mocked badly.  " You
think you can mimic those top students with this?"

   Since their cooperation was getting close, Vera suggested them to study
together.  With delight, Frank agreed.  She also asked him to study in an
empty meeting room so no one interfered.  Frank was too happy to have this
beautiful mature lady study with him and only him, "It is my privilege",
Frank thought to himself.  Frank didn't dare to ask Vera to study with him,
being unsure of her reactions, and most importantly, Frank was too lazy in
his study to find something worth discussion.  Vera was a warm character,
and discussing with her would be a delightful experience to the
romantically naive Frank.



   Chapter 3

   Frank and Vera had something in common: both were not well regarded in
this group, Vera for her strong character, Frank for his bragging attitude
and laziness in research works.  Vera said that she didn't want others to
break into their secret seminars, so she always notify Frank to come with
her via SMS or IM software, and Frank will always wait for a couple
minutes, and then went to meet her in that meeting room.

   First batch of meetings are purely physicists' talk.  Frank was
unmotivated unless there was a chance to tease Vera.  He liked the feeling
of teasing such a beautiful self-claimed big sister showing his strong
grasp of knowledge, he is a natural bragger.  "You forget this?  It's on
the book X, chapter Y, and the answer is...", that was typical of Frank. 
Frank's memory didn't always serve him right, though.

   Once, she started to talk leisurely after a discussion of how a system
works.

   "Well you and my boyfriend are alike." Vera commented.  "That's nice,
how?" Frank asked.  "You both like to mock me of my silliness and slow
reaction." Vera laughed.  "Vera, my big sis, you know there's a proverb:
the bigger the boobs, the smaller the brain", Frank was mocking her and
flirting at the same time.  "Frank, let me tell you the truth.  In fact,
I'm not really proud of my breasts.  They are too big, I can't find
suitable blouses or dresses for me." Frank was thrown into silence.  He
couldn't believe his beautiful researching partner, a self-claimed big
sister character in front him, complained about her tits being too big.  He
instantly got a hard-on, embarrassed, but he couldn't turn his eyes from
her lovely tits.  Finally he murmured, "Sis, you're beautiful, your tits
are gorgeous, why do you hate them?"

   Vera noticed his eyes fixing on her boobs, she got a bit flushed but
soon return to normalcy.  "I'm old enough not to fall for this young stud."
She thought.  "I'm old enough to be your aunt, Frank.  You should find a
real girlfriend, instead of teasing old gals like me." She said.

   "No, my big sis, I'd rather stay single and free." Frank blurted out,
and soon started to regret, was he expressing his irresponsibility about
women?  Should he tell her he wanted her romantically even though she
already had a boyfriend?

   "Her romance status is pretty worrying." Frank reviewed information
about her as he went to bed, "She was once a happy girl back in her small
town as a high school teacher, then she left to study for a master degree
in material science, where she met her boyfriend at that time, and then she
came to our group, aged about 30, not married, no kids.  Even her younger
brother and sister had already married and had kids already.  What was
worse, her and her boyfriend's financial status was bad, which means she'll
have difficulty to raise a child."

   Suddenly something hit Frank's heart.  "No I can't let this beautiful
woman go issue-less!  If her boyfriend can't afford marriage and kids, I
will!" Frank's dick got harder and he started to jerk himself.  For the
first time he fantasized Vera as his dream lover, her big tits, her
beautiful face, her pale lips, her round ass, and the unknown dark forest
of her pussy, all naked for him to kiss, to caress, to fondle, to make love
to...  For the first time in his life, Frank ejaculated for a real woman
appearing in his life.  Before that, he thought about fictional women in
his mind: mature, big tits, rotund body, beautiful face, not too old -- in
other words, an enhanced version of his mother when he was a little kid. 
Frank knew it was called Oedipus complex, yet he didn't fantasize about his
own mother.  He imagined a resemblance of his mother, therefore he didn't
need to worry about incest taboo.  Another funny fact is that Frank didn't
look for porno movies or magazines in his life, unlike other horny boys. 
His only source of sexuality is anatomy pictures of human body, and ASSTR
erotica novels.

   The next day, Vera appeared to be different in Frank's eyes.  She was
again a romantic interest as they first met.  She looked strong, yet her
life was fragile; she needed some good old protection from man, while her
boyfriend was miles away; she lacked a helper in her research, yet Frank
was too lazy to be any real help.  Frank felt sorry for her, and suppressed
his urge to embrace her.

   As their discussion went on and on, the school canteen closed.

   "Oh, no." said Frank, looking at the clock,"It's too late to have lunch
in the canteen."

   "We could go outside to a restaurant."

   "So is that a date?" Frank jokingly smiled at Vera.

   "Oh my little brother, I like you in a way, well, not the romantic way
of course", she smiled back warmly.

   "Oh I like to have you as my big sister too, I'm the only child in my
family." Frank said, and thought that even though he couldn't have her, he
could get such a lovely friend.  Better some than none, he said to himself.
As long as he kept her by his side, he could enjoy the view until they both
left the group.

   Trying to get more information, he asked her about her life.

   "So why did you teach in your hometown for several years?"

   "Well, first my family needed my support at that time; I was also a
normal college student, so I chose to teach at high school in my hometown."

   "When?"

   "You don't ask for my age, do you?  Anyway I had given you enough
information for you to learn my age."

   "I taught for 5 years, and I took the examination for master in
University A, an engineering oriented university.", Vera continued.  Frank
was calculating, "17(undergraduate)+4(college)+5(teaching)+2(master)=28",
while for himself, "16(under)+4(University S)+2(waiting)=22".  She was
indeed 28 when she enrolled here, she was indeed 6 years older than him. 
Oh wait, she might spent a year preparing for the examination, so she might
be 7 years older.

   "I met my boyfriend when I prepared for exam." She added.

   "So doesn't it make him enter undergraduate school in the same year as
me?" Frank said.  He spent 4 years undergraduate, 2 years trying to apply
better graduate schools, while her boyfriend spent 2 years in master study,
so they are on par.

   "Yes."

   "Doesn't it make him younger than you?"

   "Well, yes.  I prefer older guys, they're more mature; but all I find is
this guy.  Guys living in our small hometown were too narrow-minded for my
taste.  My parents introduced several to me, but I refused them all.  Funny
thing is, he's also from the area where I live.  He just spent his
undergraduate years in University A."

   "Well, that makes him and me alike." Frank said, "We enter university at
the same time, both schools are at the same rank."

   "Say, would you have accepted me as your boyfriend if you were single?"
Frank continued in his fantasy of having her as a lover, comparing himself
as her boyfriend.

   "No," she laughed, "You're just too young for me.  Both of our parents
would not accept us.  Actually it took several years for my parents to
accept my boyfriend.  The process was long and painful to me."

   "I'm sorry to remind you of your unpleasant experience.  Anyway, if you
were my girlfriend..."

   "You really should find a real girlfriend, Frank."

   "Please don't mention this again, big sis.  I only want to be with you."

   "If you continue to flirt me and bug me, you won't have this secret
seminar with me anymore." She warned."I'm true to him and it is not gonna
change."

   "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to seduce you, you're just a beautiful woman
and I can't stop dreaming about you."

   "Thank you for your complimentary remarks.  But remember, don't bother
me with your dirty thoughts, it will only damage our working relationship
and our friendship."

   "So you two spent two years in University A together, graduated as
masters, and he got a job in our neighboring city, and you chose to study
here?"

   "Exactly.  Now tell me your story."

   Frank repeated his story, and Vera started to tease him.

   "So you never had a girlfriend, and still a virgin?"

   "Well, if you could teach me..." Frank didn't think, just let his
hardening cock dictate his tongue, and he realized how sexually explicit
his words were, "I'm sorry, sis.  I shouldn't have said that."

   "I should call my boyfriend to beat you.  He's much stronger than you."
she pretended to be angry, "But how can I be mad at you, you're such a
lovely young boy."

   "Oh, my big sis, I like your comment.  I had no luck with girls so far.
Vera, you're the sunshine in my life.  Such a beauty like you praised me."

   "I like you from the start.  You appears to be sincere the first time we
met.  I'm much older than you, and have much more social experiences.  I
could tell your naivety and kindness way back to our first contact in the
train." Vera smiled, "You're always my friend.  In this group I feel
isolated, and many of members, most of them are hypocrites, are against me.
I'm happy to have you on my side.  They thought I'm an insensitive old
douche-bag, but I don't care."

   Frank was very excited.  He could help his big sister in a non-romantic
way, "Serving you is my pleasure.  Sis, your wish is my command!"

   "I like you from the start, Vera.  That's why I chose the same research
field as you do.  I want to help you as much as I can.  My only regret is
that I cannot be your man." He continued.

   "Don't you say sweet words, you will not back them up with your
laziness. You'll start hating me when we're apart.  I always bossed you
around in a big sister way, you're subconsciously feeling oppressed."

   "No, Vera, no!  I want you besides me forever, always as a friend.  Say,
your boyfriend is not jealous?"

   "No, of course not.  I told him everything about you.  Don't you
remember when we're study, and he called in, and I hastily requested him to
hang up ASAP because I'm studying with you."

   "He didn't get angry?"

   "No, we're independent of each other.  I don't blame him getting drunk
at banquet, and he doesn't blame me hanging out with other guys.  As long
as we're true to each other.  So, Frank, don't try to woo me, I'm not your
romantic object."

   "Oh, it's so lovely to have a female friend like you.  A beautiful big
sis, a research partner, a friend that I can turn to.  I'll always remember
you fondly, Vera."

   "You say that as if we'll be separated soon."

   "Back to your life, Vera.  So you wasted your best years in a high
school, your working experience is useless here, and you kept yourself
single in that period of time?"

   "I don't think my life was wasted.  I had no choice, I'm the eldest
child of my family, and they needed my support.  Besides, working there
established my way of process things orderly."

   "Why did you drop your steady job, and switched to academic career?"

   "My younger brother and sister chose this route, I could not fall
behind. As for my boyfriend, my ideal lover would be someone I can
communicate with, not some small town men who will never see beyond their
noses."

   "And your boyfriend happened to be from the same county as yours?"

   "Well, we're both preparing for exams.  He approached me, and I was
lonely at that time, and I fell for him."

   "Why can't I have such lucky romantic cruise?" Frank said bitterly,
looking at her beautiful figure.

   "I'm a girl who likes to boss others around.  And he's someone who can
boss me around."

   Frank knew he couldn't get this girl, because he obviously was bossed
around by her, willingly.

   "He can boss me around, yet he didn't achieve anything beyond this.  He
didn't make big money, and no intention to, and spend all his income on
consumer commodities."

   "So how are you planning your marriage, and kids?  It would be a huge
loss that such a beauty like you could not deliver a baby to the world."

   "I don't know.  We had no money at the moment.  I recalled many of my
friends didn't finish high school, and they're more financially successful
than me.  It is unfair."

   His smile ceased.  He sat beside her, and stated his opinion seriously.

   "Big sis, you might have more experiences than me, but that doesn't make
you any wiser than me.  You're trapped in logical fallacy.  Your motivation
is doubtful.  You tried to compete with others with no fair starting
ground, and tried to measure your success with money."

   "Vera, don't fool yourself.  You chose the academic career not for
money, don't try to out-maneuver others with your future doctorate degree.
Your ambition, or should I say, your dream, already cost you a lot.  You
didn't want to stay in your hometown, so you remained single to your
mid-20s despite you're a knock-off beauty.  You sacrificed a lot for your
dream, so please don't think things that way, I beg you." Frank's voice
trembled, he was acting in a big brother manner, or even a fatherly manner,
towards the innocent, naive little girl he used to think as a mature woman.
"Please, Vera, promise me you'll be happy." Frank looked at her with
tenderness in his eyes.  "Don't let these negative thought running through
your head."

   "You're not in the world to win something, you're here to enjoy
happiness." Frank added, he wanted to fondle her but he couldn't, knowing
she would treat this as harassment.  He placed his hands on the
armchair."You got a lovely boyfriend, you're on your route in academic
career, you'll have a happy marriage, a lovely child, and everything.  Your
family is no longer in debt, your younger siblings found their loves,
established themselves.  You served your family well.  It's your time for
your happiness.  Make up for your lost years."

   "Well, Frank, let me think about it.  You don't pursue anything, you
lazy bum.  Of course you won't understand what I have done all these
years."

   "Sis, a second thought might change your mind."

   "You seemed to be happily ignorant.  You have no motivation, you have no
desire to do anything.  You're just a disappointment of me." She said.

   "I have no motivation?  I'm always planning to study abroad!  You know I
already took those damn examinations and I did better than those who
achieved this goal!  It's just my mediocre undergraduate GPA, and I
couldn't complete a scientific paper in this group.  Well, since you
mention it, that's always my weak spot.  Why am I studying physics for, if
there's no chance of getting out of this country?" Frank uttered in a
frenzy.  He always thought his goal was next to impossible, despite of his
talents at some of the requirements.

   "Good boy!  I thought you were a lazy bum with no dream.  You're someone
with a dream!  At least you have a nice goal, in fact, I also dreamed about
going abroad."

   "Is that true, sis?" Frank was very excited to find that their dreams
intertwined.  More excited and wicked, he knew that her boyfriend had no
such plan.  "Do you wish that we continue our cooperation and friendship
abroad?"

   "I'd love to."

   "So I apply a doctorate degree, and you apply for the post-doctorate
position.  If we're lucky we could stay together."

   Thinking that this beautiful lady would accompany him to his goal made
him blissful.  Here, her boyfriend was close to her, and Frank couldn't
seduce her.  But what if, god helps, he and she luckily got to the same
research institution far away, still as research partner since they're
doing the same thing right now?  They would be forced to study together as
they do now, and her boyfriend would not come to rescue if she's lonely,
horny, or anything.  It must be easier to seduce her.

   The sweetness was soon replaced by bitterness of his past failed
attempts.  He thought he was no less competitive than his counterparts who
successfully got offers from foreign institutions, yet he failed.  Even
harder for her to get a post-graduate position.  Maybe he could coo her to
accept a Research Assistant position perhaps?  But how could he win the
game himself?  He didn't think about it after his failure and admission
into current graduate school.  The route is: he won the game, she won the
same game, and he must persuade her to separate with her boyfriend for a
while.  So he must convince her not give up her dream.  "That would be
easy. She already sacrificed a lot.  If such opportunity presents itself,
she won't miss the rope to hang herself."

   After her afternoon nap, she sent this message to Frank via IM software:

   "I rethought about it in my half-conscious nap.  You could be right. 
All these years, I accepted my family's values, which place success and
money above all.  That's why I feel discontent, dissatisfied and bothered
when I see myself less financially successful comparing to my friends, my
younger siblings, etc.  It no longer applied to me anymore.  I'll go down
my path, which I chose out of jealousy from my younger siblings.  In a
retrospective view, my motivation might be wrong, but now I have a new
motivation in academic research.  You really helped me in sorting things
out."

   Frank replied, "I'm glad I could help you.  It's my pleasure I could be
useful to you.  For many years, my life was fruitless, all my efforts are
futile, and my research progress is abysmal in this group.  I'm so happy to
hear that I'm useful to you.  Don't lose your dream."

   "Don't be silly, little bro.  You're an excellent student, you're just
under-performing yourself.  I used to be a teacher, I understand you well."

   Chapter 4

   "I will go to a gynecologist's clinic to check." Vera said, when they
finished the study.

   "Why, Vera?"

   "Pre-menstruation uncomfortableness." she said, " I lost too much blood
in menstruation which led to amnesia.  When I stand up, I feel dizzy."

   "You really need better nutrition.  You don't want your baby growing up
in your body without enough oxygen, do you?"

   "I want to check if I'm infertile or not."

   Imagining that Vera got pregnant made Frank feeling aroused, especially
when she was standing before him.  Her mature womanly scent, her voluptuous
body, her lovely and firm tits, everything in her made Frank feeling wet in
his pants.  How much he wanted her as his lover, his wife and mother of his
children!  His longing for a woman became a longing for her, an older
woman, another man's girlfriend, and his mentor in this group.

   "You worry about such a stupid thing?  Of course you're fertile by
default!  If you two can't have a child, then go back to check.  Why waste
money on such a thing?" Frank laughed about her concern.  "Your body is
perfect for being a mother.  Your hip, your butt, your breasts, if you
can't have children, no women can."

   "Say, your boyfriend haven't knocked you up, have he?" Frank's question
got more and more explicit.

   "Well, don't worry, we do it safe.  In fact I don't like the idea of
pre-marital sex.  Last time he tried to have me, I refused, and then I
cried." She said, with a small blush in her face.

   "You refused him?" Frank was quite surprised.  He met her boyfriend
before, knowing that he was a strong person.  Frank could imagine that his
dick would be no shorter than the one of Frank himself.  "Why, sis?  Isn't
sex a pleasant thing?"

   "You men always think horny about girls, taking advantage of us, sex
drive is your sole reason to court girls." She complained.

   "No, sis.  You think us too dirty.  That's not a fact, he wanted you to
be happy, and a good sex life is good for you." Frank insisted.  He's
defending her boyfriend.  Facing this nice lady, how could he resist from
thinking dirty.  "You're irresistible." He murmured.  He thought about
eating her pussy, that's a purely give, none taken.  But since she's a
sexually conservative girl, how could he talk her into this?

   "He thought I'm sexually aversive, but I'm not.  I want to have it after
we got married."

   "But why do you deprive your own happiness for a stupid marriage
certificate?  You know, men will always be men." He said, looking at her
tits to make his point across.  "Since a piece of paper does not stop men
from having affair, why do you wait?"

   "A lot things hampered our plan of marriage.  Last time we had a major
quarrel, I was so depressed that I wanted to die." she said.

   "No!  Tell me it's not true." Frank yelled, almost lost control of
himself, "I'm too sad to hear that.  You broke my heart.  I want you so
much, yet you wanted to commit suicide for him!"

   Frank stumbled.  He walked towards Vera, with his eyes filled with
anger, pain and lust.  He suddenly put his hands on her shoulders, trying
to embrace her.  She kicked him at his knees, broke free from his hands. 
"What the hell are you doing!" She shouted angrily.

   "I'm sorry, sis." He reluctantly say those words after a pause, his mood
was back to normal.  "I lost control of myself when you say you wanted to
commit suicide.  I don't want you to die." He was almost to his tears.  "I
don't want to lose you.  Will you hate me because of this?"

   "No, of course not.  Such incident happens between friends." she said,
calmed down, "Don't be afraid.  I never had the courage to commit suicide.
And I already learned it was just too silly to die for trivialities."

   "So you forgive me?"

   "Well.  You violated me, very un-gentleman style.  I'll punish you at
the right time, it is a girl's revenge." She smiled again.

   "Can you tell me your planned punishment?"

   "No, it's a secret.  If I told you, it would be less effective."

   "Is that since I violated you, you'll violate me?  If it is that, I'd be
happy to let you violate me." Frank enjoyed SM themes from erotica novels,
and wanted to try to be the receptor of pain.

   "No that would be silly of me to let you continue your dirty fantasy
about me." She laughed.

   "Does the fact a younger boy lusts for you makes you proud of your
beauty?"

   "No, in fact I think it is a desecration of me."

   "Sorry, sis." He apologized again.

   "Well, when I began teaching in high school, several boys sent love
letters to me.  One of them said my eyes and hair just conquered him." She
seemed to enjoy this.  A woman is still a woman, always loves men to
appreciate their beauties, Frank thought, and her pupil would be the same
age as his.  "Well, I don't have the luck to see your earlier images.  You
must be more beautiful back then.  No wonder those boys fell for you hard."

   "Those old photographs were locked in my family albums, they are old,
yellow, sticky, and hard to fetch."

   "Well you'd better scan it and store in your computer.  Don't lose
them."

   "How do you change from a shameless brag to a modest and careful boy who
apologize for every little misdeed?"

   "Well, sis, because...  I liked you from the start.  But since you
invited me to study with you alone, I learned much more about you, and am
glad to be your friend.  There's only one thing, I ...  I fell for you,
Vera.  Your personality, plus your beauty, completely takes me off.  I'll
do anything for you."

   "Holy crap!" she cried out, "For this thing, you'd better forget it.  I
ignore your remarks."

   "Well, I know it's impossible for you to ditch him after all these
years. I still wish you two as happy couple.  But please, be happy.  You'll
break my heart again if you're not." Frank said in a low voice.

   That night, Frank masturbated with a montage in his head: her body, her
boyfriend, himself, arranged in a frenzy fashion.

   It is now summer again, she's wearing her beautiful dress instead of her
good old jeans.  Her cleavage was visible, and her breasts too if she bent
over a bit.  She complained about putting on weight on her already plump
body, and started her diet which Frank opposed, admiring her beauty as a
plump woman.  She wore dresses or hot pants and standing before him, asking
him how good she looked.  Frank just stood there watching her figure, mouth
watered, and all he could say were phrases like "gorgeous", "goddess like",
"sexy", "this fits you right" "you indeed lost some weight" "you're already
perfect".  She liked him appreciating her appearance, almost in a
flirtatious manner.  Frank almost had a heart attack when she did bend over
before him to pick up something once.  Her white bra and her large tits
filled his eyes.  His face turned red when their eyes met.  "Enjoyed your
view, boy?" She flirted.  He couldn't say a word, but just felt his cock
was so hard he could shoot any minute.

   "Sorry, sis.  I'm a pervert to peek at your tits." He apologized again.

   "Maybe I have given your wrong signals that make you horny about me. 
It's bad for our study.  " she said, seriously.  "Other people might
eavesdrop us, and that would damage my reputation."

   "Oh well, nobody will come up here and eavesdrop us, sis, unless he or
she is a pervert."

   "We'd better keep our profiles low.  This group is full of gossip
makers."

   "If your boyfriend doesn't care, why should we care?"

   "Frank, you're just not old enough to understand it.  I, for one, am not
a girl who cares much about opinions of people that I don't like.  If these
people spread gossips about me, I just ignore them.  However, if they
caught us doing inappropriate things, that would be a completely different
thing."

   "It's my all my fault.  I shouldn't have lusted about you." Frank almost
came to tears when she suggested they wouldn't continue their study alone
anymore.  "Please forgive me, sis.  I still think I could help you on your
research, I'm begging you."

   "No, from now on.  We'll meet once a week."

   "Sis..." tears came out of his eyes.

   She walked away, left him crying in the small meeting room.

   Chapter 5

   He had bugged her everyday via SMS and IM for a week, pleading her to
resume their seminars.  She just answered, "These gossip makers are a
trouble." "You're making me uncomfortable." Actually, she was going to see
her boyfriend.  He's moving to her city and preparing to live with her.

   Frank received her SMS telling him to meet her at the railway station.
Rushing to the subway, Frank thought that it must be her boyfriend going
with her, asking him to fetch his luggage.  Strangely, Frank felt no
jealousy, just gladness to serve his dream lover.

   At the station, Frank was surprised to find her alone, with a large
luggage suitcase at her feet.  She was wearing a pink dress.  It's the best
dress she had as far as Frank had seen.  Too bad she only wore that for her
boyfriend.  He eagerly rushed to her side.  "May I help you, ma'am?" He
smiled at her.

   "You're so impatient to be with me.  Even abasing yourself." She
jiggled.

   "You!  How could you mock me..." Frank shouted, then he failed to utter
anything.  It's true.  His pride was melted before her.  He only wanted to
serve her, anything, even it was dragging her boyfriend's luggage to her
dormitory, soon to be their love-nest.

   "Please don't torture me anymore." His voice was almost muted, contrary
to his usual loud speaking.  He looked at her eyes, her low cut dress, her
tits, her hips, her legs and her high heels.  "I want to be near you, Vera.
Please don't do that to me.  Let me study with you again."

   Back on the subway, the trains were really crowded.  He stood behind
her, looking at her neck.  He had another urge to kiss her neck and
embraced her from behind.  His dick went hard again looking at her back. 
Her bra laces were clearly visible.  If there was some sexual harasser on
the train, he would fight him to death if he tried to touch her.  He put
one hand on her boyfriend's luggage, and the other on his pants.  He had to
put down his dick before it was painfully erected against his zipper.  He
could get away touching her breasts from behind, or kissing her neck or her
bra belt from her back.  How he wished it was an eternity that they stood
close, packed by large crowds of people, and she couldn't escape from his
sight!

   At the transition station, they both boarded off the train.  She
shouted, "Hey, a beauty over there!" Instead of looking somewhere, Frank
locked his sight on Vera.  She smiled, and he smiled back, "You're the
beauty I dreamed always." Said Frank, "I want no other girls but you." He
lifted his arms, trying to stay closer to her.

   She beat his hand off, and replied harshly, "Don't try to seduce me, I'm
warning you, or our seminars will be put off indefinitely."

   This always worked for him.  He could only hum words like "sorry" "sis"
"I won't do it again".  "You're so funny." she teased.

   "So he's gonna to live with you?"

   "Well, after the summer."

   "When will you get married?"

   "October."

   "Best wish to you two.  Hey, can I have your wedding photos?"

   "Well, I don't like the idea of wedding ceremonies."

   "When do you plan for your first child?" Frank was not jealous, just
curious.

   "After my graduation, I guess."

   "Would you mind spending a year separating from him, to do post-graduate
research?  Would that postpone your plan for children too much?  You're
already in your 30s.  The best time is before you turn 35." Frank added.

   "Never mind, I can handle that.  None of your business." She's not very
pleased because he bugged her too much.

   "Can I have your child's photo in the future?  That would be lovely."

   "Well, OK." she smiled.

   Being so closed to a woman as a friend is a bless and curse.  On one
hand, the guy approaches her without alerting her, can have her secrets
without risks; on the other hand, friends can be lovers only in theory. 
Practically a woman will not consider her friends as potential love
interest because they know each other too well.

   Putting things in her dormitory, she asked him to rearrange the
furniture.

   "Pull that cupboard towards the balcony." She commanded.  standing
behind him.  He pulled the cupboard backwards, almost stumbled upon her,
and when he turned around, his left elbow, then his left lower arm, gently
hit her right breast.

   It sent a shiver down his spine.  It's the first time he touched her
breasts with part of his body.  He's very afraid of antagonize her, but as
their eyes met, nothing happened.  She treated as it didn't exist.  She
didn't laugh, didn't giggle, her face didn't turn red.  She just thanked
him, had a five minute chat, and showed him out.

   Only then could he recall the incident.  She was purposely standing
behind him, he thought.  She wanted him to touch her!  It was no accident.
His shaft was pushing his pants again, thinking about her.  She's not
really angry about him wanting her, there're just some concerns: her
morality, her future, etc.  She could not trust herself to this young boy.
She must have known that he purposely hit her ample boobs.  He carefully
pulled the cupboard, calculating the space, and gently turned around to let
his elbow touch her breasts, without hurting her.  Her large, firm, melon
like breasts and her erected nipples were so inviting.  He wanted to fondle
them, caress them, suck them.

   He wet-dreamed again that night.  In his dream, she invited him to her
dormitory, asking him to appreciate her pink dress as they do in between
their study sessions.

   "Gorgeous!" He exclaimed, "Nice fabric, may I touch them?"

   "Nice" she said, "Please, I like you praising me."

   He stood in front her, and started to caress her waist.  Soon his arm
stretched around her waist, embracing her.

   "Frankie, what are you doing?  We shouldn't be that close!"

   "Why not, sis?" He blurted, "I wanted you from the start." As he said
that, his mouth lowered to her cleavage, and started licking her.

   "No!  We shouldn't be doing this!  It's immoral!"

   "I don't care!" He said, and he moved up to kiss her at lips.

   She protest in groaning, without making a syllable.  Then she
involuntarily moved herself close to his body.  He's overwhelmed by bliss,
knowing her body surrendered to him.

   He broke the kiss, moving his lips to her ear lobe.  "I want you, right
or wrong.  Vera, be my first woman!" He whispered.

   He French-kissed her, sucked her tits, kissed her belly button, and
explored her sacred forest of pubic hairs with his tongue.  Her clit was
erected, her pussy was wet.

   "I want you, Frank!" she gasped.  "Oh, what have I done?  How can I face
him?  I cheat behind him!"

   "You don't need to anymore." Said he, "Now it is your choice, sis. 
You're already aroused.  Should I get out and cry out, or could you let me
satisfy your needs?"

   Dream lover was not true lover.  In dreams, social norms and ethics make
way for Freudian psychoanalysis.  All we want is hot sex in our dreams, or
variants of sex if our consciousness censors it.  In this section, Vera
gave up her vows.

   "Oh you treated me good, my little bro." tears running down from her
face, "I loved him for years.  But he always skipped the foreplay and went
for the main stage at first opportunity.  You, though naive and virgin and
inexperienced, put my needs before yours."

   "I'm sorry I made you cry." He said, "I can't believe my luck, it all
happened as a dream." He didn't realize it was indeed in dream only.  She's
sexually conservative that she wouldn't let him have his way with her, and
she's strong enough to physically repel him from her body.  To arouse her
instinct to overwhelm her consciousness?  That's only what dream is for.

   Kissing away her tears, he positioned her in her single bed, and climbed
up to cuddle her.

   "Sis, you're my woman.  Soon you'll be my wife and mother of my
children. We'll settle in a far-away country, we'll have as many children
as you can, to make up your loss in your youthful years.  I'll give my life
to you, let you boss me around.  I'll help your research in physics. 
You're the first and the last woman that I love."

   The rest was history.  He made his first love to the woman he dreamed.
Then he woke up with his crotch soaked in his semen.  He only made love
with his dream lover in dreams.

   "That's the true meaning of the phrase 'dream lover'." He thought,
bitterly.

   -- Paused


   
