Subject: Re Kids and trampling Date: Wed Jan 28 02:43:33 1998

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no, i don't doubt that what you say is true in alot of respects, i was 12 years old when i had my first intensely physical and sexual contact with the female foot, it belonged to my 17 year old babysitter...BUT the attraction and the desire was ALREADY there even at that age, deeply rooted in my psyche. and i do not doubt that she herself,in order to recognize and act on my obvious attention to her feet, had a dominant and or aggresive personality trait that had been instilled at a early age in her physche as well. i don,t remember exactly the circumstances or the situations that imprinted the need or the desire to worship the female foot and be trampled, and i don't think i need to find out, 1 ) it won't change the way that i am, or how i feel about the subjects, i have a fetish, that's never going to change, and i enjoy experimenting with it and performing it with other consenting adults.. whether it`s on video or in private. 2) what would be the point ?, unless the fetish itself became all consuming, constantly taking up every minute of my waking day, my every focus honed in on trying to lay down under a beautiful ladies feet and shoes. right now i'm comfortable with it, it has balance and is a wonderful release for me.. it is who i am.

Now, as to the fact i was 12... i feel what my babysiter did, was dead solid wrong, i was only 12 for god's sake and she was very much more mature at 17, she knew exactly what she was doing. i had never had sexual relations and the feelings i had as she gave me my first significant contact with female feet, were at that time very foreign to me, and i didn't understand what they were or what they meant. i didn't know what it meant to consent at that age, even if i did, i didn't understand what was i would have been consenting to yes it happened,yes i let it happen, and yes i enjoyed it, that is not the point. she was an authority figure to me, and she used that authority in a negative manner, therein lies the problem. it was wrong for her to use her position to use me at that age for gratifacation. and you know she had to get some gratifacation out of it, she didn't just do it for the hell of it. luckily, it turned out to be a well grounded relationship, it lasted about 6 years , me seeing her and us playing our trample/foot games. it never turned "sexual" in the literal sense, but i betcha easily could have, and god's knows how that would have affected me. i,m not being a hypocrite, but if i had a 12 yr old son, and i found out that the 17 year old babysitter was trampling and forcing him to lick her feet i,d flip... kids and teenagers will find their own sexuality in their own way in their own time. it needs to come naturally. i was Lucky.. other kids are not, and end up being traumatized for life.

Just let the kids grow up...

Rudy H