Diary Date: Monday, 31st of December, 2001 (Late Afternoon)

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It's the second time in the past twenty-four hours that Mike has demanded I strip naked at work and masturbate. The time since receiving Mike's demand earlier today has passed slowly. Agonizing, it was so slow. I've never really been a clock-watcher at work but I couldn't take my eyes off it today. By 4pm I was finally alone in the library; all the staff including my boss Jeff finished early to go off and make themselves ready for the various New Year's parties they'd been invited to. I returned to my office after locking the main entry doors and reread Mike's email demand, this time savoring each wicked word without the fear of being interrupted.

Among the list of demands Mike has made is one for information; truthful information which he plans to send to Jeff so that one day, when I least expect it, I'll be confronted and forced to confirm or deny it. Mike wants me to make a list of my darkest desires; the full truth. He wants to make it impossible for me to deny anything when Jeff ultimately confronts me. I also wish for this. That is the truth.

The blurring of fantasy and reality heightens my arousal as I strip naked in my office. I remove every single item I'm wearing, including my watch, and carefully place them in the bottom drawer of my filing cabinet. I lock the drawer and clench the small key in my hand while I contemplate what to do with it. I'm in such a state of dizzy excitement I can barely contain my urge to do the first thing that comes into my mind.

I open the door of my office and stand with my back to the library area outside. My heart is pounding wildly as I squeeze the key in my hand one final time before throwing it blindly over my shoulder. There's a brief moment of silence and then the light sound of the small metal key striking and skating across one of the tabletops in the reading area behind me. It disappears somewhere onto the carpet. I feel a dizzy rush of accomplishment sweep through me.

Knowing that Jeff will one day be confronting me and wanting to interrogate me about my perverse desires, I have already concealed in my office desk a small collection of tools he'll undoubtedly need just in case I try to back out at the last minute. In the bottom drawer of my desk he'll find four of my favorite ropes neatly coiled and ready for his use. Each is about four feet long, bright red in color and tied off neatly with gold thread. He'll also find a black satin sash which could be used to blindfold me along with a small, finger-sized butt plug made of flexible black plastic and an eight inch long gold metal vibrator. The only other thing in the drawer right now is an obscenely realistic, black dildo complete with balls and a solid base so it can be placed on a seat or somewhere else where I might sit. I keep the key to this drawer on a hook hidden under the desktop. It's a detail I want Mike to know.

I remove the black dildo from the drawer and caress it in my hands. It's huge both in length and circumference. The length of the shaft is three of my hand widths. I'd need a fourth hand to cap it's top. That's not counting the balls at the base. My fingers are only long enough to wrap three quarters of the way around it. It feels heavy in my hands.

There's a daydream I have in which I walk naked into Jeff's office early one morning and present him with this gift. It pleases him and he politely accepts it. In my dream he stands from his desk and places the huge black dildo on his chair and commands me to sit. I always do as I'm told even though the shaft is gigantic and sitting on it causes me great discomfort. I slowly lower myself onto it, feeling it stretch and pack the inside of my vagina. Jeff waits until I have seated myself as best I can and then demands I lift my knees over the arms of his chair. I'm breathless as I support my weight with my hands and do as I'm told. I know as soon as I relax my arms the full weight of my body is going to force my pussy to be fully impaled on the dildo. I hold my breath and gently ease myself fully down. The dildo is so large my bottom is still suspended in the air above the seat even after I'm fully seated.

Jeff then gives me a letter to type. It's a long letter scribbled in his almost illegible handwriting. His letter is addressed to me and contains graphic descriptions of all the bizarre things he would like me to do for him. As I type he kneels between my spread legs and buries his face in my crotch. The hot wetness of his tongue on my clit while my pussy is impaled on the huge dildo is enough to make me instantly cum. The pleasure becomes torture after a while; I'm so excited by this it's an almost unendurable agony which in turn pleasures me more. The dream isn't over until I've typed the complete letter. Without mistakes. Jeff always proofreads anything I type for him and I'll be punished for mistakes...
