

     I sat in the driver’s seat of the car on our way to the
airport to pickup Mark. I looked over at Tammy who had an excited
expression on her face and thought about what we went through the
past few months.

  How many people could say they had recently had a sex change?
The last time I saw Mark, I was masquerading as a woman. Now I
was a real woman! Last time we talked, he didn’t have any clue
that Tammy and I were really married and now he knows the truth.

  This was going to be a very strange day for me knowing what
Marks knows about me. How should I react to him? What should I
say to him? I guess I’ll figure that out when I see him.

  We were entering the parking area of the airport and I grabbed
the ticket when we passed through the gate and I parked the car.
I looked over at Tammy and saw her playing with that big diamond
ring she was wearing.

  She appeared very nervous and excited at the same time. I put
my hand on her arm and smiled and said. “Are you ready?”

  She just responded by shaking her head and I opened the door
and waited for Tammy to walk around. Out of habit, I took hold of
her hand but realized we would look like a couple of lesbians
walking together.

  I suppose it will take me a little time to break those old
habits of holding her hand. I’d have to leave those things up to
Mark now.

  We walked into the airport building and toward the area where
Mark’s plan would be coming in. We were right on time so we
started walking a little faster. Tammy was getting ahead of me
and I could smell her perfume as she walked in front of me. Her
little tight ass was swaying with each foot step she took.

  I had a hard time keeping up with Tammy in these heels I was
wearing. That was another thing I desperately had to have
practiced doing. Running in heels! I even discovered my boobs
were bouncing all over the place as I ran to keep up with Tammy.

  We arrived at the gate and Tammy got as close as she could to
the entrance. The guard was keeping her from entering the
boarding area as I stood back and waited. I felt more comfortable
keeping my distance from them as they met.

  I watched Tammy now who was jumping up and down and saw Mark
walking her way. I almost couldn’t stand to watch as I saw Tammy
wrap her arms around Mark as he passed through the little gate.


  Tammy was standing on her toes as she leaned up and gave Mark a
passionate kiss which seemed to last a long time. They kept
talking than kissing than talking some more. I saw Mark slid his
large black hands down past Tammy’s waist and feel her ass and
saw him say something to her and than they kissed again.

  It seemed like they were going to stand there forever until
they finally turned around to face where I was standing and
started to walk my way. Mark had his hand around Tammy’s waist
and she had her arm around him as they walked toward me.

  “Jenny. How are you doing? It’s really nice to see you again.
You are looking good!”

  I extended my hand out to Mark and smiled and said. “It’s nice
having you back home safe and sound!”

  We didn’t say much more as we walked to the baggage claim area
and picked up Mark’s luggage. Mark carried both bags while Tammy
held onto a small bag and I offered to hold it for her which she
allowed me than put her hand around Mark as we all walked to the
car.

  Mark loaded the suit cases into the trunk and offered to drive.

  “Mark. Why don’t you and Tammy sit in the back seat and let me
drive? I bet you have a lot to talk about.”

  Mark didn’t object as he and Tammy climbed into the back seat
together and I drove the car. I was able to see them in the
mirror and saw them kissing again. They were whispering to each
other so I don’t have a clue what they were saying.

  It had been about a year since Mark had gone. I knew they had a
lot of catching up to do and a lot they wanted to talk about. I
thought I’d feel more strange than I did but I really seemed to
be adjusting to this really fast.

  I could hear them talking and kissing as I glanced in the
mirror and saw Tammy holding her hand across her face so I
couldn’t read her lips. I’m sure she was telling him something
sexy!

  I pulled into the driveway and got out of the car and opened
the trunk. Mark seemed to be in a hurry as he pulled the bags out
of the trunk and hurried to the front door. I was right behind
them carrying the small bag again as Tammy unlocked the front
door.

  Tammy held the door open for us and Mark sat the bags on the
living room floor and turned to me and said. “Thank you for your
help and driving us home.”

  We starred in each other’s eyes and I wondered what he was
thinking about me at that very moment. What could be going
through his mind? Did he feel sorry for me or maybe he was
admiring how pretty I really was as a woman?

  “I understand you met Charley at my old apartment?”

  I was a little uneasy and pretended to clear my throat.

  “Yes. I met Charley.”

  “I talked to Tammy about doing a double date with him soon.
Would you like to go out on a date with Charley?”

  He was trying to set me up with his friend. Maybe he felt
guilty about taking Tammy away from me.

  “I never really considered going out. I guess that would be
nice.”

  “You don’t have to be nervous around Charley. He is a really
nice guy and I’m sure the two of you will hit it off.”

  I had a suspicion that he was trying to completely get me out
of the picture with Tammy. Maybe it was the way I felt around
Mark. My mind kept playing this out for months. I still loved
Tammy and I was jealous of Mark. I wanted to be a part of her
life, share everything.

  Tammy walked back into the room.

  “Mark. Why don’t you go into the bedroom and see how we
arranged everything for you while I talk with Jenny in the
kitchen?”

  Mark smiled as he picked up the last two bags and headed toward
the master bedroom. It felt really strange having him living her
now and seeing him walk into my old bedroom. The room that Tammy
and I shared as husband and wife now belonged to her and Mark.

  I’ve been dreading this day for weeks, months, knowing that
Mark and Tammy would spend their first night together in that
room making wild passionate love.

  I followed Tammy to the kitchen and watched as she poured a
glass of water and took one of her birth control pills. She was
so beautiful standing in front of the sink. Should I hold her
tight in my arms and kiss her and maybe . . . Well. Stop her from
sleeping with Mark tonight.

  No. I had to be strong. I couldn’t let her know how I felt
inside. I couldn’t tell her that I was jealous and felt so alone
inside. I felt like a child wanting to sleep with her mother as
protection and security.

  Tammy could sense my feelings. She walked in front of me and
held my chin and leaned forward and kissed my lips. She was so
beautiful with her long flowing red hair and her green eyes as
they starred into mine.

  She didn’t speak. She just put her hands on my waist and pulled
me toward her. We embraced as I put my chin on her shoulder. I
kissed her hair near her ear as she held the back of my head. I
felt our breasts pushing into each other.

  She moved her arms straight out to take my hands into her own
and stepped back and smiled. She laughed faintly and hugged me
again as she whispered into my ear.

  “Jenny. We almost look like twin sisters standing here. You’re
the same exact size that I’m and your hair is almost as long and
as red as mine. We take the same size dress and you look as
beautiful as I could ever imagine.”

  I stepped back smiling at Tammy. I knew she wanted me to feel
good about myself.

  “Jenny. I know this is going to be a turning point in your life
but I want you to know that whatever happens that we will always
remain close and I will always love you. I want you to accept
Mark as a part of your family.”

  She laughed as she starred into my eyes.

  “We’ll always tell people that we are sisters.”

  I smiled knowing how much she was trying to cheer me up. I got
my next shock as Mark walked up to both of us and put his huge
arms around both of our waists. I couldn’t have been but several
inches away from Tammy’s face as Mark kissed her on the lips as
he held us both.

  They smacked lips a few times until Mark laughed. I felt his
body moving as he held me and knew he must have been rubbing
Tammy’s ass. He leaned his head back and starred at both of us.

  “You two women look like twins. I hope you don’t think alike.”

  Tammy let go of me and hugged Mark as she kissed him one more
time. Tammy and I knew we looked alike and even before I started
hormones, people would tell Tammy that she had a husband who had
a girlish face and figure.

  Tammy cooked that evening and I made myself scarce spending
time in my room that evening.
I changed into my pajama’s and decided to read a book. I must
have dozed off because I woke up and it was dark in the room. The
book I had been reading was still in my hand.

  I heard noises coming from the master bedroom and I remembered
that Mark was with Tammy.
I felt groggy as I looked at the clock on my night stand. It was
after one in the morning. It must have been the sound coming from
their bedroom that woke me up.

  The sound was getting much louder. I think it was Mark pounding
the mattress against the wall.
I thought I heard a faint sound like Mark moaning. Minutes later
I heard Tammy in the bathroom than heard the toilet flush.

   My door gently eased open and I could barely see Tammy peeking
in the crack. I pretended to be asleep as she slowly walked
toward the bed and pulled the cover over my shoulder. She placed
a little kiss on my forehead and walked back out of the room

  The smell of her perfume and a touch of Mark’s cologne lingered
in the room. I knew in my heart that Tammy still cared about me
but she belonged to another man now. A man! I could barely smell
the aroma of sex along with the other scents.  I soon feel asleep
until the morning.

  The sun was shining in my window as I gently opened my eyes. I
remember dreaming about Tammy coming into my room last night and
giving me a gentle kiss. What’s this?	I was looking up at the
ceiling and it startled me. I was laying in the master bedroom!
Oh my God!

  I turned quickly toward the other side of the bed. Tammy was
starring into my eyes smiling at me.

  “Good morning, Sleepy Head!”

   Where was Mark? I was confused. I sat up in bed leaning on my
elbow and looked around the room trying to figure everything out.

  “Honey. What’s the matter?”

  “Where is Mark? Where are his things?”

  “Honey. Are you all right? Did you drink something over at
Jean’s house last night?”

  It was all coming back to me now. I must have been dreaming
about Mark being here last night. I was with Jean. We had sex
last night! I must have come home late and dreamed about
everything else.

  I reached under the cover and felt between my legs. My penis
was still there. I must have dreamed everything else after I left
Jean’s house last night.

  Jean. I remember what she told me. I remember being afraid and
wanting to come home to Tammy. My wife!

  Tammy leaned next to me and kissed my nose as she stroked my
hair.

  “Honey. You look worried. Is everything all right?”

  I was starting to remember everything now. I got home after
three in the morning and went straight to bed.

  “Where is Mark? I thought he was spending the night here with
you.”

   She kept kissing my face as she held the back of my head and
stroked my hair.

  “Mark left around midnight last night to go and pick up his
friend at the airport. It’s a guy named Charlie who shares his
apartment. He lost his credit cards and didn’t have a way to get
home so Mark went and got him.”

  I moved closer to Tammy and put my arm around her waist as she
kissed my lips. Everything was coming back to me now. I
remembered what Jean had told me about Mark and how hurt I felt.
I couldn’t explain it but I felt that I had also hurt Tammy. I
had let her down as her husband. She fell in love with another
man and it was my fault.

  I held Tammy close to me as she nudged her face next to mine.
She rubbed her fingers against my cheek feeling how smooth my
skin had become. Our eyes met and we starred at each other as she
stroked my cheek.

  “Tammy. Have I disappointed you the way this has turned out?”

  Tammy was thinking. I could see it in her eyes.

  “Jenny. You never disappoint me. Why would you say such a
thing?”

  I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to tell her what Jean
had said. She would be hurt. I began to cry as I replied.

  “I didn’t mean to hurt you.”

  “Jenny. Please don’t cry. There is nothing that you did that
hurt me. You’re just having difficulty accepting the changes that
are taking place. The hormones that you have been taking will
cause you to be depressed at times. Don’t worry. I’m here for you
and always will be.”

  I wiped my eyes knowing that Tammy carried about me. I didn’t
want to discuss Mark at the moment. It hurt too much to think
about my wife falling in love with him and knowing that I was the
cause.

  Later that morning we showered together and I tried to forget
about Mark. I thought it was very peculiar that I dreamed about a
guy named Charlie who shared his room with Mark. I don’t remember
Mark ever mentioned his name to me before.

  The phone rang. Tammy walked into the room carrying the phone.

  “It’s for you. It’s Jean.”

  I really didn’t want to speak to her right now but Tammy gave
me the phone.

  “Jenny. How are you doing this morning? Have you given any
thought to what I said to you last night about Tammy?”

  I took a deep breath dreading to answer her question.

  “Uh. We spoke in bed this morning and I asked Tammy if I
disappointed her.”

  “Jenny. Don’t be silly. She’s not going to tell you that!
You’re her husband and she isn’t going to hurt your feelings that
way. You have to make a move. You’re the one that is going to
have to encourage Tammy. She is hurting inside just as much as
you.”

    “Jean . . . I don’t know what to say  . . . How should I
approach the subject?”

  “Jenny, is Mark with Tammy right now?”

  “No . . . He went to pick up his friend at the airport but I
think he’s coming over later.”

  “Good . . . Jenny . . . This is a great opportunity for you! .
. . Here’s what you need to tell Tammy.”

  I listened as I swallowed hard wondering what Jean was going to
suggest to me.

  “Just go to her and hug her tight and just say to her that
you’re so happy for her that she found Mark. Explain to her that
you feel relieved that she has a man in her life now and you
don’t have to worry about hurting her.”

  This was almost too much to bare. I knew that if I reassured
Tammy the way Jean was telling me that I was sealing my fait. I
was basically telling Tammy to forget about me and go on with her
life.

  “But . . . Jean . . . I think she already knows this . . .
Maybe I shouldn’t even bring it up anymore. She might get angry
with me.”

  “Jenny. Stop it right now and listen to me. You’re the one
that’s fighting this and not her. You know what you need to do,
now stop dragging your feet around and talk to her.”

  I stood crying as Jean spoke to me.

  “Jenny. Stop feeling selfish. You may have to encourage Tammy
on a daily basis as she has with you about your transition. She
has given you her support and you at least owe her your support
in return.”

  I felt numb listening to Jean but I knew she was right. I had
to give Tammy my encouragement
no matter how much I hurt inside. It was  up to me now to stop
the hurt for Tammy. We hung up and I stood thinking about what I
was going to say to Tammy.

   Tammy was in the kitchen standing next to the sink. I saw my
hormone pills sitting on the table with a glass of water waiting
for me. She turned and smiled at me.

  “Jenny. You forgot to take your hormone pills this morning.”

  She handed me the glass of water and gave me my pill’s one at a
time as I swallowed them. She took the empty glass out of my hand
and put it in the sink. That’s when I made my move and walked up
behind her and put my arms around her tiny waist.

  I kissed the side of her head and whispered in her ear. “Tammy.
I’m so happy for you that you found a man that you can love. I
know Mark loves you and will take care of you and I know he will
treat you well.”

  There. I said it!...My heart was beating hard as I waited for a
reply. Tammy turned around and hugged me tight.

  She was crying as we hugged each other. She was holding me very
tight. She was finally able to speak to me once she gathered her
thoughts.

  “Jenny. I never wanted to hurt you. I’ve been so selfish
myself. I shouldn’t have done what I did with Mark. I realize you
need more time to adjust to your transition and I’m sorry for
what I have done.”

  I knew she was trying to apologias for falling in love with
Mark but I had to reassure her like Jean said.

  “Tammy. Don’t cry.  It wasn’t your fault. I know what I want in
my life and I don’t want to hurt you. Stop feeling guilty about
Mark! I don’t blame you nor do I blame him. It just happened and
he was there when you needed someone and I understand. I’m happy
for you!”

  Tammy pulled her body away from me just far enough so she could
look into my eyes. I could see that she was about to tell me
something else.

  “Jenny. I don’t want you to be upset with me but I told Mark
everything . . . I felt that he should know the truth about you
and me.”

  God. It was just like in my dream. Tammy had told Mark the
truth about me. I felt so ashamed at that very moment. How could
I face that man after trying to fool him? What was Tammy trying
to do to me?

  “Tammy, I don’t know what  I’m I going to do now? How can I
face him again after lying to him?”


  “Jenny. Mark understands. We had a long talk about the
situation last night while you were gone. I couldn’t go on
pretending any longer. He deserved to know the truth!”

  “I think you should have waited to tell him.”

  “Jenny. Mark got upset last night that I waited so long to tell
him as it was. I feel terrible about not being 100 percent honest
with him. I felt that you were being deprived as well.”

  I walked away from Tammy leaving her standing in the kitchen. I
could hear her crying as I shut the spare bedroom door. I didn’t
even come out to eat that night I was so upset with the way
things went that day.

  I didn’t hear a peep in the whole house that night except when
Tammy got ready for bed. Mark didn’t show up that night and I
wondered what was wrong. I lay in bed starring up at the ceiling
as the moon light shined into the room. I wondered what Tammy was
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