Private Conversations

By Katie McN  <katie_mcn@earthlink.net> (c) Copyright 2002, Katie McN


Younger lesbians often talk about seducing straight women. Older 
lesbians are more interested in finding someone to love. There is pain 
for a woman who is left behind when her lover returns to the past.

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She sat alone. Her table was on the patio where she could see the cars 
as they pulled into the restaurant parking lot. She waited for him and 
wondered what to expect.

"Linda, it's me, Rachel. I had to call you. Ed is an hour late for 
lunch and I don't know what to do."

"Hi Rachel. Calm down. Did you check your messages? Maybe he's having 
car problems."

"We were supposed to meet here for lunch." Rachel started to sob. "We 
had a fight, a really bad one. I think it's all over. I think he broke 
up with me. I know he doesn't want to see me anymore."

"Hold on Sweetie. I'll be there in ten minutes and you can tell me all 
about it over a glass of wine."

***

A glass of wine became two. The second glass opened the gates of 
conversation. Linda heard about Ed, about the argument that got worse 
and worse. Neither one would back off and he ended up leaving her with 
nothing but the sound of a slamming door.

It was Wednesday. They always met for lunch on Wednesday, but he didn't 
show up and he didn't call. She left two messages, but he didn't return 
either one.

"Why won't he return my call?" Rachel asked. "We were together for 
three years. Why, Linda, why, why?"

"I don't know, Rachel. Look, we're both getting a little tipsy. Why 
don't you come over to my place and I'll cook dinner?"

"You've been so nice. I can't put you to any more trouble so let me 
find my car and I'll go home."

"It won't be any trouble. I have to make dinner anyhow and I don't want 
to eat by myself. Come on."

***

Rachel helped with dinner and it took her mind off her loss. They 
worked together and things got done. The meal was fun and the pain was 
hidden somewhere in the background.

"Thanks, Linda. It's so nice being able to talk with you. How can you 
stand listening to all my problems?"

They were sitting in the living room sharing a carafe of white wine. 
Nothing memorable. Enough to make the sadness hide and the pain go 
away. "Rachel, you're a nice person. You and Ed have had your problems, 
but you got over them and you can do it again. I thought you were 
talking about marriage."

"That's what I wanted. That all I've thought about since I was a girl 
living at home, listening to my mother talk about the wonders of 
married life, children and all the things a woman needs."

"You can work through this Rachel. You just need some time."

The two women talked and Rachel felt the pain start to leave. The spear 
in her side didn't hurt as much. She thought she was feeling better and 
then she broke down and cried again.

"There, there, Sweetie, I understand. Everything will be all right. 
Don't worry." Rachel sat next to Linda on the couch. She found herself 
in Linda's arms and felt secure. She could smell the fresh scent of 
Linda's long brown hair. Her ear was pressed against Linda's chest and 
she heard a heartbeat tell her she was safe.

Rachel never knew how it happened. She remembered Linda's blue eyes and 
her pink lips. She remembered how the tongue felt as it sneaked inside 
her mouth. She remembered when tenderness changed to sounds of passion 
and friends became lovers. She remembered all of that, but she never 
remembered how it started.

Some of their clothes were on the couch. Some ended up on the floor. 
They finished undressing in the bedroom and found each other before 
they had a chance to pull down the bedspread.

Kissing. Holding. Touching. There were new smells. Fingers explored 
different sensations. There were new sounds. Bodies pressed close 
together in a single embrace. One where there used to be two.

Rachael had never touched another woman's breast. Now she lusted after 
the two firm globes Linda offered for dessert. She felt a hand moving 
down her back and fingers squeezing one of her ass cheeks. A leg forced 
its way between hers and rubbed against her pussy, against her clit. 
Electricity moved through her body and found a secret place in her 
mind. Colors flashed and she heard the sound of herself losing control.

More. More. Touch, feel, hold. Kiss me. Kiss, kiss. Rachel held Linda's 
breast and almost sucked it into her mouth. She kissed her way down 
Linda's tummy and wondered if she could do it. Yes, she could. She 
wanted to taste her friend.

Rachel's tongue trailed over the slit between Linda's legs. She could 
feel the wet and smell the love. She found Linda's clit and teased it 
with her tongue. Licking, pushing, probing. She tried to suck it into 
her mouth. Linda moaned.

She heard a scream and realize it was her own voice. Her body announced 
an orgasm and gave itself over to the power of lust.

Rachel knew what Linda wanted because she wanted it too. She learned 
from Linda and practiced her lessons in the tiny bed that was more than 
enough for two people who were so close together.

Did they make love only once? No, the sun was peeking through the 
bedroom window when they finally crawled under the covers. Rachel 
couldn't remember how many times her body was satisfied. It must have 
been enough because she was falling asleep, but she still thought she 
wanted more.

The taste of tiny kisses burned sweetly on Rachel's lips. Her ass felt 
a pussy pressing against it. Arms held her. Hot breath tickled her 
neck. A hand moved to her pussy. We can't start again, or maybe we can.

***

"He finally called me, Linda. We got together for drinks and a long 
talk." Rachel often thought about seeing him again and it finally 
happened last night.

"It's been almost a month. What happened?" Linda asked.

"Nothing at first and then something came over me. He touched my hand 
and it happened. He moved closer and I could feel his aura surrounding 
me. I started to remember why I was with him for all that time."

Rachel thought about the evening. There was more, but she didn't want 
to tell. No, it would hurt Linda to know what really happened. The 
kiss. The old feelings and then going home. It seemed so normal to make 
love with him. The end of a nice evening, something lovers do. Not 
different and not really unexpected.

"Rachel, what's wrong. You're off in space somewhere."

"It started to come back. Three years. Marriage, babies. It started to 
come back and I wanted all of it."

"You were together for a long time. He's a nice person. What else 
happened?"

Rachel thought about what she could say. She didn't want to hurt Linda, 
but she didn't want to lie either.

"You're right, Linda. There was more. He wants to get together again. 
He wants to talk some more and he told me there are things left to 
discuss. He's right."

"What do you want to do?" Linda put her hand on Rachel's shoulder and 
willed love to flow into her body.

"I dreamed about this conversation a hundred times. I saw myself saying 
some awful things and I wanted to say them. When I was sitting there 
next to him, all the bad feelings went away."

"Are you going to see him again? What are you going to do?"

"I don't know. I'm afraid and something happened when I heard his 
voice."

They talked and they cried. Rachel felt emotions tearing at her chest. 
She heard the soft words Linda used to sooth her, but it didn't work. 
Ed was still in the room. He was still in her life.

"Rachel, I love you and want you to be happy. If you still love him, 
I'll understand and get out of your way." Rachel saw the tears running 
from Linda's eyes and wanted to make things better, but there was Ed.

Rachel dialed the familiar phone number. She heard it ring once, twice 
and he picked it up on the third ring. "Hello."

"Hi, Ed, it's me."

"Rachel, last night was great." Ed seemed happy to hear her voice. 
"God, I missed you in bed and wish you were here right now. Why don't 
you come over?"

"I'm having dinner with Linda tonight. I just thought I'd give you a 
call."

"You can get together with Linda anytime. We have things to talk about. 
I want to make some plans. It's time we set the date and let your 
parents know they'll getting some baby pictures soon."

Marriage, babies, everything her mother enjoyed. Everything Rachel 
dreamed about as far back as she could remember. Yes, it felt right. 
She listened to Ed and knew she should be with him. He was the key to 
everything she needed.

"Come on, Rachel, Linda will understand. Do you want me to pick you 
up?"

"Things are moving a little fast, Ed. Maybe we should take more time."

"Dammit Rachel! We've been together for three years. How much longer do 
you think I can wait?"

"I don't want to fight again, Ed."

"Then quit wasting time and get over here. We have things to do and 
Linda is not part of them. Do you understand?"

Rachel understood. More than Ed would ever know. More than her mother 
could know.

"I'm sorry, Ed. Something happened and I know it's over between us. 
It's time to move on with our lives. There's nothing more to talk 
about. Not now. Not ever. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye."

Rachel put down the phone and started to cry. It wasn't over. Ed would 
call again and she would have to explain herself and wondered if she 
could do it. She had to tell her mother who wouldn't understand. She 
could hardly understand any of it herself. Her thoughts and emotions 
swirled around in pool of confusion. She felt relieved and sad. She 
felt like a weight was lifted from her shoulders and yet she knew it 
could come back again with just one word, one touch or one look.

"Rachel, tell me what happened. I want to help you." Rachel saw the 
tears in Linda's eyes and knew she wasn't alone. There was someone who 
would help her get by the pain. She knew she could make it.

Rachel looked at Linda and saw something more than her best friend. 
"Linda, do you know that I love you?"

"I love you too, Rachel, but let's not rush. Let's take care of you 
first and then see what happens."


The End 


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