                Cassie's Secret
           
           Chapter 14 Cassie's Thoughts

Never would I have believe a man would do these things.
My experiences with them have been so bad. I have been
hurt even worse than my mom was hurt.  She always told me
how cruel, and bad men were. I learned that she told me 
the truth. I look down at Charlie and he is tenderly
cleaning my pussy with his tongue during my menses.
I have been especially mean to him, I have tortured him,
laughed at his pain, and even gloated him. I have treated
him like he was the lowest thing on earth. I had to.
Otherwise how could I ever be sure that he did not want
me to use. I could never be "used". Not by anyone.
Now I am not going all soft. Charlie will always be my 
slave. I have no doubts about that. After this test is
over, I will never take a dump in his mouth again. I am
not saying that I will not ask him to use his tongue 
for my toilet paper once in awhile just so he never
forgets that I am a Goddess and that he is my slave to
do with as I desire. I still can not believe he was able
to eat that, even if he wanted to. I can hardly stand the 
odor. I still remember my taking dumps in public 
bathrooms and have people open the door and make a quick
exit muttering to themselves. He ATE it. That was 
necessary because it set the stage for my use of him.
If he could/would do that, then getting him to relieve me
from my monthly cramps would be pretty easy. After I 
used Edward for that, and there was no more Edward, I 
knew I had to have that special attention. The "Test" 
was just something I made up. It was soo sweet of him to
volunteer to suck on me every month. If he had not 
volunteered, I would have got him to do it anyway. :) 
He is so special. Cassie's expanded her chest and her 
tits stood up when she thought about that. Her nipples 
even got hard and she wasn't touching them. He keeps me in
a constant state of arousal. I think he is insatiable
too. He always wants his mouth on my pussy, or to
be kissing my ass. I am going to train him to do
my hair and nails, shave my legs and do trim work 
around my pussy too. I know he will love doing
those things for me. He acts like he thinks he is not 
doing enough for me. I put on acts for him. Sometimes 
I think he sees through them and sometimes it looks 
like he has no clue, that, although I really
do love him, I am using him. I have known for a long
time that I am not like other women. It use to 
bother me when I thought about it, so I quit thinking
about it! I just do my thing, be me. I can not, nor
do I want to, be anyone else. I can feel my flow go
in his mouth, I watch him swallow. It makes me have 
so much pride in both of us. We are truly a match.
I dearly love using a man for a slave and for my
pleasure. Charlie wants and needs to be used. I am
sure it comes from his thinking he is not good enough
or unable to hold on to a really beautiful woman, but
a beautiful woman is the only kind he wants. So we 
have each other. I will cherish him, enjoy him, for 
many many years, I hope. I thought I might have to
have my pretty pussy cut but I do not think so now.
Charlie is satisfied with eating my pussy, pleasing 
me, seeing me happy. I doubt if he ever makes a big
deal about being unable to fuck me with his dick.

He has fallen asleep with his mouth on my pussy.
I already have him brainwashed so that when he hears
or refers to fucking, he thinks of his tongue and my
pussy. I would not ever want to lose that relationship.
The final minutes of the 48 hours are ticking away.
Maybe I will tell him that we blew it and will have
to start over again. :)  No, I won't, because what 
would I do if he refused. He may never believe it
was a joke in the first place and we would lose a
little bit, well a lot, of what we have. It will 
be better to let him know how happy I am that he 
was able to pass the test. I am truly happy too.
He will make me a terrific slave. He will wait on
me hand and foot. He will go down on me anytime I 
want him to. I am so lucky to have found Charlie.
Back when I worked for him, I never dreamed he 
would be so devoted to me. I thought he wanted a 
dominant woman in his life, sure. But not to this 
degree! Unless you are a woman who has problems 
with menstrual cramps every month, sometimes severe, 
you can not possibly imagine the benefit of a man's
mouth. It is the greatest! Besides the power trip is 
awesome too!

I looked at the clock, Charlie had completed the test.
"Charlie, Charlie, wake up."

Charlie heard her voice and started licking her pussy.

"Charlie, I don't think you will ever get enough of that!
Stop playing with my pussy. You are impossible."

I was playfully scolding him, making sure I giggled 
enough for him to know I was playing.

"Look at the clock, Charlie." You have passed!
Even when I awoke you, you started licking me!
I am so in love with you, Charlie. Go get cleaned
up and come back and hold me for awhile before we go eat."
  
Charlie had had nothing to eat except my waste during
the test period. (Pun not intended!)  After what he had
been eating, food may seem strange to him!

He came back. I could not stand his breath. It was
like a sewer.

"Charlie, I am sorry, I can't stand your breath. I do 
understand why and probably should have expected it.
I can not tolerate it. Do not be mad at me, but we have 
to dine separately."

Charlie said he understood and left to get something
to eat. When I though about what the waitress would
think when he ordered, my pussy started getting wet.
Darn I forgot to have Charlie put a pantie liner on
me. Well I would do it my self, get dressed and go 
eat. I had been eating by myself a lot lately since
I put Charlie on his special diet :)!  As soon as
I start to think about Charlie's subordination to
me, I get horny! I know I can not continue to do
as much to him as I have been, but I love it!  I 
wish I had his tongue in my pussy right now!
I love Charlie, I really do, but it turns me on
so, to think about using him. I am turned on even
more by doing it. The power trip is tremendous!
I don't think he noticed how much I was getting
off on using him as my toilet. I know he realizes
that there will always be pain associated with
my loving him. It is just part of having your
own Goddess. If Goddesses were easy, every man
would want one! It makes my pussy hot thinking
about being a Goddess to Charlie. Part is because
of the things he will do to please me, but most
is because of what I can do to him. That is the 
part I must keep a rein on or I will be using
him harshly, and quickly. Hey, I have a wicked
streak, maybe I am not perfect. No, that is false
I am perfect, what would a Goddess without a wicked
streak be, answer, not a true Goddess! So for
the rest of Charlies life, he will just have to
be ready to light my fires and, on ocassion,
get burned!

Author note:
This was the end of the original story.  I wrote another
one entitled, "An Alternative Life," I needed another
chapter here to tie them together.  So, there is a 
chapter fifteen. 


