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I was a happy enough girl, a fiery little red head who was always getting into trouble. Dark brown eyes in contrast to my very white skin. I was a thin girl with a small amount of freckles sprinkled over my cheeks. I'd taken after my mother. She had died when I was only 3 years old, it hit all of us really hard. Dad was hit particularly hard, he lost his job shortly after and we ended up moving away from our home town. Dad got a part time job, mainly nights. This left us kids to look after ourselves, and Jason and i got along fine. 

 I was at that young innocent age where clothes were more of a hinderance than a necessity. Any time I could it was off with the clothes and running around joyfully. Of course I never noticed that my brother was taking a LOT more notice in me. There were times when my dad was bathing me and his attention called him elsewhere and Jason would tell him that he'd finish me off. I of course couldn't have cared less I was too young to care, I was more concerned with splashing them to care. Sometimes, my brother would take the opportunity to slip his hands softly between my little legs and rub a little. 

He'd say he was washing my special spot, and act as if it were a game. I of course would go along with it. Then after a while he would disappear for a while and return to get me out of the bath. Dry me off roughly,touching my little body a bit more than he should have been, then slipping my clothes on. This was common, and it was more often than not that my brother bathed me in the evening. One night my dad walked in right as he was rubbing my young little pussy and there was a big argument. I remember that night they both yelled at each other and I was sitting at the bottom of the staircase listening in on it. 

It continued, though only when dad wasn't home and jason and i were alone. It was a common occurrence  until I was at least six and was a bit more conscious of my nakedness around both Jason and dad. 

I remember around the time I turned eight I heard them arguing, so i walked to the doorway and peaked at them. My brother had his hand on my dads shoulder as he sat on a chair. He had a smile on his face, my dads was more of a worried look. They saw me peeking and i ran back to my room, closing the door behind me.a little later that night I stirred to the noise of my bedroom door opening. Being eight I was still scared of things that went bump in the night. I was scared as I listened for more noises, quivering below the sheets. I heard nothing at first, just silence and then something brushing against my bed sheets. 

I felt my bed sheets moving, and then something brushed against my feet. I jerked and tried to get out of my bed but suddenly my legs were being held down on the mattress and i couldn't move my lower body. I was really scared now, I cried out for dad a couple of times before strong hands gripped my upper thighs. I tried desperately to get out of my bed but I didn't have the strength to get away from whoever was holding me. 

Suddenly a pair of hands slipped up my legs and pulled my pants down to my knees, then moved straight back to holding my lower body to the bed. I could see now the big rise in my bed sheets, just making out legs sticking out of the end of the bed. I tried to kick a few times but I was powerless to achieve anything from it. Then came a familiar sensation, rubbing. Something was rubbing between my legs through my underwear. I was a bit confused at what was happening but the same feeling as bath time began to come over me. I was still scared at the invasion, still trying to wrestle free, but the rubbing began to get faster and there was little I could do about it so....I laid back and caught my breath.

"that's right,relax for me manda" said a voice from under my blanket.

I immediately recognized the voice, it was Jason who was In my bed. Part of me began to relax and soon i was focusing more on the slight warmth growing inside me. The rubbing was starting to feel kinda good. For the first time the hands holding down my legs let go a little and I moved my legs up a bit, the thought to jump out of my bed had left my mind somehow. Jason took the opportunity to grab the hem of my underwear and slip them off down to my ankles with my pajama pants. My bare pussy was now exposed to him completely. I felt a bit anxious now, what was my brother doing? Why was he touching the area I use to pee?, why was it making me feel so good?.

Soon the rubbing began again and the feeling from before was coming back. My little head was spinning as all these feeling started. I felt my hips buck at one point as i was touched in a place that had never been touched before. I let out a little whimper as my brothers fingers began to caress and rub parts of me that felt good when he did. I began to feel different down there, my brother rubbed one of his fingers against my thigh and left a wet streak across it. I jerked a bit, I was wet down there,had I wet myself?

"don't worry sis, that just means you like it is all" said Jason as if he was reading my thoughts. 

Soon those fingers of his were going deeper and deeper inside of me. It felt strange..but good, I felt like I was getting warmer and warmer. I began to bite my lip and and stretch my back a bit. As the fingers slid in and out of my 8 year old cunny. Then something soft and wet joined the fingers and I let out an audible yelp. It had taken me by surprise but it had also felt incredibly good!. By now my head was focused on such pleasure that was engulfing nearly my whole body. My little legs flexed and by back arched as jason's tongue explored my little pussy. I let out another little whimper of sheer delight.

Jason's fingers left my crotch, leaving just his tongue. Jason's hands gripped both my thighs from underneath and slid up to my bum. He took firm grip of my cheeks and pulled my lower body off the bed, holding it up in his hands. I was happy at that point to let him do what he wanted and again let out a groan of girly delight as his tongue probed deeper into me. Jason had started a rhythm and was driving my little body insane. I felt my loins getting hot and kind of tingly, My mind dazed. I just wanted the feeling to go on forever. Almost involuntary my body began to flinch and my hips buck. 

Jason's tongue was reaching areas deep inside of me and I could feel something building. He held my ass up off the mattress and flicked his tongue around like it was a worm searching for something. My breathing became heavier, quicker and quicker. Then I felt my hips buck again and again as the feeling built and built until finally jason's tongue reached somewhere that just made me cry out in sheer pleasure. My little body shaking as I experienced my first ever orgasm. My heart racing at a million miles an hour, my body sweating a little bit. I lay my head back as I recovered from the experience. 

Jason let go of me and slid away from between my legs, letting the sheets fall and rest on me. Through the light from the window I could make out Jason beside my bed. He stood there for a moment and then placed a hand on my chest. 

"your mine now Manda, even if you don't know it yet, I own you and I will always own you" said Jason softly to me. Then he patted me on the top of my head and left my room. 

I reached down underneath my bed sheets and pulled my underwear and pants up, not before feeling around down there and making sure everything was ok. I pulled my pants up and turned to my side ready to go back to sleep. But soon enough my eyes were open and my mind was going through what had happened just now and what my brother had said to me. I also couldn't help thinking about my body as well, and why it had reacted the way it had. As I closed my eyes again, my left hand slipped down my pants and down to my pussy again. I sighed and tried to drift off to sleep, whiles't I explored my young body for the first time.

That was the first time I'd been exposed to anything sexual. Now I'd become confused, was this something siblings did with each other?. I didn't mention it the next day to dad and Jason didn't even act any different. I ended up forgetting about what had happened, and for the next few nights I slept uninterrupted. However an urge was growing inside of me, as young as I was I couldn't get over how good it felt, especially when something happened inside me, an explosion of sorts. As the nights went on I continued to seek that feeling out. My sexuality had begun and I was very curious. 

The next thing I really remember was about five nights or so since my brother had been in my room. I was almost asleep, in that place between being awake and out cold. As I was drifting off I felt the bed moving ever so slightly, followed by the the feeling of my bed sheets being pulled down to my legs. This time i was knew it was Jason, who I assumed was here to do what he'd done before. But this time he was over me, I made out his silhouette in my dark room. 

I felt warmth on my neck and soon moving up to my ear. It felt like someones warm breath against my skin. I closed my eyes, waiting for him to make his next move. Soon enough his hands were on my chest,sliding done to my tummy. He lifted my night shirt up and asked me to put my arms up. For some reason i obeyed and did as Jason asked, not sure what this was all leading to. He removed my shirt completely, leaving my upper body completely exposed. His hand were back on my chest and he placed them both around my little nipples. Almost massaging the entire area. 

The feel of his warm hands rubbing and massaging me there felt kinda good. Though this time I felt some hesitation, something about my brother touching me like this felt wrong. He removed his hands and I could see that he was taking his shirt off as well. Then I heard I sound of a belt unbuckling and before long he was sliding his pants off and He was in bed with me, completely naked. I was a bit worried by all this but I still went with it. Jason began running his hands all over my body, my tummy, chest, neck and shoulders. I could hear his breathing from beside me as his hands wandered over my young body.

I started to think back to a few nights ago and how good I felt when he put his fingers up inside me. My young mind began to crack and I could feel myself giving in to him. I felt weight on top of me and soon there was pressure on my tummy. A small light came on and I could see  Jason kneeling over me, his naked crotch was only a few inches from me. For the first time in my life I saw his erect penis, it bulged out from his body. It was something I'd never seen in my life and it was kind of weird to an eight year old girl. 

"tonight its your turn" said Jason as he moved it closer to my face. He moved back a bit and got me to sit up so I was leaning against the head rest. 

He moved closer to me and again his rock hard dick was only inches from my face. He placed his hand on my face and stroked it softly. "hold it with your hand and then put the tip in your mouth" he instructed. 

I hesitated for a few moments and then did as he asked, taking hold of it with my left hand. It was large and warm in my hand, I could feel it throbbing as I held it. Nervously i moved my head forward and brought the tip of his dick to my mouth. Not sure what to do I stuck my tongue out slightly and let it brush the tip of his dick.

I immediately heard Jason let out a faint groan, his hand moved from my cheek to the back of my head. I kept going and put more of his penis into my mouth. I began to taste something quite salty, I shuddered a little bit but Jason kept my head in position with his hand. He then pushed my head foreword a bit more and I felt his dick go right into the back of my mouth, brushing across my tongue and toward the back of my throat. I was a bit startled, not liking the intrusion. He let my head fall back a bit and pulled his penis from my mouth. 

"your doing great manda, keep doing that but quicker, back and fourth, suck on it a little" said Jason thrusting foreword into my mouth. 

I didn't really like it that much but I moved foreword and took his penis into my mouth. This time I moved my tongue around a bit and as he instructed moved my head foreword and back. Using my hand to grip it I pulled it into my mouth as I sucked on it. I kept going as quick as I could. The salty taste was back and I didn't like it very much. I could hear Jason breathing deeply again, interrupted occasionally by low moans. His grip on the back of my head tightened and his other hand was grabbing hold of my chest, twisting my nipple between his fingers. 

I kept going as long as I could, back and fourth, back and fourth. His groans got louder and I felt his penis in my mouth tremble slightly and at that moment he grabbed my head with both hands and pulled it foreword violently. I was virtually choking on his dick when I felt something being sprayed into my mouth, and mostly down my throat. I was gagging on my brothers cock, my face going red, my breathing restricted.

He held my head like that for a few more seconds before finally letting go of my head completely. I started coughing and spluttering immediately, as I tried to catch my breath. The taste in my mouth was slightly salty but not completely unpleasant. I spent the next minute coughing and bringing some of the stuff up. Jason had gotten off the bed and was putting his clothes back on. I laid flat on my back again, still in some discomfort. 

I felt used by my brother, I was not fond of the experience. I made my mind up at that point that I wouldn't let him do that again. He left my room shortly after, without so much as a word. I wiped my eyes and my mouth and tried to go back to sleep. I was angry and a bit frightened, I began to realize that I probebly wouldn't be able to stop my brother. I told myself that If he tried it again I'd tell dad. That never happened. A few nights later Jason came into my room again, before I could react he had my pants down and I gave into him again. That night he brought me to orgasm again and he told me that we'd take turns. 

This became a regular thing, at least five nights a week my brother would pay visits to my room and he would finger me and lick my pussy until I came or I would suck his cock until he did. I began to get used to blow jobs as he called them. In fact after a month or so I was getting exceedingly good at it. It hadn't gone passed oral sex yet, thank god. Though my mind was starting to wonder, and i was stupid enough to think it hadn't struck my brother yet. It had, in fact this was all leading up to my first time having sex.

The weekly visits went on for a long time. It must have been a good two years, something he said we were keeping secret from dad. By then I wasn't a stranger of my body, I was beginning to realize what excited me and how to achieve it. Jason was also becoming a bit more daring with this. One time when dad had gone out to get some groceries. Jason cornered me in the kitchen until I sucked him off. After a short wrestle I submitted and blew him until he came. That time really made me think about it and how how wrong it was. I was only ten after all. I went to my room and shut myself in, waiting for dad to come back. 

My body's development was going steadily and as early as ten my breasts were coming in. Dad told me we'd have to go bra shopping soon and also that soon my body would start to change. I had been told by other girls what happened when you reached around thirteen or fourteen. One of them had said it was the beginning of the stage where I became ready to start fucking. I hadn't heard that word before, though I figured what it meant. I was becoming much more aware of why my brother was doing what he was. 

Soon after, I told my brother that I didn't want any of this to happen anymore. I told him it wasn't right that we did it and to forget everything we had done. I still loved my brother and in some way I didn't completely hate what we'd done. He didn't really give me an answer, but for a time the visits to my room and the requests during the times dad was away stopped. I was happy and I felt as if my life was that of a normal ten year olds. 

It didn't last, around 6 months later things got even worse. My brother had brought friends around, they were all around his age and much older than I was. He seemed to ignore me while his friends were over, barely acknowledging me. One time I noticed a pair of my underpants were missing. After looking around for them i noticed them in my brothers room. One of his friends was with him and when they saw that I had seen my underwear in his room they smiled and Jason grabbed them. 

"give them back!" I said to them, demandingly. 

He just smiled and looked at his friend. 

"I'll give them back to you.....if you show us both your cute little body" he replied in a slightly evil tone.

"no way, give them back or I'm telling dad!" 

"huh!, dad won't care, he never has" said Jason now grinning.

I stopped as my mind raced, had dad known about my brothers visits to my room?, had this all been given his ok? Did dad not care what my brother wanted from me or did to me?. I left my brothers room, refusing to do what he asked of me. I refused to play his game, I had developed some pride. I went to my room and sat on my bed, feeling like I meant nothing to my brother or my dad. Brothers were meant to protect their little sisters, not use them for their sexual needs.

A few more weeks passed and I had reached my eleventh birthday. I had very little to do with my brother since then. I didn't trust him anymore and he had a girlfriend now. I had a few friends and my life was pretty good. On my birthday my friends came over and the day was really good. Dad gave me an iPod, my Grandparents had sent me my first make up kit. I was really excited about it. Jason also gave me a present, it was a cell phone, a really expensive one. I loved it of course but I couldn't believe he'd got me something that cost so much. I thanked him a lot and spent the rest of the day one happy girl.

The next night dad had gone out to work, Jason and I were alone together before his girlfriend christie came around. I was in my room watching tv, Jason and his girlfriend were watching a movie in the lounge with together.  

The night was going ok until I could hear them making out on the couch while the movie was on. I closed my bedroom door to block em out, Christie was a noisy one. Not five minutes later I could hear Christie shouting and yelling about something. I opened my door a little and peeked out. I saw Christie grabbing her things and storming out of our house. Jason looked really upset, really, really angry. I shut my door and went back to my bed, hoping he'd calm down and go to his room. At first nothing happened and I figured he'd gone to his room, but it was too good to be true. 

I heard footsteps and then then my door was flung open. Jason had a look in his eyes I hadn't seen before in my life. He walked in, looked at me for a bit and then walked over to my dresser. He grabbed the make up kit and held it up. 

"tonight you pay me back for that phone I got you"  said Jason in a very calm and collected tone.

"yeah I don't think so!, I couldn't care less about that phone so take it, see what I care" I shot back, I knew what he wanted.

He walked over to me and leaned over, holding the make up kit in his hand. 

"You'll do whatever I say Amanda, and I think its time you had a lesson in sex education" replied Jason, his eyes looking over me.He dropped the make up kit and went to grab me. 

I went to get off the bed but he jumped on top of me, pinning me to the bed. He spun around and grabbed hold of me, forcing me onto my back. I tried to wrestle out of his grip but he easily held my arms against the bed, above my head. He leaned down and began kissing my neck, over and over, I was still trying to get out of the hold he had me in. He pinned himself against me and let go of my arms, simultaneously he shoved a hand up my night shirt, feeling for my small developing breasts. 

"ah just starting to become a woman Amanda!, now I'm going to show you the best part" he said kissing and sucking on my neck. 

Jason began to move more, his breathing becoming more heavier, he was getting really excited. He let go of my other arm, I immediately tried to push him off me but he used the hand on my chest to keep me flat on my back. With his spare hand he grabbed the top of my pajama pants and pulled them down with ease. I cried out as I felt him immediately place his hand on my crotch, slipping it between my legs. I was really trying to put up a fight but he was so strong I couldn't do anything. I was becoming exhausted just fighting against him. 

Jason had slipped his hand underneath my panties and was rubbing my bald pussy. I tried to close my legs but with his body laying over mine I could barely move a muscle. I felt him working my pussy with his hand, getting his rhythm going as he rubbed and rubbed. I cried out for him to stop, to please just leave me alone. He had no intention of stopping, his fingers were slipping between the slit of my pussy and working me over. I couldn't help but let put a little sigh as he found my weak spot. This encouraged him big time, his fingers picked up pace and soon they were penetrating me deeply. My pussy was getting wet and was becoming  well lubricated. 

"Jason please!, stop now I beg you, i will tell people you did this!" I said, begging him to stop. 

He ignored me and continued to finger my pussy. I was helpless and had given up fighting him. He realized this, feeling my arms leave his chest. He took the opportunity to pull my panties off and unbutton my night shirt, all with little force. I looked into his eyes and gave my most saddest look, he placed his hand on my face and stroked me softly. 

"you'll like this amanda!, sooner or later you'll learn to like this!" said Jason,removing his hand and undoing his belt. 

He moved his head down  and began licking my tummy, moving his tongue up over my navel then back down to just a few inches above my vagina. After a few more seconds he ran his tongue up my tummy to my chest, licking right up to my nipple. I shuddered at this, to my horror the feeling inside me was growing again, the good one. This, combined with my pussy being fingered was causing my body to betray me. I breathed deeply as Jason took my left nipple in his mouth and sucked on it a bit, even gnawing on it ever so slightly. That made my body get that tingly feeling all over, goosebumps were all over me. I couldn't hide the little moan I gave and this was his signal to go fourth. His fingers pumped in and out of me for a few more moments, then he moved up over me. I was looking directly at his neck.

He had slid his pants off and his hard erect cock was sticking into my thigh. He slid a hand up to my left shoulder and held me kind of tight. He took hold of his cock in his other hand and rubbed it against my inner thigh for a few seconds. As I looked down I could see the pre cum glistening in a small trail on my upper thigh. He placed the head of his cock at the entrance of my pussy and rubbed it up and down the slit. I was bracing myself for the inevitable, there was no stopping it. The thought going Through my mind was that my first time was going to be with my own brother, my own flesh and blood. 

The thought was interrupted as I felt the head of his cock push into my young vagina. I let out a small, soft groan as I felt him begin to enter me. He inched himself in, first the head popped inside me, then the rest slowly slid further into me. 

"ugh!...ah..ah....hhmmnn...agh!" Was all I let out as my brothers cock split me open and worked its way deeper into me. 

Then he pushed forward and I felt a twinge of pain hit me, one that caused me to cry out and grip my brother tightly. He took hold of my sides and pulled out a bit, then back in, causing another moan from me. I looked down as he pulled his cock back and saw it had blood on it. I was fairly alarmed, even freaking out a little. Jason just held me tight and thrust back inside me. My tight pussy clamping down on the evading cock like a vice. He groaned loudly and thrust into me back and fourth, then almost automatically i raised my legs, bent my knees and wrapped them around jason's waist. Our bodies were rocking back and fourth in unison, I felt every inch of his cock going deeper inside me. 

"told you.....you'd like it" whispered Jason as he fucked me. 

That almost brought me to tears, mainly. Because I knew he was right. It didn't feel right, but as he fucked me i held him tight, wanting him to hump me harder and deeper. His cock in my pussy felt amazing,I could barley hold back,I just panted and moaned as he fucked me. I was starting to sweat as muscles I didn't know I had constricted around my brothers dick, like it was milking it. I clutched my brother tightly and used my legs to pull myself into him as closely as possible. I was now just a slave to my young body. It was experiencing this pleasure for the first time and it was desperate for more. 

Jason fucked me deeper and deeper, my body almost convulsing when slammed into me as hard as he could. I let out a cry as he hit,then pulled back slightly. He slammed me a few more times and then began to pick up the pace. Slap! Slap! Slap! Slap!, he began fucking me as fast as he could. A loud smack of flesh slapping flesh as his balls collided with my ass. His pace didn't let up and for about two minutes straight he jackhammered into me as fast as he could. My young body was being shaken back and fourth, my butt bouncing off of the bed as he fucked me with all the energy he had. 

Jason groaned loudly and pulled out of me suddenly. With his dick in his hand he aimed it over me and almost simultaneously i was sprayed with his cum. It landed on my chest and stomach mainly. A few streaks of it reached my neck. Jason almost collapsed beside me, exhausted. I was surprised it was all over,my pussy had calmed down but I hadn't had the release i was after. I had no shame left, I stuck my hand down there and  fingered myself until I came. Moaning in pleasure as my body shook in ecstasy. 

Jason recovered,got up and put his clothes on, he looked at me and smiled,before leaving and closing the door behind him. I fell face foreword into my bed and buried my face in my pillow. Tears began and the shame of what had happened hit me again. I sobbed for a good hour or so, heading into the bathroom and washing the gross semi dried semen off my body. As I showered I felt a dark feeling grow over me. What had happened was horrible, and I felt used and hurt. The thought that my brother could do that any time he wanted scared me. 

But what scared me the most was the feeling inside me that despite what had happened, was a little turned on by this....taboo!. Just like the first time he'd performed oral sex on me, i had been left both confused but also....kind of excited!.



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