                   An Alternative Life                       

                       Chapter 8

Amanda resumed her position on the bed. The one where she was 
when I entered the room and satisfied my desire to eat her 
instead of giving her the massage she asked for. Yeah, I guess 
I can not complain when she does what she wants with me. That 
is what I did with her, almost. What I really wanted was to fuck 
her. I get these incredible hard ons which she ignores and makes
me ignore them. The only relief I have is when I am not in her 
presence. Yet I had rather be in her presence receiving no 
sexual relief than be away from her fucking any other woman I 
ever met. In two days she has me worshipping her completely 
and desiring to worship her even more. I would do anything for 
Amanda. Much I have already done. 

As I massaged her she cooed words of encouragement as well as 
directions. 

Amanda loves attention. She demands it all of the time. She 
objects when we are together and she thinks I am not thinking
about her and only her. It is like she wants to be sure she 
owns not only my body but also my mind. Maybe even my soul.  
She is insatiable where both attention and sex is concerned.  
I will probably be doing stuff for her or being used by her 
the rest of the night. 

My thoughts were interrupted by Amanda's voice.

"Larry, are you listening to me?" 
 
"Yes Goddess," I answered.

"I said that was enough, and you kept massaging me. Why?"

"I heard you but I was doing it by count and lacked just a little 
finishing the count. I wanted to do it to perfection." Not true, of 
course.

"Uhmmm, well, you did a really great job. Now, you take off all your 
clothes and lay down right here. Do I need to tie you, or are you 
going to be really, really good."

"Amanda, what are you going to do?"

"It is Goddess Amanda to you slave, and that is no concern of yours.  
I own you. I will do anything I want to do. You are my willing slave, 
are you not?"

"Yes, Goddess Amanda," I answered slowly and with much reservation.

"Larry, I am going to do anything I want to your body. You already know 
you are going to get bit. I just love to bite and you have it coming.
I will do other stuff too. If you truly want to be my slave and belong to 
me, you will not resist. If you resist, I will walk away and never return.  
A slave that can not be totally trusted is a worthless slave that I will
have no part of. That is the NOW and in the future. I own you, or you are 
nothing to me. Wellll?"

"You own me Goddess," I answered as I stripped and laid down on the bed.

"Lay on your back first. There, give me your arm".

I lifted my arm up. She took it and brought it towards her mouth. She 
moved her lips back revealing all the teeth she could. I know this
statement makes me sound crazy but I was fasinated with her teeth. It
was like I was in a trance. I knew she was about to bite me but could
do nothing to resist. Her brown eyes were beautiful. I looked back at
her teeth. Her mouth was open now. I watched as she ever so slowly
closed it over the inside of my arm about three inches below my elbow.
I watched mesmerized as she closed her mouth and I felt the pain of her
teeth. I cried out. It made no difference. Her expression did not change
as her grip tightened. I knew at any moment her teeth would cut into
my arm and blood would gush forth. She held her grip. It hurt alot.
She must have held my arm in her mouth for three or four minutes. My
begging fell on deaf ears. In an instant she snapped her mouth open.
Really quick. That hurt as much as her biting me. She watched the pain
on my face and in my eyes with no expression. She brought my arm to her
mouth again. She placed her mouth just a little ways from an already
turning blue bite and slowly applied pressure just as she did the first
time. I could feel the tears in my eyes as I begged her to stop. She 
continued her bite. She removed her right hand from my arm and began 
fingering her pussy. She was getting off on my pain. What have I got
myself into. I know I am crazy for allowing this. I hate pain. I have
never been able to withstand pain. Yet I can feel myself getting hard.  
She is hurting me and I get a hard on. 

I hoped my arm was not in her mouth when she reached a climax. If it
was I waa going to lose a mouth full of flesh. Her mouth snapped opened
as before. Oh god that hurt. I begged her again as she reached for my 
other arm, still fingering her pussy. Amanda was in her own world of
pleasure. My pain was just promoting that pleasure. The same ritual 
was being performed. The same slow placing of my arm in her mouth.  
The same slow closure of her mouth and teeth on my arm. The same pain.
How could she be horny. I just got through bring her to orgasm. I was
wishing that I had not because it would not take so long for her to
get off. 

She was seemingly going to bite me until she reached gratification.  
She was on her second bite of my right arm. Both arms hurt. Her eyes 
were now closed as her grip on my arm tightened. She was biting harder 
and her nails were cutting into my arm where she was squeezing so 
tightly. I knew she was going to take a plug out of me this time. I 
could see it in her face. I was actually crying and begging her to 
stop. The crying was as much in anticipation of the hole I was about 
to have in my arm as the pain from her teeth and nails were causing.  

Her mouth snapped open again. She turned my arm lose. It dropped to 
the bed. 

With out saying a word she straddled my face and lowered her pussy to 
my face. I opened my mouth and had my tongue out reaching for contact. 
Her pussy was so wet I could see cum in it. Her cum filled pussy rested 
on my mouth. Her cum was sweet. It coated all parts of my mouth. As I 
moved my tongue in her pussy, I felt her hands as they gripped my head.  
She began to hunch and move her crotch around and over my face. I tried 
to keep my tongue in her pussy but it would slip out. I have never seen 
so much cum. She hadcnever said a word since she started biting me. I 
would tell her how sweet she was. How I loved eating her, etc. She never 
answered. Shecjust fucked my face. When an orgasm was near I could hear 
little criescof pleasure. Her hands would tighten on my head and 
sometimes her nailscwould cut my neck. I do not even know how many she 
had or if she would get close, cool down and then heat up again. My face 
got one hell of a workout. I was coated with cum from my chin to my 
forehead. Numerous times my nose had been in her pussy just as I inhaled.  
I could barely breathe through my nose for all the cum in it. When she 
finally relaxed and was still I sucked the remaining cum from her pussy 
and swallowed it. I licked her pussy, all of her crotch area and her 
thighs. When I finished she still said nothing, just turned around and 
sat her ass on my face for me to lick some more. I tongued out her ass 
just as she expected. I thought I had licked enough but a bite on one 
of my fingers got me started licking again and fast. She left my 
fingers near her mouth and every so often she would bite a little.  
I never knew when I might lose a finger. She never bit very hard, but 
the fear factor was there. I tried to get her to talk. When I would she 
just bit me harder. After a few times I got the message.

Amanda rolled over on her side, leaving me where I was but my left hand
was still near her mouth. I could feel her breathe on it. I had not 
spoken in awhile. I had time to think. What in the name of all that
is sane am I doing. Amanda is the most beautiful, most desirable 
little thing I have ever seen. How did she ever dream of doing all of
this to a man. She was not the innocent type that is a certainty. She
is so young. How did she learn all of this. How could one so young 
even know that ownership of this nature was possible. If she is crazy,
which is possible, my very life is in danger. I lay motionless the only
sound I coud hear was the beating of my heart. I cringed as she brought 
my hand to her mouth and place a finger between her teeth. I felt pain 
as she increased jaw pressure. I tried to remain silent but the pain
was to great. I asked her to please stop. I begged her. I told her 
I loved her and in spite of all she was doing to me that I wanted to 
belong to her forever. I told her again how sweet she tasted and that
I would endure any and all things for her. I only cried out because 
I could not handle pain even though hers was a sweet pain. I even told 
her I got hard when she was hurting me. I begged her to quit for just 
a little while. Somewhere she removed my finger from her mouth but
held my hand close as she went to sleep with my nose close to her ass
and me in an uncomfortable position on the bed and floor. I wiggled and
got all of me on the bed but in doing so she had taken my finger back 
inside her mouth. I tried to go to sleep but found it very difficult.
One of her legs went over me and my face ended up in her crotch. Her
scent was stronger than usual, but why not she had had sex for more 
than two hours. Her crotch was not nearly so hot now. I felt her teeth 
tighten on my finger and just knew she would bite me terribly hard in 
her sleep. She made little sucking sounds on my finger. I licked her
moist pussy. She moaned a little. I kissed her lips and licked her
again. She snuggled her pussy against my face. I was awake for along 
time but somewhere I found sleep. The first thing I knew about Monday
morning was Amanda's voice saying.

"Larry, my Larry, wake up. I need to use you. I got to go pee. I
need you Larry. Larry! Wake up!"

I opened my eyes they were partially glued together with Amanda's cum.
My face felt pulled. I knew it was due to her dried cum on my skin. 
It smelled as if I had got drunk and passed out in a fish hatchery, 
I inhaled. All my breath came straight over Amanda pussy. I got my 
eyes opened and focused. I could see the milky white goo in Amanda's
pussy. One swipe of my tongue and a swallow took care of that. I was
awake now. Amanda raised up, straddled my face and lowered her pussy
to my mouth. She had me aligned perfectly for what she was going to
use me for. I opened my mouth wide as she settled down tightly.  Her
warm pee started flowing. I let my mouth fill and I swallowed her piss
in a big gulp. I exhaled and inhaled quickly through my nose as my 
mouth filled again much to quickly. I swallowed. I was about to choke.  
My nose was to full of her cum to breathe properly.  I took a big breath
through my mouth. I shut off the air intake just in time as more piss
hit my mouth. I placed it tightly over her again and swallowed. I 
managed to be her toilet without getting strangled and without getting
my bed wet. It later dawned on me, that was her skill at using me, not 
my skill at being used. I was not the first man she had used in such
a manner. I wondered how many there had been and under what circumstances.
Even more important. Where are they now and in what condition?
I licked the last drops from her and kissed her lips. I looked up at her.

"Do you still belong to me, Larry?  Do you really want to be mine?"

I found my self answering yes.

"Kiss my ass."

I raised her cute little ass with my hands, set it on my face and kissed 
her little brown hole. I licked it with the tip on my tongue and lovingly
kissed it again. I had a monsterous hard on.

"Don't relieve yourself Larry. Not unless I give you permission. I am not
going to do that now. Since it is my right I way never allow you sexual
release. Do you like belonging to me?"

I had a hard on and I needed to piss. My arms hurt. I looked at them.
I had two large bites on each arm. Her teeth marks were very visable.
There was no doubt as to what caused the bruises. I already knew but 
anyone else would if they looked. Close inspection was not required 
either.

"Yes, Goddess Amanda, I am yours to do with and use as you please."

She smiled for the first time since she began torturing me. So much beauty,
so much cruelty. 

"My poor little slave. You have my permission to get relief. Go to the 
bathroom. I will be waiting for you here."

I obeyed her command with gratitude.

"Take these with you," she hit me with her panties. "They could use their 
special washing machine!" She giggled.

I put her panties to my face and heard her giggle again. She relished 
seeing me do things could some would refer to as being humiliating. 

I put the crotch of her panties in my mouth. I was looking at her 
beautiful face, watching her smile, and listening to her soft throaty 
laugh. My gaze went down her body before I entered the bathroom. She was
so beautiful. I knew she was worth a little pain. When I returned Amanda 
was laying on the bed her gorgeous butt sticking up. No clothes on. 
There were several cum marks on the sheets.

"May I kiss your ass, Goddess," I asked.

"Yes slave, but only because you have been so dedicated to my pleasure.
Kiss and enjoy."

As I kissed her beautiful ass she reminded me that today was the day we get
OUR apartment. She also said there was a possibility we could move in really 
soon. They may have to install some stuff we wanted, like the wet bar, after 
we moved in but she saw nothing wrong with that. She would talk to them about 
that.  

"Oh Larry, today, we lease our apartment! Today! I am so excited. Are you
excited, Larry?"

I told her I was and tried to sound like it. With my pain it was not easy
to do. I hoped I sounded excited to her. 

"Goddess, why did you hurt me so much last night? Have I done anything wrong
that I am not aware of?"

"No, not really, I am just like that sometimes. Larry, if you want out, 
now is the time before you are on the hook for all of that lease money. 
As your owner, I am giving you very good financial advice!"

I looked at her. Her face was so beautiful. Surely she would not be like 
last night very often. She had that beautiful angel type smile. She 
had that look that made men think she was very vulnerable and needed 
their protection. I know that is not true. I also know I love her. I 
love her maybe for what she does to me. That frightens me most of all.  

"Goddess, like I have said several times, I like being owned by you.  
I will do all in my power to give you the pleasures you seek. You keep 
hinting that you will walk away from me with only a word. I could not 
leave you nearly so easily. Please do not walk away from me. Let me 
serve you. Use me. Take your pleasure using me. Nothing is to good for 
you. You deserve a slave. Please allow me to be that slave. Please 
Goddess Amanda."

"That is sweet Larry, I hope you will love me as much next year and the 
year after. I am not easy sometimes. I will try not to be so hard on you.  
It is my nature and will not be easy for me. You saw how turned on I was 
when I was giving you pain. I do not think I will ever change. People 
never really change. I will go on giving pain and using you. You will 
allow me to use you and will gradually revile in your pain for my 
pleasure more and more. But you have not changed. You will have just 
become who you really are. We were made for each other. I have never 
talked about this stuff with a man before. I just used them and discarded 
them. Yours was one Of about 127 replies I received I chose only you.
See you are important to me. Last night you went along ways to prove how 
much you love me."

"Larry, look at my teeth marks, you are so blue.  My teeth show up so good
on your skin. Your skin made a terrif canvas. Give me your arm."

I held out my arm to her. She put it to her mouth and bit in the exact
place as before. She bit just a little but it was sore. I flinched. Her
eyes seemed to record my pain. She released.

"Uhmmm a perfect fit," she said with a smile. "Looks like you found a tiger!
I hope you like tigers. They are pretty but very dangerous and unpredictable.
Be very careful about taking one to bed. Don't end up in the belly of the 
tiger."

Even though she was smiling and making that sound like a joke. I was 
concerned. I would not want to spend my life worried that Amanda would 
take it in one of her frenzies like I experienced last night. She could 
be dangerous I thought. But hey I was not restrained by anything except 
Amanda's beauty. She said she would leave. I could have left. I did not. 
Neither did I want her to go. I willingly allowed her to do everything 
she did. If there was a fault,it was mine. 

With these thoughts I got ready to leave for work. I reached in the 
nightstand drawer and handed Amanda a key to my house and the spare 
garage door opener. Compared to trusting her with my life, my 
possessions were nothing. 

Amanda kissed my lips, a special Amanda kiss, long and passionate. I 
could not wait to get to work and set up an account for my gorgeous Amanda.  
  