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A REASON WHY
By: Imma Scared




I am not sure why I am teling you this..

Will it help me find a reason why this happened to me?..

You say think it part of the healing process?

Iım not sure if I even want to be healed....I think Iıd much rather if you could slip something in the IV, let me go to sleep, and never wake up.

You think my story might help somebody else?

Well then, Iıll try, Iım not sure I can tell the whole story tho...

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First let me tell you a little about me, so you can undertstand a few thngs.

I was raised in a very  ³fundamentalist² Christian home.


I was ³home-schooled² and the only children I got to play with, socialize with wee the ones that attended the same church as our family. The only TV I watched were shows on the ³christian networks², and/or Videos that my parents  pre-approved.

My severy action, was controlled to one degree or another by  my parents, their friends and/or the church.

Donıt get me wrong, Mom and Dad were very loving, kind, and generous. But extemely strict. And extermely serious about their ³faith².

And since I had little or no outside Influences, by the time I got to college, even tho it was a ³christian² college, I was totally unprepared by the people and the new ideas I encountered.  I was like a kid who gets candy for the first time, and then gets left unsupervised in a candy store!!!

I tried everything that was supposed to be forbidden!!  Drugs,booze, and sex.

Well, the first time or do of trying this drug and that, and boozing it up left me so sick the next da,y I found it  hard to understand why people could get addicted. It just didnıt seem to be worth it.

As for sex, well thewre was something ³wrong² with the way I am built. 

I knew  enough, had gotten enough info to expect that the first time might be uncomfortable, if not a bit painful. But there was pain every time  my boyfriend and I made love.

He had no complaints, in fact he  kept telling me how wonderful it was to be ³fucking such a hot tight pussy², and how I had the ³best pussy ³.

But each time we made love, I felt as if I was being I was going impaled by a baseball bat.

And I knew this wasnıt normal.

I stopped by the Feminist Book Store , and told a ³peer counselor²  my problem.  After an hour of being grilled as to whether or not I had considered the possibility that I might be a Lesbian, she have me the name of a gynecologist to see.

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Well I, Iıve got some good news and some bad news for you,² the gynecologist said after all the test were done.

³The good news is that there is nothing really ³wrong² with you per se. That is, everything is working normally,² she continued.

³So what is the bad news?², I asked.

³Well, for some reason, you vagina is unually tight, and your uterus is extremely samll for someone your size and age. Its as if they stopped growing when you were 10 or 11. They are fully mature. just small.²

I was confused, ³But what does that mean? Is that why it hurts to have sex?²

³Yes that is why. Apparently your love, r even if his penis is just average, is a little bit big for you,² she said. ³There couild be  a sugerical solution, but you may need to a specilaist to know for sure.²

She smiled rather wanly. ³ If it were me, Iıd just try to find lovers who smaller than average, men whose penis are not much larger than a polish sausage. Or you could avoid vaginal intercourse as much as possible. After all there is still anal and oral sex as options for you and your lover.²

³Or², I said  ³I could just be celibate²

She looked at me as if I was insane, and nodded as I left her office.


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I had chosen celibacy, I guess because it turns out I was much more of a prude than I thought.

My stomach turned at the very thought of oral sex, and I couldnıt even image anal sex at all.

And what I supposed to do, have a guy fill out a form telling me weight, height, and penis size, before dating him? 

I felt really dishonest, because everyone thought that I didnıt date because I was a ³good Christian²,  that I was so virtuous.

But I wasnıt dating because I was scared of experiencing the pain I had with my one  and only lover. And I knew at some point, if I had relationship with a man, some sort of sex would have to be involved. So I didnıt date.

But I was still a normal female, and I still could get horney. So I would go to the other end of the city, and sneak into the Adult movie theaters, and bookshops, praying that no one I knew would ever see me, or that no ³pervert² would approach me.  (I was incrediabbly ³lucky², for I never was approached by ³perverts², and all the other guys who approached me took ³no² for an answer without a lot of hassle).


I watched the movies, and read and looked at the pictures of women benig fucked with a great deal of envy.  Then I dicovered the Web, with its newsgroups, and chat rooms., and websites.

I got what was a probably a skewed idea of the average penis size, but it seemed preety clear that 90% of men were way too big for me!!! And I found myself actually praying that I could meet a small dicked man.

I thought breifly of posting something on the web, but I was scared of getting stalked by some nut. I thought of placing a personal, but that seemed dangerous too.

Then one night, as I was a flipping thru the pages of a porno mag in the back of some filthy Adult Bookstore, HE approached me.

He was tall, way over 6 feet,  and looked both lean and heavily muscled. Long,  black, greasy looking hair fell far past his shoulders. He had one of those goatees that makes some guys look really satanic, and with his pallid , almost dead white skin, dressed in all in black, he looked like a follower of the Dark Lord.

He radiate both evil and raw lust.

He walked right up to me, and while rubbing his crotch he said, ³I want your pussy!!!²

I didnıt know whether to run, to laugh, or be insulted, or....

³Put that fusking magazine down now, ³, he snarled. ³And come with me²

To my amazement I found myself obeying. In a daze I put the magazine down and follow the man out of the store, and to the alley.

Wordlessly, he shoved hard  me against, the wall. He pressed himself hard gainst me and kissed me hard, 
his  tongue thrust itself cruel ly  and relentlessly into his mouth, almost down histhroat. At the same time his  hands were  pawing hissmalll breast, kneading  and squeezing them, as he semmed to send  hinself into a frenzy.



Slowly, his hand began  to pull my  skirt up. I tried to keep him from doing so, but he was  too big, too strong. He kept preesing  into me so that  was against the wall with his body weight, I could feel what mist have been  hiscock pressed against thigh, now naked and exposed, and felt a strane sense of relief, It ³felt² small!! 

Then he took my hand in his, amd not too roughly moved it towards his zipper. ³Unzip me, cunt, and tak emy prick out.², he said.

I obey,  take hi szipper down, and  find that his cock is naked beneath -- it pops out  as if it it has a life of its own, eafer to plunge itself deep into me. And I feel that it is indeed smaller than my one loverıs, and I think, ³perhaps this wonıt be so bad².

He let my hand fo, and move  his hand to  my  pussy, and then his thick finger begin to I circle my clit,  to get me as ready
 ready as possible for his throbbing dick.

He pulled the crotch of  my  panties aside, I and  then moved his cock into position.  Suddenly I knew this was the answer to my prayer, and tho I was being raped, this was at last th fucking that  I wanted, needed. A quick, hard fuck to relieve the pressure.

He squated a bit, his cock tickling and teasing me  as it wiggled to and fro on my pussyıs lips. He  pushed  into me , sliding into you,  forcefully and willfully.

He laughed, as his cock pounded out a passionate rhythm in my  pussy.pounding, pulsing, growing huge within me, 
 ³You got some tight pussy, baby. Aint had a pussy this tight in a long, long time.  I've never had a pussy as good as yours, never been squeezed so tight....²

I was are impaled on hi sdick, pinned to the wall, as he savagely   thrust into me, continuig to say things to me like  ³ your pussy is perfect.... Your pussy will make me cum super hard , baby.... And I'm gonna cum deep into you, lift you off the floor with the pressure² He sped up suddenly, his thrusts became even  more piston-like, his, cock really 
rammed my  pussy, fucking  me harder than I ever thought possible. And yet unlike  the lovemaking i had with my lover, this pain felt right, it  was ³good².


He was thrustinh stil hard, the wall knocking beneath us as it sems he is driving his entrie self  deepinto me. My  knees buckled as I felt  his his white-hot cum spurt  and scald my brusided and battered  pussy, and then I felt  cock continue  its throbs he somehow continued to fuck me. As if he had no intention of ever not stopping, using every last inch of his cock to fuck me , to the last of inch of my life.

In explosion of pain and pleasure I at CAME!!!

Then it was over.

He let me fall to the ground and stood over me.

³You liked that, you liked me raping youm didnıt you babe?²

What could I say? To be raped is horrible....it was horrible.......and yet it was the first time in life I had ever came, it was the first time in my life that a man penis thrusting in and out of my pussy gav me more than agony.

³Yes, ³, I said. ³But it was you, You gave me  me what I have only dreamed of, only imagined.², I breathed.

He smiled a truly evil smile, and said, ³Well then, letıs go home.²


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He moved in from that night on.

I knew his name was Dave, but that was all he would ever tell me about himself.

I suspected a lot about him tho, none of it good.

Like when he fucked me, it was never love-making with him, he would say things like ³Fucking you is as good as fucking a little girl.²

How would he know what that was like? I didnıt want to know the answer.

Or he would come home, flush with money, somehow smelling of blood and death, and looking oddly well fed.


I wanted him to leave, I wanted to change the locks, I wanted to run away. I couldnıt do any of those things. I donıt why, but I couldnıt.

One day he came home, and he said to me, ³I wish I had a really big thick dick. Iıd love to rape you with a really humongous big thick dick, rip you wide open. Fuck you till you bleed.  Wouldnıt that be fun?²

When I shook my heard no, horrified, he laughed.

³oh yes it would, just imagine it!!!², he giggled, actually giglled!!

Then he said, ³I bet it would be fun to watch some big, nasty crazy motherfuckers rape the fuck out of you.² He stroked his goatee and begab looking at me appraisingly. ³Yeah, maye a whole gang of crazy motherfuckers, not just raping your pusy, but shreeding your ass too...²

He was really scaring  me. ³No Dave², ³No, that wouldnıt be fun at all.²

³Not fun fo you, but fun for them, fun for me. And thatıs what counts, bitch. Whatıs fun for men.², he sneered. Iım getting kinda bored with just fucking you anyway.²

He got up then, and went into the bedroom.

I wanted to leave then, I wanted to disobey then, I really did. I wanted to But I couldnıt. I canıt give you a single reason why. I donıt know.


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 Dave  fanished after the conversation, and I stupidly thought I was safe.

I considered moving, but everytime I made any kind of effort to actually do something, like go apartment hunting, I became distracted, and lethargic.

And I found myself having extremely horrible nightmares....nightmares of being held down  by men with beastial face and gleaming bald skulls...of being tyed up and spread eagled...of being chased in the woods by  laughing...demons...

Until I woke up into a another nightmare.....I was nude,  hanging not far over the floor by thickly padded wrist cuffs,  my knees were drawn up and out until they were almost to my sides, level with my ribcage.  Spread this way, my naked pussy was completely open and exposed.  Even tho I knew it was useless,  I called out, begging to be let go.

It seemed like only a moment that I closed my eyes, but when I opened them there was a man standing between my legs.
He was, totally naked 6ı5 and looked like a mean white heavily scared and tattooed George Foreman:  totally smooth bald head, build, and all. But it was that massive dick that caused me to cry out!

His massive cock was 
twisted with veins and the huge head bulged a deep crimson. and glistened with the moisture of some sort of lubrication and he gripped it with one fist as he directed it to the opening of my vulnerable pussy.

Without word or hesitation, with one incrediably brutal thrust  the man plowed his cock past my spread labia and drove completely into me.  I screamed as I was impaled and  my pussy forced open before it.    I could feel my protesting inner muscles spasm in futility around the thick invader as if tying to make the invasion eaiser.  It was agony beyond all reason, ,and yet  opressively sexual.

For a moment, I wavered on the edge of unconsciousness, the pain was so intense.  Then he was thumping into me and I was groaning as his misshapen prick spread me apart,  convincing me that he really was tearing me open.
     
When he slammed into me, the fury of his attack jolted  through my  whole body and battered entire body.  It 
hurt so much I wasn't sure whether  I was happy or unhappy when at last he plunged into me  for the last time with a rush and a spurts of cum that really seemed to scald my insides.  I  groaned in what might have been mistaken for relief as his hot flood filled seemed to fill me   to the brim..


The sensation had been so overpowering that I was numb for long seconds afterward.
     
Now another strange man stepped between my legs and he examined my  torn and bleeding cunt with his fingers while I  writhed and cried out as he did it.

³I hope you got that on tape for the traiining video², the new man said. ³Plus Dave is gonna want see it, since he couldnıt be here.²

His words sink into my brain slowly, as I realize that what is hapenning to me is no accident. And that there will be no escape.

³Do you want to know whatıs gonna happen to ya, slut², the man said as he continued to maul my poor sore pussy. ³Wanna know what Dave has told us ta do ra ya?²

³No please,² I begged useleslly. ³Please, let me go!!²



Let you go? Not hardly bitch, the fun  just started.  Right now thereıs a real horny brother, guiding a really huge  fat cock head to that sweet little virgin asshole of yours, and in aminure heıs gonna ram it in there as hard as he can. and then  this mean plı suunabitch your'e looking at is about to shove his massive horse sized dick in your cunt.²

I screamed so hard I thought my throat would tear as the two men fufilled those horrible words.

Another  man leaned over me and whispered into my ear, ³ There are 18 guys watching you get double fucked tether style that are pulling on their rigid shafts eagerly ready for their turn to pump your love holes so full of cum it splatters on the floor beneath you!!²


To be coninued?




























 


