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 100 REMINISCENCES OF A MARRIAGE TO A CHILD.
   Foreword.
   100 Reminiscences of a marriage to a child is a work of fiction, and as
such for the purposes only of fantasy, not intended to condone or encourage
paedophilia.  It is set on a fictional island community, where child-sex is
legal, and told from the 1st-person viewpoint of a 39yo man who has taken a
child-bride.  It is a series of reflections, 250 words each.
   Reminiscences 91-99.
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   91.  Decisions, decisions.
   As it neared the end of my second year with Amy, I had a decision to
make.  I could stay married to her, or I could take the option of being a
`single man'.  Each had its pros and cons.  It basically comes down to
having one girl for very regular sex - pretty much as often as I feel like
it - or having a pick of many, many girls each week but only for 2 days per
week.  Sameness versus variety, regularity versus a bit of abstinence.  As
I write this, with only 2 weeks to go, I'm still undecided.  I love Amy,
genuinely I do, and I think I will miss her if she were no longer mine.  By
the rules of the island, I would get to see her - meaning properly, fucking
her if I want to - one weekend per month at first.  This is to smooth the
transition for her from wife to `open season', because after all these are
children we are dealing with.  After 3 months, I would only get to see her
in this way for one day per month, and after 6 months it is only 1
afternoon or evening per month.  After that, I have no more right to her
than any other guy on the island.  The question is, could I live without
her, and how would I feel about assorted other guys getting their hands on
her?  I know for a fact she is craved.
   92.  The single life.
   The disadvantage and heartache (in common with many pedo guys, I am
actually sentimental) of not having her day-in-day-out is offset by the
excitement of being able to pick 2 completely different girls on 2
different days every week, or two on the same day if I prefer.  For a guy
like me, this would of course be something massive to look forward to, but
5 days per week without any intimacy or child-sexual contact?  How tough
would that be, how insecure would I feel?  Sure, I'd love the promiscuity
and variety like any man, but I wonder how insecure I would feel without
the steady love-aspect.  There's only one way to find out for sure.  You
might at this point wonder why I'm not allowed more than this?  Well, it's
because the population is small on the island - 843 - and the stock of
girls is limited and must be kept reasonably fresh and available.  About
three-quarters are girls, and two of those quarters are under 13, the rest
an equal spread from 13 to 17.  Of the adults, which is about 250, only 100
are men (16-75) and the other 150 are women 18-40.  Can I have an adult
woman if I want?  Of course I can.  Part of me misses that, for sure.  If I
took the single life, I would divide my activity more or less equally
between preteen, teen and adult.  I'd experiment with mix and match, the
odd three-some fun.
   93.  The decision is not all about me.
   The decision rests with me ultimately.  Amy legally has no say in it.  I
find this ironic: in the old world, they're not allowed to have sex - more
to the point, an ADULT is not allowed to have sex WITH them - because
they're deemed too young to understand consent and the whole intimacy
thing. Yet here, on brave new world pedo island, kids are allowed to have
sex as young as 7 and adults are allowed to do it to them.  Their
psychological child-limitations are however recognised by NOT allowing them
right of ending or renewing their marriages, or refusing sexual activity!
[except in certain circumstances, see laws ].  That said, the adult husband
is `encouraged' to bear in mind the emotional state of the child-wife, in
other words try not to make an entirely selfish decision.  It would happen
naturally like this in most cases, anyway, because as I said in [92] many
pedosexual guys are sentimental by nature.  Many months living with one
person, having intimacy with one person, will usually automatically result
in feelings of attachment which work both ways.  Our critics - that is,
those people who abhor pedophilia - would claim it is a kind of Stockholm
syndrome on the part of the girl.  But anyway.  There's attachment, not
severed as if it's simply a piece of paper.  With one's bride being a
child, one also has the issue of seeming a bit like a parental figure to
her too.
   94.  Making the choice.
   The fact of total legal right belonging to husband notwithstanding, the
ways guys here arrive at their decisions are very varied, and there is a
large degree of informality about it and behind the scenes discussion. 
There is discussion with the child, of course, assuming the guy is caring
enough.  Moreover, there is discussion `between guys'.  As with any
community, friendships have been formed, and there is a degree of
covetousness for other's spouses.  This is managed by a spirit of sharing,
enshrined in law that a man must let out his bride at least once a month to
those who want her.  If more than one want her, as is usually the case (all
girls on the island are pretty, in a great variety of prettiness too), then
a lottery takes place.  `Lottery Day' is in fact one of the big days of the
month here: it is the same day for all couples.  You can probably imagine
the mixture of excitement, jubilation and disappointment it brings.  No man
is left empty-handed, though, and as I said all girls are pretty in their
own way.  Aside from this, many private chats take place where guys express
their admiration for another guy's wife.  In some of these, there may
develop an agreement that the husband will relinquish his wife when their
year is up (ie not renew the marriage), and any interested parties he has
told will know that she is destined to be on the `available' database.
   95.  Other girl-children I have my eye on.
   Further to the above, I myself have my eye on three girls if I was to
relinquish Amy.  This is for casual dating, not marrying.  A child-bride
database is published each month, but this is a separate thing.  I could
apply for one of those I wished, right away after ditching Amy, but often
you're not lucky enough to win out first time, and it takes several months
to get the one you want.  In the meantime, you live as a single, dating 2
different children people 2 days (total) per week if you want.  Well, these
are the 3 I am thinking for that:
   Nadia, a cute little 7-year-old Romanian (going on 8 I think).  Long
dark, wavy hair, usually held back in a band.  Her skins is a subtle tan
colour, but such a contrast to Amy's fairness, and a beautiful face.  I'm
told she sucks well, and handles you sensationally.
   Then there is Kaya, a delectable, considerably browner Iraqi girl.  9
years old, and very well-acclimatized I'm told.  She's utterly sexy, a
beautiful ethic face beyond measure.  She's tremendously cooperative, by
all accounts, even with ejaculation in the mouth and bum-penetration.
   Proving I'm far from a blinkered pedo, the third one is all of 13 or 14,
I forget which.  That's Rachel, a New Zealander with a brunette mane and
mind-blowing pale slender body, just with right amount of curves and bumps.
Her slutty attitude really clinches it for many, though.
   96.  Amy is feeling bad about it.
   As we get nearer the time of decision, it's become obvious that Amy is
feeling down about things.  At first, when she became dimly aware the day
was approaching, she became a bit sullen.  She would be quiet on coming
home from school, not talking as much as she usually does, muttering and
kind of distant in her responses.  If I broached the subject of marriage -
to renew or not to renew, that is - she shrugged and uttered something
about it not mattering.  "Up to you" or "I don't mind" or "whatever" were
typical responses.  This was a front.  She minded very much.  I believe she
was feeling something very similar to standard rejection in part, but with
other issues thrown in, on account of her age, the very nature of
paedophilia and the unique island culture.  One of the things we are
advised to, if contemplating an end to the marriage, is to gradually engage
less and less sexually with her as the time approaches.  A slow withdrawal,
like weaning off a drug (for the man's benefit too!), so she adjusts to the
idea of me being `just another man'.  Those other guys who might have an
interest in her, whether it be for casual or as a `second-hand bride', are
meanwhile encouraged to slowly build up a friendship with her.  Amy is not
stupid, only 11 though she is, and sensed all this was going on.  She
seemed angry at me.
   97.  Weaning the man off child-sex, and weaning the child off being
molested.
   Further to the above, so how does this work exactly?  Maybe not quite as
one would expect.  First to go are the long drawn-out sessions with loads
of foreplay and sentimentality, kissing and caressing et cetera.  The
concept of `love-making' is slowly pared away.  For example, I've been
doing less of those sessions of vaginal penetration where face-kissing is
attempted simultaneously.  Fucks become quickies, clinical pokes, just a
way to get me off.  The girl is given less `attention', and the sex takes
on a less affectionate tone.  That is not to say it is rough or
irresponsible, as her anatomical safety must still be respected.  I'm
advised, unfortunately, also to stop doing cunt-licking.  Any pedo will
tell you this is a favourite part of enjoying a child, but alas it is too
personal and `warm', therefore must go.  Her emotional attachments must be
gradually cut, if possible.  Happily, though, cock-in-mouth can be
continued right until the end.  That's because this is seen as more
animalistic, exploitative, selfish pleasure and generally not a young
girl's favourite thing.  `By all means cum in her mouth, choke her a little
with your strokes even,' says the advice.  Likewise, bum-fucking is fair
game to keep up.  The lack of facial contact, the inherent degradation of
it, usually means it is not something she is sad to see the end of.
   98.  One last time (probably).
   Four days to go before decision day, and I decided to have one last
sexual interaction with her.  I had a mind to do her in the mouth, but no
matter how raw that is as a sexual act, it still seems to me to be kind of
affectionate: her little mouth is, to all intents and purposes, making love
to my penis.  No, it had to be up her bum.  I had her undress completely
for it, which perhaps made it rather too sensual, but I kept my upper
clothes on.  Amy is fair-skinned, but the nice climate here has given her
an overall golden hue which sets off her blonde hair perfectly.  I had her
11-year-old frame lean passively on a low chair back, whilst I put lube her
in her crack with forensic precision.  I put the same all over my cock,
which was already hard at the prospect of where it was going.  It's almost
kind of `anti-sex', this act, especially on a young pretty girl but never
fails to feel all the more erotic for it.  After several minutes of patient
prodding and pushing, little pleasure but minimal pain for her, a couple of
inches of my stiff man-meat was up her tight little rectum, wedged in there
between her lovely tender buttocks.  I stroked her shoulders and hair, and
fondled her nascent breasts, all signs of affection despite myself.  I shot
a sticky mess up her arsehole.
   99.  APPLY HERE IF YOU WANT AMY.  ep1968@hotmail.co.uk
   It's the rules, on the island, if non-renewal of a marriage seems likely
to write a little summary of the girl.  This is posted in the various
village halls, and those men who think they might like her in some capacity
- either as wife or just as a casual fun - must register their interest. 
This gives the authorities an idea of the level of interest, and whether to
put her on the child-bride database or on the week-in-week-out lists for
casual dating.  As a bride, she'd be second-hand of course, but medical
technology here guarantees she's in full health.  It comes down to whether
a man thinks he'll enjoy a virgin bride or one with experience more.  Well,
these are her basic facts:
   Amy Sheridan, 11 years old.
   Hair: blonde, down to mid-back, sometimes worn in ponytail sometimes in
a band, sometimes loose.
Ethnicity: English.
Skin: light tan, a few freckles under eyes and on nose.
Eyes: blue.
   Figure: slim with a hint of pubescent curves, small perky buttocks, very
small breasts.
   Pubic hair: very slightly.
   Best features: a pleasant, slightly cheeky smile, generally a caring
personality.
   Worst features: inclined to the occasional sullen mood and lack of
erotic enthusiasm.
   Particular sexual talents: sucks nicely, gives skilful hand-job, and she
can orgasm if you are patient.
   Particular sexual shortcomings: a bit reserved vocally, reluctant to use
bad sexual language or make noises during sex.
   She has done...  all penetrations, swallowing cum, all common positions.
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   Addendum.
   No.100 will be published separately, and will contain the result of my
decision and Amy's destiny.  In the meantime, submit your applications to
   ep1968@hotmail.co.uk
   Express your thoughts about Amy, in what capacity if any you would
desire her.  Remember that, here on the island, if you choose not to take a
bride you would only get casual sex for 48 hours per week (whether with
child or adult female).  You're also welcome to advise me on whether I
should keep her, or move on!  I'm not fully decided yet.  Also, you can
request Amy's pic and that of the other 5 girls who are on next month's
bride database.
  
100 Reminiscences of a marriage to a child (91-99)