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STORY CONTENT (TV/TG, Shemale Action-TVMM, MF)

Story Title: Occupational Oralist
Author: Es2c


Author's Note: I want to thank another Web Author, C.D.E., for his interesting 
stories, which inspired me to write this one.

CAST:

Shelly/Shellie - Sissified Son
Shelly's Mother
Nurse Sally

  TALKING WITH MOTHER

  "My son, it happened and that's all there is to it.  Now it's time to get over 
it and move on.  The doctor said you were not hurt and faired very well to have 
been kidnapped and held as a sexual hostage by 40 men for three days.  He said 
you seemed to be well nourished.  After all, all that warm sperm you ate is a 
very wholesome food."
  
  "Oh please don't remind me about the doctor telling me that.  He said it over 
and over.  I cringed each time he mentioned it.  And in regard to getting 
readjusted.  It'll take a while. It-It's easier said than done mother."
  
  "I know it's rough re-adjusting after all the steady diet of dick and hot 
jism, but you'll get use to it."
  
  "M-Mother! Please! You sound a-as if I was enjoying what happened."
  
  "Shelly Dear, from the video that we got of part of the ordeal, you really 
looked comfortable sucking on that big black dick in your mouth and it didn't 
seem to phase you that there were at least 8 other men in line to fuck your face 
too.  Also, the way you were holding his big balls and caressing his taunt ass 
cheeks also gave that impression too."
  
  "I told you mother, t-they made me do all those things."
  
  "If you say so, but you do remember me catching you stroking and playing with 
your friend Sam's big dick some years ago?  If I recall, you were about to lap 
his dick head as I walked in on you two."
  
  "T-That, er, oh Mother, y-you k-know we were just experimenting, a-and h-he'd 
just double dared me to do that because I'd already lost a bet cause h-his cock 
was twice as b-big as mine.  Plus, W-We were just kids then."
  
  "I understand dear, but as I've told you before, there is nothing to feel 
guilty about if you enjoy handling and pleasing other men's dicks.  I think it's 
more harmful for you to repress such feelings than to face them head on so to 
speak. He! He! He!  Forgive the pun dear, it just came out that way."
  
  "Go ahead, make fun of me after such a horrific thing has happened to me."
  
  "Well first of all, I not inclined to see it that way Sweetie.  If anything, 
it may have been a blessing in disguise for you to have learned and experienced 
so much about being a surrogate woman for horny men, and so many of them at 
that."
  
  "W-Whatever blessings could there be in what I-I've been..."
  
  "Well Shelly, you're now experienced in handling a large group of men by 
giving head and ass on demand.  Your experience as a shemale slut may have 
prepared you for an opportunity that may come along that you could never have 
dreamed of.  Remember the saying, prepare yourself and the opportunity will come 
along?"
  
  "Mother!  I hardly think that having been forced to-to be a shemale slu..., 
what a disgusting name!  I can't even say it!  I doubt such experience will ever 
be needed for... for any sort of legal or moral opportunity."
  
  "You never know dear, you just never know.  By the way, I understand you never 
threw up, got nauseous, or sick from all the semen you swallowed.  Did you?"
  
  "Er, no why?"
  
  "And the taste didn't bother you that much did it?"
  
  "Well of course, I'm not accustomed to eating men's cum."
  
  "But my point Sweetie was that you adapted to it rather well and consumed 
large amounts of it without any side effects.  That sends me a loud and clear 
message, that not only is your body tolerant of jism, but also may be telling 
you it's more natural for you to consume than you want to admit.  You know 
Mother Nature prepares us all for the roles in life we're to play in the 
strangest ways. Shelly my son, your talent might just be that you're better 
suited on the receiving ends of men's dicks rather than trying to be a full man.  
You're aware of how soft your skin and hands are, the curve of your hips, not to 
mention your shapely legs."
  
  "M-Mother!  I-I can't believe this!  Y-You're telling me, your own son t-that 
I'm n-not a full man! A-And that I-I should want to be on the end of-of men's 
penises. That's so depraved, especially for a Mother to tell her grown son.  
Mother I'm 23.  A-And if I-I'm not a man, w-what am I."
  
  "How about a sissy man.  Yes, being a sissy man would address some of your 
shortcomings, especially your small prick, and fit in very well with what I 
believe is your latent and natural desire, or need, I might add, to suck dicks 
and eat semen regularly."

Mother and I talked on and on about this whole situation.  However, it seemed 
that no matter my feelings, she was insistent in her focus that I should not 
pass up any opportunity to suck more cocks.
		
  "Yes dear I think you should try sucking a few of your friends dicks to see if 
after your experience you find it revolting or just that more delicious after 
something in you has awoken you to this new need. Think of your experience as 
the training you needed to capitalize on getting the jism you subconsciously 
desire."

	I was so upset with mother's persistent theme, I just gave up and went to 
bed.

A month after the above conversation, I found out that mother had 
conspired against me in order to prove her point.
  
 	I couldn't believe she had invited four of my high school buddies to offer 
themselves to me, and to even force themselves on me to see my reaction.
  
 	Well, I didn't know this as she set me up to meet them.  They did indeed 
force them selves on me, but I was too weak to fight back and they dominated me 
and made me take their huge penises and swallow every drop of their jism. 

One of my buddies, named Shaw, took me to a place that was in the middle of 
nowhere.  I had no idea where I was.  He not only fucked my face, but also made 
me use a prepackaged enema so her could fuck my ass to boot.
  
  	Mother was elated that all four of my buddies had indeed used me.  I 
called it coerced rape, she didn't.
  
  I didn't report them because they were friends and they said they thought it 
wouldn't hurt for me to take their sperm, since they were friends and I had 
taken the jism of so many strangers during my kidnapping ordeal.
  
I thought their logic was nuts, but the more they presented it to me, I 
began to see their perspective.  They simply were saying that since I had 
pleased so many strangers, they just wanted me to do it for them too. 
  
  They convinced me they really needed to get off and that I shouldn't mind 
helping them.  I believed them.  In fact even after Shaw raped me the first 
time.  I forgave him and felt sorry for him two days later when  I sucked him 
off.  Then a week later after his "rape of me, he convinced me to have sissy 
intercourse with him again. Again he presented me with a prepackaged enema kit 
so I could prepare my rear for his onslaught of working his dick soft in me.
  
  The only reason I gave in was because he said I couldn't get off the right way 
with his thing in my mouth.
  
  I was livid at them for conspiring against me with mother.
  
  Mother however, was delighted.  She had some video evidence and a lot of audio 
from secret tape recorders the guys had when they forced themselves on me.
  
  Just because Mother heard me say things like "I guess there's no use fighting 
you if your dick is hard, that just means you might get violent and injure me.  
Okay, take it out, I'll suck it for you and swallow your hot cum. After all, 
that's the real reason you're forcing yourself on me.  The only way to solve 
this is for me to suck it out of you."
  
  To me, if that's not self-defense or self-preservation talk, I don't know what 
is.
  
Another audio tape caught me talking to Shaw about his first rape of me.
  
  ME: "Shaw, you ought to be ashamed yourself of forcing yourself on me the 
first time.  What makes you think I'm going to let you do such a despicable 
thing to me again.  You really shot off a lot of cum in my bottom."
  
  SHAW: "Shelly you were just good, that's all it is to it.  You're better than 
many of the girls I've fucked.  You got more cum out of me than them. It was 
just plain good. That's why I shot off so much and why I want some more of your 
sissy pussy.  See how hard my dick is? Here feel it."
  
  ME:"Y-You are hard.  I don't see how you can be that way.  You coerce me to 
suck you off just a few days ago."
  
  SHAW:  "C'mon Shelly baby, let me split your cheeks again.  I won't bother 
again after you give me some more of your good booty."
  
  ME:  "Y-You said that last time.  You promise this is the last time?"
  
  SHAW:  "Yeah sure. C'mon lets go over to that little motel where they rent 
rooms by the hour.  If we're lucky we can get the room we used last time."
  
  ME: "That wasn't a bad room, even if the place looks rundown on the outside.  
By the way, I assume that if I didn't agree, you'd force yourself on me anyway, 
so that's why I'm going to let you get it out of your system and penetrate me 
again.  I presume you bought one of those kits too."
  
  SHAW:  "Yeah, right behind the seat."
  
  "Again, mother, you can clearly here me say I was giving in because I knew 
he'd force me if I didn't do as he wanted.  Even rape experts agree, if rape is 
inevitable, the best thing to do is submit.  Again, it was just self 
preservation when I went with him to that seedy motel, prepared my rear for him 
and let him "split my cheeks" to use his words." 

  COUNSELING & THERAPY

  "Shelly, I can understand you being upset at your Mother and your friends 
conspiring against you.  However, it could be that the best therapy may not be 
for you to undergo treatment to stop performing as a sissy, as you say, but it 
could be that some latent desires within you have been awaken and you just need 
to obey them."
  
  "You-You mean I-I should continue..."
  
  "Yes, I think it might be more beneficial for you to suck a few more dicks and 
have sissy intercourse with a few more men to see if you are really ready to 
give up being on the receiving end of aroused penises.  You've even admitted to 
me how concerned you were about making sure you got your friends off to their 
satisfaction."
  
  "T-That's n-not quite what I-I meant.  I-I said that I-I hoped that I did it 
g-good enough that they wouldn't bother me again."
  
  "Then you're saying that if they told you it wasn't done as good as they 
wanted, you'd do it until you sucked them off to their full satisfaction.  
Right?"
  
  "No, no, that's not w-what I-I meant.  I..."
  
  "What you meant is not really important Shelly.  What is important that you 
work on this situation and together we can see what is the best determination 
for you.  What I want you to do is suck a few more dicks and get fucked a few 
more times and then come back and see me, say in a month.  I want you to suck 
off to completion and swallow all the sperm they ejaculate, of at least 20 
different men by the time you come back.  As far as passive sissy intercourse, 
that is where you'll be the surrogate woman for some lucky man, let's say you 
try to get fucked at least twice a week.  All this will be good therapy for 
you."
  
  "B-But Doctor, a-are you sure this is the right thing for me to..."
  
  "Shelly, I wouldn't recommend it for you if it wasn't.  By the way, the 
wearing of feminine clothing, especially underwear, facial makeup and jewelry is 
highly recommended.  In fact you should.  I agree with your mother, pearl 
earrings are a must as well as at minimum, and a single strand of quality 
costume pearl jewelry would be a nice touch for you."
  

  THE JOB OFFER

  "Shelly, to answer your question about you having to wear a nurse's uniform, 
yes you must.  You look good in it too.  But the real reason we have to dress 
you as a woman is that our Government Grant specifically says that only female 
nurses are covered.  Hence, if an inspector comes by to check on personnel, we 
want to be able to have him see only staff wearing female attire.  Once he sees 
that, he probably won't ask anymore questions.  You benefit from the nice salary 
we can pay you and once he sees you walking around in a nurse's dress outfit, 
especially the one you'll be wearing which is a pink colored one, he won't ever 
think of you being a man."
  
  "B-But Nurse Sally, I-I don't think this job is right for me.  I-I know mother 
has told you a-about the incident w-which led h-her to think I'd be good for 
this job, but you see..."
  
  "Yes, Shelly, I know all the details about your forced sexual encounter at the 
hands of those 40 horny burly brutes.  But I have to agree with your Mom, you 
can't wallow in self-pity and feel sorry about that having happened to you.  
Just as your friends and others have helped you to see that your experience 
wasn't as traumatic as you originally perceived it to be, I also see this job as 
not only having the same therapeutic effect, but also helping you capitalize on 
an opportunity that was borne out of a negative situation."
  
  "T-That's all well and good Nurse Sally, but I'm afraid I'll have to decline 
your..."
  
  "Before you say anything else, Shelly, your Mother asked me to call her if you 
were somewhat reluctant to accept this job offer because you felt you didn't 
have the confidence to take on the responsibilities of such an important job as 
this."
  
  "Confidence!  Nurse Sally, t-that's not the issue here.  I-I just don't..."
  
  "If you're confident, then are you afraid you just can't tolerate having 
responsibilities?  I would've thought you were a responsible person.  You 
could've fooled me by your resume.  I'll have to alert all the local job 
placement agencies about you not being a responsible and dependable worker. 
They'll probably black list your name."
  
  "No, no, that's not true.  I-I'm a very responsible person and dependable, b-
but Nurse..."
  
  "I'm so glad to hear you say that Shelly.  By accepting this important job, 
you'll show and prove to me that you mean that, otherwise I'm afraid I won't 
have any confidence in you that you can be counted on to handle challenging 
assignments."
  
  "B-But..."
  
  "Do you really want me to call your Mom and tell her you're shirking away from 
being responsible?  By the way, does she still have that fan belt she use to 
punish you with when you were a teen?  Does she still use it or has she had to 
use something a bit more accommodating since you're older and bigger?"
  
  "S-She told you a-about..."
  
  "Yes Shelly, your Mother and I are old friends, You know that.  I fully agree 
with her.  Remember, spare the rod, spoil the child?  No Shelly, you must not 
think that just because you're 23, she can't punish you for not being 
responsible and dependable.  You still want me to call her and tell her that? I 
suspect she may get upset."
  
  "No! No, er, you're right, s-she might get upset at me.  B-But Nurse Sally, c-
can't you help me find another job other than this one, I-I just want to put 
this entire penis s-sucking a-and sissy intercourse thing behind me."
  
  "Shelly, lets not sound so clinical.  Say cocksucking or dick sucking, but not 
penis sucking. Okay?"
  
  "If-If you say so."
  
  "I tell you what Shelly, lets compromise.  We'll start you out on this job and 
when something else comes available, and if you qualify, I'll consider you for 
it.  That's fair isn't it?"
  
  "O-Okay.  I-I guess then, m-my job will be to-to suck the penis..., er, cocks 
of all these mental and sexual predator patients in which the state has cut the 
budget for their medication that suppresses their sexual arousal?"
  
  "Yes, that's what the job entails.  Shelly, by using someone such as you, 
who's been trained and accustomed to having a variety of big dicks in your mouth 
and accepting copious quantities of hot sperm, you're an ideal solution to 
helping us find an innovative way to solve our budget dilemma.  Your cocksucking 
keeps our patients calm and we stay within our budget, by paying your salary 
from a federal grant, which we can't use for medications, only staff labor. My 
boss congratulated on this and praised me for thinking outside the box in 
finding a solution to this problem."
  
  I looked at my new boss with wonderment.  It still puzzled me how she could be 
so business like and yet cavalier about with this whole situation, which would 
degrade me horribly.
  
  She went through more details of the job I didn't want to take, but one which 
it seems that she and my Mother, seemed determined that I pursue.
  
  "Your title will be Staff Oralist. You'll have a schedule, but you will be 
issued a pager and beeped for any emergency semen extractions that may be 
required.  That'll usually be to help calm down a patient who's become unruly.  
We expect that your warm wet mouth engulfing his swollen aching dick will help 
to calm the patient."
  
  "H-How many patients will I have to work with on my shift?" I asked.
  
  "Very good question, Shellieee."  She responded stretching the vowel of my new 
feminine name, or the feminine version of my name to be more precise.  I hated 
it nevertheless.
  
  "I want to start you off with 24 a shift."
  
  When I looked surprised at the larger number, Nurse Sally gave me more details 
- more that I wanted to hear.
  
  "We have 144 male patients.  I estimated you should comfortably be able to 
Fellate or suck off, at least once, 24 in eight hours, or about 3 per hour.  You 
know, about 15 to 20 minutes per dick.  That gives every man a good come every 
week.  By the way, your workweek will be a total of 48 hours or six days.  This 
is necessary to get all the patients off on a scheduled weekly basis. The extra 
hours will be overtime pay."
  
  "I-I guess the overtime is all right, b-but doesn't that seems like an awful 
lot of..."
  
  "Not from what you did when you were held hostage those two days. Didn't you 
do 4 to 5 dicks an hour during several sessions with those men? Am I right 
here?"
  
  "M-My memory is a bit blurred in-in that regard."
  
  "Well, if your Mom is right, you should have no problem getting these perverts 
to pop you a wad or two in 20 minutes.  By the way, Shellie, it's only fair to 
let the patients know that they're entitled to at least 10 minutes of mouth time 
of you having your lips, tongue and mouth working on their dicks and balls.  If 
they come in less than that and don't take the full 20 minutes allowed for you 
to get them off, you still owe them that juicy suck time on their dicks."
  
  I was again surprised at the level of details that Nurse Sally was giving me 
guidance on.  Even though degrading in one sense, her expectations placed a 
certain level of professionalism with this job that impressed me.
  
  "What happens if they don't get off after 20 minutes?"  I asked.
  
  "Hmmm!  Another good question.  Lets deal with that if it happens.  My first 
guess would be for you to move on to the next patient and then come back and 
handle any of those cases in the time you have left for your shift or put you in 
for overtime as it maybe needed.  Our paramount concern is to get these patients 
off and keep them from being horny.  So Shellie, it'll be imperative for you to 
do whatever is needed to accomplish that.  This is necessary, be cause if you 
don't, the patients will just cause problems for other staff members.  See what 
I mean about your job being critical and filled with responsibility?" 
  
  "I-I see."  I slowly replied with less than an air of optimism about my new 
occupation of professional oralist, or professional cocksucker, to be more 
precise.
  
  "And Shellie, since your Mom says you've became somewhat of a connoisseur 
taster of semen in your time as a sex hostage, I think you'll find our patients 
will give you some of the thickest and creamiest jism you could ever want to 
eat. You see, before bringing you on board, we encouraged the patients to 
masturbate under supervised conditions by the staff.  The patients really shot 
off some thick curds of gelatinous cum.  Your Mother said you seemed to only 
talk to her about the taste of the men you sucked off who had that thick rich 
pudding kind of dick cream.  I don't think you'll be disappointed as you milk 
our bulls here.  He! He! He!"
  
  As Nurse Sally reveled in her chuckle, I lamented at how much Mother had 
revealed of what I'd thought was sensitive, mother son, confidential talk.  

  I START WORKING

  In my first week, it quickly became apparent that I was a big hit with all the 
patients as well as the staff.
  
  Nurse Sally started out with me as I did my very first 8 patients.  She 
instructed me on a few things she wanted me to do to enhance the sucking 
experience for the patient. 
    
  Besides "cleaning the meat I was about to eat" (Her term for wiping the 
patient's genitals with a pre-moistened towelette), I was to always lap and 
mouth their balls, nuzzle briefly around the base of their dick stalks, work up 
the shaft, and spend a good bit of time flicking my tongue on their pee slit, 
before engulfing the bloated dick head and letting my tightly clamped lips slide 
back and forth along the shaft's length.  As I do so, I'm to cup, knead and 
fondle the patient's balls as I suckle their rigid sex meat.
  
  I'd not given such methodical blowjobs before, but I caught on quickly and by 
the third patient, Nurse Sally was praising me on how smoothly I was performing.  
She really praised my swallowing action. 
  
   I'm not sure how it happened, but when held hostage, I never choked on a load 
of hot sperm, no matter the quantity, as it gushed in my throat.  For some 
reason, I developed a sort of sixth sense about when dicks are about to erupt 
and it didn't bother me when they came.  It seemed that my throat muscles and 
breathing worked together smoothly to easily accept all their hot gooey jism.  I 
consumed all that was shot off effortlessly without any signs of gagging or 
choking. 
  
  "That's the sign of talent and experience Shellie the way you swallow without 
any hint of choking. Your natural skill makes you idea for this job."  Nurse 
Sally said.
  
  On this first day on the job, I couldn't help but be impressed at how well 
hung all the patients were.  There were dicks in all sizes and shapes.  Even if 
I hated what I was doing, I couldn't help admiring how handsome the patient's 
dicks were.
  
  I tried to hide my admiration of all the handsome attractive dick meat I had 
to mouth in front of Nurse Sally, but I wasn't sure how well I did.  I also 
tried to suppress exhibiting any sign of delight at tasting the exquisite creamy 
ejaculate the first 8 patients provided me.
  
  It was rather difficult because as I sucked and swallowed under her 
observation, my small prick erected. It had been hard every since the very first 
patient, no matter how I tried to will it down.  Fortunately, it never made a 
sizable bulge in the pink nurse's dress uniform I was required to wear.
  
  My prick's reaction to being put in the position to suck dicks and eat the 
output, bothered me again for the umpteen time.  I now sensed it was a losing 
battle.  It seemed that my destiny was to be a cocksucker.  Even so, there was 
something in me fighting this newfound craving in me, even though I found it 
more delight with each prick that sent pulsating hot jets of jism into the 
interior of my mouth.
  
  I was so glad Nurse Sally left me on my own after the eighth patient, because 
I knew I was going to have trouble keeping up my fake image of not enjoying what 
I was doing.
  
  I breathed a sigh of relief as she walked away on a page from the nurse's 
station.  As I exposed the genitals of patient number 9, I gasped at the 8 inch 
length and girth of his well proportioned, circumcised black penis. It had an 
ideal shape and was thick.
  
  I've discovered I'm partial in my admiration of men's members. I favor thick 
stocky cocks over others, even though I seem to find all the dicks I've seen so 
far, attractive in one sense or another.
  
  I could not close my hand around completely around its circumference.
  
  As I held and prepared the man for my services, he reached a full erection 
state quickly, to my full delight.
  
  His cock head was large and bloated as it exhibited the pinkish color of being 
fully distended and blood gorged.  There was no doubt it was ripe and ready to 
spit its hot slimy load of seed. 
  
  My mouth literally watered and I found myself drooling at the thought of 
mouthing such a thing of beauty.  The precum was starting to seep out and the 
big drop that formed in the large pee slit just increased my hunger.
  
  Without following Nurse Sally's methodical approach of licking his scrotum 
first, I engulfing the man's heated dick head and slid as much of his beautiful 
meat down my throat as I could.
  
  It was such a delight to have his dick head bump against the furthest most 
back of my throat.  I must've gotten at over five inches of his lovely shaft in 
my mouth on that initial lunge.
  
  After that, I cupped his larger ball and tenderly suckled and slid my 
slobbering mouth up and down his pole of rigid black meat.
  
  I closed my eyes and hummed slightly with contentment as I satisfied my own 
oral longing.  It was a mutually beneficial situation as the patient too was 
moaning in delight.  It seemed our actions were feeding on and reinforcing each 
other's pleasure.
  
  It all seemed so symbiotic and prefect.  It scared me at how much I was 
enjoying this.
  
As he reached his climax and ejaculated, I luxuriated in its taste and gulped 
down blast after blast of his thick, very warm slimy creamy discharges. I slowly 
mouth milked his exquisite penis.  I was hoping he would harden and come again, 
but it was obvious, he had given me a tremendous release of his cum and needed 
time to recover.
  
  It was doing this time that I realized that I also had come in the lacy pink 
panties I wore.  I raised my skirt and stuffed tissues in there to sop up my 
spent cum.  It worked and there was no visible stain on my uniform.  I was 
relieved.
  
  I then wiped my saliva traces from his languished member, tucked it away and 
closed his pajamas.  He drifted off to sleep as I was doing so and gave me a 
very grateful "Thanks".
  
  His saying that, in addition to my having thoroughly enjoyed what had 
transpired made my day.
  
  I quickly moved on, excited at what I would find in the pajamas of patient 
number 10 next door.
  
  I was hungry for more cock and cum.
  
  The six 8 hour shifts didn't turn out to be that bad and the money came in 
really good.  Especially when the overtime was included.  There was more of than 
I thought there would be.
  
  "Yes, Shellie, if hard dicks create problems for us, you'll have to work the 
overtime to get them down and calm the patient."  Was Sally's take on things 
when I had to do mandatory overtime cocksucking.
  
  As Nurse Sally predicted, I didn't have a problem meeting the schedule she 
laid out for me.  I was comfortably giving three good juicy blowjobs an hour 
with an average time of about 12 - 15 minutes to suck each dick to completion 
with about a minute of cool down milking time thrown in.  The patients all 
seemed very pleased with my efforts.
  
  But the other thing that neither of seemed to have counted on was the number 
of emergency extractions I'd have to do in a shift.  On average, I was doing 6 
extra dicks in addition to my normally scheduled patients.  In other words, I 
was having to do 30 dicks a shift as opposed to the planned 24.
  
  "Well that's the way it is" Was all that Chief Nurse Sally said.
  
  Nurse Sally was very pleased, so was Mother at the glowing reports she got 
about my performance.  Her and Nurse Sally's praise as well as that of the 
staff, as to what a great job I was doing, did make what at first I thought to 
be a degrading, disgraceful, job, much more tolerable, and acceptable to me.
  
  Additionally, the anticipation and excitement the patients exhibited, as I 
made my rounds to put their dicks in my mouth, really added to the fulfillment 
and satisfaction I got knowing I had a job that mattered and what I did made a 
difference in their lives.
  
  "It really good to shoot my cum in your mouth"; "You really suck!"; "It's good 
busting my nuts in your mouth"; "You got a real good mouth pussy"; are typical 
praises I receive as I make my nightly rounds. 
   
  To know that you're needed and respected by the people you're helping out, 
really makes a difference on a job.
  
  In case I forgot to tell you, I work the grave yard shift 11 PM to 8AM, which 
includes an half hour for lunch and two short breaks.
    
  Another aspect of the job that Nurse Sally was right about was the quality of 
the sperm the patients produced.  It is high quality and abundant.  It is 
definitely rich, creamy, and in many cases rivaled the consistency of clam 
chowder and pudding.
  
  It's in my job description to swallow all ejaculate.  With all the men feed me 
from their dicks, I very seldom get hungry at work.
  
  I didn't realize just how much jism I was eating until a report was done for 
Nurse Sally as to how much semen was being extracted from the patients balls on 
a weekly basis.
  
  Working with another nurse, we did a sampling by me sucking off a specified 
number of patients as they wore a very sheer sheepskin condom, made for oral 
sex.  I would do my duty and after the patient ejaculated, it was removed, and 
the amount of cum in it measured.
  
  The patients selected for the sampling were not too happy about having their 
dicks covered with a prophylactic.  They all complained about missing the feel 
of my wet sucking mouth action on their bare hard throbbing meat.
  
  Since we measured each selected patient's ejaculate at his bedside - who 
incidentally were routinely strapped down as I orally administered to them - it 
was some consolation and appeasement to them to see me swallow each semen 
specimen after it was measured. In addition, I also gave them a nice milking 
after removing the sheepskin.
  
  "You really bring that extra little something to your job.  I could tell by 
their smiles that all the patients we sampled, were pleased you respected them 
enough to swallow their semen as well as suckle and milk their dick heads."  
Commented the nurse helping me with the ejaculate specimen measurements.
  
  "Thank you."  I replied. "I guess, I feel sort of bonded to each of my 
patients through their dicks and jism." I added.
  
  "That is so touching.  Why I bet you would be just as pleased sucking a cum 
filled pussy too.  You think so?"  She asked.
  
  "I-I guess I'd never thought of that."  I lied.  You see Mother had introduced 
to the taste of jism flavored cunt as part of my sex education which she'd 
taught me.
  
  By the time, we two had finished my round; she invited me to suck her slimy 
cunt out after one of the doctors fucked her later that night.
  
  She met me at the appointed time and I was amazed at what a large gaping twat 
such a small petite woman had.  She was brimming full of the doctor's gooey cum.
  
  Sucking her pussy also reassured me that I had not lost my desire to be with a 
woman, even after getting caught up in being forced to be sissy snatch by a 
bunch of rapists and now coerced into being an occupational cocksucking shemale 
nurse.
  
  I became her pussy cleaner on a regular basis and delighted in the taste of 
jism mixed with pussy juice.
  
   It also boosted my masculine ego when I placed my head between the parted 
legs of this beautiful lady and feasted on her luscious, but well fucked crotch.
  
  It was obvious the man enjoying her charms had a big dick and luxuriated in 
her lush pussy.
  
  I was sure my much smaller member would never please a woman who was use to a 
more sizable tool.  She even said as much, once when I got enough nerve to ask 
her if I could put it in before I sucked her.  She let me do so once.  It was 
great.  She was a beautiful woman.  However, she's only let me do it that once, 
as she got virtually no pleasure from my doing so.  She enjoys my oral activity 
far more.
  
  "Shellie, your talent is sucking, and being fucked, not fucking.  All the 
nurses on the staff know how small you are.  We've all seen the photos Nurse 
Sally took of you doing your job physical.  We looked at your file.  Just 
because you're not man enough to fuck pussy properly, doesn't mean you should 
feel any lesser about yourself if you have to jack off for relief, while others 
enjoy the wonderfulness of your mouth, tongue and lips or the pleasure of your 
sissy cunt, that is,  for men who want you that way.  Okay Sweetie?"  She said 
as she kissed me on the forehead.
  
  I nodded in silent acknowledgment.
  
  In time, that nurse had me meet other nurses occasionally to clean their 
drippy fucked frothy cunts too, in the large hospital where we worked.
  
  As to the outcome of our measuring of ejaculate sampling, the results showed 
that on average each patient was ejaculating approximately 1.5 ounces, by 
volume, of semen.  So that meant I was consuming 45 ounces or 1.4 quarts of 
spurting creamy jism each day, or shift.  This amounted to a total of just over 
2 gallons of swallowed hot ejaculated sperm a week.
  
  My boss, Nurse Sally thought that this information was a good statistic.  Why, 
I didn't know.  All I knew was that all that rich dick juice was filling.  I 
usually didn't get hungry as I make my rounds and get filled, as I go from dick 
to hard dick, milking them and swallowing the viscous creamy nectar collected 
with my suckling lips.
  
  I must admit, it is pleasurable hearing the patients moan as they ejaculate, 
as well as seeing their body motions and as their dicks rhythmically spurt in my 
sucking mouth.
    
  Not long after I started working with Nurse Sally, three of the male nurse's 
aids started propositioning me for head.  Hoping to deter them because my mouth 
was too tired from sucking the patients off, they wouldn't accept that.  They 
came up with the idea of me pleasing them with my ass. They literally coerced me 
to let them slip their hard erections in my rear, thus having sissy intercourse 
with them.  It started off with me feeling sorry for one of the aids I became 
friendly with.
  
  I hated to think of him suffering from his hard throbbing dick and his girl 
friend not being able to take care of him at various times.  So I gave in and 
let him do me in the laundry room.  Soon, word got around.  Two more aids became 
friendly with me and soon, they too wanted the same type treatment.
  
  Being softhearted and feeling sorry for them, I gave in and let them take my 
panties off. As time went on, I basically had sissy intercourse with the 3 of 
them whenever they demanded it.
  
  It was just as when I'd been held hostage.  After a man has sissy intercourse 
with me, that is, uses me as a surrogate woman, a feeling of well being resides 
over me as he vigorously humps, injects and fills me with his hot sperm.  This 
feeling is also enhanced after he pulls out and I look at his satisfied facial 
expression and softened dick. I know its strange, but Just knowing that I helped 
him achieve such satisfaction and relief by being a receptacle for his dick and 
a depository for his hot seed is indeed very rewarding to me now.
  
  I get a warm cozy feeling from sucking a hard dick and swallowing jism, but a 
greater glow of a "being useful" type feeling surrounds me when I'm fucked and 
feel my lover's heavy viscous load leaking out of me.
  
  It took a bit to admit it to myself, but I finally accepted the fact that I 
was pleased that men wanted to fuck me as well as actually being fucked by them.
  
  However, to keep things in perspective, I let all three of the orderlies know 
I was not a Homo or gay, just because my occupation is sucking dicks for a 
living, or that I let them fuck my ass when their dicks get hard.
  
  They all said they respected me for telling them that and that they would 
never think of me that way.  That is, as long as I sucked their dicks and let 
them fuck my ass when they needed to get off.
  
  I thought that was reasonable of them.
  
  They're really a nice group of guys, and so are many of their friends whom 
they've asked me to suck off and have sissy intercourse with. 
  
  It's sort of difficult to turn down their friends, especially when the friend 
shows up with his swollen cocks outlined, bulging and straining against the 
fabric of their pants. Incidentally, I find such a sight very arousing too.  
Maybe that's also another reason why I have yet to turn away any of their 
friends who show up in that condition.
  
  Even though I complain about the guys fucking me after a hard shift of sucking 
very stiff dicks and swallowing what seems like endless spurts of fresh hot 
creamy jism, I do feel very relaxed and mellow after being fucked by one or more 
of the guys.
  
  I really sleep well when I get home.  Being full of hot semen combined with 
the exercise of a good sissy pussy fuck, really helps me rest peacefully.

  DEAR DIARY

  I started keeping a journal, or really, okay, it's basically a diary of the 
experiences that were changing my life.  Below are various entries that 
articulate my states of mind as I try to document my experiences of how I 
changed into the new me.
 
  Dear Journal,
  
  An interesting event happened on my shift tonight just before my lunch break. 
I got an emergency page to report to Ward 3.  When I got there, there was a what 
the hospital called a code orange condition was in effect.  That is that the 
patient is acting in a violent manner and could cause harm to himself and staff.  
The patient's name was Hal.  He was giving the staff aids a fit.  He was 
perturbed and unruly.  He wouldn't do anything they asked of him.
  
The two male nurse's aid, even though both were well over 6 feet and muscle 
bound, they were having a difficult time restraining Hal, as he was big in 
stature also.
  
  I was called in to assist them as they noticed that Hal was aroused and indeed 
when I arrived, I too noticed the pronounced bulge of Hal's large erection 
clearly outlined in the crotch area of his pants.
  
  "Shellie! ...Gasp!  We called you because we thought you could help out here.  
See how hard his dick is?"  One of the male nurse's aid said as he was wrestling 
with Hal to restrain him to his bed.
  
  Even though this was my first Code Orange, Nurse Sally had drilled me a few 
times on what I should do.
  
  "I see what you mean.  He does seem to have a Class A erection. Okay guys, 
I'll try to get his pants unbuckled and free his cock and balls."  I replied.  I 
said excitedly. The tone of my voice was also exhibited the stress and tension 
of the situation in the room.
  
  It took a few moment to unsnap Hal's pants and shorts and expose his large 
very stiff penis.  His appendage snapped forth from the confinement of his 
underwear with such an action that threw a heavy drop of precum across the left 
side of my face.
  
  However, as soon as I got my hands on his rigid dick and began caressing his 
heavy balls, the change in his behavior was dramatic.  He began to be less 
agitated. Knowing that this situation required immediate action, I quickly 
capped his large swollen and distended reddish pink blood filled dick head with 
my mouth.
  
  Hal really slowed down this time.  As I began sucking and mouthing his very 
erect member, he was truly like putty in our hands.
  
  It became so much quieter as the two primary noises in the room now was from 
my sucking action on his hard hot dick meat and the moans of pleasure from Hal's 
lips.
  
  A few moments later, Hal let loose with a loud moan and also erupted a very 
forceful and copious wad of fresh hot jism into my mouth.  Three smaller ones 
followed the first blast.  My lips were clamped tightly to his pulsating rock 
hard penis, draining and swallowing every spurt.  As his ejaculation subsided, 
my lips were still clamped to his shrinking cock, as I was vacuuming out the 
last dregs of the hot sticky cum that was apparently contributed to his 
agitation and unruly behavior.
  
  After a prolonged period of milking him with my lips, I let it slip from my 
mouth after his penis had become completely flaccid.
  
  "Great job Shellie!  You really know how to suck a dick."  One of the male 
nurse's aid said as he slapped me on my ass as I wiped an excess drool of saliva 
from the corner of my lips.
  
  "Yeah, Shellie, thanks, we don't think we could've quieted him down this 
easily without you.  You sure proved yourself tonight."  The other one added.
  
  Both men asked me to remain a moment after they had secured Hal and got him 
put in bed for the night.
  
  "Look, that was some performance there.  But see what you've done to us."  One 
of them said as they showed me the large bulges in their white uniform pants.
  
  "How about giving us some of that oral therapy you gave Hal.  We sure could 
use it."  The other one said as he grasped the outline of the bulge of his 
erection.
  
  Well, Journal, as a professional courtesy, I obliged them.  Ten minutes later, 
I had their two loads in me as I returned to my shift.  They both had their 
dicks in my mouth at the same time as they shot off.  This was a first for me 
and I was surprised at how little of their bountiful jism I lost.  Also, I was 
also surprised at how easily I was able to swallow all they gave me from their 
combined blast into my throat.  It seemed that my throat muscles were geared to 
this.  Yes, maybe Mom is right, maybe I am born to suck.
  
  I'm telling you, it is so rewarding to be recognized by my peers for my 
professionalism and the specialty I bring to the work place.
  
  
 ANOTHER DIARY ENTRY #1

	Dear Journal,

    The other thing is that I feel I'm doing a public service to men with hard 
dicks, especially if they can't find some pussy to cream into.  Plus, I suspect 
many women don't prize a man's hot slimy cum as much as I do.  Therefore, I see 
myself as a perfect receptacle, vessel, or repository - you take your pick - for 
hard up men to bring their throbbing aching dicks to.

    It's the same old thing, men encouraging me to suck their hard dicks and me 
finding it difficult to refuse their encouragement.
    
    It's common knowledge now that I'm not only a cocksucker, but also a very 
popular and renowned sucker of dicks in my area of town.  Everybody pretty much 
knows that if they see me talking with a man, in one way or another his dick has 
been or soon will be in me.
    
    Men are always telling me how good I make their dicks feel after I help them 
get off.  This really makes me feel good to hear their compliments as well as 
know that I've helped them.
    
    I now feel great pride in being called and known as an excellent cocksucker 
and jism eater. 
    
    I use to think it was wrong for men to force themselves on me by making me 
suck their cocks.  But lately, at times, I've come around to the point where I 
feel it's sort of my duty to let men push their stiff dicks between my lips and 
use the warm wetness of my mouth for their sexual relief, with a load of their 
hot viscous sticky semen as adequate payment and thanks for their utilization of 
my oral orifice.
    

ANOTHER DIARY ENTRY #2

	Dear Journal,

	Mom has been after me to join one or more of a number of social clubs.  
Between work and the demands my newly acquired men friends place on me, I just 
don't seem to have the time.  The other thing is that the clubs that have made 
offers for me to join seem to have the same thing in mind as everybody else as 
of late and that's flooding my mouth and rear with their jism.  These are the 
offers I have so far:

      The Stallion Club has asked me to be their club Mare.
      
      The Bulls Social Club have asked me to be their club heifer.
      
      The Rams Social Club have asked me to be their club Ewe.
      
Who knows, I may join all three if I can work them into my schedule and 
can make their weekly and bi-weekly meetings.


ANOTHER DIARY ENTRY #3

Dear Journal,
    
    I had to admit that the counselor was correct, it is therapeutic for me to 
lick and suck dicks.  Knowing that sucking a man off is not only beneficial for 
me but for him too, really adds to my mental well being too as I engulf and 
slide my sucking mouth back and forth over his rigid heated penis meat.
    
    Being in whorish drag around a few horny studs whose dicks are straining and 
throbbing in their pants is exhilarating, especially when I know they are going 
to ask or just demand I help them get their rocks off with my mouth.
    
    I find getting face fucked rather enjoyable too, as long as me and the man 
can get a nice rhythm going and he doesn't bang his dick into my teeth or bang 
the back of my throat too hard.
    
   
   ANOTHER DIARY ENTRY #4

	Dear Journal,

	The following is a conversation between Mother and I that I thought I 
should place in my Journal because it was so special.
    
    "Thank you so much Mother, you were so right about it being good for me to 
suck dicks.  Sucking all those dicks has really made a new and better person of 
me."
    
    "Yes it has.  And I'm really pleased that you understand that you need to 
get well fucked occasionally too."
    
    "Yes, that has been such a wonderful revelation to me too.  I just love 
having a man's hard aching bone nestled in my warm well lubed sissy cunt giving 
it all the comfort and pleasure I can.  It's such a warm cozy feeling to know 
that I'm pleasing him and that he'll pay me back with a warm gooey load of his 
hot jism."
    
    
    "Dear, have many of the men been receptive to you inviting them to come in 
your mouth rather than shoot off up your sissy pussy after they fuck you?"
    
    "Only a handful, but those few are very excited about getting their cum all 
churned up to shoot in my ass pussy and then to actually dump it in my mouth and 
getting their dicks sucked at the same time."

	"Also, my dear sissy boy, I meant to tell you those photos of you in 
action were simply awesome."

       "I thought so too mother. I just love showing off pictures of me working 
on a nice big beautiful long hard dick.  When a man sees me in a photo sucking 
on a hard one, he generally wants me to do the same thing for him immediately."
      
      "I can understand that, after all a man would have to be dead not to have 
some stirrings in his loins after seeing your juicy mouth drooling and 
slobbering on a hard throbbing hot dick jutting toward the sky."
      

  ANOTHER TALK WITH MOTHER

  "Shellie baby, of course I forgive you not knowing that what I wanted for you 
was what you needed, and also what was best for you."
  
  "You're right Mom, my new lifestyle is what I needed.  Wearing frilly feminine 
under garments, colorful make up, dresses, women's jewelry and tending to the 
needs of horny men, has made a new person of me.  A more complete and contented 
person too, I might add."
  
  "You look absolutely radiant dear.  It's easy to tell that getting dicked 
routinely agrees with you very well, very well indeed."
  
  "Thank you Mother. Why, just a month ago, I could never have imagined myself 
saying that you were right about me being better suited being on the receiving 
end of a spurting hard dick.  But you were right on target.  It has really 
boosted my self esteem knowing that men want to use me as their cocksucker and 
sissy cunt."
  
  "You're welcome dear.  Besides, positive self esteem is a key ingredient to 
helping one have a positive outlook on life."
  
  "Again, you're so right.  I no longer have any feelings of guilt that many 
people know that I suck men's dick and eat their jism.  Or that I love the taste 
of it, no matter whether it's from a pussy or fresh from a dick.
  
  "And don't forget your patients."
  
  "Oh no, I wouldn't.  They really need me.  And they're the ones that add real 
meaning to my daily existence." 
  
  "Honey, it's great you see what you do on your job as more than just that.  
It's so good that you're doing something that has meaning and focus.  Your love 
for and adoration of dicks has been so good for you.
  
  "You're so right.  I spend 8 hours a day sucking dicks and get fucked between 
many of those blowjobs, and what do I do on my time off, I go out with a car 
load of guys dressed in whorish drag knowing they're going to give me some 
serious dicking.  You're right, I love dicks, that's all there is to it."
  
  "And you come back home smelling like a ripe sperm bank.  But baby, even 
though you often come home that way from having been a sissy slut for groups of 
men, you have the most contented and happy look on your face. You're a sissy 
whore and it really agrees with you."
  
  "Another thing, I'm thrilled now when a man wants to hug, grope, feel me up or 
rub my ass openly, even run his hands up under the hem of my skirt or dress."
  
  "Remember what I said about you enjoying being treated like a woman.  It's 
only natural since you're functioning as a woman."
  
  

  ANOTHER SESSION WITH COUNSELOR

   "You were right Doctor, it was good for me to pursue your therapy of going 
after and embracing dicks rather than running away from them.  My whole demeanor 
and outlook on life has changed after letting the latent sissy in me blossom."
  
  "A very apt metaphor considering all it took was it to be nourished by the cum 
you ate from men's balls.  You are indeed lucky to have been kidnapped and 
subjected to the lusty desires of those 40 men.  Aren't you glad they selected 
you now?"
  
  "Oh yes, so very much so."
  
  "And it's so very lucky and good that your Mother was able to get you the job 
you have now as an Occupational Oralist at the prison hospital.  It's ideal for 
you."
  
  "Yes it's such a heavenly job.  When I'm not sucking on a handsome hard dick, 
someone is fucking my sissy cunt.  Many times they're doing both if it's at 
least two of them.  It seems that at least once a month a group of the guys - my 
coworkers and their friends- get together and pull a train on me.  Many times 
it's a total surprise and I never know what hit before they've got me in one of 
their cars and are speeding me off to some way-out motel or wooded area to be 
dicked by them all."
  
  "Why that's really wonderful for you, and nice of them too.  By the way, per 
our last session, how is your desensitization practice coming?"
  
  "Very well.  Just like you said, when the men call me names they really don't 
mean ill will toward me.  Just as you said, I've accepted being called a fag, 
faggot, fairy, male pussy, he-she cunt, and other such names.  Like you said, 
the men see it as natural to call me such names, and therefore they expect it as 
natural for me to accept and respond to them.  Like you said, I have practiced 
using them myself. 

    THANKING MEN WHO DICK ME

    The counselor's advice to thank the men that I suck off and fuck me was good 
advice.  It does make me feel good to thank men for fucking my face or sissy 
cunt and depositing their hot jism in me.  I also think them for letting me lick 
and lap their balls too.  They all seem to appreciate my courtesy and deference 
to them too.  It does make me feel wonderful to be passive to the men that I 
suck off and who fuck me. 
    
    "Making noisy slurping noises also helps your men get off better to and 
really adds to the passion of the moment."  This was another wonderful bit of 
advice the counselor gave me.
    
    The counselor was right, after a while, the fact that the men call me a Fag 
or Faggot, or Fairy is not really important in the bigger scheme of things. The 
important thing is that they want to fuck my face and ass and let me have their 
hot cum.
    
    She has also helped me to see that I should not feel in any way disgraceful, 
degraded if men see me as something of a place for them to cool their dicks off 
and to dump excess sperm.
    
    "And you should not be ashamed of being a cum dump either Shellie."  


  ANOTHER TALK WITH MOTHER
  
  "Sweetie, you have a natural inclination for handling men's dicks as well as 
feasting on them too.  Promise me you'll never be ashamed of that."
  
  "I know you're right about that now Mother.  And I promise that I will try to 
get over any shame or guilt I have about fondling cocks and sucking and 
swallowing the cum from them."
  
  "That's the spirit baby."
  
  "Also Mother, I wanted to thank you for encouraging me to go that bookstore 
and adult theater on Jefferson street.  The black men readily welcomed me, 
literally with open arms and plenty of hard dicks."
  
  "I suspected you'd be accepted there easily. Black dicks and white sissies 
seem to go together rather well."
  
  "Many people commented that the pearl jewelry, you know the necklace and 
bracelet, ear rings, and rings on each hand really attracted the men to me.  
They said it added to my sexiness as a sissy, who was obviously trolling for 
black dicks."
  
  "Pearl jewelry really goes with you well Sweetie. I want you to wear it all 
the time.  You know, keep it as your signature mark."
  
  "Okay mother, if you say so.  I do like pearl jewelry.  It is rather feminine.  
So no matter when or where I wear it, in no uncertain terms it broadcasts that I 
have a feminine side."
  
  "And proud of it too, right?"
  
  "Yes, I am, very much.  Thanks to you."
  
  "You're quite welcome son. I know you'll form many more connections and bonds 
with black men at the Jefferson theater and other places like that.  Thirteen 
dicks sucked and you ate 15 loads, you did quite well for your first visit 
there, very well indeed.  I'm very proud to know my son's sissy beauty can 
attract that many men."
  
  "Another thing, and it's not related to my going to the theater, but it was 
good of you to have Jake come by and fuck me the other night. I didn't know it 
at the time, but I really needed that."
  
  "You're welcome my darling son.  I thought you'd enjoy having a man 
penetrating and plowing into you a bit. The woman in you needs more than just 
swallowed jism, you must not neglect to treat her to a few good ass fuckings."
  
  "You are so right.  Jake was a bit forceful and made me give in to him even 
though I didn't think I wanted to be fucked.  But after he manhandled me a bit 
and started humping me, his dick really felt good in me.  I really felt so 
wonderfully re-newed after he got off in me twice.  He really gave my bottom a 
good, but well needed, workout.  I later wrote him a nice warm note of thanks 
for his delightful dicking."
  
  "That's so sweet of you dear. Come give mommie a hug."
  
  I did as Mother requested.  The embrace and lengthy open mouth kiss between 
was a nice display of the bond between my Mom and me, for all practical reasons, 
her sissy daughter.
  
  "Yes deary, it's always good to let the men know you appreciate them and what 
they do for you."
  
    I now know that it does.


  MORE COVERSATION WITH MOTHER 

  "He asked me to come sit on his dick and let him fuck me.  It was a nice 
invite and I did take him up on his offer. I straddled his legs as he sat on the 
couch and his rigid rod of hot hard meat slipped effortlessly in my sissy pussy.  
The fuck was exquisite."

"That sounds like you and he had a great time fucking."
  
  "We sure did mother. It felt so delicious to have his rough hands gliding over 
me while he worked dick magic in my bottom. He repeatedly called me a sissy slut 
and whore.  For that, I embraced him tighter and kissed him repeated to thank 
him for praising me that I was as good any gutter whore he's fucked before.  
Such kudos made me all tingly inside.  As you can tell, I really love it when 
the men tell me what a good fuck I am to them."

"Everyone likes to be told they're doing a good job Sweetie, and I'm sure he was 
giving you well deserved praise."
  
  "Why thank you Mother.  I always try to give men 110 percent when I put out 
for them.  I also let him know I was his, anytime he or his dick needed me."
  

"That's the spirit dear."

  "Also mother, you were right.  It is better if I let the real men take charge 
and I follow their lead and do as they tell me to."
  
  "Especially when it comes to fucking baby.  It's better to do just as you have 
been, let them have their way with you as they appease their lust with your 
sissy charms."
  
  "Yes, yes, I understand.  I also really like it when they hold me tightly as 
they're ejaculating deep in my sissy cunt.  It's so romantic and special to be a 
vessel for a man and his hot pent up hot creamy cum at those times."
  

  TESTIMONIAL TO MOTHER

  In retrospect, I must now give loving credit where credit is due. If it hadn't 
been for Mother's insistence, I would've continued to resist developing my 
obvious talent for sucking dicks, and taste for the savory warm ejaculate from 
men's balls.
  
  It is now with the greatest joy that I gladly feed from men's hard tubes of 
meat as they spurt their creamy discharges of fresh semen and feed me.
  
  The other thing is that her persistence in encouraging me to wear feminine 
make up, jewelry, and apparel in the presence of men who had a sexual hunger, 
had a very profound and pleasant effect upon me.
  
  It was through such experiences that I discovered I delighted in being wooed 
for sex by aroused men in need.  The feeling of being needed by them to take and 
soothe their raging hard-ons is so delightfully exhilarating.
  
  It is even more exciting when I'm being demanded by a group of men to be the 
sexual recipient of their stiff dicks and ball cream.  This is especially true 
if the group want me in a double team manner, that is, where two men 
simultaneously drive their hard throbbing dicks in and out of my mouth and sissy 
cunt respectively, while I'm delightfully sandwiched between them.
  
  It's a particularly warm cozy feeling to have two sets of hands roaming over 
my body groping and feeling me up as they enjoy the pleasure my warm perfumed 
body's softness is providing them.  In addition, their verbal moans, grunts and 
comments of being pleased by having their aching dicks firmly nestled in me is 
so stimulating to me and really adds to my pleasure of them using me.
  
  Many times in the throes of their passionate sex with me, I'm called many 
different names such as "Fairy, Faggot, Fag, he-cunt, she-he pussy, male pussy, 
and so on.  However, just as Mother said, I've not only become desensitized to 
such names, but see that they are only expressions of the men's enjoyment of me 
by using them.
  
  Mother repeatedly stressed to me that being used by men with their hard horny 
dicks would be very rewarding.
  
  "My sweet son, letting more and more men put their big hard dicks between your 
lips will be very rewarding for you.  Just as sucking dicks has, in my opinion 
made you a better person more well adjusted person, a wider exposure to more men 
and therefore more hard dicks can only be beneficial."
  
  The other thing that has sort of come naturally to me is being passive to the 
demands of men.

"My sweet Son, you should not be shy in the least expressing your delight of 
tasting and eating other men's sperm.   As I've said many times, there is 
nothing degrading or shameful or disgraceful about you sucking dicks and 
offering your sissy pussy to men.  Sure there will be some who say it's 
perverted, but ignore them and do what pleases you and fulfills you needs."
  
  Mother hugged me tightly after I confessed that she was right to steer me into 
sissyhood.

THE END

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