Title: Shades of Green 
Author: Cait N. 
Series: TOS 
Codes: K, S/Mc; double drabble; Spock/McCoy Fest 
Rating: PG 
Feedback: Yes, please. caitn at mindspring dot com

Summary: Someone has been bitten by the green-eyed monster known 
as Jealousy.

Author's Note: Written for the 12th wave of the Spock/McCoy Fest. My
challenge was to write a story where the theme is jealousy. Probably
not what Janet expected, but the first idea that popped into my head.

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"Shades of Green" 
copyright May 2005 
by Cait N.



I never thought I'd say this, even to myself, but I'm jealous.
Jealous of the way they share secret little in-jokes that no one's
privy to but them. Jealous of the way the way their eyes light up
when the other walks into the room. Jealous of every damn thing they
have together, and I don't. Jealous of their love.

Yes, I'm married to my ship. She's the perfect lover and I don't
think I'll ever settle down because of her. But that doesn't mean I
don't crave human companionship; warmth, conversation, adventure,
sex... I love it all.

But they've got each other now, and I'm left on the outside, looking
in. I wish it could go back to the way it was before they fell in
love. Back when we were the three amigos and there wasn't anything we
couldn't face -- together. All three of us. Now it's just two... and a
third wheel.

Oh they try to include me when they can, and do their best to see
that there's still time for all three of us to hang out, but it's not
like it was before. It never will be.

Because there's two... and then there's me.
