

Chapter 7


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My mind drifted peacefully as I lay stretched out on the bed in 
a very relaxed posture, or as relaxed a posture one can obtain 
on one single size bed. I then opened my eyes and looked up at 
Dale with a smile. This is the way it should be, all the time, 
feeling totally at ease and content with someone. I was trying to 
be a better Girlfriend by giving Dale more attention and such. I 
slowly turned onto my left side and he on his right as our arms 
and legs intertwined with one another, I watched as his fingers 
began to stroke first my hair, then cheeks, then down to my 
arms, paying me compliments as he went. I then noticed that 
his eyes had stopped their roaming and fixated on my chest. I 
blushed as his hands roamed between the tight space of our 
bodies and then began to trace the outline of my bra, it was 
very obvious that I was responding favorably to his touches.

His thumb grazed over the top of my nipple and remained 
there, teasing it over my shirt, "Yeah, that feels nice." I 
groaned. My thighs shifted and pressed against his legs as our 
bodies softly crushed against one another, we each planted soft 
kisses on each other's cheeks and lips. Dale leaned in kissing me 
on the lips wanting more intensity, a kiss that I eagerly returned 
as our mouths opened to allow our tongues to intertwine with 
one another and it was at that moment I felt his erection rub 
against my thigh and I squirmed a little bit, my right hand 
moved down and gently squeezed his crotch. Did I mention 
Dale is well hung? I mean big! Alarmingly so. 

Dale's well endowed 'male anatomy' caused the Angel in me to 
immediately express her displeasure, 'Is this the reward for 
being a good girl Lord!? (shaking her fist toward the Heavens) I 
always make good grades, was home on time and saved myself 
for marriage! Only to have 'pain' written all over our wedding 
night!' The Angel had a point, Dale's penis had 'ouch' written 
all over it. Well now, aside from that major distraction, our 
making-out was getting more and more intense as the weeks 
went by and that comforted me a lot, I wanted that, I desired 
that in a man, a strong sexual and physical attraction that is 
basic and physical. Needless to say it was getting harder and 
harder slow things down during our more heavy make-out 
sessions. 

As Dale was getting ready to go back to his apartment I got up 
to lift the window, I really enjoy the fresh air from outside and 
the sound of nature fluttering in thru the screen. 

I'm not used to this feeling of calm and peace, but I sure hope it 
lasts.


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The thing about life is this, you get over one hurdle and then 
you are suddenly confronted by another, but I wouldn't call 
what happened next a hurdle at all, it was more like 'life-
altering'. 

What was I saying earlier about calm and peace?

I walked into the girl's locker room to officially practice with 
the entire soccer squad, I had major butterflies and scanned the 
room to pick out anyone I had not met, only a couple of faces 
seemed unfamiliar. My eyes kept scanning from right to left.

Now let's pause for a moment....you people....you 
readers....whatever you want to call yourselves can now mock 
and laugh all you want at this next statement but when my 
vision locked on to the last person to my left that is when I 
saw....her. 

She looked up at me, our eyes became fixated, and I got this 
jolt, like being startled. I finally remembered to smile and for 
the first time in my life I was looking at another person and 
thinking 'Oh my god, she's beautiful, I must meet her.' I've 
never had that feeling about anyone, not even Dale! My insides 
got warm and I was suddenly nervous as I walked in her 
general direction as if my body was being guided under its own 
power.

"This locker is free." Her voice was so soft as it called out to me 
as her beautiful fingers pointed to the one right next to hers. I 
couldn't have said 'no' if I wanted to, there was this power of 
suggestion that the girl had over me that I was unable to resist.

"Okay." I said and stepped over the bench, resting my gym bag 
on the floor.

"I'm Nikki." 

"I'm Corbin." I gushed like some fool girl gone ga-ga and I 
abruptly shook her hand. But I notice she's not so smooth and 
calm anymore, she was at first, but now she's tilting her head 
down and away and her cheeks become a tad blushed. We're 
both acting a bit goofy, trying to break the ice with one another.

"I heard a new girl was joining the team, you must be her." 
Nikki said.

"I am her."

"I hear you're pretty good." Nikki says and closes her locker.

I am struggling to concentrate on what she is saying, her hair is 
so black, and pupils are so dark and exotic, I am getting lost in 
them. She is definitely foreign, maybe Spanish or Brazilian? Oh 
good grief it's like I look at this girl and I hear angels singing 
and music playing and all sorts of romantic thoughts are 
tumbling from my brain into every part of my body. This is 
madness!

"Thanks, that's nice of you to say." I finally respond to her kind 
comment, yet my primary focus is studying this exotic beauty, 
with her dark olive complexion, skin so smooth, and her body 
was so toned and athletic. Again those eyes, those big dark 
eyes, like two black opals that were calm yet so direct that I felt 
like I didn't have a private thought around her. We were instant 
friends, we both wanted to be around one another and seemed 
to gravitate to one another, it was awkward at first, we both felt 
the same attraction but played it off as a soul mates from some 
prior life.

Nikki was also smart and was one of the first girls who didn't 
seem to judge me at all. She wasn't into weight lifting that 
much (could have fooled me with her toned body) but was 
'Sporty' as Nikki liked to call herself.

I had started to enjoy Nikki's company immensely, she also had 
a sense of responsibility to her academic studies like I did. We 
complimented each other in ways Sharon and I never were able 
to. Nikki and I would just sometimes glance over at one 
another and smile, for no reason at all, it felt...well...simply 
beautiful.

Nikki had a serious boyfriend all right, she and Rob had dated 
for over a year now. I wanted to hate him but he turned out to 
be such a decent, nice guy that I couldn't help but like him. She 
also did some modeling on the side, but never talked about it 
much, most guys and girls thought Nikki's looks and body 
should not be getting banged, scratched and bruised in sports. 
But Nikki was truly an athlete; she was tall, strong, and fast! I 
think faster then any other girl on the team so she could really 
move the ball down the field.


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Meeting Dale, and then Nikki, lurched my life in a very 
unexpected but welcome new direction. 

In fact I felt as though my entire life up until now was unable to 
compare with the emotional growth and changes I was going 
thru now. Physically I felt like I was pushing the boundaries of 
acceptable behavior by being so affectionate with Nikki, and 
vice versa. Nikki's affection was intense, purposeful, even 
dangerous, while on the other hand, my friendship with other 
girl's like Sharon didn't have any of that intensity. 

But Dale was my serious boyfriend, so why would God 
introduce Nikki? I do not say the word 'God' lightly, I am very 
religious, and take references to God very serious. 'Okay this is 
just another challenge Corbin, stay focused and tend to your 
relationship with Dale.' I told myself, those other distractions 
you just have to deflect and ignore, 'Do not be led down the 
road of temptation!'

One new experience that I had never anticipated, the most 
stressful yet, occurred when I made the short trip over to Dale's 
apartment after Soccer practice one day. I had shown up at a 
pre-arranged time, although Dale's car was nowhere in the 
parking lot, but I went up to the apartment anyway. Steve was 
there, his roommate, and answered the door inviting me in, 
now I didn't know Steve all that well, but he seemed like a 
decent enough guy. Steve stood about 5'10" with un-kept red 
hair, but otherwise a fairly tidy person like Dale, 'Thank god' I 
thought as I could be such a stickler for neatness.
 
"You just get off from practice?" Steve asked eyeing my soccer 
uniform, actually I watched his eyes continue to trail down 
towards my legs and back up, checking me out as he does 
frequently.
 
"Yep." I said and sat down at the Kitchen table while Steve 
went back into the living room to watch TV.

"Dale running late?" I asked while checking my cell phone to 
see if there were any messages.
 
"Just a little he should be home any second." Steve looked over 
at me again and then cut off the TV. "You can fix yourself 
something to eat or drink if you like, just help yourself." now 
his full attention was directed towards me.
 
"Thanks." But I just kept picking at a piece of tattered string 
coming off my shorts. I knew Steve had a hard time figuring me 
out because of my typical one-word answers. I guess to him he 
might as well be talking to a brick wall. I looked up from 
picking at my dirty shorts and saw him walking towards the 
kitchen table, it caught me a little off guard but didn't give me 
any grave concerns at the moment. I really didn't have any bad 
vibes from being around Steve. Most girls I know would never 
show up at a boyfriends house filthy dirty, but that was me, I 
didn't care and Dale didn't mind at all. He said he thought I 
looked even more sexy all covered in sweat and dirt. But I do 
shower and clean up very well people, just so you know, I'm 
not like pig-pen from Charlie Brown for crying out loud!
 
"You weight lift?" Steve pulled out a chair to my left and sat 
down at the table. 

'Oh great....' I thought, '....is he going to grill me now?'
 
"Some." I answered and was trying to change mental gears into 
my 'Social Mode', if that is what he was expecting.
 
"How much can you lift and such?" He leaned forward, folding 
his arms casually in front of him on the table top.
 
"Oh I don't really keep track of that sort of stuff, I just try and 
stay in shape." I smiled and tried to brush off the pursuit of any 
more questions about that topic of conversation. Steve watched 
my every movement, even under the smudges of sweat and dirt 
he seemed fascinated with me.
 
"Oh come on, you don't keep track?" He scoffed at the thought.
 
I shifted in the seat a little and let out a small, indistinguishable 
sigh of annoyance, "Not really, I keep track of everything up 
here." and pointed to my forehead with a smile.
 
"So, how serious are you with Dale?" Steve suddenly shifted 
questions again, catching me off guard a bit.
 
"What?" My mouth opened with puzzlement. I understood the 
question, but was a little surprised he was being so forward.
 
"You know what I mean, I notice you've been coming over a 
lot more, so I figure that you two must be getting pretty 
serious." He smiled and seemed amused that I was stumbling 
over my words.
 
"Well we are dating, and are committed to dating one another 
exclusively."

"So no doubts about that? No opportunity for something else?" 
He raised his eyebrows and totally shocked me as his right hand 
reached out, the palm of his hand coming to rest on my left 
knee that was folded over my right leg. 

My eyes grew wide as I looked down at Steve's hand. 
Instinctively my left hand which had been folded in my lap flew 
out and backhanded his right forearm knocking his hand from 
my knee with a loud 'smack'.
 
"What the hell are you doing?!" My eyebrows fused together in 
anger and disgust.
 
"I just wanted to let you know that if things didn't work out 
with Dale it would be cool if you and I could hook up, that's 
all." He shrugged and tried to act nonchalant about the whole 
thing.
 
"Are you morally retarded!?" I fired right back.
 
"What?" He looked at my befuddled.
 
"For you to hit on me, in your friend's apartment!" I started to 
seethe.
 
"Hey chill out, it's not that big a deal." He leaned back in his 
chair acting a little like the one who had been insulted.
 
"Sneaking around behind people's back and putting out dating 
requests in case things don't work out with your friend is 
pathetic." I snapped.
 
"You think so?" He leered at me with contempt over my flying 
insults and high-brow moral stance.
 
"If you think it's no big deal then why not get it out in the open, 
let's just get everyone together when Dale gets home so we all 
can know what everyones game plan is. That way you and 
Dale can sync-up and you can outline your dating strategy." I 
was now leaning onto the table with my right elbow.
 
"Look, you're blowing this way out of proportion!" He 
interrupted while shaking his head and stood up.
 
"Where are you going?" and I quickly came to my feet. I wasn't 
sure what just happened inside of my brain, but something 
flipped and I wasn't going to let this guy or anyone off so easy.

"What?" He looked at my strangely, his upper lip curling with 
humorous shock, "I'm going back to watch TV."
 
"You want to watch TV? How are you going to do that with 
me in your way? You have to get thru me little boy unless you 
apologize." I took a step back and tore off my lightweight jacket 
in haste. I was beyond caring at this point and I was hedging 
my bets that he would back down first.
 
"Are you serious? Are you threatening me? I'm not fighting 
you!" He said with a little shock and nervousness creeping into 
his voice. Steve was totally blown away by how I was reacting, 
I guess he never had any girl threaten him like this, what made 
it even worse was how he appeared to be second guessing 
himself.
 
"Your not fighting? Fine, then I'll be the one throwing all the 
punches." I shrugged and shook my arms out, my muscles 
flexing and tensing as I rolled first my left, then right shoulder. 
 
"Have you lost your mind! I'm not fighting you, you're in my 
place, now leave!" Steve pointed to the door. 
 
I stepped in and put my hands on my hips and smiled "Make 
me leave! And another thing, as a guest in your house you are 
one hell of a rude host to be hitting on your guest!" Pointing a 
finger at myself, "And did I give you permission to touch me!" I 
took another step in closer, "DID I?" I loudly snapped.
 
"No." He said with a mumbling noise barely above that of a 
whisper, his eyes conveyed true shock. I'm sure he had seen a 
few girls sloppily smack it out in a parking lot or bar while 
intoxicated, but I was looking him dead in the eye and seemed 
as collect and serious as anyone.
 
"But you did touch me, didn't you!" I snapped again.
 
"I'm sorry, look I was just trying to hit on you!" He shrugged a 
couple of times.
 
"You're sorry? That's your idea of hitting on a girl? No wonder 
your single!" I placed my hands back on my hips and cocked 
my head to the left in disgust.
 
"I'm sorry okay! Jesus! What else do you want!" He sighed. I 
just kept staring at him and shook my head in disgust and 
reached over to pick up my jacket.
 
"I'm going to wait for Dale in his room." I growled and turned 
to walk down the hall.
 
"What are you going to tell him?" Steve called out.
 
"We'll see." I called out, not looking back.
 
"But I apologized!" He yelled, but I just slammed the door shut.
 
I threw my coat into a corner chair and flopped back onto the 
bed, I began to massage my temples with both hands, trying to 
ease the stress out of my body as I felt my heart pounding in my 
chest. As the seconds ticked by and I increased my breathing I 
could literally feel my heart slow down to a more regular pace, 
it was an invigorating sensation, the feeling of my own heart 
beating in my chest. 'What the fuck' I thought, 'This is definitely 
not High School...its worse.'
 

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'Just stay focused on Dale, studying, and sports.' Must repeat 
that over, and over, and the rest will fall into place. Sounds 
simple enough, but maybe I didn't want life to be simple. 
Maybe I really wanted things complicated, and complicated is 
what I got the very next night when I slept over at Nikki's 
apartment.

I just lay there, my eyelids growing heavy as I sighed with an 
odd 'down' feeling. But a minute later my head sprung up off 
the pillow as I felt someone's weight on the mattress and 
watched Nikki's long dark form crawl over to the right side of 
the bed. "This is much more comfortable than the couch." 
Nikki whispered jokingly and we both smiled as I pulled the 
cover over the both of us.
 
"Nice to have another warm body nearby." I sighed but kept 
my eyes shut as I remained turned away from my friend. My 
heart felt like it was beating in an irregular manner. I in fact 
could feel Nikki close, so very close. I just about had a heart 
attack, but remained still, at the unexpected touch of Nikki's 
hand now resting on my waist. My hand moved from its tucked 
position and found that of my friends, slowly our fingers 
intertwined. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I 
scooted back closer to Nikki, neither of us spoke a word as our 
bodies adjusted and snuggled against one another. It seemed all 
very innocent, both of us finding physical comfort in the other's 
arms. It was a kind of a reassurance, a special bond of sorts as 
we held one another in silence, but yet the silence remained as 
if we both knew how fragile the moment was. Nikki curled her 
right forearm across my tummy and pulled me in closer.

Somewhere between consciousness and sleep I felt Nikki's head 
turn and her warm mouth press against the back of my head, 
she sounded sleepy when she said the words, and I still wonder 
if I was truly awake when she uttered "I think your beautiful."

"Thank you Nikki." I whispered back.

"Your welcome love." Nikki softly said, I think we were both 
dead asleep shortly after that. That was the first time that I can 
remember contemplating what it might be like to have a 
'girlfriend', as in 'dating' another girl.

Yes, I do want things complicated in my life, or at least that 
little devil in my mind likes it that way. 


**********


Winter break couldn't come fast enough, I looked forward to 
spending time with my family, and only my family.  

But did that happen? No and in some ways thank God it did 
not.
 
"What the hell!" I took my foot off the gas as I let my car roll 
down the street towards my house. I caught my breath, trying 
to be sure as I stared at what I thought was Nikki's car sitting in 
my driveway. It was easily a two hour drive for Nikki and I was 
not at all expecting her. But that didn't stop me from practically 
busting thru the front door, my eyes quickly scanning every 
inch of the foyer, before finding Nikki sitting in the kitchen 
talking to my mom.
 
I barely stepped foot into my room when I invited Nikki to stay 
the night, "Nikki you have to stay over, you drove all this way, 
I don't want you driving back tonight." I unzipped my warm up 
jacket, revealing a grey tee shirt drenched in sweat.
 
"Oh I don't want to impose." Nikki sighed and walked around 
my room, slowly taking everything in.
 
"Well, I'm still blown away, what brings you all the way out 
here." I stood, hands on hips, watching Nikki pause in her 
surveying of the room. 

Slowly she looked to her left, "I just wanted to see you." Nikki 
smiled and shrugged, her right finger ran along the edge of the 
dresser.
 
"That' it?" I questioned with a perplexing shrug.
 
"Isn't that enough?" Nikki whispered as she barely looked back 
over, and if I wasn't mistaken a hint of blush filled Nikki's 
cheeks.
 
"Well it's enough for me." I sighed and sat on the edge of my 
bed to untie my shoelaces. "Well, if you can hold on, I'll jump 
in the shower and then talk to my mom about you staying over, 
I mean it's really a done deal I just need to tell my mom and 
dad."
 
I walked back into the room in a pair of jeans, sandals and a 
loose white sweater. She watched me as I vigorously rubbed a 
towel over my wet hair.
 
"I feel overdressed." Nikki sighed and stood up as we went back 
down stairs, looking down at her knee length wool skirt, dark 
grey with a silver button down blouse.
 
"Never, you look wonderful." I glowed and took her hand, 
leading her downstairs. It was a wonderful evening, we sat and 
talked about so many things.


**********


I reached up into my closet and pulled out a sleeping bag, 
"Tonight, you sleep in my bed!"

"Corbin please!" Nikki began to protest, but I wasn't listening to 
her and kept unrolling the sleeping bag.
 
"It's no use protesting." I said as I unzipped the side of the fluffy 
sleeper. 
 
"Okay." Nikki mumbled to herself and got ready for bed. I 
didn't know why I had become so giddy and excited about 
Nikki's visit, it was only about a week ago I was stressed out 
about how close we were getting physically, but it just felt too 
damn good right now to worry about any of that. 

I was pretty sure Nikki was still awake later that night, I 
couldn't see her face from where I was laying down on the floor 
so I wasn't sure.
 
"Nik?" I whispered.
 
"What's up?" 

"So, like, what's on your mind? I mean you've been sort of quiet 
since you got here, everything okay with you and Rob?"
 
"Yeah, we're still seeing each other." Nikki said in a somewhat 
monotone voice. 

I couldn't take the suspense it was killing me and I sat up 
quickly enough that it almost seemed to cause Nikki to jump a 
little bit, "You can tell me, what's on your mind?" I tried to 
keep my voice the faintest of whispers. My eyes had adjusted 
enough to see that Nikki's hand was now peeking out from 
underneath the covers, her index finger motioning for me to 
come closer. Yet Nikki still didn't say a word and the long 
shadows kept me from seeing my friend's expression.
 
"What?" I nervously smiled and sat up some more, but Nikki 
kept slowly beckoning with a hand gesture, wanting me to 
come closer. I slid my legs out from under the sleeping bag and 
crawled hesitantly to the edge of the bed.
 
"I want you to come over here." Nikki said in her own soft, low 
voice, but it included a slight sarcastic tone as if I would only 
find out when I got closer.
 
Now my heart was pounding, I was nervous about whatever 
Nikki was calling me closer for, and prayed that she wasn't 
about to reveal some horrible news. But I couldn't help it and 
my face got evidently tense with concern, "Nikki, you're 
making me very nervous, what's wrong?" I pleaded propping 
my elbows on the edge of my bed.
 
"Sorry." Nikki smiled, "I'm not trying to make you nervous, I'm 
just being silly that's all."
 
"Silly?" I smiled with a nervous chuckle, "That's okay."
 
"I just didn't want to keep whispering back and forth, better if 
we talk closer I think." Nikki said and hesitated again, "I would 
like it if you would just lay here for a minute."
 
"Only if you promise to tell me what's bothering you." I smiled 
devilishly and watched as Nikki raised her right arm, the heavy 
blanket seemed to float in the air and hold position. I crawled 
up under the blanket and adjusted myself but it was rather 
difficult in that it was a single bed and the full length of my 
body brushed up against Nikki's. The only thing that was 
slightly alarming was the way our bare legs touched from the 
top of our thighs down to our toes. It felt good actually, both of 
our legs were smooth and shaven and more importantly very 
warm. My eyes blinked and adjusted to the close proximity of 
Nikki's face, so close I could even feel my friend's breath on my 
face, yet there was a comfort in the closeness and a sense of 
security.

"Okay, what's up?" I said with a smile of anticipation.
 
"Close your eyes."

My eyelids narrowed suspiciously but I slowly narrowed them 
until they were indeed shut, but it was so damn dark that it was 
almost not necessary. "What are you up too?" I sighed as I felt 
Nikki's right hand move under the covers, closer to my head 
and it wasn't long before I felt a fingertip lightly graze my chin.
 
"Shhhh, and hold still." the tone in her voice was now serious. I 
smiled a little more but more so out of anxiety as a warm palm 
came to rest on my left cheek. The touch was soothing and 
comforting, but what happened next made my entire body 
tense, my lips felt something warm and very soft as a tingle shot 
down my spine igniting a warmth in the pit of my stomach that 
grew, spreading out over my entire body. Needless to say my 
eyes did not stay closed but fluttered quickly open as my head 
jerked back an inch, but not necessarily in any specific 
direction. The lingering touch was now gone and only Nikki's 
smiling face was looking at my perplexed and somewhat 
shocked expression.
 
"What did you do?" I gasped.
 
"Please don't be mad at me." Nikki tried to maintain a smile as 
she looked for sympathy.
 
"No, not mad, just wondering." I could barely bring myself to 
say what I suddenly realized had just happened and my heart 
was now hammering violently in my chest.
 
"I'm sorry, I should have asked your permission first, but I 
wanted to feel...." and Nikki took a deep breath, a breath that 
was done to keep her composure because she appeared to 
become a bit emotional. "....what it was like to kiss you!" She 
blurted that out like it was physically painful to speak.
 
When those words came from my friend's mouth I just about 
fainted, my chest swelled as I began to breathe harder. Another 
girl had just kissed me on the lips, although it was more of light 
peck then a real kiss. "Why?" I croaked out nervously, 'Stop 
playing dumb!' the back of my mind scolded me, this was 
something I had thought about for weeks and now it had finally 
happened.
 
"I don't go around doing this, you must believe me, you're the 
first and only girl I've ever had such a strong urge to kiss." 
Nikki was blushing now, I could feel the warmth of it in her 
cheeks as my left hand came up to brush her along the side of 
her face so she would know I was not mad. I was more 
concerned about the new trembling in my legs and arms.
 
"I'm just scared that's all." I sighed with the briefest smile.
 
"I'm scared too." Nikki's voice trembled and we locked eyes for 
several seconds, no smiles, no distractions, it felt like an inferno 
under the blanket and there was no mistaking the pounding of 
our hearts, sometimes in unison it seemed. Once again it was 
an unspoken look between us, finally our eyes had adjusted 
enough to see each other's expressions. 

"That was more then a kiss." I said almost choking on the 
words as my emotions were getting the best of me.

Nikki smiled a little, "I know." She whispered and how I 
wanted to cry, laugh, and rejoice all at the same time at what 
we were experiencing. I watched Nikki tilt her head and my 
eyes narrowed in response, I placed my tongue between my lips 
to wet them, they felt so dry. Nikki's right hand found and 
began to stroke my left forearm ever so gently as my left hand 
stroked thru the black strands of her hair that seemed to flow 
like a dark river from Nikki's beautiful head. We exchanged 
sleepy glances as we nervously allowed fingers to explore one 
another's hair, cheeks and arms. We rubbed noses, and our lips 
touched again and again, we seemed to be teasing each other, 
touching our lips so lightly as if they were so very fragile.

Into my mouth Nikki whispered "Your so kind and innocent 
Corbin, and my dearest friend." She paused as her right thumb 
gently caressed the outline of my lower lip and chin. I started to 
see the 'old Nikki' coming thru, that incredible sultry, sexy 
confidence that first drew the two of us together. "I don't 
physically connect with just anyone, and never..." Nikki's eyes 
suddenly looked up and found me staring back, "...never with 
another woman." Nikki studied me and realized I was hanging 
on her every word now, or maybe even her every action.  "Your 
lips are so soft, they feel just like mine."

We started to kiss for real now, I never imagined a kiss like this, 
my whole body suddenly was on fire and awake. Just a few 
minutes ago I was on the verge of sleep, now I was awake, alive 
and found myself almost crying when my body responded to 
the way Nikki kissed me. I found Nikki's tongue to be soft, 
sensual and highly erotic as it mingled with my own. I felt my 
personal and private area contract and a dampness fill my 
vagina, so much that there was an unmistakable wetness. I 
must be doing this right as I felt a moan slip past Nikki's mouth 
and into my own. Nikki's tongue was now exploring my mouth 
at will, I was amazed how aggressive she was being! 

"My god your so damn sexy and beautiful Corbin." Nikki 
moaned and pulled me closer, all I could do was to respond 
with more kissing, it was so sensual how our tongues would 
explore and intertwine with one another, mostly in a slow lazy 
manner. We were now clutching one another under the covers, 
so anxiety filled that our fists gripped and pulled our shirts, 
almost to the point of ripping. I felt Nikki pull, forcing me 
closer against her body. 

"Oh Nik," I grunted, things started to speed up even more, she 
moved her tongue and lips down over my chin and neck, 
nibbling and licking at my sweat coated skin, "This is 
overwhelming." I groaned and rolled onto my back and writhed 
under covers, trying to understand what was happening. It was 
amazing, Nikki climbed on top of my body, like some predator, 
snuggling her body tightly against me as we held and embraced 
one another, our leg's intertwining with each other and we 
softly kissed each other's neck. We let our inhibitions go, our 
crotches pressed against one another and we both humped each 
other feverishly, our arched backs aching for greater contact 
and then our eyes met. I have never been so vulnerable and 
loving with anyone, tears began to stream out of both our eyes.  
The friction of our panties was adding to the already 
tremendous amount of heat between our legs, I was on the 
verge of coming, my right hand reached down and grabbed a 
hold of my girlfriend's beautiful, firm ass. Nikki shuddered and 
I could feel her muscles contracting, her ass was now rock hard 
as she humped me back, her mouth opened and her body began 
to squirm on top of me, my god she was coming, she was 
coming from rubbing against me!

It was my turn and I wasn't far behind, I arched up and then I 
was grinding like some possessed woman. Nikki's free hands 
were squeezing and arousing my breasts, first over and then 
under my nightshirt as I shuddered thru my erotic spell. 

We paused in the moment, each apparently reflecting on the 
many lines we had just crossed. I suddenly realized how 
drenched in sweat we were, legs and arms slick from what felt 
like an amazing workout. Nikki sighed and I stroked my hands 
down her back until my the palms of my hands rested on her 
two round butt cheeks, she flexed them a little in response and 
smiled. "I love touching your body, how you smell, everything 
about you, you're the sexiest girl I know." I felt a little 
embarrassed at saying this to another girl, but I meant it, they 
did not feel like just words.

Nikki smiled, and leaned in to give me a strong embrace as we 
lay silently amongst the dark shadows of my room, eventually 
we rolled to the side, me on my right, Nik on her left as we 
looked at one another and she whispered, "Thank you, it makes 
me feel good to hear that." and suddenly I didn't feel silly 
anymore. There was never one of those uneasy moments 
between us, I thought there might be, you know where we both 
break out in giggles over the whole incident. From the moment 
we first met we both had a mutual desire for one another, the 
instant friends thing, life long friends, and now it felt like we 
were on our way to becoming lovers. 
 
At first I thought we were both falling asleep as we lay face to 
face, silly me. It all started with a slight shifting of our bodies, 
Nikki rubbing her bare thigh against mine, my left arm 
wrapping around her back so our naked bellies were pressed 
tight. Tenderly at first, ever so lightly our lips touched over and 
over again, until once more my bedroom was filled with the 
sounds of us kissing deep and long, panting and moaning. I felt 
Nikki's hand at the base of my back, then her fingers had a firm 
hold on my panties, I gasped a little because it actually felt 
damn erotic as the fabric pulled tight across my crotch. My 
fingers were doing their own caressing and I smiled a little 
during our kissing.

"You make me very, very wet, more then any one ever has." 
Nikki moaned into my open mouth.

For all of my big talk about love, friendship and so on, Nikki 
and I also had a sexually raw, primitive attraction for one 
another. 


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I blinked my eyes, no longer able to keep the morning sun from 
interrupting. The covers were discarded during the night as we 
both lay on my bed, our bodies still slightly entangled although 
we had both shifted some. But we still clung to one another, 
arms over and under, our shirts pushed up revealing a lot of 
skin. I leaned up and saw my bare left leg draped over Nikki's 
right, our actions from last night suddenly came flooding back 
and I glanced over at my door as a thought of my mom walking 
in to the sight of her daughter and girlfriend embracing each 
other in the bed. I almost panicked at the thought but resisted 
springing from bed like a maniac, especially when Nikki stirred 
next to me. Within the silence we looked at one another and an 
emotional tenderness seemed to sweep over us, our hands 
began to stroke each other's faces with affection. I tried to say 
something, but ended up with a lump in my throat, the tears 
started down my cheeks as I let out a few sobs. Nikki pulled my 
head over onto her right shoulder and firmly held me, letting 
me rest my head for a few minutes. When I pulled away, Nikki 
was also crying a little.

"I don't know why I suddenly got so upset." I smiled as Nikki 
brushed the tears from my eyes.
 
Nikki just gave me this wonderful smile and then said, "It's 
hard sometimes, to admit how we feel about something. 
Sometimes it's even harder to put it into words." Nikki gently 
stroked my hair.

"GIRLS!" My mom yelled from the downstairs kitchen causing 
us to scramble apart, gasping. Nikki running for the door and 
down the hall to the bathroom as I lunged for a brush on my 
nightstand, quickly pulling it thru my hair.
 
"What's up mom?" I nervously yelled back.
 
"Breakfast is almost ready!"
 
"Okay!" I said back and set the brush down on the dresser. 
"Get a grip." I thought to myself.


**********
 

"Okay, I'll see you at School." Nikki smiled as I walked her to 
the car.
 
"Drive safe, okay?" I sighed and gripped Nikki's hand.
 
"Will do." Nikki replied returning my grip.
 
"Look Nik, I don't know what to make of all of this, I mean, I 
don't think." I stammered a bit as Nikki climbed into the 
Driver's seat. I knelt down next to the door as Nikki rolled her 
window down.
 
"I understand Corbin, I don't want to over analyze this either. 
We're good friends and well, I don't know, there's a spark 
between us I guess." Both of us blushed and I had to look away 
at the reference to that physical connection.
 
"I like that word 'spark'." I said and sheepishly looked up at 
Nikki and we stared for a second, studying each other's 
expressions. I glanced around, looking back at my house and 
then at the neighbors. Nikki picked up on what I was scoping 
out for making sure they we were alone and my heart began to 
throb in my chest, hoping. I couldn't believe it, I was now 
taking the initiative! ME! The shy one! And I leaned in the 
window and Nikki smiled as our lips met, the kiss was brief but 
satisfying as we moved our lips gently over one another 
exhaling sighs of pleasure that the touch brought. Our tongues 
came out for a brief touch as we both smiled. I pulled away and 
smiled, "That was nice." I no longer cared that Nikki was a girl, 
because it was all too perfect, the contour of our lips seemed to 
mold perfectly against one another and our mouths 
complimented each other in ways that could only be described 
as natural.
 
"Very nice." Nikki glanced up with that sultry look.
 
"It'll be hard to focus on school and boyfriends when we get 
back." I sighed, stuffing my hands into my jean pockets as I 
backed away from the car.
 
Nikki shook her head in agreement, "Very hard, but we'll be 
okay."
 
I stood still, and for a moment never felt the chilly wind that 
was blowing into my face as I watched Nikki's car pull away. 
As I turned with a wave my heart sank with the realization that 
life was never going to be simple again.

"Damn." I mumbled to myself as I shut the front door, shaking 
off the cold, "How did things get so confusing so fast?"


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"God have mercy on the man who doubts what he's sure of." 

-Bruce Springsteen 


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