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 Title: Very Bad Mothers Have Secret's
   Author: Madam R
   Keyword's: Fg .  Mg .Viol.
   This is a work of fiction.  Never harm a child.
   Very Bad Mothers Have Secret's.
   Sometimes I cant take in what has happened over the last few months.  My
daughter is now displayed for dirty paedophiles to masturbate over.  I take
her to gloryholes to suck cock and thats just the start of what I plan for
her.
   I know most mothers will be disgusted and ashamed, but I dont care.
   I'm having the time of my life.  My playtime is so much more exciting.
My bloody boring life is now at an end.  My body feels so much more alive.
Im vertually turned on every minute of the day.  Sometimes I beg to fall
deeper into this hole of forbidden depraved sex.
   I know what people would call me if they knew, a sick mother.  but even
that title turns me on.  Having this secret is wonderful.
   I'm so sick, I beg to get pregnant again and have even more fun with my
new born.
   How did it all start, well, before that fateful day I was a normal
mother.  I doted on my five year old daughter Jenny.  My life was going
along as usual, every day seemed to blend into the next.  Jenny had just
started school.  I dropped her off, then three days a week I went straight
to my part time job in the local supermarket.My free days I spent cleaning
and shopping.  Having to look after this small human being just controlled
your life completely.
   When the divorce was finalised, I rented a small two storey house in a
country village just outside the main town.  It was the end one in a lovely
row of four.  It had a lovely small garden that Jenny could play in.  I
told the landlord I was going to paint Jennys bedroom as it needed
brightening up.
   He agreed, so on Saturday I started to clear the room but then realised
I needed to sand down the old paint on one wall.
   "Fuck I thought i could do with one of those electric sander things"
   I decided to ask my next door neighbour.
   I'd never really spoken to him, just said hello when passing.  I knew he
lived on his own and he seemed quite pleasant if not a litte shy.  I'd see
him in his garden quite a lot, he seemed to be pottering about most days.
   I went to the bedroom window and saw him in the garden, so leaving Jenny
to watch television I went round and knocked on the side gate that lead to
his garden.
   He opened the gate and I explained my dilemma.  He smiled and said he
had a sander and would lend it to me as long as I needed it.  He did seem a
little edgy but I put it down to being shy.  I think he fancied me a bit.
Anyway I guessed he was in his fifties .  I thanked him and went back home.
   Two days later I had done all my sanding and thought it best if I
returned the sander as soon as possible.  It was a lovely hot day so I
decided to let Jenny play out in the garden.
   I'd seen my next door neighbour go out about an hour ago but decided to
go down and leave it by his shed and thank him at a later date.  I had so
much to do.
   I walked to the side gate and was pleased he hadnt locked it.Silently I
closed it behind me thinking I shouldn't really be on other peoples
property without permission.
   I walked into the garden and headed for the large shed.  I was just
about to bend down and leave the sander on the step when I heard a noise
further down the garden.  Thinking it might be a thief or something I
slowly peeped around the shed.
   I was surprised to see my neighbour and was just about to shout out when
I realised he was looking through a hole in the fence at something and my
god!  he was masturbating.  I dont know why but I stared for a few seconds
quite shocked.
   Then it hit me, was he masturbating over Jenny?, God!  yes he was, I
could hear Jenny in the garden playing.
   I backed up against the shed not quite knowing what to do.  I had to
think so I quietly crept out of his garden and ran back home and called
Jenny into the kitchen.  I was shaking, I gave Jenny a drink and told her
to watch television for a while.  I went upstairs and peeped out of the
back window.  I couldnt see my neighbour anywhere.  luckily I had brought
the sander back with me so he didnt know I'd seen him.
   Should I call the police?  should I tell a friend?  Does it mean Jenny
cant go into the garden again.oh god!  what do i do?
   I got myself together and went downstairs .  Jenny was dancing round the
room and I realised her dress was very short and her panties seemed to be
always on show.  No wonder he got excited , what a tease!
   That night I finally got her to bed and sat down to have another think.
   The image of him masturbating over my little girl came easily into my
mind.  I became quite calm and then for for some reason my hand went down
to my pussy.My breathing became heavy and the depraved image of him
shooting hot cum all over her brought me to the edge of orgasm.  so
shocking so wicked so depraved, and yes so exciting too.
   My fingers entered my dripping pussy.  It was like the devil had invaded
my body and I orgasmed like never before.  I knew from that moment I wanted
him to masturbate again over my five year old daughter.  Tomorrow is going
to be another hot day and guess what ?  she's going to tease him so bad.
   The next day my heart was beating like mad knowing I was going to
display my daughter to a paedophile, oh what a bad mummy!  I went down the
garden and saw the hole that my neighbour peeped through.  I hadnt really
noticed it before.I also noticed another hole in the fence just below it.
maybe he kneels at that one and sees more .
   I kept lookout in the back bedroom as much as I could till I saw him
appear in the garden.  I had already dressed Jenny in a very very short
dress and a tiny pair of red panties.
   I felt so wicked when I said to her "go and play in the garden" I had
already moved all her toys up by the hole in the fence so our pervy friend
gets a good look.
   I shot up to the bedroom and watched from behind the curtain.  Instantly
I saw him move to the fence where the peephole was located.  I remembered I
had a pair of small binoculars on top of my wardrobe.  I quickly ran and
got them and got back just in time to see him stoop down and spy on my
daughter.I could see his head and the top half of his body.  He kept
looking down and soon I could just see his arm move rhythmically.
   Good!  the dirty bastard was wanking.  Jenny was certainly doing her
stuff , bending down and dancing around.  Her dress rising up all the time.
I looked through the binoculars and could see his arm moving so fast.  I
felt so dirty, so wicked.  I stripped naked and began to masturbate.  I saw
Jenny go about a foot away from the peephole, her skirt was right up by her
waist, the wind doing a lovely job.  then something very unexpected
happened , the man was getting so turned on his cock appeared in the lower
hole.  My god he was exposing himself to my daughter!  I watched helpless
but at the same time so turned on as Jenny played about a foot away from a
big cock!
   My wicked mind took over as I was getting more and more excited, hoping
Jenny would see it and go over and touch it or something.  Then it
happened. My heart beating like mad as I saw her walk over to it .  She
looked at it with curiosity She didnt seem frightened at all and I took a
sharp intake of breath as I saw her tiny hand reach out and touch it.
   Looking through the binoculars the most erotic perverted moment on my
life happened.  As soon as Jenny's hand touched it, the cock twitched and
hot streams of cum spurted out.  My body seemed to be rising from the
ground as waves upon waves of orgasmic pleasure ripped through me.  I just
saw Jenny skip away from the fence and come towards the house before I
collapsed on the bed.
   I heard Jenny calling for me.  but it took a few minutes before I could
get up.
   "I'll be down in a minute" I shouted out.  "stay there".
   I finally recovered enough to get dressed and go down stairs.
   "Mummy mummy the man next door had his thing through the fence".
   "Did he" I replied, "Its ok.  The man was just playing.  you must not
get frightened".
   I knew I wanted to see more fun in the garden.My mind was working
overtime.
   "As a matter of fact Jenny when you see it again I want you to play with
it and stroke it , and even suck on it.  I will show you after youve had
your tea".
   I felt so bloody naughty and wicked, I havent felt so sexually high
before, my body tingled.
   I remembered I had a dildo hidden away in a draw upstairs and with a
sigh of relief managed to find it.
   I showed Jenny its nothing to be afraid of, and told her to hold it. 
and thats its fun to suck on it and stroke it.  and you must do this if the
man next door puts his through the fence again.  I told her she must try
and get as much of it in her mouth as possible and if it spurts funny
liquid out she must try and swallow all of it.  mummy will be cross if you
don't.
   Yes that's right, I wanted my small daughter to swallow sperm.  I
couldnt help myself.
   That night I couldnt sleep wanting so bad another session in the garden.
But to my surprise I didnt see my neighbour at all the next day.
   Getting so frustrated I hoped he would appear the next day.I spent my
time cutting up a pair of Jenny's panties making them so skimpy.  I knew
she could of gone without panties, but Ive always thought a man likes to be
teased.
   The following afternoon my heart skipped a beat as I saw my neighbour in
the garden.  It was another hot day so I dressed Jenny in the same very
short dress and the skimpy panties.  I put her hair in ponytails and even
put a tiny bit of eye liner on and red lipstick.  A hint of slut was just
what was needed.  it certainly made her look a bit different.
   I told her to play up by the hole and remember if the man next door puts
his thing out you must play with it and suck it.
   She skipped up the garden and I ran upstairs.  I had put a lacey basque
on under my dress with seamed stockings and quickly put a pair of four inch
black heels on.  She's not the only one to get dressed up.  Her sick mother
could too.  I love having this depraved secret.  a secret that would
totally shock friends and family.
   I peeped out of the window with my binoculars at the ready.  The man
wasn't there.  Fuck!  where is he?  Then he appeared out of the shed.  He
realised Jenny was next door and made his way to the spy hole.
   "Good!" I muttered "come on!  my little girl wants to suck your cock".
   I saw him get into position.  my heart beating so fast as i saw his arm
begin to move.
   I relaxed and began to really enjoy the situation, my fingers deep in my
pussy .  Jenny stayed up by the hole and sat on the ground with her legs
open playing with her doll.  I knew he was getting a perfect eye full.  He
moved and looked down.  Fuck yes he was going to expose himself again!
   "Oh god come on, Jenny is waiting" I whispered under my breath.
   I looked throught the binoculars and gasped as I saw the cock appear
through the hole.
   "Yes yes!  Jenny dont let me down!"
   I saw Jenny look up and see the cock.  She skipped towards it and
immediately grabbed it.  Luckily the man had more control this time.  The
cock was right in front of her face.
   I whispered under my breath, "suck it,go on suck it!"
   I saw her open her mouth and move her head down on the cock.
   I groaned as I orgasmed.  "Oh God how fucking wonderful".
   I had to keep control, I didnt want to miss anything.
   I saw him trying to push but the fence of course stopped him.  but Jenny
was doing ok.  Her head was bobbing as she sucked on the cock.  I think she
thought it was a big lolipop.  God knows what he was thinking.
   I could see her face distorted with the effort of trying to get it in
her small mouth.
   "What a fucking cock sucking slut she is" I muttered.  "Oh god I have to
continue this somehow" .
   Where do I start.  There must be something on the internet.
   Suddenly her head jolted back as the sperm hit her throat.  I could see
it dripping from her mouth.  Oh dear god!  I orgasmed again and again.  It
was the most amazing sight!  I knew from that moment Jenny was going to be
a dirty slut for her mother.
   I saw her come away from the fence and run to the house.  I quickly put
a robe on and went down to meet her.
   "Well done Jenny" I purred.  "did you enjoy that?" I could still see
sperm all over her lips and chin.
   "No!  mummy it was horrible, and tasted funny".
   "Well im sorry but your going to do much more of that, and other things
too".
   She began to cry, but for some reason I didnt care.
   "You will do as your told.  and as soon as Ive figured out what to do
next you will be sucking many cocks!  Come on you need a wash!"
   Over the next two weeks I searched the internet about paedophiles and
how they communicate with each other.  I discovered they purchase special
software and go on something called the Dark Web.  I knew I had to take a
chance and buy this software if I was going to continue my fun.  I joined a
adult website hoping to find someone who would give me some advice.  Just
chatting without giving the game away so to speak.  I had many requests to
chat but I was looking for someone who was into young girls.  After about a
week I hit the jackpot.  A guy called Tony wanted to chat .  I looked at
his profile and it said "love to be daddy to young girls, role play etc"
   We chatted and I asked how young does he like his girls, he replied as
young as I can get them.  I told him I had a daughter but didnt give her
age.  He asked does she play?
   I replied,, Im thinking about it.
   I then asked it must be hard to get good pics of young girls.  He
replied yes it is, but possible with good software.
   Our conversation went on:
   I said, "you mean the Dark Web?"
   He didnt reply straight away but then.
   "Yes"
   "Is it safe?"
   "The software I know about totally hides you.  Its the best out there".
   "Wonderful, is it expensive?"
   "Yes but worth it".
   "Can you buy it online?"
   "Yes".
   "It really fascinates me this kind of stuff, can you give me the
website?"
   Again a little time went by, then a reply.
   "Ok, I will email the link to you, can you give me you email address?"
   "Sure.  thanks".
   My heart beat fast as I saw the email come in.
   I clicked the link and a web page came up.
   The software was a lot of money but I decided to buy it and hope for the
best.
   I knew i was taking a massive risk here but my body and mind ached for
more excitement.  I had to make sure I was dealing with real paedophiles, I
couldnt just take Jenny down to a park or something and hope a man wants
his cock sucked.
   Another development was that my naughty neighbour suddenly disappeared.
I saw a "For Sale" sign go up and heard later he had gone to care for his
ageing mother.  Pity, but I think things would have got out of hand if I'd
let Jenny keep going into the garden to suck his dripping lolipop.
   A week later a small package arrived.  Opening it I found the software I
wanted.  That night I loaded the disc into my computer and connected the
small electonic box that came with it.  After five minutes following the
instructions it was loaded and ready to go.  I was pleased with myself
because computers are a mystery to me.
   I double clicked as my mouse hovered over the software shortcut and my
computer loaded a page, then the screen went black.  After about a minute
it came alive again and on the screen was a search box.
   Fuck!  I thought, I must be on the Dark Web.
   I didnt know what to put in the search box so I decided to just put
"young girls"
   The next minute all these links came up to many websites.  I clicked on
one and next minute a pic of a girl of about Jennys age came up next to the
words Lolita sluts.
   "Bloody hell" I whispered "I'm looking at child porn and its all free".
   I couldnt help it, I sat on the chair with my hand in my panties
enjoying the disturbing images.  Children with men, some with couples ,even
some with animals, God this is just amazing.  A mother shouldnt be looking
at this stuff, but I smiled and thought, Im such a sick mother.
   Over the next few days I explored the sites that caught my eye.  but
soon wanted to get down to the real reason for getting on the Dark Web .  I
knew from here I could now hopefully get some "action" for Jenny.
   I went back to the search box and typed "Meeting places for Lolita's".
   A load of websites came up and I scrolled down , many were just chat
rooms, some friendship sites.
   I stopped at one that was called "Meet a Lolita".
   I clicked on it and up came a map of the country.  On the map was red
dots.  I realised these are meeting places for paedo action.  I clicked on
one and up came a discription of the place and what to expect.  It was
strict never to mention any sort of age of the people that went there, but
the name of the site gave the inpression children would be there.  Next
meet was in about two weeks.  It was located in a car park way out in the
country.
   I clicked on a few more.  The third one seemed more interesting.  It was
what is known as a "gloryhole" meet where kids are brought to suck cock
through holes in the wall.  I grinned to myself, Jenny's speciality!
   I noticed the next planned meet was in a weeks time.  It was on a
Saturday night and the start time was eight o'clock.  I gushed at the
thought of going into a toilet and letting Jenny suck cock while I
encouraged her.  Oh god yes!  I think I will go!
   I noticed it was about thirty miles away, so not to bad, at least its
not the other end of the country.  You never know I might meet another
mother there.
   The good thing is that I can control my fun from my computer here at
home and nobody will know and as long as its not happening on my door step
things should be ok.  Im so glad I took the plunge to get on the "Dark
Web". I understand as long as you dont save any images to your computer
things should be fine.
   The day came and I decided on dressing Jenny in a little cute short
dress with matching ribbons in her hair .  To complete the outfit,matching
little boots.  I wanted to make her look as young as possible but at the
same time a bit of a slut.  Again I used eye liner and some eye shadow too.
I strapped her into the car and got behind the wheel.  She kept looking at
me funny because I had a black wig on and thick make up.  I had decided to
dress up too , partly so people wont recognise me and partly to have a sort
of signature look.  Of course naughty underwear and stockings came as
standard attire.  It turned me on too because its so far removed from the
clothes I usually wear.
   It took about two hours to get to the area I should be in.  The
directions on the website was a bit vague, luckily I had given myself
plenty of time to find the place.  I'd been searching for ages to find this
bloody car park when I saw another car go down this little track just up
the road from me.
   I decided to follow and to my relief it opened out into a car park that
had room for about ten cars.  I knew it was the right one because there was
a toilet block to the left as you drove in.  I realise these places have to
be well off the beaten track because of what goes on.
   It was about half past seven so I decided to wait in the car for a while
and see what happens my heart was beating like mad.  this was real, this
was dirty depraved sex.
   Suddenly I saw a woman get out of her car and go around the other side.
Next thing she was holding a little boys hand and was walking him towards
the toilet block.  She quickly looked around and lead him into the gents
side.  I decided that was my cue so I got Jenny out of the car and began to
walk towards the toilet block.  I knew this was so dangerous but also so
exciting.
   I walked into the gents side and saw four cubicules.  Suddenly the woman
with the little boy came out of the end one.
   "Oh hello!" she looked at Jenny and smiled.  "are you here for fun?"
   "Erm, yes I think so".
   "Wonderful I havent seen you here before?"
   "First time I announced".
   "Right" she said "we can chat later.  use this cubicle theyll start
coming in in a minute".
   "Remember you are in charge, if you want to go, just go.  Don't take any
shit if you want them to stop, just say so.  They are all pretty good so
you will be ok.  They will love your little girl.  Have fun!"
   I liked her immediately and knew we would be friends.
   I settled down in the cubicle and saw the gloryhole on one side.  Next
to the toilet on the floor were a few blocks of wood and I realised you use
them as a step up if your child is a bit small.
   I could hear the cars outside as people drove in.  The place was filling
up.
   Jenny knew what was going to happen.  I had told her a thousand times.
She knew I would be cross if she cried out or protested.
   Next minute a noise as someone came into the toilet.  My heart was
beating like mad but at the same time I was so wet.
   Suddenly a man's voice.  "Which one is the girl in?"
   "Here!" I shouted back.
   Next minute he was in the next cubicle and I heard him unzip.
   Suddenly a cock appeared through the gloryhole.
   I whispered to Jenny "right suck it and dont let me down".
   She opened her mouth and began to suck it tenderly.
   Mmmm!  the man groaned .  she sucks cock good!
   My hand went to my pussy as I sat on the toilet lid.
   "Thank you, my little slut loves cock".  I couldn't believe I was so
bold.
   It was so wonderful yet so depraved to watch my young daughter suck cock
close up.
   I started to give her encouragement.
   "That's it Jenny, suck on it and see how much you can get in your mouth"
.  I held the back of her head so she got the idea, I heard noise's as a
man went to the other lady and her boy.
   Suddenly the man began to breathe heavy .  "I'm cumming , fuck what a
lovely lttle slut .  take my load girl mmmmmm!"
   Jennys head went back as he exploded in her mouth, I held her head
hoping she would swallow most of it.  she choked and some ran down her chin
onto her dress.  I orgasmed as I realised she did swallow some.
   Within a minute another cock appeared at the hole.  I pushed Jennys head
towards it.  "Suck it or I will be cross".  Jenny started whimpering, but
she knew she had to do it.  Her mouth opened and I pushed her head forward.
"suck it or else!"
   This cock was so big her face had a pained look because her mouth opened
so wide trying to fit it in.
   "Oh yes" muttered the man, "my balls are full for her".
   "Good!" I teased "give it to her".
   I pushed her head forward enjoying the perversity of it all.  I was
really relaxing now.
   "Suck it harder you little slut,make the man cum!" I couldnt believe
what I'd just said.  but it felt liberating, not like me at all.
   I pushed her head back and forth giving her an idea of what I expected.
   Soon she realised what to do and within another minute the man came hard
in her mouth.
   "She's swallowing it for you" I teased the man.
   "Fuck yes" he moaned "fuck yes".
   Next minute another cock appeared
   I pushed her head forward again.
   "Come on get it in your mouth".
   "Mummy I dont want too".
   "You will or mummy will get angry".
   I pushed her mouth on to it enjoying her discomfort.She finally realised
she had no choice and soon that cock spurted too.
   I wanted her to take all the cocks that were available tonight.
   "Next one please!"
   All through the time in my cubicle I could hear moans and groans from
further down where the little boy was.  occasionally I'd hear the lady moan
and tell a man to fuck it harder.
   God !  I thought what was going on there!
   My mind went back to Jenny as another cock appeared.  fuck!  what a
night.  I want more of this ,I've orgasmed so many times.
   Over the next hour Jenny took another six cocks.
   I waited for more but they didnt come.  The toilet went quiet but I knew
the lady and the boy were still here.
   It was about ten when I came out of the cubicle.  Jenny was totally
covered in cum.
   The lady appeared and smiled when she saw Jenny.
   "I see you've had a good night did you enjoy it"?
   "Oh god yes!  it was amazing how was your night"?
   "Wonderful".  she dragged the boy from the cubicle and I could see he
was in some discomfort.
   "Is he alright?" I asked.
   "He's taken a lot of cock tonight.  but he will recover.  I suddenly
realised what had been going on.  the boy had been fucked in the toilet.
   "Oh wow yes I understand now,how often do you get down here?"
   "Most times theres a meet".
   My pussy was so wet talking to this erotic woman.
   "How old is your son?"
   "Six I just love to see him fucked..will you be coming here again?"
   "Oh yes , without a doubt".
   We walked out to the cars and I felt so good.  There was no fear at all.
I wiggled my hips dragging Jenny still covered in cum behind me.  I was
enjoying the depraved moment.  We chatted for ten minutes and I agreed to
exchange phone numbers.
   Her name was Carol and she lived a lot further away than me.  But she
loved these nights which was why she made the long journey.  I understood
completely.
   She said goodbye and I promised to keep in touch.
   I drove home and realised that was the best night I've had for a very
long time.  Jenny fell asleep.  I looked at her and an evil thought came
into my mind, maybe I can let men fuck her.  If Carol can do it why cant I.
   I smiled and thought of the next meet it was in two weeks time.  Maybe I
will let a man into the cubicle next time and let him touch her.  oh fuck!
so wicked!  what a terrible mother I am!  I smiled, but oh god I love it.
   To be continued.
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Very Bad Mothers Have Secret's