Subject: About Me and My 11 Year-Old Daughter (Mf, incest)
Written by: John Lucas <lucashootie@Writing.com>
Posted by: Kelly <pghkelly@yahoo.com>
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!!!WARNING!!!!
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include depictions of underage, nonconsensual and unprotected sex as well as
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Kelly,
Let me give you some background about myself....
I got hooked on chatting really quick once I was introduced to it. What was
crazy is I truly was more turned on by what I could get others turned on by,
than by the thought of the act itself... hopefully that makes sense. It started
by talking to "women" trying to get them interested in things they had never
considered or thought they wouldn't like. In the beginning it was the usual
topics, threesomes, anal etc., but once I discovered the wonders of Yahoo adult
rooms (back in their hay day), I was off to another level.
I would start by going into different rooms that initially I had NO interest in,
for example toilet play or bestiality. I would just observe to catch on to the
lingo and learn about the topic. As I observed I'd find myself getting more and
more interested so I would start chatting with others about it. Because I'm
fairly creative in nature I could easily imagine what we were talking about and
I would get off on knowing I was turning the other person on sooooo much. It
would get me off hard, and while I was getting off on the topic and the
experience as a whole I was very into the subject, but when the chat was over I
knew that most of the extreme stuff wasn't anything I was interested in doing in
reality.
As time went on and I crashed through all of taboo's that presented themselves
to me I started getting into chatting about incest and/or sex with younger
girls. Those conversations sometimes got to be VERY extreme. The more I
chatted, the lower the age of interest would go to add shock value. Although at
first it was just for fun, I was surprised to find myself becoming more and more
attracted to young girls. I guess this perversion was something that has always
been deep inside of my psyche, but I had not noticed it until then. To this day
I am very sexual in nature and am attracted to women and girls of all ages
shapes and sizes. When it comes to young girls the age I seem most attracted to
is between 10 and 15.
As I got more and more into this online community, I realized that 95% of the
"women" I was talking to were actually just lonely and horny guys pretending to
be women, but if I was horny enough I'd roll with it and not blow their cover so
I could get off. There WERE a few contacts that I made that I knew for a fact
were really female as I talked to them on microphone, viewed their cams and even
made a few phone calls. Those contacts I liked to keep steady because they were
real. With them I began to introduce more personal items into our chat, I guess
it was like me giving something of myself to them. This was how my daughter
Alicia became involved, who was only seven at the time.
I found that it was an immense turn-on to have another adult woman be sexually
attracted to my baby girl. I sent them various pictures of Alicia, all clothed,
but ones that could be seen as sexy. I would masturbate as woman told me what
they wanted to do to my daughter. To this day I still very much love that type
of chat but have been unable to engage in it due to reasons I'm going to tell
now.
As time went on I became more and more daring. I had taken a couple pictures of
my daughter sleeping and in her nightie with the covers down so you could see
her panty-covered ass. And I do have to say, Alicia is very athletic and petite
so her body is absolutely gorgeous, even at this age. My friends loved those
too. I also started checking out some of the links that would get passed around
in these chat rooms, many of them were sites where young girls posed nude, and
some were child porn. I completely loved the little girls nude pics - I won't
even pretend that I didn't. Soon even the child porn began to grow on me. I
would jerk off seeing the youthful innocence of a young girl posing
provocatively and engaging in taboo sex.
All this time I was naively unaware of the potential consequences of my actions.
After all, I wasn't actually DOING anything so what was the harm in fantasizing
and sharing a few erotic photos? What I didn't know was that one of the women I
had spoken to was faking. I don't mean as in a man pretending to be a woman.
No, she WAS a woman but she didn't have a daughter and she wasn't really getting
off talking about me having sex with the two of them. In fact, she was an FBI
agent. Talk about uh oh!!!
We had been talking for over a year about our daughter and all sorts of kinky
things so I was getting pretty comfortable and open with her. When I mentioned
the child porn links that I enjoyed looking at, she said she had never seen such
sites that. Of course me being the gentleman that I am, l sent her a few. Well,
that was strike one for good ole John!!! Then I started masturbating on my cam
for her, letting her watch me jerk off and cum for her as we talked about having
sex with our daughters on the phone. Jerking off for an adult woman on a cam is
not illegal, but combined with the topic of conversation while I did it , she
used the cam against me to as "proof" that I was serious about doing the things
we talked about. That was strike two!!! Then came strike three. I took a few
photos of me holding my erect cock up next to one of those naughty pictures of
my daughter. After I sent it to her she asked me if I ever did anything naughty
with my girl. I said no, but admitted that I DID enjoy masturbating while
looking at her as she slept. BAM!!! The next day I was arrested on my way to
work and charged with distribution of child porn and a variety of other bogus
charges.
Jane, my wife, immediately found out about EVERYTHING! A court order kept me
from seeing my kids for over six months and that damn near killed me. I have
always adored my kids and have a great relationship with them. I go to all of
their functions, volunteer to coach anything they play even if that means I have
to get a book and learn the sport myself, and spend tons of time establishing a
bond that while parental now, can be a friend as well especially as they get
older in life.
My kids were given a physical and mental evaluation, which they passed. I
voluntarily took a lie detector test to prove I wasn't molesting my kids, which
I passed. I was also required to a see a psychiatrist that specialized in
treating sex offenders. He gave me a thorough examination and provided
documentation to the court saying that I was not a sex predator and didn't have
the disposition to become one. The FBI initially thought I was making and
selling child porn - which I was not. Once they realized that I was clean of
their allegations, and after I spent $25k on legal representation, went 6 months
with NO contact with my kids (not even a phone call or letter was allowed), and
after all of the tests and examinations were passed the charges were dropped and
I was back to my normal life. "Normal", that is, except I had been fired from
my job and my wife was disgusted by me. Only by the grace of god did she not
leave me and take away herself and the kids. Now I have this dirty secret that
I hope the world never finds out about. As you know with your dealings with
incest, if someone hears anything about kids or incest you are tried, convicted
and branded without even having a chance to explain yourself.
To keep my marriage together I had to commit to going to on-going counseling,
both individual and marital. My personal counseling is for "my
problem/addiction" and I had to join a sexaholics anonymous group. It is all
worth it if it means being able to stay with my family. What has been eating
away at me is that, while I do feel I got carried away with pictures and cams, I
still don't feel like I have a real problem. I can't help what I fantasize
about nor can I change that I like to seek others out like me so that I can
share those fantasies. Kelly is the first person I've reached out to since this
all went down in 2004, and I'm glad I have. Reading her diary has helped me
feel comfortable again that I can be a good husband, father, coach, etc. in my
real life, but still maintain my fantasies.
All of that said, I enjoy fantasizing about others wanting my daughter. My wife
hates my addiction and I have had to hide my fantasies again. Lastly, since
Kelly's first response to my emails, I have been fantasizing about her having
passionate sex with my baby girl who recently turned eleven and is MUCH more
sexy than she was back when I first started all this. I'm hoping to establish
an open honest friendship with someone online that can understand me and maybe
even relate to me.
John
Introduction to John and Alicia