Subject: Kelly’s Diary - Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ)
Story Codes: MF Mf FF Ff F-solo incest father mother daughter aunt niece
Updated: March 8, 2013
Author: Kelly <pghp_girl@yahoo.com>
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Summary
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Over the past 10 years I’ve chatted and exchanged e-mails with thousands of
people and as you might imagine, I get asked many of the same questions over
and over again. Not only does this become tedious, but some of my answers
are hard to properly express in short Instant Messaging answers. E-mail
allows for more expansive responses but who wants to type the same thing
repeatedly? I finally decided to write up the complete answers to my most
frequently asked questions (FAQ). This document is updated periodically as
patterns emerge or I find that I've inadequately explained something.
If you have any questions to suggest for me to add, please send them in an e-
mail to me at pghpa_girl@yahoo.com.
Table of Contents
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About My Diary & Being On-Line
Sex In General
Incest
Underage Sex
Personal Data
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ABOUT MY DIARY & BEING ON-LINE
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Your diary suddenly disappears at times and then returns. Why?
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Usually it’s something to do with being frustrated or upset with how people
are responding to me - or not. At times it seems nobody give a damn. I
don't get a dime from doing this so reader feedback is my only “reward”.
According to ASSTR, I get lots of hits but virtually none of them respond (I
call these people “lurkers”). When things build to the breaking point I
delete everything (it’s pretty easy - select “all” and hit the delete key).
It makes me feel better at first but then people contact me and ask for it to
be restored so I end up reposting it again. If this makes me sound needy or
egotistical, oh well. I’m human too!
Are your stories true?
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Without a doubt this is by far the number one question people ask me...
I have personally written every word of every story in the “Diary”,
“Fantasies” and “About Me” sections. Nobody edits them (unfortunately THAT
should be pretty obvious at times). The “Friends” stories were all submitted
to me either through chats or e-mails. While I may collate and edit them for
better readability, I don’t claim any ownership and cannot vouch as to
whether or not they are true or even exaggerations. Frankly, I think the
vast majority are total fabrications.
In general my diary reflects events that have occurred in my life. Needless
to say I don't have recordings of every moment so the events and dialog are
based entirely on my memories and those of my friends and family – none which
are even close to being 100% perfect.
I have never made any effort to hide the fact that I use a bit of artistic
license at times but that’s more for editing and personal security purposes
than to “enhance” the story. I simply don't have time to write full length
novels so I may condense events to keep the story to a reasonable length.
The names I use are not the actual names of the people involved. For further
personal security reasons I change locations and in many cases the dates.
Personal descriptions and family makeup are also disguised. For example the
family tree I’ve posted is not 100% accurate but it’s good enough to help
people understand the relationships I’m writing about. None of this is
intended to be deceptive but rather to protect me and my family’s personal
privacy. In the end I would say that my stories are reasonably accurate
portrayals of the substance of each event. It’s not like I’m publishing an
autobiography!
it’s ironic ion that if anything I get more criticism for NOT “enhancing” a
story when it fails to meet people’s expectations based on the fictional
stories they’ve read by other authors. I can’t even count the numbers of
times people complain that I didn't do this or that. My response is simple -
it didn't happen so I didn’t write about it. If I were to start down the
slippery path of embellishing my diary stories then I may as well publish
them all as fantasies.
As I mentioned, my diary is NOT an accurate autobiography. Not everything I
do sexually gets written down - not even a sizeable percentage. I choose
events to write about not because they were necessarily the most enjoyable or
wildest but more based on their impact on my life and personal development.
I like to think that if people take the time to read everything from the
beginning then they should have a pretty accurate idea of who I am today.
My diary focuses on the sexual side of my life because that’s what people who
come to this site expect. Therefore it’s a pretty lopsided view and does NOT
provide a complete picture of who I am or what I do. The biggest problem is
that people take this very one-sided view of me and assume it’s my complete
life. I am sure that most people reading this wouldn't recognize me even if
they lived next door to me - which, by the way, is exactly how I’m trying to
keep things.
People who have read my diary and then see photos of me often comment I don’t
look like what they expected, as if I should have the word "slut" tattooed on
my forehead. Well I’m not a porn star and while you may get the impression
from my diary that my life revolves around sex it’s simply not true. Yes,
for me sex it IS important but my family and God come first and not in that
order. Look at the gaps in time between the entries and it should be enough
to make you realize how much of my life is NOT in my diary.
Why do you write and publish your diary?
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That is an excellent question so all you psychology majors and amateur
analysts pay close attention...
About half-way through my freshman year of college at a VERY strict Christian
university, I was horny and started chatting on-line with strangers. Many of
them would ask me the same questions about my sexual experiences and views
and it soon became a pain typing the same stuff over and over. Not only
that, I always felt I was leaving out too many details and people were
getting wrong ideas about me. So I started writing out short blurbs about
some of my experiences which I sent to people instead of writing them out
each time. Over time as I fleshed them out and included more details.
Then I started chatting with a couple of men who wanted me to do things with
them I'd never done before such as help them to cheat on their wives, have
sex with their teenage kids, and so forth. Although I couldn't even imagine
myself actually ever doing such things, we had some erotic chats about it and
before I realized it, I found myself fantasizing about them as well. I wrote
out several of those fantasies for them to read. I'd never written any adult
fantasy stories before and I found myself getting horny as hell when I wrote
them! Sometimes I even had to take a break and masturbate about the fantasy
I was describing. If nothing else, it was a sure-fire way to beat writer's
block.
One thing led to another and over the course of over ten years now it’s grown
to what it is today. Sometimes I look over it and am amazed at how it’s
grown!
My stories, both real and fantasy, take me a long time to write so I try to
limit them to events that have some significance to me - a "first time",
something that affected me deeply emotionally, or to be honest, something I
want to brag about. I enjoy the feedback I get when I publish them and it
makes me feel a bit turned on knowing men and women are out there
masturbating as they read about what I've done.
Your early entries sound so mature and graphic and they flow too well to have
been written by a young teenager. Did you really write them?
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Keep in mind that I didn't even START writing these stories until I was a
freshman in college. Frankly, I wouldn't even know HOW to start so far as
writing like a young girl again. Even if I tried I’m sure that it would
sound horribly fake - just as so many of those ridiculous stories you find
on-line. Even so I grimace sometimes when I read the ones I wrote back years
ago. Some of the older ones have been edited over the years to fix spelling
and grammar errors as well as to add missing details.
While I appreciate the people who compliment my writing style, I take
exception to those who say I write too "mature" to be in my twenties. Keep
in mind that I was an excellent student (graduating from high school with a
4.0 and college with a 3.85) and now have a teaching degree so hopefully I
CAN write better than most people!
What is the meaning of the numbers you use in your file names?
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These let me sort my diary files by date as well as allow people using
asstr-mirror.org to sort them by date. A computer nerd I chatted with a long time
ago suggested I use a naming system where 20060705 is July 5, 2006. This
allows them to be easily sorted in chronological order.
Is there a sequence to your stories that they should be read in?
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First, start with the ABOUT ME section as that will help you understand me
better in general. Then I HIGHLY recommend reading my diary in chronological
order. The earlier stories were written to stand alone as I was submitting
them randomly to various story sites where there was no linkage between them.
After I started posted them on my own web site I got complaints that the
introductions were redundant so now I when I periodically edit them to fix
typos and such I also try to shorten the introductions. The down side is
this assumes people have already read the earlier ones.
Are the people in the other families whose stories you post real?
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This may seem to be a cop-out of an answer, but why even bother asking?
Without risking my own privacy there’s no way I can tell for sure as I'm
never going to meet them, phone them, etc. When all is said and done my
guess is that most are pure fantasy and not written by the “person” claiming
to be the author. There are a few that I know are true but I won’t say which
ones or why I believe so for their privacy and my protection.
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SEX IN GENERAL
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When did you first have sex?
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I was fourteen and a half my first time. It was during the summer before my
freshman year of high school with Steve, the sixteen year-old brother of one
of my girl friends (and my husband today). It wasn't his first time and my
mom had me well-prepared, all of which I think helped to make it a wonderful
experience for me, at least a LOT better than most girls have told me about
their first time. If you want all the details then go to the entry in my
diary for August 2, 1999.
That was when I first had SEX - defined more clinically as the first time a
male penis penetrated my pussy. I’d given Steve a blowjob weeks earlier than
that. Prior to that I’d been masturbating regularly since I was eleven
including the use of my mother’s dildos and vibrators.
How many men have you had sex with?
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Over the course of the past fourteen years I’ve had one-one sex with well
over seventy different men. If you want to be really anal about it (no pun
intended), then a LOT more cocks than that have actually filled my pussy at
one time or another - well over 200, maybe even close to 300 now. Why the
difference in numbers? Well, I've been to a number of parties where multiple
guys fucked me plus bachelor parties where I was the "entertainment". I
find it hard to say I’ve had sex with a guy I’d never seen before and didn't
even know his name. I use to keep a listing of everyone man I had sex with
but that got to be too much of a chore so I stopped a number of years ago.
I’ve never even tried to keep track of the number of cocks I’ve sucked! OMG,
I can only imagine how many of them there have been. LOL
Are you bisexual?
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Technically I have to say yes in that I enjoy sex with men AND women. That
said, for pure physical enjoyment I MUCH prefer sex with men as a dildo can
never replace a real cock which gives the boys a distinct advantage over
girls. On the other hand, while men are the best when it comes to meeting my
physical needs, women are far more satisfying emotionally. What I guess I’m
trying to say is that with guys, it’s all about satisfying my PHYSICAL needs
whereas with girls it’s more about dealing with my EMOTIONAL needs. In other
words, when I’m feeling horny I seek out a guy for release but when I’m
feeling down then I seek out a girlfriend for comfort.
Are you a slut?
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OK, if the shoe fits... I would say if using most people’s definition then
I’m a slut. While for some people that is a slur, so long as you use MY
definition it’s a moniker that I’m proud to bear. According to my dictionary
being a slut means that people find me sexually attractive and that I’m not
afraid to take full advantage of such attractions.
You say you’re a slut but not a whore. What’s the difference?
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When a guy “dates” a whore he knows what he’s going to get and he expects to
get it with no questions asked because he paid for it. In contrast, when he
is out with a slut he may have hopes but he can’t be 100% sure how far she’ll
go. A whore can never tease like a slut. A guy KNOWS when he’s with a whore
that he’s getting it sooner or later whereas with a slut there’s always that
question of will she or won’t she?
To put it simply... Whores SELL their bodies to please a man. Sluts USE
their bodies to please themselves.
Do you like men to shave their crotch?
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Before I answer that let me say I love almost ALL men's crotches so it's
really just a matter of preferences. That said, I definitely like bushy
crotches the best and the more and thicker the hair the better. It feels
good to reach down inside of a guy's pants and run my fingers through his
coarse pubic hair; then smell my fingers later to enjoy his musky scent.
When I suck a man's cock I take pleasure in feeling his crotch hair against
my face, especially when I take him all the way in my mouth and my nose is
buried deep in his crotch.
Now as for the rest of him – shave it off guys! I don't like being seen at
the beach with a gorilla. As for beards and mustaches – UGH! And what's
with this two-day growth crap anyway? I mean, who decided THAT was sexy?
Just scratches my face and thighs so far as I’m concerned.
What are you wearing?
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It's amazing how many times I've been asked this when I chat! Mornings are
easy as usually I shower, wrap a towel around me, and sit down for a few
minutes to catch up on e-mail. Otherwise at home I prefer wearing something
loose on top and nothing on the bottom. It doesn't really matter what I wear
on top so long as it’s something. It can be a T-shirt, a blouse, a man’s
shirt, or even just a bikini top or bra. Just so long as my boobs aren't
just hanging out there.
I've always loved being bottomless. Nothing compares to feeling the cool air
against my bare ass. I hate feeling restricted down there which is why I
rarely wear panties under a dress, even to church (or should I say,
especially to church!) Of course I wear panties when I teach. There’s no
excuse for an adult woman to flash ten to twelve year-olds.
Sorry but despite all the fantasies men may have of me, I almost NEVER run
around nude for no reason at all. The only times I’m typically totally naked
for any extended period are when I’m in bed, taking a shower, or having sex.
If I need a drink I may run from my bed to the kitchen without bothering to
put anything on, but if I’m going to stay up for a snack then I bring
something with me.
Do you wear a bra and panties?
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Actually most people just ask if I wear panties but I’ll answer for both
anyway. Until my latter teen years my bust was nothing to brag about. Bras
are uncomfortable enough and when you don't need the support why torture
yourself? In any case, since I was under no pressure to wear one from my
mother (my dad certainly never wanted me to) I just never really got started
with the habit. believe it or not usually the only time I wore one was on
dates. I learned early that guys really get off undoing a girl’s bra!
These days I keep a couple of flirty ones around for those occasions that
warrant one like when I want to tease or flirt with men, especially my
husband. A couple of more modest ones are for more formal events such as
church where I still want to wear something sheer or especially tight. At
school as a teacher I’m required to wear one and there it’s more about
comfort as I don't show off my bra to my students.
Even though my boobs eventually grew to be something I'm happy with, as a
rule I still rarely wear a bra except to work. There IS one other time I
usually wear one and that's on special dates. It's still amazes me how guys
get so turned taking off a girl's bra, even when she's his wife! Oh well, if
my husband likes it I don't mind accommodating him.
Panties are a similar issue. I wear them with extra short skirts so I don't
get arrested for indecent exposure (except on special occasions when I want
to show off). I've also found that guys seem to like a little mystery more
than blatant exposure. For whatever reason getting a peek at my panties up
my skirt seems to be more erotic than a glimpse of my bare pussy unless
you’re a Hollywood actress trying to draw attention to yourself as you get
out of your limo. Like bras, guys especially seem to love it then when they
get to remove them.
There are a few times when I definitely wear panties, one being during my
period, especially if I'm having a heavy flow. That's just a matter of basic
hygiene and cleanliness. I also wear panties and bras to work. Most school
administrators would not be amused if I showed up looking slutty - at least
not officially. Finally there are just some clothes where panties are more
comfortable like tight jeans where they can rub your crotch raw if you go
commando all day.
What I wear for panties depends on why I am wearing them. At school it’s all
about comfort so full cut “boring” cotton panties work unless I’m wearing a
tight skirt or pants where something more discreet is warranted as I HATE
panty lines. If I’m with friends for a sleepover or just a girls night out
then loose boy shorts are my preference. In church it’s something more
formal, a high cut thong with a more full back and front seems more
appropriate. A skimpy thong or g-string works when the whole point is to
flirt and let a guy THINK you’re not wearing panties until he finally gets a
close enough view to find out that yes, you are. I wonder how many guys
realize just how complicated it can be for a girl to choose the right
panties?
Do you like pantyhose?
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Ugh! For that matter, find me one girl who honestly says she ENJOYS wearing
them (versus resigned to it). As a general rule most women wear pantyhose
for only ONE reason – it makes their legs look better. OK, sometimes they
help keep you a little warmer in winter as well but that’s not the primary
reason. As a matter of etiquette I typically wear pantyhose for formal
events, especially when I wear a particularly short skirt or dress. That’s
especially true in winter when I don't have a tan and my legs look pale.
For those interested in such things, I wear a size A, preferably fully nude
although sheer black can be entertaining! Never been a big fan of fishnet
but men like it so sometimes I’ll put up with it.
Do you consider a blowjob to be "sex"?
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By definition “sex” is the penetration of a female vagina by a male penis -
regardless of the depth of penetration. Since that doesn’t happen during a
blowjob then it goes without saying that blowjobs are NOT sex. Even William
Jefferson Clinton agrees - “I did not have sex with that woman.” Technically
he was telling the truth although I think most people were more worried about
his intent which is a totally different issue.
When I’m sucking a cock I certainly enjoy doing it but when I compare it to
being fucked it’s an entirely different experience – emotionally and
physically. Unlike when I feel a man inside of me where I am getting just as
much pleasure as he is, sucking a guy's cock is more me giving HIM pleasure.
It’s really no different than giving him a massage except that I’m using my
mouth instead of my hand. As for me, I get the satisfaction of seeing the
pleasure I am able to give to him, not to mention the side benefits - a man
will do most anything for a BJ!
I also enjoy the power a BJ gives me over a man. Face it guys, when a girl
has your sensitive dick between her teeth, who’s really in control? Making a
guy cum using only my mouth can be quite the ego-booster as well. Some guys
claim they can’t get off without a hand on their dick which I take as a
personal challenge. I like to think that’s because they’ve never had ME suck
their dick!
Is giving a blowjob an act of adultery if one of the partners is married?
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Adultery is defined as the act of having sex when you're married with someone
who is not part of your family without the knowledge and consent of your
spouse. Therefore technically a blowjob is NOT adultery because it's not sex
(see the previous question). Note that in order to commit adultery you also
have to be married - pretty obvious but worth pointing out. That said, I’m
pretty sure most wives wouldn’t be happy if they found out about it so I
don’t recommend using this as an excuse if you’re caught.
Is adultery wrong?
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Yes, adultery is always wrong. After all, it's one of the "Big Ten" sins!
Because of the severity it’s important to understand exactly what adultery
really IS. At the same time it can be even more important to understand what
it’s NOT.
As mentioned previously, adultery is defined as the act of having sex when
you're married with someone who is not part of your family without the
knowledge and consent of your spouse. Another way to look at it is the key
to adultery is not so much the ACT of sex but rather WHY the sex takes place.
Just because you have sex outside of your marriage doesn’t mean you’ve
committed adultery. It’s only when you hide it from your spouse that the sin
is incurred. I don't mean that EVERY act of sex has to be reported to your
spouse like some sort of confessional so long as you have their permission in
the first place. It’s the talk and agreements up front in a marriage that
are so critical!
Another key element is that adultery is only wrong for the person committing
it. Don't blame your partner for your actions. If a husband cheats on his
wife with me then HE is the one committing adultery, not me. In that
situation even though I’m married I’m not committing adultery because my
husband‘s OK with me having sex with other people, even if I don’t ask him
about it first or tell him later.
Do you practice safe sex?
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My mother put me on the pill as soon as I started having sex so far as birth
control goes, that’s what I’ve always depended on. When the time came a
couple of years later for me to have sex with my dad for the first time, even
though he had been fixed after I was born I was glad that I was on it since
feeling him cum inside of me was all part of the overall incest experience
and I didn't want any possible issues with his vasectomy messing things up.
I mention him cumming in me because it feels so much more intimate to know he
is releasing himself in me than pulling out as if there was something wrong
with what he was doing.
As a rule I hate condoms and only want a guy to wear one when absolutely
necessary to protect against disease. When I was in high school I didn’t
make most guys use a condom as I figured the risks were small since I was on
the pill. Don't preach to me about STDs, I’m very selective of my partners
and I make a conscious decision in each case. At the same time I don't take
stupid chances.
Does cock size matter?
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Duh... If course it does! The ONLY people who claim otherwise are the guys
with small ones. Sure, sometimes I’ll tell a guy it doesn't matter but
that’s like a guy telling a girl that “anything more than a handful is a
waste”. It’s being polite but still a line of crap.
When a guy worries about cock size it tells me that he doesn’t have a clue
how to please a girl if he think just a fat cock is going to do it. Of
course a larger dick (up to a point) feels better when it's all the way in
simply because I can feel it filling me more. But to really please me, all a
guys needs to do is get the head in me far enough to rub against the
multitude of nerve endings that are just inside of me.
In other words, think of it like eating food. The taste and enjoyment comes
from the taste buds in your mouth but the overall long-term satisfaction
comes from the fullness of your stomach. Of course, if you eat too much your
stomach hurts! That’s how it is with my pussy. It’s the entrance to my
pussy where all the action takes place so far as stimulation goes. The
reason it feels good when a guy strokes me is that his cock acts like a
violin bow playing over the “strings” just inside of me. When his cock
pushes further in me, then its more the sensation that he is filling me up,
giving me a feeling of general satisfaction I also enjoy.
Most any cock size within reason can accomplish the first part. Maybe if I
wasn't so tight a larger dick would be better but if anything TOO big a cock
can hurt as it stretches me out to force its way inside of me. When it comes
to filling my pussy, the bigger the better to a point after which, like an
overfilled stomach, there’s such a thing too much of a good thing.
Do you like anal sex?
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NO! Do I really have to say more? Oh well... here goes....
I don't mind my ass being licked and touched but otherwise my asshole is
strictly one-way to anyone except me. I’ve experimented with my finger in
the shower and hot tub and have actually come to enjoy it now and then when I
masturbate. However, anal sex turns me totally off. I don’t even like to
discuss it.
And yes, I HAVE done it so don't tell me to try it.
Have you had sex with a black guy - or any other interracial sex?
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I don't like this question because it infers that I might choose who to have
sex with based on their race. I’ve had sex with only a few black men but
that’s more due to lack of opportunity than by choice. I really don't care
what color, age, or religion a guy is when it comes to sex – they all feel
about the same when they're in me. The question I would ask is can you tell
the difference with the lights out?
Have you had sex with an animal?
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Many years ago I experimented and let my little Yorkie lick my pussy. Even
though she DID make me cum (with a little assistance from my finger), it
creeped me out afterwards to think about it so it was the only time I let her
do it.
Once I spent the night with my friend Samantha and found out she was not only
a lesbian but regularly had sex with her golden retriever. Well, I was horny
and one thing led to another until now I can say that I've sucked a dog and
been fucked by one too. That does NOT mean I want to have ever again have
sex with animals, only that I have in the past.
To be perfectly honest, I’m still weirded out about the whole thing when I
think about it. After all, it WAS a dog and somehow that just seems wrong.
Once after that I found myself in a crazy situation where I broke down and
did it again but trust me, that was the last time!
Do you have sex during your period?
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Sex during my period is more a question of hygiene than anything else. Face
it, it can be a mess which is why I think most guys are turned off by it as
well. I’ve never met anyone who wanted to have oral sex during my period and
I doubt I would go for it anyway – it would be a little gross for me. I
usually don’t mind sex so long as we do it somewhere where it doesn't create
a problem - obviously not on a couch or piece of furniture! Typically that
means in bed with an old towel or blanket under me that can be thrown away
afterwards. I find that missionary works best so you could say I’m a little
less adventuresome during that time.
There are exceptions as some days I cramp and just don't feel well so
naturally I’m not into sex at those times. As for whether it "heightens"
anything.... sex is 80-90% mental for me so I guess if it feels any different
it’s more because of the fact that I KNOW that I’m on my period more than
from BEING on my period.
What is your favorite position?
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That depends mostly on the situation and who I’m with. As a general
statement I like to start out on top - cowgirl style. Riding a guy gives me
control over the depth of his penetration into me as well as the speed.
Towards the end I’m a sucker for the good old missionary style, especially
when he’s planning to cum inside of me. It's the most intimate of positions
for me and I have to admit I enjoy the feeling of submission as he literally
mates me. In between, well that's as much up to him as anything. I like
doggie, spooning, and just about anything that doesn't hurt me or involve
anal penetration.
What was your most memorable experience?
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Well, if you’re referring to my entire life, that's an easy question to
answer. That would have to be the day when I accepted Jesus as my Lord and
Savior. I was ten years old at summer youth camp when my counselor led me in
prayer and I dedicated my life to Jesus. I believe that experience is also
part of the reason why I feel so strongly about wanting to work with youth.
The impact my counselor's actions and behavior influenced me tremendously and
she will always be someone I respect and admire. My hope is to have that
same impact on another girl's life someday.
That said, I doubt when most people read that question that this was the
answer they were looking for! I admit it was a bit of a trick question but
at the same time before I answer the "real" question about my sex life I
wanted to make a statement about something that means a lot to me. Had I
worded it to be about my religious experiences I doubt most people would’ve
bothered to read it.
So SEXUALLY, I can definitely say that my most memorable experience was the
day my dad fucked me for the first time. It was a pivotal moment in my life
after which everything changed in ways that nothing else can match, even more
than when I lost my virginity. Feeling my father entering me for the first
time is something I’ll NEVER forget! Then when he came in me... it’s like
it’s imprinted in my mind.
Do you masturbate? If so, how often?
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This is just a summary. Read “My Thoughts About Masturbation” for the
complete answer.
So with that said... Yes - of course I do. Seems sort of a silly question
actually. Really, who doesn’t? I’m sure the number of true abstainers isn’t
nearly as large as some people would like to think.
Masturbation come natural to me, maybe because I was raised to view it as a
perfectly normal and healthy outlet for my sexual energy. My parents did it
frequently (especially my dad) and while they never did it deliberately in
front of me, they didn’t go out of their way to hide it from me either.
Doors were rarely shut in our house so whatever was going on in a bedroom or
bathroom was no secret. I can remember many times growing up when I would
see them and sometimes I even watched, especially when I was younger and more
curious.
As I entered puberty my parents encouraged me to masturbate regularly simply
so I could enjoy myself. I really don't understand it sometimes - almost
everyone does it yet for some reason most people won’t admit to doing it
without being embarrassed. It seems to me that it would be a lot better to
eliminate the taboos and let people openly enjoy it than having to sneak
around feeling guilty about a perfectly normal human need that almost
EVERYONE does.
As for how often - well that depends on a lot of things. If I’m getting the
real thing regularly then naturally not as much so maybe just once a day or
so. Even then it depends on how satisfying it was as I’ve gone to bed after
a full evening of sex and still felt the need to masturbate before I went to
sleep. When there's nobody around to help, then maybe several times a day if
I’m really horny. Mornings are probably my favorite time as when I wake up
I’m almost always horny and a good rub before a shower is a great way to
start the day
One thing that most people don't seem to understand, especially guys, is that
for me masturbation is NOT simply a substitution for sex. I really simply
ENJOY masturbating! Even after a good evening of sex I sometimes do myself
when my husband falls asleep simply because I like doing it. Some people
seem to think that by saying they masturbate then they’re confessing to not
having regular sex. Not in my book - two different issues.
What do you fantasize about when you masturbate?
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That really depends on a lot of factors – the time of day, where I am, but
primarily it’s influenced by what I’ve recently done. Usually I dream about
someone who recently fucked me. Sometimes I may fantasize about someone I
saw at a church youth meeting or service that turned me on. When I chat with
people I often get horny and think about what might happen if I were to meet
with some of the sexier people I chat with. If there’s one thing I do NOT
fantasize about, it’s porn. Real life is what turns me on the most, not fake
sex with paid actors.
What is your favorite fantasy?
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First, let me make it clear that I do NOT consider fantasies as being the
things I dream of in anticipation of ever actually DOING them – that's
dreaming, not fantasizing. A fantasy is just that - a fantasy. That means
it’s NOT something I would ever actually do. Some people have a problem
separating reality from fantasy which is why we have so many perverts and
child abusers running around. I understand my responsibilities as an adult
and a woman and would never do anything for real that would bring harm or
abuse to anyone.
OK, enough of the disclaimers. Actually I have a few fantasies which are
quite a bit different from one another. I had a friend go to Amsterdam a few
years ago and she told me about going into a theater where she watched a
couple fucking on stage not three feet away from where she was sitting in the
front row. Ever since then I’ve fantasized about me being that girl on
stage. It makes me so hot to imagine me being watched by a hundred or so
people, each and every one of them wishing they were the one fucking me
instead of the guy who was actually doing me.
My second fantasy is quite a bit different and while it may offend some
people, keep in mind my attitude about fantasies – anything is OK so long as
you can separate fantasy from reality. That said, I like to imagine baby-
sitting a thirteen year-old boy and his twelve year-old sister where I
introduce them to their first sexual encounter. First I would do each of
them separately. Then I would bring them together and teach the girl to suck
her brother’s dick after which I would help the boy to fuck his sister.
There’s a story about this in the FANTASY section of my web site if you're
interested in the details! Again, keep in mind this is only a FANTASY of
mine and that I would NEVER do such a thing in real life!!!!
Finally, I like to imagine that somehow a man takes control of me be it by
hypnosis or drugs such that I’m aware of what’s happening but can’t control
myself. No matter what he tells me to do, I can’t stop myself from doing it.
This fantasy is fun because it has so many possibilities - use your own
imagination!
So as a final word, if nothing else then remember this... it’s perfectly OK
to fantasize about anything and by that I really mean ANYTHING no matter how
disgusting or perverted. It’s what you DO as a result of those fantasies
that counts. If a guy ignores his wife sexually because he spends too much
time fantasizing while looking at Internet then yes, those fantasies are bad.
Why do you like to have sex with married men?
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NOTE: This is just a summary. For a complete answer see my article on
sex with married men - “FAQ - Married Guys”.
Marriage is a unique and special relationship where love and respect by both
partners is essential. Personally, I do NOT condone adultery. I’ve had many
men write me and ask my opinion on how to cheat on their wives and in every
case I’ve responded by encouraging them NOT to do so. Most men rationalize
their behavior by saying their wife isn’t interested in sex or she doesn’t
please him sexually to which I say "it takes two".
Although in a perfect world men would not cheat on their wives, should a man
choose to commit adultery then that’s HIS decision and HIS responsibility. I
feel NO responsibility whatsoever for the consequences he may face if his
wife finds out. The ONLY way his wife could know about what he does with me
is if he tells her as I would never say anything to her myself, even in
situations where I know her personal contact details.
I’m really not a vicious person and I have no desire to hurt anyone or to
cause marital problems. After all, the fact a man is cheating on his wife is
proof enough for me that severe marital issues already exist. I like to
think that I provide him a means to realize his unfilled dreams and purge
them from his system. Who knows, maybe having sex with me could end up
HELPING their marriage! I like to think I have saved far more marriages than
have been hurt. Even if something bad does happen then odds were it was
going to happen sooner or later with someone else if not me so it’s not like
I am personally to blame.
Since the first time I was with a married man at the age of only fifteen,
I’ve found that having sex with a husband other than my own is incredibly
erotic more so than just “pleasurable”. What I mean is that while normally I
would claim that sex is 80% emotional and 10% physical, when doing it with a
cheating husband it’s 95% emotional and 5% or less about the physical side of
sex.
The reason for the heavy emphasis on the “emotional” aspects of sex is that
when a husband is fucking me and I feel his cock inside of me, I know that
his wife is sitting at home totally unaware that her husband is out screwing
a girl probably half her age. It makes me feel really good as a woman to
know that her "loving" husband’s lust for me is so intense that he’s willing
to violate his most sacred vows to her. He’s literally ready to sacrifice
his marriage and family just for the opportunity to have sex with ME for a
few hours. It doesn’t seem fair to blame me for feeling incredibly sexy and
desirable in this situation, don't you agree?
It’s not just the sex that turns me on either. After he leaves I’ll often
masturbate as I imagine him returning home and facing his wife with his
adulterous dick coated with my pussy cum as he kisses her goodnight and gets
into bed with her. When he says he loves her does he think about what he
just did with me? The next time they make love is it my pussy he remembers
when he cums? When his wife turns up her nose at the thought of oral sex
does he wish I was there to suck his cock once again? Does he feel guilty
because he had sex me behind his wife’s back? Will he ever be able to forget
what he did with me or will I be a part of his life - and marriage, for the
rest of his days? Does he masturbate thinking about how good it felt to feel
my mouth on his dick and then drive his erect cock in me? As you can see it
goes way beyond just the few minutes or hours we spend together.
One of my most memorable experiences with a married man was having sex with a
husband while he was on the phone talking to his wife. Just as I felt him
start to shoot his sperm inside my pussy he told his loving wife back home
that he loved her more than anything and couldn't wait to be back home again.
He kept repeating his love for her over and over as he came deep inside of
me. As you might imagine, it wasn’t just his cock ejaculating in me that
made me cum so hard! All I could think about was his wife smiling at home,
thinking her loyal husband loved her when what he was really loving was the
feel of my tight pussy clamping down on his adulterous erect cock as he
pumped me with the sperm that SHOULD have been in her pussy instead!!
Do you like 3-somes?
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Outside of my family and ignoring the parties I’ve only had sex with multiple
partners a few times and two of those were with the same people. (my roomie
Brenda and her older brother). Like I said, that ignores the parties I’ve
been to where I’ve had sex with quite a few guys but those were just for my
own sexual pleasure. I prefer being the center of attention but I fantasize
a LOT about being with another couple, especially one where they’ve been
married for a long time and had done anything like this before they met me.
Probably the times I enjoy a threesome the most are with my family. I
remember being between my parents in their bed and how wonderful that was for
me. Now I feel the same when I can be with my mom and my husband. I’d LOVE
to be able to enjoy my husband and his mother together but unfortunately I
doubt that will ever happen - long story...
You often mention porn. Do you watch it often?
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Personally porn doesn’t do much for me. I find watching an actor fucking a
whore to be about as sensual and erotic as watching dogs do it (don’t EVEN go
there!). That’s not to say I don’t like nude photos and sex videos but only
when they involve me or someone I know. Think of it like watching typical
home movies. You don’t mind watching your own but it’s torture to watch
someone else’s.
My dad has gathered a huge porn collection over the year with more focus on
videos when they became available. When I was growing up he would watch them
on our large screen TV in the family room so yes, I was exposed to it at an
early age. My mom didn’t complain so long as there was nothing else on TV
she’d rather watch and so I did the same.
The one GOOD thing about porn is I’ve learning quite a few techniques from
watching it. The older porn stars from back in the 70’s and 80’s were
particular instructive as they put on a show rather than just fucking the
same way every time like the “reality” porn of today. Really, does anyone
believe that all those “casting” and “interview” porn videos are real?
Why do you describe making love as "fucking"?
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I try not to swear but I like use the word to denote having sex with someone
other than my husband. For example, I love my dad but he is my father, NOT
my "lover". Thus he "fucks" me instead of "making love" to me. Some people
get turned off by the word "fuck" but as I said, it’s not my intent to be
vulgar, just descriptive.
The only man I make love to is my husband. Period. Everyone else I fuck
which includes my father.
What is “off-limits” for you when it comes to sex?
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Let me first differentiate between fantasy sex and reality to answer this.
So long as it’s just fantasy there’s not much that’s out of bounds for me.
Even so, I DO have limits. Some of the things I don't like under ANY
circumstance (even fantasy, are scat or watersports or anything to do with
bathroom sex in general as I find these topics disgusting. I also don't like
bondage or anything where someone is being forced to do something they don’t
want. I definitely am turned off by child abuse. Sexual contact of any kind
with infants and toddlers grosses me out. Bestiality is not my thing either
other than morbid curiosity. Other than that, so long as it’s purely
fantasy, I can’t think of anything else that would offend me.
Even though I may not enjoy hearing about it, that doesn’t mean I judge
people or condemn them for whatever their fantasies may be no matter how
gross or perverted. At the same time I insist on the same respect in that I
don't have to listen to anything I don’t want to either. It seems there is
someplace out there for every form of fetish so find someone who is into it
as a much as you are - just not me.
Real life is a different matter entirely. Anal is not something I enjoy and
while I’ve allowed it to happen it wasn't like I asked for it and it was more
something I had to put up under the circumstances. Rape is a horrible
offense against a woman and I would never participate or encourage it. Scat,
BSDM, extreme pedophilia, anything to do with toilet-related activities...
all things like these are NOT for me. Also, as I mentioned briefly, I have
no desire to have sex again with any animal – what I've done already has been
more than enough to satisfy my curiosity.
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INCEST
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Note: This is just a summary. Please read “My Thoughts About Incest” for
more information...
Do you really have sex with your family?
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In a word... Yes. Like, why is this such a big deal? It’s just sex after
all. While I wholeheartedly believe in the value of incest when practiced
properly, you may find that my thoughts and opinions regarding the practice
are not exactly what you might expect.
First and foremost, I STRONGLY oppose child abuse. I fully recognize that
many people use incest as a rationalization for having sex with young girls
and boys such that it starts and ends with one goal in mind - satisfying
their own lust at the expense of another. This is not at all what I am
talking about as it has no relationship to what I call “true incest” which is
based on love and respect. Of course lust and desire always play a role when
it comes to any form of sex but those should be the benefits rather than the
drivers.
Next, I believe that whenever possible everyone in the family should
participate and do so willingly. Trying to hide what is going on from one of
the kids or worse, a spouse or parent, can only lead to an atmosphere of
distrust and deceit. This goes directly against what I described as my view
of proper incest. Eventually they will find out and nothing good can result
when it’s rooted in deception. Even if they eventually decide to join in
there will always be the memory of being left out and deceived.
It should go without saying that there is more involved here than just sex;
there is the issue of the entire attitude toward sexuality and love that must
be present. Therefore I do NOT believe incest can work in most family
situations. Fortunately for some, when the right circumstances come together
it can develop into a wonderful and loving relationship. I’m fortunate
enough to have that type of relationship with my family. At the same time
I'm not so naïve as to believe that what I have would work for many other
families.
To be on the safe side, I generally advise anyone who asks me to NOT get
involved with incest unless they were absolutely 100% sure that it would work
as the consequences if it doesn't can be terrible. It’s far better to err on
the safe side than ruin people's lives - including your own.
Incest should be the RESULT of the love in a relationship, not the driver.
As an example I love my parents and I know they loved me unconditionally as
well. If I never had sex with them again I know in my heart that their love
would not be one iota different than it is today. The key is that I do not
NEED to have sex with my parents for them to know that I love them nor for me
to know that they love me. I WANT to do it BECAUSE I love them and want to
be the daughter I should be.
The point I want to conclude with is that I’ve had sex with my parents simply
as a means to express my love in a way that all of us can enjoy and share
with one another. Honestly, why should I NOT let my dad fuck me? Why
deprive myself of the incredible sensation of my own father cumming inside of
me? What could be more wonderful than laying in my bed with my father's cock
throbbing inside me, my pussy filled with the sperm he has just given me, and
his arms around me holding me tightly against him in the most intimate manner
way a father and his daughter can be together?
The same goes for when I’m with my mother. Our naked bodies pressed tightly
together, our pussies rubbing against each other's, perhaps with a double
dildo joining them, is simply the most wonderful way a mother and daughter
can be together.
Enough said!!!!
You claim to be a Christian so how can you have sex with your parents?
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Actually the question is terribly misleading as it implies that as a
Christian I should NOT be involved in incest. Personally I see it as exactly
the opposite.
From Exodus 20 and the Ten Commandments:
Commandment #5: Honor thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be
long.
Commandment #7: Thou shalt not commit adultery.
Before anyone sends me a thesis on my interpretation of the Bible, this is
how I feel about it and I’m not going to debate it...
Well, it seems pretty straightforward to me. I honor my parents by giving
them everything I have, including my body. After all, what greater sign of
respect and honor can a daughter give to her parents than to offer her own
body in total submission without any restraints or conditions? It would be
pretty hypocritical of me to say that I truly honor and respect them if I
denied my body to them.
The key to the following the 7th Commandment is to properly define adultery.
The most simplistic definition which works for many people is to say that
adultery is engaging in the act of sex with someone who is not your spouse.
However, in many cases that is being overly simplistic can lead to
misunderstandings.
First, such a simple definition does not address incest. In my view, when
you marry someone you “marry” into their family as well. Sex within marriage
is not adultery (duh!) so that would include having sex with everyone in your
marriage family.
Second, adultery is just a fancy word for cheating. Thus so long as you
don't cheat then you aren’t committing adultery.
The only conclusion must be that sex outside of marriage is OK so long as
everyone agrees. Seems simple enough to me that if your spouse doesn’t care,
why would God?
Of course I realize that there many people disagree with my definitions and
interpretations. Heck, my own mother is one of them. She raised me to
believe that God clearly states that you shall NOT commit adultery no matter
what the rationalization. For her that means it doesn't matter who on Earth
agrees - God doesn't and he holds all the trump cards. Until I agreed to
marry my husband and found that he felt differently, I agreed with my mom
because there was no reason to question her reasoning. However, now I’m a
wife and thus what my husband says carries more weight than my mother’s
decrees.
While we may disagree on some technicalities, my mom and I DO agree on one
thing - adultery is wrong. The only difference is how we define the word and
who is to say which of us is right?
Are you really married?
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Yes. I married Steve who was my very first official boyfriend on August 27,
2011. Now over a year and a half later I can say that it was the best thing
I've ever done. Not a day goes by that I don’t love being married to him
more than the day before. Steve is the most loving and adoring husband any
girl could hope for - not to mention almost being one of the sexiest.
I truly believe in my heart that our marriage is blessed by God. How else
could it have happened the way it did without His hand guiding us? Steve had
to leave me after we’d dated for only about six months when his mother was
transferred to southern California. At the time I thought I’d never see him
again and in fact he even married someone else for a brief time. It was
annulled after less than a week and I like to think my being at the wedding
had a lot to do with him realizing the terrible mistake he’d made. Then his
mom was transferred back to Pittsburgh a couple of years ago and the rest is
history! It was truly a miracle by any definition.
Does your husband know about your family sex life?
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Of course he does. How could I possibly marry a man keeping that sort of a
thing secret? Given that I could never abandon my obligations to my father I
could never have married a man that couldn't accept that part of my life as
part of the package. Indeed, I learned that lesson from my Aunt Linda who
tried that and look where it led - to a bitter divorce a few years later.
After a really bad past experience with another guys I thought would be my
husband I didn’t tell Steve anything until I was sure that he was about to
propose to me. As much as he knew about my past sex life, this was the one
thing he just couldn’t believe and thought I was playing some form of
practical joke on him. In the end I had to have him hide in the closet while
my dad fucked me in order to convince him.
How does your husband feel about your family sex life?
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He accepts it but isn’t necessarily thrilled by it. By that I mean he
acknowledges my spiritual obligations as a daughter and why I feel that must
submit myself to my father as part of my religious beliefs. As important,
he also understands that what I do with my father is as his DAUGHTER and
never as his lover. So long as the only man in the world who makes love to
me is my husband, Steve can deal with my involvement in incest even though he
isn’t part of it.
As I mentioned earlier, Steve watched me and my father once before we got
married when I wanted to prove to him that I wasn’t just teasing him or
trying to pull some sort of prank. As it’s turned out, that was also the
last time he has seen me having sex with my dad. It’s interesting that while
Steve normally goes out of his way to watch me with other guys, the one man
he will NOT watch fuck me is my own dad.
Everyone has certain lines they won’t cross and for Steve that line gets
drawn at incest. Yes, he accepts that in order to have me as his wife he has
to allow my father to fuck me but that’s as far as it goes with him. Steve
does not have sex with his mother or sister. Yes I know, ONCE back when we
were dating he had sex with his mother (it’s in my diary for October 5, 1999
if you’re interested) but that never happened again after that. His younger
brother and sister live together as a married couple, something I know both
he and his mother have a difficult time accepting, but family is family and
so they deal with it.
One “benefit” Steve gets being married to an incest girl is that he's free to
have sex with my mother, aunt and cousins as they are part of our family. Of
course given there is no blood relationship it’s not incestual so he doesn’t
feel any qualms when it comes to having sex with them. Trust me, he’s taken
advantage of those opportunities numerous times!
If you have children will you have sex with them?
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I get asked this a lot and while I’d like to be able to say one way or the
other, I simply can’t. So much can change beyond what you may think will
happen - my own life in the past couple of years is testimony to that.
Until a few years ago I would've told you I’d never commit adultery given the
simplistic definition as “sex outside of marriage” - regardless of whether
your spouse approves or not. That is how my mom taught me so that was how I
was leading my life as well. With Steve insisting that we get heavily
involved with the swapping scene THAT went out the window. It wasn’t that I
changed my view that adultery was wrong, I just realized that my earlier
definition of adultery was overly simplistic and not applicable to my
marriage. Some people would say that I rationalized a compromise to my
principles but I take exception to that. Everyone grows and matures both in
body and mind and I’m no different.
Adultery is not the only principle that I would've sworn I’d never change but
learned such thinking was naive. It wasn't all that long ago I wouldn't have
dreamed of having sex with anyone underage but that all changed after I
married Steve and learned of his desires for young girls - desires he hadn’t
expressed prior to our wedding. I don’t mean that in a negative sense as if
he chases little girls at the mall or playground, tempting them with candy to
lure them into his van. Everything he does is with the full consent and
supervision of the parents but even so it’s still something I never would've
considered being involved with. Like adultery, I came to realize that the
simple definitions that worked when I was single had to be adjusted for the
reality of married life.
So with all that said, will my children carry on the incest tradition of our
family into a third generation? Steve would prefer they didn’t whereas I
feel it would make our family just that much stronger so we’ll just have to
see how it plays out in the upcoming years. Considering his attraction to
young girls I can’t see Steve not taking advantage of the opportunity once he
has a nubile young daughter around him every day.
So to be clear, I HOPE my family will be able to recognize the benefits of
incest but at the same time, if it doesn’t happen then that would be God’s
plan for me. In any case, it’s not something I intend to force one way or
the other but rather I will let God and Mother Nature dictate the course.
Did your parents swing?
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No, they never did. I find it intriguing to consider the underlying
stereotyping that is taking place when people ask me this question. The
assumption seems to be that just because they enjoy incest that they must be
immoral or otherwise sexual predators.
Well, nothing could have been further from the truth! My parents were the
most moral and decent people I know with the highest principles and ethics.
They would never have had sex with anyone outside their immediate family as
that would have been an act of infidelity in their eyes.
While I say “never”, there WERE a couple of exceptions to this rule as my
father is a man and men have urges that they can’t always control.
Interestingly enough each time involved best friends - my BFF Beth and my
mom’s best friend Tammy. These were truly exceptions to the rule and I think
while my dad enjoyed it at the time, afterwards he felt extremely guilty. My
mother, bless her heart, didn't condemn him or even try to stop him even when
it happened right in front of her. Is it any wonder their marriage lasted
over 25 years given that sort of love and understanding between them?
Do you prefer having sex with your mother or father the most?
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Tough question because there’s no easy answer. After having sex with my
parents for over twelve years now, I can honestly say that I love them both
now more than ever. However sex is a completely different experience with
each of them making it like trying to compare apples and oranges.
Sexually speaking I’ve spent the most time with my dad than my mom when it
comes to sex, probably 95% or more in fact. While my mom enjoyed watching us
at times because she knew what it meant to my dad and me to be together that
way, only rarely did she actually get involved. That was important to me
because people need to understand that in a healthy incestual relationship
it’s not about lust but instead it’s an act of family love and respect.
People who think we had 3-somes every night are influenced by pornography and
various web sites that cater to male fantasies. As such they don't
understand the true emotions and ethics involved in “real” incest.
My father has always been wonderful to me and has provided me with everything
I’ve ever asked for and more. I owe him so much for all that I have that I
could never hope to repay him. He loves me unconditionally and while I know
he doesn't expect anything from me in return at least I can give him the most
precious gift I have – my sexuality.
From a biblical perspective it’s my duty and obligation to submit to my
father. I don’t mean in some form of kinky dom/sub way but similar to the
way I submit myself to God. NO, I do not worship my father, I’m just trying
to make a point. No matter what the time or place I take great pride in that
I’ve NEVER turned down my dad when he has needed me no matter how I was
feeling or what I needed to do at the time. OK, so maybe I’m not nearly so
good when it comes to other things but in terms of submitting myself to him
sexually, I could never say no to him.
When it comes to sex with my dad I think it’s vitally important for people to
understand that we love each other as any father and daughter should. There
has NEVER been anything kinky between us. By that I mean no pretending that
we’re "lovers" or anything even remotely perverted like that. He is my dad
and I am his daughter - period. I wish people would realize that I don't
fuck my dad just to have sex. Of course I enjoy it so there’s an element of
personal pleasure but I can get laid just about anytime I want so I don’t
need my dad to meet my sexual needs.
It’s also crucial to emphasize that my dad has NEVER forced me to do anything
and in no way has he ever abused me in any way. Despite his desires before
then he never pushed me to have sex with him. Instead, I was the one that
initiated our first time not realizing that I was fulfilling one of his
deepest wishes. I know that if I ever told him to stop he would not question
me and that he would love me just the same. Simply put, I offer myself to my
dad for his pleasure and sexual needs out of my love and respect for him.
The sexual relationship I have with my mom is totally different from the one
I have with my dad which is why we rarely have sex as a family. My dad fucks
me because he loves me as his daughter. Our sex is more physical in that
mutual pleasure is our goal. With my mom there was a much deeper emotional
fulfillment – for both of us.
You may have noticed that while I have a lot of diary stories about me and my
dad, there are only a few of me and my mom. Having sex with my mom has
always been an incredibly personal and intimate relationship; one I believe
that is something unique that could only happen between a mother and her
daughter. Although my relationship with my husband is similar in some ways,
overall it’s totally different because he’s a man and my sexual mate.
I said that my dad is NOT my lover which is totally true. However when my
mom and I have sex we become lovers in every sense of the word. It’s
incredibly passionate to the point where it becomes almost overwhelming. I
love the feel of her warm naked body pressed against mine. Licking her hairy
pussy, the same pussy where I was conceived and born is so erotic for me.
When she runs her tongue on my wet musky pussy hole I think about how it’s
the same place her husband and my father loves to fuck me and it turns me on
so much! These and more experiences fill my soul and complete me as a woman
in a way not even my husband can do.
So who did I like better – it's a no-decision. Both of my parents are
wonderful and I enjoy being with them both, each in their own way.
Have you told anyone about your incestual relationships?
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The only people who really know are my family and my BFF, Beth. The only
other time I’ve ever discussed incest outside of my family is on-line with
people who do not know who I really am – also a good reason for not meeting
them. There was one boyfriend to who I revealed the family secret but he was
involved with his sister at the time so it wasn't like he freaked out or
anything.
Over time the discipline to avoid discussing it outside my family has become
well ingrained in me. You may have noticed that in my diary I don’t usually
refer to my family when I talk about sexual experiences that occur outside of
my family. For instance, in the story where when I talk about my first time
with my roomie Brenda, I describe her as my "first" lesbian experience. This
isn’t 100% accurate as I was having sex with my mother and aunt for years
prior to Brenda. Still, given that Brenda was the first girl outside of my
family that I had sex with I consider her my "first".
Were your parents involved in incest with their families?
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My father's family comes from a traditional mid-west farming stock. Sex was
not even discussed let alone openly practiced and incest would’ve been
considered a sinful perversion in accordance with the laws of their strict
Protestant upbringing. All that didn't stop my father and his brothers from
being typical horny teenage boys. According to my dad all three of them had
their share of "conquests" during their high school years and he considers it
a miracle to this day that none of them got a girl pregnant.
As for my dad specifically, he first had sex when he was fifteen with some
girl from school his age. After sowing his oats with a few more girls he
started having sex with a fourteen year-old freshman who would someday be my
mom. Unknown to my dad at the time, she and her younger sister each had
their virginity taken from them by their father a couple of years earlier.
My grandfather did my mom’s younger sister the day after he first did my mom.
My Aunt Linda was only in seventh grade at the time but it would’ve been hard
to do one daughter without the other finding out. In any case, it’s not like
she was a virgin at the time.
It wasn't until my dad proposed that my mom revealed to him that it was her
father who’d been her first and that she and her sister had been fucking
their father regularly ever since, including the entire time that they’d been
dating my dad. Needless to say he was a bit surprised!
My mom accepted his marriage proposal but only on the condition that he allow
her to maintain her incestual relationships with her father and sister.
Well, as open-minded and promiscuous as my dad considered himself to be, he
was naturally a bit shocked at the news since incest was not something he was
raised to even think about other than maybe during a few fantasies. He once
told me that what helped him to accept it was that she told him that even
though they got married he could continue fucking her sister since she was
part of her family. They got married and things obviously worked out because
as their marriage lasted over twenty five years.
Aunt Linda eventually married under the same conditions with her fiancé that
my mother insisted on except for her things didn't work out so well. Her
husband grew possessive and soon after my cousin was born he demanded that
she stop fucking her brother-in-law and have sex only with him like a
"normal" wife. They finally ended up divorcing over the issue although the
reason for the divorce was kept confidential.
My grandfather died unexpectedly from a heart attack a number of years back
so the only guy my mom had after that was my dad except for my dad’s older
brother Paul, a relationship she kept to herself through her entire marriage.
It wasn't until he approached me and we had sex that I learned about it.
Prior to her generation my mom doesn’t know of any other incestual
relationships. Unfortunately even though she had sex with her dad she and he
didn’t have the same day-to-day relationship I enjoy with my father where we
talked about everything and anything so if grandpa knew of anything, he never
told her. Mom told me that she let her dad fuck her primarily because he was
her father and she wanted to please him but wished she had the same emotional
bond with him that I had with my dad.
My grandmother knew all along what her husband was doing with her daughters.
She never participated in any way though as she did not enjoy girl-girl sex
and frankly wasn't into seeing her husband fucking anyone else, especially
their own daughters. My mom once told me that she wondered what it would
have been like if they had a brother...
My mom and I have discussed her relationship with Grandma often over the
years and I can tell she regrets that she never was as close to her mother
the way I am to mine.
Would you ever consider bearing your father's child?
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Oh my god NO – a thousand times NO!
First, no disrespect to those who have different feelings on the matter. I
know of several people who have had their father’s child and it worked out
well. I just ask that my own feelings be given the same consideration.
Just the thought of having a child with my dad is repulsive. If there’s one
thing I try to make clear to people is that no matter what I do or don't do
with my dad, I am ALWAYS his daughter. I NEVER even role-play as his lover,
concubine, mistress or whatever else you want to call it. I have sex with my
father to please him and satisfy his needs because I love him and it’s my
duty as his daughter to do whatever it takes to honor him, NOT to bear his
children.
Of course, the question is really moot until someone figures out how to
reverse a vasectomy, LOL.
Do you wish you'd had a brother or sister? Which one the most?
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There are pros and cons to being an only child. Of course I’d love to have a
brother or sister but I also realize I’m only thinking about the good side of
the equation. Many of my friends who DO have a brother or sister might have
a different response.
In any case, my first choice would be an older brother. Older because he
would have been more mature when I was younger and a brother. Then too, as I
said earlier, I prefer guys. Second choice would be a younger sister.
Younger because I wouldn't want hand-me-downs plus I would want to be the one
in charge.
Do you have any regrets concerning anything you have done sexually?
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Honestly I can't think of anything I HAVE done that I really regret. There
are things I won’t do again but I don't necessarily regret having done them.
A prime example would be getting fucked by a dog. I don't regret trying it
but now that I’ve experienced it a couple of times I would NEVER do it again.
Actually what bothers me the most are the things that I’ve NOT done. If
there is one thing I’ll always feel bad about is that I didn’t give my father
my virginity. When I first had sex with my boyfriend I had absolutely no
idea whatsoever that my father had any interest in me sexually so there was
nothing I could’ve done differently then. Even so, it still bothers me that
I gave it to someone else when now I know how badly he wanted to be the one.
The one good thing I can say is that I respect him so much for allowing me to
make the decision, unlike my grandfather made the decision for my mother and
her sister without even asking them first.
Just one more point I want to make. Even though I understand now the real
reasons why my father wanted me as a teenager, I still don’t regret for a
moment anything that we did. If anything I feel even more proud that I was
able to give him what he needed such that he didn't give in to his addictions
and go out to do something he would have come to regret later. I’m happy and
proud that I was there for him whenever he needed me most. As his daughter I
always will be there for him no matter what inner demons he has to deal with.
Should parents allow their children to see them making love?
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Hmmmmmm... the question here for me is not so much SHOULD as WHY. I just
don't think that it's necessary unless they’re having sex with their parents
already. Like what would be the point? It’s sort of like masturbation.
It’s one thing not to hide it but another to flaunt it.
When a married couple makes love that is an intimate moment between the two
of them and as such it’s not a spectator sport for someone else’s amusement,
let alone their children. I never saw my parent's making love when I was
growing up until I was sixteen and started having sex with them. The fact I
didn't SEE them having sex didn't mean I didn't know what they were doing
(the walls in our old house are pretty thin). I didn't have to see them
doing it to know they loved one another passionately. I use to TALK about
sex with my mom and dad all the time but it wasn't necessary for me to SEE
anything.
Should parents allow their children to see them masturbating?
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When it comes to doing it in front of people, masturbation is a totally
different issue than sex. First, masturbation is NOT sex but just a natural
reaction to the feelings and needs everyone experiences. Heck, even primates
masturbate! As such it’s not something that should be portrayed as being
taboo or something to be ashamed of. Masturbation is a natural human
reaction that just about everyone does so why teach your kids that they have
to run off and hide when the need arises?
While I don’t believe in hiding it, a little discretion and modesty never
hurt anyone. For the most part I don't think the person doing it needs to
make a show out of it or draw undue attention to themselves if for no other
reason than just to be polite and exercise good manners. Now if you’re
having sex and trying to turn on your partner, that’s different. Still, just
because I might see a hot guy on TV and felt the need didn't mean getting
down on the family room floor naked and frigging myself in front of my
parents. They knew what I was doing on the couch between my legs so why make
a big deal about it?
To me it’s really a matter INTENT. While putting on a show for your kids
would be rather perverted in my opinion, at the same time parents shouldn't
have to refrain from masturbating just because the kids are around. Yes,
it’s a fine distinction but an important one.
What should parents teach their kids about sex?
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As a general rule when it comes to learning anything about their bodies and
sexual natures I believe the best source is always the parent. That means
not the schools and definitely not in church where far too many different and
conflicting agendas are in play. While I agree that sex education serves a
purpose in public school, it's only a necessary evil as far too many parents
abstain from their responsibilities. In such cases it should be limited to
the physical concerns including avoidance of STDs and pregnancy and NOT deal
with moral and ethical issues.
It’s crucial that children learn about sex as soon as possible taking into
consideration their maturity and family status. At the same time there’s no
need to teach a six-year old boy about masturbation when he doesn't have a
clue what you're talking about and can't relate to the feelings you’re trying
to describe. Later, when he starts to show signs of being interested in
what's "down there", THEN his father should instruct him about the "birds and
the bees" which should include masturbation.
The same applies to girls. No girl should be made to suffer the indignity
and humiliation of having her first period in school without knowing what to
do but yet that very thing happens much too often. When she approaches
puberty her mother should teach her about sex, including masturbation. It
also wouldn't hurt to explain sex and how to make her first time an enjoyable
and memorable experience, not like what happens to way too many naive girls.
Safe sex for both sexes should be a MUST when it comes to discussing sex,
including how to use a condom and other available birth control options.
Did you really believe parents should encourage their kids to masturbate?
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Why not? Really, what's the big deal anyway? In my opinion, one of the
biggest failures of our society is that we teach our kids that masturbation
is wrong and somehow perverted yet at the same time 99% of adults do it on a
regular basis! It would be like telling kids not to smoke but then sneaking
a cigarette at night after they go to bed.
Even though masturbation is NOT sex our general culture has linked the two
together thereby implying that if kids masturbate then they’ll be driven to
have sex. Sort of like the concept that if you smoke marijuana then you’ll
soon be using heroin. Hey parents, news flash! Your kids are going to have
sex whether or not they masturbate and by the way, they DO masturbate whether
you know it or not. I don't care how innocent you think your daughter is, if
she's fifteen she's probably been doing it for years and the same goes for
your son.
When I say encourage masturbation I want to emphasize that this doesn’t mean
making it a spectator sport. As I’ve said about parents masturbating with
their kids around, your children shouldn't have to sneak off to the bathroom
to masturbate when they're horny. Why do we make them leave the room as if
what they need to do is naughty? At the same time it provides a great
opportunity to teach discretion. For instance, masturbating during dinner is
rude (no different than texting) and doing it in church can raise all sorts
of problems so kids should learn there ARE limits. Then again, if it's
during a long car ride and it helps them to cope with their boredom, why say
anything if they choose to do it to keep themselves occupied?
Overall I don't mean that you should ENCOURAGE your kids to masturbate so
much as provide them with a positive and encouraging home environment where
they are ALLOWED to pleasure themselves without having to feel embarrassed or
fearful. It’s been said that you can lead a horse to water but you can't
make him drink. Well, provide your kids a safe environment and then it's up
them. If they don't want to masturbate in front of you, respect that as well
and don't push them to do it. They may change their minds someday but maybe
not. In either case why should it make any difference to you as their
parent?
Who should take a girl's virginity?
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First and foremost it should be whoever SHE wants to give it to.
From a purely sentimental view I think a father should do it simply because
he IS her father and as such deserves the honor. If for some reason he can't
or doesn't want to then that's his choice. For younger girls I believe it's
better to keep sex in the family so it could be her brother, uncle or cousin
or even a boyfriend around her age if she wants to do it early. If she
chooses to wait until she's older then it could be any adult she wants. I
favor the "family option" only because the odds of it being an enjoyable
experience improve dramatically for obvious reasons.
Putting sentiment aside, a girl should lose her virginity to the first guy
she feels she's ready to fuck. Odds are that he'll be a boy from school or
church, NOT someone from her family.
Who should take a boy's virginity?
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As with a girl. from a purely sentimental view I think the mother should just
because she IS his mother and like a father with his daughter, a mother has
earned the honor.
Once again, pitting aside the sentiment it should be a girl around his age
from outside the family. I'm not so sure it's as important from an emotional
perspective for a boy as to who he does it the first time with as it is for a
girl.
Would you want your kids to have sex with each other?
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This may seem like a cop-out but I have to say that would be up to them but
that I would hope that they felt comfortable enough with each other to where
it wouldn't be that big a deal. Wouldn't it be better for a brother and
sister to “play doctor” than doing it with other kids which means who knows
what might happen as a result.
From the limited information I’ve gotten from the few families that I know
have active incestual relationships, if there’s one thing that is consistent
is how the kids tend to be much better behaved with each other when they are
actively involved sexually. I suppose it only makes sense that a boy would
be nicer to a sister if he knows she’ll blow him in return.
Would you allow your kids to have sex with their friends in your house?
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Assuming they were all old enough to know what they were doing then why not?
Just so long as it was THEIR idea and not due to any influence from me or
their father. For obvious reasons I would NOT join in but I would feel
better if I was nearby to supervise and even provide some discipline if
necessary. For me, I'd much rather know my daughter was getting laid up in
her bedroom where she can be safe and comfortable than in the back seat of a
car or who knows where else. While I wouldn't want her boyfriend to feel TOO
intimidated, I don't think it hurts for the boy to know her parents are
around to take of things if he doesn't behave himself and act like a
gentlemen.
If they wanted to masturbate around us I wouldn't say anything but I honestly
doubt anything like that would ever happen. I'd just want my kids to know it
was OK if they DID, even if they never did it.
Would you masturbate or be nude around your son or daughter's friends?
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No. For one I don't run around nude now so what would be the point?
Besides, I doubt it would take long for the rumors to start flying and who
knows where that might lead to - nothing good I'm sure.
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UNDERAGE SEX
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How old should my daughter be before she has sex?
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For whatever reason I get asked this one or at least similar to this one a
LOT! In fact, so much so that I wrote an entire diary entry just on this
subject. Read “My Thoughts About Underage Sex” for full details.
Just as a summary, here are three essential principles that guide my thoughts
and actions regarding underage sex:
1. The needs of a child ALWAYS come first. When it comes to sex or
anything even remotely related to it, if there is ANY doubt then don't
do it. It is ALWAYS better to err on the side of caution. I abhor
child abuse, especially sexual molestation and exploitation. People
who abuse children deserve the maximum punishment allowable.
2. Sex between adults and underage kids is illegal in the USA and most
countries. Thus as a general rule I don’t condone sex between adults
and minors, even when it’s incestual, as it rarely can be kept a
secret. Even in those cases where the opportunity is there, careful
consideration is required beforehand as to the potential
psychological, physical, moral, ethical and legal ramifications.
3. Incestual sex, at least when practiced properly and NOT as a
rationalization for child abuse, is different from "regular" sex in
that family love and support mechanisms are present. As a result the
"rules" for underage sex in incestual situations can be less
restrictive than those for sex in general.
Would you have sex with an underage boy or girl?
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As I stated in the third guideline, incestual sex follows different rules
thanks to family support and love. When I had sex with my cousins in the
past, age really didn't factor into the equation. The only thing that
mattered was whether or not they were ready emotionally and physically. I
suppose technically that meant I had age with underage people long before I
was married but I really don’t count it in the same way I would if it was
with someone outside my family.
So far as sex outside my family, there was a time not long ago when the
answer to this question would have been an unqualified NO. My mother was
quite strict about such things and instilled her beliefs in me. I knew that
my father had always been interested in young girls based on his porn
collection which was heavily biased towards tweens and preteens. My mother
knew better than to try and totally shut him down so as long as he kept it to
porn and fantasy, she was OK with it.
I knew my fiance shared the same desires and interests that most men have
when it comes to young girls but like most men, his desires were restricted
to fantasies and porn. I’ve always said that there are no limits to
fantasies - it’s what someone DOES that counts so I had no issue with any of
this.
Once we got married my new husband started to take advantage of his
“privileges” of being part of my family by having sex regularly with my Aunt
Linda. It didn't take long before he learned that she could provide him with
the same opportunities that she did for my dad so far as underage girls were
concerned. Well, who could blame him for doing exactly the same thing most
any normal man would given the same circumstances?
As I’ve done so far as my father is concerned, I stayed out of my husband’s
new exploits as much as possible but as with my dad, it was impossible to
stay completely isolated. As a result I’ve attended several of the family
parties with him and have engaged in sex with a number of young boys, some as
young as twelve and thirteen although I really preferred the older boys.
It’s not like young girls and boys were lured into some sort of sex ring or
anything like that. Their parents were always there to keep an eye on things
and everything was done consensually with their parents’ full permission and
encouragement.
Thus to answer this question today I would say that while I don't go out of
my away to do it, I do occasionally have sex with underage partners but it
stays well within the guidelines in the previous question. Fortunately as
the novelty has worn off my husband hasn’t asked me to attend as many parties
with him so it’s been a while since I had to deal with it. Give me a forty
year-old married father any day!
When you chat and e-mail, you ask a lot of questions about underage sex and
even seem at times to push the person into doing it. Why is that?
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One of the main reasons I publish my diary is to interact with different
people. I find it interesting to see what people will say and do when I
"suggest" or prompt them. In many cases it's amazing how their "experiences"
seem to follow along with the questions and comments I make. (Yes, that was
meant to be satirical.) Please bear in mind that I never initiate the
contact with anyone. The only people I discuss such things are those who
contact me first and express an interest. I just follow the openings given
to me. Am I playing head games? Well duh, of course and I freely admit it.
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HOME, SCHOOL, & CHURCH
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What are the three top priorities in your life?
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Easiest question of them all!
#1 - God
#2 - Family
#3 - Friends
For those who have accused me of being addicted to sex, notice it didn't even
make my Top Three list! My writings focus on the aspect of my life that most
people are interested in, NOT the most important one. Face it, would you
read my diary if it was all about Christianity?
When were you saved?
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I was ten years old at a summer church camp. The last night after the
evening service I went to my counselor and asked her to help to me to pray to
be saved. She kneeled beside me and I gave my life to Jesus and have never
looked back since. While I may submit myself in a physical way to a man, he
will NEVER have my soul as it’s permanently in Christ's hands.
Do you have any hobbies?
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I enjoy crafts and I have one unusual hobby, at least for a girl. My dad has
always been into model radio-controlled airplanes and he got me interested
when I was started high school. I really am not the best pilot in the world
(ask my dad how many planes he's had to climb a tree just to salvage the
parts!) As the only girl in the club I do get a lot of attention and
everyone is very helpful!
What is your favorite place/activity to unwind and relax?
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Nothing beats slipping nude into the blazing hot water in my dad’s hot tub
late at night with the lights out, the stars shining, and a full moon on the
horizon. Mmmmmmm, the hot water, pulsing of the jets, and beautiful view
mesmerize me sometimes!
On a more practical note, for my everyday needs I LOVE to masturbate -
sometimes three or more times a day. Feels so good and what a stress
reliever!
What is your favorite place to visit on vacation?
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Unfortunately, with my parent's professional schedules we never seemed to
travel to many places. Now that I’m married I hope to rectify that. For
now, I would say Cedar Point in Ohio is probably my favorite place.
Kennywood in Pittsburgh is fun too, especially on community day when I know
many of the people there.
What is your favorite type of restaurant and meal?
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Chinese with a Mongolian Buffet. I love mixing up my own dish and seeing it
cooked in front of me spiced just the way I want it. Pizza and wings is
great for party food. Godiva ice cream is to die for when I feel the urge to
splurge!
Why did you choose to go to college out of state?
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Actually I was accepted at three schools in three different states. One
wanted everyone to get married – too overbearing even though they offered
maid service and a free laptop. Another was farther away than I wanted to be
plus they were a bit on the strict side - dancing was only allowed there
starting a few years earlier! The one I chose had an excellent teaching
curriculum and was only a few hours from Pittsburgh.
How did you reconcile your Christian faith with your lifestyle?
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I have a VERY strong Christian faith and I've always been active in my
church. I've taught Bible studies and help to lead a junior-high youth
group. I encourage abstinence and if that doesn't work, safe sex. Above all
I believe the Bible teaches personal responsibility which means sex should
never result in unwanted babies, broken marriages, etc.
OK, we could have a long debate on Leviticus but what would be the point?
Anyone quoting it to me had better be ready to explain to me why they choose
just the passages that apply to their argument and not the entire book.
Leviticus was a set of rules for the Jewish nation that had no constitution
or civil laws. They lived their lives governed by religious law. We can
debate how the New Testament and Old Testament relate but frankly I leave
that for my professors and pastor. If you don't agree with me already then
there's probably no point in even discussing it.
These are the principles that guide my behaviors. I'm not trying to judge or
condemn anyone for cheating on their wives - indeed some of my favorite guys
to chat with are doing exactly that! I recognize that many marriages do not
work and that spouses seek other outlets but that is another discussion
entirely. Some of my hottest fantasies and experiences have involved married
men. I love the feeling I get knowing that I'm sexy and desirable enough
that a married man wants me so bad that he will forsake his vows to his wife
and risk his career and marriage just to have me for a few hours.
In the end sex should be a fulfilling experience; one which glorifies the
body and soul given to you by God. I love sex and I intend to experiment and
pursue as many opportunities as I can.
Why did you become a teacher?
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I’ve always done well in school so from the scholastic side of it I enjoy
being in a school environment and being in class. I love working with kids
and knowing I'm having a positive influence in their lives.
You’re about to be marooned on a deserted island and can choose just 5
things/people to have with you. Food and water are plentiful and there's
even a hut to live in. What/who would you want to have with you?
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1. My Bible
2. My husband
3. My children (assuming I have any)
4. My parents
5. A lifetime supply of birth control pills
Did you change your lifestyle while teaching at a Christian school?
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Not really. After all, wasn’t like I would tell everyone there what I did at
home or anything like that. I dressed very conservatively, as required, and
would never have even considered doing anything risqué while at work. I’m 28
now and I think in some ways I’ve matured and grown more responsible and
would have changed regardless of where I work.
Do you feel you are a positive role model for your students?
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Absolutely. I would never tell other people's kids about my sex life. That
would be inappropriate and disrespectful at best, illegal and corrupting at
worst. When I talk to young girls privately I always encourage abstinence
first but if they’re already involved then I try to make sure they’re at
least protecting themselves. I always strive to be professional and respect
the desires of their parents.
Would you ever do anything sexual with any kids in your class?
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Let me make this perfectly clear. I would NEVER consider doing ANYTHING
unprofessional with ANY student. I do not tease or otherwise "accidently"
let anything show. Such acts are quickly noticed and reputations are
established that lead to dismissal and possible arrest. Of course there are
a lot of cute kids and I'm sure a number of them will grow up soon into hot
girls and hunks. To be completely honest I have had a few fantasies at home
while alone in bed but that's all they are - fantasies. That said, in real
life NOTHING has or will ever happen with a student of ANY age.
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Personal Data
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Well, you can stop asking now - here it is!
age/birthday.................. 28, born March 1, 1985
height........................ 5’5”
weight........................ 104
measurements.................. 34C-22-34
hair color.................... various shades of blonde now, been
brunette as well
piercings..................... none right now
tattoos....................... nothing permanent
ethnic........................ German/Italian
education..................... BA, Elementary Education
occupation.................... Elementary School Teacher 8th grade
religion...................... Protestant (raised Presbyterian)
home city..................... Mount Lebanon, PA
marital status................ happily married (August 27, 2011)
living at..................... apartment, south side of Pittsburgh
hobbies....................... shopping, movies, camping, water skiing,
reading, sunbathing, being with friends
extracurricular activities.... church youth group helper, 12-15 age group
community volunteer
favorite color................ sky blue
favorite author............... God (author of the Bible)
Stephen King (I have a morbid side)
favorite TV show.............. Big Band Theory
Walking Dead
The Voice
Elementary
Breaking Bad
Desperate Housewives
When I Met Your Mother
Biggest Loser
American Idol (forgive me!)
favorite movies............... Hunger Games
Anything with Will Ferrell
Atonement
Princess Diaries
The Devil Wears Prada
Titanic
Lord of the Rings
Shrek (the original)
Same Time Next Year (w/ Alan Alda)
Up!
favorite books................ The Bible
Tale of Two Cities
Hunger Games Trilogy
favorite poem................. Invictus, by William Earnest Henley
Road Not Taken, by Robert Frost
Paradox, by Clarence R. Wylie, Jr.
Oh the Places You’ll Go!, by Dr. Seuss
favorite singers Josh Groban
Point of Grace
favorite actress.............. Jennifer Lawrence
favorite actors............... Toby McGuire
Matthew McNaughney
Richard Gere (he’s old but still hot!)
music tastes.................. Christian Rock (Point of Grace)
places I most want to visit... Hong Kong
Amsterdam
my favorite outfit............ short cutoffs and a tight cami
traits I look for in guys..... honesty, open-minded, intellectual,
articulate, sexy, self-confident but
humble
traits I hate in guys......... greed, lazy, boastful, conceited,
disrespectful
age when I first had sex...... 14 (he was 16)
age when first time with Dad.. 16
do I masturbate?.............. yes, 1 or 2 times a day on average
favorite sexual positions..... #1 missionary
#2 cowgirl
off-limits.................... anal sex (exit only)
bestiality
anything painful, humiliating, etc.
swallow?...................... YES
shaved?....................... currently
birth control................. pill
number of guys fucked......... >75 one-to-one
>300 including parties and groups
number of blowjobs............ sorry, never kept count
number of girls............... >30
oldest male sex partner....... 56 (I was 22)
oldest female sex partner..... 43 (Tammy, mom's best friend, I was 24)
people I admire............... my parents
Hillary Clinton
Condoleezza Rice (ex Secretary of State)
Paris Hilton (give the slut some credit!)