Subject: First Date Revisited (Mf, F-solo, oral, incest)
By: Kelly <pghkelly@yahoo.com>
Diary Date: June 5, 2010

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Summary:  

It was eleven years ago, back when I was just fourteen, that Steve 
and I did so many things for the first time, at least for me.  He haven’t been in 
touch hardly at all since he moved away before my fifteenth birthday.  Since then 
a LOT has happened for both of us.  What would happen when we finally got 
back together again after all these years?

Table of Contents
   Chapter 1 – My First Boyfriend
   Chapter 2 – Memorial Day Surprise
   Chapter 3 – Fathers Trump Boyfriends
   Chapter 4 – Preparing for My “First” Date
   Chapter 5 – First Date Relived – 11 years Later
   Chapter 6 – Reminiscing
   Chapter 7 – Going Forward?


Chapter 1 – My First Boyfriend
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When I was in eighth grade I was pretty much like most of the girls my age that I 
hung around with.  We were all interested in boys but most of us just talked about 
them and didn't really DO anything.  Since seventh grade I’d kissed a few boys 
but it was always at parties and with other people, usually as a result of a dare or 
part of some silly game.  Of course there had been several guys who tried to go 
further and more than once I had to push away a stray hand.  So far nobody had 
yet found there way under anything I was wearing.

It was the summer before I started high school that things changed drastically for 
me.  My friend Sharon invited me along on a weekend camping trip along with 
several other mutual friends.  Her mother took us all to a campsite where we 
were packed like sardines in a pop-up tent trailer.  Sharon’s mom had recently 
divorced her dad after catching him fooling around with a young secretary at 
work which that meant her sixteen year-old brother Steve had to come along as 
well although he slept in his own tent opposite the picnic table from our trailer.

You can just imagine the attention that a sixteen year-old boy who was about to 
be a Junior in high school was getting from a bunch of hormonal fourteen year-
olds, especially a guy as incredible as Steve.  He was perfect and we all had a 
crush on him.  He had the most incredible blonde hair, was good looking and had 
a super hot body.  

Not only did Sharon’s brother LOOK good, but he was just fun to be around.  
Steve also enjoyed quite the reputation with the girls and it was pretty well known 
that if you wanted to date Steve it meant you put out or you wouldn't get asked 
out again.  It really didn't matter so far as we were concerned as he only dated 
girls his age or older.  Steve certainly had an eye on us all weekend, even 
peeking at us through the trailer screen windows when he thought we didn't know 
(the consensus was that he was masturbating) but he didn't show any real 
interest in any of us so far as getting more personal , or at least that’s what we all 
thought. 

To be sure, it wasn't like we didn't TRY our best to get his attention.  All of us 
pretty much spent the entire weekend in our bikinis, even his mom. For a women 
her age she was pretty hot and I couldn't help but think what a jerk their dad must 
be to cheat on someone like her.  Even Steve’s sister got in on the teasing but if 
he didn't respond to the rest of us and totally ignored her.  I wonder what he 
would have said if he knew that Sharon was as interested in her brother as the 
rest of us!  Actually at the time I wasn’t aware of her interests in her brother 
although I DID think it was a little weird the way she would flaunt herself in front 
of her own brother.

Needless to say, I was astonished when Steve called me later to ask me out.  
Somehow I managed to get the words out to accept without screaming.   I’ve 
written all about our first date in an older diary entry including how I gave Steve 
my first blowjob so I won’t go into more detail about that now.  It wasn't long after 
that when I gave Steve my virginity and learned how wonderful sex could be.  I 
was hooked!

For the next six months or so, Steve was the only boy I dated and the only boy I 
had sex with.  At the time I would’ve said that I was in love with him but looking 
back it was probably more like a typical teenage crush.  I mean, what girl would 
NOT say she was in love with the boy she first had sex with - and then had it 
virtually every day after that?  Steve doted over me and did his best to meet my 
demands.  Besides the fact I LOVED sex, the last thing I wanted was for Steve to 
dump me for an older girl who would put out more for him.

As I said, Sharon was also interested in her brother back then and she was 
always after me to tell her about what me and Steve did – the more detail the 
better.  Still, so far as I knew she never realized her dreams.  Oddly enough, it 
was his mother that provided the biggest surprise for me.  Again, I’ve written 
about what happened in another diary entry.  In short, she once caught me and 
Steve doing at but rather than fussing about us she joined in and I was truly 
shocked when she had sex with her own son.  So far as I know, it was a one-time 
thing but it was the first time I ever had any dealings with incest.  Little did I know 
at the time that a couple of years later I would be having sex with my father and 
eventually a number of other family members, but back then incest was 
something totally foreign and unimaginable to me.

When Steve told me they were moving because his mom had taken a new job on 
the west coast, I thought my world was coming to an end.  Needless to say 
somehow  I survived and life went on but Steve always had a special place in my 
heart.  The only time I ever saw him again was at his wedding.   Based on what 
happened there between us, we agreed it would be best not to stay in touch so it 
had been several years now since I’d heard anything from him.

So now it’s mid-2010 and I’m no longer that starry-eyed teenager that practically 
threw herself at an older boy.  My high school slut days are behind me and at 
twenty-five, I’ve becoming quite “domestiocated” according to my younger cousin 
Kristi.  I have my teaching degree and teach fourth thru sixth grade at a small 
Christian school.  The pay sucks but I love my job.  There are times it’s tempting 
to try for a job at the local public school with their high salaries and incredible 
benefits.  Still, my classes are small and I have great support from the parents so 
what I lose in salary I get back in job satisfaction.  How many people can say 
they love going to work?

The down-side of my job is the salary.  Most teachers there consider it to be a 
“ministry” and have husbands that bring in the primary salary.  For me, it means 
living below the poverty line so far as the government is concerned which is why I 
moved in with my twenty two year-old cousin Kristi who was now living alone in 
her mom’s house since her mom was now living with my dad.

While I may be living with my cousin, at least I’m not one of those mid-twenties 
people that still live with their parents.  My social life is busy for the most part and 
there are plenty of guys that like to keep me happy – and I have to say I am not 
afraid to take advantage of their generosity.  Hey, a BJ in exchange for dinner out 
is a pretty good deal if you ask me.

Overall I guess you could say that life is good for me although at times I wonder 
when “Mr. Right” is going to finally show up. True, I was almost engaged once 
but if anything, the experience only made me more wary of relationships, at least 
those that go beyond the “dating” phase.  Still,  I have the same hopes and 
dreams that most girls share, to meet Mr. Wonderful, get married, have a house 
that we fill will two kids and a dog... the typical American Dream.  I have it all 
planned out – now I just need the guy!


Chapter 2 – Memorial Day Surprise
=================================

It was Memorial Day and as usual my plans were to spend the day at my dad’s 
house.  Kristi would be joining me as her mom would be there too.  As I 
mentioned earlier, my Aunt Linda had moved in with my dad after my mom left 
after their divorce.

Speaking of which, my parent’s divorce was probably more of a surprise to me 
than anyone.  Maybe I was too close to see this signs but whatever it was, it 
caught me totally flat-footed.  It was confusing to me at first but at least I as old 
enough to know that it wasn't anything to do with me.  While there may be some 
women who would have a hard time dealing with their husband having sex with 
their daughter, my mom wasn't one of them. My parent’s marriage was a bit 
complicated when compared to more “traditional” marriages, but once you 
understood their love for one another and their family backgrounds, it actually 
made a lot of sense.

First, if there was one thing my parents both believed in, it was the sanctity of 
marriage. Of course, their definition of marriage was not exactly what most 
people would describe, but it worked for them for over twenty years.  When my 
parents took their marriage vows, they promised to be faithful to one another until 
death and they both took their vows before God as being firm and unbending.  
My parents never cheated while they were married in that they never had sex 
with anyone outside of their marriage family.  There had only two “exceptions” 
over the years and they both involved close family friends who were “virtual 
family”.

Knowing how seriously my parents took their marriage vows, you can see why I 
was totally blind-sided when they told me about their impending divorce.  It 
wasn’t until the papers were finalized were finalized and my mom was preparing 
to leave that I learned the truth about how my mother simply couldn't deal with 
my father’s addictions any longer.  It wasn’t drugs or alcohol, but sex that he 
couldn't control and to make things worse, it was sex with younger girls that he 
craved. .The signs had all been there had I bothered to recognize them.  It also 
explained to me why my father really had desired sex with me as a young 
teenager.

For a while things were pretty tense between my father and me.  I explained this 
all in more detail in previous diary entries and the good news is by this time 
things had been worked out between us.  So now I was once again looking 
forward to visiting my dad and aunt for the holiday.  Some things would never be 
the same, of course, so there was little chance of anything sexual happening 
while my cousin and I were visiting, but we didn't need to have sex to have a 
good time together.  After all, most families don’t have sex and they get along 
just fine!

Just because we wouldn't have sex didn't mean we became Amish or anything 
so after I’d done my usually morning routine of masturbating and showering, I 
returned to my room to lay out my clothes for the day.  The weather lately had 
been pretty crappy but the forecast for today was sunny and hot so they left me 
with a number of options.

Of course at some point I would be wearing my bikini and since the deck at my 
dad’s house was private that meant I could wear my most revealing one.   That 
made the selection easy since it meant I would wear the one my dad had bought 
me for this year.  Since I was twelve my dad had made it a tradition that he would 
buy me one swim suit at the beginning of each year. I can still remember the first 
one he bought me and my mom’s reaction.  I had been wearing two-piece swim 
suits since I was a little girl but never anything like this one.  It wasn't a thong by 
any means but it was certainly more revealing than what you would see girls at 
that age wearing at the city pool.  My mom made a firm rule that I could only 
wear it at home – which I made sure I did whenever my dad was around since I 
knew he loved me to wear it (even though at that age I didn’t understand the real 
reason why he did).

Needless to say I couldn't wear my latest bikini back and forth from my dad’s 
house as it was little more than a few small triangles of thin clothe held together 
by some strings that tied at my side for the bottoms and behind my back and 
neck for the top.  It would have been just my luck to be pulled over by some cop 
with no appreciation for the human body and be cited for driving while indecent 
(is there such a crime?).  Actually, again the decision was pretty easy as I picked 
out my favorite summer outfit – denim cutoffs and a tight tank top.

All set now to go, I tucked my bikini in a bag along with a hairbrush and some 
makeup, quickly slipped on the shorts and tank top, and headed downstairs to 
see if my cousin was ready.  So silly of me.  If Kristi HAD been on time it would 
have been one for the record books so I sat in the kitchen and drank a Diet Coke 
while I waited impatiently. Surprisingly, only five more minutes passed and I 
heard her bouncing down the stairs.  I slipped on my flip flops and went out to the 
living room to join her.

“Hey cuz, ready to go?” she asked in her typical chipper voice.  Kristi and I may 
have been cousins but we differed in a number of ways.  Mornings were one of 
those in Kristi was the ultimate “morning person”, ready to go full throttle from the 
moment she got out of bed.  In contrast, I was the night owl and if I could sleep in 
until noon everyday I would be thrilled.

“Um, aren’t you gonna wear something over that?” I asked.  Indeed, Kristi was all 
but naked in her thong and what could be loosely called a bikini top.  Granted, it 
barely covered her nipples but that was about it.  Lower down, had she not been 
shaved totally it would have been revealed as about all it covered was her pussy 
slit  and barely at that.  From behind, the strings were so thin they pulled in 
between her butt cheeks and left her looking from behind like all she had on was 
a piece of multi-colored string around her waist.

“What?” she whined, as if she had no idea what I was talking about.  Seeing the 
look of frustration on my face, she got defensive. 

“Like we’re gonna be wearing even these when we get there, so what’s the big 
deal?”

I just rolled my eyes and gave up.  Years of experience told me that this was a 
losing argument so why even bother.  Besides, she was right in that odds were 
she’d be nude most of the time on the deck.  I actually liked to have a few tone 
lines as to me, it was more sexy to look like I was somehow revealing something 
that I usually didn't when I undressed for a guy.  Kristi was again different from 
me in that she was all for the “all-over” tan look.

In the end it didn't matter as we drove over without incident and soon were sitting 
on the back deck of my dad’s house around the glass-topped table in the corner 
near the hot tub.  My Aunt Linda had served us some cold drinks and my dad 
was getting the grill ready for his traditional holiday cookout.  For a moment I 
couldn't help but think we were missing someone and my heart strained for my 
mother whom I hadn’t heard from in so many months.  All I could hope was that 
someday she would be back together with us for these family get-togethers, even 
if she and my dad were no longer husband and wife.

For most of the afternoon it was just your typical holiday family get-together.  My 
cousin has earned her realtor license and was working as a team with her mom 
so they had plenty of stories to tell about clients and buyers.  My aunt’s specialty 
was more exclusive homes which was always a cutthroat business even in good 
times.  With the home market these days, things were even tougher so it helped 
to have a mother-daughter team.  When a potential buyer was wavering between 
one of their homes or a competitor’s, or a stubborn seller needed convincing to 
accept an offer that wasn't what they’d been hoping for,  between the two of them 
they could often “convince” their client in ways competing realtors couldn’t – or at 
least wouldn’t.  Thus you can imagine some of the stories they had to tell and we 
all had a good time, eventually ending up in the hot tub. 

Since I was a little girl I’d never worn a bathing suit in our hot tub unless we had 
relatives or guests over.   It was just something my parents preferred and since I 
grew up that way, it was just natural for me and I never even gave a thought as I 
dropped my clothes and stepped in nude.  My family were definitely NOT nudists 
but at the same time, I was raised to not be ashamed of my body.  Thus if I was 
showering or dressing, my dad was comfortable being around me and vice versa.  
There was nothing sexual about it, at least not until I was sixteen and started 
having sex with my parents.  On a day like this, we all were nude together but 
there was not hint of anything sexual, just four adults enjoying a good time.

To all our surprise, while we were in the tub the front doorbell rang.  My dad got 
out to answer it, pulling on a pair of gym shorts before leaving the deck and 
wrapping a towel around his shoulders.  The rest of us stayed as we were, 
assuming it was just someone trying to sell something, even thought it was a 
holiday.

A few minutes later my dad poked his head out the door from the kitchen to the 
deck and called to me.  I have to say I was a little surprised when he said there 
was someone at the door wanting to see me.  Well, I didn't think he meant ALL of 
me so I grabbed my shorts and wrapped a towel around me before heading 
through the house, trying not to drip too much water on the hardwood flooring.  I 
wasn't worried about how I was dressed as whoever it was, it had to be one of 
my friends as who else who know to look for me here?

Passing by my dad, I started to ask who it was but he just shushed me and 
grinned,  Hmmm, now I WAS wondering who it might be.  Must be some prank or 
something to make him smile at me like that.  In any case, he returned to the 
deck while I went down the hallway to the front door.

Of all the people I would have guessed it might be, I never considered for a 
moment that it would be who it was.  Oh my god, it was Steve!  Sure he was a 
few years older but I would have recognized him anywhere.

“Hey girl, long time no see,” he greeted me as my mouth suddenly seemed 
unable to function.  All I could do was stare at him and then I became acutely 
conscious of the fact the only thing I had on was a pair of ultra short cutoffs and a 
towel around my top.

“Did I catch you at a bad time?” he asked, seemingly sincere although I noticed 
his eyes were giving me the once over.  For some reason, seeing him check me 
out somehow relaxed me.  Yep, same ol’ Steve, always interested in looking me 
over whenever he had the chance.

:Oh no... not at all!” I finally blurted out, lying through my teeth.  Like duh, the rest 
of my family was naked in back and here I was dripping wet and barely covered 
and he was asking if he caught me at a bad time?

“Ummmm, can I come in then?” he asked, smiling at me now in the same cocky 
expression he always use to get when he seemed to be able to read my mind.

What could I say?  No, my dad and aunt and cousin were out back naked so why 
not come again later?  There were a lot of things Steve didn't know about me and 
among those were my more intimate relationships with my family.  I didn't start 
having incestual sex until over a year and a half after Steve moved away and for 
the brief time we were together at his wedding it didn't seem to be something to 
bring up in conversation. 

So I invited him and when he looked around to see where my dad had gone, I 
mentioned to him that everyone was out on the deck.  He seemed to be 
expecting me to invite him back so I headed towards the back of the house, my 
mind racing as I tried to think of how I was going to explain what he was about to 
see.  I slowly opened the door leading to the deck, holding my breath and almost 
afraid to look but then I was reminded once again how wonderful my father was.

“Hey Steve, great to see you again, been a long time!” my father called out as we 
entered the deck.  He was seated by the table, my Aunt Linda and Kristi on either 
side of him.  my dad was still I his gym shorts while my aunt and cousin were 
wrapped in beach towels.  Their wet hair indicated they had just been in the hot 
tub so it wasn’t any surprise that they would have towels around them.  What 
Steve did NOT know was that underneath those towels there was nothing but 
bare skin.

“Steve!” my cousin called out, waving to him but staying seated.  Kristi was been 
only twelve when I was dating Steve but everyone in my family knew him.  Steve 
hadn't seen her since then so I was amused to see his eyes widen and take in 
what he could see of her.  At twenty two, she looked a LOT hotter than the little 
twelve year-old he had known. 

I introduced Steve to my aunt who claimed to remember him but I think she was 
just being polite.  No doubt they’d met a few times over the time we had been 
dating but it wasn't like he had ever interacted with her in any way.  My dad had 
pulled up another chair for Steve and he sat down next to me with my cousin on 
the other side of him.  I glared at Kristi, telling her with my eyes in no uncertain 
terms to lay off of him.  The last thing I needed right now was for my slutty cousin 
to start flirting with Steve.

Naturally we all wanted to know why he was here and he explained that his 
mom’s company was transferring her back to Pittsburgh again so he was moving 
back with her.  Needless to say I was confused since he was married but then I 
took a closer look at his hand and saw there was no sign of a wedding ring.  
Seeing me looking at his hand, Steve chuckled and explained.

“I suppose you’re wondering about why I’m living with my mom and not wearing a 
wedding ring,” he started out, sitting back in his chair like it was going to be a 
long explanation.  Actually it was relatively brief.  The marriage turned out to be a 
hasty mistake and they had sought an annulment after just a few weeks so 
technically he was never married, at least not legally,  As for living with his mom, 
he just shrugged and mentioned some off-hand comment about the economy 
and left it at that. 

It was my turn then so I filled him in on the highlights of the past few years.  Of 
course I left out a lot of things but he learned about my graduation and my 
current teaching job as well as my parent’s divorce and my current living 
arrangements.  His eyebrows sort of twitched when I told him that my aunt was 
now living with my dad but other than that he didn't say a word. 

It was getting hot so my aunt asked if we all wanted something to drink.  When 
she stood up her towel barely covered her ass and I saw Steve taking a quick 
peek.  Well, it was more than a quick peek but I didn't say anything to him and I 
was left wondering if it was a deliberate act by my aunt or just an accident.   I 
would have probably given her the benefit of the doubt and gone with the 
“accident” scenario if Kristi hadn't volunteered to help.  In her case the towel 
didn't quite cover her butt and Steve got more than an eyeful this time as she 
made her way off the deck to help her mom.  Oh yeah, accident my ass!

With just the three of us left, my dad asked Steve what he was doing for work.  
Actually, I had no idea what Steve did for a loving these days so I was interested 
in his answer as well.  For the first time, Steve seemed a little nervous and then 
he confessed he was “between jobs” at the moment which was why he was living 
with his mom.  He was hoping the job market in Pittsburgh would be better which 
was why he had decided to move back with her.  For some reason he was being 
cagey about his actual line of work and neither me or my dad pressed him further 
on it.  I figured sooner or later he would tell me so why push him now.

My aunt and cousin returned with trays of drinks which were more than welcome 
with the hot sun shining down on us.  Steve mentioned something about the hot 
tub and how he wished he’d brought his swimsuit with him.  Kristi about choked 
on her drink and I couldn't help but grin just a little myself.  Kristi was undoubtedly 
thinking about her state of undress and from the way she was looking at Steve, 
probably was wishing he would just strip and join her – in more ways than one.  
For me it was sort of ironic in that I don't think Steve had ever worn a suit in the 
tub before, at least not for long, but then that was when it was just the two of us.

Naturally we had a ton of questions for each others and so for a while it was just 
catching up on what we’d all be doing the past few years. I couldn't help but 
notice Steve was keeping a close eye on Kristi but then who cold blame him.  My 
slutty cousin was all but baring herself for him, letting her towel “accidentally” slip 
now and then and acting as if she was embarrassed. That didn't really surprise 
me knowing my cousin.  In a way, I was just thankful she wasn't already on his 
lap – without the towel.  It was her mom that drew my ire.

My Aunt Linda is now in her forties but you would have been hard pressed to 
guess it if you didn't know Kristi was her daughter.  Even then, you might have 
guessed younger as Kristi inherited her mother’s youthfulness and looked more 
like she was seventeen or eighteen than twenty two.  The same for my Aunt 
Linda in that she could have easily passed for ten years younger than she was.  
Steve certainly was making sure to get an eyeful as his eyes kept shifting back 
between mother and daughter.  Aunt Linda wasn’t being naughty like Kristi, but 
just the way she looked with her legs crossed and most everything showing was 
plenty for Steve to all but drool over.

Things were starting to get dangerous now and I knew if I didn't do something 
that it could turn into an afternoon Steve would not soon forget.  It’s not that I 
would have been so terribly upset about it per se, it was just that here was my 
long-lost boyfriend and now my aunt and cousin were practically putting on a 
show for him and they had never even had anything to do with him before.  It was 
like it just came natural to them to try to turn on guys and tease and flirt.  Well, 
that may work in the real estate sales business, but not with my ex-boyfriend, at 
least not if I had anything to say about it.

Standing up, I took Steve by the hand and thanked him for stopping by and made 
some lame excuse about dinner being almost ready.  My dad started to say 
something about how there was plenty of food if Steve wanted to say but one 
glare from me was enough to stop him in mid-sentence.  I wasn't sure if Steve 
fully understood what was happening. In fact, I was sure he was quite confused 
but he took the hint and mentioned he had to be somewhere himself and that he 
had just stopped by to say hello.   I told him I would show him out and led him 
back into the house without looking back.

At the front door, Steve turned to me and my heart started to race as I was sure 
he was going to kiss me. Then my hopes were dashed as he leaned over and 
gave me a peck on the cheek instead, saying it was good to see me again and 
that he hoped we could get together some time soon.  Trying not to appear TOO 
anxious, I told him I would love to and so we made plans for the following Friday 
night.  Steve left and as I watched him go, I almost felt like I did so many years 
ago when he first asked me out.  If anything, I was looking more forward to it now 
than I even did back then.


Chapter 3 – Fathers Trump Boyfriends
====================================

By the time I got back to the deck, things had indeed gotten out of control.  
Apparently all their teasing and flirting had driven everyone to be horny or maybe 
it was just waiting for the right moment and now it had arrived.  Whatever the 
case, I saw my the three of them had made it back into the hot tub where Kristi 
was licking her mom’s pussy as she sat on the edge of the tub.  My dad was 
seated on the opposite side, stroking a considerable hard-on as he got an eyeful 
of the action in front of him.  From the looks of things, I doubted Kristi’s pussy 
was going to be empty for long the way she had it sticking out at my dad with her 
legs apart.

Ordinarily I would have joined in but today something held me back.  All I could 
think about now was Steve and how he made me feel just talking to him again.  
Without saying a word, I went back in the house and made my way up to my old 
bedroom.  Looking out the window, I saw in that short time it took me to go up the 
stairs my dad had indeed positioned himself behind Kristi and now had his hands 
on her hips as he thrusted himself in and out of her while she kept he head firmly 
in her mother’s crotch.  

A flash came to mind as I recalled seeing my parents making love for the very 
first time from this same window when I was sixteen and how it led to me 
ultimately having sex with first my father and then my mother.  Oh yes, the things 
that had been seen out of this window over the years.  I remembered my 
mo0ther watching from my bedroom as my dad had sex with my best friend Beth, 
one of only two girls outside our family that he had ever had sex with while he 
was married.  I wondered how many times my parents had watched me having 
sex with a boyfriend, who of course had no idea the parents of the girl he was 
fucking were observing everything from right above him. 

As hot as the scene was below me, my mind was preoccupied with memories of 
Steve.  I looked around my bedroom and at my bed, remembering all the time 
Steve had fucked me here.  At first it had been hard to get him to have sex with 
me while my parents were home as he was naturally afraid that my parents 
would “catch us”.  It was hard to make him believe that my parents actually 
encouraged me to bring him home for sex as they preferred I do it somewhere 
private and safe than in the backseat of some car parked who knows where. 
What he never knew was that often my dad would check in on us and watch as 
Steve fucked me.

It had been quite a while since I’d laid in this bed naked and alone.  As I laid 
there I slowly masturbated, my thoughts alternating between what was going on 
now outside my window and of Steve, but mostly about Steve.   My eyes were 
closed as I rubbed myself, feeling the wetness of my pussy as I dreamed about 
him staying here instead of leaving when he did, and all the things he would be 
doing to me right now if he had.

“Something wrong baby?”

My thoughts were interrupted and I opened my eyes to see my dad standing 
there in the doorway to my room.  I smiled as I saw he was naked and still had 
his erection pretty much in place.  How many times had I seen him in just this 
pose as he came to my bedroom and then showed me how much he loved me.  
Even now, knowing that back then he was driven as much by lust as love, I felt 
this urge in me, this NEED in me, to please my father.   

All my life I had been told that a good daughter’s first calling in life was to please 
her father.  When I was younger that meant simply doing as I was told, getting 
him something to drink or whatever he needed.  As I got older, he would buy me 
outfits and I would please him by modeling them for him and letting him take 
pictures of me wearing them in poses he would ask me to put myself in just for 
him.  Eventually when I was sixteen I would give myself to him completely.  He 
never asked me to start having sex with him, it was my idea after I had witnessed 
he and my mom making love for the first time.  I wanted to have that same 
closeness with him and I knew it would please him as well.

So now, despite all his faults and failings as a husband, father and a man, he 
was still MY father and you don’t just erase a lifetime of habits and tradition 
because of a few indiscretions.  All thoughts of Steve evaporated as he slowly 
approached me.  I could see the lust in his eyes as he started to stroke his dick in 
front of me.  There was something in his expression at times like this that almost 
scared me.  What would he do if I were to refuse him?  Actually I had no idea as 
it was a point of honor with me that I never had.  OK, so there was one time 
when we were having an argument over my mom that I left him unfulfilled but that 
was definitely an exception to what was otherwise a perfect record for me.  My 
father wanted me now and I wanted nothing more than to give him exactly hat he 
wanted – ME.

“What about Aunt Linda and Kristi?” I said, my mind suddenly remembering that 
the last time I’d looked, he’d been fucking Kristi so what had happened?

Oh they can take care of themselves,” my dad said, waving them off as if they 
didn't matter, “I figured you probably needed some special attention about now 
and from the looks of things, I was right.”

Well, it could be debated WHO really needed the special attention but I wasn't 
going to argue.  Did it really matter anyway?  My dad obviously wanted me so 
what difference did it make why, it was my biblical duty as his daughter and 
pleasure as a woman to please him.

Without saying a word, I reached out to him and he stepped forward so I could 
grasp his cock.  He had been stroking himself as he looked at me so he was 
back to being rock hard once again and I loved the feel of my father’s dick in my 
hand.  Using his dick like a leash, I pulled him closer until I could turn on my side 
and take him in my mouth.  Mmmmm, he had indeed been fucking someone as I 
tasted the unique flavor and smelled the scent of a pussy on his dick.  He must 
have gone straight from Kristi’s pussy to my bedroom.   As hard as he was it 
meant he hadn't cum in her so I image she couldn't have been too happy about 
that!  Oh well, her loss was my gain.

“God that feels so good Kelly,” my dad sighed, pulling my head into his dick with 
his hands, “You’ve always been the best.”

I’d like to think he wasn't just saying that in the heat of the moment and that I was 
indeed the best to ever suck his dick.  In fact, I was quite proud of my cock-
sucking skills which I’d honed over the years.  Sheesh, how many hundreds of 
dicks had I sucked since I first did Steve’s over eleven years ago?  All I could say 
for sure was that it was a LOT.  Many guys told me how good I was and more 
than a few claimed I was the first to ever get them to cum using just my mouth.  I 
hated it when men would use their hand to finish themselves off so I took it as a 
matter of pride and principle to see to it that I was the one to make them cum.

My dad was horny, that was for sure.  Not long after I started sucking him he was 
thrusting his dick in and out of my mouth like he was fucking my mouth.  All I had 
to do was hold my head still and he was doing all the “work”.

“Oh fuck, I love it when you do that with your tongue,” he gasped as I flicked my 
tongue over his shaft as it passed over it.   I have to say, I first learned to use my 
tongue more from watching my dad’s porn flicks, especially the older ones with 
the professional whores.  Ginger Lynn was my idol and many of the techniques I 
used were borrowed from watching her incredible blow jobs.  Now there was an 
actress who truly loved her work!  She may have been a whore, but she 
obviously did it for more than just the money.

My dad was stroking pretty fast now and it was here that I had to make a 
decision as to whether to just please him or to satisfy my own needs as well.  
Well, why not kill two birds with one stone as they say? 

“Fuck me daddy,” I whispered hoarsely to him, stroking his dick as I looked up at 
him and our eyes met, “Please fuck me daddy.”

If there were three words that were guaranteed to get a response from my father, 
they were, “fuck me daddy”.   There was something about me saying that to him 
that just seemed to get to him more than anything else I could do or say.  This 
time was no exception. My dad’s eyes locked onto mine and I could almost feel 
them boring into me.  It wasn't long before they weren’t the only thing boring into 
me as he pushed me over on my side and climbed on top of me, spreading my 
legs apart as he held his dick and positioned it at the entrance to my pussy.

“Here you go baby... here’s what you wanted,” he almost growled at me as he 
thrust himself into me, burying his incestuous dick deep inside of me. 

“ Oh daddy, yes.... fuck me daddy,” I moaned as he began to thrust his stiff dick 
slowly in and out of me.  Then it was like he tried to push it up into me as far as 
he could and then held himself there in me, leaning over me on his elbows as I 
felt his hot breath against my face.

For a few minutes we just laid there that way, coupled together as a father and 
daughter should be on my bed.   It was like everything else in the world 
disappeared and the only thing that existed was my father’s dick deep inside of 
me, filling me as he kissed me and told me how much he loved me.  It wasn't 
love as in husband and wife or boyfriend and girlfriend.  This was a love only a 
father and a daughter can share and perhaps, only truly understand.

I believe it is only natural for a father and daughter to want to have sex together.  
Look at how many men want to have sex with their daughters and those are just 
the ones who will admit it.  Likewise, I know a lot of girls who would secretly 
admit to wanting to be with their fathers but suppress their feelings because of 
how incest is viewed by our culture.   In my opinion, this isn’t just lust driving 
these feelings, it is a natural attraction of a father and daughter to one another, 
completing their relationship in the most intimate way possible.   

When my father is in me, it is like nothing else I can even begin to describe.  It is 
like I am complete, like something missing in me has been recovered.  It is a 
feeling of security and safety.  It also makes me feel immeasurable happy to see 
the pleasure that I am giving my father, in a way no other woman on earth can. 
As his only daughter, having sex with me is a unique experience that he can 
never enjoy with anyone else.

As we laid there, I felt him slowly moving in me, just small movements rather than 
full thrusts.  He would grind his crotch against mine, rubbing his thick pubic hair 
against my bald pussy like as soft brush. His lips covered my nipples, sucking on 
them and tugging on them while his fingers were in my hair, pulling on it just ever 
so slightly.

“I missed this,” he sighed as he kissed my breasts.  Indeed, he wasn't the only 
one.  It wasn't just the pleasure he gave me, any man could fuck me and make 
me feel good.  It was the emotional fulfillment that I felt when my father had sex 
with me that made it so special. Just as I was the only woman that could make 
him feel this way, the way only a daughter could make her father feel, so it was 
with him for me.  He was my father and as such, only he could satisfy the hunger 
of emptiness within me that he did.

“Oh daddy!” I cried out as he started to cum in me.  I could feel him jerk and push 
into me with each ejaculation.  Each time he did I could imagine the stream of 
sperm shooting from the tip of his cock deep inside of my pussy, filling me with 
the ultimate expression of his love and respect for me.

How can I explain how special it feels to have my own father mate me?  Well, at 
least cum in me but the idea is the same.  Of course I would never want to 
actually have him impregnate me, but the act of him cumming in me made me 
feel so special in so many ways.  Had he just fucked me and then pulled out and 
cum on my face or breasts, it would have just been an act of lust, no different 
than what most men would want to do to me. No, from the very first time my 
father fucked me he had cum in me without even asking, as if he instinctively 
knew it was the right thing to do. It was what a father SHOULD do.

“Oh baby, I love you,” he groaned as he finished himself in me.  We just laid 
there like that, his spent dick still in me.  If it were up to me, we could have 
stayed that way all night.  I was sure with a little encouragement he would soon 
be hard again in me.  It was an incredible feeling to feel his dick harden in me 
and grow!

Alas, my aunt and cousin WERE waiting for him in the tub so he had to pull out 
and leave me.  We kissed briefly and then he waved goodbye as he returned to 
the deck.  I closed my eyes and hugged my crotch with both hands, missing the 
feeling of him in me.

After that I really wasn't in the mood to get back together with everyone again so 
I stuck my head out the door and announced I was leaving.  No doubt they knew 
what had happened so Kristi just said she would have her mom drive her home 
later.  As I drove home, I thought to myself what a crazy day it had been.  Yet as 
much as I was thrilled to see Steve again and the anticipation was already 
growing within me regarding our upcoming “date”, the one thing that made me 
feel the best was the memory of the expression on my dad’s face when he was 
cumming in me.  

Final score today... fathers – 1, ex-boyfriend - 0, exactly as it should be.


Chapter 4 – Preparing for My “First” Date
=========================================

It was crazy.  Really, it was absolutely insane.  Here I was, twenty-five years old 
yet feeling like I was fourteen again about to go out on my first date.  Since that 
night out with Steve over eleven years ago I’d been on hundreds of dates, it not 
thousands, had sex with hundreds of men and dozens of women, including a 
number of married men – and women.  I’d worked briefly as an escort, having 
sex for money with men I’d never met before and never would again, been to 
parties where I had sex with multiple people in inventive ways, and could pretty 
say, “been there, done that” to most things about sex so long as it wasn't 
anything too kinky or hurtful.  Heck, I’d even had sex with a dog twice (but never 
again)!

So with a resume like that, why was I pacing my room like a tiger in a cage, 
fretting over my hair, what I was going to wear, and all the other things that I 
shouldn't be worrying about.  After all, this was Steve, not some guy I’d never 
been out with before.  This was the guy to whom I gave my first blowjob, given 
my virginity, and done a number of other “firsts”.  This was the guy I had sex with 
literally hours before he was married.  If there was anyone I should be 
comfortable with, you would think it would be Steve.  So why was I practically 
shaking with nerves?

Whenever I get really nervous or worried about something, there is one thing that 
never fails to get my mind off whatever it is that is bothering me.  I’m speaking of 
course of masturbation.  When you’re playing with your pussy and fantasizing 
about crazy sex, it’s hard to be up tight about much of anything!  I still had a 
couple of hours before he was suppose to pick me up so even if I had to shower 
over again, it would be worth it if it helped me get over the biggest case of nerves 
I’d had in a long, long time.

Dropping my towel which I’d wrapped around me after my shower, I pulled back 
the bedspread and top sheet on my bed. Piling a few pillows on each other 
against the headboard, I laid back in my bed with my head and upper back 
supported by the pillows, my legs spread wide apart.  At first I just put one hand 
on each of my boobs, just holding them and gently squeezing them with my 
nipples between my fingers.  Closing my eyes, I remembered how it felt so long 
ago when Steve first held them in his hands.  It was the first time anyone other 
than me had held them this way and I shivered as my nipples reacted, hardening 
between my fingers as I slowly rubbed them between my fingers.

Releasing my breasts, I let the tips of my fingers trace slowly across my upper 
chest and boobs, just lightly touching me as they ran up and down and around 
the bottoms of my boobs.  The slowly, ever so slowly, I let them wander down 
further, moving down a few inches and then returning back to my upper chest 
before making another move.  It was just like Steve had done the first time I’d let 
him undo my blouse and remove my bra.  I remembered his one arm around my 
neck, cupping my boob with his hand as he reached around me while his other 
hand wandered all over my upper body, just touching me ever so softly.  Like 
back then, I had my eyes closed and just leaned my head back, taking it all in.

Unlike back then, I was naked now so it was easier for my hands to move down 
past my stomach and towards my legs and crotch.  Actually, the first time Steve 
groped me he didn't even get into my shorts but that didn't matter now.  Each of 
my hands made their way down the sides of my torso, fingertips running along 
my sensitive skin over my hips and down to my upper thighs as far as I could 
reach. Then I laid my hands flat pressing against my legs and then letting my 
hands drift inwards to my inner thighs as I lifted my knees up and flattened my 
feet on the bed.

When a guy touches me, there are lots of places where I can be stimulated 
besides the obvious.  Most guys tend to go for my breasts and crotch.  While I 
would never say I didn't like to be touched there, they are missing out on other 
places that can stimulate me in other ways.  First, I LOVE my hair to be played 
with.  The feeling of a guy’s fingers running from my scalp to the tips of my hair, 
pulling on it ever so gently, makes me shiver all over.  I can practically orgasm 
just from this alone under the right circumstances.

Working down, I’m not a big ear person but I don't mind the lobes being gently 
touched.  Keep your tongue out though, it makes me feel creepy!  Anywhere on 
my face and neck can feel good so long as it is soft and gentle.  Using the backs 
of your fingers, letting the nails gently stroke across my forehead and then down 
my cheeks and neck, is SO relaxing.

When it comes to my boobs, attention guys – there are more to them than just 
the nipples and you don't have to try to pop them like a pimple when you touch 
me!  Cup them in your hands, gently massage them and run your fingers under 
the curvature of my bosom and you’ll stimulate me a lot more than just yanking 
and twisting my nipples.

My stomach is ticklish so while I like it to be touched, don't make me giggle as it 
spoils the mood. The best thing to do is go on the other side where I LOVE the 
feeling of my ass being touched.  I do NOT mean my ass HOLE, I mean my butt 
in general and hips.  When I say kiss my ass, I mean it in a nice way as I like the 
feel of a wet tongue running over my cheeks.

Then there is the one place that really drives me nuts – my thighs, especially the 
inner portion.  You can run your hands and fingers along my legs and work your 
way between them and you’ll know I love it when I spread them further apart for 
you.  Don't make the usual mistake guys do and think I’m trying to hint to go for 
my pussy.  The truth is I probably just want my legs touched all the more.

So it was at this point now as I laid in my bed.   I had my feet flat on the sheet 
with my knees wide apart, each hand between my legs, rubbing myself gently.  
Slowly, ever so slowly, it was like my hands had a mind of their own as they 
drifted down and met at my bare crotch.  God my pussy felt so warm!

Using my fingertip, I probed my pussy hole and felt the wetness there.  Wetting 
my finger, I dragged it upwards to my clit, gasping slightly when I first touched it.  
At first I just pressed down on it, applying pressure without moving my finger.  Ih 
yeah, it wanted more and so I started to make small circles around it, teasing it 
now and then by crossing over it and then circling it again.  With my other hand I 
pushed one finger into me up to the second knuckle, imagining it was a cock 
seeking the warmth and security of my pussy.

It didn't take much longer for my orgasm to finally arrive.  I wanted it so badly by 
now, NEEDED it even more.  It’s not like I always had an orgasm every time I 
masturbated.  Often just the act of masturbation was enough for me but not 
tonight, not in the mood I was in.  I groaned out loud as my hips rose up against 
my probing hands.  It was like my entire body started to tingle, like every hair on 
me was standing on end.  Holding my breath, I stroked my pussy with my fingers 
quickly until I couldn't hardly bear it anymore and released my breath in a single 
loud whoosh!  Oh god, it felt SOOOOOO good I never wanted it to end!

I couldn't stay on my back and twisted over onto my right side in a fetal position, 
my hands firmly imbedded between my legs as my head rolled from side to side.  
“Fuck me... Fuck me...,” I begged my imaginary lover, thrusting a second and 
then a third finger into my pussy.  God I wanted a real dick in me so badly at this 
moment, to feel it cumming inside of me, feeling the thrust of his hips against me 
as he ejaculated and released himself deep inside of me.

It’s not like it ended so much as it slowly dwindled away.  Finally I was left 
gasping, trying to catch my breath as I brought my pussy fingers to my mouth 
and sucked myself off of them.  Mmmmmm, I loved the taste of my pussy, 
especially right after I’d cum.  I know a lot of girls say they don’t like to taste their 
pussy but I consider them a minority.  How could anyone NOT love the taste of a 
hot pussy?

Glancing at the clock, I saw I’d less than an hour before Steve arrived.  For a 
moment I considered not showering and seeing if Steve noticed the odor of 
sweat and sex on me.  Would he say anything?  Would he realize WHY I smelled 
the way I did or would he think I just smelled bad?  In the end, I showered 
anyway.  With any luck, I’d be smelling this way again before the night was out.


Chapter 5 – First Date Relived – 11 years Later
===============================================

The doorbell rang and I fought the temptation to go running to the door and 
flinging it open.  Of course I’d seen his car pull up and could have gone out 
instead of making him come to the door but I wanted to make this a special night 
so having my date come to the door was a natural first step.

“Hi Steve,” I greeted him after I opened the door.

Steve started to say something and then he looked closer at me and hesitated.  I 
just stood there, trying not to smile too broadly or act like I was some overly-
excited teenager about to go out on her first date – which was exactly how I was 
feeling.

“Wow, you’re looking really good Kelly,” he finally blurted out, reaching out to 
take my hand.  THAT brought a smile to my face as I’d gone out and bought a 
new dress just for tonight... just for him.  In fact, everything I was wearing was 
brand new.  The dress was pure black and actually hung a little lower than my 
usual, almost to my knees in fact.  Being strapless, it clung tightly to my breasts 
to hold itself up, emphasizing my boobs and cleavage.  It was a wrap-around 
style in that while the top was tight, the lower portion was made such that it 
wrapped around more like a toga and was held in place by a tie on my left side.  
The result was while it was a little longer than what I usually preferred, it opened 
easily to the side where it was tied to reveal most of my upper leg when I walked 
or crossed my legs.

Underneath the dress all I had on was a new pair of black lace panties.  They 
were too broad to be called a thong but by no means boy shorts.  The side were 
high cut so when I sat down and crossed my legs, even though the dress opened 
up (assuming I didn't pull it over), you wouldn't know I was wearing anything 
under it.  As low cut and strapless as it was, there wasn't a bra in the world I 
could wear which didn't bother me.  Actually the dress had some built-in support 
which pushed up on my boobs enough to exploit my cleavage to its best.

I’d been out in the sun enough that my legs had lost their winter pale although 
still not as tanned as I would be in a few more weeks.  It was enough no to wear 
hose and still look good.  Of course I’d shaved them just a few hours before – 
along with a few other areas of my body, so they were smooth to the touch.  I’d 
also splurged on a new pair of black heels which also helped to make my legs 
look good.

So yes, I was pleased that Steve seemed happy with what he was seeing waiting 
in the doorway for him. It had cost me everything bit of extra money I had, not to 
mention some help from a credit card my dad still let me use, but seeing him 
staring at me the way he was made it all worth every penny.

Taking Steve’s hand, I let him walk me to the car, my small matching black purse 
in my other hand.  When we go to his car, I waited and he took the hint and 
opened the door for me like a gentleman.  I noticed the car was a little older but 
seemed well-maintained. As I sat down, I let my dress pull up and didn’t reach 
down to keep it down, thus allowing more leg to show for him.  The split was on 
my left side so it wasn't like TOO much was showing, but enough to get his eye.

Getting in the driver’s seat, Steve started the car and then turned to me and 
finally said something.  Up until now we had just walked together without a word 
and I had been waiting for him to make the first move so far as conversation 
went.

“God it’s great to see you again Kelly,” he said, “I have to confess, I feel a little 
awkward tonight.”

“Oh?  Why is that Steve?”  I replied, feeling the same myself but ready to admit it.

“Well.... I mean... it’s just we have so much... history I guess you could say.  Now 
it’s been so long and I don't know with everything that’s happened since where to 
pick things up.”

Actually I’d thought a lot about this very same thing.  We hadn't dated in almost 
eleven years yet at the same time, when we HAD dated it was one of the most 
intensely emotional periods of my life.   So much in my life changed in the six 
months or so that we were together. The entire course of my life had been 
altered and the man now sitting next to me had been responsible for it.  Not 
“responsible” in a bad way, but rather I mean as the guy who helped shape me 
into what I became.  It was his encouragement, his patience and support, his 
open-mindedness, his willingness to do anything I wanted that made sex such an 
integral part of my life from that time forward.

So indeed, were DID we go from here?  All I knew was I wanted tonight to be 
special, something to always remember.  In my heart I knew exactly what I 
wanted but hesitated in telling Steve as I was unsure of how he would react. 
What if he thought it was silly?  I mean, it wasn't like he was sixteen anymore and 
I was fourteen I had changed a lot since those days and I was sure he had too..  
Heck, he’d even been married, if only for a short period.  Would it be even 
possible to relive something that happened when we were both so much younger 
and innocent?

I twisted in the seat to face him.  “You know what I would like Steve?  Let’s do 
our first date all over again... do you remember it?”

Now THAT brought a smile to his face.  “Of course I remember, how could I ever 
forget?” he replied with that smile I’d always loved so much.

“I know it sounds silly Steve, and I hope you didn't have other plans for tonight.”

“Hey, that sounds like a GREAT plan Kelly.  It was just seeing you in that 
incredible dress, I thought you might want to go somewhere... I don't know... 
somewhere more public I guess.”

True, I was a bit overdressed as compared to our first date but it didn't matter to 
me.  I’d gotten my money’s worth just seeing the look on his face when I opened 
the door and stood there in front of him.

“I just want to be with you tonight Steve,” I said softly, “I just want it to be special, 
you know what I mean?”

He just nodded and started up the car, heading down the street without another 
word.  It only took ten minutes to get to the theater which we filled with some 
small talk about the town and local politics and gossip, nothing really personal.  I 
don't either of us was quite ready to open up to the other yet.  THAT was going to 
take a little more time so in some ways, tonight was indeed a “first date”.

As Steve bought the tickets at the kiosk, I looked around and couldn't help but 
feel a but overdressed but it didn't bother me.  It made me feel good to see other 
men with their wives and families looking me over when they thought I (and their 
wives) wouldn't notice.  It wasn't just the older men that I was getting attention 
from.  Some of the teenage boys were a little less discrete and it made me feel 
good to see them looking at me while their date was distracted by something 
else.

“Here we go, two tickets to the worse movie in the house,” Steve said, bringing 
my attention back to him again.  

We both laughed as I knew what he meant.  Back when we dated we would pick 
out the least-watched movies as we both knew we had no intention of actually 
watching it.  We just wanted to be sure the theater was as empty as possible so 
we could find a pair of seats that weren’t right next to somebody else.  We didn't 
want the theater to be totally empty – that would have taken the thrill out of it as it 
was the risk of being seen that made it fun.

We bypassed the lines at the food counter and headed straight for the theater as 
it was already a few minutes past the official start time.  Of course, there was no 
fear of missing any of the movie with all the ads and preview these days, but then 
again, we weren’t exactly worried about the movie anyway.  If anything, it worked 
out better this way as anyone who was going to come in the theater was most 
likely already there so we could pick out seats without having to worry about 
another couple coming in later and sitting next to us.

Opposite the entrance to our theater were the restrooms and I told Steve I 
needed to make a quick stop.  Actually, I had no need of the facilities, I just 
needed someplace private for a few seconds.  Stepping in, there were a couple 
of other women and a young girl already there so I stepped into a stall and turned 
around.  Reaching under my dress, I put my hand between my legs and felt the 
warmth of my crotch through the thin panties.  Oh yeah, I was ready!  

I pressed my fingers against me, pushing the fabric into me slightly and rubbed 
my panties against my wet pussy.  As good as it felt, getting myself off wasn't my 
intention, at least not this time. Using both hands now, I grabbed my panties on 
each side and slid them down to my heels and off.   I sniffed the crotch and 
smiled.  Yep, smelled pretty good to me!  Hopefully Steve would think the same.  
I bundled them up into a ball and hid them in my hand as best as I could.   
Flushing the empty toilet, I stepped out and hurried back to Steve who was 
waiting patiently for me outside.

“Sorry, I needed to do something for you,” I said as I approached him.  I reached 
out with my closed hand and put it against his.  Then I opened it up to reveal to 
him what I was hiding.

Steve grinned when he saw what I was offering him.  “Hmmm, now THIS is 
interesting.”

“I just didn't want anything in the way tonight,” I whispered as we headed into the 
theater, “I hope you don't mind keeping those for me.”

The smirk on his face told me more than anything he could have said.  Once 
through the door and out of sight from the crowd outside, he put them up to his 
nose and sniffed. 

“Mmmmm, now THAT’s the way all panties should smell,” he whispered to me.

The theater was dark as the movie had just started.  As our eyes adjusted, I cold 
see there were a few people spaced out throughout the theater, maybe a total of 
twenty or so in all.  I grinned as I noticed a few couples had already staked out 
the more remote seats.  No doubt we weren’t the only ones with more than the 
movie on our agenda for the evening.

Steve stood there for a few more seconds, scouting out the theater and then 
made his selection.  With the upper portion of the theater pretty well occupied, 
we headed for the second row and then down almost to the wall.  The theater 
was one of the smaller ones so there were steps on only one side.  When I say 
second row, I meant the row in the upper portion of the theater, not the lower 
section where you were right on top of the screen.  It wasn't exactly the usual 
location for us but there was nobody else in the row and with the high-back seats 
it wasn't like anyone could see us all that well.  Besides, from the looks of things I 
doubted many of the other couples would be looking around all that much 
anyway.

Taking our seats, Steve pulled the armrest up and out of the way.  I loved the 
seats in this theater.  With the arm rest up I could sit right next to him almost like 
we were on a couch.  It certainly made things easier – as I’m sure the designers 
knew when they dreamed them up.

I made sure to sit on Steve’s right as that was the side the opening in my dress 
was on.  I crossed my legs and this time I scooting in my chair just enough to 
ensure that it opened up wide for him.  Our eyes had adjusted to the light buy 
now and there was enough light from the screen for him to see my exposed leg.

“Like my new dress?” I whispered, “I bought it just for you.”

Steve smiled again and nodded, his eyes telling me everything as they looked at 
my leg.  The movie was now going but he never even glanced at the screen, 
keeping his eyes on me the entire time.  He put his arm around my shoulder and 
pulled me up closer to him.

“I missed you so much Kelly,” he said ever so softly, squeezing me against him.

“Oh Steve....” I sighed.  What more could I say?  How many times had I dreamed 
of being in his arms again, of feeling him against me again.  No other man had 
ever made me feel the way Steve did, not even my almost-fiancé Duane.  
Perhaps that’s why deep in my heart I think I knew Duane wasn't the one, 
because he had never made me feel the way I felt at this moment being with 
Steve. 

Then we kissed.  God, it was like I was kissing him for the first time all over 
again.  Our lips parted and tongues met, just going on and on for what seemed 
like forever.  It was like now that we were finally kissing again, neither of us 
wanted to be the one to pull away.  I wanted him SO badly.  Maybe it hadn't been 
such a good idea to come here.   Then again, maybe it WAS a good idea as had 
we been anywhere else at this moment, I know neither of us would have been 
able to control ourselves.  As much as I wanted exactly THAT, there was 
something in me that wanted this as well.  There was something special about 
just kissing him and feeling his arm around me.  The sex would come later, there 
was no doubt about that at least in my mind, but tonight this was perfect.

Steve’s free hand was on my knee.  I put my hand over his and pulled it up onto 
my exposed leg, almost trembling as I felt his hand against my bare skin.  He 
didn't waste any time once I gave him the green light, reaching over my leg under 
my dress and pulling it towards him.  I knew what he wanted and so I uncrossed 
my legs, giving him access to what I knew he wanted – and what I wanted as 
well.

In my mind, I recalled the first time Steve had touched my pussy.  I had been so 
nervous at the time.  Nobody had ever touched me there besides me, at least not 
with any sexual intent.  At fourteen I was certainly touching it a LOT, but Steve 
was the first otherwise.  Sure there had been times when my dad might have 
accidentally put his hand there when I was in the hot tub on his lap and he was 
trying to maneuver me around, but that was just incidental and he never kept his 
hand there or tried to do anything.

It had felt almost weird when Steve’s fingers first pressed between my legs.  It 
was like I was exposing myself in a way I’d never done before.   With my legs 
open for him, it had been like I was giving away something private that I’d never 
shared with anyone else before. It felt odd to have my clit touched and it wasn't 
my own fingers.  It was exciting in a way, not knowing what he would do next, 
where her would explore and how he would touch me.   Of course Steve had 
played with plenty of other pussies before mine which actually helped in that I 
didn't have to tell him everything to do, even if I had been so bold to do so in the 
first place.

Now, eleven years later, my pussy was well-explored territory yet there was 
something about knowing it was Steve’s fingers that were making their way up 
my legs that was different in some way I couldn't quite explain.  I guess you cold 
say it was something like when my dad feels me up.  It’s not so much the actual 
touch that makes it special, it’s knowing WHO is touching me. If I was 
blindfolded, I wouldn't be able to tell who was touching me and under those 
circumstances, it would have still felt good but it wouldn't have meant anything 
special to me.  Now it was different.  Of course I loved the feel of his fingers as 
they started to work their way between my wet pussy lips, but it was looking 
down and seeing Steve’s hand between my leg that made me quiver with 
excitement.

I must have been holding my breath because when his finger started to probe 
inside of me I let out a long slow sigh, trying not to be too loud such that people 
would hear me.  He didn't push it in far but rather just up to his first knuckle or so, 
moving the tip of his fingers in small circles around inside of me.  Good boy, he 
remembered how I liked it.  The most sensitive part of my pussy was the first inch 
of so, as if that area was just jam packed with nerve endings just dying to be 
stimulated.  I didn’t need his finger deep in me, just far enough to make those 
nerve endings scream out as he touched them.   Mmmmm, it felt so damn good.

“Somebody’s horny,” he whispered in my ear and I tried not to giggle.  Of course 
I was!  Who wouldn't be sitting in a dark theater with your boyfriend’s forefinger 
up inside of you while your bare ass was on the seat?

“Oh Steve,” I sighed again ever so softly, the words barely audible even to 
myself.

With that he pulled his finger out and for a second I wondered what I’d done 
wrong to make him stop.  Then he moved his hand up to my face and put his 
pussy-wet finger on my lips which parted to let him push his finger into my mouth.  
I suckled on his finger, tasting myself and smelling the odor of my pussy on him 
hand.  Once again I though, “Good boy.”   He remembered!  I LOVED to taste my 
pussy and to smell and taste myself on his finger was even better than on my 
own.

Steve chuckled at my response.  “I see you still love this... damn, some things 
never change, do they?”

Indeed, some things never did – and never should.

As much as I would have loved him to resume fondling my pussy, I had other 
things on my mind.  Well, make that one biog thing and two smaller ones.  
Reaching over, I rested my hand on his crotch and was thrilled to feel the 
hardness of his erection that was ready to burst out from under his jeans.  
Hmmm, something needed attention and who better to give it some than me?

Steve hadn't worn a belt and I wondered briefly if that was because he just didn't 
always wear one or because he wanted it to be easier for me to gain access.  I 
have to admit, when it comes to men’s belts I can get totally confused and 
distracted trying to figure them out.  Did Steve remember all the times I fumbled 
with his various belts and how it had almost ruined the mood in more than a few 
cases?  I was hoping that was the case.

The button was easy to deal with and I zipped down his zipper, startled at how 
loud it seemed in the theater as the movie just happened to have silent moment 
right at the same time I pulled down on it.  Damn, everyone HAD to have heard it 
but a quick glance around proved otherwise.  It seemed that everyone else was 
either making out and didn't care about us or too engrossed in the movie to 
notice. 

With his zipper down I had another pleasant surprise – no underwear.  Once 
again I had to smile as I knew Steve must have remembered how I hated to deal 
with underwear.  Instead of the usual boxers or tightie-whities, all I had in front of 
me now was his erect cock, springing free and clear of his jeans like a jack-in-
the-box.   I could just make it out in the light from the screen, enough to make my 
mouth water at the sight of it.

What a difference eleven years can make.  I remembered when I was in almost 
the exact same position and I saw Steve’s cock out for the first time.  No matter 
how much I had talked about it with my mom before, I still wasn't ready for the 
reality of an actual cock in my hand.  It wasn’t like I’d never seen one before.  
Heck, I’d seen my fathers cock untold times growing up, even erect when he 
would masturbate.  THIS, however, was totally different.  My dad’s was my 
DAD’s cock, at the time not something that particularly interested in except when 
I was trying to get my way and I knew when his dick got that way I was sure to 
get whatever I wanted.   This cock was my boyfriend’s dick and it was hard 
because of ME.

Sometimes I have wondered how my life would have been different had I not 
been so naïve when I was younger.  It was true that I had no sexual interest in 
my father’s dick back then, and I innocently assumed that he wasn't interested in 
me that way either.  It was almost two years later before I learned differently.  
What would I have thought had my dad told me the REAL reason he got hard 
when I was around?  What if HIS dick had been the first I’d touched with sexual 
intent instead of Steve’s?  Oh well, it didn't happen so it’s all conjecture in any 
case.

I held Steve’s hard cock in my hand, just gripping it firmly to feel it’s hardness 
and warmth against my hand and fingers.  Steve had never been exactly small 
and while not huge either, I use to think of it as “comfortable”.  That’s my way of 
saying it was the perfect compromise between not being too big to be 
uncomfortable when I blew him and yet being large enough to stretch me out just 
enough when he fucked me to make me feel full without hurting me.  I would be 
hard-pressed to be too critical of ANY dick so long as it responded properly, but 
Steve’s was like something right out of a fairy tale... not to small, not too big, but 
just right.

It was uncomfortable twisting as I was to hold his cock.  For a moment I 
contemplated repeating my performance from the first time we did this in a 
theater and kneel on the floor between his legs.  Well, some things we DO grow 
out of and kneeling on a filthy theater floor was on of those, at least for me.  
Instead, I took advantage of the modern seat design and lifted the arm up on the 
other side of me.  Now I had almost the equivalent of a couch so I laid on my 
stomach across the seats with my shoulders and head over his lap. My legs were 
stretched out straight behind me but as high as the seat backs were I was 
confident nobody could see us.  Besides, the only ones who even had a chance 
were going at it themselves the last time I glanced their way.

Steve put his hand on my head and pushed me into his crotch firmly but not too 
hard.  His fingers were in my hair with his palm against my scalp, keeping me 
firmly in place over his quivering cock.  God he smelled so good!  I loved the 
heavy odor of his crotch and the slight aftertaste of his dick in my mouth.  It was 
just so... manly I guess you could say.

As I slowly sucked his dick, not trying to make him cum but rather working more 
just to make him feel good, Steve’s other hand worked its way down to my hips 
and moved my skirt over and out of the way, baring my butt.  I could feel the cool 
air against my exposed ass and then the warmth of his hand as he cupped my 
butt and squeezed me.  

Laying there with his dick in my mouth, I wiggled a little until I could spread my 
legs further apart.  Steve quickly took the hint and his hand moved down from my 
butt to between my legs until I felt his finger probing my pussy hole.  As wet as I 
was he had no problem pushing it in me and I loved the feel of him penetrating 
me.  It wasn't the same as his dick but it would do for now!

As I sucked him and he toyed with my pussy, my thoughts wandered back to that 
first blowjob I’d given him in a theater much like this one so many years ago.   
The setting might be the same but my how things can change.  I wasn't a runt of 
a year-old any more, a virgin whose boobs barely gave my boyfriend something 
to play with.  

One thing was different for sure – Steve HAD to be enjoying this BJ a whole lot 
more than the first one I gave him.  Oh sure, there must have been a thrill 
knowing he was the first guy I’d sucked, but my skills were light-years ahead of 
my feeble efforts back then.  My mom had tried to teach me some techniques 
and had talked to me about a boy’s needs and expectations, but there’s a huge 
gap between talking about something and doing it, between pretending to give a 
blowjob to a dildo and actually sucking on a real dick.

Now, eleven years later, my mouth had hosted hundreds of dicks, many of them 
numerous times.  I pretty much felt like an expert when it came to sucking dick 
and technically I was a professional given I’d be paid more than a few times for 
my efforts.  Still, right now at this instant I wasn't sure who was happier – him or 
me.  My ego certainly was siding with him as I always wanted a guy to remember 
me as his best blowjob but you can’t compete against some girls these days.

For a moment I considered getting up and straddling his lap and riding his dick.  
My pussy was certainly pushing for it!  As much as I loved the way he was 
playing with it using his fingers, nothing beats a real dick when it comes to 
pleasuring your own pussy.   

In the end common sense won out.  Even though it was possible that some 
people had noticed a bit of what was going on between Steve and I, they couldn't 
possibly have a compete view so most of it had to be conjecture.  I mean, it’s 
pretty obvious what is happening when a girl has her head buried in a guy’s lap 
and bobbing up and down.  But bouncing on his lap would have eliminated any 
assumptions and would be going a step too far, at least I was sure someone 
would object – someone always did it seems just when things got fun.

After a while, as much as it pained me to admit it, another pain developed in my 
neck and mouth from having to keep my head in a rather awkward position with 
my mouth stretched open to accommodate his dick.  I needed a break but I 
couldn't bear the thought of being separated from Steve’s wonderful dick so I laid 
my head on his lap and just laid there with the head of his dick in my mouth, 
sucking on it ever so gently like a baby suckling a bottle. 

Looking up at Steve, I saw he was staring down at me, a weird sort of smile on 
his face and a distant look in his eyes as he watched me work on his cock.  I tried 
to smile but it’s sort of hard when you have this thick piece of flesh between your 
teeth! 

“Don't stop,” he mouthed to me more than spoke.  From the way he was biting 
his lower lip and rolling his eyes and head back, I knew I could make him cum 
any time that I wanted.  In fact, it was now up to me to see to it that he did NOT 
actually cum – at least not yet.  I just held myself still, feeling his dick pulsing in 
my mouth as he calmed down and regained control slowly.  Oh yeah, he was 
there now, right where I wanted him.  At any time I could make him cum, all I had 
to do was suck a little extra hard and he was mine.

From the look on his face, I knew Steve was ready to cum.  In fact, I had no 
doubt that’s exactly what he wanted – to cum together with me.   he looked 
almost panicky, like a lost boy hunting for his mother.  It was like he didn't know 
what to do as his lust consumed him and all he could focus on was his dick in my 
mouth.  Even his hand was still in my pussy as he seemed to be focusing every 
thought on just my pussy.

Steve humped under me, pushing his dick into my mouth as if he was fucking 
me.  Oh yeah, he wanted it and he wanted it all right now.  My neck was feeling a 
little better so I went down on him again, this time taking every bit of it in me until 
my lips were pressed against the base of his dick 

This time he didn't just hump up against me, he literally jerked himself into my 
mouth, driving his cock into me as he pushed my head down on him.  He couldn't 
contain himself as he gasped out much more loudly than I think he thought he 
was and then he came... and came... and came!

Each spurt of cum went straight into my mouth.  He could hardly miss as I had 
my lips encircled around him, forming a cum-tight seal around his shaft.  I tried to 
swallow it as quickly as he was shooting it into me so I wouldn't gag on it as yet 
another rope of sticky cum literally exploded in my mouth.

Finally he finished, leaving me a substantial mouth of cum still in my mouth but it 
was hard to swallow with him still in my mouth.  Reluctantly I pulled my head up 
and looked at him, smiling and then opening my mouth and sticking out my 
tongue to show him what was left inside.  Like every guy I’d ever blown and then 
done this, he seemed to have loved cumming in my mouth and then watching it 
in my mouth as I opened it for him to see inside.

Twisting around, I sat back up again as he removed his hand from my pussy and 
laid it on the back of the seats over my shoulders.  I dropped my head on his 
shoulder, licking my lips and using one finger to push some of the cum that had 
managed to try and escape onto my chin back into my mouth.   I wasn't about to 
let a single drop go to waste if I had anything to say about it.

It was then I realized the movie was about over.  Wow, time really does fly when 
you’re having fun!  There was maybe ten minutes until the closing credits during 
which I just snuggled up to Steve and let him fondle me and touch me wherever 
he could reach.  It was kind of erotic to have him just explore me wherever he 
had the urge without even asking me if it was OK with me.

When the movie finally ended, we stood up and I tried to straighten out myself 
and be as presentable as possible.  My hair and makeup must have surely taken 
a hit and I told Steve on the way out that I needed to visit the little girl’s room for 
a few minutes to clean myself up. 

Scurrying across the hall to the restroom as quickly as possible, I realized I 
wasn't the only one with needs right after a movie.  The stalls were already 
almost filled and there were several women and girls washing up.   One looked to 
be the girl who was with a guy a few rows above us, the ones I mentioned had 
not been paying much attention to anyone else during the movie.  We glanced at 
each other and I saw she didn't look a whole lot better than I did.  Then we 
smiled at each other, more a knowing smile between colleagues you might say.  

On the other side of me was a mother with what looked to be a four or five year 
old daughter.  She took one glance at the two of us next to her and you could 
almost feel the disgust in her stare as she looked us over like two whores.  She 
didn't say a word to either of us but that look said more than she could ever have 
put in words.  I wonder how she would have felt if she knew her reaction actually 
was turning me on?

Back in the hall, Steve was waiting for me and he put his arm around me as we 
left the theater.  We went out to grab some desert and then he took me home.  
We never mentioned one word about what had happened in the theater and 
neither of us made any sort of move on the other.  It was like what had happened 
was exactly what SHOULD have happened that night and neither of us wanted to 
spoil the mood by pushing it any further than what it was meant to be.  When 
Steve kissed me, I DID finally fee like I had to say SOMETHING.

“Next time you’re gonna fuck me... right?” I whispered in his ear as we hugged.

Steve pulled back enough to look me in the face and grinned broadly.  “Well, now 
THAT wasn’t exactly what you said the first time we dated, now was it?”

I giggled a little before I responded, “But it WAS what I was thinking, didn't you 
know?”

We kissed again and I returned to my home without looking back again.  
Mmmmm, talk about the perfect evening!


Chapter 6 – Reminiscing
=======================

Stepping inside, I closed the door behind me and suddenly it was like this huge 
weight had been lifted form my shoulders.  My legs felt weak and I quickly sat 
down in the living room before I lost my balance.  What could I say?  Everything I 
could have hoped for had come true.  Talk about the perfect first date... now I 
could say I had been on TWO of them, both with the same guy.  The fact that 
they occurred eleven years apart was just part of what made everything so 
surreal.

One thing WAS different this time.  On the original first date, I’d come home full 
of energy and feeling a mixture of wonder, love and amazement.  After all, it was 
the first time I’d ever even held a man’s dick, let alone suck it until it came in my 
mouth.  On my new “first date”, I think I can say without bragging too much that 
I’m a pro when it comes to blowjobs.  I doubt there are many girls my age who 
can say they’ve sucked as many dicks as I have without being a hooker (which 
leaves my cousin Kristi out of the running for the title). Certainly I had impressed 
Steve with my skills!

SO now what?  As I laid my head against the back of the couch, staring up at the 
ceiling, I thought about what had happened after our original first date.  It hadn't 
been long afterwards that Steve took my virginity, although it wasn't like I wasn't 
anxious to give it to him.  Everything in my life changed after that.  

Wow, what would have my life been like had I NOT had sex with Steve?  What if 
I had done it with someone not as special and not enjoyed it as much as I had?  
What if instead of finding that the thing I wanted most at the time was to be laid 
by Steve as soon as possible after the last time, I had instead been turned off by 
the experience and kept away from a sexual lifestyle?

All I could say was that I was happy things had turned out as they did.  I 
remembered how hungry I had been for sex back then.  Sure I still craved it now 
and then but back when I was fourteen and could still count on my hands and 
toes the number of time Steve had fucked me, it was entirely different.  It was like 
sex was all I could think about.  In school, at church, at home with my parents, it 
was like I was constantly thinking about Steve’s dick and how much I loved 
having him fuck me with it, how much I loved to hold it and suck on it.

So once again... now what?  What could compare to the weeks and months 
Steve and I had spent as young teens, exploring each other and trying out new 
ideas every day?  I remembered when we were out bike riding and he felt me up 
while we were waiting to cross traffic.  His hand was under my ass with his finger 
working its way into my shirts to rub my pussy while a soccer mom and her kids 
were right behind us!  God it had felt so naughty yet I loved it.  Then afterwards 
we stopped at an old school playground and had sex while on the swing, his dick 
pumping in and out of me almost automatically as the swing rocked back and 
forth in the air with me planted on his lap. 

Yes indeed... no what?  Was it fair trying to compare events that had happened 
over a decade ago when we were such different people to anything that might 
happen today?  Could anything live up to the memories I had from that time, no 
doubt “enhanced” with age, like a fine wine.  Was it fair to expect the same sense 
of thrill and wonder to infuse me when I was with him like it did when he had 
been the only boy I’d ever had sex with?

Oh my god, tonight had been so wonderful, so perfect.  As much as I would have 
loved to have invited him and taken him to my room, it just seemed right for it to 
end this way.  I was sure there would be plenty of opportunities in the near future 
for us to be more intimate.  Tonight was just two old friends, two lovers from the 
past, reunited once again.   I remembered the last time we had sex before he 
moved away, and how it felt to have him pull out of me for what I was sure would 
be the last time ever.   To think that I was worried I might not have sex with 
another boy again now that Steve was gone.  Now THAT certainly didn't prove to 
be a problem, that was for sure! 

Then I remembered the oddest date we’d ever had, when I was over at his house 
thinking we were all alone without a clue that his mother was watching us.   I 
couldn't help but shiver even after all these years at the memory of the shock I’d 
felt when she walked in the room while Steve was on top of me, fucking me hard.  
I couldn't help but smile to myself as I remembered that even though we both 
were horrified to be caught in such a situation, neither of us had made a move so 
far as separating and Steve’s dick never shrank a bit even with his mother 
standing there watching him.

What happened next made me wonder what would happen in the upcoming days 
now with Steve.  Imagine how incredulous I had been back then when it ended 
up with Steve’s mom masturbating as she watched Steve fuck me, and then 
push me away so he could do her as well.  It had been my first introduction to 
incest.  Of course at the time I had no idea that I would have an incestuous 
relationship with my parents and relatives a few years later. 

Thinking of watching Steve doing his mother, I wondered if they had ever done it 
again?  SO far as I knew, it was a one time thing where his mom lost control, 
never to be repeated again.  At least that’s what she said when it was over.   
Steve had no idea of my own incestuous lifestyle and I struggled with whether I 
would tell him anything or not.  So far in my life it had never turned out well to let 
a guy I knew know anything about the secrets of my family.  My almost-fiancé 
Duane only knew about my aunt and cousin but that was enough to make him 
pull away from me, ultimately making my life hell for a period.  

My most recent boyfriend was the only guy I’d ever told the entire truth to and all 
he could do was push to have threesomes with my dad and me, like incest was 
some sort of on-going orgy.  No.... for now I would keep it a secret and wait to 
see how his relationship with his mom had turned out.  Then there was his sister 
Sharon as well.  I knew she always had the hots for her brother but he never 
showed even a smidgeon of interest in her.  Given what happened with his mom, 
had anything ever happened with Sharon?  SO many secrets... so many things to 
think about.

So yet again... now what?  Was Steve interested in anything more serious than 
just casual sex?  Did he have feelings for me like I had for him?  I had always 
assumed he loved me when we dated but he had never said so.  Was I just an 
easy lay for him or did her really have feelings for me?  He must have felt 
SOMETHING or why would he have been so ready to fuck me just hours before 
his wedding?

Hmmm, I wondered what happened to his younger brother?  Steve hadn't 
mentioned anything about him.  I recalled how I use to tease the poor boy 
terribly.  Sure I’d let him fuck me once but it was more with the intention of giving 
him something to want more of – but he couldn't ever have rather than fulfilling 
any fantasies he may have had about me.

God, the more I thought about things the more memories kept coming back to 
me, like I was in some sort of therapy session.   We’d had so many fun times 
together.  There was the time he fucked me in the basement during his sister’s 
slumber party while his mom was in her bedroom right above us.  That time was 
extra special to me because I had kept a mouthful of his cum afterwards and 
hurried upstairs to his sister’s room and kissed her with his cum still in my mouth.  
It was hilarious when she realized what she was tasting, not to mention the 
reaction of the rest of our friends when they found out.

Yes, when it came to Steve it was like the memories just kept surfacing more and 
more as I thought about him.  The question now was still the same... now what?


Chapter 7 – Going Forward?
==========================

How many people can say their first love was their true love?  Not many I would 
bet.  In fact, I would have been among those that say it was probably all but 
impossible to find your true love at such a young age.  Still, it wasn't like Steve 
had been my ONLY love.  Guys had come and gone over the years, just as girls 
had come and gone in his life.  Heck, he even married one so there had to be a 
time when he thought SHE was his true love.  Even I thought I had found my true 
love when I was with Duane.

For both Steve and I, it seemed that every time we thought we had found the 
love of our life, something had happened to steer us away.  I was lucky enough, 
although at the time I wouldn't have thought so, to have split up with Duane 
before making a commitment that I would have not been able to break.  Steve, 
while having taken the big step, at least learned early enough that it was wrong 
for him to have the marriage annulled. 

Was fate trying to tell us something?  In a way, was this perhaps why I was so 
driven to sex all these years?  Was it all some cosmic plan by God to show me 
that no matter how many guys I was with, no matter what I did with my life, that 
my true love had been there all the time for me from the start?

Personally, I have never agreed with the “save yourself for marriage” concept 
and now I would say I disagree with it all the more.  How can you know someone 
is really the one for you without having something to compare against, something 
on which to base that decision?

Even though we’d only been on this one date since his return to my life, even 
though we didn't have sex, I KNOW deep in my heart that Steve is the one for 
me.  Perhaps it’s because we did NOT have sex that I’m all the more convinced 
that my feelings are true.  If I can feel this way about someone and NOT have 
had sex with them, then I know it’s got to be something really special.

THE END

  

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