Subject: Resolving My Duane Drama
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Diary Date: September 11, 2008
Author: Kelly <pghpa_girl@yahoo.com>
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Summary
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Everyone keeps asking me what has happened recently between Duane and me
so here it is... This is just for my fans who want to know what's
happening in my life. For the rest of you, don’t bother as there's no
sex in this one!
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I won't rehash all that’s been going with me and Duane recently except to
offer a brief synopsis. Read my earlier Diary entries and e-mails
between me and people like Jane Ward, Denise Moore, Sissy Moore, and
Heather Farow if you want the gory details.
Here's the situation... Duane and I have been dating since April and I’m
madly in love with the guy. I’ve always assumed I would never tell a
boyfriend about my incestual lifestyle until he proposed, and then making
it a condition of my acceptance that he allow it to continue. Well, now
that I may be facing the reality of a proposal, I've changed my mind. I
want to be able to say YES when he proposes, not enter into some sort of
negotiation. Thus I have to know if he is OK with things BEFORE he
proposes. It's more risky, but I think Duane's worth it. After all, the
guys is looking at wedding rings so he MUST be getting serious about
things.
HOW to tell him is the problem. I debated this extensively, even posting
a "muse" on my web site about it. Lots of people have responded and of
course, everyone disagrees on how to approach it.
One idea I liked was to have him see my cousin Kristi and Aunt Linda
having sex and see how he reacted to a mother-daughter situation in real
life. Seeing a fake scene in a porn movies is one thing but what about
when it involved women he personally knew? One thing I had going for me
was he has had sex with both of them in the past, before we started
dating. He did it first with Kristi and then with Aunt Linda after he
got to know her.
The catch is that he always did them separately and had no idea just how
"close" they really were. Foolishly, I ran the idea past Kristi who
thought it was a great idea (as if there any chance she wouldn't). Over
the Labor Day weekend, my mother and I visited my grandmother in
Illinois. Silly me, I assumed nothing would happen until I got back and
we all talked about it some more.
I say "foolishly" because I should’ve known better than to plant an idea
like that in my cousin's head. Kristi is all about one thing - Kristi.
Well, more accurately, Kristi and sex. If your cousin was a prostitute
and neighborhood slut, with little to no inhibitions or morals, would you
trust her with such an idea? If anyone should have known better, it was
me. My only defense is I was so wrapped up in my fears about Duane, I
didn't think about what I was doing when I literally lit a match in a
gasoline filled room.
Long story short (the long version is in my diary), Kristi took it on her
own initiative to fuck Duane at church and then bring him home where her
mom entered into the equation. Needless to say, I was a little shocked
when I got back, not so much because they had sex (not like they hadn't
before), but that they had done it together. Fortunately, I learned that
Duane is a red-blooded, all- American heterosexual male (as if I didn’t
already know) and had been totally turned on by the entire affair. Now
all I wanted was for him to tell me all about it.
I need to mention that although we have been dating seriously for months,
Duane and I are not officially “exclusive”. For the most part, we both
enjoy a good party and having some fun so we each have had our share of
casual sex under such conditions. Until now, we have both told each
other when we did it while the other wasn't around.
To be fair to Duane, we never formally said we would, we just did and so
I’ve grown accustomed to it and more or less expect it. As for me,
between my growing love for him and being busy starting the new school
year as a teacher, I really haven’t done it with that many other guys in
the past few months (much to the apparent dismay of my web site
readers!). Duane still enjoys a good fuck now and then, which I don't
mind so long as he is there for me afterwards – and tells me about it.
As the days went by, not only did he NOT tell me about his little tryst
with my relatives, but he even did them again! This time I was there,
though he didn’t know it. I used my lunch break to go to my Aunt’s
expecting to ask her and Kristi for more information about what had
happened but Duane was already there, up in the bedroom fucking Kristi.
My Aunt may have looked guilty about it at the time, but yet it was
obvious she was enjoying it all the same. Needless to say, Duane didn’t
tell me about THIS time either.
So leave it to Kelly to over-react. Anyone who knows me knows one of my
basic character flaws is to overanalyze everything and read a lot more
into a situation than is there. You would think after all the problems
this has caused me over the years I would learn, but it’s just a part of
me. Ever try telling a smoker to quit? You’ll have just as much luck
telling me to stop parsing someone’s actions or words, or lack of them.
OK, so I went off the deep end. I blamed my cousin for ruining
everything, even though what she had “ruined” I never really did
understand. I was mad at Duane for “hiding” it from me. I was mad at my
mom as apparently she had talked to my Aunt Linda during the weekend and
knew about everything before I did – and didn’t tell me. I was
especially mad at myself, for even thinking my cousin could have such a
“juicy” idea in her blonde head without acting on it. I was mad and
upset at everyone.
Fortunately, a number of my friends (including several from on-line)
calmed me down and made me realize how stupid I was being. Really, if I
was to marry Duane, one of the “benefits” for him would be that he could
fuck my aunt and cousin all he wanted (assuming they wanted to), PLUS my
mom (and I KNOW she wants it) and even my 16 year-old cousin Tammy
(again, only if she wanted it). I couldn’t expect a report from him
every time he fucked them. Besides, was I planning on telling Duane
every time my dad fucked me? Obviously not so maybe it was a little to
expect of him to tell me about his latest endeavors.
The only question lingering in my mind was whether he was hiding it from
me or just not telling me because he didn’t think about it in the first
place. Since he went back for a repeat just a few days later, he
obviously liked it. Was he embarrassed to tell me? I doubted that was
the case since he had seen me and Kristi playing together at parties (no
different than the other girls did) so why would be not tell me anything
that had to do with her?
The more I thought about it, the more I started to think I was simply
giving him too much credit. After all, he IS a man (and WHAT a man he
is) which means when it comes to certain things in life he is genetically
at a disadvantage. Men can be so stupid and insensitive at times but I
have also learned it’s usually not because they WANT to be, it is because
they are born that way. It’s a guy thing.
There was only one way to find out for certain. Thus the other night
when he took me out to Applebee’s for dinner, I was ready to ask him
point blank what the situation was between him, and my relatives.
Needless to say, it wasn’t that easy. God, why can’t men take a hint?
Finally, after going all around the issue without directly asking about
it, I just put on my best smile, held his hand, and asked him how he was
enjoying doing my aunt and cousin. I had to be a little discreet as we
WERE in a public restaurant so I couldn’t say anything like, “How was it
fucking my Aunt and cousin?” Nonetheless, he FINALLY got the message.
This isn’t one of my typical diary entries where I try to recreate a
conversation so I'll just say what happened instead of pretending to
remember it word for word. Bottom line, he was surprised that I knew
about it but at the same time, didn’t seem to be able to comprehend why I
was concerned about it.
Men! Why do men always seem to think that girls don't tell each other
EVERYTHING? It doesn't matter what she tells him, she WILL tell her
friends. As to why I would be concerned, again it was just a classic
illustration of how clueless men are about relationships. Apparently,
since he knew that I was aware of his past escapades with my aunt and
cousin, even if it was a long time ago, he seemed to think I wouldn’t
want to be told again. Well duh! Earth to Duane! I really love this
guy and normally he is so smart, but there are times when I have to
wonder about him.
So that was it. I felt like an idiot but at least he wasn't cheating on
me or trying to hide anything from me. We DID made an agreement to tell
each other about ALL our sexual activities in the future (well, I crossed
my fingers a little when it came to my family). Don’t worry, I showed
him my appreciation in the car on the way back home!
So now what? At least I know he wasn't freaked out seeing a real mother
and daughter having sex together. Of course, watching two whores having
sex isn’t the same as seeing his girlfriend and her “normal” mom in a 69,
but at least it’s a start. Based on what my closest friends are all
telling me, I think the best plan is to just tell him straight out the
entire situation rather than doling it out piece by piece as I had
originally thought of doing. Now I just have to figure out how! My
inclination is to wait until we’ve had some great sex and I’m holding his
dick while I tell him but not everyone agrees with my thinking there.
Any suggestions?
THE END