My Story 46
By Corbin
How life tests the endurance, patience, and sometimes faith of one young woman.

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"Woo hoo!" Jenn piped up when we went back into the house, "Now that Corbin is 
officially playing on the girls team, I don't have to compete with her for guys 
on the beach!"

"That's right." I laughed, in fact everyone got a good laugh out of it.

Thankfully there wasn't much more time to dwell on this as Tina had just pulled 
up into the driveway. It was a real spectacle as Sharon, Kelly and Rachel each 
hurried down the stairs to greet our new guest, like some damn dignitary 
visiting.

I had just sat down next to Jenn, handing a glass of Wine to Vera when the whole 
gang came up the stairs, "Damn, they're in full chatter mode now." I moaned, it 
was nauseating the way the whole group was giggling and carrying on. Tina was 
loving every bit of the excited attention she was getting, Sharon led her by 
the hand upstairs with Kelly and Rachel hot on their heels like two little 
Schoolgirls. "This is going to be so great! It's been forever Tina!" Sharon 
gushed while I had to keep from gagging.

"Wow, this place is nice Sharon, I like it allot." Tina praised. I did raise an 
eyebrow and must now admit to you kind readers, Tina was a stunner, a real 
beauty of a woman, more so now then from when I remembered her in High School. 
She had an imposing stature, her almost six-foot frame and long blonde hair 
(BITCH! A real blonde too, Damn! I can be so petty and competitive sometimes), 
her face was long and angular, with almost model like structure with slightly 
sunken cheeks. Her body was already a golden tan and she carried a charismatic 
air. I now understood why she was so revered in school and in some 
cases...feared. She had socially ruled the school, with close inroads and family 
influences on the Board of Supervisors. So if Tina couldn't take you down a peg 
or two, she could make life miserable for you in other ways. Gee, sound like 
someone else I know?

"Tina, do you remember Corbin?" Sharon pulled the girl in my direction.

Now I was felling a bit nervous for some reason, Tina eyed me suspiciously but 
then leaned over to give me a warm hug. She gave me a nice rub and pat on the 
back and then looked straight over to Sharon, "You weren't exaggerating Sharon." 
And then looks back at me, "Your a solid piece of muscle."

What the hell? Like, just stick me back in the closet or something now that 
you're your done sizing me up...'A solid piece of muscle?', oh never mind, I'm 
just being bitchy, but I think it all had a very condescending tone and sound to 
it. So what did I do? Well I really showed her! :) I just smiled like an idiot 
and thanked her for that compliment.

"I was going to bring my fiance along, but then I remembered you mentioned that 
you wanted this to be a 'girls only' vacation." Tina said before giving Sharon 
another hug. Tina was 25 at that time, a bit older then the rest of us and I 
noted her air of confidence and comfort with being the center of attention, I 
was a little surprised at how even Sharon seemed to cater to this girls every 
need. 

"What a spectacle." Vera groaned into my ear while giving me a slight nudge on 
my arm.

"Yeah..." Sipping my wine, "...that's why I never joined a sorority in College, 
I can't take all the giddy, giggly, hyper-girly activity."

All during dinner Tina kept giving me the once over, but I knew what she was 
doing, she was trying to figure me out, how to 'handle' me. You see, I just tend 
to sit back and smile at everyone's conversation while politely eating. So, 
because I can be quiet during first introductions I can be a bit hard to figure 
out, at least that's what I am told.

After dinner, everyone made plans to go out for the evening, but Sharon 
pulled me and Tina aside so the three of us could sit upstairs while Vera, 
Kelly, Jenn and Rachel all were getting ready downstairs.

"Tina, I want you to know something, it's really important."

"Really? What is it?" Tina leans in, interlocking her fingers around her left 
knee, as she looked over to her left watching me nervously knock my knees  
while my left hand nervously twirls a lock of hair, for crying out loud I looked 
ridiculous as I sat there, being all nervous. I mean I am a grown woman!

"My friend Nikki is coming into town on Wednesday, but she and I are more then 
friends. We're both in a serious, committed relationship with one another." I 
said, and found myself more confident and empowered as the words rolled off my 
tongue.

Tina cocks her head to the left and her eyes narrow, "Well that's cool with me, 
as long as you two are happy, that's most important." Tina smiles and I believed 
her.

I just hope that everyone I come across will be as understanding and supportive 
as my friends are being now.

**********

That night we all went out dancing, it was nice, and we ALL were pretty 
conservative and even came back early to turn in. I think Tina was tired from 
the drive and it had been an exhausting day for everyone.

Honestly, I had another reason for coming back a little early;
"Hello my love." I heard Nikki sigh into the phone, her voice had that rich 
tone, it told me she misses me terribly. 

"I told everyone about us." I blurted out the news in my usual tactful manner, 
"So that when you come on Wednesday, it will be all out in the open."

"Oh my god, really? Are you serious?" Nikki's voice rose with excitement, I 
could tell she was processing everything in real time. 

"Are you mad with me for telling everyone?" I urgently asked, not sure why, 
there wasn't the slightest bit of irritation from Nikki.

"What? Why in the world would I be mad?" 

"Maybe you might have wanted us to tell them together, maybe? I don't know." I 
babbled some reason out that made the most sense.

"No way, I love the fact you told them, it makes me feel so good 
inside Corbin. This is all really happening, this is something I've dreamed of 
for so long with you." 

"I told them I loved you so much." I cried into the phone and that just pushed 
Nikki over the edge as she started to ball too.

Well just great, this is getting all mushy and stuff, so don't gag on me.

**********

Tuesday I wasn't in much of a mood to hang out at the beach, I was able to snag 
Jenn and walk into Duck to scout out some places to eat for dinner and maybe hit 
a few surf shops (although I chuckle at that, surf in duck? More like a giant 
lake). Besides, the other girls were already getting very cozy with some of the 
guys at the other Houses, and that just wasn't my scene.

The heat and humidity had not let up, so we were good and drenched with sweat by 
the time we started walking back.

"Thanks Corbin." Jenn said, patting me on the back, "This was a great idea, 
getting all hot and sweaty, trekking up and down the road here."

"Suck it up wimp." I said with a smile. "You wanna get some lunch?" I pointed to 
a Cafe and Raw bar nestled in a tiny shopping strip.

"Yeah, at least it will get us out of the heat."

Jenn was right about that, the cool air in the restaurant was nice and we even 
decided to sit at the bar. Being close to lunch the place was starting to fill 
up, there wasn't much to brag about, it was a nice little place with your 
typical beach type decorations and such, some slow moving overhead fans did an 
adequate job of circulating the air and of course the bar had some TV's tuned 
into the usual sports news.

"Hey, mind if I ask some nosey questions?" Jenn taps me on the wrist with her 
straw and I know where this is going.

"Fire away." I say and raise a knowing eyebrow at her.

"So who came onto who first?" Jenn was now giving me this gossipy, curious smile 
she gets as she leans over to sip on her diet coke.

"Nikki hit on me." I said and did my best to keep from grinning like some idiot.

"How did that go over? I mean, were you both sober and were you offended when 
she made a pass at you?" Jenn asked. She seemed really interested, or maybe it 
was just nosey gossip, but either way I didn't mind sharing a few things with 
her. Might as well get used to it, it wont be the last barrage of questions 
before the week is out.

"Yes we were both totally sober and no I was not offended, just freaked out, we 
both were afraid of what the impact on our friendship would have."

As with any occasion, whenever I try to have a in-depth conversation I get 
interrupted. I am looking to my right, talking with Jenn when I sense someone is 
standing to my left, very close to my left. The second I glance over to my left 
he is now speaking...

"Can we buy you girls a drink?"

Oh what the hell!? Can't I sit down and have a minutes peace!!

I casually leaned back in my chair and didn't even crack a smile, "Thanks, but 
were just hanging out and trying to have some lunch."

He wasn't too happy with that and thankfully Jenn just looked away, not giving 
him the time of day. I really was more annoyed then anything. When we left the 
restaurant my mood perked up tremendously as I realized that it wouldn't be that 
long before Nikki would be here. We text messaged back and forth several times 
and talked later that night. 

**********

The idea to go out to dinner was scrapped because the girls had invited some 
guys over to dinner at the house, dinner as in ordering pizza. Such a healthy 
selection of food! *Yuck* Well, I don't mind pizza all that much, it's just that 
it always tastes like I am chewing on a big wad of dough, that's all, as my anal 
mind begins processing the calorie intake.

I had a small slice and then had some fruit and some left over baked chicken. I 
cannot stress how eating small portions is so important, don't buy into these 
bullshit news articles that there are FAT genes or a FAT virus going around, the 
responsibility resides with YOU AND YOU ALONE!

Eat less and exercise more, it's as easy as it gets.

The guys that showed up were from that first day on the beach, that Sharon and 
everyone else played volleyball with. I say 'everyone else' because if you 
recall I had little *fit* and stormed off to the house. 

These are all nice guys and wouldn't you know it there was at least one guy for 
every girl, how in the hell did that happen, did these morons invite the whole 
street! Kelly has a serious boyfriend back home and did nothing to lead any guys 
on, I really like Kelly and was glad to see how respectful she acted.

"You have a guy back home?" I was asked early on in the night. Most of the guys 
didn't even ask, they could care less, it was vacation time and the attitude of 
what happens 'here' stays 'here'. I hate that sluttish mentality.

"A girl." I said with a smile as I sat down on one of the bar stools. That's a 
tactic I use to keep people from standing right in my personal space, by sitting 
down at the counter, I puts more distance between myself and the guys around me. 
Well, at least it makes it more awkward.

"Really!" came the reply, a reply that was coated in intrigue and shock.

"So have you always been gay?" Came the next question.

"I'm bisexual." I said and was rather shocked that the admittance came out of my 
mouth so casually, so comfortably even.

"She dated one of the hottest guys back in college, he was the Duke football 
quarterback and all." Said Kelly who was now at my side.

"So does that mean you might go back to dating guys?"

"No, Nikki and I are solid, she's the one." I smiled and took a sip from my wine 
glass. 

Seems I was a bit of a puzzle to these guys and I finally started to see what 
Sharon meant by a 'people magnet', they either wanted to hang out with me, 
befriend me, date me, or sleep with me, usually the priority was in the reverse 
order. So now you know why I like to vent, and have some hostile anti-social 
issues, it still plucks my nerves that most guys have one goal when striking up 
a conversation with me, (a) To get intimate, which will hopefully move onto (b) 
To have sex with me, unfortunately this can illicit jealousy, and very 
irrational jealousy from other women and men that are in the same social 
setting.



  
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