My Story 40
By Corbin
How life tests the endurance, patience, and sometimes faith of one young woman.

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"Recent medical research into the secrets of biology confirms what we always 
knew: that women are tougher, stronger and lustier than anyone ever thought. Our 
challenge is to surpass these expectations!"
		-Jennie Chua 

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So how about I share some of the social dynamics that go on behind the scenes at 
my gym?

I know that I briefly mentioned in one of my prior rants that there is the 
'Anti-Corbin League' where I am a member. Well, it's really just a very small, 
loose knit organization of guys and girls, but I still like the above title, 
it adds an element of drama to it all. Actually, it's all pretty funny, 
but let me sort things out and I'm sure you'll get a good chuckle out of it, I 
know I do:

1.) Just because you happen to be into lifting (guy or girl), as I am, does not 
make us sudden acquaintances and/or friends. Nor do I want to spot you on a 
REGULAR basis, and no I don't want you spotting me and no I don't want to stand 
around swapping stories about exercise routines or diets. This attitude of mine 
has caused some tension between myself and several 'regulars' at the gym.

2.) Just because YOUR group is the 'perceived' in-crowd-click of fit, 
attractive, young people to run with, that does not mean I want to be a part of 
it. And yep, you guessed it, that very group I just mentioned is the central 
core of those that dislike me the most, mostly over the fact that I wouldn't pal 
around, or date, or hang out with 'said' people. They are not bad people, 
some are pretty smart and accomplished, but their attitude and 
behavior in the gym leaves a lot to be desired, besides, I'm there to exercise 
not socialize, or show-off, or flirt. I let *them* know that in less then 
cordial ways, so I think they have bruised egos.

3.) Now try and follow this next one: When I snub a guy that did NOT ask out 
some other girl who has a crush on him, THAT girl and her friends now give me 
evil glares and gossip behind my back at the gym. It's called jealousy and that 
makes them sub-affiliates of the 'Anti-Corbin League'. Good grief, got all that?

4.) Most members try and get in-and-out of the gym for simple regular workouts, 
thank god, those people I get along with. 

5.) Just because you are a guy who is in great shape and loves women who are in 
great shape, does not mean that I will allow you to muscle worship me. In fact, 
you guys are THE LAST I WOULD EVER ALLOW. I like men that are shy and humble.

All I ask is an hour or two of peace for working out, well okay, maybe I threw a 
little attitude back in the face of some people more then I should. But look, 
when I'm on a stair machine, busting my ass, sweat rolling out of my body, and 
some guy (yes attractive at times) comes right up to me and starts 
chatting/flirting with me, I don't like that. I drop bomb-shell hints like not 
removing my earphones/plugs while he was talking, maybe rude but I can't open 
the door to conversation even a little, it would just start a tidal wave if I 
started to give off the persona of being approachable. Sure that gets me 
labeled as severely stuck-up/arrogant/self centered...okay, you get it, whatever 
floats your little boat to call me.

And no doubt I've been short and nasty with folks who stand/sit around and chit 
chat on equipment or who do not re-rack weights in the right order. I mean fuck 
almighty, how hard is it to but the 65 lb dumbbells on the rack that is labeled 
65lbs!!! It doesn't go back onto the 10 lb rack!!!! But these lazy, dimwits just 
place it down on the nearest rack available, sometimes leaving them on the floor 
to trip over. I even bitched at the manager to expel these repeat offenders, yet 
I'm the one that gets in trouble for confronting other members..."It's not your 
job Corbin, go get one of the employee's and they will handle it."

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It had only been about a month since Sharon and Paul split up and my little  
voice warned me not to read too much into Sharon's words, the way she would  
always taunt me, more so then normal. 
 
I submit the following evidence where Sharon was concerned; Whenever just the 
two of us were in the house I observed a significant shift in how Sharon 
dressed. Her attire became extremely reveling and provocative, the total 
opposite of what she would wear in public. Yes, Sharon enjoyed wearing sexy 
attire at times, but I felt like she was taking it to the extreme by putting on 
her 'short' shorts, the kind that easily ride up into one's crotch and ass.  I 
felt like every time she got off the couch or whatever, she was flashing me on 
purpose.
  
I could never visualize Sharon and I making that romantic connection for some 
reason, I just didn't think she would ever 'swing' that way, it's not like I 
have allot of experience, Nikki being my only 'girlfriend' up until now and we 
were both deep in the closet as well.  
 
Sharon's friendship was always intense, but we never competed for men. We were a 
team it seemed, sure we would argue, but always had the others back. Sharon also 
knew better then to push ALL of my buttons at once, I rarely blew my top, but 
when I did I usually ended up pounding on something (or someone) and while 
Sharon was a tough girl, she knew I could whip her in a fight if push came to 
shove.

I've never been into going to Dance Clubs, but with Sharon now single she wanted 
to go out dancing and the girl could dance too; So I was dragged along as her 
partner in crime, which is fine, we have a good time but I'm really more into 
observing the whole club/bar scene and not into socializing like Sharon is. 
Besides the only time I really ever felt like dancing was either with Dale or 
Nikki (preferably Nikki :) 



  
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