College 09
By Corbin
How life tests the endurance, patience, and sometimes faith of one young woman.

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"An only child alone and wild," 
				-Dan Fogelberg
 

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Nikki and I started to spend a lot of time together, we would go out and have a 
few drinks but always came back to the dorms together hand in hand as we felt 
the bonds of a deep friendship take root, in ways neither of us had ever 
experienced before.

Nikki finally got an Apartment close to campus and we spent a great deal of time 
there; talking, studying and just hanging out. On one evening in particular I 
found myself staring out the window of her car as I sat in the passenger seat, 
thinking about how far away from home I was, about my small room back at my 
parent's house how I had spent so many years growing up in that house. Suddenly 
I looked over and studied Nicole (I call her Nicole sometimes because that is 
her formal name) for a few minutes, she had such beautiful features, her eyes, 
neck, cheek bones...'She belongs on a cover girl magazine not getting banged up 
on some soccer field' I thought.

"Let's sit down on the couch before one of us falls down." Nikki pointed as we 
both stumbled into her apartment, exhausted and a little drunk. I sighed, 
suddenly feeling serious and maybe a little mushy as I leaned back 
against the soft cushion, rubbing my tired eyes.
 
"Your a class act." Nikki reached over and touched my left shoulder to 
punctuate the sincerity of her comment.
 
"Thanks Nic, I try." I slowly tried to focus on Nikki's face, difficult to do 
given my inebriated state. There wasn't allot more to say, Nikki and I had 
already shared everything there was to know about each other, she new I was a 
virgin and to my pleasant surprise she was also, I almost broke out in tears 
when she told me. I wasn't shocked when she told me, the more I came to know 
about my beautiful friend the more I understood that she had some very strong 
conservative values, much like mine, another reason we were so drawn to one 
another. But the fact of the matter is, when you ooze sexuality like Nikki, 
people tend to 'assume' things, and I was one of those people. I think it was 
her strong Portuguese influences (where she was born and raised for a good 
portion of her life) which included a naturally tan, strong athletic body that 
made for a very exotic, seductive, and sexual cocktail that all men and allot of 
women wanted to drink from. 

Nikki had a serious boyfriend all right, she and Rob had dated for over a year 
now. I wanted to hate him but he turned out to be such a decent, nice guy that I 
couldn't help but like him, no wonder Nikki fell in love with him.

As we sat there, Nikki gave me this warm, appreciative smile, she blushed a 
little and tilted her head some, her full lips parted to speak but she appeared 
at a total loss of words! Her dark eyes kept looking away, but her fingernails 
did the talking along my shoulder, gently squeezing. It was another awkward 
moment, my heart was pounding and I nervously reached up with my right hand to 
touch her left hand that still was on my shoulder. Nikki looked up and gave me 
that wonderful smile of hers, not a full blown toothy smile, but a good smile 
nonetheless, our fingers intertwined and I felt another dangerous moment 
approaching. My desires were pushing me toward something that I never thought I 
would be doing, let alone contemplating having a romantic kiss with another 
girl. The scary thought for me was wondering if Nikki was thinking the same 
thing?

How could we both be sitting here talking about loosing our virginity on our 
wedding night, and at the same time I want to kiss this girl! I'm so messed up!

Another close call, but we both were tired and I stood to get ready for bed, I 
smiled and closed my eyes as my head rolled to the left and right to work out my 
stress. I suddenly felt Nikki grab my shoulders from behind and gently pinch, 
work my muscles, "Oh god Nikki." I moaned as Nikki's strong fingers probed deep 
into my muscles "Where did you learn to do that?"
 
"You know I'm into physical therapy." She said softly.
 
"They teach massage techniques like that in Physical Therapy?" I smiled 
sarcastically not having a clue as to what I was talking about, more to 
tease Nicole.
 
"Well, something like that, but not everyone has a talent for it." Nikki 
smiled with self satisfaction and then released her grip, performing a small 
pat on my back with her left palm before stepping away, "You got great 
muscle definition." She said in a whisper.
 
"Freaking tease." I whipped my head around, my long blonde hair flying 
over my shoulder as I watched Nikki walk towards the bedroom, my eyes unable to 
resist watching her walk away. Her snug skirt framed the most beautiful butt I 
had ever seen, she had that subtle sway in her hips when she walked, and again I 
felt like I wanted to cry. I had seen Nikki undressed and nude in the locker 
room plenty of times, so I already knew how perfect her body was, but I was able 
to keep my feelings in check and focus on sports. But here, alone, together, I 
was constantly finding myself being tested in ways I never dreamed of.

Nik also did some modeling on the side, but never talked about it much, 
most guys and girls thought Nikki's looks and body should not be getting all 
banged, scratched and bruised in sports. But Nik was truly an athlete; she was 
tall, strong, and fast! I think faster then any other girl on the team so she 
could really move the ball down the field.

"Maybe if you're a good girl I'll give you a full massage one of these days." 
Nikki said as she disappeared into her dark bedroom.

"Huh? Good! If I'm anymore good I'll have to join a convent." I rolled my eyes 
and pushed off from the table snapping to attention.
 
Nikki reappeared in her doorway, her left arm cradling a nightshirt, in her 
right hand a pillow and blanket.
 
"Oh thanks." I smiled and walked towards her, but Nikki pulled her right 
arm away when I reached for the pillow. "What?" I paused, thinking I had 
done something wrong.
 
"It's for me, I'll take the sofa, you take I bed." Nikki smiled.
 
"No way, I'll take the sofa Nikki." I insisted.
 
"No, I am taking the sofa." She took a step back.
 
"Come on, really please." I pleaded.
 
"No." Nikki shook her head and held the blanket and pillow out of arms reach.
 
"Fine." I sighed and walked towards the bathroom. The night shirt was barely 
long enough to cover my panties, but I wasn't shy around Nik, as I already said 
we had each seen each other in various stages of undress in the women's locker 
room and nude in the showers.
 
"Good night." Nikki said, standing in the doorway to the dark bedroom and 
from my vantage point my eyes noted, quickly though, the outline of 
Nikki's toned bare legs and how her own night shirt barely covered her 
privates.
 
"Thanks for letting me stay." and I took a short step forward, Nikki quickly 
stepped in and reached for me, at least that is what I perceived it to be and 
reached out to return her hug. For some reason, and I wasn't sure, it was 
uncomfortable, 'Something surely feels awkward' I thought. Yet physically, 
things felt good as the front of our bodies pressed against one another, our 
breasts free from the confines of our bra's pressed against one another. I could 
also tell the free movement had stimulated our nipples, but nothing as intimate 
then the briefest of touches that took place between our pubic mounds. A shiver 
went up my spine as Nikki's crotch felt as if it was actually pressing into mine 
and shockingly, I had the urge to press back, and I did! We both willing allowed 
the hug to linger a second or two longer then it probably should have. It was an 
exchange that burned into my brain, leaving me confused, hostile, embarrassed 
but wanting more as we both pulled away.
 
I felt safe as I snuggled under the blanket, drawing my knees up tight to 
my chest in a ball as I thought about my friend in the other room, school, boys, 
home and finally sleep.
 
"Huh?" I sat up, it was sometime in the night still, my sleepy eyes looked 
for and found the glowing green light of the digital display clock, next to 
the bed; 4:30am.  
 
"You okay?" 
 
The voice startled me as I looked over to the door, seeing Nikki standing 
there with a glass of water in her hand. "Sorry, I must have startled you 
when I got something to drink, go back to bed." and she turned to walk 
back into the kitchen.

I slowly laid down and closed my eyes, I was out of it but pleasantly 
surprised I didn't have a hang over. I heard a glass being gently placed 
into the sink and I smiled as my friend tried to be quiet.
 
"Nikki." I called out from the bedroom and a few seconds later she was 
there, but it was still so dark, I could only make out a silhouette.
 
"Yeah?" Nikki replied.
 
"I'd feel much better if you would just sleep in here with me, after all it's a 
double bed, and I feel bad about you being on that couch."
 
"It's not so bad." 

I just laid there, my eyelids growing heavy again and I sighed with an odd 
'down' feeling, I guess she wasn't going to take me up on my request. But a 
minute later my head sprung up off the pillow as I felt someone's weight on the 
mattress and watched Nikki's long dark form crawl over to the right side of the 
bed. "But it's not as comfortable as the bed." Nikki whispered jokingly and we 
both smiled as I pulled the cover over both of us.
 
"Nice to have another warm body nearby." I sighed, but kept my eyes shut 
as I remained turned away from my friend. My heart felt like it was beating 
in an irregular manner. I in fact could feel Nikki close, so very close.
 
I just about had a heart attack, but remained still, at the unexpected touch of 
Nikki's hand now resting on my waist. My hand moved from its tucked position and 
found that of my friends, slowly our fingers intertwined. I closed my eyes and 
took a deep breath as I scooted back closer to Nik, neither of us spoke a word 
as our bodies adjusted and snuggled against one another. It seemed all very 
innocent, both of us finding physical comfort in the other's arms. It was a kind 
of a reassurance, a special bond of sorts as Nikki and I held one another in 
silence, but yet the silence remained as if we both knew how fragile the moment 
was. Nikki curled her right forearm across my tummy and pulled me in close as we 
lay in the classic 'spoon' position.

Somewhere between consciousness and sleep I felt Nikki's head turn and her warm 
mouth press against the back of my head, she sounded sleepy when she said the 
words, and I still wonder if I was truly awake when she uttered, "I think your 
beautiful."

"Thank you Nikki." I whispered back.

"Your welcome love." Nikki softly said, I think we were both dead asleep shortly 
after that.

That was the first time that I can remember contemplating what it might be like 
to have a girlfriend as in dating another girl. I knew allot of guys that would 
do back flips to be in Nikki's position, or in mine for that matter. But here we 
were, two girls finding comfort in each other's arms tonight. But it was all 
innocent as I indicated, even if it wasn't the case deeper in our subconscious.

While these moments of bonding with Nikki where wonderful and some of my fondest 
memories, there where also many times that I wanted to cry, my emotions were so 
messed up where Nikki was concerned, I was very disturbed that I was falling for 
another girl.

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"Thanks for everything." I smiled as Nikki pulled up in front of my dorm. 
We had not spoken allot this morning, we both seemed to be having lengthy 
conversations in our respective heads about what did and 'did not' 
take place last night.
 
"I'll see you at practice later today." Nikki said and looked down at her lap.
 
"You betcha!" I smiled and paused, quickly I leaned over and hugged Nikki 
around the neck, she was initially caught off guard but returned my hug 
with equal intensity.
 
"You're my best friend." I whispered into Nikki's ear and quickly pulled 
away, bolting from the car and running up the steps to the dorm not 
looking back once.
 



  
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