Tiffany's Diaper Tales
Volume II
By BabyInDiapers
Written 08/01/2006
Chapter 047
Time was going by quickly. It was the middle of November. The
weather was beginning to cool down. This thanksgiving we would
be taking a special trip to where Aunt Kathy and Amy used to
live. The radiation levels were now low enough for people to
go back to these areas. Wednesday Amy flew in from Montana.
Thursday we had thanks giving dinner at our house. Tammy did
not come home for thanksgiving since she was hanging out with
some friends at college. Teala was also busy at work and
couldn't take off.
Friday morning we got in the truck and began our journey.
Kevin was along with us. Daddy and mommy sat up front, and Amy
and I sat in the back with Kathy and Kevin. Daddy's truck was
super big so there was enough room. When we started getting
closer to Aunt Kathy's area we saw many new buildings. Then we
got down into the area where Aunt Kathy's house used to be and
there was a street there instead. The entire layout of the
neighborhood was totally different now. There were model homes
everywhere and the subdivision seemed empty. I guessed it was
difficult to convince people to move into an area that was
once destroyed in a nuclear blast.
Aunt Kathy seemed to be doing okay. "I'm actually glad that
they are rebuilding here. It looks totally different now
though. It used to be so scenic, now it's just another
subdivision with all the houses looking the same." Aunt Kathy
said as we drove around. We stopped for lunch and then headed
back home. It was 5 hours to get there, and 5 to get back
home. We got home at 9:30 that night. We were all tired from
just sitting in the truck all day.
That night I slept with Amy. I asked her if she was okay after
seeing everything today. "I honestly thought it would still be
all flattened and burned up still. I was glad that people are
rebuilding; but mom was right, it's not the same. Our home is
here with you guys now. And I like knowing that when I'm home
from school I get to see you guys." She said as she rolled
onto her tummy. I did the same and we fell asleep together.
The next day was Saturday. I woke up with a loaded diaper. Amy
changed me. We sat down and ate breakfast. Kevin came over
around ten. He took Aunt Kathy and Amy out for the day. I
called Laura to see how she was doing. We talked about a half
hour. I was bored and walking around the house. I found mommy
in the back yard hanging up some laundry. I sat on my swing
for a while. As we were sitting out in the yard we heard a
helicopter that sounded like it was really close. I looked up
in the sky. It was hovering over a few streets away. We heard
a bunch of sirens and then another helicopter joined.
"Mommy what's going on?" I asked as I stood next to her as we
both gazed skyward. "Not sure honey. I think that one is a
news chopper though." She said. We watched for another few
minutes. Then daddy came outside. He looked up in the sky.
"Tanya, come here." He said as he whispered something in her
ear. "Tiffany, you wait out here ok. Mommy has to go inside
for a moment." She said. I could tell something was up. I just
sat on my swing and began to pray for whoever's house it was
that the police were at.
Some time later mommy came back into the yard. She looked like
she had been crying. "Mom, what's going on." I said. I was
really worried now. Mom knelt in front of me as I sat on the
swing. "The police are at Emily's house honey." She said. "Oh
my God, are they okay mommy?" I asked. I was starting to cry.
"Honey." Mom said while crying. "Tell me, are they okay?" I
said as I grabbed her arm. Mom looked down at the ground. "No
honey, its not okay." She said as she was balling like a baby
at this point. "MOM!", I yelled as I got up and pushed her
over onto the grass. "NO!!!" I said. "WHY!" I was screaming. I
knew what she was trying to say. I had a sinking feeling in my
stomach, that Emily was gone.
Daddy ran out of the house. He held me. "Daddy what happened!"
I said while sobbing. "Someone broke into Emily's house last
night and." Daddy paused. "Tell me!" I said through my sobs.
"Honey, Emily and her mom were found in the house this
morning. They were killed." I just went into shock I was
thrashing against daddy just screaming. Everything started
spinning. Then everything went dark.
I woke up later in my crib with mommy and daddy next to me. I
sat up and then threw up all over myself and I started crying.
Mommy got out and came back and cleaned up the mess. Daddy
just held onto me. "Not fair daddy. I love my Emily. I didn't
even get to say goodbye." I said as I started shaking and
crying. My head was feeling like it would explode from the
intensity in which I was crying.
"I wish it was a bad dream and I could wake up." I said as I
calmed down somewhat. I then thought of Laura. "Does Laura
know yet?" I asked. "I don't know." Dad said. "I want to go
see Laura." I said. Mom changed my diaper because while crying
so much I had totally lost control and wet and messed myself.
Mommy diapered me so gently.
Mom and I got in the car and I laid down in the front seat as
she drove me to Laura's. We pulled into the drive way. "You
wait here. I want to talk to her mommy first." Mom said. I
just laid there trying to keep my composure. A few minutes
later my mom and Laura's mom came out to the car. Laura's mom
hugged me as I got out of the car. "Does Laura know?" "Yes.
She was watching TV when she saw the news. She's laying down
right now. She wont even talk to us. Maybe you can get through
to her." Her mom said.
We went in the house and I walked down to Laura's room. I
slipped into the door closing it behind me. "Laura, it's me,
Tiffy." There was no reaction from her. I crawled into her
crib with her. "Laura, I know you can hear me." I said softly.
I began to hold her and rub her back and pat her little tush.
I was doing everything I knew how to do to comfort her.
I didn't say anything else, I just laid there with her. Laura
began to cry after a while and I just held her close. "I'm
here baby." I said softly while holding her tightly. I began
to cry too. "It's okay, I cried a lot already too. It's ok to
cry Laura. I'll hold you, and you hold me. We'll find a way
through this somehow.
I sat up against the headboard of her crib and took off my
shirt. I already wasn't wearing a bra. "Come here baby." I
said. She got into my lap. "Want mommy milk?" I asked. She
just sniffled and slightly nodded. I slowly laid her head back
into my arms and held her close to my breasts. She began to
suck on my nipple. My milk began to flow into her mouth.
"Yummy mommy." She said as I switched her to the other side.
She fell asleep and pooped her diaper. I rolled her onto her
tummy. I put my hand on her tush to feel her loaded diaper. I
gave her a nice soft push on her diaper to mush her poo for
her. I just sat there looking at her. I had tears running down
my face. Laura's mom peaked in. I looked over at her in the
doorway. "She's going to be ok. I fed her; she pooped her
diaper and is sleeping now." I said. She then closed the door
quietly. I laid there next to her in just my diaper and pants.
I kept my shirt off. I was so exhausted that I laid there next
to her and I also fell asleep.
Mom went home and got my diaper bag packed and brought it
over. When we woke up she said I could stay with Laura if I
wanted to. "I want you to stay with us." I said. My mom looked
at Laura's mom. "It's ok if you want to spend the night."
Laura's mom said to my mom. "I'll come back tonight to tuck
you in, okay baby?" mom asked. "Otay." I said as we hugged.
We ate some dinner that night but didn't eat much. Laura and I
were not crying much either. We were just in the denial phase
now. We couldn't really process that Emily and her mom were
just gone. My mom came over around 8:30. She slept on a cot in
the room with Laura and I. I got my bath with Laura and then
we said good night to Laura's mom and dad and little brother.
Laura and I sat on the cot with mommy as she read to us. After
the story I asked mommy if she would feed me. She let me lay
back and suckle. Laura wanted to be breastfed by me as well so
I pulled off my shirt and she laid down next to me and put her
mouth on my nipple. We were so cute. Mom giggled. "You two are
so adorable." Mom said as she just let me suckle. I was
becoming such a baby. Laura also was suckling on me at the
same time. This really felt nice. Having mommy's milk and
giving my milk to Laura at the same time. I feel asleep and so
did Laura. Mom woke me and I helped her put Laura in the crib.
Then I got in and fell asleep. Mommy then laid there and
finally fell asleep.
Laura woke up in the middle of the night crying. I was also
sad. We held each other. I slid my hand up under her rubber
pants and felt the wetness on her tush. "Baby you're soakie
wettie. Let momma change you." I said. She laid there and I
diapered her. "Is everything alright." Mom asked as she was
awakened by us. "Yeah mom. I'm just changing Laura's wet
pants." I said as I slid her rubber pants back up over the new
diaper. I laid there and lie on top of me. She rested her face
between my breasts. We fell back asleep.
The next morning we got up and we all went to church. Mom took
me home to get dressed and then we game back and Laura and I
got to ride together with dad in the car, while mom and Aunt
Kathy and Kevin took the truck. Laura's parents and Joey were
in their own car. During service, we all prayed and cried and
just tried to bring our broken hearts before God. I was
somewhat mad at God, but I knew that He still loved me. Laura
was so upset that her mom held her through most of the service
as she cried.
After church Robert came by my house. I was over at Laura's.
So mom told him where I was. He came over to Laura's and rang
the bell. "Hi Robert." Linda said as she let him in. Linda
came into the room. "Tiffany, someone is here to see you." She
said. "Who is it?" I asked. "Robert." She said. "Oh." I
replied. I didn't seem to interested in seeing him. "Honey,
why don't you go say hi to him." I got up and went out to see
him. Laura was still in her room with her mom.
"Hey." He said. "Hi." I said as I sat next to him on the
couch. There was a long silence. "How are you and Laura
holding up?" he asked. "Okay I guess." I said. "I broke up
with Alicia." He said. "So, I don't care. It's not like you
can just come up in here and pretend everything's okay;
Because it's not ok ROBERT!" I said as I glared at him.
"I miss you thought." He said. "Well you should have thought
about that before you up and left me with that ho!" I said
while standing up and slapping him in the face. All of a
sudden like a ton of bricks hitting me, I just hit the floor
crying and screaming. Laura's mom ran over to me. She had
already been standing in the hall when she heard me yelling at
Robert just moments earlier.
I was hyperventilating and I lost control and loaded my
diaper. Laura's mom knelt down and held me from thrashing and
breaking stuff. "Tiffany, honey, stop it. You're going to be
okay." She said while practically holding me down. Laura came
toddling out of her room and found her way over to where I
was. "Tiffy." She said as she knelt down next to me and
touched my face. Robert just stared at us.
Linda looked up at Robert and said, "Maybe this isn't such a
good time for you to talk with Tiffany. Why don't you give her
some time. She's got a lot to deal with right now honey."
Robert headed for the door. He looked back at us on the floor
by the couch and then left, closing the door behind him. He
sat out on the steps. He lit up a cigarette and just sat their
chain smoking.
After I calmed down I got Laura back to her crib. I saw
through the window that Robert was sitting their on the steps
smoking. This made me mad. I went outside. "Since when do you
smoke!" I said as I smacked him up side the head. "Why do you
keep hitting me!" he yelled. "Because you're acting like a
jackass!" I said as I sat next to him.
We just sat there for a while. "Robert, I can't deal with you
right now. Emily's dead and you act like it doesn't even phase
you!" is yelled. "Tiffany, I do care. Okay, Emily was my
friend too. You don't think it hurts! We'll never play in the
band again without thinking of her. We wont have her to sit
with at lunch at school anymore!" he yelled back at me.
I started crying. He put his arm around me. I pushed him away.
"Don't touch me! I'm in love with Laura now! We're together.
It probably would have happened anyway, so I'm glad you dumped
me. I'm glad I didn't have to dump you." I said. "What do you
mean you and Laura are together?" "You know, we're together;
like I love her, I make out with her, she's my girlfriend
Robert!" "Oh, well that's just great! So I make a mistake and
you start dyking out with Laura?" he yelled. "Fuck you
Robert!" I screamed as I got up and ran into the house
slamming the door hard.
Linda held me as I cried on the couch. After I calmed down I
took a shower. I then got in the crib with Laura. I was
staying the night again. We would not be going to school
tomorrow. Laura's mommy checked on us and then she also went
to bed. Ralph and Joey were already asleep.
Laura and I clung to each other that night. Being with each
other helped us to feel somewhat better. We tried not talking
about or thinking about Emily. It was not easy though. Her
viewing was Wednesday night, and funeral Thursday morning. I
woke up in the middle of the night. Laura was also awake. We
talked quietly for a while. "I heard you and Robert fighting
yesterday." She said. "Yeah, he made me real mad." I said. "Do
you still love him?" she asked. "No baby, I don't, not
anymore. I love you though; and you're all I care about now."
We cuddled and fell back asleep. Mom had brought over Mr.
Fluffy, but I was cuddling with Laura instead. Mr. Fluffy was
by my feet. I felt his nice soft fur as I moved my feet under
him to keep them warm. Lately my feet got cold a lot more than
they used to. It was probably because the weather was getting
cooler. Finally around four in the morning I fell asleep.