Tiffany's Diaper Tales
Volume II
By BabyInDiapers
Written 01/03/2006
Chapter 028
School was going well. We were already in the month of
November. Our band was also doing well. we played live at
least a couple times a month for different churches and other
events in our area. One day when we were live in concert I had
to make poopy. Up until this point, I never had to do that
when I was on stage. I usually just wet my diapers and that
was it.
I tried to stay focused on the music. Instead of trying to
squat or whatever to help it come out, I just held it until it
came out by itself without me having to make faces and grunt
and so on. I felt so embarrassed because I was blushing and I
must have been making it obvious I was pooping.
At the end of one song that was fast paced I decided to have
some fun and fall back on my tush while playing a solo and use
my feet to push me back and then twirl around on my messy
bottom. This helped to mush it and make it less lumpy and
noticeable. I then got up and we finished the concert a few
minutes later.
Back stage Emily and Laura were like "What was going on with
you during the second to the last song?" I smiled and told
them I was going poopy and I had to squish my diaper to make
it less noticeable so I fell back onto my hiney and did it by
spinning on the floor on my messy diaper. "Wow that's so
cool." Laura said. Emily just smiled. "Yep you rule Tiff." she
said. Robert just gave me a silly look. I went and found my
mommy and she changed me in the restroom at this place wee
were playing at.
When mom and I came out of the bathroom stall with a dirty
diaper in her hand to throw away, some girls who were there
saw it. "Oh my god you're that girl from "Second Birth! You
all rock!" the girl said. All the time she was looking at the
diaper my mom was throwing in the trash. She looked at me. "So
um, I don't mean to pry or anything, but like how come you
wear diapers?" she asked.
"Well, I have been wearing them since I was a kid. I can't
control when I have to go potty." I said. "Oh ok, I'm sorry, I
didn't mean to embarrass you." she said. "It's ok." I said as
we all left the bathroom. Later that evening We all ordered
pizza and hung out at my place. I got sleepy after a while so
I had mommy tuck me into my crib after everyone left.
Everything was going great until one day Laura came to my
house on a Saturday afternoon. She had been somewhat withdrawn
the past month or so. She broke down and cried. She took off
her glasses because she was crying so much that her tears were
getting all over the lenses. "What's wrong Laura?" I asked as
I reached out to hold her. She was quiet for a moment trying
to gain her composure.
"You know how I had to start wearing glasses and stuff last
year, well my eyes keep getting worse. Yesterday after school
my mom and dad took me to another eye doctor to do some tests
and stuff. I, I'm losing my vision." She said while crying
more again. I didn't know what to say. "Like how much? Like I
mean is it just harder to read or are you -" I paused. "I am
going blind." she said through her sobbing.
"No you're not. I'm gonna pray for you. God can heal you." I
said. I just didn't want to accept this. Laura was my best
friend. Emily was not as close to me as she used to be. Laura
and I were inseparable so far in 8'th grade. I'm not saying I
wasn't good friends with Emily, just not as we were when we
were little. She changed a lot over the summer.
Mommy came in after a while to let us know she was going to go
get some things at the store. She noticed Laura was very
upset. "Honey, your mom told me what was going on. I'm really
sorry. I will be praying for you." Mom said as she hugged her
and I both. "Laura, no matter what happens, I'll always be
your best friend. I promise." I said as I looked at her.
"What If I forget what you look like?" she said. I thought for
a second. "Don't worry about that. Just because you may not be
able to see me, doesn't mean I won't be there for you." I
said. "And I won't be able to play in the band anymore." she
said while crying again. "Yes you will. There are lots of
blind people that play instruments. It might take some work to
get used to it, but you will do fine." Mom said. We both were
trying to comfort her.
We spent the whole day together. We played and got her mind
off of it as best as we could. Emily and Angela and Kelly and
Robert all came over and we hung out in the tree house. Later
after it got dark everyone went home. Laura was staying the
night at Emily's house. Mommy gave me a bath after I came back
into the house. "Mommy, it's not fair!" I said as I started
crying while mommy tucked me into bed.
I had been a big girl and been strong for Laura when she
needed me earlier, but it was taking a toll on me. I regressed
majorly. "Mommy, I don't want her to go blind. She's my best
fwend." I said while sobbing. Mommy held me. Somehow, even
when there was no words to say, and nothing that could be done
to change things, when mommy would hold me and comfort me, It
just seemed to magically make everything ok just for a while,
even if everything wasn't okay.
Mommy took me to her room and breastfed me. Later daddy came
to bed and we all cuddled up together. We said prayers
together and really prayed for Laura and her situation. I lay
awake even after daddy was asleep. Mommy was still awake. She
held me close. "Go to sleep baby." she whispered as she kissed
my cheek. I turned over onto my tummy. I wet my diaper and lay
still for a while. Eventually I fell asleep.
Everyone left around 9. Mommy gave me a bath and diapered me
and got me ready for bed. She read me a bed time story. then
she breast fed me. After she left the room I laid in my crib
just feeling like a big baby. I felt like I had to go number
two so I just did it in my didees. I didn't feel like playing
with myself. I sometimes would do that, but sometimes when I
felt like a baby, I didn't need anything else to add to it.
It's like sometimes the dirty diapers were a big turn on, and
sometimes after mommy babied me and breastfed me, and my
diaper was messy, I just felt so helpless, innocent, and
babyish. That feeling was what I really liked the most. The
emotional feelings of security, inner peace, and so on. I
sucked my thumb and held onto my Mr. Fluffy. I finally fell
asleep a few minutes later.
The next week at school was going well. Laura was still having
trouble reading the blackboard and also even close up. One day
during class she started crying. She said everything was
really blurry and that she was scared. The school contacted
her mother and they came to pick her up and take her to the
eye doctor again. Laura didn't come to school the next day. So
after school Emily and I went over to her house on the way
home.
We rang the bell. Joey answered. "Hey, is your sister home?
She wasn't at school today." I said. "Yeah she is taking a
nap." Joey said. "Is she feeling okay?" I asked. "Well, she
tripped and fell last night and hit her head. She is having a
hard time seeing." Joey said. I held back my tears. I felt so
bad for her. Her mom came out to see who was at the door.
I could tell she was also pretty sad. "Hi girls." she said as
she invited us in. We sat on the couch. She told us that the
doctors said that her macular degeneration was in advanced
stages and that we didn't detect it earlier. We just thought
she needed glasses for reading earlier in the year. But we
didn't know it was a progressive disease." She said. "So is
there a cure? I mean besides God healing her and stuff?" I
asked. "No cure, all we can do is pray." she said while she
started crying. We both hugged Laura's mommy. Even Joey hugged
her.
Laura woke up and came out to see us. She almost slammed her
shoulder into the door frame when coming out of her room. "Hi
Laura." we said as Emily and I went up and hugged her. "Hi."
she said. We talked with her for a while. Laura seemed to be
dealing with things better than her parents.
After a while Emily and I had to leave to go home. I told
Laura I would call her later on. she said that'd be good.
Emily came over for dinner. Her mom was working late. Her dad
was away on business again. He wasn't around very often since
he got a new job a year or so ago. It required lots of
traveling.
I took a nap in the playpen. Mommy was folding laundry. She
woke me and changed my diaper and we had dinner. Aunt Kathy
and Kevin were eating with us tonight. Aunt Kathy and Kevin
announced that they were getting married in June of the next
year. We were all excited for her. I knew for a while now that
Aunt Kathy would probably marry him and move out. So I was
sort of expecting that. Even so, I would miss not having her
around. But I also missed Tammy, Teala, and Amy as well.
I got my own shower that nigh, and then called Laura like I
said I would. We talked a while. "Well, my mommy says its bed
time. I gotta go Tiffany. Thanks for calling me though." Laura
said. "No problem. Hey Laura?" "Yeah?" "I love you so much.
And no matter what happens, I will be there with you. I want
you to know that." I said. "Thank you." she said while crying.
"I love you too Tiffany." she said. "Ok, now don't get all
mushy on me now." I said. Laura giggled and stopped crying.
"Ok. Nighty night. I'll see you tomorrow at school." she said
as we both hung up.
That night while mommy tucked me in for bed she noticed I was
somewhat sad. "How's Laura doing?" Mom asked. "Ok." I said.
Mom just looked down at me in my crib. "Honey, I love you."
she said as she knelt down and held me and kissed me on the
cheek and forehead. She crawled into my crib and laid down
next to me and Mr. Fluffy. I wet my diaper and turned over on
my tummy. I could feel mommy patting my diapered tushie. I
felt ok again.
Mommy left the room as I fell asleep. I woke up once more that
night to go poopy in my diaper. I then fell right back asleep.
I still felt like mommy was there; even though she was in the
other room. I slept good the rest of the night.
Time went on and Thanks Giving holiday came and went. It was
now the beginning of December. Laura's vision was about the
same as it had been. She had to go to special classes during
study hall where they helped her to deal with her loss of
eyesight. She was not totally blind, but she had no peripheral
and could not see things in detail unless they were magnified.
My friendship with Laura was so much closer now.