Tiffany's Diaper Tales
Volume I
By BabyInDiapers
Written 04/26/2004
Revised 06/04/2004
Chapter 086
I awoke the next morning mommy was tickling me and teasing me.
"Someone's got a mushy tushie." She said while kissing my
forehead. My diaper was totally loaded with pee and poo. It
felt all squishy and full and I liked it. Daddy got up and
went out into the kitchen while I laid in bed with mommy. She
didn't seem in a hurry to change me, but I couldn't blame her
cuz I was one messy baby. Teala came into the room a while
later looking for mommy and me. "Oh there you are. Get up
breakfast is ready." She said. Mommy just yawned. "Eww is
Tiffy messy? I'll change her for you if you want?" Teala said
as she stepped toward the bed. "OK thanks hun. I'm gonna go
change mine as well.
Mommy got up and went down the hall into the bathroom. Teala
finished wiping me and powdering me. She dressed me in a cute
outfit and then took me out to the kitchen. We sat at the
table talked and ate. It was so nice to have the whole family
back together again, even though it had only been a month or
so prior to this visit. After breakfast mommy let me watch
cartoons while her and Kathy went shopping. It was not snowing
out so they figured they should do the bulk of there Christmas
shopping while the weather was cooperating.
Tammy and Teala and Amy went along. I said I wanted to stay at
home. Daddy was using his laptop to do check e-mail and get
some work done for his company. I was flipping through the
channels looking for something to watch. It seemed like a lot
of channels were off the air. I thought it was strange but
figured maybe it was the reception. But wait, Aunt Kathy had
cable. A while later I found a show to movie to watch on one
of the movie channels. It was boring me so I fell asleep.
Daddy woke me up and fed me some lunch and we played together
for a while on the playground at a park nearby. We came back
home and the girls were still out shopping. "Ok let's put you
down for a nap honey." Dad said as he laid me in the crib.
"Daddy I wanna watch cartoons please?" I pleaded. "Oh ok sure
honey." He said as he carried me out to the living room and
turned on the TV.
There was no channels that came on at all. Daddy flipped
through the menu settings, and checked the cable connection
both inside and outside by the telephone box. "Hmm that's
strange honey, I suppose they are having some problems with
there broadcast repeater equipment in this area, but that is
really strange." Daddy said with a puzzled look on his face.
"Can me watch DVD then daddy?" "Ok, let's see what we got here
for big baby girls to watch. Oh here we go, Cinderella. You'll
like this one." "I've already seen it." I said while pouting.
"Well someone looks like they could use a nap. Why don't you
take a nap with daddy ok?" "Otay daddy." Daddy laid back in
his chair and held me close to him and rocked me gently. We
both fell asleep.
The phone rang and woke us up. It was around 5pm. It was
mommy. "Honey, have you heard?" she said. I could hear her
since she was on a payphone and yelling into the phone.
"What's wrong Tonya?" daddy asked with a concerned tone. "It's
the end of the world." She said while crying. This caught my
attention. I hopped off of daddy's lap and ran into the
kitchen and picked up the other line. "It's a nuclear war
Tom!" she said while crying. "What?" dad said. I began to
panic. I may have been a little baby girl, but I knew a lot
about science and history, and other stuff, and what nuclear
war could do. I was crying. "We're going to leave the mall now
and come home." Mom said. "What city did they hit?" Dad asked.
She couldn't stop crying. "They got Chicago, Houston, Los
Angeles, Miami, and New York." She tried to keep her voice
together but it was no use. "Miami! That's close to where we
live daddy! I cried after we were off the phone. "What about
my Emily and Laura!" I cried. Daddy just held me and cried.
Later after we calmed down somewhat, daddy found a radio and
found some news. "Disruptions in national TV networks has left
America cut off from the news." A voice came over the
airwaves. "Five of our nation's largest cities, gone, nothing
but fire storms remain. Even those who survived the blast and
shock wave, will probably not make it through the hurricane
force windows of fire. Our estimates at this time is 12
million dead, I repeat, 12 million dead. This is a sad day for
America." The news anchor began to lose it. He cried even on
the air without turning off his microphone. What more was
there to say. It had to have been Al'Queda. Who else would do
this to us? My mind was spinning, and I just felt like I
could pass out any moment. It was to much to handle. Daddy and
I just held onto each other.
Mommy and Aunt Kathy and the girls came home a while later.
"It's a mad house out there. Everyone is panicking!" mom said
as she held daddy and me. Aunt Kathy and Amy held Tammy and
Teala. We began to pray for the people who were killed, for
there families, and also we prayed that as many people could
survive as possible and not get poisoned by the radiation. It
almost seemed hopeless to pray and hope, but it somehow
settled our emotions to some degree. Aunt Kathy, mommy and
daddy went into the kitchen after telling Tammy, Teala, Amy,
and me to stay in Amy's room for a while so they could talk.
"It's not fair! It's Christmas! Now everyone is sad!" I said
as I cried. Tammy held me. Amy also leaned in close to us and
cuddled as we sat in Amy's crib. "Shhh baby, things will be
ok. We are still alive." "Yeah but for how long. What if they
drop one on Atlanta, we'll be done!" Teala said while crying.
"We all know the Lord, and if we have to die today, we know
where we're going." Tammy said calmly. "Yeah but." Teala said
as she just shook her head. "I wish I was dead." Amy said. "No
you don't!" I said as I looked her in the eye. "I love you." I
said as I hugged her tight.
Meanwhile in the kitchen, Mom, Kathy, and Daddy were sitting
at the table in silence. "The guy on the radio said that Miami
took a hard hit and that the fallout is as far north as Palm
Beach. I don't know if it will be safe for us to go home." Dad
said plainly. "But honey what of all of our friends at church,
and the girls, all there friends, do you think they will be
able to take shelter and stay safe from any other fall out?"
Mom said while nervously fidgeting with her fingers. "Some
will, but not all. There's no central media on TV. Also the
EMP blast may have damaged equipment for miles and miles. Some
people may not be able to tune into any broadcasts for
instructions at all." Dad said. "I thought nuclear bombs only
could take out 3 or 4 miles?" Aunt Kathy asked. "Well those
are the 300 and 400 Kiloton bombs. I have a feeling these were
much bigger. Say around 20 to 50 megatons. Just like the ones
Russia had during the cold war," daddy said. "Wait a minute,
you mean these bombs are big enough to..." mom paused. "If they
wanted to, they could use 100 megaton bombs and wipe out 2
counties per bomb. I just thank God they didn't." dad sighed.
"There's another problem." Aunt Kathy said with a worried look
in her eye. "Atlanta." Dad and Kathy said at once. "Yes, how
do you know they're finished." Mom said. "Atlanta has the
major airport and a few bases around it and it's a decent
sized city." Aunt Kathy said. "And it's also a major
communications hub for the internet for the southeast region
of the country. It is a provable target. Do you have a map
Kathy?" dad asked. She got up from the table and went through
some stuff in a closet in her room and came back out.
After looking at it for a while daddy sat back in his chair.
"We are 32 miles as the crow flies. Which means on a 20
megaton impact in downtown Atlanta, we would be in the
shockwave area, as well as the thermal energy, which means
that when you see the white light, you will be burned. Also
from our distance, the shockwave pressure would be above 5PSI
which would cause structures to shatter, and eardrums to be
damaged. Also even if we survived the thermal, and the
shockwave, the hurricane force fire storm would be here 10 to
20 minutes after the blast. By then all structures will have
been compromised and the fire would just finish everything
off. And to top that off, if you survived all that, you would
still be exposed to fall out, depending on what type of blast,
weather an air burst, or a near ground blast. So, my opinion
is we need to get the kids, and go as far from any major city
or military base as possible.
Mom sighed. Aunt Kathy started pacing. Dad stared at the Atlas
that Kathy had found. He studied it carefully looking for a
place that would be far enough away. "We need to be away from
the ocean, incase the detonate one at sea, which could cause a
large title wave. I say we head for the mountains. "I know
some places in Tennessee." Dad said.
"Wait a minute, we're East of Atlanta, we'd have to go even
closer to the possible target to get where we need to go!"
Aunt Kathy said as she was looking even more worried. "We will
go around it, not near it. We will keep as far from it as
possible. Now what we need, besides constant prayer, is to
stock up on survival supplies. Kathy, you, and Tonya and I are
taking the truck into town. Money is no object. We may not be
able to go home if the bombs keep falling." Dad said.
Meanwhile back in Amy's room mom came in. "Hi girls, We're
going to go into town to get some things, and we will be back
in a few hours. We're going to go into the mountains tonight.
It's not safe to stay here." Mom said. "But mommy!" I cried.
"Tiff, hun, I love you, but right now, I need you to be a big
girl for mommy, it's very important ok sweetie?" she said
while she hugged me and gave me a kiss. "OK mommy. I will." I
said. She gave us orders to pack warm clothes, and to get all
the cloth diapers washed so we could take them. Also Amy was
in the kitchen cooking a meal for everyone to eat before we
left. Dad took the truck, and Kathy and mom took the car to
the gas station and filled three gas cans full.
The town was crowded and confusion was everywhere. The
military was moving in and enforcing martial law. Dad knew
that they would have to take a back way out and avoid all road
blocks because the military would be trying to keep everyone
put where they were. Daddy filled the truck cab with M.R.E.
and other survival gear. He came home and yelled for us girls
to unload the truck. We hurried. He then went back into town
again to get some other things. Dinner was ready, Tammy and
Amy made sure all us kids ate and got a bath, we weren't sure
when we'd get one again. Everyone was holding up emotionally.
It was all about survival now. We had to stay focused.
Finally everyone was back at the house. The grown-ups ate and
then sat down for a moment to plan things. There was no time
to waste either. Mom and dad both had a sense that time was
running out. We carefully packed Aunt Kathy's truck to the
hilt. We had sleeping gear, food, guns, ammunition, some of
which Aunt Kathy had around the house, but dad had also bought
a few things. People were selling weapons and not even
worrying about the laws pertaining to weapons sales. Daddy,
mommy and Aunt Kathy piled into the front of the truck. Tammy,
Teala, Amy and I in the back. It was a tight fit. We held
stuff on our laps and under our feet. The back cab was loaded
down and covered with a tarp. We pulled out of the drive way
and mom lead us into prayer.
"Father God, we are embarking on a dangerous mission. We have
enough gasoline to blow ourselves up, the roads are chaotic,
bombs could fall any time. We realize this situation, and as
humans, we are afraid. We've felt the leading of your spirit
to leave where we were and to set out to a place that you will
show us. Just like Abraham so many years ago, we are venturing
out in faith. Lord, please protect our us, allow our supplies
to go a long way, for our food to last, and for your
protection not only while we find this place, but even after
we are there. Please guide us at every turn, give us peace,
and wisdom. Lord I pray for our friends in Florida, that you
have made a way for them to seek shelter. I pray for those who
have been lost today. Be with there families God, and be with
those who still live, help our government to stop this attack
before move lives are lost. We believe you have a plan for our
family Lord, and I know the enemy would have us be destroyed,
but Greater are you Lord. We put our faith only in you, and
our lives into your hands. Lord God, we thank you, we trust
you, and we need you. Thank you for your Son Jesus, thank you
for your Holy Spirit which dwells in us. Guide us as we go. We
pray in Jesus' name, Amen."
We were all silent for a while. Each one of us were making
peace with the situation, to come to grips with what could
happen, and to keep sane and not be swept away by what could
happen. "Mommy?" "I asked softly. "Yes?" mommy said. "I'm
really wet and soggy in my diaper and I think it's leaking." I
said. "Honey, you're just gonna have to sit in your wet pants
sweetie, we can't stop to change you and since there is so
much stuff piled in the back with you, it's impossible to
change you." Mom said as she sighed. "But I itchy." I said. "I
know, so am I. Mommy wet her diaper too." She said as she
reached her hand back and gently patted my head. "We'll be
there soon, why don't you go to sleep for a while ok?" moms
aid softly. "Otay momma." I said. I could tell that Teala and
Tammy were both squirming in there didees. They were probably
wet too. Amy did number two in her diaper but she didn't say
anything at all. She didn't smell to bad though, so it was
livable. I knew we were all going to have diaper rash by
morning, but mom was right, what could we do.
I woke up, stiff and my hiney was sore. My neck and back was
hurting from being still. The sun was out. The roads were
packed. Daddy was stuck in traffic. He then went off road and
headed west through a dirt road. The road went on and on. We
came out to where another section of the interstate was. This
portion was moving along much better. "There must have been an
accident back there that blocked it." Dad said as he sped up.
"Hold on girls, we're gonna have a bumpy ride." He said as he
merged from the rough terrain and onto the road. We slid and
our tires squealed as we almost lost control but then
corrected and got into the right lane. We all sighed in
relief. "That was a close one." Aunt Kathy said. We all
laughed for the first time since this nightmare had begun.
We crossed into Tennessee. We were in a rural area. We decided
to pull off onto a dirt road. We needed to get out and stretch
and have our didees changed. Mom and dad lifted the stuff off
of our laps and we crawled out. We were so stiff we could
barely move. My jeans had a wet spot from my leaky diaper. Dad
cleaned up the backseat with a wet wipe while mommy and Aunt
Kathy changed our diapers right out by the road while laying
on a blanket in the grass. My hiney was read and so mommy put
diaper rash cream on it. Same went for the other girls. Kathy
changed mommy. She had a rash too. Daddy was standing on the
other side of the truck. Mom walked up to him. He was making
poo in his diaper. Mommy changed him when he finished. We all
had plenty of powder and cream on our bottoms. We had a bite
to eat while standing around the truck.
We got back in and got situated and continued driving. We
found some mountains. We drove through and then Tammy spotted
a cave off of the dirt road we were on. It was a fairly decent
cave, big enough to stand in. Daddy and Kathy went in first to
check it out with flash lights. They came back out. "This is
going to be our sleeping area. It's very cool, not very damp,
and these mountains and rocks have a lot of lead in them.
Which means even if there is a blast nearby, we'll be
protected." Dad said.
"Daddy it's dark in there how are we going to see?" I said.
"We have lanterns. Mom said as she pilled them with lantern
oil. We each had one lantern, and we set them around in the
area we would be setting up camp. Dad cleared some debris from
the ground and we setup our tents with our sleeping bags. Even
though in the cave, a tent would still help keep us safe from
any small animals or cold wind gusts. At the mouth of the cave
we started a fire after daddy got some fire wood. Mom had only
brought a few disposable diapers with us, so that when we
finished the 2 packs we brought, we'd be in cloth all the
time. Which meant we would have to wash them in a river
somehow. Mom was explaining to us girls. "Mom, I don't need to
wear diapers." Tammy said. "What about if you wet at night?"
"Ok but just at night. That way all I have to do is dunk them
in the water and let them dry." Tammy said. "Yep that'll
work." Mom said. "Mommy?" Teala asked? "Yes hun?" "I'll try
not to go poo in my diapers. I'll just pull them down when I
have to go. But I don't know if I can control going pee
though." She said. "It's ok sweetie, just do the best you
can." "Mommy, do you want me to be potty trained?" I asked.
Mom was quiet for a moment. "I'll tell ya what honey baby, why
don't you try to tell mommy when you have to go number two,
and I'll take you to go potty, but when you have to wet, just
go in your diapers. And if you really feel like you need to be
a baby and go messy in your baby pants, it's ok honey." Mom
said while hugging me. "I'll try to be a big girl sometimes so
we don't have to wash messy diapers mommy." Mom just smiled.
We then each had an M.R.E. for dinner. They weren't much but
daddy said it was more about survival than about being totally
satisfied. "Listen, we're going to have to make lots of
sacrifices to make this work. We wont eat nearly as much each
day, and we will try to fast for 5 days and then eat small
amounts for five. We need to pray and fast, as well as
conserve our food supply.
We were at the entrance to our cave where we had our camp fire
going. We had already finished setting up everything. We sat
around the fire. "Mommy, I have to go poo." Teala said as she
stood up. "Honey where should we go at?" mom asked dad?
"Follow me if ya gotta go potty." Daddy said as we all
followed him. Mommy picked up some wipes from one of the
diaper bags and brought it with us. There was a place that
daddy had dug a huge trench that sloped down the hill into a
valley. Mommy took Teala's diaper down and let her squat down
to go poo. I had to go pee so I squatted next to Teala. "Mom,
we don't have any privacy at all now." Tammy whined." "I know
sweetie but maybe we can build a little divider or something
and make a makeshift seat. Tomorrow." Mom said. "Yeah, We will
have time tomorrow to do that." Dad said. Aunt Kathy helped
her daughter squat down to go tinkle. After Teala was done,
mommy wiped her hiney with a couple baby wipes.
After we all went potty we went back over to our camp fire. We
sat around a while. We talked about our plans for making our
camp site, and cave, as homey as possible. Just then we
noticed a flash of light, it seemed like lightening it was so
bright. "Cover your eyes!" Dad yelled. We all closed our eyes
and put our hands over them. It was so bright that it kind of
hurt. A few seconds later, we could hear a loud rumble from a
distance. "Oh my..." dad said. "Did they drop another one?"
"Yes, it was to the east I think. But it was hard to tell
because it lit up everything." Dad said. "I think we need to
get in our cave and get some sleep. Who knows what else is
going to happen tonight." Aunt Kathy said as she took her
lantern and lit it. Mom and dad did the same with ours. We
carried them into the dark cave.
Even with the lanterns, it was still very dark. I was so
scared. I held onto Tammy as we walked down into the area
where our tents were. "I think we're all going to need diapers
at night. It'll be impossible to find our way out alone, and I
don't want anyone getting lost, or hurt." Daddy said. "Well I
guess that means changing and washing poopy diapers after all
mom said. "Oh well, We're just gonna have to learn to deal
with that aspect of it now." Aunt Kathy said. Tammy and Teala
were in one tent, I was crammed in Mommy and daddy's tent, and
Amy and Kathy. Even from down in the cave we saw two more
flashes of light that night before falling asleep. We would
later learn that those the three flashes we saw that night
were San Antonio, Atlanta, and Denver. Since the night was so
clear, and we were at a high elevation, it allowed the light
from the blast to travel over a thousand miles. We learned
this later on the next day while listening to reports on the
shortwave radio. We slept on and off that night. Even though
the sleeping bags were comfortable, and the temperature was
nice, we were to emotionally worn out to be able to think
straight. We just laid there dozing off from time to time, and
then waking up for a while.
Morning came and Aunt Kathy Mom and dad made a dash for the
bathroom area. They had held it all night instead of going in
there diapers. Tammy and Teala had wet there diapers. I also
had wet mine and made a little messy in it. We decided that we
would go in the river with our clothes and diapers on and get
clean while we washed our clothes and diapers. It was really
cold but we got used to it after a while. "Mommy took my
diaper off of me while in the water and began to wring it out
and to use a scrubbing board with some lie soap. We took off
all our clothes and ran back to our tents to get changed. We
were freezing! Mom was right, there was a lot to get used to.
We had to learn to deal with not having privacy, and the usual
comforts of home, and also less food, less entertainment, and
so on. Over the next few days we all went through our
emotional ways of coping with this new way of life. Many times
one of us kids would throw a tantrum and run off to be alone
and cry for what seemed like forever.
The first week was rough but after that we seemed to be doing
better. We all had to act out the stress in our own way. Even
I got mad and yelled at mommy a couple times. But even with
all the stress, we still all loved each other very much. One
morning I crawled into mommy's tent. Daddy was making
breakfast on the open fire. Mommy breast fed me for the first
time since any of this had happened. She let me cuddle with
her and have my baby time. She told me that she also was
breastfeeding Teala now to because it really calmed her down a
lot when she would get scared. I thought it was so nice of her
to show such love for us. Our family bonded quite a bit as the
days went on. I even got the hang of telling mommy when I had
to go messy and she would take me to our little potty. Daddy
had made 4 stalls with little seats that you could sit on that
were over the trench that went down the mountain side.
One afternoon we were eating lunch and just talking about how
far we'd come in adapting to this new living situation. "Yeah
this place isn't so bad now. And it's nice to be able to take
a dump in peace now since daddy put up the 4 bathroom stalls."
She said. We all laughed. We washed our hands in a bucket of
water we had brought up from the stream. "Mommy, I have to go
poo." I said. "Aww, does my baby have to go poopypoo?" mommy
teased me. I blushed. "Yes, me do." "Aww. Well I'll tell you
what, since you've been such a good little girl for mommy, why
don't you just go in your diaper and be a little baby today,
it's ok mommy doesn't mind. I'm totally used to cleaning your
diapers anyway, so really, it's ok if you want to go in your
baby pants." Mommy said while holding me in her lap while I
loaded my didees. "Aww that's my girl." She said while she
rocked me and then let me sit in her lap. "All squishy and
mushy?" mommy asked as she held me close to her. "Yes mommy,
me likes." I know you do baby." Mommy just held me for what
seemed like forever.
A few weeks went by. We had learned how to hunt and grow
things and live off the land. Our M.R.E supply was dwindling
but it didn't matter so much now. On the radio they had
announced that they had caught all the rest of the men with
the nuclear weapons and put a stop to the attacks. They said
that it was safe to return to cities that were at least 200
miles from detonation sites. Luckily, only Miami was hit in
our state, and we were 260 miles north of Miami.
Unfortunately for Aunt Kathy and Amy, there whole area was
burned and polluted. The detonation in Atlanta had a blast
zone of 15 miles, and thermo radiation for 100 miles, shock
wave for 70 miles, and fall out for 145 miles. Kathy and Amy
cried when they realized all they had was lost. If we had
stayed there, we would have been dead. We thanked God for his
guidance and for our survival.
Of course we brought Amy and Kathy home with us. Even though I
knew our town was still standing, I kept having fears that
there would be no one alive. Amy held me all the way home.
When we pulled in it was like a ghost town. Everything was
fine, but you could tell that people had left and hadn't
returned yet. We turned onto my road, and pulled into the
driveway. Everything was just as it was when we left.
I immediately got on the phone called Robert. He was home! I
then called Laura, and Emily, they were both home too! Since
we didn't get a chance to have Christmas, and since school was
still canceled until March 21'st to allow people to resettle,
we decided to have the best Christmas ever, even though it was
in January. We chose to do it on the 15'th. It was a cold day.
Daddy put up Christmas lights and a tree and everything. We
invited all our neighbors and Family. Our Grandpa was still
in hiding some where. His town was not destroyed but he had
left his home to be on the safe side.
Us girls were back to wearing our didees and being lazy and
being silly babies. While us kids played every day and had
fun, Daddy and Mommy were building an addition to our house
for Aunt Kathy, and Amy. He extended the hallway so that after
mine and Tammy's rooms, instead of a hall closet, the hall
kept going, and Amy would have the room next to the bathroom,
and Aunt Kathy would have a room next to Tammy's room.
Soon after school started, daddy had the extension finished.
He could finally have his office back, and work late nights
since Kathy had her own room now. Everything was working out
good for us, but it was sad to see all the people who lost so
much, and who ere displaced from not only there home, but
there whole town and city. Our government did a good job at
bringing stability to our nation after the tragedy. They
captured all the key leaders in the terrorist organization and
had begun trials immediately. The American people demanded
action and justice.
People were settling into new towns but life was far from
normal. My birthday was in January, but we were to busy
trying to get back to normal to really celebrate it. I didn't
even feel like it. I was so grieved at that point for all
those who died. Even now I still feel sad for the losses we
took. The pictures of total destruction of our cities, still
haunts me. I spent most of the end of the school year seeing
Mrs. Woods twice a week just talking through all the issues.
It helped me a great deal. It was now the end of June, we still
had one more full month of school left because we started back
late. Our economy was still in shambles due to the loss of so
much information and resources, but our spirits were high. There
were shortages for many products including disposable diapers.
Luckily our family was used to having cloth ones, so we were
able to manage without disposables. Mommy even showed some of
the mothers at our church how to sew them for there babies and
small children. People were really banding together to make it
through these hard times.
I began to appreciate my friends and family so much more, I
began to savor each day. I began to enjoy all the aspects of
my life, even my baby side. Life is a precious gift, and if
nothing else this made me see how precious and fragile it
really is. Our family grew closer to the Lord then ever, as
did many people in our church and in other churches. The
tragedy ushered in a new era of revival. People gave there
lives to the Lord, and as a whole, America changed a great
deal. This chapter of my life was one of the most difficult
for me to write. I love you all, and I know this may have
been a hard chapter to read, but it could not go untold.
Stay tuned for more of "Tiffany's Diaper Tales!" *Hugs!*