My Erotic Obsessions
Well where do I start? I will start from now and go backwards
as sometimes recounting things like this works better for me.
Just a while ago I went for a bike ride with the purpose of
going a few blocks to a community pool. I got there, and
hopped over the barred fence and stood by the deep end. I got
a rush as I fell backwards into the pool with all of my
clothes on. You see, I get very turned on by situations where
I get soaking wet in all my clothes.
However, just sneaking into a pool or lake or playing in the
shower bathtub or water hose alone is not enough for me. What
I really long for is situations where other people are around
and they watch me as I purposefully jump in with everything
on. I feed off of people's reactions. See what I am wanting is
for people to see my silly behavior and see me getting all wet
and to say something to me when I am either still in the water
or when I'm climbing out. I like feeling slightly embarrassed
or foolish by either my peers or even total strangers.
I'm still experimenting with what I like to wear when getting
wet. I wear jeans and a long sleeved demon shirt and of course
my shoes socks and even my underwear. I also like to
experiment with any combination of clothing.
The whole thing I like is getting wet when you're not supposed
to be wet. Like for example jumping in the pool at the college
and then going to my work place in wet clothes. Or playing in
a fountain when with friends. But what I really long for is to
be hanging out on a deck by a pool and have someone throw me
in when I don't really want to get wet or when I'm not
prepared by having a change of clothes ready. Then I get to be
wet all day until I can change at home.
I also like to throw other people in with there clothes on as
well. I wish to be at a wedding where the bride falls in and
then other wedding guest, including myself are pushed or
thrown or go in willingly.
When I was a child however, I didn't feel this way about
getting wet. In fact, I didn't like it at all. I remember
falling in a pool when I was four when my parents and I were
at some car show. We didn't have extra clothes so I and my mom
were in wet clothes all day. (My mom dove in to get me.)
Also I remember lots of times when it would rain when I was
out with my mom and she made me run with her to the car or
whatever and I got all wet and cried. I used to get cold
sometimes too when I was wet. I also remember in second grade
going to sea world and watching the kids who were standing
right up against the shamu tank and getting absolutely water
logged. I was sitting further back and barely got splashed. I
really wanted to get sopping wet though.
I think that's where I started to like it. Also when I was a
teenager at a car wash we turned the hose on each other and
got soaked, I liked it then too cuz a girl was the one wetting
me and she asked me to soak her too. Also another memory from
child or early teen years was some neighborhood kids teasing
me because my pants were wet because one kid sprayed me in the
crotch with a water hose and it looked like I peed myself.
Then in my twenties as I was becoming aware of other fetishes
and feelings of mine such as the diapers and regressing to the
state of a baby, I went through a time where the thought of
getting wet made me have panic attacks. I also cut myself a
few times when forcing myself to look up things online about
wet clothes. I would somehow force myself to do it even though
it upset me I was inflicting the emotional trauma onto myself
Then sometime about 4 years ago when I was 25 or so, I started
to put the sexual element with getting wet. Now these days you
can't keep me out of water, accept when I know my parents will
be around. This is because any time as a child when I got wet
or dirty while playing they would yell at me and it made me
feel scared and upset. I now have to indulge in my wet time
when my parents are away, as they were today when I went in
the pool. Prior to going in the pool I got soaking wet in the
shower wearing my footed pajamas which seemed to really hold a
lot of water. I loved sitting on the porch just in my soaking
wet clingy heavy pajamas.
I wish I had the guts like I did a few years ago to just jump
in the pool at work fully clothed and come back to work. I did
it then when I knew I could either dry out before my parents
picked me up, or when my boss was away, or whatever. I want so
badly to just get soaked without planning for it. I want to
get absolutely drenched and have people say things to me like
"Oh my god, how did you get so wet? Or laugh and say "you're
soaked what happened?" or be thrown in a pool and have people
tease me.
I don't want to pack extra clothes or think the night before
or even 10 minutes before. I just wanna be near water sometime
and just on the spur of the moment just do it. I remember one
time in tan shorts and a t-shirt and shoes socks and underwear
I snuck into a pool by slipping between to bars where the gate
had a gap, and I went to the deep end. It was a hot day. I
stood on the ledge and just jumped, putting my feet out in
front and landing with my tush first in the water.
My first realizations was the splash, then under water, then
feeling my shoes really heavy and feeling my clothes clingy
and water running off of them as I got out. I jumped in a
couple more times just for the heck of it. If I was at a party
where I was gonna get thrown in I'd wanna do it then be in wet
clothes then change into my spare clothes and have someone
throw me in again!
Getting wet feels good. I never seem to get an erection during
the activity of doing such things accept if I'm in the shower
and its really warm water and stuff but, in public I never do.
I seem to be the type to go through a sexually stimulating
experience and then later when I'm home and I masturbate, I
replay it, amplifying feelings and exadurating events, and
manipulating it and remembering the sensory feelings of being
wet and playing back audio snippets of what people said and
forming a loop until I hit the sweet spots of the fantasy and
escalate my stoking until I orgasm.
That is also how I work with my diaper fetish as well. Since
this article is not about the diapers and baby stuff, I am not
going to really elaborate on those. Every now and then I still
panic about getting wet, but then I snap out of it quicker and
I don't feel the need to hurt myself at all anymore. That was
only during a short period of time back in 2000.
Anyway, to sum it up, I am hoping to find myself in situations
that will play out to the way I like them. There is a wedding
I will attend soon. I hope and pray for water near by at the
reception. A nice heavy tuxedo would feel so good and being in
front of so many people for the pictures and for the whole
time. Too bad my parents are there. I hope I grow some balls
and just jump in and not worry about anybody, including my
parents. All anyone can do is yell at me. It's a little to
late when I emerge from the pool dripping wet!
So, if you've never tried such a thing; just on a whim,
without any extra clothes and with some people around and when
you know you won't be able to change any time soon, just go
get wet! It feels so good!
Also just as a list of all that I'm into, here it is. I like
wearing diapers, wetting and messing in them, wearing baby
style clothing, playing the role of a baby or toddler, also
like to jump in the pool with my clothes on, play in the rain,
and also like to pee my pants (without diapers) and also like
to do everything in front of people. I love exhibitionism.
Summer's coming soon, I will hope for a blinding grey sheet of
rain to pour all over me! Even the rain pouring and just
getting on my shirt and a little on my pants isn't good. I
like the kind of rain that soaks your shoes and makes your
underwear soaking wet too! I like to walk around in the rain
having other people trying to stay dry watch me from windows.
Anyway that should sum it up. Go get wet!