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Ch. 3 Quinn's Other Love

   My name is Quinn McLeod.  My wife died two years ago.  My daughter,
Jesse Margaret and I just began an incestuous relationship.  I run a
company, am surrounded by friends and family, and I have a male lover who
is my best friend.  I am in the closet now not just about one lover, but
about two.  Here's the story of how my bartender became my lover.  There's
a lot of backstory here before you get to the sex stuff.  So, if that
bothers you, skip ahead.  My wife was diagnosed with cancer when my
daughter, Jesse, was eleven.  I tried so damned hard to hold everything
together, and the family and my closest friends and my employees all were
completely amazed that I did.  Fact is that I started stopping off at this
little pub on my way home from the office, an Irish pub with the very
non-Irish name, Ken's Bar.  Over the months of my wife's diagnosis and the
long years of her valiant and finally losing battle with cancer, our
friendship grew.  It was Ken, you see, on whom I came to lean for strength
and support.  When I couldn't break down in front of the family, I could
literally sometimes cry in my beer while Ken listened.

   A man of few words, Ken is an inch taller than me at 6'4", a manly man,
muscles shaped from hoisting kegs, an occasional brawl, and, like me, he's
a former boxer.  He knows when to keep his trap shut, and he knows when to
kid me out of a funk.  He's a great friend.

   My daughter was sixteen when I came home one day and she ambushed me
with a special dinner and a long, serious discussion about her perception,
"The fact," she said, that I needed a vacation, as I hadn't been away from
her except on brief business trips since her mother got sick.  My Jesse
convinced me to take her black Lab, Mike, duck hunting and get away for a
couple of weeks.  I stopped in the bar and told Ken I'd been remanded to
the wilds.  He basically invited himself along, saying that he'd love to
get away, and besides, he didn't think I really needed to be alone for two
weeks.  He was right.  As much as I love the outdoors, I didn't really
relish the thought of isolation at that point.  Ken would make a perfect
traveling companion.

   We headed to a heavily-laked area of the state and spent the first six
days doing some really easy walking.  We took a lot of photographs and all
three of us got our walking legs back.  On the morning of the seventh day,
we headed out to the blind and Ken popped a beautiful mallard.  Mike raced
out to retrieve the bird and came back, I swear, with a gleam in his old
eye I hadn't seen for years.

   We decided to leave the blind and walk to a small lake to see if the
birds might be stopping over there.  The days had been mild and the ground
had thawed quite a lot.  The night before, it got cold again.  We talked
about how thick the ice might be on the water, and whether it was thick
enough for Mike to run on it if either of us shot a bird that landed on
ice.

   Nearing the pond, we flushed some birds from the ground and I nailed
one. Just as we'd spoken, the duck hit the ice.  I looked at Ken and asked,
"What do you think, Buddy?" Mike sat at my feet, shaking in excitement. 
Ken squinted his eyes and looked at the ice, cocked his head and said, "It
was damned cold last night, Quinn.  I think it will be okay." I looked at
my old dog and ignored the voice in my gut and gave him the command to
retrieve.  Off he went.  We watched his progress.  He grabbed the bird,
turned to come back, and I'd almost breathed a sigh of relief when I lost
him.

   He went under and came up, front legs grabbing for purchase on the ice.
Every time he nearly hauled himself out, the ice would break again.  After
five minutes, my dog started to flag.  "Fuck!  Why'd I let him do that?  I
KNOW to not ignore my damned gut.  If that dog drowns, I may as well just
join him in the drink.  Jesse would NEVER forgive me!"

   "Goddamn, I'm sorry, buddy," Ken said miserably.

   I began taking off my outer layers, knowing that the only way Mike would
make it back would be for me to break the ice so he could swim out.  When
Ken saw me stripping, he began taking off his clothes to give me his dry
ones.  I grimly cracked, "Don't trouble yourself, buddy, Mike may not be
the only one who doesn't make it back."

   I walked into that frigid water and my balls retracted all the way to
Hawaii.  Before I was even in up to my knees, I couldn't breathe.  I just
kept my eyes on Mike and kept moving forward.  I only had about 60 feet to
go, but that was the damned longest sixty feet of my life.  I felt the
material of my long johns ripping as I broke ice with my forearms, but then
I was numb and couldn't feel anything.

   As soon as I got to Mike, he swam past me, with the goddamned duck still
in his mouth, bless that dog's stubborn spirit.  I turned around and
followed him, bloody grateful we were both still breathing.  Ken had a
couple of small towels from each of our packs getting some of the water off
the dog.  He waded in to give me a hand, and I stumbled out of the water.
My hands were numb and I couldn't make them move so he pretty much
undressed me and got me into his long johns and wrapped me back up in my
pants and jacket.  We had about a 45 minute hike back to the truck, which
warmed me a little, but I was disoriented and knew that the woozy,
disconnected feeling I had were not good things.  We reached camp and luck
with us, the embers from the morning fire were hot enough that Ken had the
fire stoked damned fast.  The morning was misty still, at 10 AM.  Ken
dragged Mike's bed near the fire and covered him in a wool army blanket
from the truck.

   He gave me a mug of hot cocoa with a big shot of whiskey and made me sit
by the fire.  He said, "Okay, Quinn, here's the deal.  You are hypothermic.
We have to bring up your body temp.  The best way to do that is skin on
skin and fast.  I'm going to zip our bags together and we're going to get
naked in the tent, and don't you say a fucking thing about this being a
queer thing to do, asshole." I just looked up at him miserably, and a spasm
of shivering overtook me.  Ken looked at me, panic reflected on his face.
In a subdued voice, he said, "Hold on, buddy, just hold on.  Drink that
chocolate.  I'll be right back to get you." True to his word, he came out
of the tent and helped me stand and stumble back inside in just a couple
minutes.  Once again, he helped me undress and then undressed himself.  I
vaguely remember thinking to myself that my friend was hung like a donkey.
He pushed me down on the bed on my back, and crawled in and wrapped himself
around me.  As my skin touched his, he groaned, "Geezus, Quinn, this is
like hugging a freakin' Popsicle.  You poor SOB."

   I couldn't talk at that point, as wave after wave of uncontrollable
shivering passed through my body.  I put my hand against him, seeking every
scrap of warmth I could find, and he held me against him with his big broad
hands.  He rubbed my body slowly, trying to encourage circulation.  I don't
have any sense how long it took for me to quit shivering, must have been at
least two or three hours.

   At some point, I roused and realized that I'd been asleep.  I would have
stayed asleep but for the fact that I had a buzz saw in my ear.  I said,
"Ken, buddy, wake up.  You're about to blow out my eardrum."

   "Huh, what, you okay, Quinn?  What?" Ken came to consciousness
confusedly, and I said, "You were snoring up a mean streak.  I need to
move, Ken.  Could I turn over and you hug my back?  If feels as though a
gazillion pins are pricking me, it hurts and it's driving me nuts."

   "Sure, Quinn, sure, anything." We disengaged and I rolled over.  He
waited until I was settled and then spooned the length of me, wrapping his
arms around me again.  As soon as his warmth hit my back, I began to settle
down again, feeling a great lassitude come over me, a feeling of relief
that I had managed to dodge this bullet.  I felt the beginnings of warmth
sinking in and was so grateful.  I also felt Ken's cock against my ass
cheeks.  "Whoa," I thought to myself.  "That's a novel experience." I lay
there, now aware of his body.  I could feel his chest against my back.  He
was hairy and I felt his fur tickling in a couple of places.  His powerful
legs held on to mine.  And, right at my ass crack, that huge dick I
remember noticing.  Suddenly, I was really focused right there.  Then I was
aware of my own dick swelling.  Holy fuck.  Ken had his arms wrapped around
me so that one arm was under my head.  His fingers rested on my nipple.  As
he breathed, his fingertips rubbed against that sensitive skin.  I lay
there and started to sweat.  I was freaking out, to say the least.  My best
friend's body was turning me on.

   Hell, it wasn't just his body.  That was a huge part, but here was this
guy who just literally saved my life....he'd been saving it for the past
four years.  In a rush, I realized just how deep my feelings went for him.
THAT made the scared I felt earlier before hitting the water feel like
nothing.  THIS was scary.  Christ on a crutch, what the fuck?

   "Ken, buddy, I have a problem.  We have to talk."

   Ken jerked to attention, "Christ, Quinn, what's wrong?"

   I took the hand that was on top, his right hand, and reached it down to
my completely stiff cock.  "This is what's wrong!  Damnit, I'm turned on.
You're turning me on."

   The feeling of that huge hand on my stiff joint was fucking heavenly.  I
never thought that touching me would freak him out.  I guess that I figured
if I felt hot, so would he.  His hand gripped my cock and I felt him pull
me closer and kiss the back of my neck, kind of biting me at the same time.
"Bout goddamned time, buddy," he said softly.

   His hand reached down and took my balls, pulling them tight, but not
yanking, the same exact pressure I use when I'm pulling my meat.

   I reached my arm back and felt his dick now pushing against my ass. 
"Uh, Ken, HUH?" He groaned as my hand wrapped around his giant cock,
exploring the length and girth.  I'm by no means a small dude, but my
friend had to be ten inches and damned near seven around.  Holy shit.

   "Just shut up right now, okay, buddy?  Just be quiet." He pulled me to
my back and laid directly on top of me.  It was still light out, only about
three in the afternoon.  The feel of his body on top of me, looking into
his eyes so close....we grabbed each other at the same time and kissed, a
long, hard, liplock.  I don't know if it was the hypothermia or what, but I
came out of that kiss dizzy.

   I couldn't get enough of him, I wanted to feel him, taste him, take him.
I curled under his arm and found his cock, tasting male dick for the first
time in my life.  The head was more like a fist that a cockhead, and I
opened my mouth for it and groaned to feel it.  I wanted to make my friend
cum, wanted to swallow him.  But, he clearly wanted the same.  He grabbed
my hair and pulled me up to him.

   "Quinn, slow down.  You still need to stay warm.  You lie on your back.
I'm gonna kneel on top.  Stay under me to save warmth."

   I complied, happily, and when his mouth closed around my dick, I damned
near blew my load right then.  His dick loomed large as he knelt over me
and I grabbed it with my fist to keep from having him choke me.  Again,
taking him in my mouth, this time, I managed about six inches.  My entire
fist wrapped around the part I didn't manage to get in my mouth.  He was
fucking my cock with his mouth, hard and fast and I tried to keep up with
him.  He spat on his finger and I felt him playing at my ass.  I have
always loved ass play, and my wife and I regularly played with a strapon
and I loved to bury my cock in her gorgeous ass.  It had been years since
my ass had been touched and his finger there sent me screaming, "FUCK, YES,
KEN, DAMNIT, YES!" I rocked my ass onto his finger and begged him to fuck
me.  He stopped cold.

   He turned around and came up to me, panting.  "You want me to put THIS
dick in your ass, buddy?" I reached my hand down to his throbbing staff. 
Anyone would have to be a fool to say yes to such a question.  "Oh yea," I
said.  "I want you to put THAT dick in my ass...I don't suppose you happen
to have packed any lube, did you?"

   I'll be fucked if my friend didn't get a sly expression on his face
right before he turned beet red.  I slugged him and said, "You son of a
bitch, you were PREPARED for this?"

   "Uh, Quinn, let's talk about that later, okay?" He reached in the
hanging pocket in the tent and grabbed a small pot of ElbowGrease.  He
opened the pot and got a palm-full.  "Spread your legs, Quinn," he said
softly.  I did.  He kissed me again, very tenderly, almost reverently.  The
feeling behind that kiss caught me off guard.  Then I felt him carefully
pushing lube into my ass, fingers opening me slowly.  I kept my hand on his
cock, feeling the precum at the tip, wanting to taste him more, but so
anxious to feel him fill me up.  "I want to see your face, Quinn, so bring
your legs up for me." Ken knelt between my legs and lathered up his dick.
"I've never felt a real cock inside me, Ken.  Only a strapon.  I always
wondered how it would feel, a hot human cock...now..."

   "Shhh, Quinn, just feel me..." His dick at my ass opening, slowly making
its way in.  "Oh fuck, yes, fuck, yes, fuccccccck, godDAMN yes!" I said as
my ass took his tip.  I spread my legs wide and gripped my ass cheeks to
open myself.  I was driven to take him all.  "Don't go slow, damn it, fill
me up, Ken!  I need to feel you FUCK ME!"

   My urgent need telegraphed itself to him and he began moving inside me.
His cock was so long that he could lie on top of me and fuck me.  I just
kept my legs open wide and he pinioned me.  I leaned up to him and wrapped
my arms around his neck, kissing him wildly, whispering to him to fuck me
harder, faster.  I wanted to feel him inside me forever, this friend, this
man who'd been my rock, whom I'd never realized I loved until my cock went
hard just a little while ago.

   "Take me, goddamn it, Ken, make me yours, Lover!"

   He pulled out but only for a minute.  He said, "You want me to really
take you?  Then get on your knees and spread 'em, Mighty Quinn.  I'm gonna
make you mine, alright."

   I did as he asked, not being able to wait to feel his cock back inside
me.  There it was again, filling me.  He leaned against my ass, burying
every inch of himself inside me, saying, "There, Quinn, you've got all of
me.  You've had me for years, you just didn't know it.  Now you have all of
me." Then he moved in and out, in shallow thrusts, rubbing my prostate
really fast.  I felt the contractions in my ass in a wild anal orgasm,
gripping Ken's giant cock so hard that soon he was jetting his jizz deep
inside of me, groaning and calling my name.  He collapsed against me, his
throbbing rod still buried in me.  I sank into the mattress, amazed that it
still had air after our aerobics on it.  We lay on the bed, Ken lying on
top of me, me with my hands behind me, stroking his body.  I didn't want
him to come out of my ass, but Ken had other ideas.  He rolled me over,
sliding out as he did.  We kissed for a long time, getting to know one
another's mouths, lips, tongues...I think each of us shed a few tears of
joy, to be meeting a new lover in the guise of an old friend.  My balls
were aching and he said, hand reaching for my turgid cock, "I could sure
stand to feel this in me, if you could do it."

   I grinned widely and said, "Well, it can't be THAT much different than
putting him inside a woman's ass, and I've always LOVED doing that.  Oh,
yea, lover, I want to be inside of you.  Now it's your turn to turn over."

   He rolled to his belly and I had him lie flat on the bed, keeping his
legs between mine.  I grabbed lube and then I realized that Ken had a
really hot bubble butt.  "Oh yea, baby, you are hot.  Funny that I never
noticed that before." Knowing that was for a later conversation, I just let
it there and opened his ass with my finger.  "Uh, Quinn, well, see..."

   It dawned on me then.  Ken had a virgin asshole.  "Ah, I gotcha, buddy,
this is your first time, isn't it?"

   I was sure he was blushing as he said, "Just be gentle."

   "I will, buddy, just like you were when you were taking care of me
today."

   I slid down between his ass cheeks and opened them with my hands and
began licking and kissing his butt, circling closer to his asshole, teasing
it slowly, then fucking his asshole with my tongue.  Judging from his moans
and encouragements, he liked that a helluva lot.  Pretty soon he was
begging me for more.  I slipped my index finger in and reached to find his
prostate and gently massaged it, feeling its smooth surface, knowing how
much it would change in a very short while.  When I touched it, he went
crazy.  Damn that first time is wild...

   Two fingers became three and I figured he was ready.  I slicked up my
tool and said, "Okay, baby, open your ass cheeks for me."

   "Oh, gawd, yea," he said, and I went in straight down, hitting the angle
just right, I guess, because he took all eight inches in one slow steady
entry.  My turn to lie on him, feeling my balls mashing against him.  I
began rocking my pelvis into him, small thrusts, and felt him humping back
against me.  "Oh yea, Ken, that's it, show me how it feels best to you."

   I let him push against me, feeling his hunger, which made me crazy. 
Soon, I pulled him up on his knees and fucked him hard.  I didn't think I'd
last long, but I got in a zone and would get right to the edge then back
down and slow down.  He kept wanting it so I kept giving it to him until I
couldn't stand it anymore.  "Are you ready to take my seed, lover?"

   "Gawd, Quinn, give it to me!" I knew he thought I'd cum inside him, but
I had other ideas.  I slid out, carefully, and rolled him over.  I
straddled his chest and looked at his face, flushed and glazed, likely
reflecting my own.  Working my cock with one hand, and reaching behind me
to work his with my other, I felt his own nearly ready to burst.  "You
gonna cum again for me, stud?  I'm gonna shoot my cum all over your face,
and I want to feel you fill up my hand, understood?"

   I worked us both and he bucked and moaned and I felt him start to blow
just as I spewed the first shot up his chin and into his mouth, the rest of
my seed spilling all over his chest.  He filled my fist with jizz, which I
used to torture his sensitive tip until he nearly tossed me off of him.

   I let go and looked down at him, covered in cum, and hot as hell. 
"Fuck, Ken, you are one hot man.  How the hell did I miss that I fell in
love with you?" "Geezus, Quinn, maybe it had something to do with losing
your wife and worrying for four years in a row.  I thought maybe you'd
figure it out eventually.  I just didn't know that you'd have to nearly die
before you did.  And, uh, yea, for the record, I love you, too."

   He pulled my face to him and we kissed, my heart opening in a way I
never felt before.  It was like finding a whole new set of rooms in the
mansion that seems to live in my heart.  All filled with love and heat and
respect and a sense of the biggest adventure I'd ever been on.

   I rolled off of him and continued to hold him, cum and sweat making us
slick.  It was just getting dark.  We hadn't eaten since five that morning.
I was suddenly starving and ravenously thirsty.  I kissed him again and
laughed, a belly laugh, a joyous freakin' belly laugh.  I heard Mike at the
tent door, sniffing and whining.  I unzipped the door and in he bounded. 
He, too, seemed recovered.  And hungry.  


  
Ch. 3 McLeod Family Saga