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                                    My Big Mistake Part 5

       Written by 4play

     The revelation that I was now no longer able to resume life as a man had hit me hard.  I had cried until I had no tears left to shed.  Unable to face either Master or Mary, I stayed in my room the rest of the night.  I understood how Master could have enjoyed making me a steer, but Mary had also known what was going on and gone along with it.  I thought we had a happy marriage all these years and that she was just going through an infatuation with Dave to punish me for my indiscretion.  Now it was clear that she had nothing but scorn for me and delighted in turning me into feminine sissy slave.  My future was now to live as a female, subservient to Mary and Master and any other man.

     In the morning I stayed in bed still feeling sorry fo myself until Master came into my room and yanked me out of bed.  He said, The coffee isnt ready for me.  Get your lazy ass in there and get to work.  I reached for my slave dress and he told me, You will stay naked today bitch.  So I went to the kitchen and put on the coffee stark naked.  After breakfast, Master told me, You have been a bad girl and need to be punished for that.  He stuck the catheter in my penis and pushed the tube through the ball gag and down my throat.  He locked the gag and pocketed the key.  He then left to make his sales calls.  I knew that I was stuck like this at least until he came home.  Mary slapped me on the ass and told me, It is laundry day sissy, remember to change the sheets on our bed.  As I walked past the full length mirror I saw how ridiculous I appeared having C cup tits and a limp cock with a nearly empty sac below.  I had that gag in my mouth with that horrid tube from my penis attached.  I wanted to lay down and cry some more, but knew I had work to do.

     At lunch time, I made Mary a sandwich and she had me sit while she ate.  She stated, I know losing your balls came as a shock to you sweetie, but they were just in the way anyhow.  You were already sterile and impotent, and now your panties will fit nicer.  With that gag in my mouth I was unable to talk and had to just sit and listen to her.  She reached over and fondles my boobs and told me, They look and feel great sissy, be proud of them.  If I give Dave a good report on you, he will probably remove the tube and gag.  When girls feel sad, they go shopping, but you can hardly go out like that.  She was right about that!  She told me, Get your work done today and maybe I will take you shopping tomorrow for some sexy things to wear.  Would you like that sissy?  I nodded yes.  If I had to be a female, I might as well have nice things to wear. She asked me, Are you hungry sissy?  Again I nodded as I thought I was starving.  She said, Ok baby, I will feed you.  She took a syringe and pumped two jars of baby food through the Y connection in the tube.  As it went right into my stomach, I didnt have to taste that slop.  She was smiling maternally all the while she did that.  She tried to cheer me up by telling me, I threw out that ball cage, since it no longer will be useful.  She then ordered me, Get back to work now, fun time is over.  I got up and went back to finish the laundry.

     By the time the laundry was done and put away it was time to start supper.  Master walked in and told me to fetch him a drink.  I fixed him one and delivered it to him.  He asked me, Have you learned not to shirk your duties bitch?  I enthusiastically nodded yes.  He said, I hate to have to punish you, but you need to learn that a womans work is never done and my needs come first.  He fondled my scrotum and told me, You are better off as a woman, you never were much of a man.  I nodded yes.  He took off the catheter and unlocked the ball gag.  He warned me, The next time you will wear that for a week bitch.  Remember that when you next think you can slack off just because you are feeling sorry for yourself.  I was so relieved to have that catheter removed that I could have kissed him.  He told me, Jiggle those tits for me bitch.  I was quick to obey him.  He told me, Good girl, now suck me off bitch.  I knelt before him took his cock out and sucked him off with him holding my boobs.  When he came, I swallowed it and he released me to finish fixing supper.

     During supper Mary told Dave, I want to take sissy shopping tomorrow.  She needs new bras now and I want to buy her some sexy things to wear when we go out with her along.  He told her, Good idea, be sure to buy her things that make her look like a slut.  She wants to attract men that will fuck her and that is the best way.  Mary giggled and agreed.  She said, Some low cut tops to show off her cleavage should help along with miniskirts.  He added, Dont forget the come fuck me shoes.  They were talking about me as if I were not there and I was sitting there naked, boobs exposed.  

     Master asked me, Would you like to go out with us to see if you can pick up and man sissy?  I blushed and didnt know how to answer him.  Some nice big stud to make you come and treat you like the slut you are?, he asked.  I said, Maybe Master, if you think I should.  He then said, Maybe he would have you suck him off in the mens room bitch.  Would you like that? I could picture myself on my knees in a slimy mens room.  It sickened me to be such a slut, but knew I would if the man demanded it of me.  I told him, I want only you Master.  He smiled and said, Thats sweet of you to say sissy, but we both know that you are a slut who craves cock.  I blushed because it was the truth.  I could no longer even masturbate to get myself off.  The closest I came to sort of an orgasm was when getting screwed.  He asked me, Would you like me to fuck you tonight bitch?  I meekly told him, I want you to make love to me Master.  He laughed out loud and told me, I make love to Mary, I fuck you bitch.  If you want me to fuck you, you will have to beg me for it.  I pleaded, Please fuck me Master, pretty please.  He said, You see how desperate the bitch is to be fucked Mary?  I honestly cant imagine how you stayed married to such a sex starved slut for so long.

     They finished eating supper and I cleaned up the kitchen before Master took me by the hand and led me to my bedroom.  He told me, You are going to get a fucking you will never forget tonight bitch.  He handcuffed my hands behind my back, which worried me.  I wanted him to use me, so they werent needed.  Mary came in wearing a rubber glove on her left hand.  I saw her lubricate the all the fingers of the glove and even the knuckles. Master pushed my head down onto the bed leaving me bent over. He told me spread your legs wide bitch and try to relax and enjoy this.  Mary stepped behind me and shoved one finger up my ass and worked it around a bit.  A second finger soon followed by a third soon followed.  She was shoving those fingers in and out, it felt about the size as her dildo so far, but I feared what was coming.  She forced the fourth finger in with her thumb also.  I begged, Please Mistress Mary, it hurts too much.  Master told me, Be quiet bitch or the gag goes back in your mouth.  You begged to be fucked and you are about to get your wish, so shut up and enjoy it.  By pushing hard she got her knuckles inside of me, then she was in up to her wrist.  I felt my asshole tear when they went in.  She made a fist and started pumping it in a rhythmic motion. She was fist fucking me and moving my whole body.  Master released my head and turned me around with Marys fist still pumping inside of me.  Using her other hand to steer me, she was making me walk while she rammed my ass.  Needless to say, I was walking bent over and her thrusts lifting me to my tiptoes.  I was dribbling fluid form my penis all the way.  Master finally told her, I think sissy is satisfied now, Ill Hold her tits as you pull out.  She pulled out with a gushing sound.  I was sobbing uncontrollably from both the pain and the terrible shame of being used like that.  When Master released my boobs, I made a dash for the toilet.  They stood there and laughed at me as I sat there im misery.

     When I felt I could stand, I got up and Master unlocked the handcuffs.  He told me, Thank Mary for all the trouble she went through to sate your lust.  I told her, Thank you Mistress Mary for making the effort to fist fuck me.  She smiled and said, My pleasure dear sissy.  I actually enjoyed that.  She got out a Kotex and tucked it between the cheeks of my ass.  She told me, Put your panties on to hold that in place, imagine that blood is from your period.  Those cramps you feel are normal for that time of the month.  With that pad between my cheeks I walked funny.  She told me, Go to bed sissy and pleasant dreams.  She took off the glove and threw it away.  It was covered with blood and shit.  Master told me as I left, Be glad it was her and not me, my hands are much bigger.  I went to bed and dwelt on my misery.  Fist fucking was something gay men did, but I guess thats what I was now.  Hell, I wasnt even a man anymore.

     The next morning when the alarm went off, I was still sore and hurting, but got up threw on my slave dress and went to put on the coffee.  I would never make the mistake of not doing that again.  When I went to the bathroom to do my morning hygienic duties, there was blood in the toilet when I finished.  She must have torn my insides as well.  I got a fresh Kotex and put it between my ass cheeks, put on my panties and then did my makeup.  When I looked as good as possible wearing that damned slave dress, I went to get a cup of coffee and wait for them to awaken. 

     Mary and Master walked into the kitchen and sat at the table.  I poured them each a cup of coffee and asked, Will you be wanting breakfast this morning Master?  He told me, No thanks sissy, just coffee for me.  He sipped his coffee and then asked me, Did you get the fucking of your life last night bitch?  My eyes filled with tears, but I told him, Yes Master, but I am still bleeding from it.  He chuckled and told me, If we do that often, you will need to wear a diaper as your sphincter muscles will be destroyed.  Then you will have no control over your bowel movements.  He reached out, fondled my breast and said, But you did have a prolonged orgasm didnt you sissy?  I had to admit that I had, despite the pain.  By the time she finished, my knees were weak and I trembled.  The after effects were pain and bleeding.

     Master finished his coffee and left for work.  Mary read her paper, sipped her coffee and casually asked me, Did I hurt your pussy last night girl?  I told her, Yes Mistress Mary, you split me open.  She told me, You looked so funny walking bent over with my arm up your ass.  It was a real power trip for me.  I can imagine it was as I felt totally helpless as she was abusing me.  She told my, I could steer you just by twisting my arm.  Those enemas you give yourself dont clean you totally out sissy.  We will have to think of something else to solve that problem.  I want to use my bare hand next time and dont want to get your shit all over it.  Next time?  She wanted to do that to me again?  

     Mary reminded me, We are going shopping to buy you some more pretty clothes today.  Wear your pink capri pants and heels sissy.  I replied, Yes Mistress Mary., and went to get dressed.  The bleeding had stopped by now so I threw away the sanitary napkin.  With that thing between my ass cheeks, it looked as if I had filled my pants.   By the time I was dressed, Mary was ready to go.  She drove of course since they had destroyed my drivers licence along with all my credit cards.  I thought I knew where she was taking me and I was right.  The shop where Jerrod worked.  He smiled broadly when he saw us walk in.  He said, Hello madam and sissy, nice to see you again.  What can I do for you today?  Mary told him, We need to get sissy some more clothes.  Some things she can wear when she goes out with us.  He told me, Go to the dressing room and strip while I get some things for you to try on.  I automatically obeyed him.

     Jarrod and Mary came in with some clothes.  I was naked by the time they came in.  Jerrod measured my chest and exclaimed, My dear sissy, your little titties have grown into beautiful boobs.  You are now a full C cup dearie.  He fondled my nearly empty scrotum and said, Dave must have banded you as well.  I blushed and admitted, Yes he did sir.  He told me, Dont feel like you are the only one he has done this too.  They all now live as women too, but none turned out as pretty and desirable as you dear.  He felt my breasts and said, We must get you some good bras to show these beauties off.  You dont want them sagging down to your chest.  He left and came back with some bras in my size.  The first one he had me try on was a strapless model that pushed my boobs up nicely.  He told me, This is the one to wear with those low cut tops honey and especially with off the shoulder ones.  Mary had obviously told him that every item should be designed to make me look like a slut.  All of the skirts were minis and the tops low cut.  The only evening wear was a medium length dress whos neckline plunged nearly to my navel, was slit up the side and nearly backless.  It did look nice on me, but I knew there was no way I could wear a bra with that dress.  When I mentioned that to Jarrod, he came back with some half cups and told me, You put these on with spirit gum glue and you need no bra so you can wear a dress like this.

     The last outfit they had me try on was a short skirt that looked like something a cheerleader would wear with a pair of high heeled boots that came nearly to my knees and an off the shoulder peasant blouse that displayed my cleavage attractively.  Jarrod had me go out to look at myself in the three way mirror panel.  He then took my arm and twirled me as if we were dancing.  The skirt flared out as he did that and Mary said, That is perfect sissy, the men can see your panties when you dance wearing that. Dance in these boots?  I could hardly walk in them.  Mary asked Jarrod, Do you have a bigger but plug for her?  I want her pussy stretched out so fist fucking her wont tear her open.  He said, I have just the thing for you Mary.  He returned with a giant black plug that was 6" long that was cone shaped with a narrow part before the end.  By wearing this believe me it will be stretched nicely., he told her.  Mary nodded and asked him, Would you please install that for me?  Jarrod smiled and said, My pleasure Mary.  He smeared some lube on it and then told me, Drop your panties sissy dear and try to relax.  I will try to be gentle with you.  I dropped my panties and bent over.  He started easing the monster into me and the farther he went, the wider it got.  I was still sore there from last night anyway.  I was sweating and biting my lip by the time the widest part was in my and the narrow part let my hole close around it.  He told me, It will get easier each time you use it honey.  In time, you will be able to just shove it in there yourself.  

     Mary told him, Thank you for all your help Jerrod sweetie.  I think we have enough for now.  She told me, Dont you think you should show Jerrod how grateful you are bitch?  I knew what she meant and went to my knees and unzipped his fly.  It didnt take long before I had sucked him off and swallowed his load.  He told me, Thank you girl, that was very nice of you.  He packed up her purchases and Mary charged them to Daves account.  Once more he carried the stuff our to our car for us.  As she drove off she told me, It pays to tip the help sissy. Did you see how helpful he was to us?  I said, Yes Mistress Mary, he sure was.  I knew he fully expected to be rewarded for his efforts.  

     Mary hadnt driven far when she parked in front of a bar.  She told me, Lets stop in here and have a nice glass of wine before we go home sissy.  I was happily surprised by her generous offer.  I used to have a glass of wine nearly every day, but now I mostly drank urine.  Both mine and that of others.  A glass of wine sounded good to me.  The moment we entered the bar I knew it was a gay bar.  Men were dancing with men and women with women.  We sat at an empty table and Mary went to the bar to get us each a glass of wine.  I saw her talking to a man at the bar for a few minutes before she returned with our wine.  

     We had just begun sipping our wine when the man came over and sat at our table.  He was a big hairy man wearing blue jeans and a leather vest unbuttoned to show off his chest.  His head was shaved and he wore leather cuffs on his wrists.  Clearly he was a dominant man and his presence intimidated me.  He told Mary, My name is Jake, nice that you ladies stopped by this afternoon.  He then looked at me and said, You can call me sir.  I knew then that Mary had told him I was a submissive sissy bitch.  As pretty as Mary was he was attracted to me!  When another song came on the jukebox, he took my hand and led me to the dance floor.  As he twirled me around, I suddenly realized that I had left my panties on the floor at the shop.  Everyone looking could see my little cock and my bare ass!  I was huffing from the fast dance and trying to catch my breath when the next song started.  Thankfully it was a slow one and Jake pulled me close to him while we danced pressed together I could feel his muscular body and his erection.  He slipped his hand under my skirt and held my bare ass.  He told me softly, You are a cute bitch and those tits are real.  Most sissies that come in here are wearing falsies.He tipped my head up and kissed me while we danced.  His tongue invaded my mouth.  When we finished that dance, he escorted me back to my table with his hand still on my ass.  Mary was not there!

     Jake saw the panic on my face and told me, Relax sissy, you are safe with me.  Drink your wine and we have time to get to know each other.  I took a sip of wine and looked into his eyes.  He asked me how I had decided to become a bitch and I blurted out a shortened version of how the past few months had gone for me.  His hand reached under the table and fondled my limp cock.  He asked, So you are now no longer able to get hard at all?  I blushed and told him, No sir.  I now function sexually as a female.  He told me, That is fantastic, your master did a fine job of converting you.  If you were mine, I would keep you on a leash like a pet.  Just then Mary came back from the rest room.  What a relief!  The idea of going home with Jake was very frightening.

     Mary told me, Time for us to get going sissy dear.  Thank the nice man for dancing with you.  I told him, Thank you for the dances sir.  Jake told me, I loved meeting you and would love to do it anytime sissy.  Are you sure you dont want to go home with me instead?  I told him, Thank you sir, but I am needed at home.  He got up and gave me a big hug before we left.

     Once in the car Mary asked me, Did you think I had left you sissy?  I told her, Yes Mistress Mary, and I was terrified.  She told me, You were busy so I went to the ladies room and gave you time to be with Jake.  I stayed there long enough to make you think you would have to earn a ride home.  Just a little cruel of me, I know.  But if I were really going to leave you there I would have told you so.   I gave a big sigh of relief when she said that.  She smiled and said, Perhaps Dave and I will take you there and leave you there some night.  You would have to find a ride home using your feminine charms.  Wouldnt that be an interesting challenge bitch?  I answered, Please dont do that Mistress Mary, I could wind up dead or maimed by some pervert.  She told me, Women run that risk every time they go out.  It is something you should know.   There was more to being a woman than I ever dreamed of.

     When we got home, I put away my new clothes and put on my slave dress.  Mary told me, Bend over sissy, let me remove the plug for you.  I was happy to obey that order.  She lifted my dress and pulled the plug out slowly.  It even hurt coming out.  Once it was out, she handed it to me and told me, Wash this beauty off now and keep it in your room.  I did as she told me, then went to start preparing supper.

     Mary sipped a glass of wine and watched as I cooked up a bowl of chili.  She told me, You looked sexy dancing with Jake today.  The way you two kissed, I knew you wanted him to screw you.  You did, didnt you sissy?  I told her, In a way I did, but I was afraid of him Mistress Mary.  She told me you do make a sexy lady.