The Thoroughly Disreputable Incest Digest
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Issue 17
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From: Tom

My first sexual experiences were with family members.  I have no
guilt over this, because I think it was normal experimentation.
My earliest recollection is from when I was about 11 years old.
My parents had a foot massager, which was a device that plugged
into the wall and had two vibrating pads which you put your feet
on.  One day I opened my pants and tried rubbing my penis against
it through my underwear.  The sensations were very strong and I
had my first orgasm.  Later, I brought my younger brother down to
the basement and showed him.  (He is a year younger than me.)
After I came, he tried it and came also.

We masturbated together with the massager on a regular basis, and
this led to other things.  We began feeling and rubbing each
other's erections before using the massager, and eventually
engaged in mutual masturbation without the massager.  We were
always horney and looking for a chance to play with each other.
This went on for about a year, and then one day I decided to try
sucking him.  I got between his legs and took his little dick
between my lips.  I moved my mouth around on it for a while.  It
was ni ce.  He did it to me afterwards.  I don't think either of
us came that first time, but it was very sexy and enjoyable.
Sucking pretty much took the place of masturbating after that.
We would take turns sucking each other to orgasms at every
opportunity.  We often did it at night, since we shared a room.

I think I began ejaculating when I was 12.  He was sucking me one
night, and I ejaculated in his mouth. He took my penis out right
away.  We were both fascinated by my cum.  I tasted it by licking
it off of his hand.  He usually let me cum in his mouth after
that.  He didn't start ejaculating until a couple of years after
that.

This went on until I was almost 16, but during the last year or
so our sex play tapered off greatly as we became more interested
in girls.  We haven't spoken of it since, and I consider us to
both be heterosexual now, though I often fantasize about sucking
a guy.

I had one experience with my sister Wendy.  I was 13 at the time,
and she was 15.  It was a weekend day during the winter, and my
parents had gone to one of my brother's hockey games.  My
sister's friend Nancy had come over, and the two of them
disappeared while I was playing video games.  I found them in our
attic, which had been fixed up as a den.  Nancy had brought over
an x-rated video tape, and they were watching it on the TV and
vcr in the attic/den.  I walked in and busted them, and told them
I wante d to watch it too.  I was thrilled by the tape.  We
challenged each other to show our privates, and so I took out my
hard cock.  They dropped their jeans.  They felt my penis, and I
dared them to suck me.  Both girls refused at first, but then
Nancy decided to do it.  My sister watched her, and then she
decided to try it too.  It was very exciting.  I felt Wendy's
pussy, and got them to show me their breasts.  Nancy encouraged
me to lick my sister, so I did.  When I stopped, Nancy tried it.
We took turns licking her until she came.  I was incredibly
horney.  I wanted to fuck one of them, but they both refused.  I
asked Wendy to lick Nancy, but she wouldn't.  I ended up
masturbating and cumming all over the floor while I felt Nancy's
pussy.

Wendy was very embarrassed about it afterwards.  She swore to me
that she had never had sex with a girl before, and made me
promise never to tell anybody.  (She wasn't aware of that our
brother and I were fooling around, and I didn't tell her.  In
retrospect, maybe I should have.)  We never touched each other
after that day, but it has been a source of my fantasies ever
since.

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From:   Alicia

Hi there, I read your post and thought it would be interesting
for you to know that I have had sex with my nephew, my brother's
son, almost every day in the two weeks that he stayed with me in
the summer of 95. He was thirteen years old at the time and very
curious about sex and stuff.

I noticed that he watched me when I took a shower and I
confronted him with that. My husband was away for a month and I
was already quite horny, so it was definitely me who wooed him. I
said that if he wanted to see me naked he should just say so and
dropped my towel. I let him touch my breasts and then asked him
to undress. I sucked his cock until he came and then made him lie
down on his back. I fucked him until we both came. After the
first time this happened every day until he had to go home. I
would start with kissing his dick and let him come once, to make
sure that it would take him some time to come a second time,
inside of me.

When he was back home again my brother called me to say thanks
and said that David, my nephew, was a different person since he
had stayed with me. I told my husband what had happened and he
did not mind. He said he wished he had had such an aunt when he
was thirteen years old!

Last summer my niece stayed with us, after David having had such
a nice time the year before, my brother and his wife decided to
let little Rachel stay with us. I will send you a letter which
Rachel sent us last week, describing the wonderful things she
found out with me and my husband last summer.

Love, Alicia

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From: Henrik

In my life there has been a experience with incest. To be honest
I am very careful with writing to you because of safety reasons.

The experience has been with my sister and it hasn't been a very
pleasant one. I think that although we knew what was going on, we
were not prepared for the consequences of our actions. This all
happened about six years ago when my sister was 19 and I was 23
years old. After the one time experience we did not talk about it
and left it like nothing happened.

Naturally i thought a great deal about it after i got my
daughter. There is now an opportunity with my sister to talk
about the event and this gives me the possibility to tell her
that i still love her very much and that what happened between us
was not something that I see as wrong but rather something that
we needed to do in order to learn and grow.

Still i am fascinated by incest on the mother/son relation. This
I can explain: When I was six months old I was adopted by Dutch
parents who lived in the U.S.A. (Seattle). Right from the moment
of birth I was taken from my biological mother so that I did not
have any physical contact with her. This is something that till
the day of today I miss. The protection and the welcome that i
think any person needs to start his or her life  has been
something that no other woman and father could replace, although
my adoptive parents, especially my mother, have tried to give it
to me.

I am convinced that this gap has played a big role in my sexual
development in that i've been looking for love, understanding and
protection in the time where I was the most vulnerable, my
puberty.

Still I realize that putting my interest in the right place,
incest is rather a search for a protected place where I can let
go of all my self made restrictions in order to stay healthy and
in touch with myself. This of course in order to survive.

I am very interested in talking more about this subject, to find
out and maybe help other people to understand more of this taboo.
A subject that hurts people instead of elevating its taboo so
that feelings of love don't get twisted into a frustration that
has a negative effect on all the parties concerned.

To end this letter i would like to excuse for my english grammar.
Though i'm dutch i do my best to write as good as possible.

[minor edits, spelling etc.]
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From: Karl

The closest I have ever come to incest is having sex with my
first cousin and I do not regret it.  Usually we try to get alone
every time she visits up here at my mother's.

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From: Nigel

hi - please do me a favour - pass on a 'thank-you' to Jeannie
from my wife and I?  We both enjoy her writing style.  I
understand what she means when she says she gets aroused writing
her sexual memoirs.  The same thing happens to me if I detail an
incredibly erotic experience to someone.

Anyway, about 20 years ago when I was about 25, I moved to
England for several months.  I was pretty lonely and ended up
making love to my cousin a few times.  I guess we both needed
some physical companionship.  There was certainly no love
involved.

Details are really sketchy - this was long long ago and many many
lovers ago. I don't remember there being any 'incest' thoughts
really.  We hadn't seen each other since little kids so we were
complete strangers.  I think if something had sparked, we would
have continued.  It was probably the first time I ever used a
condom.

keep up the good work collecting and posting

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[spoiler: negative experience]

From: Roger

my expeience with my brother -- he 14 or 15 -- me 9 or 10

he was punishing me for something or another and dragged me into
our bedroom and stuck a knife in the door so i could not get out.
He took me to the bed and told me to get undressed as he
undressed himself. He then forced me to have oral sex with him
and then he fucked me using shaving cream as lube...(to this day
i can not shave with canned cream).. I remember when he came in
my mouth i was freaked out...never seeing cum being..or jizm..as
it was referred to in my youth.. I had no idea what this stuff
all over my face was.

of course i was told nver to tell anyone...which i have not until
now...

it happened one more time a few years later...kidda fuzzy about
the two times... but same thing... he was babysitting...got
angry..fucked little brother..   i dont remember if he sucked my
cock or not  but i think he did

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