I weighed over 400 pounds when first went to the Develma Weight Loss Center. When I first went there I was greeted by a thin beautiful older black woman named Develma Williams. Posted on the wall was a picture of Develma when she weighed over 500 pounds. Just meeting her was inspirational and I couldn’t wait to get started.
I was so excited about losing weight that I wasn’t really paying attention as she ran through the list treatments that she uses in her weight loss program. First thing on my list was a glucose tolerance test and insulin sensitivity test. Develma asked that I schedule an entire day off work so I could have my levels tested every hour. Between each blood test I would be on the computer for my retraining. I made the appointment for the following Monday since that is the slowest day at work.
I fasted beginning at 6 PM and when I arrived the nurse took my blood. I was then given a sugary substance to drink and told that I would have my blood tested again in one hour. Develma came in and said, “Did you have your first blood test?”
I said yes so she said, “Did you drink the sugar substance?
Again I said yes. Develma said, “Okay, the drug will take effect in about ten minutes and then I’ll go ahead and hypnotize you. Just relax and let me know when you begin to feel a little drowsy and disoriented.”
I sat up like there a was a tack under my ass and said, “What? You never said anything about hypnosis.”
Develma said, “I most surely did when we met last week. I told you I use hypnosis, phentermine, and a low carb diet to elicit weight loss. I use hypnosis to eliminate your cravings for junk food and to heighten your enjoyment of aerobic exercise and lifting weights.”
I protested again and said, “I’m okay with the drugs and low carb diet but I really do not want to be hypnotized. I think I’ll pass on that part of the therapy if that’s okay.”
Develma said, “Of course it is Mr. Snyder. After all, you are the customer. I wouldn’t want to do anything you do not feel comfortable with. Can I suggest self-hypnosis?”
I said, “What is that?”
She said, “It is just like it sounds. The only difference between hypnosis and self-hypnosis is the former you allow someone to guide you into a hypnotic state and in the latter you guide yourself. If you’re afraid of a total stranger hypnotizing you then I always suggest self-hypnosis.”
I said, “Okay, what do I have to do?”
Develma said, “Just get into a comfortable position and when I tell you to say something to yourself you tell yourself to do it. That way you hypnotize yourself instead of me hypnotizing you.”
I said, “How will I wake up then?”
She said, “Don’t worry, when we get to that point I will help you with that too. Now go ahead and get comfortable while I adjust the computer screen.”
I said, “What’s the screen for” but the words came out slurred. The drug had obviously gone to work.
Develma positioned the screen in front of my eyes and said, “I am going to turn on a computer program that has a nice spinning disk and flickering lights. It helps you enter a hypnotic state faster and helps you to deepen your trance. Are you ready?”
I went to speak but she said, “Of course you are. There is no time like the present.”
She removed my shoes as she said, “I want you to focus on the disk. Tell yourself that you are falling into the disk and as you do you are beginning to feel very relaxed. Go ahead and tell yourself. I’ll wait for you to finish.”
I told myself what she told me to say. Then she said, “Now tell yourself that your feet are becoming very heavy and very sleepy.”
Again I did as she suggested. We moved up my body and by time we got to my arms I was half asleep. She said, “Mr. Snyder, you are very sleepy now and are having trouble continuing with the self-hypnosis. With your permission I would like to finish this session and I can teach you self-hypnosis next time.”
I wanted to speak and tell her I wasn’t comfortable letting a complete stranger inside my mind but no words came to my mouth. My fear was that I could be programmed to keep coming back to the clinic and if I didn’t I would put the weight back on. Or maybe I would divulge my PIN and passwords to my financial institutions. What I feared did not matter because when she took over I realized I was helpless to stop her. All I could do was trust that she had the best of intentions.
She moved to the position behind where I was seated and began massaging my temples. She said, “Continue to stare into the monitor as the disk pulls you deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper. As you stare into the monitor being pulled deeper and deeper you find that my voice travels to every corner of your mind. My voice soothes you, it relaxes you and it compels you to sleep. Sleep Mr. Snyder. Sleep for me and begin your journey to a thinner you.”
I heard a far away voice and recognized it as Develma’s voice. She was counting and I knew she was waking me up from hypnosis. When I woke up I found my hair was smashed around my ears. Develma handed me a glass of water and said, “That’s from the headphones.”
I took a sip of water and loved it. I usually hated water and preferred juices or sugared sodas. Then she said, “How do you feel? Tell me what you think about the water you just drank.”
I said, “I love it. This is really good water. I would probably like water more if I had good clean water like this instead of our city’s crappy tap water. Where did you get it?”
She smiled and said, “The tap.” She held out a piece of pizza. It was my favorite with pepperoni and sausage. She said, “Care for a piece of pizza?”
I looked at it and felt nauseous. I said, “Oh no, I can’t even stomach the idea of eating a pizza. Do you have any salad with no dressing?”
Develma said, “Excellent. I will call you with the results of your blood work. Then I’ll see you back here in two weeks.”
I said, “I thought the blood work was going to take all day.”
Develma said, “It did. You spent most of the day in a hypnotic trance. Where are you going now?”
I eagerly said, “I am going to the gym and starting a workout program.”
She said, “That’s a good boy. Develma knows what is best doesn’t she?”
I immediately felt very close to her. This woman would be the reason that I too would be thin someday and I knew I would do anything for her. I smiled and said, “Yes, you know what is best for me.”
Every two weeks I went for a weigh in and another session on the computer and headphones. A year and a half later I was a fit 200 pounds with muscles. I figured another 10 or 20 pounds and I would see my abdominal muscles for the first time in my life. I went in for my regularly scheduled appointment and after my weigh in Develma started clapping and cheering. She had a little recording of a crowd roaring and played it on the speakers. I said, “What’s the big celebration about.”
She handed me my enrollment form and said, “You put down 200 pounds as your goal weight. You get to graduate.”
I had mixed emotions when she announced this and instead of being excited I looked down at the ground in disappointment. She said, “What’s wrong Steve? I thought this would be a wonderful day for you.”
I was confused about my feelings but I had to share them. I said, “I need you. For the last year and a half you have been the voice in my head telling me what to do. I feel like I cannot make a decision without you. I need to keep seeing you.”
Develma said, “I know. Develma knows best. You are going to have one more session on the computer and when you awaken you will no longer need me to think for you. That was only temporary so you could make the changes in your life that you needed to.”
I said, “But I don’t want to lose that feeling. I’m in love with you.”
Develma said, “Of course you are. Now do as your told. Put on the headphones and look at the screen.”
I had long since learned that when Develma told me to do something I had to obey. I completely trusted her as she had never led me astray nor abused the power she had over my mind. I put the headphones on, looked at that familiar spinning disk and slipped into deep hypnosis.
When I woke up I no longer felt that kinship and desire for Develma. I hugged her and said, “Thank you so much for everything. I thought I would miss you but you did it. You erased my desire for you.”
Develma said, “I know. And I am so proud of you. Now let’s go meet your new friend Shonna.”
I said, “New friend Shonna? I don’t understand.”
Develma opened a door that was at the back of the office. I had always wondered what that door was for. She said, “Don’t worry, you will.”
We stepped through the door and a plump sweet looking black woman was seated at a computer terminal. I said, “New customer?”
I figured she wanted me to meet her newest customer so she could see the great progress I had made. Develma said, “Yes actually she is but not of my weight loss clinic. I also run a dating service. I cater to a select group of women who belong to certain professional or political groups that I also belong to. I’m not really in it for the money but it is a nice addition to my weight loss clinic.”
I said, “I still don’t understand what this has to do with me.”
Develma ignored my comment and said, “Shonna, isn’t he everything I said he was?”
She let out a whoop and holler sound and said, “Hot shit. I’ll take him. You’re the best Develma.”
Develma said, “In that case let me make some introductions. Steve came to me a year and a half ago weighing over 400 pounds. Through hypnosis, exercise and some minor drug treatment that we discontinued over a year ago he is now the sexy 200 pound fit lean fighting machine you see before you.”
She turned to me and said, “Shonna is in the African American Women’s Business Circle with me. We have been friends for several years. I once suggested my clinic to her but she said she loves food too much to do that. She has been alone for many years and recently asked me about my dating service. I told her all about you and she is very interested in wedlock.”
I was about to say that I was flattered that she was trying to play matchmaker but that I hadn’t lost 200 pounds to date a 300 pound woman who couldn’t get a date. There wasn’t a prejudice bone in my body. I was in love with Develma but this woman was huge. I opened my mouth to speak when Develma said, “So Steve, let me introduce you to my good friend and your future wife Shonna Jackson.”
The words stopped in my throat and I made no attempt to speak them. I knew immediately that Shonna Jackson knows what is best for me. I needed her in my life to replace the empty spot that Develma had left behind. I could not possibly make a decision or do anything without Shonna’s voice in my head helping me. We were the perfect match. I stood motionless and speechless taking in all of this woman that I couldn’t wait to get to know better. Finally Develma said, “Would you like to say something Steve?”
Everything I had felt for Develma the last year and a half had somehow been transferred to Shonna. I immediately said, “I never believed in love at first sight until today. I will try to earn your love but I can tell you already that I am madly in love with you. I would do anything, I mean anything, just to make you happy. I lost all this weight so I could date skinny women so isn’t it ironic that I met my dream woman and she isn’t skinny. Are you honestly interested in marriage because if you’re not it will break my heart.”
I took a knee and kissed her hand. She giggled and said, “Is he really serious.”
Develma said, “Oh yes, I have been programming his mind for the last year and a half for this exact moment.”
I said, “You mean you hypnotized me to feel this way?”
Develma said, “I most certainly did Steve. And what do you have to say about that?”
I leaped across the room, wrapped my arms around her and said, “I now have the physique I’ve always wanted and I have the most wonderful woman in the whole world and I owe it all to you. Thank you so much. How can I ever repay you?”
Develma said, “Actually I’m glad you asked. Take my business card. Take lots of them and send your friends to see me. I have a lot more women like Shonna that would love a man like you in their lives.”
I turned to Shonna and said, “Is that okay honey?”
Shonna said, “Of course it is. After all, Develma is our friend and you wish to make her happy. Don’t you?”
The words “Shonna knows what is best for me” flashed through my mind and then the words “Develma is our friend and I wish to make her happy” went through my mind.
I smiled at my lovely full figured dream woman and said, “Yes of course my dear. Anything you say.”
Develma said, “Why don’t I leave you two love birds alone.” She closed the door and left me with Shonna.
Shonna said, “Be a good boy and kiss me.” She pointed to her lips and said, “First kiss me here.” Then she pointed to her pussy and said, “And then kiss me here.”
We kissed and kissed and finally her hand came up, pushed my head down and she said, “Now kiss me here.”
I buried my face between her legs for what would be the first of many oral sessions for the love of my life.