I was not only embarrassed to see a doctor about my problem but I am even embarrassed that it ever happened to me. After laughing hysterically at Bob Dole’s commercials for Viagra I now found myself in a similar predicament. The only problem was that even after I got my hands on the little blue pill I was still having the same problem.
Afraid to mention this to anyone one of my many dissatisfied one night stands finally said, “You know you ought to go see a doctor about your problem. With as much Viagra as you took you should have been able to do every girl in the bar.”
As she got dressed and left my place obviously frustrated I said, “That would be great if I knew someone.”
The door slammed and she left. A week later I got a letter in the mail with no return address on it. I held it up to see its contents without actually having to open the envelope and could see a business card inside. I opened the envelope and out fell a card for a Dr. Barbara Belkowitz specializing in sexual dysfunction for men and women. I flipped the card over and it simply read, “Now you know someone.”
I called the doctor and a brief phone consultation with the nurse I made an appointment for the very next day. I guess there is not a lot of demand for sexual dysfunction doctors.
I was hoping for some voluptuous sexy blond or some fiery redhead but I found an older woman who was thin with smaller breasts. She had beautiful blue eyes and full red lips but she was a good ten years older than I was.
As soon as I walked in she said, “I thought there was a typo on your chart but it is true; you are now the youngest patient I have ever seen. What is a younger man like you doing suffering from this condition?”
I sarcastically replied, “If I knew that Doc I would not be paying you all this money.”
Dr. Belkowitz said, “Your insurance covers most of this smart guy. I am convinced your problem is psychological and not physiological so why don’t we just go ahead and get started. I am going to hypnotize you and after you are in a deep trance we are going to explore the root of your problem.”
This first appointment was moving way too fast. I said, “Shouldn’t we chat a little bit at first or shouldn’t I fill out some kind of questionnaire or something?”
She said, “You do believe I can hypnotize you anytime I want don’t you?”
I said, “Yes, but I thought you would gather some information about me first.”
She said, “Look deep into my beautiful blue crystal eyes. I will gather all the information I need to when your head is comfortably nestled into that soft pillow next to you and your eyes are closed. Now relax for me and become lost in my eyes.”
As I stared into her eyes two thoughts came to me at almost the same exact time. I thought, “Damn, she has beautiful eyes.” I also thought, “I have read a lot about hypnosis and she just cannot hypnotize me by staring into my eyes.”
In fact I started thinking back to all the reading I had done over the years on psychology, psychiatry, the human mind and so forth. As my mind wandered over the material that my memory was conjuring up it did not really occur to me that I was still staring directly into her eyes and that she was still speaking.
Realizing that I had not been paying close attention to what she was saying I quickly pulled myself off memory lane and back into the room. When I tuned back into what she was saying I heard her say, “Yes William, you are unable and unwilling to look away from the spellbinding power of my deep dark blue eyes. As you fall deeper into my eyes you become more and more relaxed as your body becomes heavier and heavier still.”
It was at this point that I realized I felt like I had been injected with liquid steel or lead. I felt like I weighed a thousand pounds and any thought of moving any part of my body just did not appeal to me. I told myself I could look away from her eyes anytime I wanted but they were just so beautiful and inviting that I just wasn’t ready to look away quite yet.
Dr. Belkowitz then said, “Realizing that my eyes and voice can compel your eyes to close you find yourself becoming sleepier and sleepier, sleepier and sleepier. Your breathing is slowing down as it becomes so difficult to think, so difficult to think that it becomes even easier to let my voice guide you. Your eyes grow heavier and heavier as you become sleepier and sleepier. When you are unable to resist my hypnotic power just close your eyes and tell me you surrender.”
I thought to myself that this is totally preposterous. I had not been in her office more than fifteen minutes and there was no way I was going into a trance that fast. But as I thought this I felt my eyes begin to close as I announced, “I surrender” to her. Then I knew she was worth every penny I was paying her.
Dr. Belkowitz said, “I want you to rest your head on the pillow next to you but I want it to happen slowly and under my control. I will count backwards from ten to one and as I count your head will move closer and closer to the pillow. Each number I count will cause you to go ten times deeper under my control. As you fall deeper under my control you will feel as if you could share anything with me and do anything I tell you. Are you ready William?”
I said, “Yes doctor. I am ready.”
She said, “Ten, feel your grasp on reality slipping from your mind. Nine, as your head falls towards the pillow you fall into my power. Eight, deeper and deeper into your trance. Seven, falling into submissive oblivion. Six, losing control to my mesmerizing voice and surrendering your mind to me. Five, so deeply hypnotized as your head goes to my pillow of submission. Four, deeper and deeper under your doctor’s control. Three, just slip away and let my voice assume complete control. Two, deeper and deeper still. And one, let your head rest on the pillow and obey me.”
I felt as if I was floating above the room and looking down on myself being hypnotized. It all seemed like a dream but I knew it was really happening. I was ready for her to cure me but the next few comments made me realize she had other plans.
Dr. Belkowitz said, “From this moment forward you are no longer William. You are Billy my slave and as my slave you will call me Mistress. Do you understand slave?”
I said, “Yes mistress.”
She said, “Good boy Billy. You have a problem with your penis because you have been waiting for a dominant powerful woman to put you under her control. I will now demonstrate to you that it was all in your head and not a physical problem. When I count to three you will open your eyes, fall to your knees and lick my pussy. As you lick my pussy you will fall deeper under my power and your penis will become harder and harder until it feels as if it will burst. But you will not and cannot stop worshipping my pussy until I command you to stop.”
Dr. Belkowitz counted to three and I suddenly opened my eyes, fell to my knees and found myself face to face with her wet pussy. She spread her legs and said, “Be a good slave and make me purr.”
I licked, kissed, caressed and did everything I knew to please a woman. My erection was so hard and so full that it hurt. I was so thankful that she had cured me but I was confused as to what was going to happen next. I continued to pleasure her until she squeezed my head with her legs and made a purring sound. Then she said, “Very good slave. Now let me show you just how much control I have over you.”
She guided me from my kneeling position to a chair directly behind me and away from her desk. I sat down with my eyes still open and she proceeded to pull my pants down relieving some of the pressure. She stared directly into my eyes and said, “I am going to give you the most incredible oral sex you have ever had. Every nerve in your body will come alive with pleasure when my lips meet your penis but you will not be able to cum. No matter how good it feels no matter how bad you wish to feel the relief I control your body and you will not cum until I command it. I will command it by tapping your balls three times. Do you understand slave?”
I said, “Yes mistress.”
She kissed the head of my penis and said, “You will remain hard and cannot go soft until I command it. Even after you orgasm and barely remain conscious from the pleasure you will remain hard for your mistress.”
I have never felt such pleasure in my life. I now realize that through hypnosis she was able to suck on one part of my body but make it feel as if my entire body was being stimulated. I shook, I cried from the pleasure but nothing relieved the incredible pressure and pleasure until she tapped my balls three times.
I remained fully hard and she stood up leaning over me. Then she said, “I have broken you slave. You exist only to serve me. You came here to be cured and I cured you. I wanted a new slave to serve me and obey me and I have what I want too. You belong to me now and care only about my pleasure. You are my slave for the rest of your life. What are you?”
I said, “I am your slave for the rest of my life.”
She said, “When I count to three and snap my fingers you will awaken from your trance. At first you will not remember what happened here today. Each time I give you a command you will be confused at first until you realize how natural it is to submit to me and serve me. Is that clear slave?”
I said, “Yes mistress.”
She said, “When I tap your forehead and tell you to remember you will remember everything that happened here today and will know that I own you.”
Dr. Belkowitz counted to three, snapped her fingers and I found myself seated in a chair with her standing over me. My first thought was that she had hypnotized me, I had no memory of what had happened and there was a strange taste in my mouth. I said, “What happened?”
She said, “I hypnotized you and cured you. You mean you don’t remember?”
I rubbed my head and said, “No, the last thing I remember was you telling me you were going to hypnotize me.”
She smiled and said, “Damn I’m good. So let’s test it out. When I count to three your penis will become fully erect, you will drop your pants and masturbate for me.”
I said, “That’s ridiculous. You can’t just tell me to get a hard on and see one pop up. And I am most assuredly not masturbating in front of you.”
She said, “One, feel the blood flowing.”
I suddenly felt hot and uncomfortable. Blood flowed and I fought the urge to remove my pants. She said, “Two, you cannot fight it or fight me.”
I unloosed my pants as raging lust overcame my senses and by time she said three my pants were down and I was pounding away fiercely as she stood pointing and laughing. After sometime I realized something was wrong and I finally said, “I can’t seem to cum.”
She said, “Hmm. It might be because you cannot cum without my permission. Too bad. In that case I have another idea. Get on your knees, crawl to me and kiss my ass. Then crawl around to the front and lick my pussy.”
I looked at this older woman that I honestly did not find that attractive and was going to tell her she was insane but the words stopped in my mouth when she pulled her pants down. I saw her ass and fell to my knees. As I crawled to her I said, “What the hell did you do to me?”
She bent over and said, “I already told you. I hypnotized and cured you. Part of your cure is an intense desire to do whatever I tell you. Now be a good boy and kiss my ass like the slave that you long to be.”
I got to her ass as she finished her sentence and as I kneeled on my red sore knees I said, “Yes mistress.”
I felt like I had called her this before but as hard as I tried I could not remember. I went around front and licked her pussy. It was the taste that was already in my mouth and I knew this was not the first time I had done this either. As I surrendered to the wonderful feelings of submission and the incredible rewarding feeling of having a mistress to serve she tapped my forehead and said, “Remember slave, remember.”
It all came back to me and as I continued to lick her pussy I said, “I belong to you mistress.”
She pushed my head deeper into her pussy and said, “Yes you do slave, yes you do.”