DEAR DIARY
                                                              9/18/79

   Hello diary, let me introduce self, explain things. Have you cause need someone to share big secrets with. Best friend Sara moved, could tell her anything. Have things that have to share with somebody so you’re it. Must write fast so sorry about missing words, odd sentence structure, misspellings. Have to hide you in barn behind loose board. Will tell you burn before reading then kill self after stuff so must be careful. Name is Anna, girl, live in small town, youngest of 2, older brother Sam, go to catholic school , all A student, mass twice a week, etc. 
   Anyway first big secret- am trading boy’s body in on new model. One with tits and all. Just started to notice boy’s nipples not flat any more. Hips changing too. Alright. Finally. Not all good news though, also got first period, yeech. Every month? Guess worth it but still seems unfair price for new body. Gtg later

                                                              9/30/79

   Need to talk with somebody, wish you could answer. Oddest feelings. Was in bath last nite washing, found weird things when scrubbing crotch and new tits. Kinda itchy but good in strange way. Have to repeat experiment, let you know. Gtg

                                                             10/12/79

   Found out can reproduce feelings almost any time. Just need a quiet place, hand , little time. Wonderful way to go to sleep. Just feels good but seems something missing. Gtg

                                                            10/22/79

   WOW- great stuff- found book in town library. Explains much. Must try new knowledge. Thing called clitoris. Supposed to be good spot, have to find, try. Almost got caught,  may have to wait for further research. Darn, drat, and blast. Gtg

                                                           10/24/79

   BOOK RIGHT!!!!  GOOD SPOT!!! Every time just gets better. Still seems unfinished but worthwhile anyway. More experimentation needed. Gtg

                                                          10/29/79

   Mom noticed new body, decided time for training bra, big talk. Already had 1 on period. Went to big city, Buffalo, got 3 new bras, necessary female supplies, had talk in car on way to , from. Stuff about waiting for something with boys, having babies, changes in body. Nothing new or useful. Big deal. Wished I could ask her about stuff in book, new feelings. 

                                                         11/9/79

  Brothers - what a pain- remember I mentioned older brother? Found bra in laundry, teased me about, found out big brother knew stuff, willing to share, could even be useful. Had talk about sex, feelings. Cut short by parents coming home. Darn, drat, and blast. Maybe later. Gtg

                                                         11/22/79

   BIG NEWS- BURN BEFORE READING, AND AFTER, AND WHILE. NEVER TELL ANYBODY!!!   Day before thanksgiving, no school, Sam and I home alone- dad working, mom shopping. Continued talk about sex. Brother is full of surprises and  good stuff. Explained about masturbation [that’s the proper name for making the feelings for yourself], other things. Told me all boys do it and figured most girls but incomplete data to confirm last, still good guess. Claims vast knowledge on subject, doubt it but still has much more than writer. Has noticed changes in me and thinks I’ll be a looker. First compliment from him in memory. Caught himself and added still much work needed though. Wide ranging discussion full of new stuff, lasted for long time. Opened new avenues for exploration. Also offered to help with actual experimentation, kidding?
Have to think about, sometimes hard to tell if serious. Besides is brother. Deep thought required as well as explorations. Gtg

                                                        12/5/79

   Turns out brother may know what is talking about. Tried some of suggestions and they worked. Clearly large subject, much more work to be done. Where did he learn that trick with thumb knuckle? Must find time, chance for longer talk with annoying older brother. Gtg

                                                           1/3/80

    TOP SECRET!!! BIGGEST OF MY LIFE! END OF WORLD IF LEAKED!!!!  Unsure about even writing down- could ruin lives- lead to grounding until 65- death of brother, self. My GOD.
Parents went out for new years eve. Judged self old enough to be left without babysitter. Brother went on date so home alone, took opportunity to run around house naked [ love to but rarely have chance] figured on freedom until 2 at earliest. Was surprised by brothers return little after 9- really surprised- caught me in birthday suit. Had TV on, was engaged in experiment at time, did not hear car, door, found me on couch with hand busy in pussy. Almost died of fright, shock, embarrassment. Brother just had to make jokes, pithy comments, wish for camera, etc. Then  settled down and offered to continue earlier conversation. Only if I kept same outfit on though [i.e. nothing but a smile]. Never trust brothers to act as expected. Told him only if he dressed the same way- figured he would decline. Before I could stop him he had joined me on the couch without his clothes. Never saw him move so fast- even on the football field. Life lesson there, not sure just what, must study. Still was first time I ever saw real mc coy, worth price, wondrous thing. Watched as it grew, got to handle. Brother returned favor, his fingers magic, showed me new tricks. Maybe knows as much as claims. Learned about orgasms, cumming as he calls it. Showed me how boys do it. Tried to help me but just good feelings. Claimed it takes practice for girls. Much easier for boys. Offered to kiss me there, supposed to work wonders but just seemed icky. Mentioned girls could do same for boys, involves licking, sucking. Passed till later, much later. Love the help but there are limits. Mixed feelings about white stuff- jizz he called it. Had lots to say about it. Claimed it felt good when sprayed inside of girl, tasted good, low calories, cured cancer. Sure seemed to make him happy with appearance. Long fun new years eve for both of us. Glad date got sick on him. Still things not quite right. Feel funny- is brother after all. But know now what missing so worth funny feelings. gtg