DIARY 2/23/80
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   Sorry diary. Been too long since we talked. Been busy. Strange things happening, not all good. Mom has new friends, all women , all weird, one rides a harley. Dad has started drinking. Sam joined the marines, will leave for boot camp couple weeks after graduation. Don’t understand what’s going on here but do not like it. 
   Other news better. Been having fun with Father N. Good sex. Wondering about stuff though. How can priest say out of wedlock sex is sin then spend much time doing it with kid. Not complaining just wondering. Gotten into pattern, start with toys then oral sex. Love it and getting good at it. Still Father N keeps wanting to go all the way. Somehow not ready yet but he keeps asking. Still fun. Got to watch 1 day as Sam, current girlfriend did dirty deed. Just lucky, right place, right time. Not know I was home sick. Door to bath between bedrooms ajar. Snuck in and watched whole thing. Seems to know what he is doing, girlfriend vocal with approval. Looked like blast. Have to think about letting Father N do it to me. Also have been playing with my ass.
Beginning to feel good to have something stuck in it while other things going on, still not ready to try butt plug just yet. Gtg. 
 
                                                      2/28/80

Hello diary. Think Sam knew I was watching, has said things that make no sense otherwise. Not mad, teasing. Asked again when I was going to let him have me. Expressed longing for my tender young body ever since our play time. Told him in his dreams. Few other comments about my learning things wherever I could. Then something about Father N, does he know? How? Still trying with toys, having fun, first time with butt plug. Felt icky at first but with time and vibrator on was pretty good, more practice needed.
   Mom is getting weird, always some other woman hanging around when I get home, usually one with Harley, acts like boyfriend, splits before dad gets home. Things not good there either. Fights all the time, dad gone more and more, too much to drink too.  Father N getting insistent about going all the way, still just not ready. Met Sandy coming in as I was leaving father’s office. Is she getting help too? Sister Mary saw me in hall, gave me strange look, thought she was going to say something but just shook head, walked by. Gtg

                                                       3/24/80

   Not much to report diary. Things about same. 

                                                      4/18/80

  EARTH SHATTERING  THINGS GOING ON.  First , Father N is gone, no one talking. School tense, strange feelings. Sandy also gone, parents packed up, left without goodbyes. Rumors abound. Sister Mary crosses herself when meeting me in hall. Other sisters watch like cat at mouse hole. People around asking questions. Second mom has left, miss her. Got on Harley rode away. Told self to help self to anything left behind. Teary goodbyes, no explanations except she couldn’t go on any more way things were. Many nights home alone, not liking it. Too young to be stuck with cooking, cleaning for house. So bummed out not even using toys. LIFE SUCKS !  Gtg