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                      "ELECTRA AND HER DAUGHTERS"
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           As  regular  readers know, "Electra" is  a  term  used 
         in psychiatry.   The reverse of "Oedipus" who wished  to 
         marry  his  mother,  "Electra" was  desirous  of  sexual 
         intercourse  with  her  father.     In  letters  to  the 
         Authors,  one herself an `Electra', women  describe  the 
         circumstances  surrounding their decision  to  instigate 
         incestual contact.


           This is the true story of:


           Virginia:   "Her  name  is  Virginia,   `Virgin'   for 
           ~~~~~~~~     short..." 


           Dear Dr. Woods: 


           A  couple of months from now, I will be 25 years  old, 
         and  for  the  past 18 months, have  been  living  in  a 
         husband-wife relationship with my brother.  


           Rick  is  two years younger than me. My  first  sexual 
         contact  with  him  was four  months  before  that,  and 
         happened  as  a  result  of me  being  in  an  extremely 
         traumatic situation. 


           I  married when I was twenty, when my husband,  Elmer, 
         was  starting  his career as a  teacher.  Naturally,  we 
         didn't want children right away, so I was on the `pill.' 
         Life  was  just fantastic, and I thought  our  happiness 
         would go on forever.


           One   Friday,  not  long  after  our  second   wedding 
         anniversary,   Elmer  came  home  early   from   school.   
         Feeling very ill, he felt pretty sure a week-end of rest 
         would fix him up just fine, but it didn't. He felt worse 
         on Monday and I insisted on calling the doctor who  said 
         he was not sure what was wrong with Elmer and a few days 
         later,  we went into the city to see a specialist.  When 
         he'd  finished running a bunch of tests, the  specialist 
         got  us both in his office and told us Elmer would  have 
         to go into the hospital for exploratory surgery.  Saying 
         he  thought  he was feeling better and  that  he  really 
         needed to get back to his teaching, Elmer protested  but 
         the doctor looked at both of us pretty grimly and  said, 
         "No,  Elmer. This could be serious." Surgery!    Hearing 
         him say that, I nearly died and grabbed Elmer and hugged 
         him to me. 


           For  the next several days, while we were waiting  for 
         the  operation  to be scheduled, I just went  around  in 
         kind of a numb daze. How could this be happening to  us?   
         When I should have been the one cheering him up, telling 
         me  everything  was going to be all right,   poor  Elmer 
         tried to cheer me up! 


           Elmer's  father is his only living relative,  a  poor, 
         very  sick old man who lives a couple of thousand  miles 
         from  where  we  live. I called him  but  of  course  he 
         couldn't come. 


           My  mother  and  father  are both  dead  and  my  only 
         relative  is  my younger brother, Rick, who lived  in  a 
         smaller  city  just  under a hundred  miles  from  here. 
         Asking him if he could be with me while Elmer was in the 
         operating  room, he got emergency leave and got  to  the 
         hospital about fifteen minutes before they rolled  Elmer 
         into  the  operating room. As he was going past  on  the 
         gurney, Elmer took Rick's hand and said, "Look after her 
         for me," and Rick assured him he would. 


           Rick  and  I sat in the waiting room,  sometimes  just 
         holding  hands and sometimes getting up and  pacing  the 
         floor. We both expected to have a pretty long wait, so I 
         was  surprised - and very hopeful - when  the  operating 
         surgeon  came  out sooner than expected.    Pulling  his 
         mask  down, he walked up to me and  said,  "Mrs.-------, 
         I'm  afraid I have bad news for you." My face must  have 
         turned  very pale, because Rick came quickly to my  side 
         and put his arm around me to steady me. 


           "He's  going  to be all right, isn't  he?"  I  finally 
         choked out. 


           Shaking  his head sadly, the doctor put a hand  on  my 
         arm. "We've lost him." 


           The  surgeon  told  me when they'd  opened  Elmer  up, 
         they'd  discovered he was eaten up with  cancer.  "Since 
         there  was  nothing  we could do  for  him,  we  started 
         closing,  and his heart just stopped. We tried,  but  we 
         couldn't get it to start again." 


           Reeling  back  against Rick, he held me up  with  both 
         arms.  The  doctor  told is if Elmer  had  survived  the 
         operation,  he would have had perhaps a month or two  to 
         live  and  in constant, unbearable  pain.  "Believe  me, 
         Mrs.------," he said, "Elmer is better off not having to 
         go  through  that, and though I know how hard it  is  to 
         believe such a thing right now, so are you." 


           After  thanking the Doctor, holding me  tight  against 
         his side so I wouldn't fall kicking and screaming to the 
         floor, Rick led me out of the hospital. 


           When  we  got home, not knowing what to do,  I  walked 
         dazedly through the house. I was not even 23 years old - 
         and already a widow! Rick fixed us lunch and made me sit 
         down at the table, but I just picked at my food. 


           Rick  called  the hospital and the mortuary,  and  the 
         Principal  at  Elmer's  school,  telling  him  what  had 
         happened.   Later in the afternoon, he sat and talked to 
         me.   I cried a lot, and he did his best to comfort  me. 
         Finally he fixed us some supper. I ate a little of that, 
         and  afterwards, showed Rick the bedroom where he  could 
         sleep.  Then,  I  went  to  mine  and  Elmer's  bedroom, 
         undressed, and climbed in bed. 


           I laid there, not tossing and turning like you hear of 
         people  doing. I didn't have the energy for it.  I  just 
         laid there and stared at the ceiling. I felt so alone! 


           It  was still before midnight when, in desperation,  I 
         called  out  to Rick. In only a moment,  he  was  coming 
         through my door. He hadn't even taken time to dress  and 
         was just wearing boxer shorts. 


            "Ginny," he said, "are you all right?" 


           I  was  crying and I shook my head. "Please  lie  down 
         with  me, Rick," I begged him. He hesitated for  just  a 
         second,  then crawled in bed by my side and  pulled  the 
         covers  up  over us. I put my head on his  shoulder  and 
         sobbed  for  a while, and then I rolled away  from  him. 
         "Please hug my back," I asked him, and he took me in his 
         arms in a `spoon hug'. 


           I  don't know how long we laid like that, but after  a 
         little  while,  I felt Rick's penis start  getting  hard 
         against  my bottom. He moved back, but it was  like  his 
         cock had pressed a `start button' in me! 


           I  don't understand the psychology of what I  did  and 
         I'm not sure I want to, but I moved back a little bit so 
         that  my buttock touched Rick's erection again - and  it 
         was  very hard. He jumped at the contact, and all  of  a 
         sudden,   throwing my uppermost leg across his hips  and 
         worming  my lower one under him, I found myself  rolling 
         over to face him.  Pressing my groin to that hard  thing 
         between my brother's legs, my arms were around him and I 
         was pulling him to me as hard as I could. 


           Rick  groaned  and  tried to push away  from  me,  but 
         wildly humping against his middle, I had an arm and  leg 
         lock around him. I was still crying, but had managed  to 
         get my night-gown up around my waist and when I  finally 
         got  his  penis  out of his shorts and the  head  of  it 
         against the entrance to my vagina, I jammed forward with 
         my bottom and it sank all the way into me. For a  minute 
         or so, he laid still while I moved my vagina up and down 
         on  him,  and  then rolling over on  top  of  me,  began 
         pounding it into me. 


           I was like a wild woman! I hunched up against his cock 
         as  hard as I could, and he stabbed it into me  like  he 
         was  trying to drive it right through my body.   When  I 
         came,  I remember thinking that I hoped  the  neighbours 
         would just think it was a `widow's wail' and screamed at 
         the  top of my voice. And grunting and grinding  himself 
         against  me, Rick came at the same instant. When I  felt 
         his  cum  shooting into me, I clutched him  tightly  and 
         felt  his body straining to me.   Then he collapsed   on 
         top of me. 


           Almost immediately, he tried to roll away from me, but 
         I locked my legs around his hips and my arms around  his 
         shoulders.  I was crying again as inside me, I felt  his 
         penis beginning to soften, and I started slowly grinding 
         my  bottom in small circles until I felt it grow  again. 
         Rick raised his head and looked into my face for just  a 
         moment.  I closed my eyes, and he laid back flat  on  me 
         and let me work my vagina on him until he was hard. 


           Then  we  went at it a second time like  a  couple  of 
         rabbits. Rick plunged, and I was jerking up against him, 
         almost  like we were trying to hurt each other until  we 
         brought each other to a second orgasm. 


           Like I said, I don't understand why I was doing what I 
         was doing with my brother, but it was like I thought  if 
         I let Rick take his penis out of my vagina, I would die, 
         too.    Even  after  coming a second time,  I  held  him 
         between my legs and wouldn't let him pull out. I knew  I 
         had  strong muscles around my cunt, Elmer had teased  me 
         many  times  about trying to bite his cock off  with  my 
         pussy,  and  now I put them to good  use,  squeezing  my 
         brother's  limp  penis. He was breathing  hard,  but  it 
         wasn't too long before I felt him stir inside me  again, 
         and we went at it a third time. 


           When  we came that time - it took Rick  longer,  which 
         isn't very surprising - my orgasm was so strong that  it 
         felt  like  he  was  tearing my guts  out,  and  then  I 
         fainted. 


           Next morning, neither of us said a word about what had 
         gone on the night before, it was just as if it had never 
         happened.  We  called the funeral home and  Rick  and  I 
         picked  out a casket, then I called Elmer's  father  and 
         told  him what had happened. He cried a little over  the 
         phone, but finally said he was too sick and didn't  have 
         enough money to buy a ticket to come to the funeral. So, 
         the funeral would be a few neighbours, whatever  friends 
         Elmer had had at school and Rick and me. 


           By  the middle of the afternoon, everything  had  been 
         arranged  for the funeral the next day. I wanted to  get 
         it over as quickly as possible. We had phone calls  from 
         other teachers and a few students, and then things  sort 
         of came to a standstill. Drained from the fits of crying 
         I'd  had during the day, I told Rick I wanted to take  a 
         nap. 


           I don't know how to explain this, but when I stood  up 
         to go to my bedroom, I caught him by the hand and pulled 
         him with me, and when we were in my room, I grabbed  the 
         buttons  on his shirt and nearly tore them off. I was  a 
         wild  woman  again, and I couldn't get his  clothes  off 
         fast  enough!   Rick stood there looking at me as if  he 
         was patiently indulging a child and as soon as I had him 
         completely naked, I ripped off my own clothes and pulled 
         him  to the bed.    My legs wide-spread, I fell back  on 
         it,  and  pulled him down on top of me. He  was  already 
         hard, and I couldn't wait to get his penis in me! 


           Again, we screwed like a couple of rabbits and when we 
         came,  I  locked my legs and arms around Rick  like  I'd 
         done the night before and wouldn't let him take it  out. 
         I  milked  him with my cunt muscles until  he  was  hard 
         again, and we did it a second time. When the spasms died 
         away  in  me, I felt him moving off.  As I  grabbed  him 
         again  with  my arms and legs, he put his head  down  by 
         mine  and said, "Sis, I just can't do it  again.  Please 
         let me up." 


           Deep  in  my mind, I knew I'd been using  Rick  and  I 
         guess  my  conscience  at wearing  him  out  took  over, 
         because I let him could roll off me. Instead of  getting 
         up and going out of the room, he laid back beside me and 
         put  his arm under my neck. I hugged him to me  and  had 
         another spell of crying, and then we both went to sleep. 


           The phone woke us as evening was coming on. Then there 
         were more phone calls from people who wanted to know the 
         funeral  details.  A little before midnight,  I  said  I 
         thought  it  was  time to go to bed,  and  Rick  agreed. 
         Without  either  saying  anything, we both  went  to  my 
         bedroom  and got ready for bed. I think he came with  me 
         because  he knew I could not stand being alone  and  I'm 
         sure he had no intention of instigating any more sex. 


           Our  bodies  not touching, we laid down  together  and 
         turned  out  the bedside lights. My eyes  open,  looking 
         toward  the ceiling for a long time, I laid flat  on  my 
         back. Then it was almost as if the different parts of my 
         body had a mind of their own. 


           My  left hand reached over and, finding Rick's  penis, 
         pulled it out through the opening in his shorts. Like it 
         was drawn there by a magnet, my head went down to  where 
         my  hand was,  and I sucked him into my mouth.   As  his 
         body jerked and he gave a little groan, I couldn't  tell 
         whether  he was awake or not, but then felt his hand  on 
         the back of my head as he pushed down with it gently  to 
         get  more of his cock into my mouth. For maybe a  minute 
         or two, I sucked him until he got fully hard, and  then, 
         pulling  away  from  him, stripped  off  my  night-gown. 
         Straddling  his middle and sinking down on him until  he 
         was  all  the  way in, I moved my bottom  up  and  down, 
         increasing my speed until finally stretching forward,  I 
         pressed  my breasts to his face. He took a  nipple  into 
         his mouth and sucked and I felt like my body was  flying 
         apart. Grinding myself down on Rick's penis, his  bottom 
         was  hunching  up, pushing it into me, and  both  of  us 
         shaking like we were in an earthquake, we came together. 


           When it was over, I rolled off of him and laid with my 
         back  to  him. He put his arms around me and   wet  with 
         both of our juices, I could feel his limp cock lying  in 
         my bottom crack. And then we slept. 


           Getting ready for the funeral service next morning, we 
         were very busy. There were more people there than I  had 
         expected. I guess Elmer had more friends at school  than 
         I  realized, both teachers and students. They  were  all 
         very sad and very sympathetic, but the funny thing is  - 
         well,  it isn't funny at all, but I don't know  what  to 
         call it or how to explain it - whilst acknowledging  all 
         the  expressions of sympathy, Rick and I were both  just 
         going  through  the motions. We smiled sadly  and  shook 
         hands with everybody, but casting furtive looks at  each 
         other,   we both knew we could hardly wait to  get  away 
         from there and go home and fuck! 
            

           And  that is exactly what we did. Elmer's  coffin  had 
         hardly been lowered into the ground and people  starting 
         to drift away when Rick and I made a dash to our car and 
         headed for home. We didn't even make it to the  bedroom. 
         I  think  we  were undoing our clothes  before  we  even 
         reached  the house.   As we entered, I threw my  panties 
         and bra on a chair in the living room, and Rick was down 
         to his shorts. 


           Grabbing  me and sitting me down on the sofa, for  the 
         first  time,  Rick took the initiative.    Spreading  my 
         legs, he knelt on the floor in front of me and the  next 
         thing I knew, his mouth was on my pussy.  Just to get it 
         hard like I'd done to Rick the night before, I'd  sucked 
         Elmer's  cock,  but  I don't think  either  of  us  ever 
         thought of him licking my pussy. I wondered why Rick was 
         doing  that, since I didn't have to be gotten hard,  and 
         then  I  felt his tongue on my clitoris  and  my  bottom 
         nearly jumped off the sofa. Never in my life had I  felt 
         anything  like  that,  and I could no  more  control  my 
         movements  than  I could fly! My buttocks lifted  up  to 
         push  my  pussy into my brother's face and I  ground  it 
         against  him like a belly dancer. My hands  pulling  his 
         face into me and my bottom grinding against his  tongue, 
         I  came in almost no time, and then he pulled  back  and 
         smiled up at me. 


            Shuddering for just a moment, I jumped up and  pulled 
         him  with me into the bedroom. Rick's cock was  standing 
         straight out in front of him and I could hardly wait  to 
         feel  it filling my vagina. He was so ready,  it  didn't 
         take many pumps of his stiff cock before he was  huffing 
         and  puffing and poking it to me with all his  might.  I 
         thought  he might come ahead of me, but when I felt  his 
         stuff shooting into the depths of my vagina, it set  off 
         my own orgasm, and hugging each other tightly,  we  came 
         together. 


           For  awhile,  breathing heavily, we laid  beside  each 
         other, and then Rick got up on one elbow and looked down 
         at  me. Giving me a small, kind of quizzical  smile,  he 
         whispered, "Why, Ginny?" 


           Of  course,  I  knew what he was  talking  about,  and 
         looked away in embarrassment. Finally, I said, "I  don't 
         know,  Rick.  I  just don't know."  Then  I  looked  him 
         straight in the eye and said, "I felt like I just had to 
         do  it.  I felt like I'd die of grief if I  didn't  have 
         it."  Putting   my hand on his naked shoulder,  I  said, 
         "I'm sorry, Rick. Please don't think badly of me. I just 
         had to do it!" 


           To  my  surprise, he smiled again  and  leaning  down, 
         kissed  me on the lips, the first time he'd  done  that. 
         "Ginny,  I've been in love with you since I  was  twelve 
         years old." 


           Kind  of like I didn't believe him, I guess, I  looked 
         at  him.    He must have read my look because  he  said, 
         "Before that, you were pretty much of a pain in the ass, 
         I'll admit, but when you got to be fourteen, you all  of 
         sudden kind of grew up."    He told me I'd gotten pretty 
         and even started treating him nicer, and reminded me  of 
         the time, after school one day when he was fourteen,  he 
         showed  up at home with a black eye and a cut  over  his 
         eyebrow.    


           Remembering, I said, "Yes, you said you were hit by  a 
         swing while you were crossing the playground." 


            "Well, that wasn't what had happened," he said.  What 
         happened was he'd seen me walking across the campus  and 
         a couple of the older high school boys were watching me. 
         One of them said I was the prettiest girl in school, and 
         the other one said, "Yeah! Her name is Virginia,  Virgin 
         for short, but not for long," and they'd both giggled. 


           [Having  changed the respondent's name to protect  her 
         identity,  we  also  had  to  change  the  "joke."   The 
         original remark which "Rick" overheard was  considerably 
         cruder. F. vB.] 


           I  laughed,  and Rick said when he heard the  boy  say 
         that,  he'd lit right into him. He didn't know Rick  was 
         my  brother,  so he'd been taken by surprise  when  Rick 
         poked him in the belly. It hadn't hurt much, though, and 
         then he'd straightened up and given Rick the black eye. 


           I  hugged him and said, "That was sweet, you  standing 
         up for me like that." 


           "Well-l," Rick said, turning kind of red in the  face, 
         "That  was the first time I ever thought about  you  and 
         sex  at the same time. I guess it made me  realize  that 
         someday  you were going to let somebody fuck you, and  I 
         was awfully jealous of whoever that might be." 


           "Oh, Rick!" I said, smiling at him. 


           Rick nodded his head several times and said when  he'd 
         see me in my night-gown, or underwear after that -  "You 
         know,  you  weren't  as modest as you  could  have  been 
         around  a  teenage boy, Sis," - thinking  about  how  it 
         would  be  to  do  it to me, he'd go  to  his  room  and 
         masturbate,   "I  even thought about  how  wonderful  it 
         would  be  if I could marry you, and it made me  sad  to 
         know I couldn't". 


           I looked at him in surprise, and he laid his head back 
         on the pillow. "And now I've really done it to you,"  he 
         finished. 


           "And how did you like it?" I whispered. 


           Rick  turned  his head to look into my eyes.  "It  was 
         about  ten times as great as I thought it would be if  I 
         ever got the chance to do it to you, which I was sure  I 
         wouldn't." 


           A  couple  of days later, Rick had to go back  to  his 
         job, but since he wasn't terribly far away, promised  to 
         come  back  on  the week ends  to  help  straighten  out 
         Elmer's affairs.   He did.  And we slept together. 


           In  those awful weeks before and after Elmer died,   I 
         guess  I  was under so much stress that  remembering  to 
         take my pill every morning was the least of my  worries.   
         Several  week-ends  later,  I had to  tell  Rick  I  was 
         pregnant with his child. 


           I think life begins at conception and to me, having an 
         abortion  would be the same thing as murder.    Besides, 
         I'd just lost a husband and couldn't face losing a child 
         too,  so when Rick asked if I was going to have  one,  I 
         told him `no'.


             Rick pointed out I would need to think about  moving 
         away from where we had lived It was too late for  anyone 
         to  believe the child was Elmer's, so people would  know 
         I'd  been sleeping with somebody.  I knew he was  right, 
         but had no idea where I could go. 


           A week later, Rick showed up for his week-end and told 
         me  he had talked to his company about him  transferring 
         to another city, far away from where we were.   He asked 
         if I would go with him. I said, yes, I'd love to live in 
         the same city with him. 


            Rick   said  what  he  had  in  mind  was   something 
         different. "Will you make a dream come true for me?"  


           "What dream?" I asked him. 


           "The dream I used to have about how great it would  be 
         if I could marry you," he said, smiling at me. 


           Saying  we couldn't get married, I protested; we  were 
         brother  and  sister.   Rick said he knew that,  but  we 
         could  live  together  and  let  people  think  we  were 
         married.  Legally,  I  could get  my  maiden  name  back   
         "Who'd know us having the same last name was not because 
         we were married?" he asked. 


           It was kind of a wild idea - but I told Rick I'd think 
         about it. 


           Elmer's insurance paid off the house we'd been buying, 
         so  I put it on the market and, meanwhile, Rick got  his 
         transfer. A couple of weeks later, I called him, telling 
         him I'd decided I would go along with him on the husband 
         and  wife  thing. If the father was present,  it  really 
         would  be  better for our child and having  a  `husband' 
         would  save  an  awful lot  of  explanations.  Rick  was 
         elated!  


           About  a month later, the house sold, he came to  help 
         me  move to the little house he'd rented in the  suburbs 
         of our new home city. 


           There was a large vase filled with roses on a table in 
         the  entry  hall  when  we walked  in  the  front  door. 
         Grinning,  Rick said they were for me, (he'd wired  them 
         to  a neighbour and gotten him to bring them  over  just 
         before  we were scheduled to arrive).   Looking  at  the 
         little  card, the only thing written on it was "Song  of 
         Solomon  4:9-11."  I gave him a  questioning  look  and, 
         still  grinning like a kid with a delicious  secret,  he 
         picked up a Bible that was behind the vase and handed it 
         to me. 


           Bursting  into tears, when I read the verses,  I  fell 
         into his arms. I can't even come close to describing the 
         love  I  felt flowing between us. (This letter  is  long 
         enough  as it is, Dr. Woods, so I won't copy the  verses 
         here; you can look them up if you want to know what they 
         say.) 


                [Author's Note: Of course we looked them up! 
              And, from the King James Version: 


                "Thou hast ravished my heart, my sister,  my 
              bride; thou hast ravished my heart with one of 
              thine eyes, with one chain of thy necklace. 


                How  fair is thy love, my sister, my  bride! 
              how much better is thy love than wine! and the 
              smell of thine oils than all spices! 


                Thy   lips,  O  my  spouse,  drop   as   the 
              honeycomb:  honey  and  milk  are  under   thy 
              tongue; and the scent of thy garments is  like 
              the smell of Lebanon." R.W.] 

           Crying and hugging him to me for some minutes, I  told 
         Rick I didn't know he was a Bible scholar.   He laughed,  
         telling  me  that ever since high school,  when  he  had 
         something  really  preying on his mind, he's  close  his 
         eyes  and let the Bible fall open by  itself.    Putting 
         his  finger  down  on  the page,  reading  what  it  was 
         pointing to, he'd done it when he'd got back home  after 
         my telling him that I was pregnant. "I don't  understand 
         what  the  Song  of  Solomon is  all  about,"  he  said, 
         blushing, "but that sure looked like an omen to me. It's 
         what gave me the nerve to suggest this." 


           I have to admit that I was amazed! 


           With  the foresight to adopt a middle name, I filed  a 
         petition  to get my maiden name restored to me. I  chose 
         one that could be a surname so it would appear to be  my 
         maiden  name whenever I filled out any kind  of  papers. 
         With  my  blonde coloring and Rick's dark hair,  no  one 
         would ever guess we are brother and sister, so we  don't 
         have any trouble being accepted as a married couple.   


           Our  daughter is close to a year old now, and much  to 
         the relief of both of us, she is a perfect baby! She  is 
         the  product  of incest, so how could we  know  how  she 
         would   turn  out?  But  there  certainly   is   nothing 
         physically  wrong with her, and the  paediatrician  says 
         she's smart as a whip, so I guess no harm done! 


           I  guess  you'd have to say that there was  a  lot  of 
         traumatic  stuff  involved here, Dr. Woods,  but  living 
         with  my brother as his wife and having sex with him  is 
         not part of it. 


           We love each other very much. I don't know where  Rick 
         learned  all the stuff he knows about sex, but I'm  sure 
         glad  he did. I really do wish Elmer hadn't died, but  I 
         admit that if I was still married to him we'd always  do 
         it the same old way, with him on top and his penis in my 
         vagina. 


           But  Rick  and I really let ourselves go  and  do  all 
         sorts  of different things.   No use tempting fate,  you 
         know,  so  I am on the pill now, and will  stay  on  it.    
         I'm  taking some courses in college in  preparation  for 
         becoming a teacher - as good as Elmer was, I hope! 


           By the way, not long ago I read about how some  people 
         -  men and women both - turn to sex when they are  in  a 
         grief situation.    It told about one woman who got  her 
         husband's  brother into bed with her at about  the  same 
         point where I got Rick into bed with me, and another man 
         and  his sixteen-year-old daughter consoled  each  other 
         with sex before the undertaker had even picked up  their 
         wife's  and mother's body from the bedroom  where  she'd 
         died in the same house. 


           So, maybe I'm not as weird as I thought I was! 


           [Author's  Note:  Virginia  is right;  it  is  not  an 
         extremely  uncommon  occurrence  for  a   newly-bereaved 
         person  to seek consolation through sex, though  usually 
         with  a  close  friend  rather  than  a  family  member. 
         However,  it would appear from other responses  received 
         that  death  of a husband/father can be  the  impetus  - 
         perhaps  even  an understandable one  -  for  mother-son 
         incest.  But  none have been included  here  because  of 
         their  lack of any corroboration from the son  that  the 
         incest was, indeed, non-traumatic. R.W.] 


           Sometimes,  though, remembering Elmer laying  on  that 
         gurney,  telling Rick to `look after me,' I think,  "Oh, 
         Elmer!  I  know  this is not what  you  meant,  but  I'm 
         happier than I thought I'd ever be again!" 


           Yours truly, 


           `Virginia'
 

           From: "ELECTRA AND HER DAUGHTERS"
            c: Drs. FvB and RW 1995 (US Edition)     
               Merrill Castle and Gray (This Edition) 
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                       !!!Story - Story - Story!!! 
            

                           "TAKING THE BLAME"

                              A Sad Story

                            by Frank McCoy 



           I  remember  the  first time I saw  Jennie.  My  first 
         impression, was, "Oh what a shame!" The little  11-year-
         old  seemed  so bright and cheerful that day,  I  almost 
         couldn't believe that she didn't even seem to know  what 
         had been done to her. 


           Well,  sadly  that's my job. I'm  a  psychiatrist  who 
         works  for the city Human Services Department, and  they 
         send me the abused little girls that seem to make up  an 
         ever-growing  number  of  our city's  children.  If  you 
         looked,  you could almost see the tiny little  bulge  in 
         the  girl's  tummy, that advertised the  fact  that  she 
         would probably be a mother, before she was 12 years old. 
         The  really  sad thing was; Jennie didn't even  seem  to 
         realize what had been done to her. 


           I mean, she DID know that she was pregnant, it's  just 
         that, at that time, the little girl seemed almost proud, 
         that she was carrying her own father's baby inside  her, 
         instead of ashamed and frightened, like she should  have 
         been.  It was my duty to show her, so she could  lead  a 
         normal life, like I do. 


           I got into this job, because I know what it's like  to 
         be  raped  by a relative, and it gives me  insight  that 
         other  people  don't have; especially men.  Some  people 
         think that a single woman like me isn't the best  person 
         to  be handling cases involving families, but I've  been 
         able to counter that at least I'm a woman. 


           No man could possibly know what it's like to be raped. 
         Besides, could you imagine putting these little girls in 
         the  hands of a MAN, after a thing like this? I  try  to 
         fix  things  up, but sometimes even I can't do  much  to 
         undo the damage. 


           It  took  me three days to  win  Jennie's  confidence, 
         enough  that  she'd even talk to me. At  first  she  was 
         suspicious  of me, figuring I was just another or  those 
         so-called  court-appointed head-shrinks; trying to  help 
         the prosecutor make a case against her father. I had  to 
         reassure  the little girl, that my duty was to her,  not 
         to the state, and that anything she told me couldn't  be 
         divulged. Not even to convict her father. 


           As I talked to her, she finally admitted to having sex 
         with  her father. Not once, but many times. It  had  all 
         started, she told me, as she followed her big sister one 
         night;  when  she saw the older girl  sneaking  down  to 
         their  father's bedroom. She told me that once  she  saw 
         how much fun her older sister had with their father, she 
         insisted  on doing the same thing herself.  Later,  when 
         her  big  sister got pregnant, she told me how  she  had 
         bugged  her father, until she finally got him to do  the 
         same thing to her. 


           Can  you  imagine the depravity of the man?  Not  only 
         does he fuck his own little girl; somehow convincing her 
         that  she  "enjoys" this atrocity, but  he  abuses  her, 
         until she actually BEGS him to get her pregnant.  That's 
         something  like  whipping a man, until he  begs  you  to 
         shoot him. Something I think should be done to men  like 
         the one who raped this cute little girl. 


           Of course, Jennie kept insisting it WASN'T rape,  that 
         if anything, SHE raped HIM. God, that's even worse.  Can 
         you  imagine how much he must have abused the child,  to 
         get  her  to  think  that having  sex  with  him  was  a 
         pleasure? And worse yet, she didn't seem to think  there 
         was  anything wrong, with having her own father's  baby. 
         In  fact,  she seemed quite proud of  the  fact,  almost 
         flaunting  her  slightly bulging tummy, and  saying  how 
         much  she was looking forward to holding the little  boy 
         in her arms, and feeding him from her own body. 


           That a man would do this, to his own little girl, then 
         somehow force her into thinking she LIKED it, is  beyond 
         me.  For  the first few days, hearing  the  little  girl 
         chattering  happily  away, about how good it  felt;  how 
         much she liked the idea of being able to give her father 
         another child to love, and even how having sex with  her 
         father  had made both her and her big sister  grow  even 
         closer together, almost convinced me. 


           Then reality set in. I mean, a little girl starting to 
         have  sex, at 10 years old? There's no WAY a child  that 
         young  could  enjoy sex. I mean, a  woman's  body  isn't 
         ready to have babies, until she's 14 or 15 (Jennie being 
         the rare exception.) If a girl that young is having  sex 
         with  her father, no matter how much she says she  wants 
         it,  it must because he's forced her. Probably  in  some 
         unspeakable manner as well. 


           In  a  case like Jennie, I figured that  her  father's 
         abuse must have been so bad, she was even repressing the 
         memory. This made me all the more determined to find out 
         just  how bad his abuse had been; to make her  think  it 
         never  happened. I mean ALL men abuse their children  to 
         some  extent.  It's in the nature of being a  man.  It's 
         just that some men are worse than others; and her father 
         looked to be one of the worst. 


           It  took many sessions, but I finally managed  to  get 
         Jennie  to  remember how her father had abused  her.  At 
         first,  the  little girl insisted that  her  father  had 
         NEVER abused her, but after many sessions, I was able to 
         help her uncover the memories she had repressed so hard. 
         It makes me so mad; to see a little girl so abused, that 
         she can't even remember BEING abused. It was only when I 
         made her dig into her memories, pointing out each little 
         time  her father had punished her, and showing her  that 
         the times she thought he was showing his love, were just 
         a  chance  to  feel  her  body,  not  genuine  hugs   of 
         affection.  I mean, a man isn't supposed to hug his  own 
         son; let alone his daughter. 


           I  told  Jennie, that she should have known  that  men 
         don't  love the same way women do. Any man who  pretends 
         to  love you, is just dreaming of a way to get  in  your 
         pants. It's a shame, but true. I remember the first time 
         I  found  out about men. As I mentioned earlier,  I  was 
         raped  by  my  uncle, when I was 12 years  old.  Just  a 
         little  older  than Jennie here. No, he  didn't  hold  a 
         knife to my throat. In fact, his approach was similar to 
         Jennie's  father. He made me believe I wanted it. I  was 
         just  a  little  girl  playing at  being  sexy,  and  he 
         encouraged me. In fact, the SOB actually made me feel  I 
         wanted it. And you know that's not true. I mean, how can 
         a girl of 12, really want to have sex? Heck, I'm over 35 
         years old, and barely like it now. 


           Of  course,  the worst part, was when he  got  caught. 
         There  I was that time, in his bedroom, sliding  up  and 
         down  on his cock while John was lying on his back  with 
         his  eyes  closed. He didn't even know my  parents  were 
         there,  until Momma's screams about him raping  me  woke 
         the whole neighborhood. 


           Up  until  that time, I thought a man had  to  hold  a 
         knife  or gun to a woman, to rape her. Thankfully  Momma 
         taught  me  different. Momma says I must  have  been  in 
         incredible pain, as I was moaning and screaming and even 
         begging my uncle to cum in me. 


           Can you imagine how much pain I must have felt, to  be 
         begging my own uncle to squirt his sperm inside me, just 
         to get it over with? It must have been unbelievably bad, 
         as my mind has blocked out almost everything. 


           Even  now, after years of therapy, I still can't  make 
         myself  remember the pain. It must have  been  extremely 
         bad,  as  all  I remember is the horrified  look  on  my 
         mother's face, when she came into the room and found  me 
         sliding  up and down one last time, before  her  brother 
         filled  my  womb with incestuous cum.  Years  later,  my 
         memories  still  almost trick me into thinking  it  felt 
         good. 


           For  a  while, I thought my mother was mad at  ME.  In 
         fact,  it  wasn't  until she got  me  to  press  charges 
         against my uncle, that she let up on lecturing me  about 
         the   evils  of  sex,  and  especially  with  your   own 
         relatives.  After  that, Momma would  always  make  sure 
         everyone knew about how abused I was and how you had  to 
         be  careful  around  men. Indirectly, I  think  that  my 
         uncle's  raping  me, led to my parent's divorce,  as  my 
         father  was trying to make Momma stop protecting me  all 
         the  time, while Momma knew I had to be  sheltered,  and 
         taught never to let men touch me in any way. Thankfully, 
         Momma  decided that I needed to be protected  from  men, 
         more than she needed a husband, so they broke up. 


           Can  you imagine? My father actually thought I  should 
         go  to dances and parties, where men actually  held  the 
         girls  in  their  arms, before  I  was  eighteen.  Momma 
         protected  me  from this kind of sexual abuse,  until  I 
         turned  21.  Then, she told me that being  of  age,  she 
         couldn't legally protect me any more, so she hoped I had 
         learned to do it myself. 


           I think I have. If it hadn't been for Momma, who knows 
         what might have happened? Momma taught me all about men, 
         and  what  they wanted. If it hadn't been for  her,  who 
         knows how I might have turned out? Thanks to my  mother, 
         I'm the woman I am today. 


           Poor Jennie. It took so much longer than I  originally 
         figured it would, to bring up the repressed memories  of 
         abuse. At first, she kept insisting her father had NEVER 
         hurt her, and that you could hold a gun to his head, and 
         he still wouldn't hurt her. It's a shame to see a little 
         11-year-old girl brainwashed like that. It was only with 
         the  help of hypnosis that I was finally able  to  bring 
         the full horror of her abuse to the surface. 


           For  those  of  you  not  in  the  psychiatric  field, 
         hypnosis  is a very suggestible state, where the  person 
         being  hypnotized will do almost anything to please  the 
         hypnotist. A person can be made to imagine they feel  no 
         pain, even through having teeth pulled, or to see things 
         that  aren't  there, or to even forget  things,  if  the 
         subject thinks that will please the hypnotist. 


           It  can  also be used as a tool to  uncover  repressed 
         memories.   The  subject  can  be  asked   to   remember 
         something,  and he or she will search their memory in  a 
         manner  not  possible to a normal person.  It  was  this 
         method, that finally gave me some success with Jennie. 


           At  first, even under hypnosis, Jennie  insisted  that 
         her father had always loved her, and had never hurt her. 
         However, when I asked her to remember times when she  at 
         least didn't get her way, she gradually remembered times 
         when  he had sent her to bed hungry, then times when  he 
         had spanked her. When I encouraged her, I was  gradually 
         able  to get her to remember worse and worse  things  he 
         had done to her, at my prompting. 


           After about 5 hypnosis sessions, Jennie finally  broke 
         down.  Now I finally had her remembering these  horrible 
         things  that her father had done to her. (Some of  which 
         are  just  too horrible to tell  here.  It's  absolutely 
         amazing,  that the little girl wasn't scarred for  life, 
         the  things  she told me her father did to her,  with  a 
         knife, cigarettes, and heavy leather belt. Surprisingly, 
         she  had  managed to escape with only one  little  scar, 
         that  at  first she had insisted she  had  gotten  while 
         roller-skating.  It was only under hypnosis, that I  was 
         able  to get her to remember how her father  had  beaten 
         her  with the lamp-cord, and then only when  I  prompted 
         her.) 


           It  was quite a relief to me, to see the  little  girl 
         finally  admit  to this abuse. After all, they  say  the 
         first step to recovery, is to admit you have a  problem. 
         Now,  Jennie  finally had. Once she  realized  that  her 
         father's love was all a sham, Jennie broke down. It  was 
         at this point, that she tried to take both her own  life 
         and  the baby's, by sticking herself in the gut  with  a 
         sharpened coat-hanger. She only succeeded with the baby. 


           When I remember how much Jennie had told me she wanted 
         that  baby, I almost cried. I guess the little  girl  is 
         better  off without it though. I mean: can  you  imagine 
         having to spend your life caring for the baby of the man 
         who  raped you? It still aches me a little bit,  when  I 
         remember how proud Jennie had been, when she first  came 
         to see me, almost showing off the fact that she was  big 
         enough to have her Daddy's baby. She had seemed so smug. 
         Now  look at her. She'll probably never have normal  sex 
         again,  and  almost certainly never have  any  children, 
         with the damage she did. And all because of her father. 


           After several years, I'm just beginning to get  Jennie 
         to  remember  how  much  she  hates  her  father.   It's 
         surprising  how much she had suppressed this. Even  with 
         hypnosis,  she's just beginning to remember. Up to  now, 
         she's kept this hate hidden so deep inside her, that you 
         wouldn't  even  have  suspected it,  if  you  weren't  a 
         professional  like I am. Once I get Jennie  to  confront 
         the hate for her father, maybe she can finally start  to 
         heal. 


           Jennie  is  slowly recovering from her trauma,  and  I 
         still see her every so often. Sadly, I was never able to 
         help  her older sister, like I have Jennie. It was  with 
         Karen's  help,  and even some from  Jennie,  that  their 
         father's  sentence was reduced from 20 years, to  2,  of 
         which  he only served 3 months. They both moved  out  of 
         state, and who knows what depravity the man does to  the 
         girl? Karen was old enough at the time, that she refused 
         to let me help her, like I did her little sister. 


           Right  now, I understand that Jennie is  doing  fairly 
         well,  at the nursing home. She'll never be  the  young, 
         happy child again, that I had such a precious glimpse of 
         when I first saw her. Sadly, I understand that both  her 
         father  and her older sister blame ME for her  condition 
         for  some reason, instead of putting the blame where  it 
         belongs,  on  her father. It's amazing how  some  people 
         will blame everybody but themselves, for the damage they 
         do. 


                                 THE END
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                        !!!YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

         Very  far removed from Incest, concerning one  girl  and 
         her horse, this story is entitled:


                               HORSEWASH

                               ~~~~~~~~~

                               by Kaftka


           Bright  and  blinding,  the sun  shone  on  the  green 
         outside,  but in the barn, it was cool and warm.    From 
         the  blur outside, each step echoing through  the  empty 
         building  as the hollow floorboards resonated  with  the 
         heavy  foot-falls of the fine animal, through the  rough 
         grey door into the smell of fresh hay, she led the horse 
         in. 


           Lean and tan, her strong, muscular thighs showed  well 
         under the tight denim cut-offs that hugged her firm ass. 
         Shining in the bright beams of light peering through the 
         cracks  in  the walls, each step in  the  hay  kicked-up 
         thousands  of  tiny  motes of  dust  as,  barefoot,  she 
         brought the hose from its place in the corner.   


           Scrubbing hard with a stuff brush against the soft and 
         wet hair, carefully working her way over the back of the 
         animal,  her own back showed well beneath her  tank-top, 
         lithe muscles rippling below the surface of tanned skin.


           Firmly  scrubbing against the tough skin below the wet 
         coat  of  fur, she brushed out  the  beautiful  animal's 
         mane.   Shining briefly in stripes of sunlight,  wetting 
         her  shirt and face, short sprays of water flew  through 
         the air and red, pointed, tight nipples showing  through 
         the  wet  tank- top.   Tiny rivulets tricking  over  the 
         small swellings of her chest, her freckled face  gleamed 
         with delight as she threw back her hair and laughed with 
         sheer happiness.


           Scattering more tiny droplets across her face, tossing 
         back  its mane, the horse stood still as  bending  down,  
         the  slick  wet hair clinging to its lean  and  muscular 
         body, she began to massage the chest of the fine animal.   


           Slowly  working her way down the chest and belly,  her 
         body  shivered  in anticipation as she ran  her  fingers 
         over the huge animal's penis. Fastened to the body  with 
         a small fold of skin, the huge cock was clamped tight to 
         the  chest  and  covered with a soft downy  fur,  almost 
         kitten-like  in shape and size, its testes were  already 
         large and tender.   Delicately massaging them, under her 
         fingers, she felt them grow larger and firmer. 


           Sitting  lotus-like on the ground beneath the  massive 
         animal's  belly,  continually  running  her  long,  thin 
         fingers  across  its chest, the slick  soap  foamed  and 
         dripped into her lap as artfully,  each tickle making it 
         expand  and swell, her skilful hands slowly  teased  the 
         length  of the lightly-veined, fleshy phallus  from  its 
         sheath.    Soon,  fingers  encircling  its  girth,   its 
         strange weight in her hand, the engorged spear of  flesh 
         was at full length.      


           Smoothly   blunt-ended,  as  its   dull-shining   head 
         beckoned  her, her heart skipped a beat.   So large  she 
         could barely fit the enormous glans into her  wet-lipped 
         open  mouth, as the animal's head tossed, relishing  the 
         salty-tang,  lubrication  escaped  from  the   jet-black 
         nozzle as she slid it across her tongue. 


           The snorting horse slowly bucked, sending tiny ripples 
         across the muscles of the back, the body tossing up into 
         the air; now, the cock was enormous. 


           Cupping the testes in her hand and holding them firmly 
         as  the animal began to wriggle and buck,  slowly,  very 
         slowly,  withdrawing her mouth, she ran her tongue  over 
         the huge pipe, mouthing it, lovingly licking its  length 
         as if cleansing something adorable.  


           Quiet  and well-behaved now, the black  horse  waited. 
         Finally,  she could stand it no longer. They  both  knew 
         what would come next.  


           Setting  it  down  under  the  still-dripping   chest, 
         withdrawing  the small stool from the table  nearby  and 
         sliding out of the tiny shorts, placing her firm, white-
         skinned  buttocks  upon  it,  her  nipples  rubbing  the 
         animal's bristly-hair, she slid underneath him.  


           Cool  water dripped unto the wet shirt she  wore,  her 
         small  teats shining, the nipples ever  visible  through 
         the loose fabric.   Tiny droplets slid from between  her 
         waiting  thighs and slid down her legs as between  them, 
         the pink slit visible under the wispy dewy-blonde  hairs 
         as  she breathlessy spread her legs underneath the  huge 
         wavering black cock, she slowly began to rub it  against 
         her clitoris.    One steadying hand against the  shining 
         black  flank  of  the animal, holding  it  to  her  soft 
         tissue, her other hand grasped the huge organ, and slow-
         stretching inch by inch, forced it into her wet, waiting 
         slit.   


           Her  face  tight and drawn as she  pressed  her  cheek 
         against  the  fur of the chest above  her,  taking  many 
         tries  to  stretch them out enough so  that  they  could 
         accept  such a cargo, in time, her body had  learned  to 
         well  handle what her mind desired, and now  opening  to 
         swallow  the massive cock as it had done so  many  times 
         before,  the  muscles  about  the  pink  folds  of  skin 
         relaxed.  


           Stimulated by the warm, oily, still-slender  tightness 
         of  her  vagina, trying to penetrate its  enormous  cock 
         into  her, haunching in a slow and regular  rhythm,  the 
         huge  body began to buck.    Rearing-up, forcing her  up 
         into the air as she clung with both hands for dear life, 
         the  musky scent of her slender body mingling  with  the 
         sweet and pungent horse-smell that permeated every  pore 
         of  her body,  her clit briskly rubbed against  the  wet 
         and sweaty fur.  


           Moaning  and  whimpering, feeling her  body  full  and 
         complete  with  every movement, faster and  faster,  the 
         animal above rocked into her.   Under no control of  her 
         own,  head rearing back, her screaming-mouth  opened  as 
         every  muscle in her body tensed to breaking point,  her 
         sheath expanding, to contract around the hot flesh  over 
         and over and over again.  


           Lasting an eternity, giving herself to the rhythm, she 
         hung  on until, rearing back for one final  stroke,  the 
         massive  animal  tossed  its front legs  into  the  air.    
         Sheer force of the powerful spray forcing it out of  her 
         slit,  the  spurting cock squirted  sticky  white  fluid 
         across her thighs and chest. 


           Sore  in every muscle, sliding off the tiny  stool  to 
         lay in dry, sweet-smelling hay, the delicious flavour of 
         warm, satisfied lethargy slowly crept over her.

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           FROM THE POSTBAG
           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

           Taken from the Incest Help-Line post-bag this month is 
         the  following interesting letter.   Together  with  the 
         reply from the `Tomorrow's Family' team, it highlights a 
         not unusal problem, but a wife's unorthodox answer.

           As  with all names in `Electra Magazine',  the  letter 
         has been `anonymised'.


>From help-mcg@bartra.demon.co.uk (Incest Help-Line)
Reply-To: help-mcg@bartra.demon.co.uk
Message-Id: <10666@bartra.demon.co.uk>
Subject: Re: I'm pregnant, can my daughter stand in for me?
Lines: 56
Status: R

> 
> Dear people
> 
> I'm eight months pregnant and the pregnancy is a bit precarious so I 
> won't be able to "service" my husband vaginally for at least three or 
> four months.  (two before the birth and two after).   He doesn't find 
> handplay satisfying.  
> 
> I have a lovely daughter by a previous marriage, she is 12 years 6 months 
> old and very skinny, with long blonde hair and the most perfect deep blue 
> eyes.  I have asked her whether she would mind standing in for me two or 
> three nights a week and satisfying my husband.  She is a bit nervous but 
> my husband seems keen.  Do you think I should swap beds with her for a 
> while and see how the two of them get on?
> 
> Theresa
> 
> 


           Viccy's Reply
           ~~~~~~~~~~~~~

hello

all we can tell u to do under these circumstances is to tread very, very
gently; it seems to us all u are likely to be doing this for the very
wrong reasons.

assuming something does happen; who is going to be happy afterwards?
u'll probably be filled with wall-to-wall guilt, so will your husband
and your daughter might just be very upset.

if she has any form of attraction towards him, then it might be a little 
different!   putting the age situation to one side - although it is a
big point - if this is foisted on her, prepare for upset!

the best thing u could all do is to sit and have a long talk about it.
if this proved to make anyone feel guilty, it is the proof u are looking
for that this is not a good scheme.   on the other hand, if everyone
finds that they ARE happy to openly discuss it, even if nothing comes of it, 
no damage will be done and some good will come from it even if only from
the deepening relationship which will come about.

tread very carefully, talk it out first and see who is happy and who isn't.
we also suggest u do not get caught as being the person to do all the
instigating; u'll be caught as piggy-in-the-middle; if everyone else
enjoys it, it will be on your conscience; if they do not like just the
idea of talking about it, it will be your fault.

come back to us if you need further help; we are in no position to 
say whether u should or shouldn't, it's going to be what you make of
it and how u go about it that really counts.
 
love

viccy

-- 
Incest Help-Line


           For Readers:
           ~~~~~~~~~~~

           (The  `Incest Help-Line' averages twenty  enquiries  a 
         week  from people with problems in this difficult  field 
         of human emotion and experience).


           If any reader of "Electra Magazine" has any comment to 
         add to the above, please e-mail:

                      `help-mcg@@bartra.demon.co.uk'.

           `Viccy',  `Alex' and their family are always  prepared 
         to discuss any aspect of incest, and/or sex in  general.   
         Regular    followers   of   the   `Tomorrow's    Family' 
         serialisation  will be pleased to learn that  the  legal 
         difficulites  which arose regarding publication  of  the 
         book  have  now  been over-come  and  from  next  month, 
         ensuing chapters will regularly be published in `Electra 
         Magazine'.  

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                               AMBUSH


                           Author: Unkown
            
                               ~~~~~~

           You're in your bedroom, getting ready for bed. As  you 
         climb  between the cool sheets, I can tell  what  you're 
         thinking. I know exactly what you are thinking. You  are 
         thinking  of me. We've sent E-Mail back & forth  before, 
         but we've never met...yet. 


           You can't see me but I am here. Waiting in the shadows 
         patiently. As you turn off the light, I watch you try to 
         go to sleep. My heart is pounding wildly against my thin 
         silk  gown that flows over my nude form. I want  you,  I 
         mouth to myself, as I watch you drift almost to sleep. I 
         long for you, for your touch, for your kiss. 


           I make my move and go very slowly to your bed. You  do 
         not  notice  me. : Your breathing is even  and  slow.  I 
         nudge  your bed gently, shaking it only enough  to  make 
         you  turn  over to gaze at me with half-aware  eyes.  My 
         hands move slowly over the roundness of my breasts, down 
         to  my firm, smooth stomach, then I caress my  hips  and 
         thighs. 


           As  you watch me, you wonder, but for a moment, how  I 
         could have gotten in here, but you find you really don't 
         care. I crawl gently next to you on your bed. I rest  my 
         fingers gently upon your lips, quelling any doubt, and I 
         gaze  into your questioning eyes and you realize what  I 
         want. : 


           I  move my fingers from your lips slowly to your  neck 
         and  I bend to kiss you with my soft, full lips.  Softly 
         and gently I give my tongue to your mouth as you enclose 
         me  with your arms, and pull me towards you. I can  feel 
         your wild heartbeats against my chest. I break the  kiss 
         as to slide my lips down to your neck so that I may lick 
         and  tug  on the skin where I feel your rapid  pulse.  I 
         caress  your chest with my soft fingers, and then I  use 
         my  nails  to  trace patterns from one  nipple  to  your 
         other, making you sigh quietly.  


           I feel your cock stiffen against my thigh. I begin  to 
         leave a wet path with my tongue down to your stomach, my 
         eyes  slowly, steadily watching you watching me. I  move 
         to  kiss  the insides of your thighs, your  cock  stands 
         directly in front of me, waiting for my mouth to  attack 
         it.  But I won't! I want you to feel everything. I  want 
         you to feel every single thing that I'm doing to you.  I 
         tongue your balls slowly and bring them very gently into 
         my  mouth.  The sensation wakes you up in  a  heartbeat, 
         meanwhile, I increase the intensity by breathing hot  on 
         your tight balls.  


           Your  wait is over, and your mouth gapes as  I  encase 
         your  cock with my lips. I go all the way to the  bottom 
         of your shaft, and move very, very slowly upward to  the 
         very  tip,  and back down again. Your hands  clutch  the 
         sheets  and beads of sweat fall from your forehead.  You 
         close your eyes to intensify the pleasure.  


           Your  move  your hips up and down, in  an  unconscious 
         effort to drive your cock even further into my hot,  wet 
         mouth.  I  know your game, and I know  what  you  really 
         need. I go back to the tip, your swollen head, and  lick 
         the hard vein underneath, and I flick it back and forth, 
         while  you  whisper, begging me to take  you  inside  my 
         warm, wet mouth. I do so and swirl my tongue around your 
         delicious  head. Then I put a firm clamp on you with  my 
         lips and just move my head back and forth.  


           I  increase my suction and you plead for release.  No, 
         not yet, I want to drive you near insane. I push my head 
         down just a bit further so I can rub your sensitive head 
         against the roof of my mouth and push you deeper into my 
         mouth until you're just at the back of my throat.  


           In one swift motion, I have you deeply imbedded in  my 
         mouth, and I swirl all around your hot, throbbing  cock. 
         You've thrown your head back, and your moans of pleasure 
         are nothing compared to the waves of ecstacy that are in 
         my  own body. I gently remove your cock from  my  mouth. 
         You lean up and see my eyes widen, as I notice that it's 
         just  glistening with my saliva. You look as  if  you're 
         about  to  burst! I move on top of you,  and  kiss  your 
         forhead,  your  eyes, your nose, your lips, and  try  to 
         draw  blood out of your tongue. I know you want to  come 
         and you shall, but not yet. You find my nipple close  to 
         your  mouth and you suck it between your  teeth.  Ooooh, 
         your  mouth feels so good on me! Then you hold me  tight 
         and  run your fingers along my very wet slit, I'm  in  a 
         position where I couldn't move if I wanted to! 


           You start to tease me with your cock, putting it on my 
         clit,  rubbing  it back and forth. I beg you to  put  it 
         inside  me, but you don't, you want me to beg you  more, 
         you want me half-crazed from the pleasure I feel. I  rub 
         my pussy against your cock, letting you feel my wetness, 
         and  move back to try to lure into my hot, steamy,  lust 
         filled  slit. You push your hips up and I feel your  the 
         head of your cock spreading me apart, and then  entering 
         me.  


           My  pussy contracts involuntarily as you  move  deeper 
         in, sending shivers down my spine. I cry out, your  cock 
         feels  so good sliding into me. As I feel you  more  and 
         more, deeper and deeper inside my pussy, nice and  snug, 
         and I'm not about to let go.  


           I  dig my fingernails deep into your chest and  rotate 
         my  hips, around & around & around, grinding slowly.  My 
         mouth  hangs open and I moan loud when you  thrust  deep 
         into   me.  We  gaze  into  each  other's  eyes   almost 
         hypnotically.  


           You  become  more  aggressive, our  juices  and  sweat 
         mingle.  You pump me faster for a while, then we  change 
         places  and  now I'll ride your hips for  a  while.  The 
         rhythm comes back, and you roam my steamy body with your 
         hands. You squeeze my tits and pinch my nipples, while I 
         stroke  my  swollen clit. I suck on your  cock  with  my 
         pussy,  squeezing it, and pulling it as you buck  wildly 
         under me.  


           I lean over, only for a moment, to whisper softly  and 
         slowly in your ear, "Fuck me, lover, don't hold anything 
         back..." In a swift motion, you re-enter me after I turn 
         back over, I throw you an admiring look. I throw my legs 
         over your shoulders, and you ball me savagely. Ooooh,  I 
         love  the  way you ravish me! We develop  a  rhythm  and 
         grind together passionately. Deep within me, I feel  you 
         swell even more than before!  


           I move my legs around your waist in an effort to  pull 
         you closer and deeper. Time has little meaning, if  any. 
         We  gasp heavily, almost as if possessed. My  utterances 
         aren't words, but sounds of ecstacy.  


           As  I  grind my cunt up into your groin, you  bite  my 
         neck.  Your balls are burning with the desire  to  shoot 
         forth your delicious come. I can feel them slap  against 
         me.  I reach down and slide my fingers over  your  balls 
         and  feel  their  smooth  tightness.  Your  whole   body 
         trembles, and you feel a tingling that is  unmistakable. 
         My  clit is burning and I beg you to go faster,  faster, 
         faster,  I  scream. Oooooh! Yes, harder, ram  your  cock 
         into me, harder, faster! Slam it into me, tear me  apart 
         with  your  beautiful cock! We sound like  animals.  Our 
         moans  and gasps are louder as we lose control and  head 
         for the silver rainbow.  


           I  feel your cock twitching & jerking inside my  cunt. 
         Our  bodies  shake and quiver and tremble  and  we  lose 
         awareness  of  all  else  except  each  other  and   our 
         pleasure.  Our  voice becomes one great  crescendo,  our 
         bodies  burst  forth, I feel you come inside  me  and  I 
         follow suit by bathing your groin with my nectar.  


           Our  heads  spin  for a time, and  finally,  the  last 
         moments  of  our  climax draw to  a  close.  We  breathe 
         heavily, almost glowing, you move up to bury your tongue 
         in  my  mouth and I bring our hearts close  together  by 
         hugging  you  very tightly. Neither of  us  have  looked 
         better,  the  eyes  of one taking in the  other  to  the 
         fullest.  We  sleep  in  each  others'  arms,   content, 
         tranquil...  


           You stir, half-aware of my lips caressing yours,  with 
         a  look back, I gather up my gown. You rub your eyes  to 
         clear  them,  and  look around your  room...but  I  have 
         returned to the darkness from whence I came. 

                                THE END

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         And now, the penultimate chapter of 

       
                      "THE DOORS TO GAYLE'S FUTURE"

                             Chapter Seven

                             ~~~~~~~~~~~~~


           Sometimes  having to put our minds to remembering  it, 
         Gayle  and  I were no longer father and  daughter,  we'd 
         transcended that.   Somehow surpassing awareness of  any 
         family  tie,  I never even regarded her as anyone I  had 
         known longer than the last three of four years.   In our 
         existence between home and hospital, we were simply  us, 
         two entwined people who shared life, thoughts and  love.            


           As  a reversal,  when out together, always calling  me 
         by  a  pet or my Christian name and often causing  us  a 
         smile,  it  was  only when alone  together  in  intimate 
         moments was the word `Daddy' said or whispered.   Within 
         the  limits imposed by her physical frame, she did  more 
         for  me than I did for her and into the bargain, I  came 
         out well, for I'd happily do everything for her.


           It  was only when other people were happy to  talk  of 
         her  future  that reality struck home, a  bolt  of  fear 
         occasioning itself when her surgeon pronounced Gayle was 
         almost  mended.    For so long visualised as  a  blurry, 
         meaningless `one day', this day had sneaked up on me.  


           Unprepared  for  it,  without reason  to  sense  other 
         patients in the Ward were holding a secret, on bidding a 
         `good morning' to the Sister, I didn't detect a  certain 
         sparkle in her eye.   As I walked past her, in just  her 
         normal voice,  and starting to chat about normal  every-
         day things, she called me back   Impatient to see Gayle, 
         I  was about to take my leave of her and make my way  to 
         Gayle's room when a soft voice gently called -                          


           "Daddy." 


         and  thunderstruck,  jaw dropping in amazement,  I  spun 
         round.


              No  crutches, no  walking-sticks, just  resting  on 
         the  arm of a nurse, and silhouetted by sunlight  behind 
         her,  a  few  yards away stood  Gayle.    Dressed  in  a 
         diamond-patterned  tan  and  green  Raglan  jumper  and, 
         falling gracefully away over her hips, a tan skirt  with 
         a  broad  brown belt, her brown hair swept up  over  her 
         forehead  revealing her oval face with just a  touch  of 
         skin-tone  lipstick.   She looked beautiful but  timidly 
         seeking approval, her brown-eyes looked at me.


           Caught by surprise, moving habitually to support  her, 
         the  Ward  Sister  caught my arm as letting  go  of  the 
         nurse, very slowly, but very steadily, Gayle started  to 
         walk.   Our eyes locked together; one step,  two  steps, 
         three  steps and as I held my breath, every one of  them 
         increased  the  tightness in my  throat.    Willing  her 
         towards me, as Gayle approached, nothing else existed in 
         the world but the beats of my heart matching her,  thump 
         for step.   


             With the slightest of limps but without so much as a 
         tiny  falter,  Gayle  confidently  closed  the  distance 
         between  us,  until standing only a few inches in  front 
         of  me, the breath burst from my aching lungs  as  hands 
         flared  at her side, with a huge, happy smile  over  her 
         face, she presented herself.   


           "Well?"


            Stupidly  gazing  at her for many misty  moments,   I 
         could  eventually  only  think  of  one  thing  to  say.  
         Swallowing  hard  and only able to whisper, I  took  her 
         hands in mine. 


           "Do you know, Gayle, you really are the most beautiful 
         girl.    If  I wasn't already so proud of  you,  I'd  be 
         proud of you all over again."   


           Oblivious to others watching, throwing our arms  round 
         each  other,  we were lost in a long, long  hug.    With 
         even the occasional cheer and much applause, an  excited 
         hub-bub  of  conversation burst out amongst  the  people 
         watching  us to drown my voice as I whispered,  "I  love 
         you very, very much." 


           "I know.   I love you, too."    


           "I'm afraid she's been holding out on you," smiled the 
         Ward Sister.   "Gayle took her first real unaided  steps 
         some  time  ago, but swore everyone  to  secrecy.    She 
         wanted  it  to  be perfect when  you  saw  her.    She's 
         practised that walk every day for a month.


           "Everyone's been marvellous", I said sincerely.


           "Oh,  yes",  she  agreed, "But Gayle had  to  make  it 
         happen.    Everyone could only help in their  own  funny 
         way.    Some funnier than others," she added and I  felt 
         myself  flush as she gave me a direct, meaningful  look.    
         We turned to watch Gayle walking along the long corridor 
         back to her side-ward.   


           "I  never  thought I would live to see  the  day  that 
         happened," I said.


           "Gayle's had some big secret incentive", Sister  said.   
         "Two  years ago, she confided to us that when she  could 
         cross a room to you, something wonderful was to  happen.   
         We've  been  wondering what it  was."    Hopefully,  she 
         stared at me.   "Now she's done it, what happens next?"


           With a swimming head, I slowly sank onto a chair.  I'd 
         completely  forgotten the bargain I'd made  with  Gayle.    
         Able to walk, a promised door was supposed to open,  but  
         to  maintain the integrity of Gayle's future life,  this 
         was one I had to keep a shoulder firmly wedged  against.   
         With a sinking feeling, my heart sank.


           Short-term  reprieve came in the shape of  my  mother.   
         Leaving  the  hospital  for the last time  a  few  weeks 
         later,  Gayle's surgeon came to see her  off.    Shaking 
         hands with me, an old-fashioned gentleman, as he  peered 
         over his spectacles, he'd said, "I'm most terribly sorry 
         I never believed you.   But as I recall, some six  years 
         ago,  I did mention miracles could happen."    Somewhere 
         within  me,  a male voice said `hmpff',  but  once  he'd 
         become  convinced, aware of the efforts the surgeon  had 
         put  into to help Gayle, I grinned at him.   Turning  to 
         her,  he  said,  "Well, I suppose I owe you  a  game  of 
         tennis.    You've  beaten  everything else,  so  I  have 
         little doubt you're going to beat me."


           On  the  journey  home,  looking  around  her  with  a 
         contented little smile, Gayle was very quiet but to  her 
         surprise, as we'd walked up the garden path, the  front-
         door opened and there, come to stay for two months,  was 
         my  mother, "...just for company until you are  used  to 
         getting  around".   Suspicious, Gayle looked at me,  but 
         said  nothing, for which I was grateful; it  had  needed 
         much persuasion to get my widowed mother to agree.


           Busily  completing  a  long-ago  day-dream,  for  days 
         ensuring  her grand-mother was never out-of-earshot  and 
         consequently, we were never alone, blaming the  presence 
         of  Grandma,  I kept myself at arms-length  from  Gayle.   
         Often,  a hopeful or romantic expression on her face,  I 
         found her looking at me, but sure I was doing the  right 
         thing,  apart  from normal father/daughter  morning  and 
         evening kisses, I avoided all physical contact.


           Apart  from  regular  check-ups,  clear  of   hospital 
         visits, Gayle still continued with daily exercises,  and 
         even before five weeks had passed from the day I'd first 
         seen her walk, her limp all but disappeared, she   began 
         to participate in all the normal physical activities  of 
         an  18  year-old girl.   Many celebratory  parties  were 
         held  for her, our local newspaper featured  her  story, 
         and   tipped-off  by  the  Hospital  Friends,  she   was 
         interviewed for local radio.   Having previously  passed 
         a driving test in a disability-adapted car, it was short 
         work to convert ours back to normal operation, and being 
         able to travel around, all-in-all, she became quite  the 
         local celebrity, as well as being only too happy to help 
         the  Hospital  at any time, called upon to  open  Church 
         Bazaars and the like.   


           Although  I  watched her carefully, with no  signs  of 
         strain  or  tiredness,  Gayle  took  everything  in  her 
         stride.   Why did I expect anything less?


                            **      *      **  


           Without  warning  or  discussion,  three  weeks  after 
         Gayle's  discharge from hospital, leaving the  following 
         morning,  I  told  them both I was  going  away,  alone.   
         Mother  said,  "You deserve it, dear", but the  look  of 
         hurt  surprise in Gayle's eyes stayed on  my  conscience 
         for  a  long  while.   For the first time  in  some  six 
         years, she and I were going to be parted overnight,  and 
         deliberately avoiding any opportunity for  conversation, 
         before  anyone rose the following morning, I'd left  the 
         house.    Everything  was going to be  difficult  enough 
         without courting drama.      

                
           Very  pleased  with  myself,  three  days  later,  I'd 
         returned.    Gayle's  happy, warm kiss of  greeting  did 
         nothing  to  ease  my  guilt,  but  uneasy  of   opening 
         unnecessary doors, whilst returning it, kept it purely a 
         `Daddy' kiss.


           Mother  was  completely  in the picture,  and  when  I 
         suggested taking a Sunday afternoon drive that week-end, 
         she  was  so enthusiastic that a  still  confused  Gayle 
         became caught up in it and for a time, we functioned  as 
         a  normal  happy  family.   But, aware of  what  was  at 
         journey's  end, refraining from catching Gayle's eye  in 
         the rear-view mirror as, unusually and another piece  of 
         my  engineering, she sat in the rear of the car, as  the 
         miles ticked by, inside, I became more and more morose.


            Since first visiting a particular coastal county as a 
         child,  Gayle had often expressed a wish to  live  there 
         when  she grew older.  Some hours later, just outside  a 
         country  village  which was a  particular  favourite  of 
         hers,  I  pulled up the car in front  of  a  newly-built 
         little house. 


           Constructed  of  stone  with  smart  grey  and   white 
         woodwork,  the afternoon sunlight reflecting  from  old-
         style,  mullioned-windows  gave the house a  homely  yet 
         neat  appearance, and watching Gayle's face, I  knew  at 
         once  she liked what she saw.   Old trees had been  left 
         in the gardens, and from the top of a nearby cliff,  the 
         sea stretched away to the horizon.


           Mother  and  I keeping perfectly silent, after  a  few 
         minutes, Gayle asked, "Who lives here, then?"


           "You.   If you want, that is."


           Delighted, Gayle squealed.   "Daddy!  How?   Whose  is 
         it?"   Scrambling  from the car, laughing  happily,  she 
         stood  in front of the house.  Helping a smiling  Mother 
         out of her seat, glancing at Gayle, she whispered  "This 
         might just work."


           Supporting her arm as we walked across to where, hands 
         on  hips,  Gayle  was admiring  the  view,  crossing  my 
         fingers, I murmured, "I hope so.   Oh, how I hope so."


           Opening the front door with a flourish, I stood to one 
         side  as,  like a child looking at her  first  Christmas 
         tree,  Gayle  entered.    Passing  from  room  to  room, 
         sweeping  round in wondrous circles as her eyes took  in 
         the  fixtures  and fittings, her face was a  picture  of 
         happiness.     To  my  question,  "Do  you   like   it?" 
         reproachfully  she  looked  at me.    "You  know  I  do.   
         There's everything in it I've ever wanted."


           "I  should think so, too,"  I grumbled with  a  smile.   
         "It's just taken four men three days to move  everything 
         in.   And me to supervise them."


            Beginning to move towards me, about to give me a hug, 
         Gayle's face lit-up, but rudely, I turned to my  mother.   
         "Shall we tell her the rest?"   


           Grannie nodded.  "Well, you ought, seeing it's hers"


           To  Gayle's  puzzled look, I said "The  house  is  all 
         yours.   From the accident money.   When it happened,  I 
         made  up my mind that if you survived, you'd  have  your 
         own  little house, just how you wanted it and where  you 
         wanted."  I waved my arm around the room.   "This is it!   
         With  love from your mother and I.   She'd want  you  to 
         have  it.   And so do I.  You have a life to lead,  now.   
         All yours, to do with as you wish."


           Incredulously staring around her, Gayle sat down  with 
         a bump.   "It's what I always dreamed of.   Everything I 
         wanted  in  my own little home, with the people  I  love 
         around me."   She turned to me.   "How did you know what 
         furniture to get and things like that?"


           "All  those evenings talking to you, I was  spying  on 
         you.   When you said you like something you saw, or when 
         you  were talking about colours and such-like,  it  just 
         sort  of became filed away in my mind.    The  insurance 
         claim was settled about two years ago and we've scarcely 
         touched  the  money.   It's all on deposit;  we've  been 
         living  just on the interest."  I held out the bunch  of 
         house-keys.    "The money and these, they're all  yours, 
         kid."


           Suddenly aware of something in my attitude and sensing 
         betrayal,  her face white and serious, Gayle  stared  at 
         me.   In an false, tight voice, she asked, "When are  we 
         going to move in, Daddy?"


           Like  the  fantasy `one day' when  Gayle  would  walk, 
         never  believing it would arrive until it actually  did, 
         disbelievingly talked-about for years but suddenly here,  
         that  other `moment' was hurriedly and unpityingly  upon 
         me.   Suddenly feeling sick and dizzy, I said pointedly, 
         "You just did."


           Hurt  and disappointed, suddenly realising the  truth, 
         Gayle said in a small voice, "Oh."   


           There was a long pause as she thought things  through.  
         Like  a child trying to delay bed-time, inspiration  for 
         obstruction  coming to her, her face lighting up,  Gayle 
         exclaimed,  "But  I can't live on my own,  Daddy!    Not 
         yet, anyway.   I've just come out of hospital.   I  need 
         help around me."


           Ruthless,  I'd  already cut off that  retreat.    "You 
         won't  be on your own, my love.   Until we are sure  you 
         are  perfectly OK, Grandma has agreed to live  with  you 
         for  a few months.   She's happy to stay for as long  as 
         you need.   Aren't you, Mother?"


           Expecting  happiness and smiles all the way,  suddenly 
         aware something was drastically wrong, glancing uneasily 
         first at Gayle and then me, my mother said, "Of  course, 
         dear.   I'll make us a drink."


           Looking  at each other as crockery rattled and  Mother 
         hummed  to  herself in the kitchen, her  eyes  wide  and 
         frightened and on the verge of tears, Gayle's  trembling 
         lips mouthed a silent, "Why?"


           "Because  it's  for the best, I suppose,  darling,"  I 
         replied dumbly.   "It wouldn't be right.   Much though I 
         love  you,  you know that, it just  wouldn't  be  right.   
         Try to understand."


           Clutching a last feeble straw, Gayle asked in a  small 
         voice,  "How  about my clothes and things?   I  need  to 
         talk to you.   We'll come and pick them up."


           Foreseeing this particular question, I had the  answer 
         ready.    "There's a charge-account in your name in  all 
         the  major stores in town.   You can well afford to  buy 
         whatever you want and in any case, everything at home of 
         yours is being brought down here tomorrow."


           "But,  Daddy..."   Misery beginning to  well  in  her, 
         Gayle's voice faltered.   "But, Daddy...   White-lipped, 
         she looked away from me, her fingers pinching the bridge 
         of  that lovely nose as fighting tears, she  screwed  up 
         her  eyes.    Swallowing hard, her  voice  throaty,  she 
         whispered,  "But  what about your promise?   We  made  a 
         deal  and  I love you and I don't want  this."    Slowly 
         shaking  her  head,  her  voice  cracking,  she   slowly 
         repeated.    "I really do not want this.   I want it  to 
         be  as we promised each other."   Tears very close,  her 
         voice  choking  as  it  changed to  a  little  whine  of 
         anguish, her brown eyes sparkled water as she looked  at 
         me.   "Oh,  Daddy.   Why?    Don't  make  it  this  way, 
         please."


           Avoiding her eyes, I swallowed.   "Of all the promises 
         I've ever made you, Gayle, I've always kept them.    But 
         there is just this one I can't keep.   It isn't  because 
         I  don't want to.   I just can't!"   Pleading, I  looked 
         back  at her.   "Oh, Gayle, I've done my best.    Surely 
         I'm entitled to renege on just one promise?"


           Unsteadily, her lips pinched, a pale-faced Gayle leant 
         against  the  back of a chair.   Gazing at  nothing,  in 
         exactly  the  same very flat  voice,  unemotional  voice 
         she'd  used when the rabbit had hit the car,  she  said,  
         "So  it  was  all a big fib.   You never  did  want  me.    
         Everything  was  simply to keep me  working  at  getting 
         better, wasn't it?   Just to stop me from feeling  sorry 
         for myself."


           More  than ever before, I wanted to put my arms  round 
         her, to kiss Gayle's eyes and lips and face and neck and 
         anything else I could possibly reach; to tell her it was 
         all  subterfuge, that in six years, the only reason  I'd 
         been able to keep going was because she had made me feel 
         so selfish, too ashamed to give up.   That I desperately 
         wanted  her, that the future would mean nothing  without 
         her.   


           And  break  faith and tell her I might have,  save  at 
         that moment, the serving-hatch opened and Mother  pushed 
         through the tea-tray.   Clamping my heart back in place, 
         I  shrugged as she came into the room.   "I  can't  stay 
         any longer, Mother.   It's a long journey, and I must be 
         getting back."   Moving to Gayle, as I kissed her cheek, 
         I  closed my eyes to avoid the look of deep pain on  her 
         face.  Slipping a set of keys on the table, I  murmured, 
         "There's  a  car in the garage.   That's  all  yours  as 
         well."


           Glancing  sideways at her grand-mother, in a  whisper, 
         Gayle asked, "Who's going to look after you?   You'll be 
         all  on  your  own.   I want to look  after  you."   She 
         paused.   "I always have done."


           "I've  looked after us both for a long time,  darling.  
         I  can easily fend for myself."   Avoiding Gayle's  look 
         of  disappointment, I did my best to  smile  cheerfully.   
         "In  any  case,  I'm off on  holiday  tomorrow,  a  real 
         holiday.   My present to me from the Insurance  Company.   
         Sunny  climes  and sandy beaches!" I  lied.    "For  two 
         whole months."


            With  my head down as I scuttled from the  house,  my 
         last  sight of Gayle was as she sat with her  elbows  on 
         the  table, her hands clasped either side of  her  nose, 
         her  shoulders heaving as she choked back  unexplainable 
         tears  which  my mother  wouldn't  understand.    Hunch-
         shouldered,  falling over my own feet like the  drenched 
         rat I felt, I scurried to the car.


           But  I knew I was right!   Fully-recovered, Gayle  now 
         had her own life to lead.   For 154 long miles, I knew I 
         was right.   Back in a normal environment, she'd quickly 
         abandon all day-dreams of our continuing our love-affair 
         and be very happy that events had progressed only as far 
         as they had.   All the drive home, I constantly reminded 
         myself I was right; Gayle was much more mature than  her 
         18  years,  she'd quickly appreciate the  wisdom  of  my 
         decision,  why  I had kept her at  arm's  length.    For 
         every inch of those dark, cold long miles, I told myself 
         that  given time, she would even come to appreciate  how 
         from  the  moment  I knew she could walk,  it  had  been 
         necessary  to avoid her, to put distance between us  and 
         for  fear my heart would break and I'd give-in, to  park 
         her  Grand-mother on her for some months; good  company, 
         someone  to  talk to and laugh with.    About  the  same 
         company I'd always tried to be.


           Gayle  was  hurt,  but  she'd soon  know  why  it  was 
         necessary.    I  knew I'd hurt her, but it was  for  the 
         very  best of good reasons; how many good reasons did  I 
         need?    What  did she know of love?  Tantamount  to  a 
         school-girl    crush,   infatuated   with    a     White 
         Knight-figure, she was still a child who didn't know her 
         own mind.   Any thought to the contrary was kicked out.   


           Reaching home, wearily garaging the car, I entered the 
         cold,  still  house.   Making myself a hot drink,  as  I 
         recalled everything that had happened and had been  said 
         in  each room of the house, remembering  Gayle's  misery 
         and   tearful   eyes,  reminding  myself  of   all   the 
         wonderfully right, moral and noble reasons I'd done what 
         I'd done, grimacing, I paced the room,    


           I  was  right!   If the situation  were  explained  to 
         them,  who would be happy to agree with me, I  wondered.   
         Just about everybody!   Wouldn't God?   Would Val?
           

           Sitting  inside me for weeks, squeezing my heart,  the 
         truth I'd summarily suppressed suddenly popped up and as 
         once again, thoughts beginning to churn, I  acknowledged 
         I'd  made a terrible, ghastly mistake.   Using  the  old 
         routine, I separated myself from the equation, and  seen 
         through  her mother's eyes, I was wrong.    Despite  her 
         distress, through all the difficulties, the only  person 
         upon whom I could rely to keep faith, to always trust me 
         and  whose  judgement  I  respected  was  Gayle.    From 
         everyone  around, the only person consistently  thinking 
         of  me and for me, the one importance was  Gayle.    And 
         I'd just broken her heart.   Between any two people,  as 
         long as it was unconditionally-given and they both  were 
         happy, love - be it heterosexual, homosexual,  incestual 
         or  any other `ual'-  was their own private concern  and 
         no  matter how important they considered themselves,  of 
         no  business of any other person, race,  creed,  colour, 
         religious denomination or anything else!


           And  through the eyes of The Almighty?    Expecting  a 
         prompt `you're right!', amazingly, I just couldn't think 
         of  an answer.   But if Gayle was love to me,  the  same 
         Love  He  was purported to be, I'd broken His  heart  as 
         well.   Slumping down in my chair, I realised that in my 
         nobility,  just how hideously wrong I was,  that  whilst 
         I'd  lost  a true love for ever, into the  bargain,  I'd 
         very probably lost a fried, a mate.   And a daughter.  


           Jumping  as  I  thought I  heard  Gayle's  bell  ring, 
         outside  the window, a cat mewed.   Beset by  the  empty 
         house's  memories  of Gayle's laughter, her  voice,  her 
         scent,  of  her  whispered tendernesses  as  we'd  loved  
         together in this very room, I sat.


           And remembered.


           And wept.

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