`                     A YEAR OF SLAVERY # 1
                      "CAUGHT AND THE CONTRACT"
                      BY; DEBS
                      EDITED BY JOHNNY P
     MY DAY BEGAN AS ANY NORMAL SATURDAY, NO WORK, UP AT  6 A.M. DOING MY 
CHORES. I KNEW JOHN WOULD BE ARRIVING AROUND NOON, NO TIME FOR ME, FOOTBALL 
FIRST. USUALLY I LOOK FORWARD TO OUR SATURDAYS AT HOME. THIS ONE WAS TO BE QUIT 
DIFFERENT. I AM ALWAYS TRYING TO FIND WAYS TO GET OUT, THIS DAY I WOULD BE 
BEGGING TO STAY AT HOME.
     I KNEW I WOULD BE ENTERTAINING AT LEAST 2 MEN AND 4 WOMEN THIS NIGHT. I 
KNEW ALSO THAT I MUST GET SOME OF THE LITTLE UNPLEASANT TASKS OUT OF THE WAY. 
WITH HEAVY HEART AND MANY ANXIETIES, I BEGAN. IT WAS ONLY 9 A.M., 3 HOURS TO 
MYSELF, I WAS ALREADY WISHING I HAD STAYED IN BED LONGER SINCE I HAD A GOOD IDEA 
HOW BAD THIS NIGHT COULD TURN OUT FOR ME.
     THE FIRST THING I KNEW I HAD TO DO WAS TO GO INTO THE BATHROOM AND START 
GETTING MYSELF CLEANED OUT. I WAS TOLD TO START THE NIGHT BEFORE WITH A LIGHT 
MEAL AND A MILD LAXATIVE, BUT THIS TIME ESPECIALLY MY NERVES DID THE JOB FOR ME. 
I HAD A VERY NERVOUS STOMACH AND NO APPETITE WHATEVER. THE BEST I WAS ABLE TO 
GET DOWN WAS SOME BROTH. I AWOKE WITH THE SAME FEELINGS IN MY STOMACH AS THE 
PREVIOUS NIGHT BUT KNEW I NEEDED SOME NOURISHMENT. WITH WHAT I ASSUMED LAY
AHEAD IT WAS NOT A GOOD IDEA TO EAT VERY MUCH BUT DECIDED ON SOME TEA AND TOAST. 
THE LESS I HAD IN ME THE BETTER. FROM PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE I KNEW I WOULD NEED AS 
MUCH STRENGTH AND ENDURANCE AS POSSIBLE SO I DOUBLED MY NORMAL VITAMIN INTAKE.
     I WENT INTO THE BATHROOM AND FROM THE VANITY TOOK OUT THE SMALL CHEST WHICH 
CONTAINED MY ENEMA EQUIPMENT. AT TIMES I HAVE HAD MANY PLEASURABLE EXPERIENCES 
WITH THIS CHEST BUT NOW LOOKED AT IT WITH MUCH DISDAIN. I KNEW WHAT MUST BE 
DONE. I FILLED THE BAG WITH ABOUT A QUART OF THE HOTTEST WATER I COULD STAND AND 
3 CAPFULS OF DR. BONNERS SOAP. THIS WAS A LITTLE SEVERE BUT WOULD HELP LATER. I 
HUNG IT ON THE SIDE OF THE SHOWER LET THE AIR OUT OF THE TUBE AND CLOSED THE 
CLAMP. I LOOKED AT THE NOZZLE WHICH WAS NOT ALL THAT LARGE AND REALIZED IT
WOULD BE TO MY ADVANTAGE TO START STRETCHING MYSELF ON MY OWN AND AT MY OWN 
PACE. THE CHEST HAD AN ASSORTMENT OF TIPS AND NOZZLES FROM WHICH I SELECTED ONE 
OF THE LARGEST. AT LEAST I WOULD BE GENTLE ON MYSELF. I ATTACHED IT TO THE 
DANGLING HOSE AND SPREAD A GENEROUS AMOUNT OF K-Y ALL OVER IT. THIS WAS ONE OF 
THE BIGGEST I HAD BUT KNEW IT WAS OF MEDIUM SIZE TO THEM. AS I SPREAD THE 
LUBRICANT I COULD ONLY HOPE THIS PROCEDURE WOULD BE FOLLOWED LATER. I REMOVED MY 
ROBE AND REACHED BEHIND MYSELF TO SPREAD THE K-Y INTO MY RECTUM. IN DOING SO I
CAUGHT SITE OF MYSELF IN THE MIRROR. ALL I COULD DO WAS STARE AND FOR A BRIEF 
MOMENT HATE THE STATUESQUE IMAGE THAT REFLECTED BACK AT ME. THIS WAS ONE TIME I 
WISHED I DID NOT POSSESS MY 5FT. 8IN., 120LB, 34-20-34 BODY WITH NATURAL BLONDE 
HAIR. MAYBE IF I WAS PLAIN AND ORDINARY THEY WOULD NOT WANT ME.
     I SLOWLY GOT MYSELF DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND TURNED ONTO MY SIDE GETTING AS 
COMFORTABLE AS I COULD. I REACHED OVER, TOOK THE NOZZLE AND STARTED TO SLIP IT 
VERY CAREFULLY INSIDE MYSELF. AT FIRST IT WAS PAINFUL SO I TOOK A DEEP BREATH 
AND GAVE A GENTLE PUSH. IT HURT BUT I KNEW WORSE WAS TO COME. AFTER A LOT OF 
TWISTING, PUSHING AND GASPING THE NOZZLE WAS IN PLACE. I THOUGHT HOW IN THE PAST 
I HAD LARGER OBJECTS IN MY ASS BUT THIS WAS VERY UNCOMFORTABLE. IT WAS PROBABLY 
A SUBCONSCIOUS FEAR OF WHAT I KNEW WAS TO COME. MY NERVES WERE GETTING THE BEST 
OF ME.
     ALL I NEEDED TO DO WAS SLIDE MY HAND UP AND RELEASE THE CLAMP. I DID NOT 
WANT TO, BUT KNEW I MUST. AS THE HOT WATER HIT ME I TRIED WITH ALL MY WILL TO 
RELAX. I GET ENEMAS ON A REGULAR BASIS AND HAVE EVEN LEARNED TO ENJOY THEM. THIS 
ONE WAS DIFFERENT. THIS WAS NOT FOR MY PLEASURE OR FOR JOHNS. THIS WAS TO START 
TO CLEAN ME OUT FOR WHAT WOULD BE DONE TO ME. AS THE WATER CONTINUED TO FLOW I 
BEGAN TO THINK OF WHAT HAD CAUSED ME TO BE IN THIS PREDICAMENT.                   
    I HAD EMBEZZLED A LARGE SUM OF MONEY FROM THE COMPANY WERE I WORKED. THE 
THEFT WAS DISCOVERED AND I WAS GIVEN A SIMPLE CHOICE. BECOME A SEX SLAVE TO MR. 
AND MRS. WINSTON OR FACE 5 YEARS IN PRISON. AS I LIE ON THE FLOOR I BECAME 
OVERWHELMED WITH MY PLIGHT. THE WORST PART WAS THERE WAS NO GOOD REASON FOR ME 
TO STEAL THE MONEY. I NEVER NEEDED ALL THOSE CLOTHES, SHOES AND JEWELRY.
     I FELT THE PRESSURE IN MY STOMACH AND A SEVERE CRAMP SO I LOOKED UP AT THE 
BAG AND SAW THAT IT WAS EMPTY. I REMOVED THE NOZZLE, TURNED ON MY BACK AND LET 
THE SOLUTION IN ME DO ITS WORK. THIS WAS THE FIRST OF AT LEAST 3 ENEMAS I WOULD 
HAVE TO ADMINISTER TO MYSELF BEFORE JOHN ARRIVED. MRS. WINSTON WAS VERY EXPLICIT 
AS TO HER REQUIREMENTS AND WOULD KNOW IF I DID NOT FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS. THE
LAST THING I WANTED WAS TO GIVE HER REASON TO CAUSE ME ANY MORE PAIN, THERE 
WOULD BE ENOUGH.  AFTER ABOUT 10 MINUTES OF RETAINING THIS MIXTURE I COULD NOT 
HOLD IT ANY LONGER. AS I SAT ON THE BOWL I THOUGHT OF THE PROBLEM WITH JOHN. HE 
COULD NOT KNOW. I WOULD HAVE TO MAKE HIM LEAVE AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE BY TELLING 
HIM I WAS TIRED AND DID NOT FEEL UP TO PAR. LATELY I WAS TREATING HIM VERY BADLY 
BUT HE DID NOT KNOW WHY, HE COULD NEVER KNOW.
    IT IS NOT EASY TO TAKE ONE ENEMA AFTER ANOTHER BUT I HAD NO CHOICE. THIS ONE 
WAS TO BE A HALF GALLON OF HOT WATER. I WAS TOLD THAT THE MORE I TAKE NOW AND 
THE HOTTER IT IS, THE EASIER FOR ME LATER. AS I BEGAN TO REFILL THE BAG I COULD 
NOT HELP LOOKING AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR. MY ATTENTION WAS BROUGHT TO BARE ON MY 
BREASTS. I HAD ALWAYS BEEN VERY PROUD OF THEIR VOLUPTUOUS 34-D SIZE, BUT NOW
REMEMBERED THE PAIN THEY WERE FORCED TO ENDURE. AS I STARED AT THEM  FOR A 
MOMENT I RECALLED THE LAST SESSION WITH THE WINSTONS AND THE DR. THE TREMENDOUS 
PAIN,AND YET ALMOST NO VISIBLE EVIDENCE.
     THIS TIME THE NOZZLE WENT INTO ME A LITTLE EASIER. AS I OPENED THE CLAMP I 
TRIED TO FORGET WHAT WAS TO HAPPEN TONIGHT AND WHAT HAPPENED 2 WEEKS AGO. I TOLD 
MYSELF TO JUST RELAX AND TAKE THIS SECOND HELLISH ENEMA. THE WATER WAS HOTTER 
THAN I HAD IMAGINED AND WAS CAUSING ME TO START TO SWEAT OVER MY ENTIRE BODY. 
THE PAIN IN MY LOWER ABDOMEN WAS BECOMING ALMOST UNBEARABLE BUT I KNEW IT WAS
OPENING ME FOR WHATEVER THEY HAD IN STORE.
    MRS. WINSTON WAS VERY PLEASED AS SHE SUMMONED ME TO HER OFFICE ON THURSDAY 
AFTERNOON. SHE HANDED ME A NOTE AND A PACKAGE WHICH DETAILED MY PREPARATIONS FOR 
SATURDAY NIGHT. AFTER A LOT OF VERBAL ABUSE AND MENTAL TORTURE SHE VERY 
SARCASTICALLY TOLD ME HOW MUCH THEY LOOKED FORWARD TO MY FIRST VISIT. HER LAST 
WORDS WERE THOSE OF WARNING TO FOLLOW HER INSTRUCTIONS OF PREPARATION TO THE 
LETTER.
    I HAD NEVER HAD THIS MUCH WATER IN ME BEFORE AND WAS NOW IN SEVERE PAIN, BUT 
THE HALF GALLON WAS NOW IN. AS I LOOKED DOWN AT MY STOMACH THE HORROR BECAME 
APPARENT. IT LOOKED AS IF I WERE AT LEAST 4 TO 5 MONTHS PREGNANT AND BLUE VEINS 
WERE CRISSCROSSING MY LOWER ABDOMEN. I HAD NOT EVEN BEGAN TO TRY AND GET UP WHEN 
THE INSTRUCTIONS FOR MY NEXT PREPARATION ENEMA CRASHED INTO MY HEAD, 3 QUARTS 
VERY HOT. AS I SAT ON THE BOWL FEELING AS IF MY INSIDES WERE BEING RIPPED FROM 
MY BODY I KNEW I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO OBEY. AS I SAT AND FOUND INSTANT RELIEF I 
WONDERED AS TO SOME OF THE INSTRUCTIONS I HAD BEEN GIVEN. WHAT WERE THE PLANS 
THEY HAD FOR ME. WHY ALL THESE ENEMAS. I LEARNED DURING MY VISIT TO THE DRS. 
SOME OF THE GAMES THESE PEOPLE PLAYED. I REMEMBERED THE ANAL ABUSE I SUFFERED 
BUT ALL THIS PREPARATION WAS INSTILLING A FEELING OF DEEP FEAR. I FEARED I WAS 
TO LEARN THINGS I DID NOT WANT TO KNOW.
     AS I REMAINED ON THE BOWL MY MIND DRIFTED TO MRS. WINSTONS NOTE. THE 
DETAILED INSTRUCTIONS FOR THE ENEMAS. THE WAY SHE DESCRIBED HOW I WAS TO DOUCHE 
MYSELF. THE DETAILS FOR HAIR AND MAKE-UP. HER ORDER TO WEAR THE CLOTHES PROVIDED 
IN THE PACKAGE. WHAT WAS IN THE PACKAGE, I HADN'T EVEN LOOKED. I KEPT THINKING 
OF DIFFERENT COMMENTS SHE HAD MADE DURING THE PAST WEEK. MANY MADE NO SENSE 
WHILE OTHER THINGS MADE ALL TO MUCH SENSE. SHE PURPOSELY MADE ME KNOW ABOUT THE 
4 WOMEN. HER, GOLDIE, THE DR. BUT WHO ELSE. WOULD IT POSSIBLY BE THE WARDEN. SHE
KNEW FROM MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH THEM HOW MUCH I HATED BEING TOUCHED AND 
VIOLATED BY A WOMAN. THE MEN WOULD BE TERRIBLE BUT I FEARED THE WOMEN WOULD BE 
MORE VICIOUS AND SADISTIC. THEN THERE WAS THE SEX, I HAD NEVER IN MY LIFE BEEN 
WITH A WOMAN AND NOW I WOULD BE FORCED TO PERFORM THE MOST DEGRADING ACTS 
IMAGINABLE.
     I GLANCED AT THE CLOCK, 10:30, I HAD ABOUT AN HOUR AND A HALF. AS I FILLED 
THE BAG FOR THE THIRD AND FINAL TIME I WONDERED TO MYSELF HOW I WOULD TAKE 3 
QUARTS, IT SEEMED IMPOSSIBLE BUT I KNEW I MUST TRY NO MATTER HOW PAINFUL.
     JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO INSERT THE NOZZLE THE PHONE RANG. JOHN, HI HONEY, NO 
NOTHING IS WRONG, YOUR NOT COMING, YOUR BACK AGAIN. AS MUCH AS I WANTED HIM 
MAYBE THIS WAS A BLESSING IN DISGUISE. AFTER A BRIEF CONVERSATION I AGREED TO 
SPEAK WITH HIM LATER. AS MUCH AS I HATED DOING SO I KNEW I WOULD HAVE TO PUT HIM 
OFF WITH SOME EXCUSE. MAYBE GOING TO SEE MY MOTHER OR SISTER OR MAYBE USE THE 
OLD SHOPPING ROUTINE. HE WOULD BE ANGRY AND ACCUSE ME OF AS HE PUT IT "JERKING 
HIM OFF". TOMORROW WHEN HE CALLED I WOULD PRETEND TO BE SICK, BAD STOMACH AS 
USUAL. WOULD PROBABLY NOT WANT TO TALK, JUST STAY IN BED AND TRY AND RECUPERATE 
FROM THE NIGHTS ORDEAL. BUT THESE WERE THINGS JOHN COULD NOT KNOW.
     THE THIRD ENEMA WAS A NIGHTMARE. I HAD NEVER TAKEN ANYTHING NEARLY THIS 
LARGE AND AFTER 2 QUARTS I CONSIDERED STOPPING IT. MY STOMACH WAS SO SWOLLEN I 
FEARED IT WOULD BURST FROM THE PRESSURE. IT FILLED ME SO COMPLETELY THAT IT 
CAUSED A TREMENDOUS PRESSURE ON ALL MY INTERNAL ORGANS.I WAS AFRAID TO LOOK DOWN 
FOR FEAR OF WHAT I MIGHT SEE. AS I DID SO TO MY AMAZEMENT MY BREASTS SEEMED TO 
BE MUCH LARGER THAN NORMAL. IT WAS THEN THAT I REALIZED HOW DIFFICULT IT WAS 
JUST TO BREATHE. IT SEEMED MY INTESTINES WERE PUSHING UP INTO MY LUNGS. I
IMMEDIATELY REACHED FOR THE CLAMP TO STOP THE FLOW BEFORE I PASSED OUT. AS I 
LAID ON THE FLOOR GASPING FOR BREATH I KNEW I COULD NOT TAKE ANY MORE. AS I 
REMOVED THE NOZZLE AND STRUGGLED TO THE BOWL MRS. WINSTONS NOTE CAME TO MIND. 
HOW WOULD SHE KNOW. HOW WOULD DOING THIS TO MYSELF HELP ME LATER.
     AFTER SPENDING QUITE A LONG TIME IN THE BATHROOM I FINALLY CAME BACK TO 
MYSELF. THE BEST THING I COULD DO NOW WAS TRY AND GET SOME REST. I FELT GUILTY 
ABOUT WHAT I WAS DOING TO JOHN, BUT KNEW IT WAS BEST. I MADE A CUP OF TEA AND 
WENT INTO THE BEDROOM. AS WAS MY HABIT I PUT ON THE T.V. MAINLY FOR SOME 
SOUND.THIS IS ONE OF THE SMALL QUIRKS THAT COMES WITH LIVING ALONE. MAKING 
MYSELF AS COMFORTABLE AS POSSIBLE I REALIZED HOW STRANGE ENEMAS WERE. JUST A FEW 
MINUTES AGO I WAS IN TERRIBLE PAIN AND NOW IT WAS ALMOST GONE. NO MARKS, NO 
BRUISES JUST EXCRUCIATING PAIN WHEN IT IS BEING FORCED INTO YOU. I THOUGHT OF
ONE OF MRS. WINSTONS COMMENTS TO ME. NO PERMANENT DAMAGE, NO LASTING BRUISES BUT 
THE PAIN WOULD MAKE YOU PRAY FOR DEATH. WHY DID THEY WANT TO HURT ME? THIS WAS 
ALL EXPLAINED WHEN I WAS CAUGHT AND OFFERED THE DEAL. THESE PEOPLE WERE VERY 
WEALTHY AND HAD ALL THAT MONEY COULD BUY. BUT THEY WERE BORED AND HAD BECOME 
VERY JADED IN THEIR GAMES. FROM WHAT I HAD KNOWN THEY HAD TRAVELED EXTENSIVELY. 
HAD A LARGE MANSION IN THE SUBURBS OF LONG ISLAND. OWNED EXPENSIVE CARS, HORSES 
A YACHT AND WHO KNOWS WHAT ELSE. BUT THEY WERE BORED. SOMEHOW AFTER TRYING MANY 
DIFFERENT FORMS OF SEXUAL ACTIVITY THEY FOUND EXCITEMENT IN S & M. AS IF SOME 
DISEASE OF THE WEALTHY SOME OF THEIR FRIENDS SHARED THE SAME INTEREST. WHEN MY 
CRIME HAD BEEN DISCOVERED THEY SEIZED THE OPPORTUNITY. I WAS SUMMONED INTO MR. 
WINSTONS OFFICE AND CONFRONTED WITH THE EVIDENCE. I WAS THE COMPANY BOOKKEEPER 
AND TRIED TO EXPLAIN HOW HE WAS MISTAKEN. IT WAS THEN THAT MRS. WINSTON SHOWED
ME ALL THE CHECKS I HAD FORGED AND LEDGERS I HAD ALTERED. MY HEART SANK AND I 
KNEW I WAS CAUGHT.
     I REMEMBER LOOKING AROUND FOR THE POLICE. IT WAS THEN THAT THEY EXPLAINED 
MY PLIGHT. ALL THEY HAD TO DO WAS MAKE ONE PHONE CALL AND I WOULD BE ARRESTED. 
WITH ALL THE EVIDENCE THEY HAD THERE WAS NO QUESTION AS TO MY BEING CONVICTED OF 
A CLASS A FELONY. IT WAS EXPLAINED IN GRAPHIC DETAIL HOW I WOULD SERVE 5 YEARS 
IN A WOMANS PENITENTIARY. IT WAS ALSO MADE VERY CLEAR AS TO HOW THEY WOULD USE
THEIR CONSIDERABLE INFLUENCE TO GUARANTEE I WOULD BE SENT TO THE WORST. I WAS 
ALSO TOLD HOW THEY COULD MAKE SURE I WOULD RECEIVE THE HARSHEST TREATMENT 
POSSIBLE. AS IT HAPPENED THE WARDEN WAS A PERSONAL FRIEND OF MRS. WINSTON AND 
WOULD OVERSEE MY STAY. THE PICTURE THEY WERE PAINTING WAS INDEED THE END OF MY 
WORLD.
     AS LONG AS I LIVE I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT HAPPENED NEXT. MRS. WINSTON AS 
CASUALLY AS IF ORDERING A CUP OF COFFEE, TOLD ME "BUT YOU HAVE A CHOICE". HER 
VOICE DRIPPED OF SARCASM AND SHE HAD A DEVILISH GRIN ON HER FACE. I WAS INFORMED 
THAT IF I AGREED TO BECOME THEIR SLAVE AND FOLLOW ALL ORDERS FOR A PERIOD OF ONE 
YEAR ALL WOULD BE FORGOTTEN AND I COULD EVEN KEEP THE MONEY. I COULD NOT BELIEVE 
WHAT I WAS HEARING, SLAVE. I WAS SPEECHLESS. THE LOOK ON MY FACE MUST HAVE  TOLD 
OF MY AMAZEMENT AT WHAT SHE WAS SAYING. THE ONLY WORD I WAS ABLE TO GET OUT WAS 
SLAVE.
     IT WAS AT THIS POINT SHE PULLED UP A CHAIR AND WITH A SMILE BEGAN TO 
EXPLAIN. SHE TOLD ME HOW THEY AND A CLOSE GROUP OF FRIENDS WHO ENJOYED USING 
FEMALES IN VARIOUS WAYS. MANY OF THE PHRASES SHE USED WERE FOREIGN TO ME. S & M,  
 B & D, WATERSPORTS, BEASTIALITY, FISTING, FORCED SEX, MEDICAL TORTURE. I FELT 
THE BLOOD DRAIN FROM MY HEAD AND THE ROOM BEGIN TO SPIN. THIS AMUSED THE COUPLE 
AND THEY BOTH HAD A GREAT LAUGH AT MY REACTION. AFTER MY COLOR RETURNED AND THEY
WERE DONE WITH THEIR COMMENTS MRS. WINSTON CONTINUED. SHE EXPLAINED HOW I WOULD 
HAVE TO PRESENT MYSELF AT THEIR HOME ONCE A MONTH ON A SATURDAY NIGHT 12 TIMES. 
I WAS ALSO TOLD ABOUT BEING FITTED FOR SOME SPECIAL ARTICLES OF CLOTHING. AND 
LAST BUT FAR FROM LEAST THE EXTENSIVE MEDICAL EXAMINATIONS. SHE WENT ON TO 
FURTHER EXPLAIN HOW THEY WOULD HAVE TO BE SURE I WAS STRONG ENOUGH TO TAKE WHAT 
THEY WOULD BE DOING TO ME. BUT SHE STRESSED FOR THEIR OWN PROTECTION, IT WOULD 
HAVE TO BE DETERMINED THAT I WAS DISEASE FREE. I WOULD HAVE TO CONTINUE WORKING 
FOR THEM. I COULD GO ON WITH MY LIFE AS USUAL EXCEPT FOR A FEW MINOR CHANGES.
     AFTER LISTENING TO WHAT SHE WAS SAYING I JUMPED FROM THE CHAIR AND RAN FOR 
THE DOOR, IT WAS LOCKED. I DEMANDED THE DOOR BE OPENED AND TOLD THEM THEY WERE 
BOTH VERY SICK PEOPLE. THEIR RESPONSE WAS JUST TO LAUGH AT ME. THEY CALMLY 
EXPLAINED THAT THERE WAS NO PLACE I COULD RUN TO. I WAS TOLD THAT IF I DESIRED 
THE POLICE WOULD BE SUMMONED IMMEDIATELY. IT WAS THEN THAT MR. WINSTON SUGGESTED 
THAT I SIT BACK DOWN AND HEAR THE REST OF WHAT THEY HAD TO SAY. I WAS HANDED A 
LARGE ENVELOPE AND TOLD TO GO HOME AND STUDY ITS CONTENTS. I WAS ALSO INFORMED 
THAT I WOULD BE UNDER SURVEILLANCE AT ALL TIMES AND MY PHONE CALLS WOULD BE 
MONITORED. IF I TRIED TO RUN AWAY I WOULD BE ARRESTED AND ALL THEIR THREATS 
CARRIED OUT.
     I COULD NOT FIND ANY COMFORT OR PEACE HERE IN MY BED. MY MIND WAS RIDING A 
ROLLER COASTER. THE FEAR OF WHAT WOULD HAPPEN TONIGHT. THE MEMORIES OF WHAT HAD 
BEEN DONE ALREADY. AS I STARED AT THE CEILING MY MIND WANDERED BACK TO THAT DAY 
WHEN I WAS CONFRONTED BY THE WINSTONS. I REMEMBERED LEAVING THEM SITTING IN HIS 
OFFICE LOOKING AT ME AS IF I WERE A SIDE OF BEEF. AS I PICKED UP THE ENVELOPE I 
WAS TOLD TO STUDY, I GLANCED FIRST AT MR. WINSTON AND THEN AT HER. THE 
EXPRESSIONS ON BOTH THEIR FACES TURNED MY KNEES TO JELLY. THEIR EYES , COLD AS 
ICE PIERCED INTO MY VERY SOUL.
     I RECALLED HOW I HAD STRUGGLED HOME MAKING SURE TO DOUBLE LOCK THE DOOR 
BEHIND ME, AS IF THAT WOULD HELP. THE MEMORIES OF ALL I HAD HEARD. THE STUPIDITY 
OF WHAT I HAD DONE. HOW DID I THINK I COULD GET AWAY WITH IT. I THOUGHT OF THE 
HOME SHOPPING CHANNEL AND CURSED THE DAY IT WAS INVENTED. IF IT WASN'T FOR MY 
NEED TO BUY WHAT I REALLY DIDN'T NEED I WOULD NOT BE IN THIS SITUATION NOW. ALSO 
THE FACT THAT JOHN HAD WARNED ME MANY TIMES MADE ME FEEL EVEN WORSE.
     THE MEMORIES OF THE ENVELOPE CAME TO MIND. THEY WERE SMART AND KNEW EXACTLY 
WHAT THEY WERE DOING. THE CONTENTS WERE COPIES OF ALL THE FORGED CHECKS, ALTERED 
LEDGERS AND A VIDEO CASSETTE. A NOTE ON THE CASSETTE SIMPLY READ THIS SHOWS WHAT 
MAY HAPPEN TO YOU IN PRISON. I REMEMBERED HOW MY HAND WAS SHAKING SO VIOLENTLY, 
I COULD NOT GET IT INTO THE VCR. AFTER WATCHING FOR ONLY A FEW MOMENTS I WAS IN 
A STATE OF COMPLETE SHOCK. IT DEPICTED WOMAN OF ALL SHAPES AND SIZES, ALL AGES 
FROM YOUNG TO OLD, AND OF ALL RACES. THE ONE THING THEY ALL SHARED WAS A BLANK 
STARE. AS THE TAPE CONTINUED I SAW THE CELLS AND THE HORRIBLE LIVING CONDITIONS. 
THE NEXT SCENE SHOWED ABOUT 2 DOZEN WOMEN IN A SHOWER, NO PRIVACY, HERDED IN 
LIKE SO MANY CATTLE. IT WAS IN LOOKING AT SOME OF THE CLOSE UPS THAT I REALIZED 
THAT A LOT OF THE FACES LOOKED MUCH OLDER THAN THE BODIES TO WHICH THEY 
BELONGED. THE FACES ALL INDICATED A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF SUFFERING. MY EYES WERE
RIVETED TO THE SCREEN. IT WAS THEN THAT SOMETHING CAUGHT MY EYE. AS IF THEY HAD 
READ MY MIND THE CAMERA CAME TO FOCUS ON A BIG WELL BUILT RED HEAD. SHE SEEMED 
TO BE ABOUT MY OWN AGE BUT IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE TO TELL. AS SHE WASHED, I WAS SHOWN 
HER BODY FROM EVERY ANGLE. WHAT I SAW MADE ME GASP OUT LOUD. SHE WAS COVERED 
WITH WELTS AND BRUISES. HER BACK, ASS, LEGS, THIGHS, STOMACH AND BREASTS WERE 
COVERED WITH WHIP MARKS. NEXT I SAW A YOUNG BLONDE GIRL WHO APPEARED TO BE A
LITTLE MORE THAN A TEENAGER. HER BODY WAS COVERED WITH THE SAME TYPE OF MARKS. I 
WAS LITERALLY MESMERIZED BY THE IMAGES ON THE TV SCREEN. AS I WAS TRYING TO 
DIGEST THE IMAGES BEFORE ME THE SCENE CHANGED. IT SHOWED 2 BIG BLACK FEMALE 
GUARDS DRAGGING AN ATTRACTIVE MIDDLE AGED SPANISH WOMAN DOWN A DARK CORRIDOR. 
THE SOUND WAS OF POOR QUALITY BUT IT WAS EASY TO HEAR THAT SHE WAS SCREAMING AND 
BEGGING. I WAS ABLE TO MAKE OUT SOME OF HER WORDS. "NO PLEASE NOT AGAIN, I WILL 
DO WHATEVER YOU WANT". AS A DOOR CAME INTO VIEW SHE SCREAMED "PLEASE DON'T
TORTURE ME AGAIN I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE. JUST TELL ME WHAT TO DO". THE DOOR 
OPENED REVEALING A DIMLY LIT ROOM FILLED WITH MANY DIFFERENT OBJECTS. AS THE 
LIGHTS FROM THE CAMERA ILLUMINATED THE ROOM I WAS ABLE TO MAKE OUT WHAT SOME OF 
THESE OBJECTS WERE. I SAW AN ASSORTMENT OF STRANGE TABLES AND BENCHES. ROPES AND 
CHAINS HUNG FROM THE CEILING. A LARGE WOODEN CHAIR CAME INTO FOCUS. FROM IT 
DANGLED SEVERAL BROAD LEATHER STRAPS. HANGING NEAR THE CHAIR WERE WHAT LOOKED
TO BE ELECTRICAL WIRES WITH LARGE ALLIGATOR CLIPS ON THE END. NEXT THE CAMERA 
MOVED TO A WALL FROM WHICH HUNG A HUGE ARRAY OF WHIPS, PADDLES, CANES, ROPE, 
CHAIN, HANDCUFFS OF DIFFERENT SIZES AND DOZENS OF THINGS I COULD NOT IDENTIFY. 
AS THE CAMERA SHOWED THE ROOM I COULD HEAR SCREAMS IN THE BACKGROUND. THE SCENE 
RETURNED TO THE SPANISH WOMAN. SHE WAS HANGING FROM A CHAIN ATTACHED TO HER 
HANDCUFFS. HER DRESS HAD BEEN REMOVED LEAVING HER IN BRA AND PANTIES. AT THAT 
MOMENT ONE OF THE BLACK GUARDS TOOK A SMALL KNIFE AND CUT THE BRA FROM HER
BODY. AT THAT POINT I HAD TO LOOK AWAY. HER BREASTS WERE A MASS OF ANGRY LOOKING 
BRUISES. A STRANGE VOICE BROUGHT MY ATTENTION BACK TO THE SCREEN. IT BELONGED TO 
A BEAUTIFUL AND FOR SOME REASON VERY EVIL LOOKING WOMAN. SHE APPEARED TO BE VERY 
TALL AND LARGE, NOT FAT JUST LARGE. I HAD NO IDEA WHO SHE WAS OR WHAT SHE WAS 
DOING IN THIS ROOM. I GUESSED HER AGE TO BE ABOUT 50. HER BLACK HAIR WAS DONE IN 
THE LATEST STYLE AND HER SUIT WAS CHANEL. EVEN ON THE TV SCREEN LOOKING
AT HER SENT A SHUDDER THROUGH ME. I KNOW NOW HOW RIGHT I WAS.
     THE EXPRESSION ON THE FACE OF THE SPANISH WOMAN WAS ONE OF TERROR. AS SHE 
SAID HER NEXT WORDS A LOT OF THINGS BECAME MORE CLEAR TO ME. "PLEASE WARDEN, 
DON'T LET THEM TORTURE ME AGAIN". I IMMEDIATELY REMEMBERED THE COMMENT MRS. 
WINSTON MADE ABOUT THE WARDEN BEING A PERSONAL FRIEND. COULD THIS BE HER. MY 
MIND WAS NOT ABLE TO DIGEST ALL I HAD JUST SEEN AND HEARD. I SHUT OFF THE VCR.
     NOW AS I LAID TWISTING AND TURNING I REMEMBERED THE NIGHT I SAT VIEWING THE 
TAPE. I REMEMBERED THINKING THAT THIS WAS IMPOSSIBLE. THIS IS 1993, THINGS LIKE 
THIS DO NOT HAPPEN. THEY DO NOT TREAT PEOPLE LIKE THIS IN PRISON, DO THEY. I 
REMEMBER HOW AFTER SITTING IN THE DARK FOR A FEW MINUTES, SOMETHING INSIDE ME 
MADE ME TURN THE VCR BACK ON.
     THE SPANISH WOMAN KEPT BEGGING THE WARDEN TO BE RELEASED. SHE PROMISED TO 
DO WHATEVER ANYONE WANTED OF HER. TO MY DISBELIEF I HEARD HER SAY, "LET ME EAT 
ALL THE GUARDS. THEY CAN ALL FUCK ME IF THEY WANT TO. TELL THEM THEY CAN FUCK ME 
IN THE ASS WITH THE BIG DILDOS. I'LL NEVER SAY NO AGAIN". I STARED AT THE SCREEN 
AS IF IN A TRANCE. THE BOUND WOMAN CONTINUED TO BEG THE WARDEN TO GIVE HER 
ANOTHER CHANCE. THE CAMERA CAPTURED THE PANIC ON THE FACE OF THE BOUND WOMAN
AS WELL AS THE ICY STARE OF THE WARDEN. I HAD A VERY HARD TIME GRASPING 
EVERYTHING THE SPANISH WOMAN WAS SAYING. I WAS NOT UNAWARE OF CERTAIN SEXUAL 
PRACTICES BUT WHAT I HEARD NEXT WAS HARD TO BELIEVE. SHE HAD A NERVOUS LOOK ON 
HER FACE AS SHE TURNED HER FACE TOWARD THE WARDEN AND SAID "THEY CAN ALL WATCH 
ME FUCK THE DOGS, THEY WON'T HAVE TO FORCE ME THIS TIME. THEN I'LL EAT THEM 
ALL". I WAS COMPLETELY TAKEN ABACK BY WHAT SHE HAD JUST SAID. HOW COULD SHE
VOLUNTEER TO DO SUCH A THING. WHAT HAD THEY DONE TO HER TO BRING HER TO THIS 
POINT. WAS THIS A PRISON OR AN INSANE ASYLUM.
     I CONTINUED TO WATCH AS THE WARDEN TALKED TO HER GUARDS. AFTER A TIME SHE 
TURNED BACK TO THE HANGING WOMAN AND TOLD HER "YOU WILL BE GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY 
TO DO EVERYTHING YOU SAID, BUT FIRST YOU MUST BE PUNISHED FOR DISOBEYING THE 
GUARDS ORDERS". THE WOMAN STARTED TO SCREAM AND RIP AT HER SHACKLED WRISTS. THIS 
BROUGHT A ROUND OF LAUGHTER FROM THE WARDEN AND 2 GUARDS. THE HANGING WOMAN WAS 
BECOMING MORE FRANTIC. SHE KEPT YELLING "NO MORE TORTURE, PLEASE. I'M STILL
HURTING FROM THE LAST TIME".THE WARDEN WAS UNAFFECTED BY HER PLEAS. SHE JUST 
TURNED TO THE GUARDS AND SAID "PUT HER ON THE TABLE ON HER BACK, I WANT TO WORK 
ON THOSE TITS AGAIN". THE GUARDS WERE ON THE BOUND WOMAN IN AN INSTANT. HER 
HANDCUFFS WERE RELEASED AND SHE WAS BEING DRAGGED ACROSS THE ROOM. HER CRIES AND 
SCREAMS COULD NOT BE UNDERSTOOD. I WATCHED AS SHE WAS THROWN ONTO A WOODEN TABLE 
AND QUICKLY STRAPPED INTO PLACE. HER ARMS AND LEGS WERE PULLED TO THE ENDS AND 
THICK STRAPS WERE ATTACHED. ANOTHER STRAP WAS BROUGHT ACROSS HER CHEST JUST 
UNDER HER BREASTS. SATISFIED THE GUARDS STEPPED BACK. THE CAMERA CAME INTO FOCUS 
ON THE WARDEN. AS I KEPT WATCHING I FELT MY HEART POUNDING IN MY CHEST. IS THIS 
WHAT COULD HAPPEN TO ME I KEPT ASKING MYSELF. IS THIS FOR REAL. MAYBE ITS SOME 
KIND OF ACT FOR MY BENEFIT. MY ATTENTION WENT BACK TO THE SCREEN. THE WARDEN HAD 
REMOVED HER OWN JACKET AND WAS NOW REMOVING HER BLOUSE. THERE SHE STOOD IN A 
LONG BLACK BRA AND SKIRT. SHE WAS INDEED MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN I HAD FIRST 
THOUGHT. SHE WAS A LARGE WOMAN IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE. HER MASSIVE BREASTS 
SWELLED OVER THE TOP OF HER BRA. THIS IMAGE MADE ME TOTALLY SHUDDER. THE IDEA OF 
THE WOMAN HAVING TOTAL CONTROL OF ME FOR 5 YEARS. WHAT WOULD SHE MAKE ME DO AND 
WHAT COULD SHE DO TO ME.
     THE CAMERA AGAIN FOCUSED ON THE POOR BOUND WOMAN. SHE STRUGGLED AS MUCH AS 
THE STRAPS ALLOWED. THERE WERE TEARS NOW VISIBLE ON HER FACE. AS I WATCHED A 
TRAY WAS WHEELED OVER TO THE TABLE BY ONE OF THE GUARDS, THE SPANISH WOMAN AGAIN 
BEGAN TO SPEAK. "PLEASE DON'T DO MY TITS AGAIN, DO SOMETHING ELSE, BEAT ME 
INSTEAD, PUT THE WATER IN ME, USE THE NEEDLES ON ME, LOOK WHAT THEY DID TO MY 
TITS ALREADY". THE WARDEN JUST SMILED AT HER AND SAID "THEY DID NOTHING COMPARED 
TO WHAT I WILL DO BITCH. YOU WILL LEARN TO OBEY ME AND MY GUARDS". SHE THEN
PICKED UP WHAT LOOKED LIKE A PIECE OF RUBBER GARDEN HOSE AND SHOWED IT TO THE 
HELPLESS WOMAN. THE RESPONSE WAS ONE OF COMPLETE PANIC. I WATCHED AS SHE 
THRASHED AROUND AND TRIED TO TARE FREE OF THE STRAPS WHICH HELD HER. THE WARDEN 
BROUGHT THE HOSE UP OVER HER HEAD AND IN A SWIFT MOTION SWUNG IT DOWNWARDS 
CRASHING INTO THE VICTIMS BREASTS. THIS WAS REPEATED A NUMBER OF TIME BRINGING 
ALMOST INHUMAN CRIES OF AGONY. NO PART OF HER BREASTS WERE SPARED THE TOPS, 
BOTTOMS, SIDES AND EVEN THE NIPPLES RECEIVED THE WHIPPING. FINALLY THE WARDEN 
PUT THE HOSE DOWN. THE CAMERA SHOWED A VERY CLEAR PICTURE OF THIS TORTURE. BOTH 
BREASTS SEEMED TO SWELL BEFORE MY EYES AND TURN AN ANGRY DARK BLUE COLOR. I 
HEARD THE WOMAN GASPING FOR BREATH AS I WATCHED HER WHOLE CHEST HEAVING IN THE 
TIGHT BONDS. AFTER A TIME THE BOUND WOMAN STOPPED SCREAMING AND SAID THROUGH HER 
TEARS "YOU DYKE CUNT, SOMEDAY I'LL KILL YOU". THIS ONLY BROUGHT MORE LAUGHTER.
FINALLY THE WARDEN LOOKED DOWN AT HER AND SAID "I SEE YOU HAVEN'T LEARNED YOUR 
LESSON YET". SHE TURNED TO 1 OF THE GUARDS AND SAID
"BRING ME THE LONG NEEDLES, I'LL TEACH HER TO THREATEN ME".                       
    I COULD NOT WATCH ANYMORE. THE TAPE HAD SERVED ITS PURPOSE. ANYTHING WOULD 
BE BETTER THAN SPENDING 5 YEARS IN THIS HELLHOLE, OR SO I THOUGHT AT THAT TIME. 
IT WAS CLEAR THE WINSTONS HAD ME JUST WHERE THEY WANTED ME. THEY KNEW AFTER 
SEEING THE CONTENTS OF THE ENVELOPE I WOULD SUBMIT TO THEIR DEMANDS.
     I REMAINED IN THE BED AND REMEMBERED HOW I WENT TO WORK THE FOLLOWING DAY. 
AFTER TRYING IN VAIN TO GET ON WITH MY JOB THE INTERCOM ON MY DESK RANG, IT WAS 
MR. WINSTON. I RECALLED HOW IN A PERFECTLY NORMAL TONE OF VOICE HE SUMMONED ME 
TO HIS OFFICE. I WAS ASKED IF I HAD STUDIED THE CONTENTS OF THE ENVELOPE. WITH 
MY EYES TO THE FLOOR I REPLIED I HAD. HE THEN ASKED IF I HAD COME TO A DECISION.
I RECALLED HOW I COULD NOT LOOK UP AT HIM AND THE WAY I STOOD SHUFFLING MY FEET. 
IT TOOK A LONG TIME FOR THE WORDS TO REACH MY LIPS. ALL I COULD SAY WAS "YOU 
WIN". HE SARCASTICALLY TOLD ME HE THOUGHT I WOULD SEE IT THEIR WAY AND WOULD NOW 
CALL HIS WIFE. HE THEN INSTRUCTED ME TO GET BACK TO WORK AND NOT LEAVE AT 5 
O'CLOCK, BUT TO COME TO HIS OFFICE TO GO OVER THE ARRANGEMENTS OF OUR DEAL AS HE 
PUT IT.
     IN THE DAYS FOLLOWING THAT FIRST MEETING THERE WERE SEVERAL OTHERS. I WAS 
MADE TO SIGN A COMPLETE CONFESSION AND EVEN HAD TO SIGN A CONTRACT STATING I WAS 
WILLING TO BECOME THEIR SLAVE FOR A PERIOD OF 1 YEAR. MRS. WINSTON WAS PRESENT 
AT ALL THE MEETINGS. MANY TIMES I WOULD CATCH HER LOOKING AT ME IN VERY STRANGE 
WAYS. THIS ALWAYS SENT A SHIVER DOWN MY SPINE. SHE WOULD LOOK AT ME AS IF TO 
UNDRESS ME WITH HER EYES. SEVERAL TIMES SHE WOULD LOOK DIRECTLY AT ME AND 
COMMENT HOW SHE COULD NOT WAIT TO GET HER HANDS ON ME. HOW SHE WOULD MAKE ME 
BEG. HOW SHE WOULD MAKE ME SCREAM.
     THE PHONE STARTLED ME BACK TO THE PRESENT. IT WAS JOHN. NO ONE ELSE EVER 
CALLED ON THIS LINE. I WOULD HAVE TO THINK FAST. "HI HON, HOW DO YOU FEEL, 
THAT'S GOOD, YOUR DOWNSTAIRS WATCHING THE GAME, NO NOTHINGS WRONG". HE WAS 
BECOMING SUSPICIOUS. I WOULD HAVE TO COME UP WITH SOMETHING FAST. OFFENSE IS 
ALWAYS THE BEST DEFENSE. I CALCULATED MY NEXT COMMENT CAREFULLY. "OH YOU CAN 
TALK NOW, ISN'T YOUR WIFE HOME". I KNEW FROM PAST EXPERIENCE THIS WOULD BEGIN AN 
ARGUMENT. "I KNOW I SAID WE COULD TALK LATER, BUT I DECIDED TO GO OUT FOR 
AWHILE". AT THIS POINT I KNEW HE WAS GETTING PISSED OFF. AFTER A FEW MORE
WORDS BACK AND FORTH HE HUNG UP ON ME AS USUAL. HE MUST THINK I AM A REAL BITCH, 
IF HE ONLY KNEW THE REAL REASON.
     TIME WAS STANDING STILL. I WISHED I WAS ABLE TO TELL JOHN THE TROUBLE I WAS 
IN BUT KNEW I COULD NOT. I PRAYED HE NEVER FIND OUT. IT WAS BECOMING 
INCREASINGLY DIFFICULT TO COME UP WITH VALID EXCUSES. MY TIME WAS GROWING 
SCARCE. THE WINSTONS WERE FINDING LITTLE TASKS FOR ME, AND I NEEDED TIME TO 
RECUPERATE FROM MY ORDEALS. SO FAR THE PHYSICAL HEALING WAS A LITTLE EASIER THAN 
THE MENTAL HEALING. I WAS ABLE TO BLAME A LOT ON JOB PRESSURES. I COMPLAINED OF 
BEING TIRED AND NOT FEELING WELL. I USED EVERY EXCUSE I COULD THINK OF. BAD 
STOMACH, HEADACHES, BAD PERIODS, FATIGUE, BOREDOM, ALONE TOO MUCH, EXECUTIVE
BURN OUT, I USED THEM ALL. I WAS NOT PROUD OF MYSELF FOR WHAT I WAS DOING BUT IT 
WAS BETTER THAN THE TRUTH.
     I GOT A FRESH CUP OF TEA AND WENT BACK INTO THE BEDROOM. AGAIN I TRIED TO 
CLOSE MY EYES AND GET SOME REST BUT THE THOUGHTS KEPT COMING BACK. MY THOUGHTS 
DRIFTED TO THE DAY MRS. WINSTON CAME INTO THE OFFICE ACCOMPANIED BY HER MAID 
GOLDIE. THIS WAS NOT AT ALL UNUSUAL AND AT FIRST I DID NOT GIVE IT A SECOND 
THOUGHT. I TRIED TO KEEP THE ARRIVAL AS NORMAL AS POSSIBLE FOR THE SAKE OF ALL 
THE OTHERS IN THE OFFICE. AS I GREETED THEM BOTH I IMMEDIATELY NOTICED THE 
DIFFERENCE IN GOLDIE. I HAD SEEN AND SPOKE TO HER MANY TIMES DURING THE YEARS I
WORKED FOR MR. WINSTON. SHE HAD ALWAYS BEEN VERY WARM AND FRIENDLY AND I EVEN 
THOUGHT OF HER AS SOMEWHAT OF A FRIEND. BUT NOW SHE WAS DIFFERENT. SHE ALWAYS 
REMINDED ME A LITTLE OF OPRAH, BIG AND JOLLY, WARM FRIENDLY SMILE. NOW SHE JUST 
GAVE ME A COLD, KNOWING STARE. AS I GLANCED UP AT HER I CAUGHT THAT FAMILIAR 
LOOK, SHE SEEMED TO BE UNDRESSING ME WITH HER EYES. COULD SHE BE PART OF THIS 
TOO, I WOULD SOON FIND OUT. I CALLED MR. WINSTON ON THE INTERCOM AND ANNOUNCED 
HIS WIFES ARRIVAL. HE TOLD ME TO LET HER IN AND ALSO COME IN MYSELF.
GOLDIE FOLLOWED.
     ONCE IN HIS OFFICE AND AWAY FROM THE REST OF THE STAFF THEIR ATTITUDE 
CHANGED. AGAIN I WAS ONLY THEIR SLAVE. MRS. WINSTON WAS BRIEF AND TO THE POINT. 
I WAS TOLD THAT AFTER WORK I WAS TO GO WITH HER AND GOLDIE FOR MY FIRST 
PHYSICAL. MRS. WINSTON TOLD ME SHE HAD MADE AN APPOINTMENT WITH HER GYNOCOLIGIST 
FOR MY FIRST EXAM. I WENT INTO A STATE OF SHOCK. WAS THE TIME FOR THE SO CALLED 
PARTIES HERE. I DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR DO. THE FIRST THING THAT CAME TO 
MIND WAS TO TELL MRS. WINSTON THAT I HAD MY OWN DR. AND WOULD BE MORE
COMFORTABLE WITH HIM. I SAID I WOULD GO TO HIM AND GIVE HER A FULL REPORT ON 
ANYTHING SHE WANTED. I WAS REMINDED OF SOME OBSCURE PARAGRAPH IN THE CONTRACT I 
HAD SIGNED. SUBMIT TO PHYSICAL TESTING AT A DR. OF THE WINSTONS CHOICE. THEY HAD 
ME MORE THAN I REALIZED. I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO OBEY. AFTER THINKING A SECOND 
THE ONLY REPLY I HAD WAS "YES MAM". MY REPLY BROUGHT AN INSTANT SMILE TO BOTH 
MR. AND MRS. WINSTON. SHE LOOKED AT ME WITH THAT LOOK I WAS BECOMING MORE 
FAMILIAR WITH AND SAID "GOOD BITCH, YOUR LEARNING, NOW GO WITH GOLDIE AND SHE
WILL HELP YOU GET READY. OH, AND ONE MORE THING, DO WHATEVER SHE TELLS YOU TO, 
YOU ARE HER SLAVE AS WELL AS OURS". HER WORDS RIPPED THROUGH ME LIKE A HOT 
KNIFE. I WAS MORTIFIED. GOLDIES SLAVE TOO. I PROTESTED LOUDLY. "I DID NOT AGREE 
TO ANY SUCH THING". AS IF READY FOR ME MR. WINSTON TOOK A COPY OF MY CONTRACT 
FROM A LOCKED FILE. HE QUICKLY READ A CLAUSE THAT STATED, I COULD BE GIVEN TO 
ANYONE AT THEIR DIRECTION TO BE USED AS A SLAVE IN ANY WAY THEY SAW FIT. AFTER
HE READ IT HE HANDED IT TO ME AND POINTED TO THE CLAUSE AND MY SIGNATURE. THEY 
HAD ME AGAIN. HERE I WAS NOT ONLY THE PLAYTHING OF THE WINSTONS AND WHOM EVER 
ELSE, BUT ALSO GOLDIE, A BLACK MAID. AS I FOLLOWED GOLDIE THROUGH THE LARGE 
OFFICE COMPLEX TO THE LADIES ROOM MY PLIGHT BECAME MORE BIZARRE.
     AS WE ENTERED THE ROOM I WAS ABOUT TO REMIND GOLDIE OF OUR LONG FRIENDSHIP 
AND INQUIRE HOW SHE WAS INVOLVED. BEFORE I COULD SPEAK A SYLLABLE SHE TURNED AND 
SAID "STRIP BITCH". THE USUALLY SOFT GENTLE VOICE HAD TURNED HARD AND 
COMMANDING. I BECAME INSTANTLY FEARFUL OF THIS LARGE BLACK WOMAN. SHE REMINDED 
ME OF THE 2 BLACK GUARDS IN THE PRISON FILM I HAD BEEN GIVEN. FROM THE LOOK ON 
HER FACE I KNEW THERE WAS NOTHING TO DO BUT OBEY. SHE HAD THE SAME LOOK AS THE 
GUARDS WHO HAD BEEN TORTURING THE POOR SPANISH GIRL.
     AS I FUMBLED WITH THE BUTTONS OF MY DRESS I NOTICED FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT 
GOLDIE HAD BEEN CARRYING A LARGE ATTACHE CASE. THIS WAS PUT ON A SINK AND I WAS 
TOLD TO SPEED IT UP. AS I REMOVED THE DRESS AND STOOD IN BRA, PANTYHOSE AND 
HEELS A VERY STRANGE FEELING CAME OVER ME. A FEELING OF TOTAL EMBARRASSMENT. I 
HAD BEEN NUDE IN FRONT OF WOMEN BEFORE IN DRESSING ROOMS AND SUCH BUT THIS WAS
DIFFERENT. I HAD NEVER BEEN ORDERED. I HAD NEVER BEEN OWNED. GOLDIE STUDIED ME 
FOR A MINUTE AND LOUDLY SAID "EVERYTHING BITCH, TAKE IT ALL OFF". WAS THIS TO BE 
MY NEW NAME. THEY SEEMED TO USE IT VERY FREELY. I WOULD LATER LEARN IT WAS 
BETTER THAN MOST OF THE NAMES I WAS CALLED.
     AFRAID TO DO ANYTHING ELSE, I UNHOOKED MY BRA, PUT IT ON THE SINK WITH MY 
DRESS AND TOOK OFF THE HEELS AND PANTYHOSE. TOTALLY EMBARRASSED I TRIED COVERING 
MY NUDITY WITH MY ARMS. I WAS QUICKLY ORDERED TO PUT MY ARMS AT MY SIDES, STAND 
STRAIGHT AND FACE FORWARD. I FELT THE FLUSH OF HUMILIATION COVER ME FROM HEAD TO 
TOE. I WAS NOW ON DISPLAY LIKE NEVER BEFORE. GOLDIE DEVOURED MY NUDITY WITH HER
EYES. HER GAZE COVERED EVERY DETAIL OF MY BODY. TO MAKE SURE NOTHING  WAS 
OVERLOOKED SHE WALKED AROUND ME SEVERAL TIMES. TIME STOOD STILL. HERE I STOOD, 
COMPLETELY NAKED IN A PUBLIC BATHROOM WITH THE WINSTONS MAID SURVEYING ME. I 
BURST INTO TEARS AND TRIED TO GRAB MY DRESS. THIS BROUGHT AN INSTANT REACTION 
FROM THE BLACK MAID. BEFORE I WAS ABLE TO GET MY HAND ON THE DRESS SHE WAS 
BEHIND ME WITH HER ARM AROUND MY NECK. I NOW REALIZED HOW STRONG AND AGILE SHE 
WAS FOR A BIG WOMAN. THE MORE I STRUGGLED THE TIGHTER HER GRIP ON ME BECAME. 
AGAIN I KNEW I WAS BEATEN. I STOPPED STRUGGLING AND SHE RELAXED HER HOLD ON ME. 
SHE CAME IN FRONT OF ME, PUT HER FACE ONLY INCHES FROM MINE AND SAID "YOU STUPID 
WHITE CUNT, YOU EVER DO THAT AGAIN I'LL BEAT YOU TILL YOU BLEED". I STOOD THERE 
LOOKING DOWN AT THE FLOOR KNOWING I WAS DOOMED. SHE MUST HAVE SENSED THE FACT MY 
SPIRIT WAS BROKEN AND BEGAN TO TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE. SHE CONTINUED HER APPRAISAL 
OF ME. I WAS TOLD TO TURN, LIFT MY ARMS OVER MY HEAD, BEND OVER, EVEN SPREAD MY 
LEGS. I DID AS I WAS TOLD. THIS GAVE HER GREATER CONFIDENCE. SHE REACHED OUT AND 
GRABBED ONE OF MY BREASTS ROUGHLY FEELING ITS SIZE AND WEIGHT. HER FINGERS MOVED 
TO THE NIPPLE AND I FELT A STABBING PAIN AS SHE SQUEEZED IT IN HER STRONG 
FINGERS. WITHOUT RELEASING HER GRIP THE OTHER HAND MOVED BETWEEN MY LEGS. AS SHE 
CONTINUED TO PINCH AND PROBE I BEGAN TO SOB. MY REACTION MADE HER ANGRY. I WAS 
TOLD TO STOP CRYING OR I WOULD BE GIVEN SOMETHING TO CRY ABOUT. AFRAID TO GET
HER EVEN MORE ANGRY I TRIED TO STIFLE THE SOBBING.
    EVEN NOW AS I SIPPED ON THE TEA THE EVENTS OF THAT DAY RACED THROUGH MY 
BRAIN. GOLDIE HAD GIVEN ME MY FIRST TASTE OF TORTURE, MENTAL TORTURE. I REMEMBER 
HOW SHE ASKED ME IF JUST WHAT SHE WAS DOING MADE ME CRY, WHAT WOULD I DO WHEN 
THE REAL PAIN BEGINS. I STARED BACK IN SILENCE BUT SHE COULD SEE THE PANIC IN MY 
EYES. SHE DECIDED TO MAKE THE MOST OF IT. I RECALL SOME OF HER WORDS EVEN NOW.
"IT DON'T TAKE MUCH TO MAKE YOU CRY. WHAT YOU GONNA DO WHEN THEY WHIP THOSE TITS 
AND THAT BLONDE CUNT. WHAT YOU GONNA DO WHEN THEY STICK NEEDLES IN THAT SWEET 
WHITE ASS. HOW YOU GONNA ACT WHEN THEY FILL YOU UP WITH A BIG HOT ENEMA. YOU 
GONNA CRY WHEN I MAKE YOU EAT MY BIG BLACK PUSSY". SHE WENT ON AND ON. EVEN NOW 
AFTER SO MANY THINGS HAVE BEEN DONE TO ME THAT FIRST DAY OF MY CAPTIVITY STAYS 
FRESH IN MY MIND.
     MY THOUGHTS STRAYED BACK TO THE LADIES ROOM. AFTER THE FONDLING AND VERBAL 
ABUSE, GOLDIE DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO GET READY FOR THE DRS. VISIT. SHE OPENED 
THE CASE SHE HAD BEEN CARRYING AND TOOK OUT A BOTTLE OF MASSENGILL DOUCHE AND 
THREE FLEET ENEMAS. SHE HANDED THEM TO ME AND TOLD ME TO GO INTO A STALL AND 
CLEAN MYSELF OUT. BY NOW I KNEW BETTER THAN TO REFUSE SO I JUST TOOK THE 
PACKAGES FROM HER AND PROCEEDED INTO A STALL. BY REFLEX I TURNED TO LATCH THE 
DOOR BUT FOUND HER STANDING IN THE WAY. THIS WAS THE FIRST OF MANY INDIGNITIES
I WAS TO SUFFER. SHE WAS GOING TO WATCH AS I DID WHAT IS MOSTLY DONE IN PRIVATE. 
AS I SQUATTED OVER THE BOWL WITH THE DOUCHE I REALIZED WHAT ELSE SHE HAD GIVEN 
ME. WHY DID I NEED AN ENEMA TO SEE A GYNOCOLOGIST. I ASKED THE QUESTION BUT DID 
NOT GET A REPLY. SHE DID ALTHOUGH TAKE GREAT PLEASURE IN TELLING ME HOW THIS 
EXAMINATION WAS GOING TO BE MUCH DIFFERENT THAN ANY I HAD IN THE PAST. WAS THAT 
EVER AN UNDERSTATEMENT. TOTALLY EMBARRASSED I FINISHED THE TASK I WAS GIVEN. 
NEXT I WAS HANDED SOME MAKE UP, A BRUSH AND HAIR SPRAY AND TOLD TO MAKE MYSELF 
PRESENTABLE. WHEN I WAS DONE FIXING MYSELF, WITHOUT BEING TOLD I AUTOMATICALLY 
REACHED FOR MY CLOTHES. AS BEFORE MY HAND WAS SLAPPED AWAY. GOLDIE AGAIN REACHED 
INTO THE CASE AND TOOK OUT A NEATLY FOLDED STACK OF UNDERWEAR. SHE GAVE IT TO ME 
AND TOLD ME TO PUT IT ON. THE TOP PIECE WAS A BLACK PADDED PUSH UP BRA. I ASKED
WHY THIS WAS NECESSARY AND TOLD MRS. WINSTON WANTS YOU TO WEAR IT. THE NEXT 
ARTICLE WAS A BLACK WAIST CINCHER. AS I PICKED IT UP I COULD FEEL HOW HEAVY IT 
WAS. IT WAS THE OLD TYPE WITH METAL RODS IN IT. NEXT WERE A PAIR OF OFF BLACK 
STOCKINGS AND A PAIR OF BLACK PUMPS WITH 5 INCH HEELS. I WAS PUZZLED, WHY THESE 
CLOTHES TO SEE A DR. AGAIN I ASKED AND WAS GIVEN THE SAME ANSWER, BECAUSE MRS. 
WINSTON  WANTS IT THAT WAY.
     I REMEMBER TRYING TO PUT THE CINCHER ON ONLY TO FIND IT TO SMALL. I HAVE A 
SMALL WAIST BUT WAS UNABLE TO GET THE HOOKS EVEN CLOSE. GOLDIE WAS ONLY TOO 
HAPPY TO HELP AND BY THE TIME IT WAS IN PLACE ME RIBS FELT LIKE THEY WERE BEING 
CRUSHED. I WAS FORCED TO STAND PERFECTLY STRAIGHT AND TAKE VERY SHORT, SMALL 
BREATHS. GLANCING IN THE MIRROR I SAW HOW THIS GARMENT MADE MY WAIST MUCH 
SMALLER AND MY HIPS AND BUST SEEM EVEN LARGER. I NEEDED HELP WITH THE BRA ALSO,
AGAIN IT WAS TOO SMALL. MY BREASTS ARE A 34-D BUT LOOKED TWICE AS LARGE IN THIS 
BRA. THEY BULGED OVER THE CUPS AND STOOD HIGH ON MY CHEST. BREATHING WAS GETTING 
MORE DIFFICULT. NEXT CAME THE STOCKINGS AND SHOES. THE CINCHER MADE IT 
IMPOSSIBLE TO BEND TO GET THE GARTERS ATTACHED SO AGAIN IT REQUIRED GOLDIES 
ASSISTANCE. SHE TOOK HER TURN WITH ME AGAIN. WHILE SHE HAD HELPED WITH THE BRA 
SHE MANAGED TO PINCH AND SQUEEZE MY BREASTS. NOW HER FINGERS WERE FEELING THEIR 
WAY INTO ME, BUT I WAS AFRAID TO SAY OR DO ANYTHING.
     AGAIN I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR AND THE IMAGE WAS BIZARRE AT BEST. I WAS NOT 
DRESSED FOR A TRIP TO THE DR. BUT MORE FOR A NIGHT OF LOVEMAKING. WHY HAD THEY 
MADE ME DRESS IN THIS MANNER. I COULD NOT HELP BUT THINK WHAT KIND OF DR. CAN 
THIS BE. I FOUND OUT SOON ENOUGH. I WAS ALLOWED TO PUT MY DRESS BACK ON AND WE 
LEFT THE LADIES ROOM. MRS. WINSTON WAS WAITING AT THE ELEVATOR AND ASKED GOLDIE 
IF EVERYTHING WAS ALL RIGHT. THE MAID ASSURED HER ALL WAS AS IT SHOULD BE AS THE 
DOORS OPENED. I REMEMBERED THE RIDE IN THE LIMO. NO ONE SAID A WORD. I WAS 
HAVING TROUBLE SITTING DUE TO THE STRANGE LINGERIE I WAS FORCED TO WEAR. 
BREATHING WAS BECOMING INCREASINGLY DIFFICULT. IN A SHORT TIME WE ARRIVED AT AN 
UPPER EAST SIDE BROWNSTONE. THE SHINGLE READ DR. V. KIM M.D. I WAS EXTREMELY 
NERVOUS AND THE THOUGHT OF A LITTLE ORIENTAL MAN DOING THE MOST INTIMATE 
EXAMINATION OF MY BODY DID LITTLE TO HELP ME RELAX. THE EVENTS THAT FOLLOWED 
MAKE ME SHUDDER EVEN NOW.
     MRS. WINSTON TOLD THE DRIVER TO WAIT AND THAT WE WOULD BE APPROXIMATELY 3 
HOURS. WHY SO LONG I REMEMBER THINKING. THE THREE OF US WALKED UP TO THE DOOR 
AND GOLDIE RANG THE BUZZER. I RECALL LOOKING AROUND AS IF HOPING FOR RESCUE. A 
SMALL ORIENTAL WOMAN ANSWERED THE DOOR AND MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS SHE MUST BE THE 
NURSE. HER AND MRS. WINSTON EXCHANGED GREETINGS AND WE ENTERED. THE OFFICE WAS 
MUCH THE SAME AS ANY OTHER SUCCESSFUL MANHATTEN DR. THE ORIENTAL WOMAN ASKED
MRS. WINSTON IF SHE COULD GET HER ANY REFRESHMENT. THE REPLY SHOCKED AND SENT 
WAVES OF FEAR THROUGH ME. MRS. WINSTON SAID "NO DR. KIM I WOULD PREFER TO GET 
STARTED, WE HAVE A LOT TO DO". THIS COULD NOT BE THE DR. I HAD NEVER BEEN TO A 
FEMALE DR. OF ANY KIND IN MY LIFE. THE VERY THOUGHT OF BEING TOUCHED AND 
EXAMINED BY ANOTHER FEMALE MADE ME TURN TOWARD THE DOOR AND TRY TO GET OUT. AS I 
HAD LEARNED EARLIER GOLDIE WAS VERY FAST AND GRABBED ME BEFORE I TOOK MORE THAN 
THREE STEPS. AS I STRUGGLED AND BEGGED MRS. WINSTON TO PLEASE LET ME LEAVE, I 
HEARD THE DR. TELL GOLDIE TO BRING ME TO THE SPECIAL ROOM IN THE BASEMENT. SHE 
ADDED ALL WAS READY AND WE WOULD NOT BE DISTURBED. MY ARM WAS TWISTED BEHIND MY 
BACK AND I WAS FORCED DOWN A STAIRCASE INTO THE BASEMENT. MY PROTESTS BECAME 
LOUDER AND FINALLY I WAS YELLING FOR HELP. AS IF I WAS NOT EVEN THERE I HEARD 
THE DR. TELL MRS. WINSTON THAT I COULD SCREAM AS MUCH AS I WANTED, EVERYTHING 
WAS OF COURSE SOUND PROOF.
     THE VIVID MEMORIES DID LITTLE TO CALM MY NERVES. I SIPPED MORE TEA AND LIT 
ANOTHER CIGARETTE. I TRIED TO FOCUS ON THE T.V. ANYTHING NOT TO THINK MORE OF 
THAT DAY. BUT AS USUAL THE MEMORIES CAME CRASHING BACK. I RECALLED HOW GOLDIE 
PUSHED ME TOWARD A METAL DOOR. THE DR. HAD THE KEY READY AND PUSHED IT OPEN. 
INSIDE WAS WHAT APPEARED TO BE A NORMAL EXAMINATION ROOM, THE SIGHT OF WHICH 
CALMED ME MOMENTARILY. THE FOUR OF US ENTERED AND I REMEMBER THE DOOR BEING
LOCKED BEHIND US. NOW I WAS TOTALLY AT THEIR MERCY. GOLDIE RELEASED ME AND I 
BEGAN TO LOOK AROUND. EVERYTHING SEEMED TO BE IN ORDER UNTIL I LOOKED AT THE 
EXAMINING TABLE. THERE WERE RESTRAINING STRAPS ALL OVER IT. EVEN THE STIRRUPS 
HAD STRAPS ATTACHED TO THEM. AGAIN I BEGAN TO SCREAM AND BEG. THE THREE OTHER 
WOMEN JUST WATCHED IN AMUSEMENT. AFTER A TIME I REALIZED MY FEEBLE ATTEMPTS WERE 
IN VAIN AND I STARTED TO QUIET DOWN. IT WAS THEN THAT MRS. WINSTON BEGAN TO 
SPEAK.
     I WAS TOLD THAT NO MORE OUTBURSTS WOULD BE TOLERATED AND IF I PROTESTED IN 
ANY WAY I WOULD BE IMMEDIATELY PUNISHED. MRS. WINSTON OPENED HER BAG AND TOOK 
OUT WHAT LOOKED LIKE A FLASHLIGHT. SHE ASKED ME IF I KNEW WHAT IT WAS AND I SAID 
NO. SHE TOLD ME IT WAS CALLED A CATTLE PROD AND IT WAS USED TO HELP HANDLE 
CATTLE, HORSES, AND OTHER LARGE ANIMALS. SHE EXPLAINED HOW IT SENT A HIGH 
VOLTAGE ELECTRICAL SHOCK INTO WHATEVER IT TOUCHED, AND IF I DID NOT FOLLOW HER
INSTRUCTIONS TO THE LETTER IT WOULD TOUCH ME. AS SHE SAID THE LAST WORD OF THE 
SENTENCE SHE PLACED IT AGAINST MY THIGH. THE ROOM EXPLODED, I LOST ALL MY 
SENSES, I COULD NOT HEAR NOR SEE. MY BREATHE WAS PULLED FROM MY LUNGS. EVERY 
NERVE IN MY BODY SCREAMED IN PAIN. I FELL TO THE FLOOR LIKE A HOUSE OF CARDS, 
CONVULSING IN AGONY. IT TOOK SEVERAL MINUTES FOR ME TO RETURN TO NORMAL. GOLDIE 
HELPED ME TO MY FEET. MRS. WINSTON LOOKED AT ME WITH HER ICY STARE AND TOLD ME 
THAT WAS A SMALL SAMPLE OF WHAT I WOULD GET IF I DISOBEYED IN ANY WAY. SHE
HAD ME IN HER COMPLETE CONTROL. I NEVER WANTED TO FEEL THAT CATTLE PROD AGAIN. 
SHE ASKED ME IF I UNDERSTOOD AND WAS READY TO COOPERATE. I REMEMBER PUTTING MY 
HEAD DOWN AND SAYING YES MAM.
     I WAS NEXT MADE TO STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROOM AS MRS. WINSTON MADE 
HERSELF COMFORTABLE IN A LARGE CHAIR AND TOLD THE DR. TO BEGIN. I WAS REMINDED 
TO FOLLOW THE DRS. ORDERS OR FACE MORE PUNISHMENT. I WAS THEN TOLD BY THE DR. TO 
REMOVE MY DRESS. I KNEW BETTER THAN TRY AND ARGUE. QUICKLY I UNDID THE DRESS AND 
LET IT FALL TO THE FLOOR. THERE I STOOD ON DISPLAY AGAIN, A SPECTACLE FOR THE
THREE WOMAN TO BEHOLD. THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME MRS. WINSTON HAD SEEN ME WITHOUT 
ALL OF MY CLOTHES ON. SHE LEANED FORWARD IN HER CHAIR AS IF TO GET A BETTER 
LOOK. AT THE SAME TIME THE DR. WAS VISIBLY LICKING HER LIPS. MRS. WINSTON WAS 
THE FIRST TO SPEAK. "I CAN'T BELIEVE MY GOOD FORTUNE, SHE IS MAGNIFICENT". FOR 
THE SECOND TIME TODAY I WAS MADE TO TURN, RAISE MY ARMS, BEND FORWARD, SPREAD MY 
LEGS. ALL OF A SUDDEN I REALIZED I WAS NOT WEARING PANTIES. NOW I UNDERSTOOD THE
INGENIOUS DESIGN OF THE CINCHER. ALTHOUGH THE GARTERS WENT DOWN THE SIDES OF MY 
LEGS THE FRONT AND BACK OF THE GARMENT WERE CUT HIGH TO FULLY EXPOSE MY PUSSY 
AND ASS. NOT ONLY COULD THEY HAVE A PERFECT VIEW BUT THE DR. WOULD HAVE ACCESS 
WITHOUT REMOVING THE CINCHER. THE BLACK UNDERWEAR WAS A CONTRAST TO MY MILKY 
WHITE SKIN AND BLONDE HAIR. THE SIGHT OF ME IN THE PROVOCATIVE LINGERIE SEEMED 
TO INFLAME THE WOMEN. I WAS TOLD TO WALK AROUND THE ROOM WHILE THEY DID A
THOROUGH APPRAISAL OF MY BODY. THIS SEEMED VERY STRANGE COMING FROM  OTHER 
WOMEN.  THE NEXT ORDERS I RECEIVED BROUGHT EVEN MORE SHAME. I WAS TOLD TO BEND 
OVER AND SPREAD MY ASS CHEEKS. WHEN I HESITATED I WAS QUICKLY SHOWN THE DREADED 
CATTLE PROD. I INSTANTLY PUT MY HANDS BEHIND ME AND BENT OVER. THE THREE WOMAN 
DISCUSSED THAT PART OF MY ANATOMY. THE DR. WAS REMINDED TO MAKE SURE TO CHECK 
WELL AS I WOULD BE USED ANNALY VERY OFTEN. BEFORE I COULD GRASP WHAT THEY WERE 
SAYING I WAS TOLD TO STAND STRAIGHT, FACE FORWARD AND SPREAD MY PUSSY. I
COULD NOT BELIEVE MY SHAME BUT OBEYED THE ORDER. MRS. WINSTON MADE ME SPREAD MY 
LEGS SO WIDE IT FELT AS IF THE TENDONS IN MY THIGHS WOULD TEAR. NEXT I WAS 
ORDERED TO GRASP MY LOWER LIPS AND SPREAD THEM AS WIDE AS POSSIBLE. I WAS THEN 
TOLD TO INSERT A FINGER INSIDE MYSELF. AGAIN I OBEYED. THE DEMANDS INCREASED. I 
WAS NOW TOLD TO FORCE 4 FINGERS INTO MYSELF. WHEN THEY WERE SATISFIED WITH THE 
ATTEMPT I WAS TOLD TO STOP AND STAND STRAIGHT. MY HUMILIATION WAS REACHING NEW
HEIGHTS. MRS. WINSTON WAS DISAPPOINTED AT THE FACT I WAS UNABLE TO INSERT 4 
FINGERS BUT THE DR. QUICKLY REASSURED HER SHE WOULD REMEDY THE PROBLEM.
     THE MEMORIES WERE GETTING ME MORE UPSET BUT I COULD NOT STOP THEM. I HAD TO 
GO TO THE BATHROOM AND WANTED MORE TEA ANYWAY. I CHECKED THE TIME, 3 O'CLOCK, 
THE LIMO WOULD BE HERE AT 6, I HAD A COUPLE OF HOURS TO TRY AND REST. I WENT 
BACK TO THE BEDROOM AND LAID DOWN AGAIN. MY MIND WENT RIGHT BACK TO THE DRS. 
OFFICE. I WAS NOW TOLD TO REMOVE THE BRA. AFTER FUMBLING WITH THE HOOK I TOLD 
THEM I COULD NOT GET IT OFF BECAUSE IT WAS TOO TIGHT. GOLDIE CAME UP BEHIND ME 
AND ALSO STRUGGLED TO GET IT OFF. AS IT OPENED MY BREASTS SPRANG FREE AND I WAS 
ABLE TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH. NOW THEY BEGAN TO COMMENT ABOUT MY BREASTS. MRS. 
WINSTON WAS PLEASED WITH THEIR SIZE AND SHAPE AND ALL THE POSSIBILITIES THEY 
PRESENTED FOR TIT TORTURE. "WHAT'S THAT". I ASKED IN A SHAKY VOICE AND WAS TOLD 
I WOULD FIND OUT VERY SOON. I DID NOT KNOW THEN HOW SOON. THE DR. CAME UP TO ME 
AND TOOK 1 OF MY NIPPLES IN HER FINGERS STUDYING IT CLOSELY. SHE SEEMED
DISAPPOINTED AND EXPLAINED TO MRS. WINSTON HOW THE SMALL SIZE OF THE NIPPLE 
MIGHT LIMIT CERTAIN ACTIVITIES. MRS. WINSTON GOT UP FROM HER CHAIR AND CAME FOR 
A CLOSER LOOK. I FELT LIKE SOME LABORATORY SPECIMEN. THE 2 WOMEN WERE INSPECTING 
MY NIPPLES. THE DR. SUGGESTED WAITING A FEW MINUTES UNTIL I WAS ON THE TABLE. I 
WAS FEELING THE PANIC WELL IN MY STOMACH. NEXT THE DR. PICKED UP A CHART AND 
STARTED TO WRITE. SHE THEN BEGAN A SERIES OF QUESTIONS. I WAS ASKED MY MEDICAL 
HISTORY, THE HISTORY OF MY FAMILY, MY PRESENT HEALTH, ANY PREGNANCIES, ANY 
ABORTIONS. HER QUESTIONS GOT WORSE. I WAS ASKED ABOUT BIRTH CONTROL, PREVIOUS 
SEXUAL ACTIVITIES, DRUG USE, MY MENSTRUAL CYCLE AND EVEN THE LAST TIME I HAD SEX 
OR MASTURBATED. BEFORE SHE PUT DOWN THE CHART I WAS ASKED IF I KNEW MY EXACT
MEASURMENTS AND AS I REPLIED SHE PUT DOWN THE INFORMATION. NEXT IN A ROUGH VOICE 
SHE ORDERED ME ONTO THE TABLE. I REMEMBER HOW I HESITATED HOPING FOR SOMETHING 
TO HAPPEN. I KNEW ONCE I WAS SECURED TO THE TABLE I WOULD BE TOTALLY AT THEIR 
MERCY. THE DR. WAS GETTING IMPATIENT AND AGAIN IN A VOICE THAT SCARED ME ORDERED 
ME ON THE TABLE. I WAS PETRIFIED. WHAT WOULD SHE DO ONCE I WAS SECURED. SOME OF
THE COMMENTS I HAD HEARD WERE RUNNING THROUGH ME. WAS THIS TO BE MY FIRST 
TORTURE SESSION. WHY WAS THIS ROOM HERE. WHY WAS IT SOUND PROOF. WAS THE DR. A 
HEALER OR A SADIST. APPARENTLY SHE HAD DONE THIS BEFORE. HOW MANY WOMEN CAME 
BEFORE ME, AND WHAT BECAME OF THEM.
     NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED TO PUT ALL THESE THOUGHTS OUT OF MY HEAD I JUST 
COULD NOT. I CONSIDERED TAKING A VALIUM BUT WAS AFRAID OF THE REACTION LATER ON. 
THEY MIGHT BE UPSET IF I WAS NOT COMPLETELY ALERT. I DECIDED NOT TO DRINK ANY 
MORE TEA FOR FEAR I MIGHT HAVE TO USE THE BATHROOM DURING THE PARTY AS IT WAS 
CALLED. I THOUGHT PARTIES WERE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN, I KNEW THERE WOULD BE NONE 
FOR ME THIS NIGHT. I CONTINUED TO SIT IN THE DIM ROOM AND LIT ANOTHER CIGARETTE.
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED MY THOUGHTS WENT RIGHT BACK TO THAT FIRST MEETING 
WITH THE DR.
     I RECALLED HOW AFTER TELLING ME TO GET ON THE TABLE, AND ME BEING TOO 
AFRAID TO DO SO, THE DR. JUST REACHED FOR THE CATTLE PROD. IT MADE ME MOVE 
QUICKLY. I GOT UP ON THE TABLE AS FAST AS I COULD. I HAD STILL NOT FULLY 
RECOVERED FROM THE FIRST JOLT. NOW THE DR. SEEMED TO TAKE ON A DIFFERENT 
ATTITUDE. HER FACE TURNED CRUEL AND SHE HAD A STRANGE FIRE IN HER EYES AS SHE 
ADJUSTED MY BODY. MY LEGS WERE POSITIONED INTO THE STIRRUPS AND SECURED. GOLDIE 
HELPED BY SECURING MY ARMS TO STRAPS ON THE SIDE OF THE TABLE NEAR THE FLOOR. 
THIS POSITION PROVED PAINFUL ON MY SHOULDERS BUT SERVED TO MAKE MY BREASTS
VERY PROMINENT. NEXT STRAPS WERE BROUGHT OVER MY HIPS AND ACROSS MY RIB CAGE AND 
TIGHTENED. I TRIED TO MOVE BUT COULD NOT. I REMEMBER FEELING TOTALLY HELPLESS, 
BUT THEY WERE NOT DONE. THE DR. CAME UP TO THE TOP OF THE TABLE AND FASTENED 
ANOTHER STRAP ACROSS MY FOREHEAD. I WAS NOW COMPLETELY DEPRIVED OF ANY MOVEMENT 
AND TOTALLY OPEN AND VULNERABLE. THE ONLY FREEDOM I HAD WAS THAT OF SPEECH. 
THROUGH THE SOBS I BEGGED THEM TO STOP THIS AND NOT HURT ME. MY REPLY WAS
LAUGHTER FROM THE THREE WOMEN. MRS. WINSTON CAME UP NEXT TO ME AND TOLD ME ONE 
OF THE REASONS FOR ME BEING THERE WAS TO FEEL PAIN. SHE EXPLAINED HOW ASIDE FROM 
IT BEING NECESSARY TO CHECK MY PHYSICAL CONDITION, THEY WOULD TAKE THIS 
OPPORTUNITY TO INTRODUCE ME TO THEIR WORLD. THE WORLD OF SADISM DIRECTED AT A 
HELPLESS FEMALE. SHE CONTINUED BY SAYING HOW THE THREE OF THEM AND MANY OTHERS 
FOUND THE GREATEST PLEASURE IN HEARING THE SCREAMS AND WATCHING THE REACTIONS
OF THEIR VICTIMS. IT WAS NOW MY TURN TO GIVE THEM WHAT THEY DESIRED.
     THE MEMORY OF WHAT HAPPENED NEXT WILL STAY WITH ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. 
THEY ALL STOOD AROUND ME AND BEGAN TO UNDRESS. ALTHOUGH MY FIELD OF VISION WAS 
LIMITED I WATCHED AS THEY STRIPPED DOWN TO THEIR UNDERWEAR. THE SPECTACLE WAS 
INDEED BIZARRE. EVEN WHAT THEY WORE WAS UNUSUAL. MRS. WINSTON WAS WEARING ALMOST 
THE SAME THINGS I WAS. BLACK PUSH UP BRA, BLACK WAIST CINCHER WITH LONG GARTERS 
AND BLACK STOCKINGS. I REMEMBER THINKING THAT FOR AN OLDER WOMAN SHE STILL HAD A 
VERY GOOD BODY. THE DR. WAS DRESSED IN A BLACK HALF CUP CORSET THAT LEFT MOST OF 
HER SMALL BREASTS EXPOSED AND ENDED JUST BELOW HER WAIST. ATTACHED AT THE BOTTOM 
WERE LONG GARTERS WHICH FRAMED HER EXPOSED PUSSY WHICH WAS FREE OF ANY HAIR AS 
WAS MRS. WINSTONS. MY EYES WENT TO GOLDIE. THIS WAS THE MOST SHOCKING OF ALL.
SHE WAS WEARING A FLESH TONE GIRDLE WHICH WAS IN TOTAL CONTRAST TO HER EBONY 
SKIN. THE GIRDLE STARTED JUST BELOW HER MASSIVE BREASTS AND STOPPED AT THE TOP 
OF A HUGE PUBIC MOUND. IN A FAST GLANCE I WAS ABLE TO SEE HOW HEAVY AND WELL 
CONSTRUCTED THIS GARMENT WAS. I HAD NEVER SEEN A BLACK WOMAN NUDE BEFORE AND WAS 
SHOCKED BY HER BREASTS. THEY HAD TO BE AT LEAST A 48-D AND HUNG WELL OVER THE 
TOP OF THE GIRDLE. THE NIPPLES WERE JET BLACK AND THE SIZE OF SAUCERS. HER PUSSY 
WAS COVERED BY A THICK MASS OF LONG, CURLY BLACK HAIR. I REMEMBERED HOW AT THAT 
POINT I GAVE UP ALL HOPE. I WAS SURROUNDED BY THREE DEMONS, I HAD ENTERED HELL 
ITSELF. NOW THEY WERE READY, MY TIME TO SUFFER WAS AT HAND.
     EVEN NOW SAFE IN MY ROOM THE HOURS THAT FOLLOWED STILL BRING ON A COLD 
SWEAT. THE DR. BEGAN AT MY MOUTH. SHE FORCED MY JAWS APART AND INSERTED A DEVISE 
THAT HELD THEM OPEN. SHE HAD A DENTISTS PICK AND CHECKED ALL MY TEETH. SHE WAS 
NOT GENTLE AND MADE THE EXAMINATION UNCOMFORTABLE BUT BEARABLE. THEN SHE OPENED 
THE CLAMP A LITTLE WIDER AND BEGAN TO EXAMINE MY THROAT WITH A TONGUE DEPRESSOR. 
IT WAS INSERTED DEEP AND I GAGGED. NEXT SHE INSERTED A VIBRATOR INTO MY  MOUTH 
WHICH WAS IN THE SHAPE OF A PENIS. IT MEASURED ABOUT 1 1/2 INCHES IN DIAMETER 
AND AT LEAST 8 INCHES IN LENGTH. IT WAS FORCED DEEPLY INTO MY THROAT. I 
IMMEDIATELY BEGAN TO CHOKE AND GAG. THE DR. KEPT MANEUVERING IT UNTIL I WAS SURE 
I WOULD PASS OUT. WITH MY HEAD SECURED AS IT WAS I COULD DO NOTHING TO FIGHT THE 
THRUSTS OF THE OBJECT. IT WAS WITHDRAWN JUST AS MY VISION TURNED BLACK. FROM
SOMEWHERE UNDER THE TABLE THE DR. PRODUCED AN OXYGEN MASK AND I WAS QUICKLY 
REVIVED. THE CLAMP WAS REMOVED AND SHE MADE AN ENTRY ON THE CHART. SHE INFORMED 
MRS. WINSTON  THAT I HAD VERY LARGE TONSILS AND COULD ONLY ACCEPT SMALL TUBING, 
BUT WOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH ORAL SEX. I REMEMBERED TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT 
SHE MEANT BY TUBING, BUT MY THOUGHTS WERE INTERRUPTED. NEXT MY BLOOD PRESSURE 
WAS TAKEN AND PUTTING ON A STETHOSCOPE SHE CHECKED MY HEART RATE, MORE ENTRIES. 
SHE THEN MOVED TO MY BREASTS. HER FINGERS KNEADED THE SENSITIVE FLESH,
CHECKING FOR ANY LUMPS. THIS SHE DID IN SUCH A MANNER AS TO BRING TEARS TO MY 
EYES AND A MOAN TO MY LIPS. MRS. WINSTON CAME TO THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE TABLE 
TO GET A BETTER VIEW. AS THEY HAD DONE EARLIER THEY BEGAN TO DISCUSS THE BREASTS 
AS IF THEY WERE NOT PART OF A LIVING PERSON. THE DR. ASSURED MRS. WINSTON THAT 
ALTHOUGH THE NIPPLES WERE SMALL THEY WOULD TAKE A LOT OF ABUSE. THE DR. DIRECTED
MRS. WINSTON TO FEEL THE CONSISTENCY OF THE BREASTS. SHE DID, SQUEEZING EVEN 
HARDER THAN THE DR. HAD, CAUSING ME TO MOAN LOUDER. THEY PAID NO ATTENTION TO MY 
PROTESTS. THE DR. WENT ON TO EXPLAIN HOW THE NEEDLES COULD BE USED FREQUENTLY 
WITH NO PROBLEMS, EVEN INTO THE NIPPLES THEMSELVES. MRS. WINSTON THEM ASKED IF 
THE SYRINGES COULD ALSO BE USED. AFTER MORE PAINFUL MANIPULATION OF MY BREASTS 
THE DR. GAVE HER THE ANSWER. SHE SAID I WOULD BE ABLE TO TAKE ABOUT A PINT IN
EACH TIT, AND THEY WOULD EVEN BE ABLE TO USE THE OXYGEN ON ME. ALL I COULD DO 
WAS LAY THERE AND WONDER WHAT THE HELL THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT. THE DR. ALSO 
POINTED OUT THE EFFECTIVENESS OF THE RUBBER HOSES. BECAUSE I HAD LARGE BREASTS 
THEY COULD BE USED OFTEN WITH GOOD RESULTS. COULD THEY BE REFERRING TO THE 
TREATMENT I HAD SEEN DONE TO THE SPANISH WOMAN ON THE TAPE. I WAS NOW CRYING 
UNCONTROLLABLY. SHE WENT ON TO TELL THE OTHERS HOW THE COMPRESSION RINGS AND THE 
PRESS SHOULD BRING EXCELLENT RESULTS, BUT CAUTIONED AS TO THE USE OF THE CANES 
OR SUSPENSION. WHAT DID THESE THINGS MEAN. I COULD ONLY IMAGINE THEY WERE SOME 
WAY TO TORTURE THE BREASTS I HAD BEEN SO PROUD OF. MRS. WINSTON NEXT ASKED THE 
DR. IF SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO HAVE A FEW PUNISHMENT BRAS MADE, AND WAS ASSURED IT 
WOULD BE TAKEN CARE OF.
     HAVING HAD ENOUGH OF MY BREASTS FOR NOW THE SMALL GROUP MOVED TO THE FOOT 
OF THE TABLE. THE STIRRUPS WERE OPENED TO THEIR MAXIMUM WIDTH. BY DOING SO IT 
OPENED ME FULLY, AND GAVE THEM A PERFECT VIEW OF MY MOST PRIVATE PARTS. I WAS 
ABLE TO SEE THE DR. PUT ON A RUBBER GLOVE AND APPLY LUBRICANT. SHE DISAPPEARED 
FROM MY LIMITED FIELD OF VISION BUT I IMMEDIATELY FELT HER HAND FORCING ITS WAY 
INSIDE ME. THE PAIN WAS EXTREME AND I WAS SURE SHE WOULD RIP THE OPENING OF MY 
PUSSY BUT SHE FINALLY GOT HER WHOLE HAND INTO ME. I LET OUT A LOUD GASP AND
AGAIN BEGAN TO CRY OPENLY. SHE WAS HURTING ME BADLY. I HAD NEVER HAD ANYONES 
HAND IN ME BEFORE. I BEGAN TO FEEL HER FINGERS PROBING AND FEELING AROUND INSIDE 
ME. MY BODY AUTOMATICALLY STARTED TO STRETCH AND THE PAIN BEGAN TO SUBSIDE. SHE 
CONTINUED THE INTERNAL EXAM. ALL OF A SUDDEN I FELT A SEARING PAIN AND LET OUT A 
SERIES OF LOUD SCREAMS. SHE WAS FORCING A FINGER INTO MY UTERUS. THE SCREAMING 
WENT ON AS I TRIED TO TEAR FREE OF MY BONDS. THIS TIME I DID PASS OUT. I WAS 
REVIVED AND THE HAND WAS NO LONGER INSIDE ME. GOLDIE STOOD ABOVE ME WITH THE 
SMELLING SALTS STILL IN HER HAND.
     THE DR. AND MRS. WINSTON WERE NEXT TO ME ENGAGED IN A CONVERSATION. THE DR. 
WAS EXPLAINING THE FACT THAT ALTHOUGH I HAD A SMALL FRAME, THEY WOULD HAVE NO 
PROBLEM FISTING ME OR FORCING LARGE OBJECTS INTO ME. SHE WENT ON EXPLAINING HOW 
SHE NEEDED SMEARS FOR TESTING AND WOULD NEED TO DILATE MY UTERUS IN ORDER TO 
INSERT A PROBE. SHE SARCASTICALLY ADDED "WAIT TILL I GIVE HER THAT INJECTION,
THEN YOU'LL HEAR HER SCREAM". SHE THEN WALKED OVER TO A CABINET BUT I COULD NOT 
SEE WHAT SEE WAS DOING. I REMEMBERED HOW I BEGGED MRS. WINSTON TO PLEASE MAKE 
HER STOP. DO NOT LET HER HURT ME ANYMORE. I HAVE BEEN HURT ENOUGH ALREADY. I 
ALSO REMEMBER HER REPLY, WE HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED, SHE SAID.
     THE DR. RETURNED TO THE TABLE. SHE EXPLAINED TO THE OTHER WOMAN HOW UNDER 
NORMAL CONDITIONS SHE WOULD SPRAY THE AREA TO BE INJECTED WITH NITROUS OXIDE. 
THAT, SHE CONTINUED TO SAY WOULD FREEZE THE AREA AND THE NEEDLE WOULD NOT BE 
FELT. SHE LOOKED DIRECTLY INTO MY EYES AS SHE COMPLETED THE STATEMENT BY SAYING, 
BUT I LOVE TO DO IT THIS WAY, THE PAIN IT CAUSES IS EXCRUCIATING. SHE THEN MOVED 
BACK TO THE END OF THE TABLE AND STARTED WORKING BETWEEN MY LEGS. I THEN FELT 
THE COLD STEEL OF THE SPREADER CLAMP INSERTED INTO ME. OTHER DRS. HAVE USED
THESE ON ME BEFORE WITH LITTLE OR NO DISCOMFORT. NOW THE SADISTIC NATURE OF THIS 
WOMAN REALLY BECAME EVIDENT. SHE USED NO LUBRICANT AND JUST PUSHED UNTIL IT WAS 
IN PLACE, THEN OPENED IT AS WIDE AS POSSIBLE AS QUICKLY AS SHE COULD. I THOUGHT 
THE DELICATE AREA HAD BEEN TORN FOR SURE. MY TEARS FLOWED FREELY AS MUCH FROM 
FEAR AS FROM THE PAIN. SHE WAS BECOMING MORE CRUEL BY THE MINUTE. SHE CAME UP 
NEAR MY FACE AND HELD UP THE SYRINGE SHE HAD PREPARED. I STARTED SCREAMING 
THROUGH THE TEARS. IT WAS THE LARGEST NEEDLE I HAD EVER SEEN. THE SHAFT WAS AT 
LEAST 6 INCHES LONG, BUT THE THICKNESS WAS WHAT MADE ME PANIC. IT WAS AS THICK 
AS A KNITTING NEEDLE. I REMEMBER HOW BETWEEN THE SCREAMS I BEGGED HER NOT TO USE 
THAT ON ME. SHE JUST GLARED DOWN AT ME AND SAID THAT I WOULD GET TO KNOW IT 
WELL, BECAUSE THIS WAS THE ONE THAT WOULD BE USED ON ME MOST OF THE TIME. SHE 
WENT BACK TO THE END OF THE TABLE WERE MRS. WINSTON WAS WAITING. LOOKING DOWN AT 
ME SHE TOLD GOLDIE TO CHECK THE STRAPS BECAUSE THIS WOULD CAUSE A VIOLENT
REACTION. AS GOLDIE CHECKED ALL THE RESTRAINTS I JUST SCREAMED AND BEGGED, TO NO 
AVAIL. IT WAS BY FAR THE MOST EXCRUCIATING PAIN I HAD FELT TO THAT POINT IN MY 
LIFE. SHE PLUNGED THE SYRINGE DEEP INTO MY WOMB. THE PAIN WAS SO TERRIBLE I 
COULD NOT EVEN SCREAM. I THRASHED ABOUT IN MY BONDS AS MUCH AS I COULD. IT FELT 
AS IF THERE WAS A RED HOT POKER BURNING DEEP IN MY STOMACH. EVERY NERVE IN MY 
BODY WAS ON FIRE. THE PAIN WAS SO INTENSE, MY EYES MUST HAVE ROLLED IN THEIR
SOCKETS BECAUSE EVERYTHING TURNED BLACK. FINALLY THE SYRINGE WAS WITHDRAWN AND I 
BEGAN TO SCREAM. I REMEMBER HOW IT FELT AS IF I SCREAMED FOR HOURS UNTIL I COULD 
SCREAM NO MORE. I JUST LAID THERE AND SOBBED UNCONTROLLABLY. THE PAIN IN MY 
STOMACH WAS STILL VERY INTENSE BUT NOT AS BAD AS WHEN THE NEEDLE WAS BEING 
TWISTED AROUND IN MY WOMB. MY VISION RETURNED TO NORMAL AND I WAS GREETED BY THE 
THREE WOMEN STUDYING ME WITH THEIR LOOKS OF AMUSEMENT. FINALLY THE DR. ANNOUNCED 
THAT I HAD COME THROUGH THIS FIRST TORTURE BETTER THAN EXPECTED. SHE INFORMED 
MRS. WINSTON THAT SHE WAS PLEASANTLY SURPRISED AND FELT I WAS STRONG ENOUGH TO 
ENDURE MANY MORE SESSIONS. AFTER THEY HAD A FEW MINUTES OF CONSULTATION THE DR. 
SAID I WAS READY FOR THE NEXT PROCEDURE. NOT EVEN KNOWING WHAT WAS TO BE DONE 
NEXT I BEGAN TO SCREAM AND BEG FOR RELEASE. I WAS INFORMED THAT THE NEXT 
PROCEDURE WOULD BE ALMOST PAIN FREE. SEE STRESSED THE WORD ALMOST. I WAS TOLD
SHE HAD TO TAKE SOME SMEARS IN ORDER TO CHECK FOR DISEASE. AS SOON AS SHE 
ASSUMED HER POSITION BETWEEN MY LEGS I STARTED TO BEG HER NOT TO HURT ME AGAIN. 
SHE HELD UP A COTTON SWAB AND TOLD ME TO RELAX. THIS PART OF THE EXAM WAS DONE 
WITHOUT CAUSING ME ANY UNDO DISCOMFORT. NEXT SHE WENT TO THE CABINETS AND WAS 
BUSY THERE FOR A FEW SECONDS. SHE AGAIN CAME UP NEXT TO ME AND SAID SHE WAS 
READY TO TAKE THE NEXT SMEAR. SHE LOOKED OVER AT THE OTHER 2 WOMEN AND WITH A 
SMIRK ON HER FACE TOLD ME THAT UNFORTUNATELY THIS ONE MIGHT HURT AS SHE BROKE 
INTO FULL LAUGHTER. SHE HELD AN INSTRUMENT UP FOR ME TO SEE THAT LOOKED MUCH 
LIKE AN ARROW. WHEN I ASKED NERVOUSLY WHAT IT WAS I WAS TOLD IT WOULD BE PUT 
INTO MY UTERUS TO GET A TISSUE SAMPLE. SHE WENT ON TO FURTHER TORMENT ME BY 
SAYING IT WOULD PROBABLY HURT, BUT NOT NEARLY AS MUCH AS IT WOULD HAVE IF SHE 
HAD NOT GIVEN ME THE INJECTION TO DILATE ME. AGAIN SHE TOOK THE FAMILIAR 
POSITION BETWEEN MY LEGS. AND AGAIN I STARTED TO PLEAD WITH THEN NOT TO HURT ME 
THIS WAY. I TRIED TO TELL MRS. WINSTON THAT THIS WAS MORE THAN I HAD EXPECTED 
AND WAS NOT IN OUR DEAL. SHE SARCASTICALLY ASKED ME WHAT I HAD EXPECTED.
BETWEEN MY SOBS AND GASPS I SAID I THOUGHT I WOULD BE TIED UP AND WHIPPED, USED 
FOR SEX AND THINGS LIKE THAT. SHE ANSWERED BY TELLING ME I WAS VERY STUPID AND 
SHOULD HAVE PAID MORE ATTENTION TO WHAT SHE AND HER HUSBAND HAD EXPLAINED TO ME. 
JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO ANSWER, MY WORDS WERE CUT OFF BY THE STABBING PAIN OF THE 
PROBE BEING FORCED INTO ME. I EXPERIENCED ALL THE SAME SENSATIONS I HAD WHEN THE 
NEEDLE WAS INSERTED. THE PAIN WAS SEVERE, AGAIN THE SCREAMING WAS
UNCONTROLLABLE. MY THROAT WAS GETTING SORE AND MY EYES WERE BEGINNING TO SWELL 
FROM THE CONSTANT SCREAMING AND CRYING. THE DR. SAW BY MY REACTIONS THAT THE 
PAIN WAS DIMINISHING BUT SHE DECIDED I DID NOT AS YET HAVE ENOUGH. SHE BEGAN TO 
MOVE THE PROBE WHICH WAS DEEP INSIDE ME. THIS BROUGHT ANOTHER ROUND OF SCREAMS 
TO MY PARCHED LIPS. BETWEEN THE FLASHES OF PAIN I WAS SURPRISED TO HEAR MRS. 
WINSTON TELL THE DR. TO STOP. SHE DID SO IMMEDIATELY. AGAIN THE PAIN STOPPED. 
WITH THE PROBE STILL BURIED DEEP IN ME, THE DR. GOT UP FROM HER POSITION AS
TORTURESS. I WAS GLAD TO HEAR MRS. WINSTON SAY THAT SHE THOUGHT I HAD
ENOUGH OF THIS FORM OF PUSSY TORTURE AS SHE CALLED IT. BUT I WAS HORRIFIED WHEN 
SHE WENT ON TO SAY SHE WANTED TO TRY SOME OTHER THINGS AND DID NOT WANT TO BURN 
ME OUT. THE DR. HAPPILY AGREED AND SAID SHE WAS NOT SURE HOW FAR TO GO ON MY 
FIRST SESSION. MRS. WINSTON SAID SHE WANTED TO TRY SOME OTHER AREAS. THE DR. 
SAID SHE WOULD REMOVE THE PROBE BUT REMINDED MRS. WINSTON SHE HAD NOT DONE THE 
ANAL EXAM AS YET. HER WORDS SENT A SHOCK WAVE THROUGH ME. THEY INTENDED TO CAUSE
ME MORE PAIN. THE DR BEGAN TO REMOVE THE PROBE, THE PAIN WAS NOT AS BAD AS WHEN 
IT WAS INSERTED BUT STILL HURT VERY BADLY.
     THE HOURS WERE DRAGGING AS I STAYED IN MY BED. MY MIND WAS GETTING THE BEST 
OF ME. I HAD THESE SAME THOUGHTS HUNDREDS OF TIMES SINCE BECOMING A SLAVE. I 
SOMETIMES WONDERED IF THE MEMORIES OF WHAT HAD BEEN DONE AND THE KNOWLEDGE OF 
WHAT WAS TO COME WERE NOT JUST AS BAD AS THE ACTUAL EXPERIENCE. THE MIND IS A 
FUNNY THING, IT CAN CAUSE AS MUCH PAIN AS THE TORTURE ITSELF. I THOUGHT OF JOHN, 
IT WAS TERRIBLE THE WAY I WAS TREATING HIM. EVEN THOUGH HE WAS MARRIED TO
ANOTHER, HE TREATED ME VERY WELL AND I LOVED HIM VERY MUCH. AS MANY TIMES AS I 
THOUGHT OF TELLING HIM I KNEW I COULD NOT. MY MAIN FEAR WAS WHAT HE MIGHT DO TO 
THE WINSTONS. ALTHOUGH I HAD AN INTENSE HATRED FOR THEM, I DID NOT WISH THEM 
DEAD. WHAT IF HE WAS CAUGHT, THEN I WOULD HAVE NO ONE. I HAD CREATED THIS 
PROBLEM AND WOULD HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. BUT AT WHAT PRICE. I STILL HAD TIME 
BEFORE I HAD TO GET READY, AND AGAIN FOUND MY THOUGHTS WANDERING TO THAT FIRST 
TIME AT THE DRS.
     I REMEMBER HOW I JUST REMAINED TIED TO THE TABLE AS THE THREE WOMEN SIPPED 
CHAMPAGNE AND DISCUSSED WHAT WAS TO BE DONE NEXT. THE STRESS OF WHAT THEY DID TO 
ME WAS TAKING ITS TOLL. I WAS TIRED, STILL IN SOME PAIN AND HAD TO USE THE 
BATHROOM. I WAS AFRAID TO SPEAK, BUT THE NEED TO RELIEVE MYSELF WAS BECOMING 
INTENSE. FINALLY I CALLED TO THE THREESOME AND ASKED IF I COULD BE ALLOWED TO GO 
TO THE BATHROOM. GOLDIE CAME UP NEXT TO ME AND ASKED ME FOR WHAT. I TOLD HER AND 
SHE WENT BACK TO THE OTHER WOMEN. AFTER SOME SPIRITED CONVERSATION THEY
CAME TO ME. THE DR. SEEMED VERY PLEASED AND INSTRUCTED GOLDIE TO GET HER A # 2 
CATHETER. I HAD NO IDEA WHAT SHE HAD REQUESTED BUT BY THE LOOKS ON HER AND MRS. 
WINSTONS FACES I KNEW I WOULD NOT LIKE IT. GOLDIE HANDED THE DR. A PACKAGE WHICH 
WAS QUICKLY OPENED. A ROLL OF PLASTIC TUBING WAS HELD UP TO MY FACE AND I WAS 
ASKED IF I KNEW WHAT IT WAS.I REMEMBER FEARFULLY REPLYING THAT I DID NOT. THE 
DR. SMILED AT ME AND TOLD ME IT COULD BE USED TO LET ME RELIEVE MYSELF WITHOUT
GETTING OFF THE TABLE. THE LOOKS OF THE WOMEN TOLD ME THERE WAS MORE TO THIS. I 
DID NOT UNDERSTAND HOW THIS COULD WORK AND JUST ASKED IF I COULD BE RELEASED. 
MRS. WINSTON, WITH A BROAD SMILE ON HER FACE SAID IF THEY DID THAT IT WOULD RUIN 
THEIR FUN. I REALIZED I WOULD AGAIN BE MADE TO SUFFER. I WAS RIGHT. THE DR. 
AGAIN TOOK UP HER POSITION AS TORTURESS AND I IMMEDIATELY FELT HER HANDS WORKING 
INSIDE ME. ALL OF A SUDDEN I FELT SOMETHING BEING PUSHED INTO ME. IT STARTED AS 
MORE OF A BURNING SENSATION THAN PAIN. I DEMANDED TO KNOW WHAT SHE WAS DOING TO 
ME. SHE REPLIED BY SAYING THAT A TUBE WAS BEING INSERTED UP INTO ME AND WOULD 
ULTIMATELY DRAIN MY BLADDER. THE BURNING WAS GETTING WORSE AND I WAS BEGINNING 
TO MOAN AS MUCH FROM FEAR AS FROM THE PAIN THAT WAS STARTING. AS THE DR. KEPT 
PUSHING, THE PAIN WAS INCREASING. IT WAS NOT AS BAD AS WHAT SHE HAD DONE 
ALREADY, THAT WAS A SHARP BLINDING PAIN, THIS WAS DIFFERENT. THE PAIN WAS SLOWLY 
INCREASING UNTIL AGAIN I WAS CRYING AND SCREAMING. MRS. WINSTON JUST KEPT
WATCHING ME WITH A JOYOUS LOOK ON HER FACE. AS I FELT A STABBING PAIN AND LET 
OUT A LONG LOUD SCREAM THE DR. STOOD UP AND ANNOUNCED IT WAS HOME. THE NEED TO 
URINATE WAS NOW STRONGER THAN EVER, THE ADDED PRESSURE MADE MY KIDNEY FEEL AS IF 
IT WOULD BURST. GOLDIE WAS TOLD TO GET A CANISTER. THE DR. WAS HOLDING THE END 
OF THE TUBE IN THE AIR AS SHE TOLD ME AS SOON AS SHE RELEASED THE CLAMP I WOULD 
FEEL RELIEF. I BEGGED HER TO DO SO AND ASKED HER WHY SHE WAS DOING THIS TO ME. 
SHE JUST SAID BECAUSE SHE ENJOYED INFLICTING PAIN AND LOVED THE SCREAMS IT 
BROUGHT. I THEN ASKED AS A WOMAN, HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ANOTHER WOMAN. SHE 
SMILED DOWN AT ME AND REPLIED THAT ALTHOUGH SHE HAD NO USE FOR MEN, SHE HATED 
YOUNG BEAUTIFUL WOMEN. SHE WENT ON TO EXPLAIN HOW AS A DR. WHO SPECIALIZED IN 
WOMEN SHE KNEW HOW TO CAUSE THE MOST PAIN. I THEN KNEW THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD 
SAY THAT WOULD HELP ME. SHE LOWERED THE TUBE INTO THE CANISTER AND RELEASED THE 
CLAMP. AS PROMISED RELIEF WAS INSTANT. I HAD NO CONTROL OVER THE FLOW BUT IN A
MINUTE FELT I WAS EMPTY. FROM THE CORNER OF MY EYE I SAW THE DR. AT THE CABINET 
AGAIN. I WAS GETTING SCARED, EVERY TIME SHE WENT TO THE CABINET I WOULD FEEL 
PAIN. SHE RETURNED AND SHOWED ME A LARGE PLASTIC SYRINGE. SHE EXPLAINED HOW THE 
TUBE COULD BE USED TO LET FLUID OUT, OR PUT IT BACK IN. I REALIZED IMMEDIATELY 
WHAT SHE MEANT. AS BEFORE I STARTED TO BEG. TO MAKE THE PROCEDURE WORSE SHE PUT 
THE END OF THE TUBE ON MY STOMACH AND BEGAN ATTACHING THE SYRINGE SO I WOULD BE 
ABLE TO WATCH. SHE THEN STARTED TO PUSH THE PLUNGER. I FELT WHAT I FIRST
THOUGHT WAS HOT TURN TO AN ICY CHILL, THEY WERE PUTTING ICE WATER INTO ME. THE 
PRESSURE WAS INCREASING IN AN UNNATURAL WAY. SHE HAD PUT IN MORE THAN SHE LET 
OUT AND THE PLUNGER WAS ONLY HALF WAY DOWN. AS BEFORE THE MOANS TURNED INTO GUT 
RETCHING SCREAMS. FINALLY THE SYRINGE WAS EMPTY AND THE CLAMP WAS REAPPLIED. THE 
WOMEN AGAIN GATHERED AROUND ME. MRS. WINSTON SPOKE FIRST. WITH A GRIN ON HER 
FACE SHE TOLD ME I WAS DOING BETTER THAN SHE EXPECTED. SHE ADDED THAT IF I
REMAINED QUIET FOR 5 MINUTES THE CLAMP WOULD BE RELEASED. I DID NOT KNOW IT THEN 
BUT TRYING TO REMAIN QUIET WHEN IN SO MUCH PAIN ONLY MADE THE PAIN MORE INTENSE. 
I LEARNED THAT THE ABILITY TO CRY AND SCREAM TAKES YOUR MIND OFF THE PAIN. AS I 
LAID ON THE TABLE TRYING NOT TO MAKE A SOUND MY MIND HAD NOTHING BUT THE PAIN ON 
WHICH TO FOCUS. I CLOSED MY EYES, WAS BITING MY LIP AND EVEN DIGGING MY NAILS
INTO THE PALMS OF MY HANDS. I FELT THE SCREAM WELLING UP IN MY THROAT BUT FOUGHT 
WITH ALL MY BEING NOT TO LET IT OUT. JUST AS MY MOUTH OPENED TO LET THE SCREAM 
ESCAPE, THE CLAMP WAS RELEASED. AFTER SEVERAL MINUTES I REGAINED MY COMPOSURE 
AND WAS CONGRATULATED BY MRS. WINSTON. SHE TOLD ME I HAD DONE WELL AND SHOWED 
GREAT ENDURANCE, SOMEHOW I KNEW THIS WOULD WORK AGAINST ME IN THE FUTURE. THEY 
WERE REMOVING THE TUBE AS I HEARD MRS. WINSTON SAY THAT THEY WOULD HAVE TO
REMEMBER THIS PROCEDURE AND USE IT MORE OFTEN. MY THOUGHTS WERE INTERRUPTED BY 
THE FEELING OF THE SPREADER CLAMP BEING CLOSED AND REMOVED FROM MY PUSSY. I 
SILENTLY PRAYED THEY WERE DONE WITH ME. THE THREE WOMEN AGAIN CAME UP NEAR MY 
FACE AND THE DR. SPOKE. SHE TOLD ME THEY WERE ALMOST DONE WITH THE EXAM, MY 
HEART SANK. SHE WENT ON TO EXPLAIN THAT MY ANAL OPENING HAD TO BE CHECKED, AND A 
SMEAR TAKEN. THE PAST HOUR TAUGHT ME TO FEAR HER WORDS, BUT I HAD NO CHOICE 
OTHER THAN LAY THERE AND SUBMIT. THE DR. ADJUSTED THE STIRRUPS, THEY WERE
RAISED AND BROUGHT TOWARDS MY HEAD. THIS CAUSED MY ASS TO ROLL UP AND PROVIDE 
EASIER ACCESS. THE SPREADERS WERE USED AGAIN. I TRIED TO TIGHTEN THE MUSCLES BUT 
AS BEFORE SHE JUST PUSHED UNTIL THEY WERE IN PLACE. THIS HURT AND I MOANED IN 
PROTEST. SHE BEGAN TO OPEN THEM BUT WAS MORE GENTLE THAN SHE HAD BEEN ON MY 
PUSSY. IT WAS EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE BUT TOLERABLE. I FELT HER FINGER BEING 
INSERTED AND FEELING AROUND, BUT AGAIN IT DID NOT CAUSE ANY REAL PAIN. SHE ASKED
GOLDIE FOR A SWAB AND I FELT IT REACH DEEP INTO ME. THE SWAB AND THE CLAMP WERE 
REMOVED. WAS IT OVER I THOUGHT. THE DR. MADE MORE ENTRIES IN THE CHART AND TOLD 
MRS. WINSTON EVERYTHING SEEMED IN ORDER. SHE WENT TO SAY IN HER OPINION I WOULD 
HAVE NO TROUBLE WITH ANAL PENETRATION, AND COULD TAKE LONG, LARGE OBJECTS. AS 
MUCH AS I DID NOT WANT TO HEAR WHAT THEY WERE SAYING, I WAS RELIEVED, THINKING 
THE EXAM WAS OVER. I DID NOT KNOW THEN THAT THEIR FUN WAS ABOUT TO START.
     THEY RETIRED TO A CORNER OF THE ROOM AND SIPPED MORE CHAMPAGNE. THEIR 
VOICES WERE MUTED, BUT I COULD TELL THEY WERE IN HEATED CONVERSATION. FINALLY 
THEY RETURNED TO ME. I ASKED IF I COULD BE RELEASED SINCE THE EXAMINATION WAS 
OVER. AGAIN THAT FAMILIAR SMIRK CAME TO THE 3 FACES. MRS. WINSTON ANSWERED BY 
SAYING THAT INDEED THE EXAM WAS ALMOST FINISHED BUT NOW WAS THE TIME FOR THEM TO 
INDULGE IN A FEW OF THEIR PERVERSIONS. ONCE AGAIN I WAS GRIPPED BY FEAR. THE DR.
CAME UP TO MY HEAD AND STARTED TO UNDO THE STRAP SAYING IT WAS NO LONGER 
NECESSARY AND WOULD GIVE ME THE OPPORTUNITY TO SEE WHAT THEY WERE DOING. THE 
STRAP WAS REMOVED AND I TURNED MY HEAD IN TIME TO SEE A TRULY BIZARRE SIGHT. 
GOLDIE WAS ON HER KNEES IN FRONT OF MRS. WINSTON, INSERTING A LARGE DOUBLE ENDED 
DILDO INTO HER GAPING PUSSY. SHE THEN FASTENED STRAPS AROUND MRS. WINSTONS WAIST 
THAT HELD IT IN PLACE. MRS WINSTON TURNED TO FACE ME AND AT FIRST GLANCE IT 
APPEARED AS IF SHE HAD GROWN A GIANT PENIS. IT HAD TO BE 12 INCHES IN LENGTH.
THE LOOK ON HER FACE COUPLED WITH WHAT THE DR. SAID ABOUT LONG, LARGE OBJECTS 
GAVE ME A FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM. I REMEMBER THINKING THAT SHE WAS ABOUT TO 
RAPE ME. AS SHE WALKED UP TO ME I ASKED IN A TREMBLING VOICE WHAT SHE WAS GOING 
TO DO. I RECALL HOW IN A LUSTY TONE SHE REPLIED THAT SHE WAS GOING TO FUCK ME IN 
THE ASS. I BEGAN TO PROTEST THAT IT WAS TOO BIG AND WOULD CAUSE DAMAGE. SHE 
ANSWERED I HAD BETTER GET USED TO IT AND WOULD NOT BE INJURED, JUST MADE TO
SCREAM. THE DR. CAME UP AND MERCIFULLY SPREAD LUBRICANT ON THE DILDO, AND WITH A 
HUGE GRIN SAID TO HURRY BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO PLAY TOO. MRS. WINSTON TOOK A 
POSITION BETWEEN MY WIDELY SPREAD LEGS AND I FELT THE DILDO BRUSH AGAINST MY 
MOST INTIMATE OPENING. I REMEMBER THE WAVES OF DISGUST THAT CAME OVER ME. HERE I 
WAS BOUND TO A TABLE TOTALLY EXPOSED ABOUT TO BE SODOMIZED BY A WOMAN WHILE 2 
OTHER WOMEN LOOKED ON. I JUST COMPLETED THE THOUGHT AS MRS. WINSTON GRABBED MY
THIGHS AND LUNGED FORWARD. THE SEARING PAIN AND THE SUDDEN THRUST INTO MY 
INTESTINE TOOK MY BREATH AWAY. SHE PULLED OUT AND LUNGED INTO ME AGAIN, THIS 
DROVE THE DILDO ALL THE WAY INTO ME AND CAUSED ME TO START SCREAMING AGAIN. I 
BEGGED HER TO STOP SAYING SHE WAS TEARING ME APART. SHE JUST FUCKED ME HARDER. 
SHE KEPT FUCKING, I KEPT SCREAMING. THE OTHER 2 KEPT LAUGHING AND MAKING LEWD 
COMMENTS. THIS CONTINUED FOR WHAT SEEMED AN ETERNITY UNTIL TO MY DISGUST AND 
DISBELIEF, SHE REACHED ORGASM. AFTER SEVERAL MORE THRUSTS SHE SLUMPED BETWEEN MY
WIDESPREAD THIGHS AND PULLED THE DILDO OUT OF ME. I FELT THE NEED TO VOMIT BUT 
WAS AFRAID OF THE PUNISHMENT IT WOULD BRING. MRS. WINSTON FINALLY STOOD UP AND 
SAID THE NEXT TIME WILL BE BETTER. SHE WOULD HAVE ME BENT OVER PROPERLY AND 
WOULD USE A BIGGER DILDO. I FELT THIS HAD TO BE THE ULTIMATE DEGRADATION. I HAD 
BEEN RAPED BY ANOTHER WOMAN WITH A RUBBER COCK. I TURNED MY HEAD AWAY, TOTALLY 
MORTIFIED. I DID NOT KNOW THEN THAT THIS WOULD BE THE FIRST OF A LONG LINE OF 
SEXUAL ASSAULTS ON MY DEFENSELESS BODY. I WOULD EVEN LEARN TO WELCOME THE
SEXUAL ABUSE, IT WAS BETTER THAN SOME DIABOLICAL TORTURE.                         
    I RECALL HOW NO SOONER WAS MRS. WINSTON THROUGH WITH ME, THE DR. CAME 
FORWARD. I WAS DISGUSTED BY THE PROSPECT OF BEING USED AS AN OBJECT FOR HER 
PERVERTED LUST. I WAS NOT TO BE THAT FORTUNATE. SHE RECEIVED HER SEXUAL 
GRATIFICATION BY ADMINISTERING PAIN. SHE STUDIED ME A LONG TIME. HER EYES ROAMED 
MY ENTIRE BODY AS IF LOOKING FOR A SPOT TO VIOLATE. SHE SEEMED TO MAKE UP HER 
MIND AND WENT INTO ACTION. THE TABLE WAS READJUSTED TO BRING MY LEGS DOWN AND MY 
THIGHS CLOSER TOGETHER. THE HEAD WAS BROUGHT UP SLIGHTLY AS IF I WERE RECLINING. 
MY ARMS WERE ALSO RETIED OVER MY HEAD AND BEHIND ME. ALTHOUGH I HAD
STRAPS ACROSS MY CHEST, MY BREASTS WERE THRUST FORWARD. SHE TOOK A STEP BACK AND 
FOCUSED DIRECTLY AT MY CHEST. I SHUDDERED AT WHAT I KNEW SHE WAS THINKING. IT 
WAS OBVIOUS SHE WAS PLANNING SOMETHING FOR MY BREASTS. SHE WALKED OVER TO THE 
CABINET AND TOOK OUT 2 LARGE VIALS. 1 WAS MARKED SALINE THE OTHER GLUCOSE. I HAD 
NO IDEA WHAT SHE WAS PREPARING TO DO. SHE THEN BEGAN OPENING PACKAGES OF 
DISPOSABLE SYRINGES. A WAVE OF PANIC SWEPT OVER ME. THE WRAPPING ON THE SYRINGES
READ 2 INCHES + 20 CC AND SHE WAS FILLING THEM FROM THE 2 VIALS. WHAT COULD ALL 
THESE NEEDLES HAVE TO DO WITH MY BREASTS. SOMETHING THAT WAS SAID EARLIER CAME 
TO MIND. I REMEMBERED WHILE DURING THE EXAMINATION OF MY BREASTS MRS. WINSTON 
ASKED THE DR. IF THE SYRINGES COULD BE USED. I IMMEDIATELY BEGAN SCREAMING AND 
BEGGING THE DR. NOT TO USE THOSE ON ME. I COULD NOT EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGINE THESE 
NEEDLES PUT INTO MY BOUND AND VULNERABLE BREASTS. THIS WOMAN WAS A DR., SHE HAD 
TO KNOW THE INJURIES SHE COULD CAUSE. MY MIND WAS IN A FRENZY. COULD WHAT SHE 
PLANNED TO DO BE FATAL. WHAT HAD BEEN DONE SO FAR, AS BAD AS IT HAD BEEN, DID 
NOT HAVE THE RAMIFICATIONS OF WHAT I FEARED WAS TO COME. AS I LOOKED BACK AT THE 
DR. SHE WAS BUSY PLACING THE LOADED SYRINGES INTO A GLASS CANISTER. SHE THEN 
PLACED THE CANISTER ON A BUNSON BURNER. WHY WAS SHE STERILIZING ALREADY STERILE 
NEEDLES. MY EMOTIONS WERE RUNNING WILD, ABSOLUTE TERROR, FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN,
SELF PITY AND ALSO ANGER FOR PUTTING MYSELF IN THIS POSITION.
     EVEN NOW SAFE IN MY APARTMENT, THOSE SAME EMOTIONS WERE CONSUMING ME. AS 
WAS THE CASE BACK THEN IN THE DRS. OFFICE I WAS IN A RECLINING POSITION FEARING 
MY FORTH COMING ORDEAL. AFTER SOME OF THE THINGS THAT WERE DONE TO ME THAT DAY, 
FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN HAD LESSENED. I NOW HAD SOME IDEA OF WHAT THESE PEOPLE WERE 
CAPABLE OF, BUT WAS ALSO SURE THERE WERE MANY SURPRISES IN STORE FOR ME. THE
TERROR WAS STILL A BIG FACTOR, I HAD NO IDEA HOW FAR THEY WOULD TAKE THEIR NEED 
TO INFLICT PAIN. A DAY DID NOT PASS WITHOUT FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF. I KNEW 
WHAT I HAD ALREADY ENDURED AND ALWAYS FEARED TO WHAT EXTREMES I WOULD BE 
SUBJECTED. AND LAST BUT FAR FROM LEAST THE REFLECTION ON MY OWN STUPIDITY. I 
CHECKED THE TIME AND FOUND IT WAS ONLY A FEW MINUTES LATER THAN IT HAD BEEN. 
TIME WAS ON THEIR SIDE. THE MORE TIME I HAD THE MORE PAIN MY MIND INFLICTED ON 
ME. I LIT ANOTHER CIGARETTE, INHALED DEEPLY AND TRIED TO RID MY MIND OF THE
MEMORIES. EVEN THIS COMFORT WOULD BE DENIED ME.
     AS IF MY MIND HAD A WILL OF ITS OWN, THE HORRIBLE MEMORIES OF DR. KIM'S 
OFFICE CONSUMED ME. WHILE THEY WERE WAITING FOR THE NEEDLES TO BE STERILIZED THE 
THREE WOMEN ONCE AGAIN SURROUNDED ME. I LOOKED AT MRS. WINSTON AND ASKED HER 
WHAT THEY WERE GOING TO DO TO ME. SHE WENT ON TO EXPLAIN HOW IN PAYMENT FOR THE 
DRS. SERVICES SHE WOULD BE ALLOWED TO AS SHE PUT IT INDULGE HERSELF. SHE SAID 
THAT ALTHOUGH THE DR. HAD A VERY SUCCESSFUL PRACTICE AND HAD MANY PATIENTS, SHE 
SELDOM HAD THE CHANCE TO USE HER REAL TALENTS. I WAS TOLD HOW MANY YEARS AGO
IN NORTH VIET NAM DR. KIM HAD A VERY DIFFERENT PROFESSION. SHE HAD BEEN IN 
CHARGE OF INTERROGATING FEMALE PRISONERS. SHE WENT ON TO TELL ME HOW SEVERAL 
YEARS AGO SHE AND MR. WINSTON HAD BEEN FORTUNATE ENOUGH TO MEET THE GOOD DR. AND 
BRING HER INTO THEIR LITTLE GROUP. I REMEMBERED HER REFERRING TO HER FRIENDS AS 
SHE CALLED THEM WHEN I HAD SIGNED THE CONTRACT TURNING ME INTO THEIR SLAVE. I 
HAD NOW MET 2 OF THEIR FRIENDS, THE DR. AND ON TAPE, THE WARDEN. A SILENTLY 
WONDERED WHAT OTHER DEVIATES SHE REFERRED TO AS FRIENDS. MY THOUGHTS WERE
INTERRUPTED BY MRS. WINSTONS VOICE. SHE WENT ON TELLING ME HOW THE DRS. SPECIAL 
TALENTS HAD BEEN HELPFUL TO THE GROUP IN THE PAST YEARS. SHE HAD HELPED THE 
WARDEN BY TEACHING HER VARIOUS METHODS OF DISCIPLINE AND PUNISHMENT. THE DR. WAS 
ALSO RESPONSIBLE FOR TRAINING THE SLAVES THAT BELONGED TO MEMBERS OF THE GROUP. 
SHE HAD ALSO PROVIDED COUNTLESS HOURS OF ENTERTAINMENT IN THE FORM OF ACTING AS
TORTURESS AT CERTAIN FUNCTIONS. AND LAST BUT MOST IMPORTANT SHE WAS RESPONSIBLE 
FOR THE PHYSICAL CONDITION OF THE VICTIMS AND SLAVES THEY USED. SHE HAD TO MAKE 
SURE THEY WERE IN GOOD HEALTH AND FREE OF ANY CONTAGIOUS DISEASES AND ALSO TREAT 
ANY INJURIES THAT MIGHT OCCUR. AS SHE SPOKE THE KNOT IN MY STOMACH WAS GROWING 
TIGHTER. MRS. WINSTON CALMLY AND SOMEWHAT SARCASTICALLY WENT ON TO TELL ME HOW 
THE DR. WAS GOING TO INJECT THE CONTENTS OF THE SYRINGES INTO MY BREASTS. SHE 
WAS CONFIRMING MY FEARS. I REMEMBER HOW AS I STARTED TO SHAKE, MY EYES
WANDERED DOWN TO THE BOSOM THEY PLANNED TO ASSAULT. AS I HAD DONE BEFORE I BEGAN 
TO BEG. APPEALING TO THEM AS HUMAN BEINGS I APOLOGIZED FOR WHAT I HAD DONE, I 
EVEN FOUND MYSELF PLEADING FOR A DIFFERENT FORM OF PUNISHMENT. I JUST COULD NOT 
BEAR THE THOUGHT OF THEM HURTING MY BREASTS. THE TERROR GREW WORSE AS I WATCHED 
THE DR. APPROACH WITH THE CANISTER OF SYRINGES. AS SHE SET IT DOWN ON A SMALL 
TRAY NEXT TO MY TABLE I SAW THE STEAM RISING FROM IT. ONE LOOK AT THE DOZEN OR 
SO NEEDLES CAUSED ME TO START SCREAMING AND TRYING TO PULL FREE OF THE STRAPS. 
AS IF A COMMAND WAS GIVEN BY THE DR., MRS. WINSTON AND GOLDIE MOVED TO THE SIDE. 
THE DR. WAS READY. I STOPPED SCREAMING IN TIME TO HEAR HER TELL THE 2 SPECTATORS 
THAT SHE WOULD TRY 5 OR 6 IN EACH. THE TERROR I FELT WAS SO CONSUMING I COULD 
NOT EVEN SCREAM, ALL I COULD DO WAS FOCUS ON THE DRS. MOVEMENTS. SHE BEGAN BY 
WIPING MY ENTIRE CHEST WITH ALCOHOL PADS. I RECALL HOW  THROUGH MY SOBS I ASKED 
HER WHY SHE WAS DOING THIS TO ME. HER ANSWER WAS PAINFULLY SIMPLE, SHE
WANTED TO HEAR ME SCREAM, AND SEE ME WRITHE IN AGONY. AS SHE WAS PULLING ON A 
PAIR OF HEAVY RUBBER GLOVES SHE TOLD ME THE FLUID IN THE SYRINGES OBVIOUSLY WAS 
VERY HOT. SHE CONTINUED TO EXPLAIN THAT THE SYRINGES CONTAINED SALINE AND 
GLUCOSE WHICH WOULD DISSIPATE INTO MY SYSTEM AFTER ABOUT 24 HOURS. ALTHOUGH THE 
TEMPERATURE AND VOLUME OF THE FLUID TO BE INJECTED WOULD CAUSE INTERNAL PAIN AND 
SWELLING I WOULD HAVE NO PERMANENT INJURY. SHE DID NOT COMPLETE THE SENTENCE AS
SHE RETRIEVED THE FIRST SYRINGE. I HAD NEVER BEEN AFRAID OF NEEDLES BUT THIS WAS 
DIFFERENT. AS THIS INSTRUMENT WHICH WAS USUALLY USED FOR HEALING APPROACHED MY 
LEFT BREAST I FELT THE BLOOD DRAIN FROM MY HEAD. THE ROOM BEGAN TO SPIN AND I 
SOUGHT THE WELCOME RELIEF OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS. EVEN THIS LUXURY WAS TO BE DENIED 
ME. THE DR. INSTRUCTED GOLDIE TO GIVE ME A FEW BREATHS OF AMYL NITRATE, SO I
WOULD BE TOTALLY ALERT. GOLDIE JUMPED TO THE TASK AND I WAS AGAIN PAINFULLY 
AWARE OF WHAT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN. THE DR. SLOWLY BEGAN TO INSERT THE NEEDLE 
INTO THE BOTTOM OF THE BREAST. ALTHOUGH PAINFUL IT WAS NOT AS TERRIBLE AS I HAD 
IMAGINED. THROUGH THE SOBS AND BEGGING I WATCHED AS SHE REPEATED THE PROCESS IN 
THE OTHER BREAST. THE DR. CONTINUED BY INSERTING 4 SYRINGES AT 90 DEGREE ANGLES 
IN EACH. NOW EACH 1 OF MY BREASTS WAS IMPALED BY 4 NEEDLES. AS I LOOKED DOWN AT
THEM I FELT AS IF I WAS IN SOME FORM OF SHOCK. AS I WATCHED THE DR. I COULD NOT 
BELIEVE I WAS TAKING THIS INVASION SO CALMLY. MY BRAIN WAS IN A FRENZY, EVEN 
THOUGH I WAS IN PAIN IT WAS NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS I HAD IMAGINED. THEN THE 
REALIZATION HIT ME AND AGAIN I BEGAN TO SCREAM. SHE DID NOT AS YET INJECT THE 
FLUID. AS IF READING MY THOUGHTS, THE DR. GRASPED THE FIRST SYRINGE AND PUSHED 
THE PLUNGER. THE PAIN WAS MUCH LIKE THE CATTLE PROD I HAD EXPERIENCED EARLIER. 
THE AGONY I FELT WAS SO INTENSE I COULD NOT GET THE SCREAM PAST MY LIPS.
I REMEMBER HOW I TRIED TO RIP FREE OF MY BONDS. FOR THE SECOND TIME IN A FEW 
HOURS I SEEMED TO BE BLINDED BY THE PAIN. EVERY NERVE IN MY BODY WAS ABLAZE. AS 
SHE CONTINUED TO INJECT THE FLUIDS FROM ALL 8 SYRINGES THE SEARING AGONY WAS 
SUCH, I BEGAN TO SMASH MY HEAD AGAINST THE TABLE IN AN ATTEMPT TO KNOCK MYSELF 
OUT. NO MATTER WHAT I DID THE AGONY CONTINUED. TO MAKE THE WHOLE SCENE EVEN 
WORSE I REMEMBER THE 3 FACES OF MY TORMENTORS STARING DOWN AT ME. FINALLY ALL 
THE FLUID WAS IN MY BREASTS AND THE NEEDLES WERE BEING REMOVED. AS THE DR. 
PULLED THEM FROM ME THE SCREAMING BEGAN. MY THROAT WAS RAW, AND THE SOUNDS
WERE MORE ANIMAL THAN HUMAN. I RECALL HOW BETWEEN THE SCREAMS I GROUND MY TEETH 
UNTIL I WAS SURE THEY WOULD BREAK IN MY MOUTH. I MANAGED TO LOOK DOWN AS THE 
LAST INSTRUMENT OF TORTURE WAS REMOVED. THE SIGHT BEFORE MY EYES CAUSED ME TO 
START SCREAMING AGAIN. MY BREASTS APPEARED TWICE THEIR NORMAL SIZE. SEEING THE 
SWELLING AND THE BEET RED COLOR, I REFUSED TO BELIEVE THESE WERE MY ONCE 
ALLURING BREASTS. I INSTANTLY FELT AS IF I HAD BEEN CONSUMED BY A HIGH FEVER,
MY WHOLE BODY WAS COVERED IN SWEAT. THE DR. WAS TAKING MY PULSE AND CHECKING TO 
SEE IF I WAS ALL RIGHT. I REMEMBER HER TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN, THE WORST WAS 
OVER. I CONTINUED TO SOB UNCONTROLLABLY AS THE PAIN IN MY BREASTS WAS STILL VERY 
INTENSE. AGAIN THE DR. REACHED UNDER THE TABLE, PUT THE OXYGEN MASK ON MY FACE 
AND TOLD ME TO BREATH DEEPLY. THE OXYGEN HAD THE DESIRED AFFECT, I IMMEDIATELY 
BEGAN TO CALM DOWN. THE MASK WAS REMOVED AND THE 3 WOMEN GATHERED AROUND ME
AND BEGAN SURVEYING THE DAMAGE THEY HAD DONE. THE DR. TOLD THE OTHERS THAT IN 
HER OPINION I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS FORM OF TORTURE FOR MY FIRST TIME AND WANTED 
THE TREATMENT TO TAKE ITS FULL EFFECT. BY THE LOOKS ON THE 3 FACES THE WOMEN 
WERE EXTREMELY PLEASED BY WHAT THEY HAD DONE. TO MAKE IT ALL MORE UNBEARABLE 
THEY ALL BEGAN TO FEEL AND SQUEEZE MY BURNING BREASTS. ALL I COULD DO WAS CRY 
AND DEMAND TO KNOW WHAT HAD BEEN DONE AND WOULD I RETURN TO NORMAL. THE DR., WHO 
SEEMED VERY PROUD OF HERSELF TOLD ME THAT I TOOK ABOUT 8 OUNCES IN EACH TIT
AND WOULD BE FINE BY TOMORROW NIGHT. SHE WENT ON TO TELL ME HOW SHE WANTED TO 
GIVE ME 2 MORE INJECTIONS IN EACH, BUT WOULD SAVE THE FULL TREATMENT FOR A LATER 
DATE. HER TONE BECAME VERY SARCASTIC AS SHE TOLD ME HOW LUCKY I HAD BEEN THIS 
TIME BUT NEXT TIME SHE WOULD INJECT THE NIPPLES ALSO. I WAS SPEECHLESS. THESE 
PEOPLE WERE ABSOLUTE MANIACS.
     EVEN NOW IN MY OWN BEDROOM THE EVENTS OF THAT DAY BROUGHT A COLD SWEAT OVER 
MY ENTIRE BODY. I CARESSED MY OWN BREASTS WONDERING IF THEY WOULD RECEIVE MORE 
OF THE DREADED TREATMENT TONIGHT. AS I HAD DONE ON NUMEROUS OCCASIONS I 
CONSIDERED RUNNING AWAY FROM THIS INSANITY BUT AS USUAL THOUGHT OF MY FAMILY AND 
JOHN. MAYBE THE VISIT TO THE DR. HAD BEEN THE WORST. I WOULD KNOW MORE TOMORROW. 
I TRIED TO BE OPTIMISTIC AND TELL MYSELF THAT THERE WAS NOTHING MORE THEY COULD
DO. EVEN AS I TRIED TO TALK MYSELF INTO THIS FALSE SENSE OF REALITY, THE FEAR 
TORE AT MY VERY SOUL. AGAIN I CHECKED THE TIME, I WOULD HAVE TO START DRESSING 
IN ABOUT 45 MINUTES. I LIT ANOTHER CIGARETTE AND CLOSED MY EYES. IN SECONDS MY 
MIND WENT INVOLUNTARILY BACK TO DR. KIMS OFFICE.
     THERE I WAS BOUND TO THE TABLE WITH THE 3 WOMEN STILL EXAMINING MY TORTURED 
AND GROTESQUE BREASTS. SOME OF THE COMMENTS THEY MADE WERE AS BAD AS THE NEEDLES 
BEING PLUNGED INTO ME. THE DR. WAS SAYING HOW THE NEXT TIME SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO 
USE MORE SYRINGES AND INJECT MORE FLUID. MRS. WINSTON, APPARENTLY NOT SATISFIED 
WITH WHAT THEY HAD ALREADY DONE, WAS ASKING WHAT ELSE COULD BE DONE NOW. SHE WAS 
TELLING THE OTHER 2 HOW IN HER OPINION I WAS GETTING OFF TOO EASILY. AS
TERRIBLE AS IT WAS HEARING WHAT THEY WERE SAYING, I FELT A SMALL SENSE OF 
RELIEF, THINKING THEY THROUGH FOR NOW. BUT AS I HAD BEEN ON MORE THAN 1 OCCASION 
SINCE THIS NIGHTMARE STARTED, I WAS WRONG. THE DR. AGAIN WITH A SMILE ON HER 
FACE REMINDED THE OTHERS THAT SHE STILL HAD NOT TAKEN A BLOOD SAMPLE. I REMEMBER 
NOW HOW I FELT AN INSTANT KNOT DEEP IN MY STOMACH. I HAD SEEN THAT SMILE BEFORE 
AND KNEW IT MEANT I WOULD BE MADE TO ENDURE MORE ANGUISH. MRS. WINSTONS ATTITUDE
CHANGED IMMEDIATELY. SHE BEGAN TO QUESTION THE DR. AS TO WHERE SHE WOULD TAKE IT 
FROM. THE LOOK ON MY FACE MUST HAVE TOLD THE DR. I WAS AGAIN SUFFERING FROM THE 
MENTAL TORTURE, SO SHE SEIZED THE OPPORTUNITY. SHE BEGAN TO TELL THE OTHERS SOME 
OF HER FAVORITE SPOTS. AFTER SHE MADE 2 OR 3 SUGGESTIONS, I WAS SCREAMING AND 
BEGGING. AFTER A SHORT DEBATE IT WAS DECIDED THAT 1 OF THE VEINS IN MY BREASTS 
WOULD BE USED SINCE THEY WERE VERY PROMINENT. AS RIDICULOUS AS IT SOUNDS I
WAS RELIEVED. THE OTHER AREAS SHE DISCUSSED WERE MY CLITORIS OR THE LIPS OF MY 
PUSSY. I RECALL HOW I BEGGED HER NOT TO HURT ME ANYMORE AS SHE TOOK OUT ANOTHER 
SYRINGE. SHE PAID NO ATTENTION TO MY PLEAS AND JUST INSERTED THE NEEDLE INTO THE 
TOP OF MY BREAST. ALTHOUGH PAINFUL IT WAS IN NO WAY AS BAD AS WHAT SHE HAD 
ALREADY DONE. WATCHING THE NEEDLE PUNCTURE MY SWOLLEN BREAST WAS PROBABLY WORSE 
THAN THE ACTUAL PAIN. MERCIFULLY IT WAS OVER VERY QUICKLY. I REMEMBER HOW 
TOTALLY EXHAUSTED AND BEATEN I JUST LAID THERE SOBBING IN MY BONDS. AFTER A
FEW MINUTES OF DISCUSSION BY MY TORMENTORS MRS. WINSTON TOLD GOLDIE TO RELEASE 
ME. WAVES OF EMOTION SWEPT OVER ME. I HAD SURVIVED, THEY WERE THROUGH HURTING 
ME, I COULD GO HOME. I WAS WRONG AGAIN. AFTER ALL THE STRAPS WERE REMOVED I WAS 
MADE TO STAND AND THE WOMEN TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY TO EXAMINE ME. I REMEMBER HOW I 
WAS MADE TO WALK AROUND THE ROOM AS THEY MADE REMARKS ABOUT WHAT THEY HAD DONE 
AND WOULD DO IN THE FUTURE. I WAS STILL IN A LOT OF PAIN AND STUMBLED SEVERAL 
TIMES CAUSING THEM TO LAUGH AS THEY GRABBED THE ABUSED PORTIONS OF MY BODY. 
FINALLY GOLDIE WAS TOLD TO HELP ME TO THE BATHROOM AND CLEAN ME UP. THE LARGE 
WOMAN GRABBED ME AND HEADED IN THE DIRECTION OF A HIDDEN DOOR. SHE MUST HAVE 
FELT THAT THIS WAS HER OPPORTUNITY TO CAUSE ME ADDITIONAL PAIN AS SHE PLACED HER 
HAND ON MY SWOLLEN AND SENSITIVE BREAST. I WAS OPENLY CRYING AS MUCH FROM THE
PAIN AS FROM THE HUMILIATION OF THE SESSION. ONCE IN THE SMALL BUT WELL 
APPOINTED BATHROOM, ANY DIGNITY I HAD, GONE, I JUST SAT ON THE BOWL AND EMPTIED 
MY BLADDER IN THE NORMAL WAY. I FELT AN ACUTE BURNING SENSATION AND TOLD GOLDIE. 
HER RESPONSE WAS THAT I BETTER GET USED TO THE FEELING SINCE THEY WOULD USE THE 
CATHETER OFTEN. I JUST SAT WITH MY FACE BURIED IN MY HANDS QUIETLY SOBBING. THE 
BLACK MAID SPENT THE TIME BY TAUNTING ME SAYING THAT I WAS CRYING NEEDLESSLY.
SHE TOLD ME I HAD BETTER RESIGN MYSELF TO THE FACT THAT THIS WAS ONLY A MILD 
INTRODUCTION, AND IT WOULD GET MUCH WORSE. HER WORDS ONLY MADE THE WHOLE 
SITUATION WORSE. SHE THEN SHOCKED ME BACK TO REALITY BY GRABBING A HANDFUL OF 
HAIR AND JERKING ME TO MY FEET. I WAS ORDERED TO WASH MY FACE, FIX MY MAKE UP 
AND STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR. I WAS QUICK TO OBEY, NOT WANTING TO MAKE THIS WOMAN 
ANGRY. I WAS USHERED BACK INTO THE EXAMINATION ROOM. MRS. WINSTON AND THE DR. 
WERE BOTH DRESSED AND TOLD ME TO PUT MY BRA BACK ON, AND FOLLOW THEM UPSTAIRS. 
THE THOUGHT OF HOW TIGHT IT HAD BEEN BEFORE BROUGHT AN IMMEDIATE PROTEST
FROM ME. I SAID THAT IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE BECAUSE OF SWELLING AND THE PAIN IT 
WOULD CAUSE. MRS. WINSTON BECAME VERY ANGRY AND TOLD GOLDIE TO PUT IT ON ME, 
SAYING I HAD BETTER LEARN HOW TO TAKE ORDERS. THE MAID CAME UP BEHIND ME AND 
ROUGHLY PUT THE BRA AROUND MY CHEST AND TRIED TO FASTEN IT. THE PRESSURE ON MY 
BREASTS WAS MORE THAN I COULD STAND AND I BROKE FREE AND TRIED TO RUN FOR THE 
DOOR. I REMEMBER HOW I PULLED AT IT BEFORE I REALIZED IT WAS LOCKED. THE 3
WOMEN SURROUNDED ME AND DRAGGED ME SCREAMING TO THE CENTER OF THE ROOM. WITH THE 
CATTLE PROD IN HER HAND MRS WINSTON TOLD ME TO STAND STILL WHILE THE BRA WAS 
FASTENED AROUND ME. UNDER THE THREAT OF THE CATTLE PROD I STOOD MOTIONLESS AS 
GOLDIE AND THE DR. FORCED MY SWOLLEN BREASTS INTO THE CONSTRICTING BRA. IT FELT 
AS IF A STEEL BAND WAS BEING TIGHTENED AROUND ME. THE PAIN IN MY BREASTS WERE 
REACHING THE SAME HEIGHTS AS WHEN THE FLUID WAS BEING INJECTED. I FELT WAVES
OF NAUSEA SWEEP OVER ME BUT I WAS TO TERRIFIED TO MOVE. THE BRA WAS FINALLY IN 
PLACE. THE TRIO STOOD IN FRONT OF ME ADMIRING THE EFFECTS. AS I LOOKED DOWN ALL 
I COULD SEE WAS 2 BULGING MOUNDS OF ANGRY RED FLESH CRISSCROSSED BY BRIGHT BLUE 
VEINS AND HIDEOUS BLACK AND BLUE MARKS. I REMEMBER HOW MY MIND REFUSED TO ACCEPT 
THE FACT THAT THEY WERE MINE. THE SOUND OF MRS. WINSTON SCREAMING AT ME JARRED 
ME BACK TO ATTENTION. I WAS ORDERED TO FOLLOW HER AND THE OTHERS. WE LEFT THE
ROOM AND WALKED BACK UPSTAIRS TO AN ORNATE OFFICE. THE PAIN OF THE TORTURES I 
HAD ENDURED AND THE TIGHT UNDERWEAR MADE THE SHORT WALK SEEM LIKE MILES. EACH 
BREATH BROUGHT A STABBING PAIN TO MY CHEST AND EACH STEP REMINDED ME OF THE 
VIOLATION OF MY 2 LOWER OPENINGS. AS THE 3 WOMEN MADE THEMSELVES COMFORTABLE I 
WAS ORDERED TO STAND AT ATTENTION. I RECALL HOW MRS. WINSTON BEGAN TO GIVE ME 
MORE DETAILS OF MY ENSLAVEMENT. THE FIRST THING SHE SAID WAS ASSUMING ALL THE 
TESTS CAME BACK SATISFACTORILY WE WOULD PROCEED WITH THE ARRANGEMENT. IF
NOT SHE WOULD CALL THE POLICE AND HAVE ME ARRESTED AND SENT TO PRISON. NEXT I 
WAS TO ADDRESS HER AND HER GROUP AS MASTER AND MISTRESS. THEY WOULD BE MADE 
KNOWN TO ME SHORTLY. I WAS TO FOLLOW ANY COMMAND GIVEN ME AND WOULD BE SEVERELY 
PUNISHED FOR ANY DISOBEDIENCE. I WAS ALSO INFORMED THAT THE FIRST PARTY AS SHE 
CALLED IT WOULD BE IN 2 WEEKS ON A SATURDAY NIGHT. IT WOULD BEGIN AT 7 PM AND 
LAST FOR AT LEAST 12 HOURS. I WOULD BE PICKED UP AND BROUGHT BACK HOME BY LIMO.
IF I REQUIRED ANY MEDICAL ATTENTION THAT WOULD BE HANDLED BY DR. KIM. I WOULD 
ALSO RECEIVE FURTHER INSTRUCTIONS PRIOR TO EACH PARTY. THEY MIGHT INVOLVE BEING 
FITTED FOR SPECIAL CLOTHING, FINDING CERTAIN ARTICLES, RECEIVING REQUIRED 
TREATMENTS OR SUBMITTING TO PERIODIC MEDICAL EXAMINATIONS AT THE HANDS OF THE 
DR. I RECALL AS I STOOD THERE TRYING TO ABSORB WHAT SHE WAS SAYING, I FELT AS IF 
LIFE AS I KNEW IT HAD COME TO AN END. I WAS THE UNWILLING CAPTIVE TO A GROUP OF
SADISTIC LUNATICS. AS BAD AS THE THINGS I HAD JUST HEARD WERE, HER NEXT WORDS 
PUT ME OVER THE EDGE AND HAD ME ON MY KNEES BEGGING. I WAS TOLD THAT IN ORDER TO 
COMPLETE MY FIRST LESSON I WOULD HAVE TO BE PUNISHED FOR TRYING TO ESCAPE THE 
EXAMINATION ROOM. IT WOULD ALSO SERVE TO SHOW MY WILLINGNESS TO OBEY. AS IF SHE 
WAS TELLING ME TO PERFORM SOME SIMPLE OFFICE TASK, SHE WENT ON. I WAS TOLD TO 
BEND OVER THE EDGE OF THE DESK AND HOLD THE OPPOSITE SIDE. SHE EXPLAINED HOW I
WAS TO SPREAD MY LEGS AND NOT MOVE AS GOLDIE WHIPPED MY ASS AND THE BACKS OF MY 
THIGHS. IF I RESISTED OR DID NOT KEEP THE POSITION I WOULD BE TIED DOWN AND 
RECEIVE DOUBLE THE AMOUNT OF STROKES. I REMEMBER HOW I KNELT AT HER FEET CRYING 
AND BEGGING THEM NOT TO DO ANYMORE. SHE JUST LOOKED DOWN AT ME WITH A LOOK OF 
TOTAL CONTEMPT AND SAID TO GET OVER THE DESK. I STAYED ON THE FLOOR LOOKING INTO 
THEIR  FACES, SEARCHING FOR A SIGN OF COMPASSION, BUT FOUND NONE. INSTEAD MY
EYES FELL UPON THE DREADED CATTLE PROD IN MRS. WINSTONS HAND. I HAD NO CHOICE 
BUT OBEY, ANYTHING WOULD BE BETTER THAN THE PARALYZING PAIN OF THAT MURDEROUS 
INSTRUMENT. AGAIN BEATEN AND RESIGNED TO MY FATE I GOT UP AND SLOWLY APPROACHED 
THE DESK. I LOOKED BACK 1 LAST TIME AND KNEW THERE WOULD BE NO REPRIEVE. MRS. 
WINSTON AND THE DR. WERE MOVING THEIR CHAIRS IN ORDER TO GET A BETTER VIEW OF MY 
PUNISHMENT,  DEGRADATION AND SUBMISSION. LOGICALLY I KNEW THERE WAS NO OTHER
ALTERNATIVE. I WOULD HAVE TO LEARN TO ACCEPT MY NEW ROLE AS A SLAVE. AS I BENT 
OVER THE DESK GOLDIE TOLD ME TO GRASP THE OPPOSITE EDGE. THAT WAS JUST ANOTHER 
LESSON IN HOW DIABOLICAL THESE PEOPLE REALLY WERE. AS SOON AS MY BREASTS CAME IN 
CONTACT WITH THE SURFACE I SCREECHED AND STOOD STRAIGHT UP. I REMEMBER LOOKING 
AT THE WOMEN AND SAYING HOW I WAS IN TOO MUCH PAIN TO LAY ON THE DESK. BEFORE MY
SENTENCE WAS COMPLETE ROPES WERE BEING APPLIED TO MY WRISTS. MRS. WINSTON WAS 
PLEASED TO INFORM ME THAT MY REACTION WAS ANTICIPATED AND NOW I WOULD BE BOUND 
AND RECEIVE DOUBLE. GOLDIE TIED THE ROPES TO THE LEGS OF THE DESK CAUSING MOST 
OF MY WEIGHT TO FALL ON MY TORTURED BREASTS. NEXT MY ANKLES WERE TIED TO THE 
OPPOSITE LEGS SPREADING ME OUT TOTALLY. ALL I COULD DO WAS LAY THERE AND WHIMPER 
AS MUCH FROM EMBARRASSMENT AS FROM THE PAIN. AS I LOOKED UP I SAW GOLDIE HOLDING 
A WIDE LEATHER STRAP ABOUT 18 INCHES LONG WITH A SHORT WOODEN HANDLE. I HAD 
NEVER SEEN ANY KIND OF WHIP BEFORE AND HAD NO WAY OF KNOWING THE SEVERITY OF 
THIS INSTRUMENT, BUT I WOULD LEARN ALL TO QUICKLY. MRS. WINSTON MADE THE 
ANNOUNCEMENT THAT I WAS TO GET 6, BUT DO TO MY LACK OF DISCIPLINE I WOULD NOW 
RECEIVE 12. I REMEMBER THINKING HOW THIS WAS THE WORST PART OF A TRULY TERRIBLE 
EVENING. HERE I WAS A 38 YEAR OLD INTELLIGENT, INDEPENDENT FEMALE BOUND TO A 
DESK IN PROVOCATIVE LINGERIE ABOUT TO BE WHIPPED LIKE A CHILD. TO MAKE MATTERS 
WORSE I WOULD BE BEATEN BY A WOMAN FOR THE PLEASURE OF 2 OTHER WOMEN.
     NOTHING COULD HAVE PREPARED ME FOR THE FIRST STROKE OF THE STRAP. IT 
CRASHED DOWN ON ME WITH THE FORCE OF A BASEBALL BAT. THE PAIN WAS INCREDIBLE. I 
WAS INSTANTLY SCREAMING AND TEARING AT THE ROPES. THIS PAIN WAS NEW AND 
DIFFERENT. THE NEEDLES AND THE RAPE WERE AN ACUTE PAIN, THIS WAS JUST SAVAGE 
BRUTALITY. THE SECOND STROKE TOOK MY BREATH AWAY, AS IT SLAMMED INTO ME. MY 
ATTEMPTS TO BREAK FREE ONLY ADDED TO THE INTENSE PAIN IN MY CHEST. AS THE 
BEATING CONTINUED I WAS SURE THE FLESH WAS BEING RIPPED FROM MY ASS. AT ONE 
POINT I LOOKED OVER MY SHOULDER TO SEE THIS MASSIVE NEAR NAKED BLACK WOMAN 
SWINGING THE STRAP AND AGAIN FELT THE AGONY OF THE BLOW. I LOST TRACK OF
EVERYTHING AROUND ME. I WAS BEING CONSUMED BY THE BRUTALITY OF THE BEATING. AS 
TERRIBLE AS THE BLOWS TO MY ASS WERE THEY PALED IN COMPARISON TO THE LAST FEW ON 
MY SPREAD THIGHS. IN A DAZED STATE I RECALL THE ROPES BEING REMOVED AND THINKING 
IT WAS OVER. I AWOKE ON THE FLOOR WITH THE DR. HOLDING SMELLING SALTS UNDER MY 
NOSE. I WAS TOO EXHAUSTED TO EVEN MOVE. MY ENTIRE BODY WAS A MASS OF PAIN AND IT
WAS HARD TO FOCUS MY THOUGHTS. MY FIRST INSTINCT WAS TO LOOK AROUND TO MY ASS 
CHEEKS, I WAS SURE THEY WERE A BLOODY MESS. INSTEAD OF BLOOD I SAW A MASS OF 
BLACK AND BLUE SWOLLEN FLESH, FROM THE BOTTOM OF THE CINCHER TO THE TOPS OF THE 
STOCKINGS. I TOUCHED THE AREA AND FELT A SERIES OF RIDGES RUNNING PARALLEL TO 
EACH OTHER. WHERE THE STRAP CAME IN CONTACT WITH THE STOCKINGS, THE NYLON WAS 
TORN TO SHREDS. THE SKIN FELT AS IF IT WAS ON FIRE, AND THROBBED IN AN
UNMERCIFUL WAY. I REMAINED SPRAWLED ON THE FLOOR SOBBING AND TRYING TO COLLECT 
MY THOUGHTS. I COULD NOT BELIEVE THE PAIN OF THE WHIPPING. IN ITS OWN WAY IT WAS 
THE WORST THING SO FAR. I RECALL MRS. WINSTON LOOKING DOWN AT ME WITH THAT NOW 
FAMILIAR GRIN, TELLING ME TO GET UP AND STOP CARRYING ON. AS I STRUGGLED TO MY 
FEET SHE THREW MY DRESS AT ME AND TOLD ME TO GET DRESSED, IT WAS TIME TO LEAVE. 
SHE ADDED AS THE ULTIMATE INSULT THAT SHE DID NOT WANT TO BE LATE FOR A DINNER
ENGAGEMENT. GOLDIE HELPED ME PUT MY DRESS ON AND THE 2 WOMAN SAID GOODBYE TO THE 
DR. AND WALKED ME TO THE LIMO. I WAS BARELY ABLE TO WALK AND THEY ALMOST CARRIED 
ME. THE PAIN WAS SO SEVERE I DID NOT EVEN CARE ABOUT THE LOOKS I WAS GETTING 
FROM THE CHAUFFEUR. ONCE IN THE CAR I KNEW I COULD NOT SIT AND JUST SLUMPED ONTO 
MY SIDE ON THE FLOOR. IT SEEMED AS THOUGH I HAD LOST ALL DIGNITY AND SELF 
RESPECT. THE SHORT RIDE TO MY APARTMENT LASTED FOR EVER. MRS. WINSTON AND
GOLDIE TALKED ABOUT FUTURE PLANS FOR ME AS IF I WERE NOT PRESENT. AT THAT POINT 
I WAS BEYOND CARING. WHEN WE ARRIVED GOLDIE WAS TOLD TO ASSIST ME AND MRS. 
WINSTON COLDLY REMINDED ME TO BE ON TIME FOR WORK ON MONDAY. I RECALL HOW I 
STRUGGLED UPSTAIRS TO THE SAFETY OF MY BEDROOM.
     AND NOW 2 WEEKS LATER, HERE I WAS BACK IN MY BEDROOM, LOOKING AT THE CLOCK 
KNOWING IT WAS TIME TO GET DRESSED. I WAS VERY UPSET WITH THE PROSPECTS OF WHAT 
WAS WAITING FOR ME. BUT I WAS EQUALLY UPSET WITH THE DAY I HAD JUST SPENT. NOT 
SEEING JOHN ALWAYS HAD A BAD EFFECT ON ME. NOW THE FACT THAT HE WAS MAD AT ME 
MADE EVERYTHING WORSE. HOW WOULD I BE ABLE TO HANDLE HIS CALL TOMORROW. WHAT
CONDITION WOULD I BE IN, WOULD I EVEN BE ABLE TO TALK AT ALL. AFTER THE INCIDENT 
AT THE DRS. OFFICE I HAD TO TELL HIM I WAS VERY SICK AND COULD NOT SEE HIM OR 
EVEN TALK VERY MUCH. WHEN I DID FINALLY SEE HIM ON THE FOLLOWING WEDNESDAY I 
LIED ABOUT STILL FEELING ILL AND ASKED HIM TO LEAVE EARLY. ALL NIGHT I WAS IN 
TERRIBLE FEAR OF THE BRUISES ON MY BODY AND WAS AFRAID OF ANY INTIMATE CONTACT. 
THAT WAS ONE TIME I WAS GLAD JOHN IS NOT AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON. I WOULD HAVE TO 
FIGURE OUT A WAY TO DEAL WITH OUR SEX LIFE, AS I WAS NOT SURE WHAT DAMAGE
WOULD BE DONE TO ME. THE ONLY ENCOURAGING THING WAS THE FACT THAT I WAS 
COMPLETELY HEALED FROM THE BEATING AND THE INJECTIONS IN ABOUT A WEEK. I 
RESIGNED MYSELF TO TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME. NO USE WORRYING ABOUT NEXT WEEK OR 
EVEN TOMORROW, I HAD TO GET THROUGH TONIGHT FIRST.
     I WENT INTO THE BATHROOM FOR A QUICK SHOWER AS PER MRS. WINSTONS 
INSTRUCTIONS. ALL THE OTHER HYGIENIC PREPARATIONS HAD BEEN COPLETED EARLIER. THE 
NOTE WAS ALSO VERY EXPLICITE AS TO HAIR AND MAKE UP, SO I TOOK A LITTLE EXTRA 
TIME AT THE MIRROR. APPLYING THE MAKE UP AS SUGGESTED IN THE NOTE I ALMOST CRIED 
WITH THE IRONY OF THE SITUATION. HERE I WAS GETTING MADE UP TO BE TORTURED AND 
USED AS A SEX OBJECT BY A GROUP OF PERVERTS. I COULD NOT HELP FEELING SORRY FOR 
MYSELF. WHAT A DISASTER I HAD MADE OF MY LIFE. AND NOT EVEN FOR ANY GOOD REASON. 
I NEVER EVEN WORE MOST OF THE THINGS I BOUGHT WITH THE MONEY I HAD STOLLEN. ALL 
THESE THOUGHTS WOULD DO ME NO GOOD NOW, I HAD TO BE STRONG IN ORDER TO SURVIVE 
THE IMPENDING ORDEAL. AS MUCH AS I TRIED NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT, I COULD NOT KEEP 
MY MIND FROM WANDERING. WHAT FORMS OF PUNISHMENT WOULD BE USED ON ME, WHAT KIND 
OF SEX ACTS WOULD I BE FORCED TO PERFORM. THE HORROR OF BEING WITH ANOTHER 
WOMAN. AS THE TIME FOR THE FIRST PARTY WAS ALMOST HERE, ALL THE THOUGHTS AND
FEARS WERE AT A FEVER PITCH.
     ALL OTHER PREPARATIONS COMPLETE, I WENT TO THE BOTTOM OF MY CLOSET AND TOOK 
OUT THE PACKAGE OF CLOTHING I WAS GIVEN. THE NOTE SAID THAT I MUST WEAR ONLY 
WHAT WAS IN THE PACKAGE WITH A COAT OVER IT. I HAD NOT GIVEN IT ANY ADVANCE 
THOUGHT, BUT AS I OPENED THE BAG THE SAME FEELINGS AS I HAD IN THE OFFICE LADIES 
ROOM WITH GOLDIE RETURNED. I WAS STARING AT SEVERAL PIECES OF STRANGE LINGERIE. 
FIRST WAS A WHITE HEAVILY CONSTRUCTED 1/2 CUP PUSH UP BRA. WITHOUT EVEN
PUTTING IT ON I KNEW I WOULD BE VERY LEWDLY EXPOSED AND DISPLAYED IN THIS 
GARMENT. BEING BARE BREASTED WOULD BE LESS EMBARRASSING. NEXT WAS A WHITE OLD 
FASHIONED GARTER BELT, ALSO HEAVILY CONSTRUCTED WITH 6 GARTERS. THE NEXT ARTICLE 
WAS THE STRANGEST OF ALL. IT WAS AN ESPECIALLY MADE WAIST CINCHER. IT WAS 
REINFORCED WITH STEEL RODS, BUT OF MOST CONCERN WERE THE 4 STEEL RINGS IN THE 
FRONT, BACK AND SIDES. I WAS AFRAID TO EVEN CONTEMPLATE THEIR PURPOSE. THIS ALSO 
WAS WHITE. TO FINISH THE ENSEMBLE WAS A PAIR OF BLACK NYLONS AND A PAIR OF RED
COME FUCK ME SHOES, AS I CALL THEM. JUST LOOKING AT THE UNDERWEAR HAD ME FLUSHED 
WITH EMBARRASSMENT. THE THOUGHT OF BEING EXHIBITED IN FRONT OF, AS I HAD BEEN 
TOLD , AT LEAST 6 PEOPLE, DRESSED LIKE THIS. I FOUGHT TO HOLD BACK THE TEARS AS 
I BEGAN TO DRESS. THE BRA WAS VERY TIGHT AND HARD TO GET ON AND AS EXPECTED 
EXPOSED MORE THAN IT CONCEALED. MY 34-D BREASTS APPEARED AS THEY HAD AFTER THE 
INJECTIONS. THEY WERE ALMOST TWICE THEIR NORMAL SIZE AND STOOD HIGH ON MY CHEST.
THE DESIGN OF THE CUPS LEFT THE NIPPLES EXPOSED BUT OTHERWISE HELD FIRMLY. 
LOOKING IN THE MIRROR I HAD ONE THOUGHT ONLY, TOTAL VULNERABILITY. THE GARTER 
BELT FIT PERFECTLY AND I COULD NOT HELP THINKING, WAS EVEN ATTRACTIVE, AS WERE 
THE NYLONS. UNDER DIFFERENT CIRCUMSTANCES I WOULD ENJOY WEARING THEM. THE 
CINCHER WAS A NIGHTMARE. IT WAS SO TIGHT IT TOOK SEVERAL ATTEMPTS TO EVEN GET 1
HOOK CAUGHT. HAVING LONG FINGER NAILS I OFTEN HAVE A TOUGH TIME WITH BUTTONS AND 
HOOKS, BUT BY THE TIME THIS WAS FASTENED I WAS IN A SWEAT. IT WAS SO TIGHT 
AROUND MY NORMALLY SMALL WAIST I HAD THE FELLING THAT MY INTERNAL ORGANS WERE 
BEING REARRANGED. ONCE IT WAS ADJUSTED IN ITS PROPER POSITION, NORMAL MOVEMENT 
BECAME DIFFICULT, EVEN BREATHING WAS A CHORE. LOOKING DOWN I COULD NOT HELP BUT 
WONDER WHAT PURPOSE THE RINGS WOULD SERVE. AS I WAS ABOUT TO TRY AND FIGURE
OUT THEIR PURPOSE I REALIZED IT WAS ONLY A FEW MINUTES BEFORE 6. MY INSTRUCTIONS 
WERE VERY PRECISE ABOUT BEING IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE READY TO BE PICKED UP A 
EXACTLY 6 PM. I SLIPPED ON THE SHOES AND ALMOST STUMBLED AT THE FIRST STEP DUE 
TO THE HEIGHT OF THE HEELS, THEY WERE HIGHEST I HAD EVER WORN. AS I WENT TO THE 
CLOSET FOR MY COAT I COULD NOT HELP STOPPING IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR AND TAKING A 
GOOD LOOK AT MYSELF. THE IMAGE REFLECTING BACK COULD NOT BE ME. THE WOMAN I SAW
WAS INDEED BEAUTIFUL, BUT ALSO VERY EXPOSED AND VULNERABLE. THE MOST OBVIOUS 
PART OF THE PICTURE WERE THE EYES, THEY HAD A LOOK OF FEAR, SADNESS, DESPAIR, 
AND NO HOPE WHATEVER. THEY HAD THE LOOK OF A SLAVE.
