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 The diary of sara pt1(teen, mast-self,hum,self-abuse,bj,ws)
   sept 26th:
   I just got home fm my "special school for advance studies" that's what
Mother calls it, instead of the truth-my stay at the mental hospital, for
my compulsive need to hurt myself.  This time I went to far, I overdosed on
my mother's little helpers and volka and I cut my wrist after making cuts
inside my vaginal wall.  I fell asleep in the tub passed out.  I woke -up
as my mother slapped me.  Emergercy personnel around, all men,sticking me
putting in a IV, Nude for all to see.  One tech dragged me out of the tub
and covered me in a towel, quite humilating: my brother, the police,
strangers, and mother.  I really didn't care at the time, living was on my
mind, between the blur and Mother screaming "COVER HER UP!  COVER HER UP!!"
   I'm going to start school tomorrow, I'm glad, the consulter, fm the
hospital, said it would be a good if I start a journal or a diary of my
thoughts and dreams and reflect back, to see how I am.
   hhhhmmmmmm once a whore, always a whore.
   sept27th:
   School was great, it was great to see Maria and Kim, my best friends,
and of course Johnny, oh God he hugged me,ooohhh it was so nice lik a warm
blanket.  But he has a girlfriend-Terri, a senior Cheerleader, I heard she
is kind of loose, but she's always been nice to me-ALL the BOYS get a
hard-on for her.
   Johnny whispered in my ear in 5th period "are u still my little whore?"
   I giggled and wrote back "yes"
   Johnny my first and only one, I hope to marry HIM one day, I want to
make HIM happy.
   oh dirty little whore masturbating to HIS picture-mmmm
   I hate my self if I lose HIM, masturbating with the hair brush bristles
again, ooh it hurts it makes me bleed, it scratches me-ooh what a sick
bitch I am.
   sept 28th:
   I couldn't help it, Johnny asked me if I could could give HIM a
blow-job, lik last yr-ooohh what a ho.  He drove me home and I gave HIM one
in the car.  He likes to cum in my mouth and makes me hold it in my mouth,
till he walks me to the door, he kisses my cheek and orders me to
"swallow".
   He likes that I obey HIM.  He tole me to masturbate to his picture again
tonight, but fuck the hairbrush while rubbing my clit.
   He likes to give me rules to follow lik last yr, not to wear panties
under my skirts all semester.
   sept 29th:
   Johnny was rough on me, but I deserve it.  He spanked me and told me to
go to the restroom with HIM.  He sneaked me into the boy's, in one of the
stalls, it smelled lik a boy's restroom, stale urine and gas.  He made me
strip and get on my knees and give HIM a blowjob.  The floor had old urine
puddle, he slapped me "stupid bitch I can see!  now get on your knees" I
hope there wasn't any other boy's in the restroom.
   He raised the back on his hand ready to slap me again, I quickly kneeled
in the puddle of urine, nude giving HIM the best blow-job that I could, as
he sat on the toilet.  He told me that I had to be a better bitch if I was
going to stay with HIM.  He made me hold HIS precious sperm in my mouth for
the full next period, it was full of saliva and spit before I was able to
swallow it.
   He had me ride home, Maria and Kim was so jealous, with HIS girlfriend
Terri.  I could believe my ears, Terri told me while, Johnny order us a
soda in HIS new sports car.  "Sara(me) it's OK if your Johnny's whore , I'm
the ONE he loves, if you lik come over to my house we can hang-out
saturday" THen she french kissed me.
   Johnny loved it seeing us making-out in the backseat as he drove me
home, she finger fuck me as I finger fucked her.--ooohhh I got-off good.
   Johnny and Terri walked me in, HE lend me over the dinner table and
spanked me till Sam (my brother) got home.  He told me that I was Terri and
His ho' and I have to do better to pls both of them now.  To give more and
do more without complaining.  I told HIM I would try as HE french kissed
me. 
  
teen diary