diary of the teen slut(by stHell66)

9-19-06

waiting for my alarm, I lay on my stomach and finger my dirty cunt.

"Oh god I wish I had a boyfriend" pinching my clit. Someone mean and creative that has pleasure hurting fifty cunts lik me. "oh god no no" pleading that I don't cum, i don’t deserve it.

"damn to late, Ill have to punish myself again for cumming"

I grab a ponytail band and twist it around my sensitive clit, yesterday it was around 3 times, but I still came 4times today its going to hurt about that should teach me to cum. After tying up my filly clit the alarm goes off, run to the bathroom before Annie or Mother gets in. We all share this sm apt all three of us. I refuse to go potty, I came this morning, that’s enough pleasure for a cunt like me. I'll will force myself not to go till lunch time, i hope i have enough "cunt will power". I brush my mousy black short Goth hair.

Look in the mirror, and think ,as I put on my heavy eyeliner, "no wonder boys don’t lik a cunt lik me, short, black hair, 4'11" alittle overweigh im 120 pds i should be under 100pds even those the doctors say im just right. flat chest’ed maybe B's and im not a virgin(my favorite uncle made sure of that), my cunt stinks, I'm poor my mother is poor just making it, I have nothing to offer a boy, esp. a boy that i need. A true sadist."

I look at my clit its turning blue i scratch it with my long nails "that's it! make it hurt."

I walk it my room, with just a towel after the shower making sure that I cover my private part. And to hind my cuts that I made on my inner thighs that are new. God if mother knew that i was cutting myself again, I would be in trouble.

school:

school a place to put kids at while the parents work. I worn a white blouse and my long black shirt it was the only thing that was clean, and a black knit sweater to cover me fm the cool rooms esp. math, its lik a blizzard in Mrs. Williams class.

I take the city bus to school, i meet Maria, she's nice, we talk till we get to school then she's off with her friends. I hate the city bus, always a guy wanting to seat next to you, or asking you personal questions then they get mad then you tell them you have a boyfriend, which is a big lie. Most of the men are old enough to be my dad, and with a wedding ring-shame. They even get more interested when i tell them how old I am. Yes a freshmen to young to drive and mother already said that she cant afford the insurance for me to start driving.

I hang out with a bitch Claudia that is bad, really into Goth stuff vampires and creeps, esp. creeps. she looks lik Mortisha fm the Addams family. I show my new cuts in the restroom she shows me hers. As we change off scars and cuts the cheerleaders come in lead by Lisa, the biggest bitch of them all.

"Oh look mortisha and Wednesday, where's Mr. Addams oh I forgot you fags aren't you?" Lisa giggles picking on us with her so-called friends.

"No that you! whore." Claudia grabbing my hand and walk thru cheerleader bitches.

"Good come back mortisha.. ha ha.. is that why I have a date with Greg Saunders on Friday.. what your doing on friday, some freak thing? a freak sleep over with your fag girlfriend.. Wednesday?" as we walked away.

She knew how to hurt, she caught me writing Greg's name in my book last semester and told the whole class. What a witch!

I walk into my first class, I know my place in the back with the hoods and riffers. I feel my clit begging to get loose it hurts so much, I try to position myself different to get more comfort, it is too tight, I tied my clit too tight. but the stupid deserves the pain, I have to endure it till the class is finished.

MRS Crawford, or we call crawfish because of her huge glasses, greet a new student, "Class class(Cause the class is always loud) this is Jamal Staley he transferred fm Alabama."

What a HUCK, he stood 6'2" black with baggy jeans and muscular frame. I felt his dominant power right when he sit down next to me. I was so nervous. Not that we have black people in our school, but he was a HUGE, his arms were bigger than my legs, of course it doesn’t help being called chicken legs half the time.

He rose his hand wanting to shake mine "Jamal you?"

"Laura" he grip was firm

He saw my hair and fingernails "goth chick huh?"

I was so nervous, he presence scared me "ahh.."

Before I could ask him to show him around, he started talking to the boyz ignoring the dirty worthless cunt. I was so nervous that I forgot about the band around my clit till the end of class bell sounded.

My last hour is gym, I really hate gym, esp. if I have to have gym with Lisa and her cheerleading groupies. There in the shower is perfection Lisa "D" size shape small waist beautiful butt. You can't help but look at her.

"What cha' looking at Queer!?" as she washes her public hair, caughting me staring at her.

"I'm sorry" I turn around, face red with embarrassment.

My body really doesn't measure up to the seniors any of them. Me flat chest alittle overweigh, just one straight line no curves. I rush out of the shower and quickly get dressed.

9-20-06: new thoughts

Late night: Oh the filify thoughts of Jamal, I was thinking of his cock and how big and black it must be. I wanted to make myself cum thinking about his cock, and how it must look. Wondering if he was circumcised and how big around he must be, and how it would feel to get fucked be his black tool. I put on my I pod and listen to my new Goth/metal downloads as I rub the brush against my cunt, bristles against my cunt. Rubbing it making it hurt, thinking to myself "I'm not going to cum, I'm not going to cum.. "(repeating) as I rub rougher , scraping myself making me bleed.

I relieve alittle from the edge I want to feel frustrated before I go to bed.

I rush to school show Claudia, my scraped up cunt, and she shows me that she burnt one of her nipples. She was going to do both of them, but it hurt so much that she could do the other one. Our morning conversation was about HIM, Jamal. I told her about my fantasies about his cock. We both giggled, all the all to class and there HE was sitting in the same chair. Was I going to sit to him, or sit somewhere else. I was so nervous, but I was going to sit to him like yesterday.

I could feel my little heart pounding, as he spoke to me "Did you work on the homework from yesterday?"

I cracked only a mumble, came out as he just ignored me and started to talk to the guy behind him.

Though the rest of the day I wish I would be spoke up to get his attention.

He was too much of a man to mess with a cunt lik me, esp. after I found out that he was a Junior and he needed to make-up the class that we shared to go on to his Senior year, that he was already 18 and a pretty rough character, that he was in a gang and killed someone, but the rumors are just rumors in our school, some truth but mainly lies. I don't think he would be in school if he killed someone.

9-21-07 babysitter

There I am Thursday night home babysitting my sister Annie. Annie is just 2 years younger than me but she only a grade behind, "Our family Genius" mother calls her. And me "Her precious mistake". She was pregnant with me in high school, causing her to drop-out , and she was married when she had Annie from a different guy, Doug, that never wanted to adopt me as his own. And after my favorite Uncle fucked me, I was to much for him to handle and he left. I can't use the phone mother likes to call and check on us. And if I'm on the phone, I wouldn't be able to go to the movies with Claudia this weekend. I wish I had my own cell phone like Claudia, but I know Mother is barely making it. She has to beg Doug for the child support each month just to have enough money for some groceries for a few weeks. We are usually eating peanut-butter sandwiches by the end of the month.

9-22-07: it happened

Dear dairy I had to tell you, my masochistic side took over.

Jamal was pushing me in corner after 5th hr, "so twat why aren’t you on your knees right now sucking on my big black cock?" he afraid me his sheer size.

What should I do it get on my knees right in the hall way, I wondered if people could see me, forced in the corner. My response was blink, a part of me wanted to be his fuck toy, to let him humiliate me, being a masochist. But of course the plain Jane girl spoke up "Sorry" biting my lip, trying to walk away. Then it happened, what i really wanted, it was lik he felt my masochistic side. He grabbed me pushing me in the corner.

"Come on bitch I know you want it, I know you need it cunt." he said in a loud dominating tone.

He forced his tongue in my mouth, I’ve never had a tongue in my mouth before, never French kiss someone. He felt me holding my hips running his hand up and down my back. I let him dominant me, I was lite headed, letting him control me.

"That's it cunt." As he opened up door to the empty classroom behind us.

He lead me in, as he grabbed me hair, "on your knees cunt" forcing me on my knees.

The classroom was dark, it wasn’t used till next hr. I heard the bell ring I was late for my next class. I meekly said "Sorry I have to go?" it was more of a question still letting him control me. Look up at at him on my knees.

"No no your not a cock teaser are you?.. hush cunt, cunt mouths are for sucking not talking." as he unzipped his fly and let out his black monster of a cock.

His cock was as black and thick as I thoughts it was huge.

He smeared pre-cum over my face, "start sucking cunt" grabbing my hair making sure I understood that he was in control.

I opened my mouth, and quickly he rammed his cock down my throat. "Strip bitch, lets see if your worth the fuckin' trouble."

I wanted to say "I can't" but his cock gagged me, not even letting me take a quick breath. I tried to push him away to get a breath.

"no no bitch your not a cock teaser, take it bitch! I'll let you breath after I cum on your face." ramming his cock deeper down my throat.

He pulled out for a sec, to let me take a quick breath, and then back to the deep throat.

He pulled my hair "strip bitch strip hurry."

I stripped as fast as I could, letting me in just my pink bikini style panties and bra.

"Finish cunt, if Im showing you my cock the less you can do is strip all the way cocksucker." he dragged me by the hair still lip to cock to a chair so he could sit.

He pulled out and came on my face, hitting my hair mouth eyes nose and left cheek. "much pretty cunt now." petting my hair in the back.

"In Alabama I had all the girls sucking on my tool. It only right, all cocksuckers should be on their knees doing what they were born to do, suck genuine black cock. yeah bitch" He checked out my body.

"no fuckin' breast huh? alittle on the fat side, Ill work that off. I usual don’t lik lik white chicks but you'll do, Man I'm late have to get to class." as he ran off leaving me with a face full of cum and and nude.

I could help feel so used I had to look in my compact to see my cum stained face. He was right it was what I was meant to do. I was lik walking on a cloud the rest of the day. I was so nervous, I did let my submissive side control me, it was like he knew me, and it was "ok" to force he's way to force me into a classroom and demand a blow-job.

9-23-07

I didn’t eat last night nor am I today, Im going to lose the weigh. I didn’t even cut myself last night, I was in heaven, couldn’t wait to see Jamal today. I saw him, I wanted to talk to him, but he was flirting with Lisa and her cheerleading clan. I wait till they had finished. I walked up to him.

"hi Jamal"

"Hey cocksucker." right in front of every one in the hall.

"It’s Laura." as he grabbed my hand

"Lisa is a nice dish, I beg she's fuckin hot I would luv to see that cunt in the showers in gym, did you even see the bod in the shower?"

"Its not all that hot, yes I have gym with her, she's rally nice she hind my cloths twice for fun."

"your jealous huh?.. and you should be, the fuckin' girls build she got breast, pretty blonde, who wouldn’t want to fuck that. huh?.. yes cunt you have little breast fat and your cunt stinks does it huh? cunt have to get to class, see ya at lunch meet me at my car. Don’t be late." He have me a quick peek on the cheek.

HE didn’t even tell me what kind of car he had. I waited in the parking lot to see him come. He tapped on my shoulder "Cunt this way>"

"Im sorry Jamal I didn’t know which car was your?" I smiled

He grabbed my arm and dragged me to the car "this one twat, don’t make me wait, now get in the car twat and start sucking, strip bitch, abitch should never have cloths on when their sucking cock."

He drove I sucked He stopped at a fast food as he came in my mouth. He only ordered for him "No no cunt I already have you your lunch." leading by the arm to the table.

He made me sit across fm him "cunt take off my shoes and massage my feet as I eat."

"so when did you start cutting yourself cunt?"

"last yr."

"Do you lik to play with yourself? do lik to get yourself off?" it was lik he knew me.

I whispered I was quite shy and embarrassed with his questions,” Yes, I try not to cum, but sometimes i go over the edge and cant help it."

"Lik to finger your fuck hole huh?"

I was quite embarrassed to answer that question "Sometimes." whispering it.

"Not a virgin huh?"

My face changed beginning horrorible thoughts back of my uncle fucking me in mother's bed when he should of been babysetter us.

"Your old enough you should be helping out your mom and get a J.O.B. a waitress is a good job for a submissive cunt lik you, get one this weekend." sucking on his straw. "Get me some more cunt." handing me the empty drink.

"mother said that there a intern program for the weekend at her job to do filing and typing Im thinking of doing that?"

"business suit more than minimum wage, not for a cunt that's for a girl lik Lisa, your job is a waitress or fast food place, get one. Even tell Mother that Lisa may lik the job, and talk to Lisa about it ok bitch?!"

"she doesn’t lik me Jamal, she thinks that Im a freak."

"No no your a cocksucker, so what that they tease you, look at you then look at them. Their better than you, don’t you think, hah.. if you think forget it their better then you. Born to be better, they will make a 6figure salary while you will work 60 hrs a week struggling to get by, its nature, you were born a cocksucker a masochist ho', you'll spend the rest of your life in misery and should be happy with that cunt. Just to let you know cunt, don’t mess with me, never tease me bitch, if your a cocksucker act lik a cocksucker, remember to obey."

He was right, the rest of the day I was alittle depressed, he gave me all his homework to do all typed up for him, so if he needed to rewrite the work. He wanted a blow-job after school making me miss the bus, he already drove off, I had to walk home thinking that I was a cunt. I couldnt help myself I cut myself again. I wanted to hurt myself, i was the cunt the Jamal told me that i was, i didn’t know what to do. I cut under my breast, soles of my feet and my skin between my cunt and arse. I wanted to play with my nipples and clit, I was going to wait till Jamal told me too. He told me to wait by the phone to wait for his phone call.