She loves to crush...again Sunday, 28-Dec-97 14:06:26

Glad you want to hear more...and I'm more than happy to share.

The reason she likes to crush insects so much is the feeling of power it gives her. To grind a life out under her shoe, and the fact that it's the life of something that has no way of stopping her, makes her feel great. The only thing she says she would enjoy more would be if it was tiny men she was stepping on instead of bugs.

She has fantasies in which she has hordes of tiny, two-inch tall men who have to follow her every command. She likes to imagine them cleaning her bare feet with their tounges until she tires of it and simply grinds them out of exsistence under her heel or her toes.

Often she would tell me stories to get me in the mood...or even during...about how she and her girlfriends would have a party and after the meal they would play games with these little men who were released into the room. She loved the thought of smashing the little bodies into the floor with her feet. Her fantasies were quite sadistic in that she would want to perhaps only crush the little guy's legs with her first step, so she could torment him before finally crushing his head beneath her.

Another favourite was to kick one over and as he lay screaming on the floor, to drop her cigarette onto his body and grind them both out together...something Rachel could appreciate I'm sure. It's these cruel fantasies that make her that much harsher on the bugs she finds I think. She's never satisfied until they're nothing more than grease spots...and she loves using thin-soled shoes for this, so she can feel their bodies breaking - and squirming - beneath her foot.

She used to like imagining my c--- was a slug under her foot too, and would spend endless minutes trying to squash it flat under her heel. She used to tell me that she wished I could lie under the floor of the place where she worked with a hole for the tip of my c--- to poke out of, so she could feel it under her foot all day. Or better still, out under the shop floor, where the customers could step on it too!

In case you're wondering, whilst we're longer an item, we are still friends...and we do occasionally still 'play around'. I guess she knows just the right things to say to get me going. It was seeing her over Christmas that made me decide to post here in the first place. I hope you enjoyed my waffling on.

CF