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 100 REMINISCENCES OF A MARRIAGE TO A CHILD.
   Foreword.
   100 Reminiscences of a marriage to a child is a work of fiction, and as
such for the purposes only of fantasy, not intended to condone or encourage
paedophilia.  It is set on a fictional island community, where child-sex is
legal, and told from the 1st-person viewpoint of a 39yo man who has taken a
child-bride.  It is a series of reflections, 250 words each, posted 10 at a
time.
   Reminiscences 71-80.
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   71.  On cumming on Amy's face.
   I guess a lot of guys in the world at some time or other wish to, or get
to ejaculate all over their wife's face.  With some it's probably a regular
thing, but with others maybe not so, if the relationship is too inhibited
or the wife is too prudish.  One of the great joys of having a child for a
wife, and being in a society where females are subjugated, is that if the
guy wants it he does it.  Quite regularly, about once a week on average, I
wanted to ejaculate all over Amy's face.  So I did, and she let me.  Some
acts are love, some are lust, and some a bit of both.  I think this one is
equally both.  It's an expression of how lovely I find her child-face,
those gentle features framed by her blonde hair, the kind smile and sweet
eyes and overall submissiveness.  When I set eyes on it, the urge is to
kiss it, or this.  Fucking her mouth is a different thing [see below], and
I think more lust than love.  Sometimes I might break off a mouth-fuck, and
decide to cum over her face instead, but usually a cum-over-face is a thing
I've decided beforehand.  Broadly-speaking, Amy has developed from being a
little upset and reluctant, to taking it in good humour when I ejaculate
all over her face.  I'll give more detail on that below [74 and 77].
   72.  On fucking Amy's mouth.
   Terminology is important here.  There's `blow-jobs', `cock-sucking' and
`mouth-fucking'.  `Fellatio' to my mind is the clinical term that vaguely
incorporates all the above, without really indicating how willing or
skilled the mouth is.  Here I'll reflect on mouth-fucking, a term which I
feel reflects primarily a lustful need on my part.  I think `fucking Amy's
mouth' when the aim is unequivocally to ejaculate at the end of it, inside
her mouth, whereupon she can try to swallow or spit according to my wishes.
This is all about ME, objectifying and enjoying her little mouth as a place
fit for an erect penis and climax of semen, a `substitute vagina' as it
were.  Her feelings on it are relegated to second place, and it's a
statement of my authority as a male and as an adult.  It's the thrill of
power over a child, reinforced by the posture of standing over her or
holding her head into my lap.  It's a celebration of paedophile lust.  The
love I have for her does add a nuance to it, though, especially afterward
when I might feel a bit guilty.  Also, there's the element of it being an
`alternative' to vaginal-fucking [see 6], which is delicate and a bit
dangerous with a young child.  In that sense, even the raw concept of
`fucking her mouth' is a caring thing, at least in part.  In summary, she
used to be sick, but now at 10+ she swallows pretty well.
   73.  Blow-jobs versus cock-sucking.
   A blow-job is where the woman (or child in my case) is truly `giving'.
I, the man, relax into it and do very little apart from perhaps caress her
golden hair and moan a lot.  The term implies some skill on her part, a
reasonable level of willingness and a commitment to give me pleasure by the
actions of her mouth.  The goal is for me to cum, and she understands this,
and does not shy away from it.  It can be `dutiful', therefore not
necessarily 100% willing.  It's a little bit more `engaging', ie loving,
than a mouth-fuck.  In that sense it's an intimacy very appropriate to a
marital relationship.  Conservative wisdom would say it's not appropriate
for a child of 9-11.  That adds another dimension of thrill to it, though.
One thing is for sure: a child of 9-11 CAN do it, and do it pretty damn
well with practise.  I know Amy, at 10, now thinks of taking penis into her
mouth and sucking as just part of the natural world.  She's not overly keen
on the ejaculation itself, but that's where duty comes in.  `Cock-sucking'
is just a less skilled blowjob, such as when she was 9 and getting over the
initial fear of it, and contributing at least the basic actions, ie
`sucking'.  This term may even imply a soft cock, and no intent to get a
climax out of it, although I may be using it to give me an erection prior
to penetrating her.
   74.  Early cumming on Amy's face (9 years old).
   I mentioned in 71 that Amy was a little `upset and reluctant' in the
early days of this.  I shall expand.  Everything to do with sex was new to
her at the time of our marriage, although she'd `heard things' and had the
rudimentary knowledge that our Island education imparts to her.  The
overall challenge was to get her to see sexual things as part of a loving
relationship, and get an understanding of how lust and love relate to each
other.  Kissing is obviously affection, but ejaculating all over her face
less so.  At first she definitely felt `victimized', although she didn't
have that term for it.  She saw it as little different to a person `peeing'
on you, and I had to explain it was not the same thing, not at all. 
Gradually, she understood that it was an expression of my pleasure with
her, my noises of emotion reinforcing this.  Only once did she actually cry
about it, in our honeymoon week when I shuffled up the bed and hastily
squatted over her and coated her little face (she was trying to adapt to
her change in her lifestyle as a whole, though, bless her).  After this,
the shock value reduced, although I had to encourage her not to shield
herself with her hands, and for a long time she grimaced cutely when the
moment came.  She grew used to semen, and that this act did not `hurt'.
   75.  On vaginally-fucking Amy.
   This is so fundamental of course, the very symbol that my relationship
to Amy is not `proper' but sexual.  It is a statement that I want to FUCK
this child, and bond with her in the adult male-female way, even though
she's not an adult.  It's the unequivocal proof that she gives me an
erection because she's a girl, AND because she's a child.  I have learnt
not to be ashamed of this, and Amy (11 as I write) has learnt to accept it
as part and parcel of life.  Anal fucking or mouth fucking do not have the
same significance, because they might simply be `perversions' or
`fetishes'. Vaginal, however, is the ultimate union of male and female
where love of the mind and love of the flesh meet.  The challenge, always,
was to teach Amy this, which meant keeping her pain to a minimum.  Some
pain was inevitable - I mean big hard adult penis squeezing into small,
immature vagina - but we could pass this off as just one of those things,
like going to school, not always `pleasant'.  Boy did it stretch - her
labia and vaginal canal - and the tissues are pink, delicate and small in
comparison to the girth of my cock (only an average one).  With patience,
though, child-cunt is resilient and capable.  This kind of parallels with
child-mind, which adapts to the simple truth that husbands and wives fuck,
and that SHE is a wife and therefore we `fuck'.
   76.  On buggering Amy.
   This is harder for her to accept as normal, and perhaps she never will,
but that doesn't matter.  I mean, hell, in all relationships between adults
one partner is usually more `perverse' (sexually-charged' might be a better
term) than the other, and have particular likes that the other does not
have.  No big deal is made of this, and they usually somehow just get along
or compromise.  I suppose my `compromise' with Amy is that I only attempt
to penetrate her bottom with my cock about once every two weeks.  This is
partly dictated by physical safety (her anal tissues need this length of
time to be sure of full recovery, even though I have not `injured' her as
such).  I'll make no bones about it: I love it.  I relish the sheer
hardcoreness of the fact I'm fucking the ARSE of a 10-year-old girl, and I
adore this part of her, it's so totally cute and erotic.  It's always a
cautious and tentative affair, and only 3 inches of penis at most actually
gets into her rectum, but the sight of my shaft in there squeezed betwixt 2
smooth little buttocks is breath-taking.  There's that sense of my power =
her humility.  Despite the discomfort for her, she understands I'm showing
love by not doing it often.  Always I want to ejaculate whilst in there,
but the aftermath is pretty disgusting (the cum dribbling out) and followed
by some embarrassment and guilt for me.
   77.  Later cumming on Amy's face (10-11 years old).
   The grimaces and mild distress of the early days steadily gave way to
frowns of amusement, with reduced squeamishness.  Now, as she approaches
11, there's hardly any squeamishness at all at being splashed over her
sweet young face with my semen.  She even welcomes it, and has been known
to ask me to `cum over her face'.  This is partly because she knows it
might take the place of being penetrated that day, and it doesn't hurt. 
There is definitely a measure of genuine happiness for her, though, because
she knows it is bringing me pleasure.  She has long since learnt that an
erect cock means I `like' her (a lot), and an ejaculation means she's made
me feel very good.  She tends to giggle as my orgasm approaches, and
giggles louder when the warm white splashes hit.  She closes her eyes
tight, but that's a natural response for anybody.  We've even made a game
of it: I sometimes try to aim for a specific part of her, such as forehead
or all over her nose, and she is supposed to assist me in the accuracy. 
Sometimes the game is simply to try and get it `everywhere', splashing
around in a circular motion from chin to crown and back again, finishing
with streaking up the middle of her face.  Children always understand
humour.  Sometimes I encourage her to rub the results in, but she remains a
bit squeamish about getting it on her hands.
   78.  On cuddling Amy.
   This is vital, just as much at 11 years old as it was at 9.  A child
instinctively understands it as an expression of reassurance and love,
especially when accompanied by a friendly smile.  This is no chore.  I love
to do it, holding the body of a little girl-child to my own.  The only
problem for me is to keep it separate from sex.  Of course it does not have
to be, as it's a great part of foreplay or the aftermath of some `crudity'.
Sometimes a cuddle may be simultaneous with her giving me a hand-job: a
real juxtaposition of carnality with innocence.  The cum has not even dried
on her hand when I'm leaning into her, gasping happily, resting my cheek on
top of her head.  If that's not blending sex with love in her mind, what
is?!  Cuddles are needed completely out of the context of sex, though,
gestures of niceness for their own sake.  A friendly tickle might go with
it - children always love a tickle - but here the boundary of sex can be
blurred, for me as well as her.  This I found fascinating: in some ways, an
adult can be just as uncertain of the mysteries of sex as a preteen child!
Some of Amy's most insecure moments during our 2-year acquaintance were
when `cuddles' led to some form of molestation, such as poking a finger
into her vagina, or a sudden naked session of `total sex'.
   79.  On giving Amy cunnilingus.
   I do it very, very often, and have done since the start of the marriage.
This is so important for so many reasons, but I'll summarize the most
important few.
   Quite simply, it's incredibly enjoyable for me, and a part of a little
girl I relish to put my mouth.  No hesitation whatsoever.  Bald little
child-twat in my mouth is NICE.
   The various positions for it are delightfully `frank' and carnal,
reinforcing the paedophilia of it.
   It brings Amy pleasure, and has done as soon as she got over the
intimate anxiety of it (didn't take long).  Her juvenile orgasms reinforce
sex=pleasure.  She can be proud she's being a little lady to me, and a true
wife, and me a husband.
   It's a pain-free mode of sex for her, and does not `wear out' her cunt,
so to speak (no danger of injury).
   It's a satisfying way for me to express my love and lust at once, so
much so that I have been known to cum whilst simply sucking Amy's cunt
(although though I view it as rather `wasteful').  The simple affectionate
gesture of a kiss gets associated with genitalia, and I feel that I'm
serving her as well as enjoying her.
   It's a chance for HER to feel power over ME, or at least sexual
equality. Particularly if we do it with me laying down and her squatting on
my face.  It builds her confidence, and helps to banish any concept of
being a `child-sex victim'.
   80.  Progress towards `proper fucking'.
   At the outset of our second year, I declared my intent to work towards
`proper fucking' with Amy [51], which I define as doing it in missionary
position like adult couples.  Except we're not an adult couple, of course,
but a man having sex with a child.  This inevitably means compromise and
adaptation, and I - I should say `we' - are making great progress. 
Communication is vital.  This is standard sex guru advice to any adult
couple, but I think it applies even more to sex with a child.  I gently
coach her in adjustments to her leg-spread, hip action, and the use of her
hands.  She tells me how much the penetration is hurting, or if I'm
gripping or leaning anywhere on her body too hard.  I usually respond
considerately, especially where the issue is vaginal, but I might ignore
her on such things as pulling her hair.  She needs to understand that that
is part and parcel of sexual passion, and that a woman can get a little
hurt sometimes, but no harm done.  I try to equalize this for her by
inviting her to claw my back.  We now have a feel of proper marital fucking
by me giving lots of fast but shallow thrusts at the climax, to which she
can manage limited counter-thrusts, and a good cum 2 or 3 inches inside
her. We vocalize freely (big improvement from her), and I epilogue the deed
with a peck to her forehead or lips.
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   Feedback and discussion welcome to ep1968@hotmail.co.uk.  Webpic of girl
who inspired 'Amy' available on request.  
  
100 Reminiscences of a marriage to a child (71-80)