Age 12 - Summer 1967

Small town in New England

Living with Mom and one brother

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Disclaimer: If you are easily offended by blatant sexual stories, are under 18, or have a heart condition, don’t read this. If it is illegal in your state to possess this literature, then don’t possess. All within is pure fiction - I guess.

I’ll call my brother Lee to keep his name out of this. Though it was his doings that got me involved with this next memory, I quickly took the reigns, even as a 12 year old. He was about 28 and hung around some pretty major low-lifes. He was a tad slow from lack of schooling but an overachiever when it came to pleasing his friends. He didn’t come around much, but one day just after school got out for the summer he came by the house and was just hanging around. It was just him and myself there and somehow he started tickling me. I ran from him and hid in my mothers bedroom. When he found me he started to tickle me again and we fell down on the bed. He accidentally tickled my crotch and when I just froze and let him do it he realized where his hand was and quickly moved it away. I guess the look on my face gave me away and he said that it seemed like I didn’t mind that at all. So he tried to tickle me there again and it didn’t work. I even spread my legs a little to give him better access to me. He had my hands held over my head and started trying to prove he could get me to laugh. He threatened that if he couldn’t get me to laugh he would have to pull my pants down to get a better shot at me. I coyly said, “go ahead”.

As he held my arms down with one hand, the other started to open my pants and ripped them down off me. As I was exposed he started fingering my pecker and teasing me about the size. I said he was no bigger. With that he said he had enough to choke me and then just came out and said “why don’t you blow me to find out”. I stared at him a minute and said okay like it was just a family chore. His pants were off in an instant and I saw that I was about to suck on my first uncut cock. I didn’t hesitate to go right down between his legs as he sat on the bed and suck his cock into my mouth. I pretended not to know much about what to do and he gave me instructions. I hadn’t given a guy head in months and was pretty excited at the prospect of tasting a guys come again. But it didn’t happen. He got off in about a minute and when he shot he pulled out of my mouth and did it in a sock that was on the bed. He got rather embarrassed at the whole thing and left.

But he must have talked to his friends about it, because the next week he had me go with him to his friends house. There were 3 guys there all in their 20’s and 30’s and we sat down and watched TV and talked about a Poker game they had a couple of nights earlier. They talked my brother into going for a beer run and to make sure he came back they said I could stay with them. At first I protested, but something in their voices told me to stay. So I agreed and off Lee went.

Not long after he left one of the guys said he heard I was ticklish and I said no way, which obviously invited a tickling. He grabbed me off the floor and pulled me back onto his lap in the chair he was sitting in and started to tickle me wildly. My sides were aching and I said I was about to pee my pants. One of the other guys said “we can’t have that”, and pulled my pants right off me, underwear and all. The guy I was sitting on just started holding me and the other two guys started tickling me. I was making sure to flail around a lot and give them a good show of my nudity. After a bit one of the guys started playing with my dick and I just settled back and sat still and let him go at me. They all noticed my reaction and loved it and all took turns feeling my puny wears. Then the guy holding me reached behind me and undid his pants and turned me over to face his crotch. He told me to suck it for him and I hesitated and he coerced me a bit till I finally started sucking on his cock.

The guys sounded like cheerleaders and were fascinated by how easily this was all working for them. The guy must have been without sex for a while because he came really fast, and shot it in my mouth. He had me spit it out into a trash can and apologized for doing it in my mouth and I said I didn’t care, “just don’t tell my brother”. That’s all they needed to hear to start taking turns with me. The next guy pulled me over to his chair and pulled me between his crotch and I went right to work on him. He held my head hard and when he came he nearly poked a hole in the back of my head by pushing in so far. I spit his come out as well and got up and walked over to the next guy voluntarily. He hadn’t taken down his pants yet, so I asked him if he was wanting the same thing and he said yes. So I started taking his pants down for him and I was feeling like the life of the party. Just before he was about to come, my brother came through the kitchen door and I could just barely see him out of the corner of my eye. The guy held my head down on him and said to hurry up while the other two guys went out to keep Lee busy. I knew he could see what I was doing and got such a boner from having my big brother know what I was doing. But underneath it all, I knew he knew something about what was going to happen when he left me there. The guy in my mouth shot his load and pulled out right off and told me to hurry and get dressed.

After I got out the door later as we were leaving, I overheard one of the guys tell my brother that he was now even for “poker night”. At that moment I realized that he had set this all up and traded me to his friends to pay off his losses. At first I got pissed at him and didn’t say a word. But a few hours later when we were alone at the house I went to see him and told him I knew about the poker losses. He said he was sorry and I asked how much he lost. He said $180 and it blew my mind that I was worth that much to those guys. Then it was my turn to blow his mind. I said you’re the only one that didn’t get a blowjob. I asked if he wanted one and of course said yeah. But before I started on him he said he was sorry again and I said that it was alright, but he better not ever do anything like that to me again. And then I added, without telling me first. And then just started sucking him off. It was the next day before he asked me about that statement and wanted to know if that meant that I would consider doing it again. I thought for a moment and said if the stakes were high enough, maybe. He knew I didn’t really mind sucking him off and his friends told them how easily that they got me to do them, so he knew it wasn’t a really big deal to me. Later he came back and asked me if he got in trouble again money-wise if I would help him out. I said if he took me to the carnival that was in a nearby town that I would. I knew he was going to have to work fast though, because those carnivals only stayed a week in each town. And his poker night was in two more nights. That offer worked out a lot better than I thought it would and led me to a new path. It was quickly becoming clear to me that I enjoyed being watched getting put in a guys crotch and watched as I was made to service him.

On the night before poker Lee surprised me by taking me to the carnival. My other brother was too cool to come with me, so after Lee dropped me off (with a $20 bill) I had the place to myself with no body to slow me up. I asked if this meant he thought he was going to lose, he said it was a little just in case and a little for the last time. Most of the rides had huge lines before dark, so I went to my favorite place… the fun house. One of the old styles with the rolling barrels, mirrored rooms, and moving floors. The last item sent me on my second wild adventure in less than a week. I got the bottom of my pants caught in the grates of the moving floor. After several minutes of trying to get free the operator came back looking for me swearing about kids and not following the rules. When he saw me he told me to get out and I said I was stuck. He calmed down and came over to see the problem and tried just as unsuccessfully as I at pulling me free. He hit the switch to stop the floor and tried again. He didn’t have enough pant leg to grip, so he said to drop them since we were both guys. He pulled on the pants and hit the switch, but I was still on the floor and lost my balance and fell over on top of him. My crotch almost landed in his face and he grabbed me around my ass and hoisted me to a solid part of the floor and tried again. After two more tries and a lot of tugging he got them loose. He watched me as I put my pants on a little more than most people would have and I got the idea that he wanted a bit more than to just look. I made my way through the rest of the place and thanked him for freeing me on the way out. The smile he gave me said a lot more than just goodbye.

It had started to rain when I was inside and the place was quickly emptying out, but I had to wait till Lee came back at closing to pick me up so I checked out everything that was still open. One game operator started telling me jokes and the more I laughed , the dirtier the jokes got. The last one was really telling. He looked me straight in the eye and asked me if he washed his cock if I would suck it. I couldn’t believe he just came out and asked me like that. I stammered around a little bit and shrugged my shoulders. His eyes opened wide and said it was a joke. I was suppose to say no so he could call me a dirty cock sucker. I got it then. But then he said he was very interested in the fact that I didn’t say no right off like anyone else would. He asked me if I wanted to take a quick walk with him and answer the question another way. I felt so dumb and said no and walked away, but couldn’t get the offer out of my mind. I had 3 hours before Lee got back and there was little to do. I found myself walking by that guys booth every ten or fifteen minutes. I was hoping I guess that he would get more aggressive in his offer. He did try a new line every time I got close enough to hear him. Since all the rides had to shut down, the operators were walking around talking to the other carnies. This one time the guy from the fun house was at that guys booth talking to him and as I walked by I knew he was telling him about having to drop my pants to get free. Both the guys were staring at me like crazy.

A couple of minutes later this guy came up and touched my shoulder. It was the fun house guy. He said I looked bored and wanted to know if I wanted a behind-the-scene tour of his fun house. I thought he had another motive and I was so worked up by the game booth guys advances that I decided why not let this old guy have some fun with me. So I acted all excited and went with him. I noticed on the way by the game booth that a girl was running it now and thought that maybe I missed my chance with that guy, but the guy taking me to the fun house looked like he really wanted to have some fun with me. So it was a wash. The guy showed me a bunch of cool things and told me what the game guy told him. He repeated the joke to me and asked if I would suck his cock if he washed it. I was really nervous, but squeaked out a yes, as long as no one would catch us. I floored him with my response and he asked if I would have done the game guy too. I said probably if he hadn’t of asked me first. He grabbed me by my ass and pulled me close to him so he could feel my crotch and said he had a special place we could go, the control room.

He held my hand and led me to it. It was so erotic knowing that this guy was leading me to a private spot for the explicit purpose of getting me to suck him off. When we got there I half expected to see the game guy too, but the booth was small and he wasn’t there. I waited for the guy to do a couple of things and lock the door and then he turned to me and said, “let’s get started”. I thought that meant he wanted me to undo his pants, so I started on them. He wanted to know how often I had done this and I said only a couple of times, but was really horny tonight, which was his good luck. His cock was really stubby, but fat. It was like sucking on a doorknob.

He wanted to know just how horny I was and I said very. He said for me to drop my pants then so he could see me as well. I let him feel me a little and went back to sucking on him. It didn’t take too much effort to get him to come. He didn’t ask where he could shoot his load, he just dumped it in my mouth. It was really thick gobs… almost chunks. I spit it into the trash can next to the panel. He asked me again how horny I was and I again said very, but added why. I figured he wanted me to do him again. He unlocked the door and grabbed my pants and said he’d be right back. When I saw him take my pants I protested and he just said not to worry. Here I was naked from the waist done and the taste of this mans come in my mouth, worrying about why he would leave with my pants. I never thought about locking the door, anyone could have walked in.

A couple of minutes later the door opened and I found myself exposed not to the fun house guy, but the game guy. He had a huge smile on his face and said he heard I was an excellent blow boy and was still very horny. He looked real nice and I knew he was friendly so I asked him what he expected. He just said, “you know”, and started opening his pants. He pushed on my shoulders to get me between his legs and rubbed his cock against my lips as I opened up for him. He was very horny and fucked my mouth pretty hard and deep. He wanted me to spend a lot of time licking and sucking his balls, too. He asked if I ever swallowed come before and I admitted I had at least once. I knew his response would be to feed me his come. He got pretty rough at the end and forced his come to the back of my throat. I did swallow most of it but spit the rest in the trash. I asked him where my pants were and he said right outside. When he opened the door the fun house guy was standing there, but so were two other guys. I was stunned and started wondering what I had gotten myself into. This big guy, fairly fat, came in next and said hello. I said I wanted my pants and he said I could have them at anytime, or I could help out some needy guys. He told me what he knew about me and asked if I would like to get a bunch of free tickets and some toys to take home. I said sure and he asked when I had to leave. I told him and he said then lets help each other out a little. I asked how many times he wanted me to help him out and he said how many times you got left in you. I said two and he said four. So I said three then and he replied “okay, and me“. He tricked me into four more guys. I said they better be nice to me and he said if they weren’t to just tell him. I later found out he was the manager.

So, down came his pants. I never did a guy like him with a big belly before. It was a little hard to get close to his cock like normal. But he coaxed me into doing a good job for him and just before he came he asked me where I wanted him to shoot his come. I shrugged my shoulders and said wherever he wanted to. He grabbed my hair and pulled my head back and told me to open my mouth and catch it. When he was finished I sucked him into my mouth again and paused just long enough to say I wanted to clean him off. I noticed that his come tasted a lot different and was really creamy and smooth. The guy pulled out a bunch of tickets from his back pocket and told me to come back and have fun before they left town and to be sure to keep this all quiet. He saw I still had his come in my mouth and asked me if I was going to swallow it and I looked him right in the face and did just that. That was the best come I had ever tasted and told him so. He opened the door and the other guy stepped in. I recognized him from the dart game.

He was fascinated by my nude bottom half and just played with me for several minutes and talked to me about how much fun I was bringing these guys. I said I was having fun too and hoped he would as well. While rubbing his fingers up the crack of my ass, he asked if I let guys fuck me there. I lied and said no, and I was just giving the guys that came in quick blowjobs. I didn’t want to be there all night, so I started working on taking this mans pants down. He had a hardon just like Pauls. Real thick and hard as a rock. I was really glad that I said no to fucking me now. This cock I planned on enjoying and went right down on him. I squeezed it really hard in my hands and loved the feel of it. I couldn’t get much of it in my mouth, but what I did we both really enjoyed. I stopped for a moment and told him I was really hungry after the taste of the last guy and I wanted him to make me swallow his whole load. He loved the thought of that and worked my mouth over really well. When he got ready to shoot he grabbed my head and said to get ready. I braced myself on his hips and he pushed as far as my small mouth would let him go and my mouth started filling up with his warm sperm. I was trying to swallow as he shot it into my mouth, but his cock was way too wide and I had to wait for him to pull out to finish his meal.

When he went to leave I was very excited and looked out to see who was waiting to come in. To my absolute horror, the person right in front of the door was a woman about 30 years old. I got all flustered and she quickly said she was just there to take a quick peek at me and reached out and felt my tiny erection. She said something about how the guys were having a lot of fun with me and turned to leave. The next guy to come in was pretty young. Probably around 18. He was a quick one, and wanted to get out as fast as possible. When he came in he said he heard from the manager that I would swallow if told. So as he shot his load he told me to swallow and I did. It was really thick and globby, but it tasted good.

And now I was down to my last guy, and my mouth was getting mighty sore. This guy was really gruffy and rough looking. He grabbed me right by my crotch and sat me down on the stool and roughly played with my pecker and balls. He put his forefinger into his mouth to get it wet and ran his hand down my crotch and started to finger my “pussy” hole. He got me squirming trying to get away from his finger, but it made it in just a bit and got me nervous. He said he loved to see me jumping and squirming around and kept trying to get his finger up my hole. I was having fun trying to avoid his finger so I never said stop. It felt really good getting felt up and fingered like this and I just wanted him to keep on going. He saw how much I liked that and pulled his pants open. He said let’s both have some fun and picked me up and spun me around so I was upside down. He told me to get to work on him and he went back to fingering me. This was the strangest position I had ever been in, but because of his strength it was working. The only problem I had was that his cock was headed into me perfect, but it was hard getting it back out of my mouth. I sucked him off the best I could though and he kept my little pecker quite hard with his fingering me like that. It took him about thirty seconds to get off and when I felt he was coming, most of it just ran out my mouth and down his shaft. He spun me back around and sat me back on the stool. I told him how wild it had been doing it that way.

As he opened the door and left, the old fun house guy came in with my pants and I quickly started putting them on. He stopped me half way so he could get one good feel of my crotch and then let me finish. He told me that the boss wanted to see me and that he would take me to him. I said I couldn’t do any more guys and he said I already did him. He just wanted to talk to me. As we got to the front of the ride there was a huge stuffed bear almost as big as me and the guy said it was mine. The dart game guy gave it to me. I grabbed it and took it with me. We passed the dart game on the way to the office trailer and I stopped real quick to say thanks for the bear. He said “no, thank you”. As I turned to leave the girl at the next booth to his was the one that grabbed me and felt me up. I got embarrassed and looked away even though she had a great big smile on her face. I was feeling like a kid that just won a lottery.

We got to the trailer and he opened the door for me and left. The guy invited me in and his first words were, “do I really have the best juice you’ve ever tasted”? I got flushed and nodded yes. He asked if I was going to make it back to use the tickets he gave me and I said I hope so. I hinted that it might depend on a poker game. He gave me more tickets and pointed to the ticket house and said the rest of my toys and stuff would be there when I was ready to leave. He asked if I would be alone again and I said I had no idea. He said that when I got back I should find him and let him know I was there. And then he asked if I would mind giving him another blowjob. He had been so nice to me, so I said okay and walked towards him. He grinned and said he meant when I got back the next day and I realized I made another mistake. But he said if I had the time he would love getting one now too. I said I would love to do him again and he went over and locked the door and sat down on the couch. I told him my mouth was pretty sore and that this would have to be pretty quick. As he pulled his pants down he said how he loved my enthusiasm. When he got his cock bared I went right over to him and got between his legs and started sucking away on him like crazy. He was much easier to get at setting down and I thought about how smooth and creamy his come was the first time and couldn’t wait for him to feed me again. He asked if I was alone next time if I wanted to do the same thing again. I shrugged my shoulders and he said he could get 20 guys ready for me. I shook my head and said no way. But I added that even if I was with someone else that I would sneak away and make time to do him at least. When he was ready to come he told me to hold his cock at my open mouth so he could watch me catch his come. I did just that, but missed his first shot. It hit my chin and rolled down and dropped off before I could move to get it. When he was done I got up close and made a big deal about swallowing his come right in his face. He started to get up and I said wait a minute, I hadn’t cleaned him up yet. As I was doing that I saw where his first drop of come landed. As he watched me, I bent over to the floor and he watched me lick it off the tile floor. He absolutely loved that. He asked what the chances of me making it back the next night would be and I said it sort of depended on how well my brother played poker. I told him I might just get lost in the game to another guy or two. But I promised to do my best to get back before they left town.

I went outside and thought I still had plenty of time to kill, but Lee was just getting there

and saw me come out of the trailer. I went up to him and he said when it rained he figured he’d come back early for me. I told him I won a bunch of stuff and needed help carrying it all. After we got it in the car and was driving away he told me I better grab one of the shirts he had in the back seat. I asked why and he pointed out that I had come all over the front of that one. I couldn’t believe I hadn’t notice that. He wanted to know the details and I said I didn’t kiss and tell. After all, he wouldn’t want me to tell anyone what he did to me. I asked if the game was still on and he said yes and that they worked something out that he thought I would like.

I was going to go to the game with him. They wanted me to act like a hostess for them. He said they expected me to be nude the whole night and that I would have to take turns sitting on their laps so they could play with me. I told him they had to strip me and tell me exactly what to do to them. He also said that the game was going to start later and that mom knew I was staying at his house. The game wasn’t going to start till 11:00 PM so I smiled and said great. But I needed a ride back to the carnival early so I could use my tickets. He said okay, but not to get worn out because the guys were expecting certain things from me.

Well, the next day came and Lee picked me up at 4 and we got there a half hour later. I had a lot of time to play… games, rides, and guys. This was the coolest place I ever imagined in my wildest fantasy. I went to the office trailer and knocked, but no one answered. So I figured the boss was on the grounds someplace. I started looking for him and couldn’t believe how many guys were saying hi to me. I felt like such a horny little big shot. By the time I left, things would be a bit different. Guys were glad to see me there alone and early. The crowds hadn’t really started yet. And a lot of the guys started offering me deals to go with them. I told everyone I had to see the boss first. When I found him he was with the guy that fingered me so much and held me upside down to suck him off. They were looking at a ride that had broken down. The guy turned out to be a mechanic and they both had really big smiles on when they saw me. The boss guy asked if I made it alone and I said yes and that I had all my tickets and about 4 or 5 hours to play. Their smiles just kept getting bigger. He finished talking to the mechanic and turned his attentions to me and said we should go to his trailer. Coyly and with a smile of my own, I asked him why. He said he had something to explain to me and off we went. I pretended not to understand all the knowing glances the guys and some girls sent my way, and I thought to myself, “just how many people here knew what I did yesterday”. When we got into the trailer the boss told me again how happy he was to see me. And he explained how most of his workers though married, spent months on the road at a time and that someone with my “talents” was really appreciated. When I asked how many workers knew about the day before, he said probably everyone and explained how carnies were one great big family. Since my family was so screwed up, I didn’t quite see why he was boasting this fact.

Then he said it was time to work out some “business”. I asked what he meant and he said it was very, very obvious that I liked sucking guys off and had a fond taste for come, at least some peoples. He pointed out that I had sucked off 6 guys the day before, quite a feat for a 12 year old and did it without any complaints or letting out their secret. I said I was from a small town and certainly didn’t want anyone to know about my likes either. That’s when he told me I didn’t have to hide anything from anyone there because they wouldn’t judge me, just enjoy whatever I had to offer them. He asked what kind of boundaries I had and explained what he meant. After thinking for a moment I said none really, just I didn’t want anyone to hurt me or tell anyone away from the carnival about me. He promised that that was a given and said that if any of the guys didn’t show me complete respect or hurt me in any way that they would get the reaming out of a lifetime. This guy with the fat gut had come to be my protector and made me feel really safe. All the guys yesterday treated me better then any guy I’d been with before so I wasn’t really worried about that anyway. He asked how sore my mouth was and I said not at all. Then the big question, “how many blowjobs did I think I could give today”. I said I had no idea, but I wanted to have fun and ride rides too. He asked for my tickets and when I gave them to him he threw them on his desk and said I wouldn’t need them. If anyone asked for one to just tell them I was the bosses friend.

Then he said I could just wander the park and enjoy myself and if any of the guys wanted me I could except their offer or just keep going. That’s when I explained that to get my brother to give me a ride there today that I had to promise to make myself available to some of his friends that night and he said no problem and to just take my time and enjoy myself. I got the feeling that he wanted me to go now and I started to head for the door and turned to say goodbye on the way out. Instead I stopped and just looked at him for a moment and asked him if I should go now. He said I could do what I wanted. I made my mind up to get bold, and asked if he would like a quickie before I went to the rides. He just smiled and said to lock the door. Then as he walked me back to the bedroom of the trailer he asked if I ever let guys fuck me in the ass, and I said yes reluctantly, but didn’t really want to start that here because there were so many guys that had eyed me. Then he just had to ask why I decided to stay and do him before going to the rides. I said that I really liked the way he treated me and that his come really did taste better than any I had before. He wanted to know if his big belly bothered me and I shrugged my shoulders and asked why would it. Then he said that when he first saw me standing in the control room with my goodies hanging out for all to see that he wondered how someone not yet into puberty knew and liked so much about sex. I just told him I got introduced to it in a big way the summer before. When he wanted to know if I’d ever come and how often I masturbated I told him once and that I never really masturbated yet. Obviously he wanted to know how I could have come if I never played with myself. I told him a very brief story about my ex-landlord. That’s when he told me how the mechanic he had been talking to had told him he would do anything to fuck me. He had told the boss that I had the cutest little ass and wanted to get at me so bad. When he warned him that I was not to be forced into anything or hurt in any way, the guy said he would just steer clear of me then.

So a few minutes later the boss was smiling with satisfaction and I was leaving with a very tingly mouth and a smile of my own. I figured that the crowds hadn’t really gathered yet and so I would go on all the rides I liked first and then get nasty with someone. The trouble was at every ride that the operator knew me at, he would proposition me like crazy. I started getting worried about what other customers might over hear. I did promise two of the guys that ran rides I really liked that I would come back before I left and then make them happy. The guy at the fun house that started all this called me over when I got close to his place. He wanted to know if I was going to get stuck on his ride and I said I hope not. He looked worried at my answer and wanted to know if that meant he was going to get passed by today. I remembered how his cock was so fat and short and thought that this guy just looked so desperate. I smiled and figured since none of this probably wouldn’t have happened without him that I owed him as much as the boss guy. After a couple of kids left I asked him if he wanted to take my pants off me again and run away with them. He looked a bit sheepish at that, so I said I would make him a deal. A couple of guys had said they would need to find a place for us to go, so if he let us use his control room that I would give him a special thanks. He beamed when he heard that and said sure. Then he said I could walk through the funhouse if I wanted and I went through the gate. When I passed the door that I now knew led to the control room I shuddered a bit and got very excited. On the way out I told him I’d be back later.

I must have played a dozen games and never had to pay a thing. After winning a few things I stopped taking things because I didn’t want to have to carry then or bring home any more stuff. My mom would have to start wondering after a while. It was about 6:30 and I thought I had better get going on paying for some of the free rides and games I had received. I had formulated a plan. I was going to pick six guys that had shown interest in me and do three now and three more a little later. I figured I handled six the night before and this kind of thing would never happen to me again, so I would take advantage at what was at hand. I pretty much knew who the first three would be. So I figured I’d get a slice of pizza and start telling the guys to meet me at the fun house control room. As I sat eating my pizza, the mechanic stopped to talk to me. He thanked me again for the night before and I just got flushed. I told him the boss told me what he wanted to do to me and said I was sorry, but it couldn’t happen. He said his name was Bob (another one) and if I changed my mind that he would be around and would treat me real nice. He bent over real close to my ear and said how he thought I had the greatest little ass and would love to get a chance at it. I got real embarrassed and told him how what he did to me last night was the wildest time I ever had. He just smiled and went on his way, leaving me with a very sticky pair of underwear. That’s when I realized something very strange. I would always get a really hard erection when guys would talk nasty to me or make me an offer and wouldn’t really get wet. This guy talked to me about wanting to fuck me and suddenly I started leaking pre cum. The strangest part though was that I not only didn’t have a hardon, I was very shriveled up. I wouldn’t really figure that out for a while, but when I finally did, it changed the whole way I thought about sex and gender roles.

I finished my pizza and headed for the first guy. He ran a squirt pistol game in between two other booths. When I said “I’m back”, he knew what for and told me he couldn’t leave. He had me hop over the counter and told the guys on either side of him to watch his booth. He took me behind the game board in a curtained off area. He just dropped his pants and told me we had to make it fast, so I crawled right between his legs and got to work on him. I figured that tonight I wasn’t going to invite anyone to feed me and that I would spit out their come every chance I got, except for two guys I actually had in mind, and I already got the first guys, the boss. But if anyone wanted to try to force feed me, I wasn’t going to fight them all that much. This guy in my mouth didn’t really care. He just got off in my mouth and starting pulling up his pants. I spit it out and thought, 1 down, 5 to go. As I hopped back over the counter I noticed Bob was standing a little ways away checking me out. I headed for the tilt-a-wheel and asked the guy if he was still interested and he said he sure was. I told him to come to the control room in about five minutes then, and headed off for the ferris wheel. I didn’t even ride it because I was scared of heights, but the guy knew who I was and was really nice about asking me for a blowjob. Plus he was a pretty well built guy. While I was “shopping” for what guys I was going to do I realized that I seemed to be liking bigger guys, like Paul, the boss, this guy, and even Bob the mechanic. I arranged for him to come to the control room in a few minutes and headed off.

Since I did the guy at the water pistol booth already, I figured I’d get one more guy this time and only had to do two the next time. I went to the quarter toss game. Two guys were there so I knew the guy I had picked could leave. He started flirting with me and asking me when and I said that’s why I was here and gave him the invite. I turned toward the fun house and headed off. When I got there I told him what was happening and he asked if he should get a replacement. I said not yet, that he was definitely one of my choices, but he was going to be last. He led me to the control room and unlocked the door. I went in and saw him just standing there and asked what was the matter. He said he wanted to watch me take off my pants and even though I hadn’t planned on taking them off this time, I did it for him. He played with me for just a sec and then had to go back out front. I figured since my pants were off, I’d leave them off for the other guys. I sat down on the stool and waited. Not an easy thing to do half nude and knowing you were about to service three guys cocks in just minutes. I thought for a minute about the other guy besides the boss that I wanted to suck off and swallow his come. I’d already had seen him a few times and I wasn’t sure he wanted to feed me, but I definitely wanted to suck his cock and taste his sperm in my mouth. He had been such a great blowjob the night before.

I was getting impatient and opened the door slightly and to my amazement all three guys were there waiting for me. I asked why they hadn’t knocked and they thought I might be busy already. One of the guys pulled the door open and there I was with my little erection bobbing around and my hairless balls shrinking up in the cool breeze. They asked who was first and I said I didn’t care. So the big guy from the ferris wheel came in and shut the door. I didn’t give him a chance to say anything. I was realizing that I had a thing for big guys and I started to open up his pants and held his erection in my hands as I got on my knees between his legs. He was really hard but not all that big for his size. As he was about to come for me, I reached over and pulled the trash can closer to spit in. He must of thought that I wanted him to come in the can and pulled out and shot his load there. I felt a little cheated. I wanted him to come in my mouth. So as I stood up I pushed the can back where it was.

Next was the Titl-a-whirl guy. He was an older guy, but very nice acting, sort of grand fatherly. I had picked him mostly to check out how guys aged… down there. He was a little bit of a challenge to get him really hard, but when I did, he grabbed my head and fed me his come. He went from being a nice old guy to a” just swallow it” kind of guy. I was impressed with this aggressiveness. He hadn’t left me much choice but to swallow. As he left the door swung wide open and again Bob was there watching me. Even as the last younger guy came in I realized my erection had gone away. I couldn’t figure out why, mostly because this kid was coming at me with a vengeance, but this Bob guy was so intriguing to me. The guy in my mouth now I had picked because he reminded me of my first guy, Kenny. Very aggressive and assertive, but nice about it. And when I paused to take a pube out of my mouth, he slapped me in the back of the head… so Kenny-like. He also was very insistent that I was going to swallow his load and held my head tight so I couldn’t get a way from him and I must say, was really good at this force-feeding stuff. He placed his cock just in the right spot in the back of my throat and held my chin just right so I couldn’t get away from him. Like most young guys, when he was done, he was done. He pulled up his pants and was out of there. I got dressed and told the guy I’d be back for him in a little while and went back to the games and rides for a while. A little while later I caught Bob looking at me again and went over to him and asked him why he was following me all over the place. He said it was his job to keep an eye on me… bosses order. I thought, how cool, I have a body guard. He asked me how many times I was going to do it tonight and how many times I had done it last night. I told him 7 times last night ( I did the boss twice) but six guys and I was planning on 6 more tonight, plus the boss. He told me he had already counted 4 guys, not counting the boss, and wanted to know who the last lucky two guys would be. Normally I wouldn’t have answered, but I wanted him to like me so I told him. I said one of them would be the fun house guy and the other guy I wasn’t sure really wanted to do it to me. He asked what guy in his right mind didn’t want a blowjob. After a very long pause…. I said…. You. Bob looked at me in surprise and asked why I thought that. I reminded him of his discussion with the boss man and went on to say that the way he maneuvered me last night and played with my butt that I came with the intention of giving myself to two guys and wanted to taste their come again since I may never see them again. He had really given me the most pleasurable experience the night before, even though most of his come fell out of my mouth. He said how he really wanted to fuck my cute little ass, but if I wanted to suck him off that bad that he would settle for that.

I told him I really didn’t want him to have to settle, but that my past interludes with guys fucking me were very aggressive events and that I was still a bit afraid to let a guy do it to me again. Actually, the occasion hadn’t presented itself to me since Paul. I also told him how weird it was that the only time I’d ever gotten off was when Paul actually wound up raping me. He surmised it was because my little pecker had gotten so hard and I explained that it was just the opposite. I was totally shrunken up and let him know how Paul had taught me to respond like a girl. He got really turned on by that info and asked how it worked. I told him some of the stuff I could put into words, including how I had starting kissing and making out with him as if I was a girl. I let him know how towards the end I was fighting him off and started humping back at him when I got off. He asked if the guy made me cry and when I said yes, he said he would kick his ass if he knew him. That’s when I explained to him that my crying was really just from the pain, but I never chose to stop it, until it was too late. And I explained how my crying seemed to actually turn on all 3 guys like crazy that had fucked me in the past. He said that my crying then was part of my desire to be taken against my will and what I needed to do in the future was to have a code word. If it really went too far all I had to do was say the word and they would understand that I finally meant my “no’s”. I asked him what word he would use and he said “uncle”. “NO” was a really bad word to use because it was a response kind of word and got said all the time during sex and rarely meant. I knew what he meant.

Then I got really somber and looked at him and asked “would you stop if I cried uncle”. He smiled a big grin and said “you bet”. Then I asked if crying would have been a turn on for him and he said as long as he didn’t hear the word “uncle” he would assume I wanted him to keep going. Then he asked if I thought that the losing control of things was the reason that I got off that time. I wasn’t sure. He asked if I liked getting off that time despite all else and if I had ever thought about trying it again? I told him I tried to get off many more times since, but that it hadn’t worked and that I loved the way my body felt as my come leaked out of my flaccid pecker.

Then there was a very awkward silence between us and finally he said that he was going to go to his trailer and told me which one it was. He said if I really wanted to have him tonight that it would be his way and that he wasn’t going to stop unless one of two things happened; I got off again, or he heard the word “uncle”. He said if I really wanted to try out a real man, to come by his trailer. I shyly put my head down and said I really had promised to go back to see the fun house guy first… but afterwards, .. I’d probably stop in and say hi. I couldn’t believe what I was thinking as I walked to the fun house. The man there already had a replacement waiting and we just walked back to the control room. When he locked the door I knew he wanted to see me again so I took off my pants and underwear for him. And strangely enough, I got the feeling he wanted more from me and I asked him to suck on my pecker. He looked really worried and I said I never told anyone what people did to me. With that he sat me up on the stool and started sucking on me. It felt sooo good. What he didn’t know was I was thinking about what would happen it I did go to Bob’s trailer. After a couple of minutes he stood up and opened his pants for me, declaring how good I had tasted to him and warning me not to tell anyone about sucking on me. I had forgotten just how fat a cock he had and worked him over really well. I had a new zest going and I knew I was going to see Bob next. There was no way I couldn’t now.

After he shot his load into my mouth and I had spit it out, I stopped him from pulling up his pants and said I wanted to clean him off really well. When I was done I said I really had liked my time at the carnival and that it was mostly due to him. If he hadn’t of gotten me to take off my pants that first meeting, none of this might have happened. With that he said it had been his pleasure and bent over to kiss me. I just stood there and let him kiss me. I noticed my erection had gone and I felt like I was leaking a bit. I realized I was falling into the role of a young girl now and went with it. I put my arms around his neck and started kissing him back… including tongue. When I walked out the entrance I couldn’t have walked a straighter line to Bob’s trailer.

I knocked on his door really hard because one of the music machines was right next door.

When he opened it I went in and he had such a strange look of lust on his face. He gave me a shot of whiskey and told me to down it. I knew why and did as I was told. It stung my throat so bad. He said he was going to lay down some rules now and started. I was told to say the word “uncle”. I did and he said that was the only word he would stop for. I was told I was under his total control now and was expected to be nothing more than his plaything. He demanded I act like a girl from now on and to think as feminine as possible. He promised me he was going to get me to come and that no amount of crying was going to stop him. He told me to strip and sit on the floor between his feet. Then he ordered me to tell him every detail of the night I got raped.

He quizzed me about that night for a half an hour just to make sure he knew everything he needed to know. I was ordered to take his pants down and when they were off, he picked my nude body off the floor and spun me upside down like the night before. As he lowered me to his cock, he grabbed my tiny erection and said to get rid of it. I knew what he meant and started working toward that end. As I sucked on his cock, he wet a finger and started to finger my pussy hole.

After a little of that he sat me down on the floor and told me to do two things; first I was to take him by the hand and bring him into the bedroom and finish undressing him. Then I was to start making out with him and when I was really ready for him I was to offer myself to him. I grabbed his huge hand in mine and pulled him to the back of the trailer. After I got off all his clothes I crawled up beside him on the bed and snuggled with him and looked up to see his face. I rolled over and started kissing him and rubbing his hard chest. He was feeling me up, especially my ass cheeks. I asked him if he liked the feel of my pussy and he said “you bet”. I asked him to roll over on top of me to pin me down and we starting kissing again. In a few short moments I knew I had to let this man fuck me. My pecker couldn’t get any softer and I was ready for him. I pushed on his chest while staring into his eyes and he looked shocked at first. Then I squirmed my way onto my stomach and separated my legs a little. He knew that was my signal that I was ready for him. But instead of getting between my legs, he half rolled off of me. I was wondering what he was doing when suddenly I felt him smack my ass once really fucking hard. I screamed and started crying and he rolled me over to see my face and said that that was what he wanted to see, my tears. I got really scared, thinking this guy might just understand me too good.

He put one hand in the middle of my back and held me pinned to the bed. With the other hand he reached over to his nightstand and grabbed a couple fingers of KY jelly and rubbed it into my pussy hole. Suddenly I got really scared and felt like running and started to squirm. I started to tell him to get off me and that I wanted to go and was bucking and squirming like crazy. He reached around and grabbed me roughly by my jaw and said I was allowed to say only one word at this moment… uncle. We both held still and I thought really hard. Did I really want to blow this chance with a guy that really seemed to know what I wanted? I chose to bury my head and call him a dirty fucker. I never used language like that. All he said was “I thought so”, and moved between my legs. His cock wasn’t nearly as big as the one that raped me and I wondered if he would be able to get me off. He felt between my legs and felt my pecker. I got another slap on the ass and was told to lose it. I knew the best way to do this was to get feminine. I got real sassy and asked questions like ‘you like raping little girls like me, don’t you”, and “you aren’t man enough to do that”. I grabbed his left hand and sucked on his fore finger, licking it like it was a cock. I started bucking trying to give him a hard time and not let this be too easy for him. I said “you don’t like it when a girl fights back, do you”. His response was “I love it that way”.

He rolled off me a little and gave me two more really hard slaps on my ass that started me crying again, and said he wanted me to keep crying till I came for him. He ordered me to part my cheeks and put his cock in position. Because Bobby and Paul had used tricks to get me to loosen up to allow them to penetrate me I was expecting something from him. Instead he just started pushing really hard against my pussy opening and pushed and forced his erection into me. It hurt so bad that way and my tears were flowing. Now I was glad he’d given me that whiskey. Then he just started fucking me really rough and pretty deep, I was squirming trying to get off his prick just a little but he kept me pinned. He didn’t let up and kept pushing just a little bit harder than he knew he should. I knew he really wanted me to fight him and I started to do just that. Several times I jerked far enough away from him so his cock fell out of my pussy. He’d push it violently back into me, making scream and cry. I started trying to make obscene deals with him. I knew he didn’t want them, but hearing me say them was fantastic. Every vulgar act I could think of I related to him. I told him I’d be his bitch and he could sell me to his friends, I would lie there and let him have his carnie friends fuck my face till they came in a big glass and I would swallow it down in front of him. I said he could take pictures of me and sell them. All the time I was hitting him and digging my fingers into his arms. Then he pushed once really hard and kept pushing me till my head was hitting the headboard and then took it out. He got to his knees and grabbed my hips and spun me over and grabbed my legs and lifted them into the air. I got frantic and my fighting him off got as about real as I could imagine. I knew this position… it was the one Paul raped me in. I wouldn’t be able to get away even slightly from his cock in this position. And I knew it was going to hurt. I was crying out loudly for him to stop and begged and pleaded for him to stop. The only fucking word I couldn’t get to come out was … uncle. Damn, I couldn’t believe I couldn’t get it to come out.

He pushed his cock back into me but just a little. While he had me so successfully pinned with my legs over my head and he was looking are my tearstained face, he started to kiss me. I turned my head side to side and he kept finding my mouth. I kept beating on his chest and pushing him to get off me and he just kept handling me. He knew I was somehow enjoying this torment and that I was getting closer to what I wanted. Then he started back with the fucking motion in my pussy and fucked me hard and fast and was taunting me about not being able to get away and knowing this was what I wanted. The hard fucking he was giving me made me cry non-stop and just as I was about to say that damn word, he made it happen. This time I realized that I was coming. And unlike how a guy normally does it by holding his muscles closed and tight to force ejaculation, I was doing just the opposite. It was like I didn’t even have a cock and balls, just a pussy. As much pain as I was in I started to buck and fuck against Bob so fast it was like a quivering motion. He pushed himself up on his arms when I finally said I was going to come. I could feel my eyes roll into my head for a moment and then as I started to spasm I looked down and saw a flood of come just flow out of my little and totally flaccid pecker, and not in spurts, it just flowed like a faucet turned on. I had never been this fucking horny in my life and I looked at Bob’s smile and then at my come. It was so white and creamy, and so thick. I just got two words out to Bob, “feed me”.

With that he scooped up my cum and started wiping it into my mouth, all the while fucking me to finish himself off. My tears were drying up but it still hurt. As I rolled my come around in my mouth, he kept wiping more of it into my mouth. I sputtered that I wanted him to finish and to fill me up with his come. His groaning started and the familiar feel of his warm come in my ass felt so satisfying.

After giving me a deep, wet kiss good bye, I walked out of his trailer to meet the boss and a couple of other guys with him. He saw the dried tears on my face and the exhausted state I was in and muttered something like “that fucker”. He said he wasn’t going to let him get away with hurting me like that and I, a very little person next to these three very large men, stood in front of them and said “no, he didn’t hurt me”, and that “ I asked him to fuck me”. And “he did a really good job of it, he made me come”.

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