By Louetta

My experience of self hanging. This in the style of the last
chapter of Ulysses. That is there is no punctuation. Drives some
people crazy. But the end works better as a kind of stream of
consciousness thing. I prefer it this way but there is another
version written in standard form.

DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME, DANGEROUS



First there is the glorious experience of slowly taking my
clothes off including everything except my ankle bracelet though
it is chilly at least I am out of the wind and now I must be
bound with my ankles first and then my knees and then a rope
around my stomach to anchor my wrists to when they are tied
behind my back as well as a rope under my breasts and then
crosswise in between them a few times and then under my arms and
across my chest and now the rope that will bind my wrists behind
me is tied to one wrist so it will not get lost and finally the
noose goes around my neck and under my hair with the knot snug
behind my left ear and at this stage the erotic effect of being
bound naked and helpless outweighs my fear of the noose but now
my hands must be tied firmly behind my back which is the point of
no return and then they are tied to my stomach rope and I am as
helpless as I can manage and slowly the feeling of the bite of
the noose against my neck awakens somewhere inside me the fear of
what is about to happen and I am left standing there for a long
time feeling terrified but all the time enjoying the coolness of
the air against my naked body and the feeling of the ropes and
inside me the feeling of helplessness and the anticipation and
the bite of the ropes that bind me against my bare skin reminding
me of my vulnerability and I begin to feel the warmth in my
breasts and the cold air and my horniness make my nipples so hard
they hurt and I feel the dampness between my legs and my chest
heaves with the quickening of my breathing and I feel the
butterflies in my belly in fact the trembling of my whole body
betrayed by a touch of sweat under each arm and then slowly it
begins and I take the first small steps that tighten the noose
against my throat and I am frightened and unable to hide and
unable to run away and I try to confront my fear as it wells up
inside me with the noose biting cruelly into the soft white skin
of my neck and now I must struggle for air that comes only in
short gasps but the struggling and the weight of my body only
tighten the noose around my neck and I feel a burning sensation
in my throat as the rope squeezes my windpipe shut and I realize
now there is no air at all and slowly the pain spreads down my
limbs through my body as I struggle for oxygen but none comes and
the rope is slowly squeezing the life out of my body and every
naked inch of me screams in pain and I struggle desperately and
strain at the ropes that bind me helplessly and then slowly I
become aware of the need inside my body and harken to the
familiar tingle in my boobs and the tightness in my groin and
feel the wetness of my pussy and slowly ever so gradually the
little fire lit in my body takes me through the low door in the
wall that leads me to the place where that little fire grows into
the burning need inside that will make me cum even though
meanwhile I am still strangling and lack of air dulls my senses
and sight and sound disappear as my mind gets fuzzy and I pass
into this sort of a tunnel where there is nothing else and I
relax into it while the hot feeling between my legs takes me
further and further into the welcome state of bliss when every
inch of me tingles and I can not help it but my hips surge
forward and my cunt is wet and aching and my breasts are flushed
and hot and my nipples so hard they hurt and then my whole body
trembles and I surrender to the glorious sensations of cumming as
I cross the line into the wonderful world of my own body and I
pass into that heavenly place where all I can feel is me and once
and again and again and again time stands still and the only
things that exist are my cunt and my tits and the hot hollow in
my groin that explodes in the wondrous act of cumming and for a
time I drift just outside of the regular world as my orgasm takes
me briefly to another and finally the heaving of my hips subsides
as sexual fulfillment succumbs again to the pain of the noose and
the approaching blackness til finally my naked body shakes
involuntarily and my hips and bare ass quiver and finally
exhausted and out of air I hang limply surrendering myself to the
end that will surely came unless I step back just in the nick of
time and eager to save my own life I step back once and then
again and try to breath once and try to breath again and slowly
the pain in every limb and every fiber begins to subside and then
its over and I slowly come gently back to earth and after awhile
I untie myself and collapse into a warm fuzzy heap and forget
about my body causing me all that and pain and thank it for
providing me with all that pleasure and thank god he made me a
girl. 


  
Later On - My Hanging - Ulysses Version