I was surprised, not too surprised, but surprised
none the less. It had all started almost a year ago.
My freshamn year at college in the South was
exciting. I loved the excitement that came with being away from my
home for the first time. I was now my own boss. Nobody to tell me
when to get up, how late to stay out or who to socialize with. The
only thing I really had to do was go to class and pass. My parents
said that they would pay for colleg if I maintained a 'C' average.
The first semester, I had chosen several classes that were not considered
too tough. I was correct, if I went to class and paid attention, I
could do pretty well, maintining a 'C' was not hard at all. I finished
the first semester making 1 'C', 2 'B's' and 1 'A'.
Christmas time at home was different this
time....not better, not worse...just different. I still had my old
room, but i knew I was just visiting. After a few weeks I was itching
to get back to school. Luckily for me break was over in 7 more days.
We celebrated a nice Christmas and I saw lots of friends who had gone
tto different schools. A group of us had gone outone eveneing just
before the new year. One of my friends, or actually close acquaintance,
seemed a bit depressed and somehow I ended up next to her.Lisa and
I were away for the main body of the group and our conversation was
private for the most part.
'So how do you like Western so far?'' I said.
Lisa said, 'the school is great' I am doing pretty well making only
1 'B' so far...but..' and she kind of looked away.
'Jenny', she said, 'I know that we have not ever been really close
but I just dont know what to do'
'What is the problem' I asked expecting an answer about classes or
a teacher.
Lisa looked at me and responded slowly in a low voice, ' Can this
just be between you and me? I mean, you have always been a friend
to me and at the moment I don't know where to turn.'
I was a little confused, but attibuted that to the beer I was drinking.
'pretty melodramatic' I thought to myself.
She swallowed and said, 'Jenny, I missed my last period and I did
the test today'. She pulled a small object out of her pocket that
looked vaguely like a thermometer. It had a small window where there
was no mistaking two blue lines.
'Holy crap, are you serious?' I asked in disbelief.
A tear welled up in her eye and I knew that she was not.
I took her arm and we walked away from everyone else.
'I have not told my boyfriend yet, Hell, I dont even know if he would
care. We have only dated three times. I got quite carried away after
our first date. He is soooo good looking and I really love his company.
I was eager for him to ask me out again. On our second date we started
kissing and he touched my breast. I just could not believe how good
it felt. I I could think of is how wonderful it felt to have him touch
me and feel him press up against me. We up at his apartment and one
thing led to another. I was naked in 10 minutes. I asked him if he
had a condom, and he said yes. I had resigned myself to the idea of
having sex with this guy. I mean, I really really wanted to. Mike
led me to his bed room and turned down the lights. I laid down and
could not wait to have him make love with me'
We walked a little further away and I took
another swallow of beer, Lisa was not drinking.
'He laid down next to me and I could not believe
how horny I was. He aked if I was on the pill and I responded that
I was not. He then asked If I was a virgin and I told him that, sadly,
I was not. I had lost that at age 16. he jsut smiled and said, 'what
a lucky guy'. For some reason that just seemed to me to be so sexy
at the time. It was like he wanted to have been that special person.
I told him that it was a pretty short affair and that it never amounted
to anything. He started to kiss me and it was such a passionate kiss.
His hands really felt great on my body. He rolled me on myback and
I thought to myself 'here we go'.
As he pushed into me, Jenny, I can say I have never felt sexier in
my entire life. We made love several times that night...unfortunately
he only had one condom. After the first time, I had my first bareback
sex. For some stupid, insane reason, I thought that this was the most
sexy and erotic thing ever....I was his. Yep, he came in me, two more
times. That was three weeks ago. We only had one more date before
finals. I thought everything was OK..then 'whoops...no period' I thought
about timing just a little too late....I was at my peak of fertility
when he came in me. He is at home over in Owensboro. he has my cell
number and has not even called to wish me a merry Christmas. What
am I going to do?'
'Wow, what a evening this is going to be',
I thought to myself.
'Lisa, do you want to keep the baby?', I asked. It seemed like an
intelligent question, to the point and non judgmental.
Lisa just looked at me with big puppy dog eyes as if to say, 'just
make it go away'.
Lisa said, 'I have to tell Mike first. I really dont want to keep
the baby right now. I am so scared.'
'OK, fair enough. Mike is half of this equation. He should have some
input and share in the responsibilty'
I talked her into calling Mike that evening
and to Jim's credit, he stood on his own two legs. He did not want
a child at this time in his life either. He agreed to pay for half
of the abortion and would drive down from Owensboro the next day.
They went to the clinic in Louisville. I saw here one more time before
I left to go back to school Lisa said that they had a big argument
after the procedure and that it was over. Wow what a leson in life
I thought to myself.
I also had lost my virginity a few years back. I was ALWAYS careful....No
bareback sex for me. This just cemented it for me. I would not wind
up like Lisa.
School started back and I was ready to make
up for that one 'C' from last quarter. I was taking some tougher classes,
but I felt more confident in my ability to 'Handle the load'. My chemistry
class had 120 people in it. It was in an auditorium and I was surprised
at the size. I sat near the middle and decided that I was going to
getan 'A' in this class. It was the first time I met Jim. He sat next
to me and had a mischeivious look about him. He was cute as a button.
i smiled thinking he would not even notice me. He just grinned and
said, 'Hi, My name is Jim. Where are you from?' I told him I was from
Paducah. he smiled and told me he was from Mt Sterling. We struck
up a nice conversation before class that continued after class. He
asked for and I gave him my cell number. That evening he called me
aand asked me to dinner. I gladly accepted for Friday night and looked
forward to seeing him in class the next day. The next day we just
talked and seemed to fit together nicely. Conversation was so easy
and not forced. The week progressed and I rellay was looking forward
to our date.
We had a nice dinner went the park to build a snow man. we did the
silly nerdy things...we made snow angels and had a 'pretend' snowball
fight. He walked me back to my dorm and we kisssed goodnight. I went
back to my room quite happy. I liked Jim, he was funny, kind, and
treated me like a lady. I got ready for bed and to my surprise my
cell phone rang. he was back at his dorm and told me what a great
night he had had. We agreed to go out again the next evening for pizza.
The next evening was even better that the one before. We laughed and
really enjoyed each others company. as he kissed me goodnight, he
pressed up against me and it felt so good. I loved being held like
that. We kissed for a while and he tried, unsuccessfully, to feel
me up. Once again he called me from his room and we spoke til the
wee hours in the morning.
We became closer as the semester inched forward.
I loved to have him press up against me as we kissed. I 'gave in'
and let his hands explore my breasts and between my legs...god it
was heaven. One evening during one of our 'study session' we started
kissing quite passionately. His hands were all over my body and I
was getting soooo very horny. He was horney as a goat and it was quite
obvious. He was wearing khaki pants and the bulge in his pants was
very noticable. there was a wet spot at the end of the bulge. 'precum',
I thought...and probably full of sperm. I reached down and felt him
and he moaned slightly. he said that he loved me and wanted to make
love. I wanted to as well. he had been massaging my breasts and between
my legs and I was probably more horne that he was. I asked him about
protection. I told him that I was not on the pill and that without
protection we were NOT moving forward. He agreed and we decided that
he needed to go down to the 7-11 on the corner for some condoms.
Off he went and I was stuck lying there in his dorm room randy as
hell. I thought about Lisa and how I was not going to end up like
her. I reso;ved to go to the clinic the next day to get on the pill.
Jim showed up almost out of breath about 10 minutes later and we proceded
to make love all night. He had bought 2 packages of condoms with three
in each....we had plenty. The next day I never made it to the student
health due to my schedule. It was OK since we were being cautious,
I could go next week.
Classes were going well and at this point
I had all 'A's' with 1 'B'. Jim was great. We loved each others company
and spent a lot of time together.We made love often but were always
careful....never without a condom. I felt pretty safe about pregnancy.
I was not worried about disease. Jim turned out to be a virgin...I
was his first. I would absolutley abstain from sex for a few days
before and after ai was expecting to ovulate. A broken condom was
not a fun thought to me. I monitored my cycle closely so as to make
sure an 'accident' did not happen. I decided against going on the
pill as Jim never came in me without a condom.
We both were doing well in school . We really
did actully study in some of our study sessions and both had A/B averages.
One night during one of our sessions, I was PMSing really bad. I was
very short tempered and Jim asked what was wrong. I told him I was
about to start my period and that I felt bloated and ugly. I could
see it confused him. Men should have periods...then they would understand.
He offered to give me a back rub. In my PMS state of mind, I felt
like I deserved a back ruband then some. I took off my shirt. He gave
me one of the best back rubs I have ever had. he had some body lotion
that he used and I have never felt so relaxed. He asked to massage
the front and by this time I was not about to say no.As he massaged
my front I started to get quite horney. I loved feeling his hands
all over me. when he started kissing my nipples I went over the edge.
I normally do not get very horney before my period, but I was now.
He started massaging me in my crotch and I could feel myself getting
wet. he, of course was hard. Guys can seem to get aroused when the
wind blows. He undid my pants and slid his hand between my legs, My
clit was swollen and waiting for his fingers. He rubbed my nub and
drove me crazy. I told him to make love with me and that is when he
said that he did not have any condoms.
'CRAP', I thought to myself.
'The store is just around the corner', Jim said.
I thought for a minute. I was regular as clockwork. period every 29
days. It was day 27. We had not made love for over three weeks and
I wanted to....badly.
I told Jim, ' I am pretty safe right now, just pull out before you
cum.'
Jim readily agreed....he had been wanting to do me bareback for the
last two months. he had wanted me to go on the pill to get rid of
the need for a condom. For some reason, the condom and knowing my
cycle gave me a bit of control, so I never went on the pill.
We started making love and it was the first time in my life I had
a penis in me without protection. It was a little scary even knowing
that I was not fertile at the time. It did feel a little different
for me but I could tell it was very different for Jim. He kept on
saying that this was unbelieveable and felt so good. He started to
get more and more excited and I could tell he was getting close. I
told him to pull out before he came. He arched his back and rapidly
pulled out. I felt a warm jet of liquid on my upper part of my pubic
mound then more on my stomach. He ejacualted several jets on my stomach
then collapsed next to me. I felt his semen slowly slide toward my
belly button. I am petite and when I lie on my back my belly button
is the lowest part of my stomach.
I also felt another sensation. The firrst
part of his sperm soaked my uper pubic hairs. gravity works and it
was slowly sliding down to my labia. I know I should have stopped
it, but for some reason in my PMS addled brain I just let it slide
down. Instead of moving to the left or right the warm gooey sensation
surrounded my clitoris. In my mind I imaginged millions of sperm massaging
my clit and found that erotic. I moved my hand down my stomach and
felt the sperm there. I slid my fingers through it and then moved
down to my clit gently massaging it with the additional lubrication
from my stomach. I pushed one sperm soaked finger inside me before
I thought 'What are you doing'. I wondered how many sperm were now
swimming up inside me. Jim was now recovering and I asked him to get
me off with his hands. He gladly obliged but not before I cupped more
sperm from my stomach and coated my pussy. He unknowingly slid his
sperm covered fingers in and out of me coating my vagina with sperm.
Lisa was right...it was sexy...and very erotic. 'How long do sperm
live inside me', I thought. Two days later my period started right
on time. Wow...what a two day rush.I was relieved ...and to a certain
extent dissappointed.
The next week I went to the library to do
a little research. I needed more information. Almost all sperm die
withing 24 hours in the vagina. It has to do with the acidic environement.
Some sperm live for up to 3 days and in rare cases can live for 5.
The conditions for sperm to survive is greatly infuenced by the acidity
of the vagina. Acidity drops in mid cycle and the cervical mucus changes
consistency allowing for sperm to actually unter the uterus and fallopian
tubes for about three days. the egg can only be fertilized for a period
of about 24 hours.
'Wow', I thought, 'Why didn't they teach this is sex ed? It is not
hard NOT toget get pregnant and have sex if you are just careful.
STD's are another thing. I am pretty safe there with Jim.' I thought
to myself. I started wondering what it would feel like to have hime
actually come in me. I resolved to let him come in me right then and
there.....providing it was a safe time.
My period usually lasted 6 days with the last days being pretty light.
I would ovulate on day 15 after my period started. For four days after
my period ended I could have sex with little to no chance of getting
knocked up. If I wanted to tempt fate, 6 days after my period ended.
i could not believe it, this was making me horney. I could not wait
until Jim came in me. I arranged to have a 'study session' just as
my period was ending. I was horney as hell. All I was thinking about
while he studied was having sex. I never got anything done. I told
him that I was done and could not study anymore. He seemed intent
on doing a little more studying. I decided to foil his plan by rubbing
up next to him. It was like the wind blew and he instantly responded.
I rapidly stripped down to my birthday suit and pulled him next to
me. he mentioned something about condoms and I told he he did not
need them. Thsi alarmed Jim...his noramlly hrd penis rapidly shrank.
he asked if I was pregnant. I blushed and said absolutley not. I had
just finished my period and was NOT pregnant. He calmed down and his
hardness returned. he said that he needed to get a rubber and I said
it was OK, I was safe right now.
He asked 'should I pull out like last time?'
I responded 'I am pretty safe for the next few days and if you want
to cum in me you can'.
Wow, the resoonse from Jim was unbeliveable. he did not even hesitate.
He slid right in me and just went to town. I felt him throbbing in
me as he had this grimace on his face. A new sensation occured to
me as his sperm flooded my vagina. 'Wow, I have Jim's sperm in me'
I thought. At that point I had one of the best orgasms of my life.
Wow, this is what Lisa experienced. No wonder people get pregnant.
My uterus and vagina had more contractions that I had ever experenced
before. I imaginged my cervix being massaged by many millions of sperm
trying to get me pregnant. 'They wont get in' I thought to my self.
Next week would be different..but not now.I just lay there in exstacy.
i went back to my dorm later that night with a warm glow and happy
feeling. I loved the idea of Jim's sperm swimming inside me. I wondered
about the pill but quickly decided against it. 'Nope', I thought to
myself, 'this was really wonderful. I wanted Jim's sperm in me trying
to get me pregnant. I would just control when they were there.'
The next day i woke up and was horney from the moment I got out of
bed. All I could think about was Jim's sperm swimming inside of my
vagina...I really liked that thought. I would be safe for a few more
days and I wanted more.
Jim called me later that morning and said trhat the night before had
been incredible and asked me to play hookey and come over. Who was
I to say no....
I showed up at his dorm and in less than one minute were naked with
his cock ready to slide into me agian.
'I bought more condoms, so you dont have to worry' Jim said.
'I'm not worried' I said. All I could think about was him cumming
in me. I did not want a condom.
'This might be dangerous', Jim said.
'I'm still safe for a few more days and I want you to cum in me' I
said.
'Really, are you sure, I can pull out.'
'No, Come in me, please'
'But you might get pregnant', Jim said
'No I wont, next week it gets dangerous, but not now, come in me'
That was all it took, Jim slid in me and we made passionate love.
I felt him throbbing in me and I imagined his millions of sperm swimming
in my trying to get me pregnant. I had the absolultely the most intense
orgasm I have ever had in my life.
It was a strange sensation. I was very wet, both from his sperm trying
to get me pregnant as well as my own lubrication. I had to put a pad
on just to keep from everything from showing throughout the day. The
thought of his sperm in me was driving me wild. I just loved imaging
them swimming in me.
For two more days we made love with no protection. It was great for
both of us. Jim loved the idea of cumming in me without a rubber and
I loved having his sperm in me. But is was now day 10 and reality
set in. I did not want a baby in me even though Jim did not seem to
care if I got pregnant. I realized that I was the deciding factor
in this. If I let him, he would gladly make me pregnant. I wondered
what a baby would feel like growing in me. I did not think I wanted
that responsibilty just yet.
Two days later we had another study session. I was having problems
with chemisty and was struggling to understand how to work some equations.
Jim was very affecionate. I was horny but very apprehensive. It was
getting quite dangerous even with a rubber. In three days i was most
likely going to ovulate. His sperm would maybe live in me for three
days. I did not want to roll the dice and end up like Lisa. If the
rubber broke, I could get pregnant. Nope, no sex today.
Jim was a little put out.
'Why the change' he asked, ' Two days ago you couldn't seem to get
enough.'
'Jim I am going to ovulate in a few days, right now is like the most
dangerous time'
Thinking that would dissuade him, I turned back to my books. I needed
to figure out how to do these problems before the the next test this
Friday.
'Really, when do you think you are going to ovulate?' Jim asked nonchalonlty
It was Tuesday, I looked up and said 'Thursday, maybe Friday, so we
have to be careful right now.'
'OK, but you might be safe now, and besides I have condoms'
'Might is not good enough. Jim, I am falling in love with you but
want to be careful, If I get to a certain point it might be hard to
stop'
Jim took that as a challenge. I was able to hold off his advances
for the rest of the evening, but it was tough. I was glad to get back
to my dorm.
The rest of the week I stayed in my dorm room after classes. Jim tried
to get me to come over on Thursday. he said he would give me a back
massage but I knew it would not be a good idea. Thursday afternoon
all I could think about was having sex with Jim. I ached to have his
sperm in me, trying and probably getting me pregnant. I was wet all
day Thursday and Friday. I felt the little pinch of ovulation late
Thursday...my researched called it 'mittleschmerz' and I wanted to
call Jim. I was so very fertile at that moment, and horney to boot.
I decided to wait until Saturday and called Jim. he was eager to see
me and we went to his room for a 'study session'. We did not even
bother discussing protection. He came in me like a river and I was
wondering if I had my dates correct. If not, I was going to be very
pregnant in a few hours.
Twelve days later I had my period right on time. I did not even bother
telling Jim when it started. I wanted him to worry for a few days.
Funny thing he never did. I was the one who worried and was both happy
and dissappointed when it started. He just acted like everything was
just fine. I went home that weekend and saw my family. I needed a
break both from Jim and school. It was nice to get back to a safe
harbor. Things seemed to make more sense here. I did not want to get
pregnant, I wanted to finish school.
When I got back Sunday night Jim called and wanted to see me. We went
out and had dinner and he wanted to go to his place for a 'session'.
I told him I had just started my period that day, (even though it
had startrd Friday) and it was not a good idea. He understood and
I could tell he was counting.
'Two weeks from now might be a good time then' Jim said.
'What!!! Are you trying to get me pregnant?' I cried.
'No, but if it happened I would not mind'
I was mad and walked ou tthe door and headed over to my dorm. HE WOULD
GET ME PREGNANT IF I EVEN GAVE HIM HALF THE CHANCE. I thought to myself.
A few days later as my period was ending I started to get that desire
to be next to Jim. I knew I was playing with fire and resolved to
go on te pill. I went to the Student Health Center and spoke with
the doctor there. He said that oral contraceptives were quite safe
and told me how to use them. I could not start them until my next
period though. He wrote the prescription and I took it to my dorm
room.
I was elated to be able to have Jim's sperm in me with it making me
pregnant. I really liked that wet feeling and the knowledge of what
it was trying to do. The more I thought about it the hornier I got.
I called Jim and arranged a 'stusy session' Yeah, like I was going
to study. I was on Jim like a pack of dogs on a three legged cat.
He mentioned something about rubbers. I told him I wanted him to come
in me. I wanted to feel him inside me all day long. I had brought
a mini pad with me thinking it might be needed. I loved feeling his
wetness in me.
I realized that he thought I was ovulating
two days later than I really was. I decided to have fun with a little
role play. At the end of the week when I was actually ovulating I
stayed away from Jim. I wanted to see him soooo badly. I knew if I
had, I would be pregnant. I felt the 'mittleschmerz' and knew that
was the day. I masturbated 4 times that day, but stayed away from
Jim. Two days later Jim and I made very passionate love. I even told
Jim I was ovulating. I told him he had to pull out before I got pregnant.
He just smiled. I told him I could get on top to help control things.
I got on top and was riding him when he said he was about to cum..so
was I. I decided that I was not going to get off. he said he was about
to cum again and then grabbed my hips and pulled them down on himself.
He was cumming in me when he thought I was ovulating. I told him I
loved him and to get me pregnant. That was all it took. We both had
the best and most intense orgasm. I pretended I was actually ovuating
and his sperm were geting me pregnant.
The next day I threw away the prescription
for the pill.
12 days later my period came right on time.
I told Jim that I was not pregnant and that
everthiing was fine and not to worry. It was now March and starting
to get warm. I got into a pair a short shorts and looked at myself
in the mirror. I rubbed my hand accross my flat tummy. I was already
horny for what might happen two weeks from now. 5'6', 110 pounds,
flat tummy to 5'6' and rounded tummy in a few months. I had decided
that getting pregnant was not a bad idea...December baby.
As my period ended I started spending more time with Jim. We made
love every day sometimes twice a day. On wednesday, he asked about
protection and I said he could use it if he wanted. I told him he
could cum in me whenever he wanted. He then asked when I was ovulating...just
to be safe. I told him probably on Saturday. He said that maybe we
should be careful then. I just shrugged and said 'whatever'. I told
him his sperm swam around in me for maybe three days and that I liked
the feeling.
Thursday we had a chemistry test that we both
did pretty well on even though our thoughts were elsewhere. That night
we made love. Jim asked about pulling out and I told him to cum in
me. He asked 'Are you sure, we got luckly last month, we might not
get so lucky this month', I just smiled and sid it would be OK. I
stayed at his place that night and the next morning we made love again.
Three days and they only had to last 1 now. I was probably going to
ovulate that night. We played hookey from school and went on a joy
ride in his car . We found a nice secluded place and made love again
in the late afternoon....without any protection. I was lying there
when I fel a sharp pinch in my side....mittleschmerz.
'Ooops', I smiled as i thought about the millions of sperm in me at
that moment. All of them trying to get me pregnant...and in the next
few minutes to hours one probably would. My hand gently picked up
Jim's hand. I placed his hand on my still flat tummy and said, ' I
am ovulating right now'
Jim said, 'Really, How can you tell?'
'I just know', I said. I asked him if he wanted a boy or a girl.
Two weeks later I was standing in my dorm
bathroom holding what looked like a thermometer, there were two blue
lines. I was surprised, but not too surprised. A smile crept over
my face as I rubbed my still flat tummy. I walked out of my bathroom
and downstairs to show Jim.
He was happy too. We were going to keep our
baby and hopefuly make more as well. .....The sooner the better.
