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>Training Allie part 1, revised and extended {Les Evans} (Mf
>cons reluct rom oral anal mdom 1st fsolo inc bd sm spank
>slave slow) [1/2]
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>"Training Allie" was originally posted as "Allie."
>
>Consider "The Story of O" and "9-1/2 Weeks." This story is
>an exploration of the question: why would any woman consent
>to persist in a relationship that, by any standard, would
>be considered abusive? There are many possible answers,
>each of which could be the basis for other stories. I hope
>that "Allie" presents one answer.
>
>Introduction to Chapters 1-11:
>
>This fantasy has been living in my head for a year, and it
>was time to let it out so maybe it would stop bothering me.
>It concerns the lengthy seduction of a stepdaughter by her
>stepfather.
>
>The phenomenon of 'false memory' is real, and there is a
>real article in "Scientific American" on the subject
>(Scientific American September, 1997, volume 277, number 3,
>pages 70-75). A Google search for "scientific american
>false memory" should pick it up. In any case, I commend it
>to the attention of other authors, particularly in the MC
>genre, because I haven't exploited it to the full.
>
>If you're looking for a stroke story, this probably isn't
>it. All places, events, and persons (including the author)
>are fictitious.
>
>Acknowledgements: The single best example of intentionally
>bad writing I know of, from Penelope Ashe. The idea of the
>notebooks comes directly from "Second Best," by Thinking
>Horndog. A line from "Guns of Navarone," by Alistair
>MacLean. The yoga lesson, from a yoga book by Jean Couch.
>Long after I wrote this, I realized that much of the
>"training" theme was inspired by "Owning Mother and
>Daughter" by Pedro Vila.
>
>Other influences will be obvious to those who spend too
>much time reading this sort of thing. Thanks to all.
>
>Chapter 1: The Perils of Prevarication
>
>Jane Adams was my first wife, and I was her second husband.
>She had been widowed several years earlier by a drunk
>driver, leaving her with an 8-year old daughter to raise on
>her own. She stood up to the challenge, and did her best
>after her own lights, which is as much as anyone can ask of
>a parent. We met in the line of work, found that we hit it
>off, and in due course we decided to marry. After the
>wedding ceremony, which was not memorable to any one not
>directly involved, I moved in with them. Work it out: she
>had a house that had already accommodated a married couple
>with child, and, while I was very well off from my work in
>technical training, I had up to then chosen to stick with a
>bachelor pad. The three of us worked into a comfortable
>household. Jane had traditional views, and changed her last
>name, and her daughter's, to mine (Kennedy, if it matters).
>
>Of my relationship with Jane and her daughter at the time,
>the only element that is germane to this story is that Jane
>had firm and non-negotiable ideas about how her daughter
>should be raised: Catholic/parochial girls' schools, and no
>dating until college. That wasn't right to my way of
>thinking, but Allison wasn't my daughter, and I didn't get
>to vote on it. I'll spare you any stories about sexual
>activities between her daughter Allison (/never/ "Allie")
>and myself as Allison grew up, simply because they didn't
>happen. I did what I could to help with Allison's school
>courses, tried to provide when asked whatever passes for
>wise advice to an adolescent of any gender, be a provider,
>and be a model of the male role. In Jane's mind, the male
>role included the exercise of discipline, on the extremely
>rare occasions that Allison's usually-exemplary behavior
>warranted it. In time, Allison accepted me as Father,
>Version 2.0, and called me "daddy," and no, it didn't give
>me any special charge. When it became clear that the now-
>teenage Allison was beginning to chafe under the "no
>dating" rule, it was made clear that that was Jane's rule,
>and that was that.
>
>Not that my prick didn't scent Allison from time to time.
>Allison had bloomed into a beautiful specimen of the
>feminine gender. But Jane was a good wife--she'd had years
>of practice in a previous successful relationship, after
>all. Some say that the way to a man's heart is through his
>stomach, or his balls. Jane kept both of those avenues well
>serviced. Some say that the way to keep a man faithful is
>to keep him happy, and tired. She ensured that I was both.
>
>Then, near the end of Allison's junior year at Saint
>Virginia High School, the universe of drunk drivers visited
>again, and took Jane from us. In a paradoxical way, Allison
>took it better than I did, perhaps because it had happened
>to her before, and she had learned how to cope, a little.
>We were both damaged--there's no other word for it. No, it
>didn't "drive us together," and I didn't see her step in to
>be "the woman of the house." After a month or so we began
>to return to something like normalcy in our reduced
>household, and we redistributed the chores between the two
>of us.
>
>When the mourning period had passed, I became aware that
>Allison was restless. I had been around her for more than
>several years now, after all, and I'd have to be denser
>than a brick not to pick up on her moods, at least a little
>bit. And I could guess the cause: she was approaching the
>end of her junior year of high school, and she wanted to
>date. Her hormones were undeniably active, witness her
>enchanting growth, and I suspected that she felt that after
>her senior year, she'd be an "old maid." I also suspected
>that she felt that she had a window of opportunity to
>appeal the "no dating" rule that her mother had enforced.
>In any case, I knew enough about parenting not to offer
>advice until it was demanded.
>
>Consequently, it was no great surprise when, one Friday
>evening, in fact, the day she finished her junior year,
>Allison came up to the doorway of the study/office of the
>master bedroom suite and made it clear that she wanted an
>audience. She was still in her school uniform from the day.
>I was sitting at my desk, and she stood across from me.
>
>"Um, daddy, I'd like to talk to you about switching schools
>next year."
>
>"Oh? Where to, and why?"
>
>She had clearly rehearsed this speech in her mind. "I'd
>like to switch to Central High." (the local public high
>school) "I think I'd get a better science education there,
>in prep for going to college. The Sisters at SV" (local
>speak for "Saint Virginia") "don't have the science labs to
>give what it takes to prepare us for the best schools." She
>stopped. End of prepared speech. In her mind, the next
>thing that happens is that daddy agrees.
>
>I regarded her. The silence dragged on, her gaze wavered,
>and she began to shift from one foot to the other. I began
>to show anger.
>
>"Young lady, the last time I visited them, the science labs
>at Saint Virginia appeared entirely up to snuff, and I know
>something about the subject. I don't know why you want to
>switch schools, but it has nothing to do with science labs.
>You're lying to me, Allison, and I don't take kindly to
>being lied to." She went pale.
>
>I made a show of restraining my mounting anger. "I'll offer
>you a choice. I can punish you for your lying, after which
>we can start this discussion over again, without prejudice,
>but with no promises on my decision one way or the other.
>Or, you can avoid the punishment, but go to Saint Virginia
>again next year, no appeals. What is your decision?"
>
>This was clearly not the way she expected or wanted the
>discussion to go. "W-what punishment do--"
>
>I practically frothed, spittle flying. "Stop! This is not a
>negotiation! Which is it--punishment, without knowing what
>it will be, but with a chance to present your case again,
>or Saint Virginia next year?"
>
>Four or five deep breaths on her part, with delightful
>effects upon the front of her white oxford-cloth Catholic
>school blouse. A final shuddering inhalation:
>"Punish...punishment."
>
>I made it look as though I was trying to get a grip on
>myself. "Very well. You will receive a bare-bottom
>spanking, as is just for such an infantile stunt."
>
>"But, I'm too old to--"
>
>I slammed the flat of my hand down on the desktop.
>"Silence!" She flinched. "Once again, which is it?"
>
>Another delightful deep breath. "I'm sorry. P-punish me for
>lying to you, daddy. I want to try again to talk about the
>schools."
>
>I let time pass while I watched her discomfort. I found the
>situation too delicious to rush it. I had spanked Allison
>in the past, but it had been years. Back then, she'd been a
>preteen with the genderless bottom of that age. Now, she
>was a blossoming woman. Oh, goody! Oh, woody!
>
>"Very well, young lady. Over my lap." I'm left-handed, so I
>had her approach around the desk from my left. As I wear my
>wrist watch on my left wrist, I took it off; I remembered
>the bruises it could cause--to me, not to her. She knelt
>down and draped herself over my lap, left to right. The
>sensation of her young breasts on the outside of my right
>thigh was electric. I told her to give me her left wrist,
>which I twisted up between her shoulder blades with my
>right hand to control her struggles, and used my left to
>sweep her plaid school skirt up, tuck it into her
>waistband, and sweep her panties down. She was already
>whimpering.
>
>No time like the present, so I laid into her with all I
>had. When I spank, it hurts everyone involved. Somewhere in
>the back of my mind I was reminded of the old line "This
>hurts me more that it does you." While my hand began to
>smart and swell from the blows I was inflicting, I doubt
>that the old line held in this case: she was rapidly
>reduced to blubbering mush. I don't know how many times I
>struck, but her rump glowed by the time I was unable to
>continue. Frankly, I stopped because the squirming she was
>doing over my lap would have made me come in my pants with
>one more strike, which would not have helped the image I
>was working on. I heard wailing coming from the vicinity of
>my right ankle. My hand would be swollen for several hours.
>Her ass would be red/purple for several days. I thought
>that was fair.
>
>"All right, young lady. Up." I released her wrist, and she
>sobbed to her feet, panties still around her knees, skirt
>still tucked up. "Leave your clothing as it is. Go put your
>nose right in that corner," I pointed, "and stay there
>until I call you." Her face was flushed red, from her head
>having been lower than her body when she was bent over my
>lap, but also from her crying, and from the humiliation of
>the situation. With the tears still streaming, she wiped
>her nose on her wrist, looked at me for a moment through
>swimming eyes, then shuffled as best she could to the
>indicated corner of the room and pressed her nose firmly
>into the plaster. I swear that I could have turned off the
>lights and read a newspaper by the light given off by that
>glowing ass.
>
>I left the room, and spent half an hour in the kitchen with
>my left hand in ice, drinking a Scotch-rocks with my right,
>and thinking about how I wanted the conversation to go,
>before I refreshed my drink and returned to the study off
>the master suite. I switched the icy Scotch tumbler to my
>left hand to continue my treatment. She was exactly where I
>had left her, and her sobbing had subsided to the
>occasional sniffle. I went back to my desk. It was a power
>dynamic, right? The person sitting at a desk has rank on
>the person standing in front of it--think about the last
>time you were in your boss's office. She heard me come in,
>but didn't move. I sat, and waited, watching her bottom.
>
>"Very well, Allison, turn around and put your clothes back
>together." She turned around, unaware that she was giving
>me a breathtaking show, and made a delightful shimmy to get
>the panties back in place. It wouldn't have surprised me
>that she'd rather have avoided the contact of even the
>wispy nylon with her burning rump. She pulled the hem of
>her skirt out of the waistband. "Blow your nose." She did,
>and wound up standing in front of my desk again. "You have
>taken your punishment, and I'll say no more about it. You
>wanted to make a case for switching to Central High. We
>both know that the issue at hand has nothing to do with
>science labs. What does Central have that Saint Virginia
>doesn't?"
>
>She gave me another look, then it all rushed out. "Boys! I
>want to date! Please, daddy...?" and she ran out of steam.
>Well, duh.
>
>I decided that it was time to alter the dynamic of the
>situation. The master suite had a small wet bar. "Allison,
>pour yourself a glass of sherry and join me on the couch."
>Jane and I had let Allison drink a glass of wine with us at
>dinner from time to time. I watched as she poured herself a
>rather full glass, probably thinking sherry was like wine,
>right? I didn't say anything. She came over to the couch,
>put her glass down on the end table, and sat down, v.e.r.y
>carefully. I sipped my Scotch and waited until she nibbled
>her sherry.
>
>"You want to date." It wasn't a question, but she nodded,
>staring at the surface of her sherry as though it held
>answers. Perhaps it did. "So if I had agreed to let you go
>to Central next year, and later you'd asked to date and I
>said 'no,' you'd have accomplished nothing." Another nod,
>and a shuddering sigh.
>
>"Let me draw you a picture, figuratively speaking. If you
>went to Central, you would walk into a social situation as
>a senior where the other boys and girls would have been
>dating for two or three years, and some of them fucking for
>one or two years." Her head whipped around as though I'd
>slapped her. Profanity wasn't often heard under this roof.
>"Look, that's what they'll be talking about at Central, and
>what they'll be calling it. Get over it. The girls will
>have been honing their skills in the dating game for
>several years, and the boys will have expectations about
>what a girl will do on the first date, and the second, and
>so on." She took a bite of her sherry. The level in her
>glass was dropping nicely. I was in full-lecture mode.
>
>"How would you survive, let alone compete? For example, to
>have that hunky guy in your senior physics class ask you
>out, he has to notice you, and think maybe you'll be worth
>his time, more than the girls he's been dating for several
>years. What have the good Sisters taught you about
>attracting male attention?" That got a little rueful smile
>from her. "Then suppose you somehow got a first date. Maybe
>you sink to asking him out. High school boys want one
>thing--sex. It may be your prerogative to meter out the rate
>and kind that you give, but that's what they're after.
>Maybe a kiss at the end of the first date, a grope on the
>second, and so on. If they don't think they're going to get
>what they're looking for, you'll wind up sitting at home on
>Friday nights, and again, you'd have accomplished nothing
>by switching schools. Suppose it's the end of the first
>date, and he tries to French kiss you--if you flinch and
>giggle, the word will be all over school in 30 seconds:
>'Allison Kennedy is a baby, don't waste your time.'" Her
>glass was nearly empty.
>
>"At the other end of the problem, let's assume that you
>develop the skills need to get a boy interested in you, and
>yes, I mean sexually interested. He's going to be doing
>things that will get you 'interested' too. What practice do
>you have in controlling yourself when your hormones get
>flowing? Because without those skills, without that
>practice, your body will take over on autopilot, and you
>could wind up fucking in the back seat of some guy's car,
>just because he kissed your earlobe or something."
>Unconsciously, her hand stole up to her ear. Her glass was
>empty. Time for the close.
>
>"I'll summarize. First, you don't know how to get noticed."
>I ticked the points off on my fingers.
>
>"Second, you don't have the skills to keep a guy aroused
>and interested and wanting more. Why do you care? Because
>in order for him to get 'more,' he's got to ask you out
>again, and that's what /you're/ after, right? Not just a
>first date, but something ongoing, a relationship? For
>which, you've got to be better at those skills than the
>next girl."
>
>Her body language said that she felt like she was being
>pounded into the ground like a tent peg, each of my points
>like the blow of a mallet on the top of her head. Exactly
>the reaction I wanted.
>
>"Third, you don't know what that 'more' would be, how to
>offer and control the progression of increasingly arousing
>activities, activities that the girls at Central have been
>practicing for several years now."
>
>Pound.
>
>"Fourth, once you've got him aroused, you don't have the
>skills to satisfy him or yourself without intercourse,
>because you don't know what the alternatives are to
>fucking. And without those alternatives, you either fuck,
>or you wind up frustrated, both him and yourself, which is
>not the path to happiness."
>
>Pound.
>
>"And finally, you don't have the skills or training to keep
>control of yourself when he arouses you. All of this thanks
>to the good Sisters at Saint Virginia."
>
>Pound
>
>"Have I missed anything?"
>
>Another long silence. She had not raised her eyes from her
>empty glass. A single tear ran down the side of her nose.
>"No, daddy, that's about it. I'll forget about Central."
>She made as though to get up.
>
>"Allison," I said kindly, "just a moment. Let's ignore
>Central for a second. What happens the year after, when you
>go to The College Of Your Choice? Do you think the
>situation will be any better? On the contrary, everyone
>else will have had yet another year of practice. Sending
>you off to college in your current state brings to mind the
>phrase 'a lamb to the slaughter.'" Her eyes were open but
>vacant, seeing I suppose some vision of Hell.
>
>"Look, you're going at this all wrong. This is about skills
>and training and practice, and I know a thing or two about
>training. You finished your junior year today, and have a
>summer ahead of you with no major demands on your time,
>right? I'll give you a chance, if you're willing to work
>for it." She looked up, for the first time in several
>minutes. "I'll work with you to teach the skills you'll
>need. It will take a lot of time, a lot of energy, and a
>lot of focus on your part and mine, and it will involve a
>fair amount of discomfort from time to time, both physical
>discomfort and embarrassment, because you'll be learning to
>do new things you've never done before, and before you can
>make progress you'll need to get over some of the nonsense
>that the good Sisters have been pouring into your head."
>She bristled at this. As much as she wanted out of Saint
>Virginia, they and their kind had built her entire belief
>system for her whole life. Well, we had a summer to work on
>that. A man such as myself could accomplish much in three
>months. "But if, by the end of the summer, you demonstrate
>to me that you've learned all the essential skills, I'll
>switch your registration to Central High and you'll have
>permission to date, if you still want to. Otherwise, Saint
>Virginia next year. It's up to you."
>
>She mulled it over for a long time, maybe three seconds. It
>meant giving up her free time for the summer. And there was
>this worrisome note about "discomfort." But it was the only
>path to what she'd asked for. "OK, daddy. I appreciate it.
>And I'll work hard, honest. Sign me up."
>
>"Very well, Allison. I'll spend some time putting together
>a lesson plan. Come up to the study here after lunch
>tomorrow and we'll get started." She carefully got up and
>walked unsteadily toward the door, having to correct her
>course in mid-flight, as it were. The sherry had hit her
>pretty hard.
>
>Chapter 2: Cats and Dogs
>
>The next day was Saturday. We each had our own errands to
>run in the morning, and finally crossed paths when we wound
>up in the kitchen, each of us foraging for sandwich
>makings. We sat at the kitchen table, munching. She, of
>course, sat carefully. We adjourned to the study.
>
>"OK, daddy, where do we start?"
>
>I looked down at the lesson plan I'd put together. "Well,
>I've blocked out the skills you'll need to demonstrate this
>summer, and the order in which they need to be learned,
>which is more or less the order that you'd need to use them
>in a sequence of dates over a period of months. After
>you've had some time to learn and practice a skill, I'll
>test you on it. The most appropriate method of testing a
>skill mimics the conditions under which you'd use the
>skill." She looked blank. "You need these skills for
>dating, right? We'll go out on a 'date,' you and I, every
>week or so. I'll take the part of your 'boyfriend,' and
>you'll need to show that you can use the skills appropriate
>to that stage of a relationship under simulated 'live
>fire.' Who knows, you might even enjoy the date. They'd
>probably be rather more classy affairs than the pizza and a
>movie you'd likely get from a high school boy on an
>allowance, but that's not all bad." I laid just a little
>disparaging emphasis on "boy." It seemed to me that it
>wasn't too early to start setting her expectations. I had
>my own agenda here. All work and no play, after all.
>
>"So, what's first?"
>
>"Unfortunately, several things. There are three skills that
>need to be second nature, things that you do without
>thinking. I want to get you started on all three today,
>because it will take time for them to become natural, and
>you'll work on them all summer.
>
>"The first skill is managing your posture. You want to
>date, which means that you need to have a first date, which
>means that you need to get noticed. How are you going to
>get a high school boy to notice you from across the room?
>By giving a particularly intelligent answer in calculus
>class?" I snorted, and she giggled, then looked down at her
>chest, and back at me with a question in her eyes. "Right,
>if he notices you, it will be because he notices your body.
>So how do you stand out in a field of other senior girls?
>By using what you've got to best advantage, and not hiding
>it in a teenage slouch."
>
>She squared her shoulders a bit. "That's the general idea,
>and you can do much better with training. There are four
>exercises in this group. And remember, this has to be
>something you do without thinking, a part of how you carry
>yourself, without even realizing it, whether you think
>someone is looking at you or not. We'll begin with a little
>yoga, for which you are not appropriately dressed. I'd
>suggest that you go change into your swimsuit, and I'll
>make a space here on the carpet."
>
>She returned in a few moments, wearing a modest one-piece.
>The bottom almost completely covered the bruises I had
>placed there the day before. I moved easily into my Trainer
>persona. I mean, it's what I do for a living, after all.
>"OK, the basis of posture is the pelvis. We'll begin with
>the 'dog tilt' and 'cat tilt' positions. The purpose of
>these exercises is to make you aware of the bone and muscle
>structure around the pelvis, to do some gentle stretching
>of the lower back, and to strengthen the muscles of the
>abdomen.
>
>"Get down on your hands and knees and make yourself into a
>table, one hand directly below each shoulder, one knee
>directly below each hip. When I say 'cat tilt', you need to
>do several things at the same time: exhale, arch your back
>like an angry cat, let your head drop so that you're
>looking down through the space between your legs, and curl
>the bottom vertebrae of your spine as though you were
>trying to touch your pelvis to your nose. Cat tilt." She
>did nicely. I prompted, "Don't clench your buttocks, hold
>the position with your tummy muscles only. Squeeze every
>particle of air out of your lungs. Curl the spine more.
>Hold it." I put my hands on her belly and at the base of
>her spine and helped her refine the position. I wanted to
>get her used to my touch.
>
>"Now relax" and she dropped back into the neutral position,
>inhaling. "Good. The 'dog tilt' is exactly the opposite:
>when I say 'dog tilt', inhale, raise your head to look
>forward, open your chest, let your upper spine hang from
>your shoulders, and swing the base of your spine back and
>up. Dog tilt. Good, rump up, inhale more, pull all of the
>air in the room into your lungs until they can stretch no
>more." I positioned one hand on each of her hips and made
>some adjustments. "Good. Good. Hold it. Now...'cat tilt.'"
>
>We spend 20 minutes on those poses until I was sure she had
>learned them. She'd worked up a light sweat. "You'll do
>those poses every morning and afternoon for five minutes.
>I've put it on your copy of the homework list.
>
>"With that as a basis, the next exercises will be a little
>easier. Stand up in front of the full-length mirror here.
>We're concerned with both sitting and standing posture, and
>we'll start with standing. Slouch for me. What's that
>position?"
>
>She looked up, puzzled, then her expression cleared. "Oh,
>'cat tilt!', sort of."
>
>"Right. And what's it look like?"
>
>She smiled. "Not much."
>
>"Right. Now, 'dog tilt.'" She did, and her breasts came out
>from wherever the had gone and rose proudly on her chest.
>"Nice, huh?"
>
>She admired herself, then frowned. "But it makes my bottom
>stick out and my tummy bulge!"
>
>"Excellent! No dummy, you! Think of your pelvis as a bowl
>of spaghetti: if you tip it, all the contents run to the
>front and try to flow over the edge. So here's the final
>pose: from the middle of the spine up, 'dog tilt,' and for
>the pelvis, 'cat tilt.' Remember, curl the base of your
>spine. Pull your pubis up into your navel. That's called
>the 'mountain pose,' if it matters." It took her a moment
>to make the neural connections, but she got it right.
>
>"Oh, wow. That flattens my tummy, and raises my, uh,
>bosom."
>
>"Allison, if you use that vocabulary at Central, you'll be
>laughed all the way back to grade school. The boys will
>call them tits, or jugs, or hooters, or boobs, or bazooms,
>or lungs, or knockers, your rack, or two dozen other terms
>you'll pick up in time. But dear, 'bosom' went out with
>Queen Victoria."
>
>She blushed, a charming sight. "OK, it raises my...tits."
>
>"Very good. We'll work on your anatomical vocabulary as we
>go. Now for sitting posture. It's almost the same, except
>that the 'cat tilt' is hard to maintain while sitting. So
>sit on the couch and do a full 'dog tilt.'" She sat, and
>flinched. "Delightful. Sit on the front half of the seat--
>your back should never touch the back of a chair. Yes, I
>know your bottom is still sore. Your back should be very
>straight. Think of a hook descending from the ceiling and
>pulling your head and spine into a column. 'Sit tall.'
>Perfect. You'll consciously work on sitting and standing
>posture for ten minutes every morning and afternoon. The
>muscle-awareness of what good posture feels like should
>trigger the sensation that 'something's wrong' if you let
>it slip. That completes the first two exercises, on pelvic
>and spinal control, sitting and standing. Any questions?"
>
>"No, dad. But you sound an awful lot like you're delivering
>a class in database design, or something."
>
>We shared a laugh. "Sorry, baby. Old habits die hard. Now,
>the third exercise on posture. Here, have a look at this."
>I showed her a Victoria's Secret catalog. "Now that you've
>started to think about posture, look at the models. What do
>you notice about their elbows?"
>
>That one really threw her. Here she was, confronted with
>dozens of images of flesh and nylon, and impossibly
>perfect, well, bosoms, and I wanted her to look at
>/elbows/?
>
>"Uh, oh I see, they're all holding their elbows back."
>
>"Right, so we have the third exercise, to strengthen the
>muscles of your upper back, and to reinforce the 'dog tilt'
>posture of the upper spine." I took out a length of
>broomstick I had cut and steered her over to a spot about
>three feet from the wall. "Now, this is sort of a Zen
>thing. I'm going to give you an instruction that is
>manifestly impossible to do. Don't let that worry you. But
>I do expect you to sweat bullets trying to do it anyhow.
>Understood?"
>
>"I...guess so."
>
>"That's my trooper. OK, here's how this one goes. Stand
>here, proper standing posture, 'dog tilt' above and 'cat
>tilt' below, about three feet from the wall. I want you to
>pull your elbows back, as though you were trying to make
>them touch behind your back. Now, I'll slide this
>broomstick horizontally behind your back--hold it there with
>the crook of your elbows. Got it? Good. Now for the
>exercise. Keep your heels flat on the floor, and look up to
>the place where the wall in front of you meets the ceiling.
>Here we go. Look at that seam between wall and ceiling. I
>want you to touch that seam with your nipples."
>
>She turned and goggled at me. "Remember what I said? I
>don't expect you to succeed, but I do expect you to try
>very, very hard."
>
>"Oh. Uh, ok."
>
>It was magical to watch. Her tits rose another impossible
>inch, and her whole posture fell into line. "Right, keep
>that 'cat tilt' going. I'll be back in a few minutes." And
>I left her to it.
>
>Ten minutes later, I returned. She was again sweating
>lightly from the exertion, even though she was motionless.
>Kind of an isometric exercise. "Don't change your position,
>and tell me about your sensations. What's your body saying
>to you?"
>
>"I'm getting sore between my shoulder blades. My rib cage
>feels like it's expanded. I can feel the muscles in my
>tummy pulling up on my pelvis."
>
>"Terrific! Damn, you're good! Now, relax." She positively
>wilted with relief. I took the broomstick from her. "Those
>are the sensations that tell you that your posture is
>perfect. If ever you /don't/ feel like that, something's
>wrong. You'll do that exercise for five minutes every
>morning and every afternoon, just to remind your muscles of
>what they should feel like. It's on your copy of the
>homework list. Here's some water. Only one more exercise in
>this set, baby, and we'll take a break, OK?"
>
>"Sure. I'm getting tired."
>
>"I don't wonder. Fortunately, the last exercise is more
>mental than physical. I need you to do some mental imaging.
>Close your eyes. Remember when you worked at the library
>last year? I saw you pushing around some heavy carts of
>books. Whenever you went through a doorway, the cart went
>first, and you followed it into the room. Got that image?
>Make a mental movie of it. Feel it in your muscles. Now, in
>the movie, it's not a cart of books, but your tits that
>you're pushing. Heavy, and way out in front of you. They
>enter the room first, the rest of you follows along. Play
>that movie."
>
>Eyes closed, she got an embarrassed little smile. "I see
>it."
>
>"Here's another image. Two famous and powerful people are
>walking briskly down a corridor, side by side, trailed by
>short female assistant behind and between them. She almost
>has to jog to keep up. At the end of the corridor, they
>sweep into a room. Everyone pays attention to the famous
>people, who are imposing and handsome, while mousy little
>secretary behind and between them is ignored and almost
>invisible. Got it?"
>
>Another smile. "I think I know where this one is going."
>
>"Of course. Nobody said you were slow. Ok, now alter the
>image. The famous people are your jugs. Their faces are
>your nipples. The little office girl is the rest of
>Allison. In your mind, play a movie of the three of you
>entering that room."
>
>"Not good for the self-esteem."
>
>"Aw, don't start. If it bugs you, remember that the three
>of you have to work together. Or come up with your own
>movie, the exact image doesn't matter. Now, enough for one
>session. You're off for the rest of the afternoon. Take it
>easy and relax. Be conscious of your posture, and every
>time you go through a doorway, lead with your chest. I'll
>see you at dinner."
>
>"Thanks, dad. Whew, what a workout." She followed her
>nipples out of the room.
>
>I smiled. Things were starting well.
>
>Chapter 3: Arousal and Relief
>
>It was my night to make dinner, and I did some simple fish
>thing. Allison had changed from her swimsuit into a spring
>dress. I gave her one, ONE, glass of wine with dinner, not
>enough to get her tipsy. After we cleaned up the kitchen,
>we adjourned to the living room. It was still pretty early.
>
>"All right, Allison, this afternoon you learned some skills
>that should help you get noticed, help you get first dates
>with guys in your classes. What happens at the end of the
>first date?"
>
>"He brings me home?"
>
>"Well, we can hope so. And you're standing on your
>doorstep. What does he expect?"
>
>"Oh. The goodnight kiss."
>
>"Right. Without which, will there be a second date?"
>
>"Probably not."
>
>"So here we have another essential skill, and we're going
>to spend the next hour on it."
>
>I turned down the lights, and we did, delightfully. We had
>to get beyond the peck on the cheek, and the tongue thing,
>but after twenty minutes or so she really started to get
>into it. I won't claim to be an Olympic Medallist in
>kissing, but she didn't have much to compare me with. The
>smell of feminine musk became noticeable, and she wasn't
>paying a lot of attention to where I was putting my hands.
>At the end of the hour, I broke the clinch, and waited for
>our breathing to return to normal.
>
>"Oh, daddy, I never knew..."
>
>"Allison, you're a gifted student and a delightful lab
>partner." She blushed. "We'll do a lot of that this summer.
>But you remember what I said about needing to deal with
>your own arousal, so you wouldn't lose track of what was
>going on and do something you'd regret? Look down at your
>dress."
>
>"Aack! Daddy, you...." And she hurriedly buttoned up, and
>pulled down the hem of her dress. Her blush, impossibly,
>had become deeper.
>
>"Right. Have I made my case?"
>
>"Yes, but geez, daddy, you shouldn't be touching my..." she
>paused, searching for another word "...knockers. You're my
>stepfather!"
>
>"We'll talk a lot about relationships and their limits this
>summer, Allison. But I had to shock you, because if you
>didn't believe in the power of your hormones, you wouldn't
>do what had to be done to deal with them."
>
>"OK, OK, I'm shocked. I believe. But geez. So what is this
>magic antidote? Cold showers?"
>
>I smiled. "Nope, just the opposite. Cold showers sounds
>like 'mortification of the flesh,' good Catholic doctrine,
>but not very good for relationship management or mental
>health, And not effective in the long run. No, the strategy
>here is to permit yourself to be aroused, knowing that you
>can release the frustration at a time and place of your own
>choosing."
>
>"That sounds suspiciously like, well, masturbation." She
>made it four distinct syllables, and it was clear that each
>of the four distinct syllables of the word tasted bad on
>her tongue.
>
>"Yes, Allison, that's..."
>
>"But the Sisters say that's a sin! Touching yourself 'down
>there' is self-abuse, it makes you want to have sex, it...!"
>
>"Allison, down!" She stopped, and deflated. "Let me show
>you why the good Sisters have it all backwards. The object
>of the exercise here is to /avoid/ intercourse, not to pave
>the way to it." Well, that was half the truth. And maybe
>not all of a lie. "If you find yourself on a date feeling
>like you did a moment ago, thinking that if you don't do
>something you'll explode, with no relief in sight, isn't
>the natural impulse to "go all the way?" But if you know
>that you can provide yourself with relief in just a few
>minutes, isn't it more likely that you can use that to hold
>on to your principles just a little longer?"
>
>"Well, if you put it that way."
>
>"I do put it that way. And there's more." OK, the other
>half of the truth. "The time will come as a relationship
>develops that you will want your boyfriend, or lover, or
>husband to bring you to orgasm. The female body is a
>wonderful thing, because the more often a girl comes, the
>easier it is for her to come. Your lover will feel pleased
>and proud of himself if he can bring you off quickly. And
>you can make that easier for both of you by practicing your
>orgasm, frequently."
>
>A tiny nod. She was mortified to be discussing this. Too
>bad. I told her she'd have that feeling when she signed up
>for this.
>
>"Finally, 'playing with yourself' provides a good tool for
>evaluating possible relationships." I'd lost her again.
>"Look, you have fantasies, daydreams about guys, right?"
>More blushing, just visible in the dim light. "I'll take
>that as a 'yes.' You imagine different situations,
>sometimes he's a strong adventurer, sometimes a nurturing
>homebody, sometimes he sweeps you off your feet, sometimes
>he pursues you on bended knee...." An anatomical mixed
>metaphor there, I realized. Oh well. "You have the
>opportunity to find out whether a kind of relationship
>really lights your fire. If you find yourself masturbating
>with one particular image more often than others, that may
>be a sign that that's the kind of relationship you seek at
>that point in your life. You can 'try on' a lot of
>different relationships, keep the ones that work, discard
>the ones that don't, and no one needs to know. It's a lot
>cheaper than divorce."
>
>"But..."
>
>"Allison, masturbation is one of the essential skills you
>need to demonstrate to get to Central High. What's it to
>be?"
>
>A long pause, stretching into minutes. She studied her lap.
>Then, very quietly, "OK, what do I do?"
>
>I silently let out a breath I didn't know I'd been holding.
>That had been the Rubicon. After this, it would all be
>easier.
>
>"Tonight, we'll go back to kissing. It should be obvious,
>but the rules of posture don't apply. Take off your
>panties--look, dammit, it's not as though I didn't get well
>acquainted with that end of you yesterday!" She remembered
>the spanking with chagrin, and swallowed her objection.
>"When you begin to feel aroused, go ahead and touch
>yourself in any way that feels good. And I'll offer
>direction as best I can. I'm just a guy, but I have some
>experience with female anatomy."
>
>"OK, but don't look."
>
>"Oh, come on. How can I tell you how to get better if I
>can't see what you're doing?"
>
>"Humph."
>
>And then we were back at the kissing game, in each other's
>arms. Actually, she was in my arms. After a little while,
>hers were otherwise occupied.
>
>"Allison." Her head came up and she tried to focus. "Eyes
>open. You'll want to watch your lover, and he will want to
>watch you. Don't close your eyes." After that I didn't
>really need to do much to help things along, the occasional
>caress, a word of direction now and then, a kiss on an
>earlobe, and in a while she was bucking and shuddering
>against me. And she dissolved into tears. Good, I thought,
>almost certainly her first orgasm, looking into my face,
>and with my arms around her, with my hands on her skin. If
>there's anything to "imprinting," we should be well on our
>way.
>
>"Shh, baby, wasn't that good?"
>
>Her reply was inaudible. Slowly she returned to reality,
>and pulled down her dress. "I...need to pee."
>
>"Of course, baby. But come back."
>
>She reappeared in a few minutes. It looked as though she'd
>splashed some water on her face. "Allison, look at me." She
>dragged her eyes up off the carpet, and I took her hands in
>mine and looked into her eyes. "You can't know how honored
>I am to have been here for that." A little half-smile from
>her. "You'll do that at least twice a day, once each day in
>front of me." Her eyes got wide, but I bulldozed ahead. "As
>I said, part of the value of masturbation is that it let's
>you 'try out' relationships. Here's a stack of stories,
>each of which is an example of some relationship."
>Wonderful thing, ASSTR.ORG. "Read one each time you play
>with yourself, and sort them into folders I'll give you--one
>each for 'Ugh!', or 'Nice', or 'Oh, wow!'" Over time, you
>may begin to see a pattern in the ones that light your
>fire. Review the folders now and then. Again, Allison,
>thank you. It's been a wonderful evening." And I meant it.
>
>And so to bed. I had a date with my hand.
>
>Chapter 4: Mutual of Omagawd
>
>The next morning, Sunday, got going slowly. I was down in
>the kitchen working my way through a cup of coffee when
>Allison made her appearance, following her nipples into the
>room. Her posture was perfect. I wasn't sure, but I thought
>she looked a little flushed. In any case, she avoided my
>eyes.
>
>"Allison." Finally she looked up. "Good morning,
>beautiful." I kissed her, at considerable length. If she
>wasn't flushed before, she was now.
>
>"Good morning, dad." A shy smile.
>
>I took her hands and brought them to my nose for a sniff.
>"Good girl." I'm sure she wanted the floor to open up and
>swallow her. "Now, none of that. You've done a beautiful
>thing. You had a lot to absorb yesterday, so nothing new
>today. Just keep up with the exercises in your homework
>list. We'll do a refresher this evening after dinner.
>Otherwise, go enjoy the day."
>
>That evening, after dinner was cleared, we went up to the
>study. I had her bring her sheaf of stories, and make
>herself comfortable on the couch, with a good reading
>light. I said, "OK, peel off a story and go ahead and
>'enjoy yourself.' I may coach from time to time, but
>otherwise I'm not here." This was a new situation for her.
>This morning, she had done the deed in the privacy of her
>room, and yesterday, it had been in the heat of the clinch.
>Now, she had to bring herself off, from a standing start,
>and with a watcher. I gave her a glass of sherry and went
>to my desk, pretending to work. The configuration of the
>room for this exercise was no accident: she was more-or-
>less facing me. I wanted her looking at me as she came.
>After a moment of hesitation her eyes dropped to the page
>and she submerged herself in the story, this one with a
>strong theme of dominance and submission. I had taken care
>to ensure that her pile of stories had that theme well
>represented. A few pages into the story, she dipped her
>hand into her shorts and began stroking, and a bit later
>she laid down the story, closed her eyes, and began to work
>herself in earnest.
>
>"Allison. Eyes open. Try pinching your nipples." She was
>far enough gone that she didn't try to respond verbally.
>The fantasy and her own manipulations took over again, and
>though her eyes were glazed, seeing god knows what, but
>they were open and pointed in my general direction. Good
>enough. A few minutes later she came, with something
>between a groan and a whimper. I let her recover, then
>said, "That was beautiful. Thank you." I gave her a
>thorough goodnight kiss, and sent her to her room with a
>"See you in the morning. Remember your exercises. And you
>have a date on Saturday. Some guy is going to take you to
>dinner and the Opera."
>
>The next morning brought a new work week, and I did have to
>make a buck. I spent most of the day trying to nail down
>some training contracts with three potential clients. The
>bad news was that two of them took lower-priced bids from
>competitors, but hey, if you're never underbid, you're not
>charging enough. The good news was that the third one
>signed, and would give my small organization all the work
>it could handle for a month, at a premium rate. So I was
>feeling pretty good about the day as evening approached. It
>was then that I realized I hadn't seen Allison all day. As
>I was pouring myself a Scotch, and laying out things for
>dinner, she made her appearance in the kitchen, in a little
>wrap dress thing I hadn't seen before.
>
>I'm slow, but two and two eventually got together.
>"Shopping day?"
>
>She smiled, almost coquettishly, the first full,
>unembarrassed smile I'd seen from her for several days. She
>did a spin in the dress, which resulted in showing an
>improbable amount of thigh. "Yes. If I'm going to have a
>date at the Opera this weekend, I need to have the weapons
>and the warpaint." Good, she was getting into this.
>
>I smiled back. "That wasn't the only purchase, then? Do I
>hear my credit cards whimpering? I think a sauvignon blanc
>with this fettuccini--would you drag one out of the cooler?"
>And we were off into the evening.
>
>Later, we convened in the living room. I put on some quiet
>jazz, and turned down the lights.
>
>"Let's review."
>
>She rolled her eyes. "Yes, teacher." But she smiled when
>she said it.
>
>"You've got the skills, and the body, to get a first date.
>You are starting to get some experience dealing with what
>it feels like when your hormones start pumping. And you're
>starting to get some practice with what to do to relieve
>yourself when aroused. But what about your date?"
>
>"My date?"
>
>"Come now, dear. Guys have needs, too. If you aren't
>thinking about where his hormones are taking him, if you
>aren't one step ahead, then you're hopelessly behind."
>
>"Oh. Well, can't he go home and 'play with himself?' This
>cuts both ways, doesn't it?"
>
>"Sure he can. And will, at first. But string that along too
>far, and he'll go elsewhere, or deliver an ultimatum along
>the lines of 'Put out or I'm gone.' You don't want that,
>because at this phase of things, you want to avoid
>intercourse, but you want to keep the relationship going.
>You don't want to have to choose between. So you want to
>take things gradually, as you sense the kind of
>relationship it's going to be, and whether you want that
>relationship, and with this guy. But the time will come
>when you need to do more than arouse and frustrate him, if
>you want to keep him. Think about the feelings you've been
>able to give yourself over the last few days. Imagine what
>a gift you'd give your lover to make him feel like that,
>and to have him give you those feelings in return. Whether
>you call it 'heavy petting' or 'mutual masturbation', it's
>a wonderful experience. And it's tonight's lesson."
>
>She swallowed, hard, at that one. "Here we go again," she
>said.
>
>I made a show of exasperation. "Dammit, I didn't come to
>you and say 'Please let me teach you about sex.'"
>
>Actually, I'd said something more like, I'll teach you
>about sex or else.
>
>I continued, "Look, if this isn't what you want, I've got
>other things to do." And, I didn't have to add, you will go
>to Saint Virginia in the fall.
>
>"No, no, I'm sorry. You're right. How do we start?"
>
>"I don't want to spoil that nice cocktail dress. Change
>into your robe and meet me here in fifteen minutes." I used
>the time to change into my own robe, pour us a couple of
>glasses of wine, and spread out some cushions on the living
>room floor.
>
>"So, we meet again, my pretty," I said, twirling an
>imaginary moustache. She snickered. "OK, I get no respect.
>Join me here and let's neck." And we did. When things had
>warmed up sufficiently, I said, with as steady a voice as I
>was able, "The way this will work is, I will do for you
>what you've been doing for yourself the last several
>nights, and you will do for me what I've been doing for
>myself the last several nights."
>
>Her fogged vision cleared for a moment, and she said, "Oh.
>Oh my" as the realization of what I'd said, and what it
>implied, hit home.
>
>I continued, "Feel free to coach me, as I will coach you."
>And I reached for her. She flinched at my touch. I took it
>very slow, because after all this was to be a learning
>experience for her, so it wouldn't do to have her too
>worked up to think. I dialed my fingers to "simmer" and
>waited. She hesitantly opened my robe, and came face-to-
>face, or face-to-cock, with her first penis. I'm only
>average, but again, she didn't have anything for
>comparison, and I was gratified by her response.
>
>"Go ahead and explore. If you're gentle you can't hurt me."
>She looked as though she'd rather touch a corpse, but my
>caresses had her going, and she reached out with her
>fingertips and made contact. Of course, I already was fully
>erect. I'd have had to be a corpse to be otherwise. "A
>little bit about the male anatomy that the good Sisters
>didn't tell you. That's the head, or crown, and the rim you
>see there is very sensitive. Run the tips of your fingers
>around it. Ahhhh....good. Wrap your fingers around the base,
>a little more firmly, and stroke upwards. Uhh. You're doing
>fine. Now relax your fingers until you're barely making
>contact, and stroke downwards. Ahh...nd repeat. Loose on the
>down stroke, firm on the upstroke. Yes."
>
>I shut up at that point, because she was doing fine, and
>because I was finding it very hard to speak. And this was
>not the time to teach her the subtleties of the hand-job.
>So I concentrated on keeping her just below a boil, with
>pleasant results. Maybe she'd learn a thing or two about
>how to do herself. The hard part here was trying to achieve
>near-simultaneous orgasm. You know the old one: "To go
>together is blessed, to come together is divine." Not that
>it was indispensable, but at this stage of her training,
>the associations would help matters along.
>
>"Baby, slow down for a minute, let me talk." I was on the
>edge, and while she was still hearing me, I sensed she was,
>too. "When girls come, it's usually rather tidy. The good
>Sisters have told you about semen. When men come, it makes
>a bit of a mess. I'm going to come about when you do, and
>it may get a trifle sloppy. Don't let it put you off. OK,
>here we go." I put my mouth back over hers and, as I felt
>that familiar almost-painful sensation begin to build in my
>crotch, I diddled her clit for all I was worth. She lost
>control of her body, yelling into my mouth as she came, and
>damned if she didn't try to rip my dick out of my groin in
>her convulsions. But that sent me over the edge, too. And
>she kept the soft-down, hard-up rhythm the whole time.
>
>It took several minutes before either of us was aware of
>the outside world. I kissed the side of her neck and said,
>"Thank you."
>
>She looked down at her hand, now aware of my goo on her
>fingers, which were still wrapped around my shrinking cock.
>"Did I do that?" she said with wonder in her tone.
>
>"Yes, baby, and very well you did it, too."
>
>She giggled. "Like you said, a bit of a mess. What do I do
>about it?"
>
>"Very good" I said. "If not quite one step ahead, at least
>catching up fast. The answer is, whatever you want. Most
>men find it intensely sexy if you lick it up. You could
>clean it up with a washrag. Or leave it to be my problem.
>It's your call."
>
>Though she didn't move a millimeter, physically, I could
>sense that she recoiled from the image, but she kept her
>hand around me. After a minute or so, she shivered a bit,
>looked back into my eyes, then bent around to clean up her
>hand, my dick, and my belly with her tongue. It was
>heavenly.
>
>When she was done, she came back up and nestled in the
>crook of my arm. The expression on her face and the tension
>in her body told me that she was, as they say, 'deeply
>conflicted.' "Allison," I said. She looked up. "Thank you."
>And I kissed her deeply. I tasted myself on her tongue, not
>my favorite sensation, but this was all for the greater
>cause. The kiss went on. And on. After a while I felt her
>relax in my arms, as if she had come to terms with what
>she'd done with her hand and her mouth. Yet later she broke
>the kiss.
>
>"Jack," she said. I looked at her. That was the first time
>she'd used my given name. "Thank you." And she put her head
>back on my chest. A long while later, I sent her to her
>room, and tidied up the living room.
>
>Chapter 5: Celeste Aida
>
>The rest of the week, I left her pretty much to her own
>devices. I didn't touch her, once.
>
>We had the usual cursory chat at breakfast/coffee before I
>dove into work each day. Somebody had to pay those credit
>card bills. We had a pleasant dinner together, one or the
>other of us doing the cooking. Every evening, she would
>read a dirty story to herself and masturbate on the couch
>in the study in opposite me, her eyes on me. I would remind
>her to do her "exercises." And that would be that. Except
>that I would find her watching me from time to time. When I
>made eye contact, she would blush and vanish into her room.
>And we were back to "dad," not "Jack."
>
>And we both knew we had a 'date' coming up on Saturday. I
>told her, "Look, forget if you can that this is some sort
>of 'test.' I'm going to treat you the way you should expect
>and demand to be treated on a date. Here's the scenario. Be
>dressed and ready at 5PM. I will drive up to the front
>curb. I will come to the front door, not honk the horn. I
>will come in to the house to greet you, not expect you to
>come out to the car. If I were going to do this really
>right, I'd have a discussion with your father about my
>'honorable intentions,' but I don't feel right talking to
>myself." She laughed into her hand. "We'll do whatever the
>date is, in this case, dinner and the Opera. Relax and
>enjoy yourself--if you can't, one of us is doing something
>very wrong. If you don't feel like a princess at least at
>some time during the evening, ask yourself whether you want
>another date with this clown. But will you be 'one step
>ahead' of me? In this case, assume that we've been dating
>for a couple of months, progressed to necking and touchy-
>feely, but you've refused more. I've made it clear that I'm
>ready for more than a smooch and a grope, and I'm about out
>of patience. Otherwise, tonight is a 'last hurrah.' You've
>decided that the relationship has matured enough for the
>next step. Sometime during the evening you'll have an
>opportunity to show off the skills you've been learning.
>Let the situation develop. Play the role. Take the
>initiative if feels right. You're a high school girl being
>taken on a date by an 'older man' named 'Jack.' As an
>instructor, I'll be watching for your technical execution
>of the skills, but more importantly for your judgment on
>what's called for given the development of the
>relationship. As your date, I'll bring you home and walk
>you to the front doorstep. If the evening has gone well,
>I'll kiss you goodnight. Again, in the real world I'd turn
>you back over to your father, but too bad. I'll drive away.
>A few minutes later I'll park the car in the garage, and we
>can 'drop role' and do a post mortem of the evening over
>coffee or drinks. OK?"
>
>And so it happened that in the fullness of time Saturday
>rolled around. I put on the suit that I kept in the closet
>for meetings with other 'suits', dragged the Lexus out of
>the garage, drove around the block, and pulled up to my own
>front door. Funny, I had to corral the butterflies in my
>gut as though I were a teenager again. Deep breath, Jack,
>and center. I walked up to the house and pushed the button.
>After making me wait just the right amount of time, the
>door opened, and there was my Allison. No, not my Allison.
>She stood, well, regally. A teenage incarnation of sex, in
>another dress I'd never seen, a maroon item that was
>classy, but too tight in too many places, too short in too
>many others. If I were acting as her father, I'd forbid
>her....
>
>"Jack!" she squealed, and was in my arms. Instant erection.
>No wonder I was dizzy: all the blood in my brain had rushed
>to my dick. She twisted around in my arms to face the open
>front door. "Daddee!," she tossed over her shoulder into
>the hallway behind her, "byee!" Never mind that the house
>she was shouting into was empty, it was clear that she was
>into the role. She freed one arm from my embrace to close
>the door behind her and offered me that arm. "Shall we?"
>
>I won't bore you with the most of the proceedings.
>
>Dinner was at a small, quiet restaurant on the fringe of
>downtown. We were early enough that the dining room was
>mostly vacant. Service was instant without hovering, the
>scallops were perfectly done, and we begged off of dessert
>lest we fall asleep during the Opera. Allison glowed. Her
>spine never touched the back of the seat.
>
>And then the Opera. Ah, yes. Verdi's "Aida," and not by
>accident. The next week would have been "Othello," which
>wouldn't have done at all. But here we have the queen
>enslaved, falling in love with her owner, who has fallen in
>love with her. Perfect. As we waited at the curb for the
>car afterward, Allison gushed about the lead soprano. I
>turned to her, wrapped my hand under her chin, kissed her,
>and said, "But who had the power in that relationship?" I
>might as well have spoken Swahili. But the question sank
>in, and I could almost hear the gears turning in her head
>on the silent drive home.
>
>"OK," she finally said. "I think I get it. It's a kind of
>vicious circle, isn't it?" I glanced over her as I drove,
>her face illuminated by the instrument lights on the
>dashboard, and kept my mouth shut. "I mean, they owned her,
>she was property, like...I don't know...a pet rock, or a
>goldfish, or something." She shivered. "Aida was a slave,
>for chrissake! So he had the power. But he loved her. So
>she had the power. She betrayed him, and when he was
>punished for what he'd done for her, she found that she
>loved him, and he had the power. And then around it went
>until it blew up. And everybody died, of course, like all
>operas."
>
>I said I thought that would do as a plot synopsis. As I got
>back to our suburb and pulled off at the usual exit,
>Allison turned to me and said, "Could we stop by Cornell
>Park, 'Jack,' just for a couple of minutes? I don't have to
>be home just yet." I said sure. Cornell Park was a small
>park in a nice neighborhood cut off by the way the freeways
>had cut through the town, and there wasn't a lot of traffic
>through that area. I pulled into a dark spot and cut the
>engine. The almost imperceptible grumble of the engine died
>away, and she was in my arms, her lips to mine, pressed to
>me as best she could over and around the center console of
>the Lexus. Damn, I hate making out in a car. I thought I
>got over that when I got my own place. One of us was going
>to need a chiropractor. I pushed her back. "Allison," I
>said, staying in role, "we need to talk about whether this
>relationship can continue like this. I really don't think I
>want to hurt you by...."
>
>"Please?" she interrupted me. I played dumb. "Please," she
>said again, "touch me, there?" She had twisted around so
>that she was lying across the two seats, facing rearward,
>and therefore facing me, and her hand fell to open my fly
>and begin her own kneadings. Her position made it easier
>for me to put my right hand where it needed to go, to do
>what it needed to do. The whole thing was not quite
>anatomically impossible.
>
>Never one to refuse a desperate woman, I ran my fingertips
>beneath the hem of her dress and up her thigh. "Imagine my
>surprise," as the saying goes, when I found, not pantyhose,
>not panties, but thigh-high stockings and moist flesh.
>"Well, what do we have here?" I said as I commenced
>exploratory manipulation. "Sluts dress like this. Are you a
>slut, or do you just dress like one?"
>
>She began to squirm under my efforts. "Ah, 'Jack,' you know
>I want keep seeing you, but I've been raised to be a 'good
>girl.' I've held you off, I know you're fed up, but can you
>accept that I want to take it slow? Can I make it up to you
>a little, like...this?" A squeeze. "I've never...touched any
>man...like...this before." Academy Award stuff, this. And loose
>on the down stroke, firm on the upstroke. Where did she
>learn that little twist of the wrist? OJT? "Tonight felt
>special. I knew I was ready to give you more, at least a
>little more. At the intermission I knew I didn't want
>anything to get in the way, so visited the little girl's
>room to...clear the way. For you. I'm not a slut, ah, yes,
>there, but I'm beginning to think I might want to be /your/
>slut, if you'll...teach me? Am I, am I doing it right, for
>you?" Real desperation in her voice, or at least, really
>good acting of real desperation. I found that I didn't care
>which.
>
>My efforts were being rewarded, as were hers. Both of us
>were standing on the cliff. I drew a ragged breath. "Baby,
>I'm going to make a mess on my suit if you do that any
>longer." Her eyes focused on my face as best she could, and
>she made a little smile without slacking the motions of her
>hand. Then the next thing I knew, her mouth was around the
>head of my cock and I was erupting into that hot cavern,
>and her thighs clenched around my hand as I pushed her off
>of her own cliff.
>
>The short drive home was, you'll forgive the expression,
>anticlimactic.
>
>I did the walk, did the kiss at the front door, did the
>"I'll call you this week, maybe" and she let herself in
>and, with a lingering glance, closed the door. Through the
>closed door I heard "Dadeee, I'm hoome." I shook my head,
>took a deep breath, and went back to drive the car into the
>garage.
>
>By the time I got into the house, she was in her robe, and
>had a sherry for herself and a Scotch for me already made.
>I excused myself to change, hung up my suit, and was back
>in the living room in a few minutes. We sat in our robes
>and nibbled our drinks, and I said, "OK, post mortem time.
>Talk to me."
>
>She looked up at me through her eyelashes (where do they
>learn that?). "What do you want me to say? What an evening!
>You told me I should feel like a princess. I did. I had a
>relationship with 'Jack' that I wanted to keep going, but
>'he' was tired of waiting for me to decide to keep 'him'
>happy, happier than I'd been willing to do in the past. I
>wanted the relationship to continue. I made some decisions,
>dressed for the occasion, took some risks, and used what
>I've been taught." She paused, with a small smile. "Tell
>me, 'Jack', how did I do?"
>
>It was odd, being referred to by my own name as though it
>were a pseudonym. I tried to put on my face of an
>instructor doing an evaluation. It didn't work. "Ahhh.
>Where do I start? You did fine. More than fine. Obviously,
>you ...." Damn. OK, Jack, another deep breath. "Two things. I
>was astonished when you took me in your mouth. Very good.
>Oh, very good. On the other hand, you might have been a
>little more 'hard to get.'"
>
>She placed the brilliantly red nail of her forefinger to
>her brilliantly red lips and put on a wide-eyed, puzzled
>expression. It was a caricature, a '50s pinup. "Hard to
>get!? But Jackee, baby, whatever would I have done with my
>hands?" We both collapsed in roars of laughter. I sent her
>to her room, and went upstairs.
>
>Chapter 6: Relational Data
>
>So we started July with a certain amount of momentum, and I
>made some changes in our routine. She still did her posture
>exercises, and twice a day read her smut while
>masturbating. Maybe more that twice a day, for all I know.
>Her three folders of stories were filling up.
>
>No, the changes were more subtle. The training always
>remained separate from our day-to-day relationship, but a
>little less so. I stopped referring to the weekly testing
>events as 'dates.' They were always for testing purposes,
>but they became dates, without the quotation marks, and
>then became just enjoyable special things we did together,
>that provided an environment for the testing. I stopped
>being 'Jack,' some fictitious guy she had a 'date' with,
>and was myself, a stepfather trying to teach his
>stepdaughter what she needed to know to get along, and show
>her a good time in the process. And after our weekly dates,
>we brought things to a climax, so to speak, in my bed. No
>more wrestling in cars, thank you. The post mortems
>continued, as we cuddled and talked about our sensations.
>But when we were done, I always sent her back to sleep in
>her own bed. This process was still 'training,' and not an
>almost-incestuous affair. We had started the process with a
>goal, and it was continuing toward that goal, even though
>we didn't speak of it any more.
>
>And after the first 'date,' I didn't bring up Central High,
>or high school boys.
>
>All the same, if I wanted to have a harvest at the end of
>the summer, I needed to plant some seeds now. They would
>take time to sprout.
>
>"Allison, tell me what you know about relationships." I
>loved dropping these things on her out of the blue. But I'd
>done it often enough now that she had learned to keep her
>mouth shut until she'd begun to organize an answer.
>
>"You mean, like husband-wife?"
>
>"Be more general. People relationships."
>
>"Hm. From what I can see, one way to organize them is by
>how much they have legal recognition. You've got employer-
>employee, which often has a written contract, husband-wife
>which may, boyfriend-girlfriend which won't, and like
>that."
>
>"Fine. Take that set, though obviously there are others, of
>varying durations: shop clerk-customer, parent-child, ex-
>husband-ex-wife. Pimp-whore." She gave me a shocked look.
>Still some prudishness left from Saint Virginia. "Each one
>is a type of relationship. Generalize across all of them.
>What's a relationship?"
>
>"They all have a set of assumptions and permissions, I
>guess. Each participant assumes certain things about the
>behavior of the other, and gives permission for behaviors
>to the other."
>
>"A little pop-psych, but that's a start. And are the
>assumptions and permissions permanently defined?"
>
>"Sometimes, in part." The girl would make a good consultant
>someday. "I mean, take husband-wife. There are legal
>restrictions, like about economic support, and assumptions,
>about sex and such. Some behaviors society or laws don't
>permit in a relationship if anyone complains, like abuse in
>a marriage, or intercourse between a parent and child.
>Beyond that, I guess the couple gets to choose, like who
>takes out the garbage."
>
>I summarized, "So all relationships of any type are not the
>same, and any given type of relationship may change, within
>limits, over time. No surprise: look at us, stepfather-
>stepdaughter. We changed our relationship in some ways when
>Jane died, and again when we began this training. And
>usually, two people can change the /type/ of relationship
>they're in, if they choose. Of course, some types of
>relationship are forever and can't be left behind, like
>biological parent and child. But generally, you see changes
>of type all the time: clerk-customer become boyfriend-
>girlfriend, become husband-wife, become father-mother,
>become ex-husband-ex-wife. Relationships often fall apart
>if the permissions and assumptions of one party don't match
>the other's. Sometimes two people can't find a 'pre-
>defined' relationship that works for them, and have to make
>up a new type of their own. And each change of type has a
>ceremony or event that marks the transition, maybe as
>simple as the first kiss, maybe signing a contract, maybe
>as elaborate as a church service."
>
>"Sure, what's the point?"
>
>"Exactly, what's the point of all this training you asked
>for?" Well, she didn't exactly ask for it, but I took every
>opportunity to confuse her recollections on that point.
>"Why do you want to date? Is this just in support of, I
>don't know, 'random social activity?' Does it stop at that,
>or are you looking beyond that to a goal, something more
>permanent, and if so, have you thought about what you want?
>You want to land a guy? If so, how do you choose which one
>to go after? What's the relationship you want? How do you
>want to be treated? What lights your fire? As you said,
>what's the point? I don't want an answer. I don't expect
>you to have an answer, and if you did, I expect it would
>change as you grow. But to misquote the Cheshire Cat, if
>you don't have an idea of the relationship you want to wind
>up in, any guy is as good as any other. Think about it as
>you go through the summer." I went off to make lunch. All
>this hoeing and seeding was hard work. Out of the corner of
>my eye, I saw her pick up her three folders of stories and
>start leafing through them. Good.
>
>Chapter 7: Endless Summer
>
>Things progressed quickly. I'm sure she felt that she was
>constantly being bombarded with new things that stretched
>her in ways, and places, that she never expected. But I had
>to hurry her a bit. I had a plan with a deadline, and the
>most delicate part of it required a stretch of downtime on
>her part, and I couldn't rush that or control how long it
>might be.
>
>She was an apt student, I'll give her that. We went from
>handjobs after the Opera, to fellatio after a jazz
>festival, to 69 after a day at the beach. Each new
>technique was still being justified under the heading of
>"avoiding intercourse." Each date involved a complete
>review of all the previously-learned skills, with
>refinements, coaching, and extensions. So it came about
>that, on a weekend as July turned into August, after "As
>You Like It," we were in my bed, spooned, me buried to the
>hilt in her rectum. And yes, anal was pushing the "avoiding
>intercourse" justification as far as it could be pushed.
>
>She had waddled around all week with a butt plug in one
>end, and a pained expression on the other. The build-up had
>begun in the middle of July, when I started playing with
>her asshole, running a finger around the rim, then into it,
>then two fingers. When she got beyond the revulsion, the
>squeamishness, when she admitted that she liked it, a
>little, then a lot, I took her along slowly, to wind up
>where we were now. The butt plug lay glistening on the side
>table next to the bed. I was pleased with her: she had come
>without any clitoral stimulation after the foreplay. She
>had fully learned "relaxed going in, grip coming out." I
>waited for the sweat to dry.
>
>"Allison, baby."
>
>"Mmmm, so full."
>
>"Allison, honey, it's time."
>
>"Nnnnn, a little longer?"
>
>"No honey, off you go to bed," and I pulled out, gently,
>got a hot washcloth, and cleaned us both up.
>
>She rolled over in my arms for a last kiss. "Jack, I keep
>saying this, but I never knew, so much pleasure.... I can't
>wait to see the lesson for next week!" And she gathered up
>her robe and made her way with careful steps to the door.
>She'd be a little sore for a few days, in spite of the
>preparation.
>
>And she'd be surprised at next week's lesson.
>
>Monday came and went with making a living. I shut down at
>five and found her on the back porch, wearing a little
>halter number, and handed her her drink. She had developed
>a taste for Scotch-and-soda.
>
>She sat in my lap, a big smile on her face, careless of the
>amount of thigh she showed. Her kiss tasted of Scotch-and-
>soda. She put her arms around my neck and asked, "What's
>the new 'skill' for this week, teach?"
>
>"Nothing." She sat up, her face blank. "You're done. You
>passed. You've mastered the 'essential skills.' You can go
>to Central High in the fall if you want, and date, if you
>want. There's one more thing you could learn, but I can't
>teach it to you."
>
>A little chuckle from her. "I'd sort of forgotten about
>Central. And high school boys. Why would I want to date one
>of those?" Another kiss. She used the same disparaging tone
>I had used on the words "boys" and "those." The kiss
>lingered.
>
>After a long while she came up for air and looked up. "What
>about the 'one more thing,' and why can't you teach it to
>me?"
>
>Here we go, I thought. Show time. Everything on one throw
>of the dice.
>
>"You remember when we talked about relationships?
>Permissions and assumptions? Changing relationships?
>Flexibility in defining what's permitted?" A nod. "The
>stepfather-stepdaughter relationship isn't really well
>defined, but whatever it is, you and I have been pushing
>the envelope of what society permits, really hard. The 'one
>more thing' would be the skills of actual intercourse, and
>that, baby, is /not/ permitted to us in this relationship."
>
>I shut up. Now I'd learn whether the seed I'd planted a
>month earlier would sprout.
>
>Her hand crept under her skirt. Having spent two months
>playing with herself in front of me, she no longer had any
>shame on that score. That was unfortunate, but it was the
>price that had to be paid. Perhaps I could fix that over
>time. "And actual screwing, it's even better yet?" I
>nodded. "I can't imagine anyone I want to give my virginity
>to more.... But we can't?" I shook my head, not saying
>anything. "If it's better than what we've done, God, just
>the idea. I mean, I've been reading all those naughty
>stories all summer, but it's just words. But if I can't do
>it with you, Jack...."
>
>The silence stretched on. Had I been too subtle? I had to
>keep my peace though, because she had to think that this
>was her idea.
>
>"Waaait." She drew out the word. "You said 'in this
>relationship.' Do /we/ get to change the type of
>relationship we're in?"
>
>I barely resisted the impulse to pump my fist in the air in
>victory. "Well, doll, I haven't really thought about it."
>Like hell, I hadn't. "I mean, parent-child is forever, but
>like I said, the stepparent role sort of loosely defined,
>and it's by ceremony, not by blood. Are you thinking...."
>
>"Well, if we can't 'do it' as stepfather-stepdaughter, and
>God, do I want to 'do it' with you, then maybe we should
>choose another relationship."
>
>My little seed had become a beautiful little sprout.
>
>"Honey, my legs are going to sleep with you sitting on me
>like that." She dismounted, still deep in thought. Now for
>the next step. "It's an interesting idea." I made a show of
>giving it some consideration. "Look, if you're thinking
>about changing the type of relationship we have, we need to
>go at this carefully. I think both of us want something
>more permanent than 'boyfriend-girlfriend,' and I don't
>want to marry again: Jane was my first and last wife." I
>stopped, and let the silence stretch out. "You remember the
>'What's the point?' discussion?" A nod. "Any thoughts on
>what kind of relationship you want? Do your folders of
>stories tell you anything?"
>
>"Yes, daddy." She blushed, "I..."
>
>"Wait." I stopped her. "Here's what I want you to do. Think
>it through. You're going to be making a decision that will
>affect your happiness for a long time to come. When you're
>ready, when you're sure, write me a love letter. In the
>letter, seduce me into the relationship you've chosen. Sell
>it to me. Make me want it, too. Anticipate my doubts and
>objections, and overcome them. Draw me a picture of how
>we'd live. Writing the letter should make you want to play
>with yourself. When I read it, I should have the same
>reaction. Understand?"
>
>"Hmm, interesting. Yes. When do you want to see the
>letter?"
>
>"When you're really ready, and really sure." And that
>closed the discussion. We finished our drinks and went in
>to start dinner.
>
>Two weeks passed. I didn't touch her, not once. I told her
>she no longer needed to play with herself, certainly not in
>front of me. After all, all those things had been
>"training," and the course was over. I was her stepfather.
>I was not her lover, never had been. Yeah, right. Nothing
>was said about the letter. But I could see that she was
>spending a lot of time in her room, on her computer at all
>hours, and no, she wasn't on the Internet. The way her
>wastebasket was filling up, she was going through a lot of
>drafts of something.
>
>No, I didn't dig through her trash. I didn't think I needed
>to, because I knew what stories wound up in her "Oh, wow!"
>folder.
>
>Chapter 8: Billet Doux
>
>Dearest Jack, my only love,
>
>You have given me so much pleasure this summer, without
>demanding anything in return. I'm sure it's getting old to
>hear it, but I never knew my body could give me such
>pleasure. The 'good Sisters' can go to Hell. I hope my body
>has given you a little pleasure, too? All this time you
>thought you were going to turn me over to a bunch of pimply
>high school boys to play with.
>
>You didn't touch me these last two weeks. I've been
>climbing the curtains with need, but it proved to me that
>you really thought of all that stuff we did as 'training,'
>not a chance to grope your stepdaughter. Thank you, and I'm
>ashamed that I ever doubted.
>
>You asked me, what relationship would I pick? I've watched
>you work, and you taught me to think about 'requirements.'
>What a dusty-sounding word for something so juicy.
>Requirements: I want to please you, give you pleasure the
>way you have given me pleasure. All day, every day, any
>way, without limits. I want you to take without waiting for
>me to give. But what relationships are without limits? Even
>a mistress can say 'no,' and how can 'no' give pleasure?
>And what relationship would accommodate my desperate desire
>to please?
>
>You told me to go through my folder of stories. I didn't
>really need to, because weeks ago I knew what fired my
>rocket. It was the stories of submission, of dominance, of
>helpless slave girls weeping and coming as they served the
>lusts of cruel and demanding masters in some jungle or on
>some faraway planet. The words I've written look so corny
>on the page. Dammit, they are corny. But I look at the
>words and say, that's what I want. Because those girls give
>pleasure, no, it is demanded of them, torn from them,
>without limit, and 'no' is gone from their vocabulary.
>
>You will say that slavery is dead in modern America. But
>we're defining our own relationship, and we can use slavery
>as a metaphor, a starting place, can't we? There's no
>property ownership of people, any more, but in terms of
>permissions and assumptions, it's a relationship where
>everything is permitted to you, and I may assume nothing,
>call the relationship what you will. To borrow the phrase
>you used at the beginning of the summer, all my time,
>energy, and focus will go to serve your pleasure, and my
>discomfort means nothing. Any lapse from perfection would
>merit punishment, because any lapse from perfection would
>mean that I had failed to give you all the pleasure I could
>and should and must.
>
>You ask, how can such a relationship last? What's in it for
>little Allison? I'll tell you a story. Suppose that early
>in their relationship, sometime before the Chateau, O did
>something for Renee. The task itself held no pleasure for
>O. It was the fact that Renee got pleasure from her efforts
>that gave O the pleasure she needed to make the doing
>worthwhile. Pleasure by reflection. Take it another turn.
>Renee knew that O didn't enjoy doing the task. Knowing that
>O imposed upon herself, or accepted being imposed upon,
>increased Renee's pleasure, even if he took no direct
>pleasure in the gift itself. That's what we mean when we
>say "It's the thought that counts." But either way, O got
>her pleasure from Renee's pleasure. The more O suffered for
>him, the more Renee was pleased, and /therefore/ the more
>pleasure O got from pleasing him. And /therefore/ the more
>pleasure O got from suffering. That's what's in it for me:
>I will get pleasure from your pleasure, the way the moon
>gets its light from the sun. And when I must, I will feel
>pleasure from your punishments, because I will know that
>they are correcting me, preparing me to please you better.
>
>You want to know how we would live. And I say, any way that
>gives you pleasure. Chain me in a dungeon or let me run.
>Keep me naked or clothe me in silks. Beat me or stroke me
>with scented oils. Force me come for hours or deprive me
>for weeks. My last choice will be to do what you choose to
>do with me.
>
>You have but to claim me. Have I seduced you, have I sold
>it to you?
>
>Yours without hope, the free woman now known as
>
>Allison Kennedy.
>
>
>
>
>
>Chapter 9: September Song
>
>No, I didn't "claim" Allison on the spot, much as my dick
>argued for it. You can imagine that the letter made for
>interesting dinner conversation, which I will spare you,
>except the following:
>
>"Allison, you're proposing a significant change in our
>relationship." A nod, and a shrug from her, as if to say,
>'well, duh'? "Back to what you know about relationships.
>Generally, when there's a significant change in a
>significant relationship, there's a more-or-less public
>ceremony to mark the fact. Whether you're talking about
>signing a contract, or formalizing a marriage, there's a
>ceremony. That means that there are witnesses who can vouch
>for the fact of the relationship. It makes it harder for
>either party to back out of the new relationship, or claim
>that it's something that it isn't. And it makes a kind of
>punctuation mark in time, making it clear that 'before now'
>was the old relationship, and 'after now' is something new,
>with no going back."
>
>"Well," she said with light sarcasm, "I'll pop over to the
>archdiocese and get a copy of their enslavement ceremony."
>
>"Look, you write well. Write your own ceremony. I don't
>doubt that the Internet would yield endless examples with a
>search for 'enslavement ceremony,' but you can get your
>inspiration where you like. Couples write their own wedding
>ceremonies, why not write your own ceremony of claiming?"
>
>"I guess I don't have any pressing engagements just now. If
>I'm going to be a slave girl, I don't need to worry about
>summer reading lists for either Central High OR Saint
>Virginia." She didn't need to know that I had plans afoot
>on the subject of schooling.
>
>"Good. A little advice: keep it short. You can take a lot
>of the text from your love letter. Make it clear what
>you're doing, why you're doing it, what you expect of the
>new relationship. You can use a bit of theater: you don't
>have to tell your audience something if you can make it
>clear by showing them."
>
>She disappeared into her room, and again the wastebasket
>began to overflow. Yet in a few days, she was satisfied. I
>was delighted with the result. Invitations went out to a
>select few of our more open-minded friends, and the
>remaining preparations were indistinguishable from any
>small garden wedding.
>
>I didn't touch her, not even once. But I did send her to
>her OB/GYN to get on The Pill.
>
>The great day came, and the well-stocked caterer's tent
>went up in the garden, near what they assumed to be some
>sort of arbor or trellis. Chairs were set out. The
>caterer's people were dismissed.
>
>I found Allison in her bedroom, looking over the garden,
>dreamy-eyed.
>
>"Are you sure about this, baby?"
>
>She came into my arms, urgent, squirming. "God yes. I'm
>scared as hell. I've got butterflies the size of bombers in
>my stomach, And I'm running like a faucet 'down there.' I'm
>glad you made me keep the ceremony short."
>
>I laughed, and kissed the top of her forehead. "Enjoy your
>last hour as a free woman. The guests are starting to
>arrive."
>
>I did the meet-and-greet thing, and Allison came out to
>circulate with the guests. I was in my suit, and she was
>wearing a white, lacy, calf-length, loose summer dress that
>she had had made for the ceremony. Finally we had a quorum,
>the guests sat on the chairs gathered at one corner of the
>garden, and Allison and I took our places in front of the
>small group. She stood at my side, we faced the group, I
>put my arm around her shoulder, and she put her arms around
>my waist and snuggled in.
>
>Allison had taken my advice, and copied liberally from her
>love letter, so much of what follows will be familiar
>language to the reader. I started in, from the script that
>she had written.
>
>"Welcome, friends, to our home and to this ceremony. What
>you're about to be witnesses to will mark a change in the
>relationship between Allison and myself. I'm confident in
>saying that you are unlikely ever to see another ceremony
>like it. There will be elements of the ceremony that are
>likely to profoundly disturb some people. Each of you has
>been invited because of your long friendship with Allison
>or myself, and because we believe you to be sufficiently
>open-minded to accept what you're about to see. If you even
>suspect that we might have been wrong, we suggest that you
>excuse yourself at this time." I paused. Nobody moved,
>beyond the odd raised eyebrow.
>
>Allison took over. "I wrote this ceremony. Myself. Every
>word of it. With two exceptions, which Jack will explain
>when we come to them, I completely scripted each event in
>the ceremony. Not to put too fine a point on it: if the
>question occurs to you, I want this to happen the way it is
>going to happen." Several guests traded glances.
>
>I went on. "I'm glad that's out of the way. Let's begin."
>
>I disengaged from Allison, and we turned to face each
>other. The audience was to one side of us, and could see
>both of our faces in profile. We began the ceremony,
>looking into each other's eyes.
>
>"What is your name?"
>
>"Allison Kennedy."
>
>"Why are you here?"
>
>"To give myself to you, voluntarily, freely, completely,
>and irrevocably."
>
>Not too bad so far, rather vanilla stuff.
>
>"What relationship do you seek?"
>
>"A relationship where everything is permitted to you. I
>forbid nothing, I may forbid nothing. I demand nothing,
>expect nothing. I accept everything in advance, without
>knowing what you will demand. I want you to take without
>waiting for me to give."
>
>I stole a glance at the audience. The eyebrows were
>starting to go up again. Back to Allison.
>
>"What do you call this relationship?"
>
>"Call the relationship what you will: if slavery is dead
>today, let me use it as a metaphor. All my time, energy,
>and focus will go to serve your pleasure, my discomfort
>means nothing. I want to please you, give you pleasure the
>way you have given me pleasure, give without taking. All
>day, every day, any way, without limits."
>
>"What if you fail to please to your utmost?"
>
>"I would beg you to punish me for failing to fulfill my
>promise to you, and correct me so that I did not fail
>again."
>
>"Why do you want this relationship?"
>
>"I will get pleasure from pleasing you, the way the moon
>gets its light from the sun."
>
>"What do you offer?"
>
>"Absolute and instant obedience. I won't negotiate, won't
>consider, won't accept, won't even wait to understand. Just
>do, instantly, like a reflex."
>
>"How will you be called?"
>
>"I will have no name, unless you wish to give me one."
>
>"How will you be clothed?"
>
>"My clothing has been for concealment. How can concealment
>give you pleasure? I will be clothed as you wish, even if
>not at all."
>
>"How will you be fed?"
>
>"By your hand, and by your wishes, even if not at all."
>
>"What are your rights? What limits do you place upon the
>relationship?"
>
>"I want no rights, because they imply choice, the option to
>refuse. I place no limits. How can refusal or limits
>increase your pleasure?"
>
>"Very well." I put my hands on her shoulders. "I accept
>you." I pushed down gently, and she went to her knees. I
>thought absently that there would be grass stains on her
>dress. I twisted her hair into a rope, gripped it in my
>fist, and faced the audience. I raised my voice, a little,
>because this was the punctuation mark. "I claim this woman
>as my property, to do with as I see fit."
>
>A murmur through the audience. Rub their faces in it. I
>turned back to her and looked down. Time to show the
>"after."
>
>Still with my hand gripping her hair: "What are you?"
>
>"If it pleases you, sir, let me be your slave."
>
>"Why do you exist?"
>
>"To give you pleasure."
>
>"And if you cease to give pleasure?"
>
>"If it pleases you, sir, I would cease to exist."
>
>"Do you have the right to say 'no'?"
>
>"I'm sorry sir, I don't know that word."
>
>"What is your name?"
>
>"You have not chosen to give me a name."
>
>I turned again to the audience, and dropped my hand from
>her hair. "This is the first of two moments in the ceremony
>that Allison did not script. She does not know the name I
>will choose for her to wear in her new life." I walked
>around her, pretending to consider.
>
>I had a wicked thought. "You certainly are long and
>slender. Perhaps I will call you 'Sprout.' She looked up
>at me with the look that said, "That has gone far enough."
>
>"Yes, I will call you 'Sprout.'" She looked at me with
>horror. I could tell that she wanted to shake her head, but
>caught herself in time. Good girl.
>
>"What is your name?"
>
>A tear began to run down the side of her nose. "'Sprout,'
>sir, if it pleases you."
>
>"It pleases me. Stand up, Sprout."
>
>She stood, still facing me. Her eyes were wide, her head
>making the tiniest of 'no' motions, not of negation, but of
>disbelief that I would do this to her. I looked at her. "On
>the other hand, you're smarter than the average vegetable,
>a little. Maybe even as smart as the average alley cat." I
>snapped my fingers. "That's it! I will call you 'Allie.'"
>
>She had hated that nickname, never permitted it, corrected
>everyone who used it. But it was a promotion from 'Sprout.'
>
>"Thank you, sir."
>
>"What is your name?"
>
>"'Allie,' sir, if it pleases you."
>
>"It pleases me."
>
>A pause. I nodded to her. She wiped the tear from her
>cheek, and turned to the audience for a moment, and said
>"We are beginning the last part of the ceremony. I beg you
>again to remember that the free woman I used to be wrote
>this as you will see it, and that she wanted this to
>happen." She turned back to me, and nodded. She knew what
>was coming. After all, she'd written the script.
>
>I said, "Are you a free woman?"
>
>"I am a slave."
>
>She might have said "no," but her new identity did not
>permit it.
>
>"Is a slave allowed to dress as a free women?"
>
>"Only with her owner's permission."
>
>"Do you have that permission?"
>
>"My owner has not given me that permission."
>
>"What is the punishment for a slave who dresses as a free
>woman without permission?"
>
>"Whatever her owner chooses."
>
>"Very well. Remove the offending garment." Murmurs from the
>audience. I thought they were taking this all rather well.
>
>She reached to the nape of her neck where there was a
>single drawstring, tied in a simple bow knot. She tugged on
>the knot, and a second later she was gloriously, proudly,
>royally, totally naked. A white Aida. The dress made a
>white puddle about her feet.
>
>"You will be caned for forgetting your place, for
>attempting to disguise yourself as a free woman, and for
>concealing the body whose appearance gives me pleasure." I
>led her to the trellis/arbor construction a couple of steps
>away. It was built far more solidly than would be needed to
>hold up a rose bush. Soon her hands were cuffed, separated,
>and raised above her head. She was facing away from the
>audience.
>
>I faced the guests again. "This element of the ceremony is
>to accomplish three things. First, to prove to Allie beyond
>doubt that I will punish her when I wish. Second, for her
>to prove to me that she will accept such treatment if I
>choose to deliver it, with or without justification. Third,
>to prove to you that she voluntarily accepts this behavior
>as part of our new relationship. Allison scripted this
>scene, excepting only the number of stripes Allie is to
>receive. To tell you the truth, I don't know how many it
>will be, myself."
>
>I put in Allie's mouth a folded washcloth, not as a gag,
>but to protect her teeth and tongue when she bit down from
>the pain. I picked up a cane that had been hanging on the
>trellis. Her eyes were closed. I pulled back the cane and
>struck at her ass, very hard.
>
>She stiffened, rose on her toes, and moaned into the
>washcloth.
>
>At the next strike, on the back of her thighs, she raised
>one leg, as though she were trying to mount a bicycle.
>
>I was looking for something, and found it on the fifth
>strike. The last three had been across her back. She had
>finally started crying, and her head hung down between her
>stretched arms. The sound coming through the washcloth was
>a continuous keening, like very distant singing. I was
>surprised to find that I was crying, too. I dropped the
>cane.
>
>I whispered in her ear, "That's all, Allie. It's over. You
>did fine. Rest for a minute and I'll be back."
>
>I left her hanging there and went back to the guests,
>wiping my eyes. "That concludes the ceremony of the
>claiming of Allie, the woman you knew as Allison Kennedy. I
>would like to emphasize a few points. First, when Allison
>became Allie, you heard her give up the right to say 'no',
>which includes the right to refuse access to her body.
>However, that right was transferred to her new owner. I
>will not be pleased if anyone attempts to use my property
>without my permission. I trust that I make myself clear?" I
>made eye contact with each guest. There weren't all that
>many of them. "Second, some day you may meet Allie on the
>street. It is likely that she will be disguised as a free
>woman. I would appreciate it if you were discreet. I don't
>expect Allie's new life to remain fully secret for long,
>but I expect that you will use judgment in whom you tell,
>and how, and how you speak to her when you meet.
>
>"Finally, you have seen about all of Allie there is to see.
>But I would be a poor host if I continued to dangle such a
>morsel naked in front of you, so she will be clothed, after
>a fashion, during the reception. Refreshments will be
>available in the tent in twenty minutes or so. Please enjoy
>the gardens for a few moments and then join us."
>
>I bent down to pick up a small piece of white cloth that
>had been lying on the ground nearby. It was a little
>stained from lying there, not entirely clean any more. I
>went back to Allie. I took the washrag from her mouth, gave
>her a drink of water, kissed away her tears, disconnected
>her cuffs from the arbor, and we put our arms around each
>other. "You OK?" I felt her nod her head beneath my chin.
>"Did it come out the way you wanted?"
>
>"Yes. Yes. But oh, GOD, that thing hurts. Please make sure
>I never deserve the cane?" She shuddered in my arms.
>
>It was time for one last bit of establishing the new
>relationship, at least for the moment. Without speaking, I
>gave her the cloth I was holding. She swabbed her face and
>blew her nose on it. She looked around quickly, and wiped
>the soaked insides of her thighs, too. When she was done,
>she handed it to me. I shook it out into a little tunic-
>like dress, handed it back, and told her to put it on and
>go serve my guests their refreshments. All she could say,
>with wide eyes and a certain air of wonder, was "Oh, you
>meanie."
>
>After the last guest had gone, I took the cuffs off of
>Allie's wrists and sent her in to bathe, then called the
>waiting caterer in through the gate to come get their
>equipment. When they'd finally gone, I went up to the
>master bedroom and found Allie kneeling at the side of the
>bed. The welts were beginning to turn purple. I didn't know
>how long she'd been waiting. It occurred to me that she had
>probably spent hours practicing that position, alone in her
>room.
>
>I ignored her while I changed out of my suit into a robe,
>and splashed my face. Then I came over and sat on the edge
>of the bed, took her face between my hands, and kissed her.
>"OK, slave, what's going on in your head? Just let it
>flow."
>
>"I've been kneeling like this forever. My back and ass
>sting like fury. When you came into the room now I wanted
>to stand up, throw you on your back on the bed, and rape
>you. But somewhere deep down where I hadn't realized it
>before, I knew that 'I want,' is gone, gone, gone. They
>told me you were crying when you caned me. I'm making a wet
>spot on your carpet."
>
>I smiled into her eyes. "Come to bed, Allie. It's time." I
>guided her up onto her feet, re-cuffed her hands behind her
>back, and purely for theatrics, chained her ankle to the
>bedpost. It's not as though she was wanting to escape. But
>if she wanted the "slave girl" shtick, who was I to spoil
>it for her by denying her the trimmings that came with it?
>I ran her quickly through her repertoire, as best she could
>with her hands cuffed, skipping the anal. Then I got on my
>back and had her straddle and mount me. She took two or
>three shallow strokes up against her maidenhead, set her
>face, and plunged downward. "Eeeeeeuuugh" was all she could
>manage through gritted teeth, and she froze in position for
>a minute or two. I rested my thumb on her clit, and after a
>while she began a small, experimental movement of her hips.
>In a moment a tiny smile came to her face, and she began to
>"grip on the upstroke, loose on the downstroke." It was
>delightful, and neither one of us could hold out for long.
>When she came, she convulsed once, twice, and pitched
>forward in a dead faint. I narrowly avoided getting my nose
>broken by her descending forehead. Served me right.
>
>I disconnected her cuffs, leaving the chain on her ankle. I
>spread her out on a little mat at the foot of the bed,
>covered her with a thin blanket, cleaned myself of the
>fluids of her inaugural fuck, and went to bed.
>
>Chapter 10: The First Day of the Rest of Your Life
>
>The next morning, a Sunday, I awoke before the alarm, and
>got to my feet. Allie was still zonked. Her thighs were
>encrusted and bloody. She was beautiful. I prodded her
>belly with my toe, not gently, and was rewarded with an
>"Oof."
>
>"Up, lazy wench. This is the first day of the rest of your
>life."
>
>She groaned, and then, with surprising grace, flowed into a
>kneeling position. I say surprising, given how stiff and
>sore she must have been. "How may I serve you, master?"
>
>I reached around and took the chain off of her ankle, and
>the cuffs from her wrists. "Go make my coffee, shower, put
>on your robe, and get back here. You have twenty-five
>minutes." I went to take my own shower.
>
>She made it in time, just, put the coffee on my desk, and
>knelt at my feet. It was clear that she wasn't eager to
>sit, just yet.
>
>"OK, it's time to establish the expectations under which
>you'll live in your new role. Here are two notebooks, and a
>pen. On the cover of the first, write 'Policies and
>Assignments.' I'm about to give you a list of policies,
>which are long-term rules you must obey any time a given
>policy applies. Assignments are one-time things I want you
>to do, like pick up a quart of milk on the way home, or
>whatever. Policies go in the front of that notebook,
>assignments in the back."
>
>"On cover of the second, write 'Discipline.' I expect you
>to put an entry in that notebook any time you feel that you
>have done less than demanded, less than your best, less
>than perfection. Call my attention to it. I will put in the
>correction I consider appropriate, and will check it off
>when it has been executed, which may be some time later. At
>the top of the first page of each notebook, write, in large
>letters, 'ABSOLUTE OBEDIENCE.' You will keep a copy of your
>love letter attached to the inside front cover of the
>'policies' notebook. You are to keep both of these
>notebooks available to me. As a practical matter, that
>means that when we're in the house, just don't lose track
>of where they are. When we leave the house, you must have
>them in your hand, or in your bag."
>
>"Now, policies. When you are in the master bedroom suite,
>you will not speak without permission. Anywhere else, I
>love the sound of your voice, and I want to hear you. You
>are smart, and witty, and I want you to talk to me,
>whenever you wish. But in this suite, no. How do you get
>permission? If I ask you a question that you can't answer
>by pointing, or nodding, or raising so-many fingers, you
>automatically have permission to speak. Otherwise, take a
>position where I can see you, and raise your hand, just
>like in grade school. If I give you permission, you may
>speak. Write that down. Not verbatim, but make notes of the
>important points." She wrote.
>
>"I do not want to be called 'master,' or 'sir,' or any
>other honorific. Let your actions show your respect. If you
>find it necessary to use a noun of direct address, you may
>call me 'Mr. Kennedy.'" She wrote.
>
>"Some owners want a slave that does exactly what she's
>told, when she's told, never anticipates an order, and no
>more. I own you in part because of your mind. Be inventive.
>Anticipate my desires. Look for ways to please me that I
>don't expect. Surprise and delight me. Astonish me! Of
>course, if you get it wrong, it will go badly for you."
>
>"You will not normally be naked during the day. I want you
>to put together a wardrobe of clothing that you will wear
>around the house. I'm thinking in terms of the degree of
>coverage of a tennis dress, or a swimsuit coverup, or an
>ice skater's costume, or the kind of thing a desperately
>horny girl would wear clubbing. Use your imagination. It
>should be clothing you'd be mortified to be seen wearing in
>public. We may have guests here from time to time, some of
>whom will not know of our relationship, and I won't give
>you the opportunity to dress any differently for them from
>the way you do for me. Maintaining anything like decency
>should be a constant struggle, and a losing battle. I want
>you clothed, but only just, not because I expect to become
>bored with your enchanting naked figure, but because I want
>to have the ability to deny you clothing as punishment, or
>for my amusement. I don't want you to get used to being
>naked. There is nothing less interesting than a slut. This
>is implies an assignment." She flipped to the back of the
>notebook and looked up. "Go shopping for day clothes."
>
>"Further on clothing." She flipped to the front of the
>notebook. "You will wear nothing that blocks my access to
>your cunt or ass at any time, in public or in private. No
>panties, no pants, no pantyhose. Now that I've broken you
>in, use a tampon during your period."
>
>"Policy: you will be totally hairless below the neck.
>Assignment: shave, then acquire and use a home electrical
>depilatory kit."
>
>"Your lips will be slack and your mouth open at all times."
>
>"You will keep your asshole greased for my use at all
>times."
>
>I waited while she caught up.
>
>"I will demand that you take care of yourself, both
>physically and mentally. Assignment: enroll in a health
>club and sign up for any exercise regimen that keeps you
>limber and fit. I don't care if it's yoga or kickboxing or
>anything else. Work up a sweat five days a week."
>
>"In terms of keeping yourself fit mentally, I've had some
>discussions with Chancellor Reed of the State University
>here in town. He's reviewed your record from Saint Virginia
>along with your SATs, and sees no reason why you shouldn't
>be able to enter State as a freshman immediately. You'll..."
>
>"Jack! State! Omigawd, State!"
>
>"Allie. What have you just done? Look at the policies."
>
>Her mouth snapped shut, and she scanned down the policies.
>She had spoken out of turn, and addressed me incorrectly.
>Another scan through the policies. I had asked her a
>question she couldn't answer by pointing, so she
>automatically had permission to speak. "I spoke without
>permission in the master suite. I didn't call you 'Mr.
>Kennedy.' I'm sorry, Mr. Kennedy."
>
>"You will be. Put it in your Discipline Book. I'm not going
>to beat you for this--too many beatings shows a lack of
>inventiveness on the part of the owner. Besides, it was
>your mouth that sinned, not your back or your ass. For
>'punishment,' put 'four hours with gag.'" She looked up at
>me, and swallowed. "Write it. And there's no time like the
>present." I reached into a desk drawer and pulled out a
>penis gag, one recently made to my own specifications, in
>that the depth of oral penetration could be easily
>adjusted. She still had some trouble with her gag reflex,
>and this was an opportunity. I guessed at the right depth,
>and strapped it home. "Awrk! Hngrrh!! Hngrrh!!!" Hmm, back
>off a quarter of an inch? Ah, that will do. She was far
>from comfortable, gagging every few seconds, her chin
>pointed upward, swallowing constantly to fight the reflex,
>but that was the idea. "Note the start time in your
>Discipline Book." She did, with difficulty. "And when you
>drool, clean it up. Come back to me when the time is up and
>I'll remove the gag."
>
>"As I was saying about State. You'll need to take come
>catch-up courses to make up for the year you will miss at
>Saint Virginia, but the Advanced Placement courses you took
>will partially offset that. And put in an assignment:
>Complete application paperwork for State. That will be all
>for now. You're dismissed."
>
>She stood up, wiped the drool that was already forming on
>her lower lip, and came around my desk and kissed me.
>That's hard to do with your face is as full of machinery as
>hers was, but she managed somehow. Then she followed her
>nipples out of the room, trailing behind her the occasional
>sound of choking.
>
>Chapter 11: Thanks for the Memories
>
>It was six months later, that our little household changed
>again. Allie came into the study, and I saw that today was
>"latex maid day." It wasn't my fetish, but she always
>seemed extra juicy after a "latex day," so I didn't mind.
>The chain hobble between her ankles didn't slow her down
>all that much, except on the stairs. And the impressively-
>sized ballgag hanging loosely around her neck was like a
>bright red pendant on a necklace. The woman dressed kinkier
>every day. Yesterday had been "Catholic schoolgirl day,"
>though I doubt the good Sisters would have approved Allie's
>alterations to their uniform.
>
>She raised her hand. A handcuff was closed around her
>wrist, the other cuff dangling and open, ready.
>
>"Yes?"
>
>"Mr. Kennedy, your birthday is coming up in a couple of
>months, and I was hoping to do something special to
>surprise you. But...it will take money."
>
>"How much?"
>
>She named a figure, and I raised an eyebrow. "That's some
>surprise." I thought for a moment. Business had been good,
>recently, and I had a fair amount of money laid away. What
>the hell, it's only money. "Very well, go ahead."
>
>"Thank you, Mr. Kennedy. You won't be disappointed." She
>knew what would happen if I were.
>
>I wrote out the check, blank as to payee (wouldn't be much
>of a surprise otherwise, would it?) and forgot about it. In
>the spirit of the thing, I was careful not to look for the
>cancelled check after it cleared.
>
>A couple of months later, on the day before my birthday,
>and right at the end of Allie's freshman year, I received a
>thin envelope in the mail, with a return address of the
>Psych department at the University she was attending. Allie
>was downstairs, somewhere. Upon opening it, I found the
>following letter, on University letterhead:
>
> * * *
>
>Dear Mr. Kennedy,
>
>Allow me to introduce myself. I am Dr. ____, Professor of
>Psychology, in the Department of Psychology and Psychiatry
>at State University. I am writing you at the request of
>Miss Allie Kennedy.
>
>My particular research interest is the human memory, and
>specifically how it is distorted. I have almost
>accidentally become an authority on the phenomenon of
>'false memory,' by which people are induced to 'remember,'
>quite vividly, things that simply never happened. There
>have been multiple court cases recently in which this has
>been an important element. People have fully and honestly
>confessed to crimes they couldn't possibly have committed,
>truly believing themselves guilty. Young women have, in the
>belief that they are telling the truth, accused their
>fathers of rape, of fathering children upon them, young
>women who passed lie detector tests to support the
>accusation--young women whom subsequent medical examination
>shows still to be virgins. There are other cases that I
>won't bore you with.
>
>Suffice it that the phenomenon of 'false memory' is now
>tolerably well understood, to the point of having made the
>pages of 'Scientific American.'
>
>Now to the present.
>
>Miss Kennedy has spoken to me at length about your
>relationship with her. It is not my place to judge either
>of you. I will only note that you have a remarkable woman
>here, and I hope you deserve her. She came to me a couple
>of months ago with an extraordinary request: she wanted me
>to create in her a false memory. After considerable soul-
>searching, and after cross-examining her at length to
>ensure that this is what she really wanted, I agreed to do
>so, and have done so.
>
>(I worked it out and thought, yeah, and the size of my
>check didn't hurt, either.)
>
>I have videotapes of all sessions between us under lock and
>key, to protect all the parties involved.
>
>You will find in Attachment A a manuscript in Miss
>Kennedy's hand giving you her rationale for this action.
>
>Attachment B is a manuscript, also in Miss Kennedy's hand,
>of the 'memory' she asked me to create, which I have done.
>You should be aware that one of the characteristics of
>'false memory' is that, once the core images have been
>introduced, the subject often unconsciously elaborates
>them, fills them in, with details that will be every bit as
>vivid as the core images, and which they will believe to be
>true with absolute certainty.
>
>At her request, Miss Kennedy currently has no memory of
>having visited me, nor is she aware of the 'memory' which
>lies latent in her mind. Attachment C contains the trigger
>phrase that will bring the latent 'memory' forth.
>Attachment C also contains a trigger phrase that will
>enable her to remember that 'memory' is false, and how it
>came to be in her mind. The second trigger phrase exists in
>case you decide that, to speak bluntly, the whole thing was
>a mistake. Please understand that each trigger phrase can
>be used only once. This is because the transition will be
>almost violent, at the psychological level, and I felt I
>needed to prevent the psychological damage that multiple
>transitions could cause to her mind, rather as repeated
>concussions do to the brain.
>
>Finally, in the event of your death, she will recall
>visiting me, and will understand that the memory, if
>activated, is false. This is a precaution to avoid
>potential emotional, or even legal, problems that are
>unforeseeable at this time, but which would otherwise be
>very difficult to reverse if no one knew to notify me to
>intervene.
>
>I hope that you and Miss Kennedy find pleasure in what she
>has asked me to do. Remember that it can be undone.
>
>Sincerely yours,
>
>Dr. ______
>
> * * *
>
>I turned the page, and was confronted with a page of
>Allie's handwriting on lined legal paper. At the top was
>overtyped "Attachment A. Page 1 of 1." In the lower corner,
>I could make out what must be Dr. ____'s initials. Careful
>fellow.
>
> * * *
>
>Dear Mr. Kennedy, my lord and my love,
>
>These pages I write are the only physical existence of my
>gift to you. Please bear with me while I justify my
>actions.
>
>You have made for me a comfortable and protecting home, for
>which I love you. You are a demanding owner, for which I am
>grateful.
>
>You know I want only to please you. You know that I try to
>meet your demands before you know that you will make them.
>I work on my skills to be good for you.
>
>I know of only one thing I have left to offer for your
>greater pleasure, but it's something you've never wanted,
>and that is my pain. I could do more, give more, but the
>things I could do and give would not bring you pleasure
>today, because you'd have to hurt me to get them, and you
>have been too decent an owner to demand that, though I'd
>give my pain freely and gladly for your pleasure.
>
>Do you remember what I put in my love letter not so long
>ago? "The more that O suffered for him, the more Renee was
>pleased, and /therefore/ the more pleasure O got from
>pleasing him."
>
>You could wring more pleasure from me, more pleasure for
>both of us, but only if hurting me would please you.
>
>My gift, if you will have it, is to make it possible for me
>to 'remember' that I have gotten pleasure from being hurt,
>not only indirectly by pleasing you, but also somehow
>directly, in the pain itself. I will be able to 'remember'
>that you have gotten pleasure from my pain, AND SO HAVE I.
>I want to give you greater pleasure by making it easier for
>you to hurt me, to demand my pain, because you will know
>that I now believe myself capable of finding, and will
>expect to find, pleasure in the pain.
>
>You hold the keys in your hands. Please understand that, at
>the time you read this letter, I will have no remembrance
>of having written it.
>
>All my obedience, devotion, and love,
>
>Allie
>
> * * *
>
>My first reaction was, "Oh, really!", which is what I say
>when I've got nothing to say. The woman had, indeed,
>astonished me. I turned to the brief "Attachment B" and
>read carefully the things she'd asked to "remember," things
>that never happened. She wanted to believe that, when I
>spanked her that first time, she'd become very aroused, and
>tried to hump the wall while I was out of the room. To
>"remember" that, during one of her private masturbation
>sessions, she'd experimented with clothespins on her
>nipples and it got her off (her note said that she had
>tried clothespins, but they just hurt). To think that,
>while I was caning her at the ceremony, she had orgasmed
>from the pain in front of everyone. There was more, but
>that was the tone of all of it. The girl wanted to please
>me, and if it took her pain, she was ready to deliver it.
>
>I sat at my desk for a long time after I finished reading.
>The sunlight outside began to fade into dusk.
>
>It took a long time for me to put my finger on what was
>bothering me. There was an assumption here: Allie was
>assuming that if, under the influence of her false memory,
>she 'remembered' having gotten pleasure from pain, her
>belief that it had happened to her before would mean that
>she would in fact feel real masochistic pleasure when
>experiencing real pain, something that, as far as I knew,
>she never had done. She was betting that the expectation
>would cause the reality. That was an assumption, and a risk
>she was apparently willing to take.
>
>Did I want to take that risk with her? The problem was
>that, if I took her up on this offer, an offer that at this
>point she didn't even know she'd made, and I began hurting
>her, and it didn't work out, what then? Sure, I could back
>the worm out of her mind, it said here, but after doing so,
>she'd still remember that, at some time in the real world,
>I had actually been willing to hurt her for my pleasure,
>not for punishment. What would that do to our relationship?
>What would she think of me, then?
>
>I flipped back to her letter, and re-read "...though I'd give
>my pain freely and gladly for your pleasure."
>
>While I was reading, Allie came silently into the room,
>carrying my evening drink. She was wearing only a Very
>Short red tunic. It was not sheer, but had the perfect
>quality of translucence such that, if you'd looked at it as
>you walked past her on the street, you'd be fifty feet
>beyond her before your brain said, "Did I see what I think
>I saw?" She knelt gracefully in front of my desk, and
>reached up to put the drink on the desk's surface in front
>of me, meeting my eyes. She pulled the hem of the tunic
>down to cover her slit, and blushed.
>
>Without further thought, I turned to Attachment C. A day
>early, perhaps, but it was time to unwrap my birthday
>present.
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